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Evilwithin

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Hoping to find one worth my time and attention. My thoughts and concern. My patience and dedication. I'm into the following:

Obedience training
Oral /Worship training
Anal training
Nipple /Breast play
Kegel /Pussy muscle training
Fisting
Wax play
Rope /Tape Bondage
Forced /Orgasm control
Outdoor /Public play
Paddles /Canes /Floggers Are you interested? If so let chat, and get to know each other. If not then good luck in your search.

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2/15/2013 5:31:13 AM

I can't be in control of a situation until I can control myself. I can't lead others if I myself do not have a direction. If there is no end can a journey truly began. I wonder should I care?

 

I'm truly afraid of diving in. Losing myself in the madness of perfection. I will never be perfect so I don't try. but should I?

 

I have grow to hate the feeling of obligation. Don't feel like keeping up. I'm tired of running. Its becoming a chore when I can fucking careless. but why did I care in the first place?

 

Do I live for other to care about and I to care about others? I care too much at times about the wrong things. but I would be thought of worst If I didn't care.

 

I wait but waiting could be the problem. Taking action is sometimes looking for trouble. Trouble is the shit you don't feel like deal with at that time.

 

If I give into my greed is it wrong if everything goes right?


9/17/2012 6:28:15 AM

What I want in my sub/slave:

  • Willingness to serve
    • you have to want to serve and care for me. Not just be in a position or a role. Energy is wasted on half-ass a temps to do something your heart is not in or you don't understand.
  • Understanding of their situation
    • If your life is crazy and busy. How can you be of any help to me. Understanding your situation and knowing your limits in your personal life will help us both get want we want.
  • Honest about what they want
    • Knowing what you expect and need is the most important thing in a relationship. There should be no hidden strings or implied wants. If its not known up front then you can forget about it later.
  • Down to earth and understanding of reality
    • People read books, watch movies and think their D/s relationship will be like that. Get REAL!! if and only if you have the metal toughness and patience we you get to that level. Also every Dom is not the same nor do they think the same. Even if you have been in the lifestyle for 25 years. With a new Dom you are back to zero. Know that.
  • A nasty slut freak bitch!! lol
    • I love sex. I can fuck everyday and anywhere with the right person. I will do thing to you that that your closest friend and family will look at you with disgust. Then act like it never happen. I want someone I can let loose with, someone that wants those dark stories to tell.
  • Someone with attention to detail
    • its the little things that make a big impact. The small detail that make a person say "they get me". I want that and I will give that to you too.

 


9/17/2012 5:43:04 AM

I have been away from this site for a while but I will try it again. I see there are a few new interesting people here. Hoping to find someone to lose myself in and shape into the partner i want and need. I have tried soooo many time before and failed but in those failures I have learned more about myself and what I want. I'm sure I will meet more that "just doesn't work out" but hopefully we both take something away for the relationship that we can use in the future.


2/25/2012 8:29:12 PM

Sometime I feel that I just waste me time with this site. Most people have no idea want they want. And other wish to live in a fairytale that they read in a romantic novel. What really drives people to this lifestyle or even have them curious about it? Is it the kinkiness or the ability to act out of character? Maybe its more deeply psychological and has to do with how the person sees themselves?  Or maybe it just the internet? The add fact that you can hide behind false image and detach yourself from what you do or say.

 

How does one know who is real?

There are many people that have just "testing the waters" and there are those who "play online". How does one find a real true person in a sea of flakes and fakes? I guess the best way is to go fishing. Yes fishing, the time honor past time for people that like to past time. Fishing (sometime) has nothing to do with skill. It more the bait and opportunities. How does one make an opportunity? Put your bait in the water! If your bait is not in the water you can not catch a fish. While if you bait is in the water and you are not catching what you want then you have to change your bait. Sometime you have to work your bait to catch what you are after.

 

With all that said I guess I have to go fishing. Casting my bait (messages) to see what I catch. Though I do not like this method of doing things. It seem I really have no choice. The thought of what I want just finding me is as silly as hoping the fish just jump in the boat.




10/25/2011 9:56:11 AM

To Train:

to develop or form the habits, thoughts, or behavior of (a child or other person) by discipline and instruction.

to make proficient by instruction and practice, as in some art, profession, or work.

to discipline and instruct, as in the performance of tasks or tricks.

to treat or manipulate so as to bring into some desired form, position, direction, etc.

If a person is truly trained then no matter the situation they can act accordingly. The duties they perform not only reflects the current Dom but also the previous Dom in that sub's life. A sub that doesn't take their training serious, does not wish to be useful to that Dom. Not training a sub to understand and execute their Dom's wishes will deny the satisfaction of the position that they have chosen. With out direction we are lost. A Dom without direction can not lead. The satisfaction is lost for both parties.

 


10/25/2011 9:29:34 AM

What is it to say that someone is worth your time?

  1. Does the time you spend with each other meaningful?
  2. Is this person worth correcting? Do they deserve patience?
  3. Do they make the most out of seconds to maximize the minute?
  4. Does watching their development interest you?
  5. Do you see potential? Do you have ground to work with?
  6. Are they damaged, broken mentally, Have scares of mistrust?
  7. Do they know what they want? Is that possible? 
  8. How much training is needed? Are they devoted and motivated for result?
  9. Is there a common understand of want to expect of both parties?

 

To say someone is worth the time ,they are worth the frustration, worth the openness and confuse. Deserve to be understood and corrected. Watching them grow to understand and execute is the driving force in the relationship. 


7/27/2011 6:29:06 AM

Why am I a Dom?

I don't know the answer to this question. Maybe its better said there is no simple answer to this question. All I know is I have to control. I'm most case I seek to control everything I come in contact, with whether direct on indirect. The power to shape and mold fascinate me to no end. Even while I serviced in the military I try to invoke my influence on those who out ranked me. Sometime I failed other times I had great success. But letting someone else make the decision doesn't sit will with me. Granted there are something I will trust people to do BECAUSE I have instructed them to do it a certain way and they understand. Or know my interest and it one less thing to worry about in the bigger picture.  But I'm always watching over them. Still didn't answer the question but    

 

the journey continues...


7/27/2011 6:08:11 AM

Every time I return to this site I feel a little part of me dies. Weird to say but one would ask why return? I really wonder that myself. Someone once told me that when you start in this lifestyle its hard to go back. Maybe that ol' sub was right. That was about 4 years ago. I have had some good time but most of them were WTF moments. Now I'm looking a screen hoping something is there. There are a lot of intelligent subs on this site. That have the ability to write some very good profiles. Some are interesting, witty, and for the ones that have pictures beautiful. I recently talk to a sub and comment on how she has entry the "abyss of hopeless dreamers". I'm first meant this as a joke. Then I started to realize that this is so true. We all are here looking at the same screen hoping to find that person that we dream or know is out there. Shame that a simple dream can become a nightmare in an instant. For now I just look at profiles and dream. Because it seem the reality of this site is more than annoying.

 

the journey continues...

 


8/11/2010 2:48:53 AM
Training
What does one consider training? What do you want to be trained to do? If serving someone is all you want, they how will you be of service or use to them?
I long to make a great slave! Someone that know how to act in any situation. Someone that can perform the task I need to the standard I have set. Someone that loses themselves in the act of serving, knowing their troubles and worries are in good hands. To have my sub/slave get praise from other Dom for there hard work and skill. Someone that will enjoy the time we share together...

the journey continues ...

7/14/2010 11:15:40 AM
Submission:
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:a legal agreement to submit

to the decision of arbitrators 2:the condition of being submissive

, humble, or compliant 3:an act of submitting

to the authority or control of another

What do you think makes a person sub? Is it because they want to be or do they have personality traits that make them submissive? IF that is the case what do you think this traits are? Just because a person wish someone else to make their choices for them, does that make them a sub? Some would say it the control or power exchange. But if you still have to power to stop whatever happen. Did you really submit? I'm not a sub and never want to be one. I have however, being in a position of submission. Their are people that will say the you first must be a good follower to be a good leader. I think that is true and add this- you must follow a good leader to became a great leader.

The journey continues ...

7/13/2010 5:07:00 PM
Today I may have been too demanding. I may have asked someone to go outside of their comfort zone. But I have know many people in the world you who sit in the same spot and never notice the beauty around them until you make them notice. Maybe that is the reason I did it... who really knows
I sit here wonder what did I even getting to this lifestyle? The only thing I can come up with is that I really like the control and the sharing.  To truly be in control of someone else you have to be in control of yourself. I will try my hard to live up to that statement for it the reason I do what I do.
I may have missed out on someone fun ... Then again what good is a Dom that does not dominate - to exert the supreme determining or guiding influence on. 

The journey continues...


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 Mistress, Age:  46
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