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Things have been going great! Drs released me to live a "normal" life including play....Now it's time to begin the search for the one. Life is good! |
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Well, tomorrow I return to Penn State/Hershey for my 30 day follow-up with the Cardiologist. I feel great and am hoping for a good report. My G.P. is amazed by my progress so far. If if wasn't for the chest-cracking part, I'd be great. Shhhhhh...I've been driving and shouldn,t have been. Airbag deployment could be fatal. Going to have the talk with him about getting back to a normal (if there is such s thing) life. I'm hoping for a relatively happy new year. Anything can be an improvement over the past two. Looking forward to getting back into the lifestyle again..... |
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Well, I had the procedure and all I can say is "God bless the physicians and staff at Penn State/Milton Hershey Medical Center! I had the operation at 7:30 AM and woke up in the recovery room at 10:30 AM. The leaking valve didn't need replaced, when it was installed in '08 the tissue was in pretty bad shape and it didn't attach properly. It was from like 3-6 on a clock, the tissue had grow back and the Dr.sutured it closed, repaired the small leak on the Anterial side. After closing the heart a laser was used to burn a few lines on it to keep it from enlarging.
I feel stronger than I have in 2 1/2 years, I'm walking a bit more than a mile a day, now. I have a goal of running by May 1st. I'm calling this my Christmas "Miracle".It's so good to be getting back to "normal" life.
Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas all-
Michael
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Well, it's actually going to happen, after some set-backs, my surgery will be Dec 8th. Fingers crossed it'll go well and I'll be mostly who and what I was. |
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Again I haven't been around much due to some major heart issues. Back story being, in Oct of '08, I got endocarditis. A piece of my heart valve blocked my main vein in my leg. The infection destroyed the valves in my heart. I was given a 5% chance of living. I hadn't been feeling very good for the past two years. It turns out the valve was leaking, and that isn't good. I go to Hershey Medical Center next month to have it replaced. After that I should be on more.
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Better get that cock really wet
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Sorry again I haven't been on again much...the medical problems have been forefront. I'll try to get here more often,soon.
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Greetings all, Yep I'm back again. Just an update, I've had some serious health issues that I'm finally mostly recovered from. I'll be posting more in the near future.
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Haven't been on here in a while, been trying to sort out my life and get my life in control. My kid is in college, I am back at a job I loved before, and things are falling into place
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Met with the "lovely one" last night for a snack and drinks, at a local pub. I was dressed quite casually and she showed up dressed like I'd never seen her....Wow! Another facet I thought was there that until this time hadn't revealed itself. We had a wonderful time discussing everything but our expectations of each other. Since it had been over a year since we'd seen each other, it was good just to become reaquainted and comfortable again. This is going to be good... |
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Happy New Year, all. It's been a REALLY long time since I posted...things are going ok, nothing new to report really, except for the fact a longtime friendship might turn into something else. I really didn't want to jinx it and mention it, but it's been something we've danced around for a while now. I don't know where and how it's going to go, yet. I guess I'll take her hand and guide her into it slowly.... |
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Off to a new start again. Been very busy and that's a very good thing. Working for company out of York,PA running to Florida and California. I'm actively seeking a sub interested in being involved in travel and being her best. |
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Every day I get messages from submissives that try to convince Me that all of them are not like the last couple, I've had the misforune to have been with. I know that, and hence the reason, I fully intend to be MUCH more selective in the future. To those that messaged Me, Thank you. |
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Why do W/we trust knowing we'll be getting hurt? Guess it's just human nature to believe it'll be different. Why it is we feel that we can turn a duck into a chicken? Choices, bad-good-indifferent, we have to live with them. |
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R-E-S-P-E-C-T~
7 letter word, the meaning of which seems to be lost on a lot of people these days. Is it considered to be "undomly" to respect a sub? Well if it is, then throw Me in the worthless bin. It's been a virtue of Mine to treat everyone with respect, not submitting to them, but just respecting them as being human. Returning phone calls, e-mails, opening doors, offering My jacket on a cool evening....Jeez, I must be getting soft in My old age. Does this mean it's over for Me as a Dom?
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There seems to be a lot of games being played here."I'm looking for my 'One'","Detail a scene for U/us".Is there any subs that aren't playing games?I understand the ones that have been victimized by the guys that call themselves Doms and only out for the quick trip.I want a serious submissive that wants to actually learn and be the best,NO GAMES,NO B/S.... |
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Is there any submissives out there that can be honest and actually has the manners and common courtesy to return e-mails?I understand it's difficult to sort through the barrage,but maybe the respect and sincerity of some are real.The fakes,players and wannabes are kinda easy to spot,they are the ones so quick to keep hammering you.Trust your instincts and try to get to know Me. |
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Ok,here I go again...the Search begins again.F/friends in the Life have persueded Me to continue and not comprimise My values and what I seek in My one.I must apologize to those of you that I turned away as a result of the wannabe's subterfuge.I truly wanted to give her every opportunity to be what she wanted.she squandered the chance to be Mine.
If you are sincere in what you are and want the chance of a lifetime.Here it is...... |
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I have decided to discontinue My seach.I find and have found in the past,so many of the so-called subs that advertise they are so desirous of meeting the"One",can't begin to be honest with themselves.I tire of the whole charade,of I will do anything for my"One",except,meet Him,consider hearing what His goals and expectations are,relocate(even when they advertise they will)or even consider returning an e-mail.It's so frustrating.......... |
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Ah,the dicotomy of difficult situations and the possible results of pressure improperly applied.If someone is standing on a fence,do You shake the fence and possibly have them fall on the wrong side,or extend a hand and help them gentlly to Your side of the fence?The grass is definatly more lush on Your side,but the other side still has grass.I know she wants to jump to me,but for some reason,she keeps looking on the other side.OK,it's safe over there and that bull has no horns.My side's a little dangerous(bad thing?),and the Bull looks a bit edgy,but knows He's a Bull.How strong does the wild heart beat?
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My New Year started out with meeting some vanilla friends and tearing up a town.I needed that...I await the decision from lovely one as to what she is going to do.I waited for a long time to find her and we chatted for a good while before meeting.I owe it to her and Myself to be patient,she has been through a lot over the past couple weeks.I'll wait as long as it takes for her to get centered and will live with her decision.....she is everything I've sought for so long,I hope she choses with her heart.
To those of you that have contacted me with inquiries,Thank You.Until this is decided,I'm not considering anything other than friends.....Again,Thank You- |
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It's been a while since I've posted.After really seeking the right one,I think it's actually happened.We're meeting tonight and everything looks great.I hope this the end of my search............ |
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Patience is fickle thing.Just when things are going well(or so you think)something happens to drop you into the hole of self doubt.I'm so tired of the "my vanilla" doesn't understand me,I need a real Dom (but I can't leave"Mr I can't get it done")and "What am I going to do?" crap.The player "subs "that want "God" knows what,but are too caught up in themselves to even return a damn e-mail.If you aren't looking for a Dom-DON'T POST YOU ARE and then not have the common decency or manners to return a response to a sincere e-mail.
If you're not serious,don't waste the bandwidth and go play elsewhere.Try A**.com or some other "Wannabe"s**thole.Yeah,you're cute,but you p**s me off... |
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Ahhhh! Finally sometime off.I've taken some vacation time and am going to relax and enjoy my solitude.I need some time to get recentered and get my batteries recharged.It's been tough to figure out the new interest,she's very eager one minute and yet tries to doubt herself.I guess I'll have to be patient and understanding.I have the rest of my life.... |
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It's been a while since I posted here.Things are going well at this point in my life and I believe I might have actually found someone that I'm very interested in.This special one has all the traits of being a truly wonderful part of my life.She's intelligent,inquisitive,has very good values and is very eager to serve and please.I hope things can progress in the direction of a long term thing in the future. |
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I have decided to make some changes in my life and pursue what truly matters.I have made some changes in my attitude towards the things I consider to be important.
I'm going to be making more time for me and those I consider to be my true friends.The time spent with things I enjoy has been far too short in the past year,that's going to change.
I have scheduled a couple weeks off at the end of next month and am going to be using it to recenter myself and my priorities.I need some time to get back in touch with the real ME. |
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Time definately bears out the truth.Just as a fruit matures,the truth is revealed and the only lip service is that borne of those not suited to serve.Too be dishonest with those you call friend,and then place blame on them for your inability to be truthful to yourself,is reprehensible.
Plans for the future continue to develop and the time will soon come,that all will be in place.Those that have been faithful to me and themselves will be the benifactors.
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Wow! Almost a month since I had the chance to post an entry.
Some continue to resent the fact that they were found to be something they aren't,and never will be.Had they done more research than reading on the Net,they'd truly have the knowledge they lack,but purport to excel in.It seems they continue to pursue an avenue of trying to bring others down to level that suits their desires.Perhaps they'd be better suited to following the path of pretenders and wannabes.
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It's been a week since I've had the chance to post an entry.The shoots went really well over the weekend.It was kinda nice to work with the models,no topping from the bottom there.It was a relaxing time and had dinner with a particularly attractive young lady fairly experienced in the lifestyle.Since she lives in the area I frequent out there,we agreed to meet and play whenever I'm available.A contract has been offered and should be in effect when I return.I won't be deceived by the manipulation of verbal agreements with dishonest subs ever again.
Things are going very well with the German contigent.We are making the plans for Oktober and we're both looking forward to the vacation.
I've kept my farm from being stolen and am selling it this weekend.I'll be moving in a couple weeks and will probably be staying in South Central PA for now.It's very good to know my future is secure. |
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To be contracted(short term)or otherwise and still be involved,but not wanting to be tied to anyone else.Redundant or lies.
Lipservice was paid to our relationship by the unhumble and unsubmissive.To only serve your self-interest is not to serve,it's conseit.
I've been in contact with some exceptional submissives and am finding the true quality of some of them.They don't play at the role and are genuine in their search.There may be hope in my quest after all. |
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The games have crushed my spirit.We are remembered by the way we treat people in the day to day.We are remembered even more by the way we treat friends.To crush the heart of a friend and then claim that it's being done for your own self worth is reprehensible.To then mockingly laugh at the pain you've caused is beyond the pale.The way we treat others are the way we will be treated in the future.
I look forward and hope to find the one that will find their own strength and way in my charge.I will follow my instincts and will trust again... |
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Have been approched to do some content shoots for a couple websites.Sounds very interesting,but not sure if it'll be any fun.
I've been sending out some e-mails,but haven't gotten any that interest me as of yet.I don't ever want to hear another sub whine about a lack of "Quality Doms",I'm loaded up for that,big time. |
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Life on life's terms.I refuse not to be given any respect.The "New Guard" doesn't have any.The subs that are so well versed about everything to do about this,that top from the bottom have no respect.Then whine about why they got dumped for a new sub,that'll get dumped for another and so on...
The line of predecessors should have been a tipoff....but they didn't know as much either...
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