Well, first I would like to say that I have been missing somthing for many years. I am a good person for the most part. I try to live life with the understanding that there is a path that is waiting for me. I am a very caring person. By no means am I perfect, but I try to get through my days being thankful for what is in them, and to be a positive to the people around me. I have always believed that we as humans, have an incredible power that can
create such a wonderful feeling for those around us. I honestly dont think there is anything that comes close to the feeling that you get when you show someone that they count in this world. Even if it is a phone call just to say how wonderful they are.
Unfortunitly, No matter how positive I try to be, or how important I think it is to be a source of warmth to my friends and people around me, I have always felt empty. I realized that I needed to be kind to myself and time to embrace my hidden desires. I have tried to do this the wrong way for many years, seeking a quick fix for the yearning I have to submitt to a goddess. Of course this never worked, it only left me feeling worse because either it never panned out, or I never understood the fact that this isnt something that can be shut off. I have known about groups like "TNG" for years but I was always to affriad to show up alone. I have a REAL self confidence problem that huants me.

I would really like to meet someone that I can trust with all my feelings, without feeling belittle. I dream of giving myself, heart, mind and soul to someone who sees this act as the ultimate gift. Someone who will make me feel safe, and comfortable. Although I have had some experience I am pretty much a newbe. I know in my heart though, that my mind is open to no limits with that one person. Oh by the way I am looking for a something that will be heading somewhere as far as relationship. I dont think that a level of bliss can be created without a want to grow togeather, and know eachother