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Hello and Greetings.


I am not kinky enough for most so if that is what you seek, stop reading here.

I have 25 years real life experience as a Dominant. Over the years my needs, wants, dersires and practices have evolved. I am a psychological Dominant and this is my life, not a role that I play.

This means that I am heavier on the control side than the BDSM side. Don't ask me to place you on a cross with a ball gag and a hood for the night. Don't whine at me or send me a simple hello or any other one liners. you will be deleted and blocked.

I have not the time or energy to deal with anyone who cannot be strong, who wishes to be a doormat or a pet. If I wanted a pet I'd go get a dog.

Don't call me Mistress! Mistress is a title reserved for One Who is your Mistress and then it will be up to Her what She desires to be addressed as. It gives me the shivers and is akin to being stopped and calling the cops Sir 100 times to get on the good side. Anyone addressing me as Mistress will not receive a reply as I am not your Mistress. Got it? Gooood.

Do not piss with Me, I have been at this far too long. Should you mesage me I require the same respect that you'd give anyone else unless I prove otherwise.

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11/1/2014 6:55:58 PM
EG is baaaack! divorced, just had three major surgeries all in one day, it has been one hell of a year actually one hell of a couple of years. But those who know me know that nothing keeps me down for good. I am recovering from my surgeries nicely and there are a few more to come that are not as major, I now need a wheelchair to go any distance but I can certainly walk from the car into a store to the wheelie cart OMFG!I'm now looking for, as I always was, a protocol based relationship not so much in the bedroom although I control what happens there anyway. I don't know if I'm happy to be back or not as to all of the trouble between the co-owners which I just see a sad. I hope to run into a few old friends here. please excuse any and all typos as I'm on my phone voice typing. One more thing, if you are not serious do not waste my valuable time! Last time I was so sick of unsolicited mailings calling me mistress. Get a grip guys! Mistress is reserved only for your mistress which I am not.If you don't have one then don't address me as one. it is pure common sense so do not waste my time or yours I will not reply to anything in entitled mistress or dominant or anything else that would be reserved for your own mistress! Yes, you funny guys are going to spam my messages and it's one click to delete them so you will not upset me. It's no fun unless the person gets upset and writes you back in angry message. That is not me! I have no time for bullshit. Got it? Good. Be Well Friends

8/1/2012 11:55:48 PM

I need to be brief as it is very late.  It seems as though my Florence Nightingale Syndrome has struck again!  Last September I was married and have been on the couch ever since, including my wedding night.  He needed to be taken from a bad situation so "rescue the world EG" swung into action yet again damnit!

 

He is very aware that we are only friends and are living as roommates until and if I decide that there is something better for me.  Perhaps I will stumble over something one day and perhaps not though I shall surely wither without intelligent conversation!

 

 

Enough for today. ~sighs deeply~

 

 


12/9/2009 8:24:46 PM
I have been dealing with some shattered bones since this past February and have just about had it!  I have no clue what the holidays will bring or where I will be.

I am not here often though am alerted to messages. If you're going to write then for fuxake say something nice as I am not in the mood for nonsense these days!

4/15/2009 8:40:26 PM
There is NO bullshit that I have not heard here or elsewhere. If that is your thing, then please save it for the naive.

4/1/2009 4:01:15 PM
I'm baaaaack! hahahahaha.

1/7/2009 9:07:24 PM
I will never make someone a priority when they only make me an option. I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.

1/1/2009 8:29:13 PM
If you are near me, or not near me, and have viewed my profile, then speak to me. I don't bite....well not often anyway.

I am eventually looking to relocate so please don't say you will move to where I am. I have no intention of remaining here long term.

''The trick is to be willing to sacrifice all that you are for who you want to become.''

12/30/2008 10:09:45 PM
I have the right to feel loved and respected. So where does that leave me now....

12/27/2008 7:03:55 PM
Devotion, loyalty, adoration...  I sought someone worthy of mine.

12/21/2008 10:05:28 PM
SERIOUS INQUIRIES ONLY PLEASE! IT IS CLEAR THAT I AM NOT SEEKING A PLAY PARTNER. I ALSO DO NOT DO ''ONLINE.'' READ MY PROFILE AND JOURNAL COMPLETELY BEFORE CONTACTING ME.

12/18/2008 9:24:33 PM
I do not suffer fools gladly nor do I cast pearls before swine.

12/13/2008 2:55:58 AM
People who disappear, in my estimation, have no BALLS. Something which is required of anyone with whom I am to deal. No balls = doormat and I already have one from Kohl's to wipe my feet on. I seek a MAN, not a nadless hunk of carpet.

12/12/2008 5:58:31 PM
What's the point in all of this? Where is the moral? Where even is the story that is requiring the moral? Questions I cannot answer and do not believe that ever I will be able to answer.

12/11/2008 2:21:20 PM
I am not in the best mood at the moment as I have been seriously injured. However, that aside, I am becoming sick of something. I am sick to death of responding to messages with thought out and detailed replies only to have them sit unopened or unresponded to. If you do not wish to correspond, then do NOT waste my time messaging in the first place! Take your verbal (textual) diarrhea to someone else who cares as I do not.

To those of you who have corresponded and simply disappeared, I hope that you have gone away to some dark dark place. Your village is calling and they want their idiot back.

12/9/2008 5:44:08 PM

I am quite happy to know, and perhaps to always have known, who I am and the honest good which lies within.  There are
myriad Dom/mes and far fewer true Dominants.  I am saddened to see many not understand that to get, One must give.  If I have to take it I do not want it, if I have to force, it is never Mine. 

Security comes from knowing one's self , never from seeking another to provide it, never playing to get it. Should you not know who you are, then ask not another to tell you but seek within as to do otherwise is tantemount to use.

I am fortunate that My friends here and I 'get it and got it.'



12/3/2008 9:00:20 PM
To the ~ahem~ man seeking a big black bbw, I suggest you not contact me again. I am disabled, have nerve damaged hands, long nails and you're going to get in MY face over a missing ''s'' in the word message. You are a pure wanker and make me want to go ahead and try that pumpkin banana mousse. I finally found something that causes me to want to gak more than that damned mousse. Way to go ''big boy.'' I also don't appreciate being called ''pale skinned'' and fat ass considering my ass is not fat and your SEEKING a fat ass! You have issues and need to seek some professional help immediately. Do not pass GO do not collect $200.00.

12/2/2008 8:16:18 PM
Can none of you spell for Gawd's sake?? Do many of you need to use textspeak?? R U getting me? Learn the difference between Dominate and Dominant or at least pretend you do. Does nobody proof read or check spelling? It is highly irksome.

11/27/2008 9:06:44 AM
Happy Thanksgiving!

Please send messages. I cannot do chat requests today. I am alone, not feeling well and trying to cook.

11/25/2008 2:09:46 PM
I just heard three words that made me wish to gak; pumpkin banana mousse! Oh dear, I was born and raised in Maine and we adore our pumpkin. Even pumpkin cheesecake can be done successfully but banana?! My stomach did actually flip, no word of a lie! Don't go adulterating it with bananas of all things!

We are having large amounts of rain and wind. A flood warning until 10pm and one of those days when no matter if the heat is up or not, there is cold in the bones. Ah a November day in Maine. I suppose I should be grateful that it isn't snow though I'd rather be grateful for someone to make me a hot drink, give me a massage and tuck me under the covers.

11/25/2008 12:00:01 AM
I will be uploading some new photos as soon as my pc is back from the shop. The photos I have as of now, truly suck! ;)

11/24/2008 5:44:45 PM
I am exhausted. Truly bone tired, wiped out exhausted. A great deal is going on in life and I have a severe sleep deficit. I slept well last night though it simply was not enough to make up for the past week. Time to Dominate myself into bed early tonight!

11/20/2008 9:32:43 PM
I am also incredibly service oriented. Ask if you'd like to know more.

11/13/2008 9:06:45 PM
I NEED holiday plans! I am NOT spending another cancelled or dour holiday season again!!!

Oh, if you're married or in a relationship please look elsewhere. I do not share.

11/10/2008 8:44:53 PM
Hellllp! All of my CMail has disappeared! So, if you have written and want to keep in touch please write again.

I was also dumb enough to have been scammed by an ''old friend'' whom I knew when I lived in the UK. I am up to my eyeballs in trouble. I'm not asking for help to bail out and those who know me know I would never do that. I just didn't need this on the heels of my surgery damnit!

11/7/2008 1:05:13 PM
For the first time in 26 years I am not nauseaous! I have uploaded a new primary photo taken a year ago. Will have to wait to see photos again.

My sincere thanks for all of the words of encouragement and support from my friends here!

11/4/2008 10:38:51 PM
Surgery done today and I seem to be doing well so far. Will update. Thank you to all who have sent messages of thought and encouragement!

10/31/2008 10:04:38 PM
Surgery Tuesday the 4th, finally.

9/30/2008 3:47:48 PM
''You're a woman so you can't be a Dominant.''  (spelling corrected) Ohhh dear what an awesome laugh that was! Thank you for that, I actually needed a great laugh today.

9/27/2008 11:28:20 PM
Okay, the gallbladder surgery is coming sooner than expected. I spent Friday between doctors, labs and hospitals while it was being decided if it needed to come out this weekend. Obviously not though I do have another appointment with the surgeon on Monday. I am so sick of being sick, get it out already!!!

8/15/2008 6:12:05 PM
 whispers.........come and lay with Me . let Me hold you and listen to your body talk to Me...... may you sleep in the wings of a angel.......may you wake with the soft kiss of the sun.......... may your day travel to places only your mind takes you .......and may you return where you need to be............. 

8/12/2008 12:46:47 AM
Dollar Campaign to Save a Life

Okay, I hate to do this, I really do though can think of no other way to help and/or get this accomplished and I am still in the US.

My Moroccan mother is dying of complete renal failure and has been ill with this for the past 4 years. We have recently nearly lost her twice even with an increase in her weekly dialysis to 4 times per week. She is 50 years old and her youngest child is a 10 year old daughter.

She needs a kidney transplant from one of her older children and all are willing to donate. The issue with Morocco is that all healthcare is on a self pay basis as there is no health insurance. If I don't do something to help, then I could never forgive myself. She is the only person ever in my life to treat me as a ''real'' mother would.

I have had bake sales and have begun a dollar campaign in shops local to me, one national grocery chain and other chat services that I belong to. I want no huge drain on anyone, only dollar bills.

If you can find it in your heart to save the life of someone you don't know and want to make a big difference in this world. Then please find a dollar bill, 4 quarters, penny rolls what have you and donate just one of them to give this wonderful woman back her life.

Please contact me here to help and receive updates along with a family's sincere gratitude.

6/24/2008 9:04:25 PM
Yes, I am still alive. I fly to Morocco 9 July so I am in a dither trying to get everything done alone. I have the opportunity to go back early and spend time with family and see mine earlier, before heading on to Spain. I cannot believe that this day is finally upon me and I am happy, thrilled, excited and scared to death that I will not be ready in time!

4/22/2008 7:42:07 PM
Life not so fantastic right now. I have been away for some time and to my friends, my sincerest apologies. I will check in from time to time. No details at present, though those who believe, please pray for my Moroccan mother who is gravely ill in hospital in Morocco.

Thank You

1/27/2008 8:02:44 PM
Spiritual Pain

1/8/2008 2:40:52 PM
Quick entry, sick and have to work tonight. 4 of the 5 photos are now available. Will be adding more later tonight.

1/6/2008 1:30:18 PM

Five new photos uploaded and awaiting approval. We'll see!


12/19/2007 11:32:38 PM
It is late so I am not bothering with all that colour and font business. I was married 15 June 2007 to mine, had spent 5.5 weeks back in Morocco, where I call home, for the wedding. I had to come back to the US briefly for surgery to correct one of many disailities and a family death. Now, we have passed our 6 month wedding anniversary. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think anything could be so difficult! I have lived through hell and back several times and all together, they do no equal the horiffic nature of this. March, at least before together again.

He is a professor and moved to a new school which takes him away from net and phone all week. 6 nights talking down to 1. He is, we pray moving to Spain in January for 2 years and I will follow in March.

Now I have switched my position at work to overnights as the winter cold increases disabilities to a point of inability to physically do what I was doing at work. I still have the same responsibilities and can get them done at night with a few hours plunked in during the day.

I work, sleep, cover obligations, volunteer, work, sleep, work, work and work some more.

12/12/2007 8:07:24 AM
Yay, yessss, does the happy dance!  I was finally able to work out the schedule at work to place myself on the overnight shift. I can do this 3 nights per week, get in all of my hours and still maintain doing the same job position as before. This nearly made me cry as it will be so much less physically demanding.  Hopefully now I will stop burning/hurting myself and not knowing about it for days until I actully see it. Nerve damage tends to do that to one.  I never feel it happen or thereafter until I see cuts and burns etc.

Seeing doc Friday regarding sinus surgery, another thing I should have really considered 20 yrs ago but didn't want to think about. Now, something has to be done.

Work scheduling, at this point, is the only pleasant thing I can comment on. Well that and hubby is picking up his appointment to see about moving to Spain in January. At least he heard back and has his appointment in January. I suppose I will hear more this weekend when we speak.

''Don't take yourself so seriously. In the grand scheme, you aren't that important.'' 

11/26/2007 8:13:59 PM
Tomorrow, Tuesday, begins another work week for me and a busy one at that. I need to call the garage in the morning to check on my tire which was flat on Sunday, then I am off and running. I am into work earlier than usual tomorrow, picked up a new job title which now includes 2 hours work on a Friday, one of my usual days off, and I also have several before work appointments this week.

So, if you do not hear from me other than a short board post, don't worry I will be about. I will do my best to reply to owed Cmails as time allows after work. Not getting home from work most nights until 10.30p places a bit of a damper on writing letters as I am brain fried by then due to the nature of my work.

11/12/2007 5:14:13 PM

Life is difficult at present, very very difficult. Should I owe you an email as I have promised or a return CMail, then you will receive it. I simply cannot say when with any surity today. ~sighs and wishes to evaporate~


11/5/2007 6:19:51 AM
Okay, for many reasons Spain will be in March and not January.  I am not happy though nothing can be done to change it.

11/5/2007 6:12:12 AM
OMG, if I read ONE more profile that comes across my screen saying things such as this I am going to scream so loudly that my husband will likely hear it in Morocco. This IRKS me to no end!..............These are all seeking.

''someone who is as comfortable in the vanilla world as they ae behind closed doors''  (most likely seeking a sexual thing only) ''someone who has a vanilla life outside of bdsm/D/s'' (no, we all sit home and polish our cuffs all day)  ''someone who has vanilla interests.''  (nope, could not possibly have one single interest in life besides D/s) I could go on and on ad nauseum!  This must have a vanilla life thing shows utter ignorance no matter how long someone has been a submissive or Dominant. Of course we all have to function in the world at large and, I would hope, are well rounded individuals!  As for the psychopaths I cannot speak of them though their number is far less than ''we regular folks.''

The POINT is, we are all human beings living LIFE. This is all about life!  I am Dominant in one way or another wherever I am and whatever I am doing. That is why I get more pay at work, come too close to yelling at Wal Mart staff and regularly piss my mother off.  Do I go to work , shopping or out to eat wearing leather and carrying a flogger and cuffs??  I have been Dominant since I was 4 but come on people and get real. Life is life.

Just as a by the way, D/s can be quite easily lived 24/7 in the world if not made a huge production of. It is not as if I would ask mine to kneel while we are out in a cafe in Morocco. Should people be asking that someone kneel in an inappropriate way or place, then the Dominant and possibly the submissive have larger issues to deal with. Would I yell/call for mine (for, not at mine) when he isn't right next to me because I need a cold drink and him to retrieve it? Yes and even in Moroccan society that is simply seen as love.

This used to make me laugh, these vanilla world statements and now they make me want to scream!

Rant over............for the time being.

10/16/2007 11:12:13 PM
You know, I have sent out many many messages to those whose profile blurbs come across my page with what I consider to be polite assistance, advice, help etc.. Only to receive a small handful of replies that were not deplorable including, but not limited to, vulgar name calling.  Yet I have used no vulgarity, insults and the like. Know this, I'd rather be me and give than to go sit in a corner and become bitter in not giving. In real life, pain can accompany that and even pain causes me to know I am alive at least.

Just for the record I have a rare and unique only to me growth disorder. This LADY was a Rockette at one time before genetics kicked in and I became a 20 year research guinea pig. This disorder caused a great deal of muscle mass to be built and I make no apologies for being a brick shithouse. Though, guess what people? I LIVE in this body and therefore do not need anyone to remind me of my stature. I am 44 and still taking on small amounts of height as well. Big damned deal.  To some it may well be though to the most important of people, me, it is not. I accept that which I cannot change and go for it changing all that can be changed in life!

I am what I am. Accept it or DO let the door hit you in the ass on the way out.

To the gentleman who emailed regarding how normal I am, please message again. Somehow all of my mail was deleted, ugh.

10/8/2007 8:47:53 PM
Feeling a bit better and planning the move to Gerona Spain for 30 January. Hell there is a great deal to do! I am shipping only one box ahead weighing 44 pounds. I'd like to ship more but it's damned expensive! I need only to pay for shipping, new luggage and any new clothes I may need, pocket money and that's it. Parents want most of my furniture and what I don't want I am simply leaving in this apartment for my shitface landlady to take care of!!

Friday's paycheck is 19 hours for  2 week period..............damn. I am going to need to work my schedule whether I feel ill or not.

Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears.


10/3/2007 1:19:06 PM
EEEEEEgads! I am moving to Spain the end of January and the doctor calls me at work today to give me the oh so happy news that my gallbladder has to come out and my spleen is enlarged. Yippeeeee! NOT.

Yes, I got your message regarding my normalcy and will respond as soon as I am able. I am now at home as I was sent home from work again today sick. Oh well, shit happens and life goes on.

Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain.



9/26/2007 2:20:18 PM
WOW!  Put moving and friends in the same entry and watch the friends dry up. Makes you sorta go hmmmm.

9/25/2007 7:26:28 PM
I will know by Wednesday morning if I can cancel this move or not. I am only waiting to hear back from one more source. I also will be moving abroad again, not to return, in 4-6 months. Therefore, I am seeking friends only until I leave.

I was at the ER all afternoon and evening and have a huge bone to pick with my employer!!! GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

9/24/2007 4:53:47 PM
Well it seems as though I may be moving abroad again in 4-6 months time. I am not sure what is going on with the local move here now and need to figure it out fairly soon.

Great minds discuss concepts. Average minds discuss events. Small minds discuss other people.

9/21/2007 4:12:36 PM
I have known some whose requests seem utterly insane but peel the onion and find that they seek someone who can creep into their mind, wrap one's self around it and control with a glance. Though they will never be comparable to a female submissive, they tend to at least state the extreme as many, I believe, think that is what female Dominants seek. Of course, you will always have the fringe who actually do want the extreme.

You have to consider that from the male perspective, the caveman still exists. So he believes that the ONLY way to give up all control is to have it taken by force just as he would in business or other life areas

9/17/2007 10:00:48 PM
The important thing is this: To be ready at any moment to sacrifice what you are for what you could become.

9/17/2007 9:54:13 PM
I am not feeling so well, am working too many hours and need to have my place packed and be ready to move by October 5th. I have no help at this point to get it done. Damnit!

9/15/2007 7:11:18 PM
No, do NOT send Me your Yahoo or MSN ID. I am NOT going to go hunting you down and my Yahoo is reserved for those whom I have spoken with and have some sort of foundation with be it friendship or more. So stop with all of the messenger IDs as they will simply be ignored.

9/15/2007 4:37:58 PM
Nobody has asked Me though I am going to say it anyway. No, I am not a bottle blonde.

9/13/2007 10:20:00 PM
Submission is NOT a gift! The person is the gift, the submission the reward.

9/13/2007 7:03:07 PM
Okay, WHAT is with all of these 18-20 something ''Dominants'' and where did they all come from?  I could say the same of submissives, however, a submissive is NOT the one playing with another's psyche!  I have been at CM for a number of years under many IDs and have never seen so much of this before. Frankly I find it frightening to say the least. Most are vanilla with kink I have found but do the younger submissives know this or care before jumping into something that could potentially play with their life AND mind??

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