So discovered this journal thing. I'm not normally one for telling the world all the details of my life, only close friends normally and only if I know they are ok with me talking about it. I've seen other people do it including a woman who played with me before, who then conveniently decided to neglect me once she'd used me to make a dom she wanted jealous. I'm understandably annoyed. I wanted to belong to her so badly. I really felt comfortable with her. She was affectionate and passionate. She kissed me constantly though out our play sessions. I loved it when she pinned me down and just pushed her tongue into my mouth. I enjoyed the initial sense of violation it gave me, then the feeling of being wanted. I enjoyed being under her body unable to move yet safe. Though sometimes she would stop me from moving when I wanted to interlock my fingers in hers, which is something which bothered me a little. I'm naturally very affectionate (some have said too affectionate, then others tell my that's nonsense that affection is a good thing...till of course they decided that the man who isn't affectionate is better than me...something smacks of double standards). I think a friend of mine said it best, I want to be free to love in the way I want to love. I think she's got it spot on.

Anyway, I shall leave it at that, if you happened to feel like reading though all of that then I thank you for your patience and if you have any comments (preferably constructive) then don't hesitate.