Hello everyone!
I really thought this website would be a good way to start my journey and that my journal would be full of positive feedback that would help to enlighten you on my journey but Ive found it to be the complete opposite, which is a shame really as I was really looking forward to this.
I am in two minds at the moment, I did a lot of research into this lifestyle before I even began to socialize so I know the technical ins and outs so I didn't come into this with wool over my eyes. I know there is a dark side to this, but I also know there is a good side too. I know there has to be love and tender and emotions that make BDSM fun and enjoyable. Am I just missing the people who feel the same? Am I missing you??
My other side is maybe I did come into this with the wool over my eyes, maybe I did come here thinking I could find someone who would help me discover myself without spitting and pissing on me? - come on, that's just sick! ><
I am not looking to be used and abused, I am not looking to swallow your piss or be treat like a dog, I am looking for a sweet, kind and loving man (who isn't old enough to my grandad or father for that matter) who can show me the lifestyle, enlighten me to this alternative lifestyle but who will love, respect and care for me. Right now, I am really doubting I will find that here.
So, I have some good news, and I have some bad news.
I regret to inform you all, I am leaving Collarme, I am deleting my profile without a backward glance. The good new however, is I am not giving up on my journey though, I just wont be taking this route as it seems pointless to continue here.
I just want to say to all the kind and respectful people who did send me honest, guinine messages; thank you so much for your kindness and it is because of you I am not giving up on my journey. Lots of love to you.
But to the majority of people who sent me disgusting vulgar messages intending to upset and degrade me..... YOU NEED HELP! |