So all are aware.... Many times I check My mail from My cell and when I do I do not respond as half the time the messages do not go through. Therefore, do not think I am ignoring because I have read your message and not responded. As soon as I have the time I will respond. If I continue to get constant emails of begging and pleading and did You forget me and the like... you get put to the bottom of My response list. I have no time to deal with whining and insecure brats.

There are things I have began to realize I adore and want to do more of.  Things like.... I love having my feet worshiped and pampered. I adore CBT and ball busting. I love being treated as the Goddess I am. I love massages. Adore face sitting and smothering.I love making a man beg for what he wishes and telling him no if I am not ready.  And it is really fun to mix all of the items together and drive someone crazy.

Well things have certainly changed here. 

Sadly, the alpha slave I had has chosen a new path. and I am now back in search of that one who fulfills the desires of the sadist in Me as well as the nurturing of the Domina. 

As for him, I hope he can find what he needs and wish him well in his journey. 

I was diagnosed with pneumonia Wednesday. So I am not online as much for the next 2 weeks. So feel free to message Me, but I may not respond very timely.  

Some new things are starting. I have a wonderful alpha male slave who is also My polymate. It has been nearly 7 months since he moved here and things are going wonderful. But there is something missing in both of our lives. As a poly person I believe in many loves and I feel that I am missing that piece. My mate is bisexual and also has been feeling the loss of not having the male companionship. So it seems that it is time for us to search for that male. One who will enjoy being with Me and with him. As a Domina I know I am capable of caring for another boy/trans and giving him/her what he/she needs as well as caring for My boy. So if there is any bisexual male or trans submissives/slaves that desire a poly relationship with a Domina, such as myself, and My alpha... feel free to message Me.

Staying on My Dominant side right now. Have had many issues with my submissive side and am going to focus on caring and loving My Own. So am much more actively looking for the special someone to care for and focus My Dominant energies on.

Life can take us for some interesting twists and turns.
People we thought were friends can turn out to be fairweathered. People we used for support may fail. People will lie and use bullshit to explain something when the reality is right there in their face and they don't care to admit it cuz they would look like a complete ass.
To these people I say I don't need you, if you cared about ME, if you were MY friend you would be there for me regardless of anyone else, but you aren't so you have shown whom you really are. Maybe one day you will actually open your eyes and see what you have done. See those you have hurt. Maybe then you will understand that you never heard it all, but only received bits and pieces when it was needed to vent. In that moment you will realize what you lost.

Things in life are not always easily explained. Sometimes in order to save what you have with someone you have to be willing to let it go. This has happened in my own life. I have accepted that my other half is no longer interested in the lifestyle and he has accepted that it is a part of me. So now i travel this path alone with the full love, support and consent of him.