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Who I am
I am Dominant, Sadistic and a Heterosexual Male, often a friendly and accommodating fellow, ready to offer help with just about anything; this seems to confuse people that have known me. I am finding that people who thought they knew me and I thought knew me, really don?t. The internal dialogs of self-control that have governed my behavior are invisible to them and so perceived to not exist.
My natural inclination to ?Take? what I want has been repressed for far too long. Make no mistake; it is there, it always has been. It has been locked in a cage labeled ?Socially Unacceptable?, pacing back and forth in my head. I am tired of being unfulfilled because it is socially unacceptable. The lock has been removed and the door opened; the animal within is coming out to stretch its legs. A little tentative at first, but it will soon be running unhindered.
I am a stable person, doing well in my profession. My life has minimal unnecessary drama, and I work to keep it that way. If you know the difference between drama and excitement, then you understand. I think I have a wonderful sense of humor, but then who doesn?t? I can be very serious at times, yet not so stuck on myself that I can?t laugh at my own follies. I attempt to be painstakingly accurate in my words; I try to say exactly what I mean. Yet I am can be misunderstood because people naturally make assumptions and derive additional meanings that are not intended. I am very introspective, often analyzing why I do what I do and feel. It is very important to me to know the whys of my actions and create goals and objectives of where I want to be, and to define my philosophies.
I enjoy defying the stereotypes people would box me in to. I am a Computer Programmer, a Sadist, a Pagan, a Student of Martial Arts, a Biker, a Burner, a Hetero, a Genius, a Dom, a Caretaker, a Lover; I am all of these, yet no one thing or combination of them define me. I have resumed the journey of self discovery, finding additional interests and passions.
I was once active in the Denver community, although I rarely played in public. My life is changing and I am coming back to the community after many years absence. I am finding new and old friends and playmates, and lasting relationships will grow out of that. I want people in my life that are more than the sum of their kinks, but not afraid of their desires.
Whether submissive or not, interesting and intelligent people are welcome in my world regardless of their gender, orientation, race or shoe size. I value strength in its many forms; strength of mind, strength of will, of character, of spirit, and of body. In fact, I base my respect for a person on how their strengths overcome their weaknesses. I despise arrogance and respect confidence. Strong, honest relationships are important to me. Dishonesty is intolerable.
I don?t expect or want anyone to throw themselves on the ground because I have the money to buy a flogger and a leather vest and call myself ?Master Whatever?; it takes more than that to be someone?s Dominant. I enjoy and relish a submissive's willingness and trust to give themselves completely to their partner, the exploration of a person's boundaries of arousal, pleasure and pain. I very much enjoy spanking a girl that knows she wants and needs it. I am a loving sadist; I enjoy giving pain that is pleasure, Bondage and Domination. I am learning more and more about various kinds of play that interest me.
And I can be long winded.
Please don't come looking to me for play if you are not female, it is just not my thing. I will ridicule you for failing to read this, unless you enjoy being ridiculed; then I will just ignore you.
My credo as a Sadistic Dominant
I do not profess to have perfected this, but it is the life I strive to live. It is updated as I grow in my self-awareness.
With Honor and Confidence, I will exercise Decisiveness with Responsibility and Self Control over myself and those who have been place in my hands by circumstance or by their own choice.
I enjoy the Vitality from asserting my Will over those who's submission is given to me, and from inflicting intense sensations of pleasure and pain.
To be a good dominant, a person must strive to embody certain virtues:
- Honor: One?s Words and Deeds must be in alignment. One should never make a Vow or Promise that one would not bleed to keep.
- Honesty: Know the person within one?s self, and be that person on the outside as well. If one chooses to speak, speak only truth regardless of circumstance. Say as much or as little as one feels is right. Do not aim to mislead, but do not take responsibility for others' assumptions.
- Confidence: Strong understanding of one?s Self, Skills, and Value flows in to a subtle aura of presence. Unbecoming arrogance is self-aggrandizing and boorish, false humility is attention seeking and tiresome. Dignified confidence is softly spoken, effective in action, and acknowledges praise simply.
- Decisiveness: The ability to make decisions and act upon them without constant second guessing. This requires the Forethought to gather facts and opinions when necessary, and the Discernment to know what is necessary, and to skip that which is not.
- Responsibility: Taking ownership of one's decisions and actions and inaction. Taking ownership of the consequences that flow from those actions, both good and bad. Acting on the consequences, not bemoaning them.
- Vitality: The fullness of spirit that comes from the enjoyment of a life lead with Courage and Purpose.
- Self Control: One?s actions must be the result of conscious decisions, not purely childish impulses. Those impulses may be indulged; yet one must control them, not be controlled by them.
- Will: Knowing what one wants and actively going after those desires. Strength of character that does not give up when faced with obstacles in the pursuit of ones goals.
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