WELCOME TO THE THUNDERDOME BITCH! YOU’RE IN CHARGE!
Oh shit!!!! Me???
YEAH YOU! WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WITH IT?
Oh…. well…..I hadn’t thought that far ahead…
So I’ve never been much of a writer. I’m not terrible at it, but I definitely won’t be winning a Pulitzer prize either. Unfortunately, I write the way I think and talk, which is basically like a hummingbird on crack with ADD. I’ll try to maintain some focus here though. So let’s just begin in a logical place. The beginning.
I’m not stranger to the world of BDSM. I’ve had a fair amount of exposure over the last 5 to 6 years via clubs and a few dungeon events. It’s really only recently in the last couple of months that I made the decision to do more than dip my toes in, so to speak. I went back and forth for a while in regards to my place in the scene. Am I a sub? Or am I a switch or a domme? I knew almost immediately that I am not a sub. I have too many control issues and I’m far too stubborn to ever be a good obedient submissive. So that left me with switch or dominant. For a while, I thought that because I am new, I really ought to sub to see both sides of the coin. I have subbed in a few scenes in the past. It was okay. But my heart really wasn’t in it. However, I guess I figured because I am willing to sub (to develop a sense of empathy) that made me a switch. But then I had a serious talk with a good friend that answered a lot of questions I had for myself. He asked me if I enjoyed subbing. I didn’t have to think on it long, the answer was “no.” I’m willing to do it but it doesn’t satisfy me.
So basically, my friend helped me to realize that I really am a domme at heart. The more I think about it, the more I realize I have been all along. I think back on things I have done and decisions I’ve made and I begin to see the trend.
So….now I’ve begun my amazing journey of self discovery. I’m a domme! Soooooo…. What do I do now?
Well. I guess I had better move to the learning phase. Knowledge is very important in the implementation of Safe, Sane and Consensual play. I’ve tried my hand at humiliation in a text based setting. It’s been going rather well; although, I have been accused of being too cruel. Others have told me I’m doing an awesome job. I guess it comes down to personal preference. However, it would be prudent of me to learn how to rein my tongue in a bit.
I think the next thing on the list is impact play. It seems like it is a staple skill to have in this scene.
Well I will write more later on, and continue to document my experience as a novice domme.
