My mind is often a jumbled mess of ideas going in every direction. My thoughts often come out in bits and pieces as I pluck individual parts from the air. This often leads to conflicting notions, and sometimes leaves other confused as to what I really think.

The last few days I've had ideas of D/s and slavery running in my head. Questions have arisen in my mind on the nature of the relationship, what it means to be a slave, what it means to be a Master. I don't mean just the physical, but the emotional rush, the spiritual realities, and how that ties to sexuality.

Being a Master is not something I would choose. The reality of it is there in my mind, and has been for as long as I can remember. Part of that is the idea that I am only myself as a Master. I am fully awake only when I am a Master. This is what leads me to my own conclusions on the differences between "practicing BDSM,""playing a scene," and "living a lifestyle."

So there is something in me that needs that bound slave at my feet. There is something in me that needs to strip her down to her emotional and spiritual core only to rebuild her into a new creation. I am the loving Master. Not the loving Dom, and not the Daddy Dom. In the end I am still Master, and she is still my bound property.

There is a fine line that I walk. Love, but still bound property. That is why I believe it comes to the mind and soul. Anyone can torture, but invading the mind is not only more powerful, but also more sexual. The ability to torture without pain. The ability to torture with pleasure. The ability to own another being's mind and soul.

That is true ownership. That is true power. That is pure sexuality. That is the core of a full and real D/s life.