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I moved to the US in 2014. Im building my business andmy life in my new country.
Im open to a lot of things, ranging from friendship, laughs and events to casual Ds play, but my goal is to find the one to become my long term sub or slave. I am very caring and tend to be demanding, according to the material in hand.If we build a relationship, I will help you achieve your potential and become a healthier, stronger, happier you, through guidance, consultation,training, discipline and structure building (as needed).

If you are already mature and seasoned, if you know what you need, if you know your place and are prepared to serve in all ways possible,even better. I will only have to teach you how to please me specifically. Less work for me lol

I am disciplined, tend to be well organized, Im open and decent and I lead by example and inspiration.I have not stopped evolving. I am well aware that I will grow with you as you will with me.I will look for your soft limits and linger for a while on that space between comfortable and difficult before I push your wall open...I can and I will move anywhere in the US I will decide to, since I can build up my work in most places. More attracted to the sunny States.




What Im Into
Orgasm Control, Training, Discipline, TPE, Ds, Ms, Topbottom, Household, Casual, Electro, Bondage, Mentoring


What I am looking for
*A female sub.Service oriented, baby girl, masochist, slut, doll, or even a bdsm virgin, are all starting material. I will work on you and mold you into what I want.*Play, friendship, events, networking.

*A female slave when the time comes again.If you are not fit, let me know. I want my sub(s) fit and healthy.I WILL make you fit. If you have a physical or emotional issue about this, let me know from the beginning.


Favorite Quote(s)
Dont dream it, be it!Rocky Horror Picture Sho
This is shahaylu -- the bond. Feel her heartbeat, her breath. Feel her strong legs. You may tell her what to do -- inside. For now, say where to go.Avatar


12/24/2015 9:09:55 AM
Either drop your expectations or forget local!

How important is it to you to find your Mr. Dominant ?

Have you already understood how tough it is to find the right One?
Have you realized that you can't hope that He lives next door and is waiting for you?
I have :)
I understand that if I want a sub or slave the way I want her, looking just around me is not working!
Instead of compromising on WHO she will be, I am prepared to look further.

Are you so eager to serve that you can't wait? If you could move in with your Dom in a year, would that be too long for you?
Do you think that a year of waiting and longing is too much for you? Think again.?
How long have you been searching?
How many times have you tried and failed with people?
How many times have you compromised too mich and made the wrong choices because you thought that you can only try with people that live around you?
How long do you need to clear out if they are the right person?

This is how I deal with this:

I am very clear that finding the rare submissive that will fit my needs is improbable if I'm looking just in my area.?
My need to live the lifestyle as I want it is strong enough for me to be prepared to make life changes that most people consider big.?
I am prepared to move almost anywhere in the US for a time, if I can't relocate my girl to me.?
In the long run, though, you have to be able to follow me to a better life.?

I will be able to move in about a year. Till then, I'm building up my business to be more flexible and financially comfortable.
Yes, my job can relocate with me almost anywhere I want in the US.?
Being new in the US has it's advantages to me.
I have no family ties, no best friends, no memories that I can't part with. My home is the whole nation.?

What is a year?
It will take weeks to get to know each other.?
Months to trust and get into an everyday D/s long distance relationship.?
If we match, your time will be so full of me that your loneliness will be forgotten.?
I will learn who you are, how your submission works, how to make it work for me. you will learn what lies inside your darkness, and how far you would go. you will learn Me, My values, My needs, how to please Me.?
And the process wll fill our lives with excitement and satisfaction.?
Then we will meet. I will drive or fly to you, or you to me, or we we will meet half-way.
That will test our chemistry and how serious we are.
If it works, we will take the trip again, next month. That will hopefully strengthen our bond and intensify the longing to be together.?
Then we will make plans. Are you moving, or am I? Or together to a better place?
We will look for a home, I will examine the specifics for work and chose the best course to go.
Do you have baggage to take care of? A divorce, kids to grow up or take take us?
There goes the year.?
Are you ready to move in with me, either in your area, or somewhere we choose (or I choose for us)??
If you don't have a satisfying /well paying job, I can train you as my assistant and we can live comfortably.?

So, if the rest click but you find I'm far from you, think again ;)


1/20/2010 6:18:14 AM
my life because of Master (kara's voice)

i am forever grateful for being my Master's slave. He has taught me more in such a short time than i think all of my teachers throughout all of my schooling (as little as there was) has taught me, and i actually keep this knowledge!! i retain it, and it effects, relates to my everyday life..in *so* many things. my diet, my daughter, my husband, my sexuality, my thoughts, feelings, wants, desires, needs..everything. He makes it all better.

i've always had an issue with being in control of things..it has never felt right or good to me. i have been in few leadership positions, which were usually short-lived when they expected much of me. i just cannot have control, make important decisions like that so often and such things that leaders do. my husband is a very religious man..and for a while i got very into being the 'submissive wife' which may have been a big error in judgement for me because he is incapable of such responsibilty..we tested the waters in mild BDSM lifestyling, i let go of the idea because he, again, isn't capable to do such things. He's inconsistent amond other things..(i don't want to take up this space on my griping about him because i do it plenty), but he just is *not* Dom material at all, i think that he would be more suited as a sub..and he has asked me a few times to be rough with him or take control of him..which of course makes my stomach turn at the thought. i don't think i have a dominant bone in my body.

i let go of my control most willingly, and eagerly i think..i was glad to have that responsibilty off of my shoulders! Master takes my control with such ease it would seem, like it was nothing at all to run the life of someone He has never even met, and the life of my child..which He has also done, in a more indirect way. (He tells me how to raise my daughter and i do it, not like He is her Master.)

my daughter. She's so beautiful, intelligent and sweet..i know she is. But my husband has confused her mind, her emotions and how she should react to things..and i have been guilty, for not protecting her as i should, as a good mother should. i need to be shielding her from the hatred that he is about to corrupt into her. She has screaming fits, because she cannot process the anger she is feeling. my Master says that i am afraid of my anger and that is why i hold it inside of me so much, i'm afraid to release it...All these things my Master is trying to teach me, and show me. He's trying to open my eyes to what i'm not seeing, and i think having said this right now i see it more but it is so hard..and it is frustrating to be told these things, by many even, and no matter how hard i try i cannot see it. i may be refusing to see it, subconciously..but i am trying and my Master is so patient with me..i think every time i ask a new question or say something else to try to contradict His truth that He will break..that i would have asked the 'one too many' question and He would give up hope on me, but He hasn't yet. His patience may grow thin on me yet, but i haven't seen it and maybe it won't. i'm so stubborn, i'm bull-headed and i don't try to make things more difficult for Him but i think i do anyway. He never seems phased, as always..He only keeps teaching me what i don't know. Always improving me. i could never ask for a better Master, nor do i plan to.

my life before Master, i was depressed..i had thoughts of not moving on, ending the fight..i didn't see anything to go on for, Kaela could get a better mother i was sure, and she was all i was holding on for. i still have sad days, depressed ones but not nearly as frequently as i had and Master is always there to make me feel better. i was in an argument with my husband a day or so ago: i have tried so hard to be up to his standards, but no matter how hard i try..i can't do it. There is always something that wasn't done well enough. i was very frustrated and near tears, it's overwhelming to feel like a failure..i griped to Master and as always He made it better. 'well, you're up to my standards.. you do what I tell you to..he could be the one having you in line...'

i feel like if Master wanted me to do something and i had His guidance, i could do it..no matter how impossible it seems to me or anyone else. If He thinks i can do it, then i can. He gives me the strength to do the impossible.

my longing to be His live-in grows exponentially every day, but i want Him to be happy first and foremost and if i can't be there, i wish He would find His 24/7 quickly. i have caught my self on several occasions wanting to beg Master to fly me to Him, bring me to Him as fast as He can..i restrain because i know it wouldn't be the best idea right now with my life how it is right now, and how it may effect Kaela..i need to get my life under control before that would even be a promising idea. i want it badly, so badly if He didn't make me so happy even as it is right now, i may cry. He is looking for a permanent, in-home 24/7 TPE slave..i wish i could fill this position and i would in a moment if it was so possible. He's had me help Him look for one, through sites and such, and i've tried hard to be sincere in my hunt, but every one i would look at would make my heart hurt more. i envied them, that they could pick up their lives and be so mobile, be able to just go to Him upon His command to be with Him throughout each day..serving Him and pleasing Him how i wish that i could. If only it was so easy, i would try to be the best slave He could ask for..demand for, rather. Life is never this easy though, is it?

i'm on a new diet..ok, not so new i've been on it for about a month maybe a month and a half. i was *very* shocked to find out that Master is a vegetarian, didn't seem like the vegetarian type to me..call me stereotypical but i guess i saw only hippies and such as non meat-eaters(trying to find another word for vegetarian lol! vegan?). So, i'm eating much much less meat than i used to..it's very hard for me because i've always been very big on meat! my whole family is..my in-home family, the rest of my family, my in-laws, my friends..everyone pretty much lol. i NEVER would have imagined i would go meatless!! if you would have told me that i would two months ago, i would have laughed my ass off in your face..Definitely.
So anyhow..my new diet. Master has pretty much set a guideline for me on what to eat, i do my best to stick to that and He also gives me other ideas now and again. Also recipes, which of course aren't very specific on the proportions of ingredients so they don't turn out how they should. But He sure does get a kick out of it! >.> Much to my embarassment, as always. i made a soup the other day, i thought it was supposed to be soup..it wasn't. i told Him about it and boy was i PROUD!! and He laughs! There went my pride. He can be soooooo mean sometimes(a lot..majority of the time..always)!! i try so hard to please Him in what i eat, keeping my diet and everything.

i'm being corrupted....When there were other girls being punished on voice by Master and i was listening, Master pointed out that i had been acting somewhat sadistically about their punishments..laughing at their discomfort, their pain..as He would. .. i've also been exposed to pain, as an amateur pain slut(as Master would call me). i would flinch horribly at the slightest amount of pain or discomfort. Pinching my nipples etc. Now i can pinch, twist, pull, tug, slap on or at my nipples and get much less reaction than i used to. ..What is He turning me into?! No matter. He likes it..i like it..W/we're all happy with it.!

i'm so happy with my new life! What Master is doing to me is the greatest gift i could ever receive, it's a privilege to be taught by Him. i look forward to the upcoming lessons, sessions, punishments, pleasures..everything He is willing to give to me. i'll continue to try my hardest to learn all i can, as quickly and easily as i can..and try to make it a bit simpler on Him since i know i can be quite stubborn at times. Thank You, Master - for having the patience to do what You have. i would be heart-broken if this were to stop, but will be forever grateful
1/20/2010 6:16:05 AM
I am 46 years old, never married, and no kids.

I am a professional with my own work in the field of health services. I am living in Thessaloniki, north Greece, and gradually moving to Athens, the capital of Greece.

I am 6'5" (1.95m), ex professional athlet and very well in my health. I am a vegetarian, non-smoker, I dont drink alchohol except for a glass of wine, I have never taken drugs, I never take conventional medicine drugs, I dont drink coffe, I exercise.

I have been in bdsm since my first fantasies, at the age of 13. I have over 25 years of real life experience, but with big intervals between, because in my country it is hard to find a girl with the courrage to live her bdsm fantasies. Even so, I have hed more than 10 relationships with bdsm. I have also been a sub for some years, in 3 relationships. So, I know both ends of the rope.

So far, my girls where submissives, not slaves. I have experience in dominating them, pushing limits and expanding them, and some training: Pain-tolerance training, behavioral modification, slut training (deep throat, ass training, orgasm control, arousal adjustment), obedience and more.

In the past months though, I have a slave in the States who has become my TPE slave. She was just a submissive before me, and didnt think of slavery. With me, her big need arose. I control her life almost totally now. I m giving her all the above, plus structure, and total discipline. She eats what I tell her, when I tell her, sleeps when I want her to sleep, raises her daughter the way I m teaching her, deals with her husband the way I want her to. All her daily schedule is under my control.

My experience with her brought out my need to have a total slave in my house.

I am very strict as a Master.
Do not be fooled by my voice and kind manners. I am demanding and a slave will be my property.
If interested, ask me all you need to know
jannieAZbbw
 
 Age: 28
 Tulsa, Oklahoma