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READ MY JOURNAL BEFORE CONTACTING ME My search for servants is on hold pending some business matters though I am not cutting loose those who are already in contact with me as once things settle I will be in a position to consider bringing someone or some ones under my care. Also have some spirit, doormats can just lay where they are. Catch my attention and we can go from there. BTW if you are a male older than 40 then either keep walking or have one hell of an impressive reason for me to consider you.

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12/6/2013 10:30:34 PM

Success can be a real pain in the ass.

 

I agreed to help dissolve the business my mistress had built so that the estate could be closed and her brother and I could move on with our lives. Somewhere along the way I got talked into keeping several of her oldest clients and continuing the business under a new name. Long story short I now am busier than I thought I could be trying to do the work we did together alone. Even with fewer clients my social life is almost non existent.

All work and no play is making Eva a very cranky bitch. While my search for my perfect solution has produced no ideal candidates I am interviewing a few hopefuls that can lighten my load if not warm my bed. If I find the right person then perhaps I can try to find that bed warmer I need.


3/8/2013 1:23:55 PM

I need to update this but for the time being I will give everyone the short version of the last 9 months. Last September my dearest mistress died from heart failure. I have been spending a great deal of my time since helping her brother sort out her affairs and deciding where I go from here.

I have been a switch for most of my adult life but for now I can not see myself kneeling at anyone's feet without feeling that I am either settling for less than I had or that I am betraying her memory.

So yes i am listing myself as a Domme and would appreciate it if others who prefer that role do not try to convince me that they will be a worthy replacement for my lost love.YIX


5/1/2012 9:15:21 AM

where to start... I could tell you about my punishment tonight. I was sent to work on a client's system today with strict instructions on breaks and lunch. Lunch was to be 45 minutes since I would have to leave the site to eat. Breaks were to be 10 minutes each one in the morning and one in the afternoon if I was still on site. The morning went without incident and lunch, while filling was nothing special. On the other hand it was my afternoon break that got me into trouble. I was at a point where I had a batch job to run and nothing I needed or would be able to do until it finished. So i start the batch and pulled out my laptop to catch up on my mail. As there was very little I decided to see if any friends were online that I could gab with. I opened up my yahoo mail and let it connect to the IM system. There I found an old friend of Mistress and myself. We spent some time catching up and before I knew it the server beeped letting me know that it was finished. I bid her goodbye and got ready to close up and head home. Only then did I notice the time. My ten minute break had been closer to 35 minutes!!! oops When I got home Mistress was waiting for me and asked me how my day had gone. I gave her a rundown as to what I had accomplished and told her that we shouldn't need to visit again until June. She gave me a smile and asked me if there was anything else she needed to know. With my head low I confessed to her that I had gone over my allowance for a break and asked for her mercy. She told me that she had also been on this afternoon and had talked to our friend learning from her that I had been on longer than allowed. She was pleased that I confessed but punishment was in order. She pointed up to the loft and simply said "prepare and wait." I went up and carefully removed all my clothes folding them neatly and setting then on my dresser. I then took my place in front of the wall kneeling with my fingers crossed i the small of my back. I waited quietly listening for the sound of her feet on the stairs. I did not have long to wait. she entered the room and stood beside me quietly, I knew better than to turn to look. She tapped my shoulder and gestured for me to rise. She placed before me a stack of quarters. "our friend had some suggestions I found interesting so I think we will try something new tonight." She took a coin from the stack and placed it on the wall before me. "Hold that there would you dear?" I placed my finger on it and waited.One by one she placed more coins on the wall until all my fingers were holding a coin in place. " Not one coin is to touch the ground or you will recieve recieve 12 strokes with the cane for each." She then placed a hood over my head and I was in darkness. Her hands began wandering over my body lightly caressing me. Then SWAT!!! A strike on one breast. caress One on my thigh caress face This went on for a long time my body aching between need for her touch and stinging from her blows. Then nothing. Strain as I might I could not hear a thing. then it came, a tap on my ankle. "open pet" I carefully shifted my feet apart trying very hard to keep the coins in place. a light touch on my inner thigh, almost a breath. Oh Lord she has a feather. back and forth she went from thigh to thigh across my lips as I tried to stay still my hips swaying with a mind of their own. I heard her giggle as a moan escaped my lips "Ah but I believe this was supposed to be a punishment wasn't it?" I heard her walk across the room and return. Then one of her hands was on my breast kneading it and pinching the nipple. SWAT SWAT SWAT Three hard blows hit my ass very fast. She had her hairbrush. without missing a beat she continued working my breasts with one hand as she rained pain on my ass with the other. Tears ran down my face as I gasped at the feelings of pleasure and pain wracking my body. She moved her questing hand downward and opened my pussy seeking my clit. My thighs thrashed and I struggled to keep my fingers in place. My orgasm was so close but I struggled to keep away from that edge knowing falling there would also bring more punishment without permission. closer...closer...I began to beg her for permission. "Cum too soon and you will sleep bound with hot sauce on your clit pet." she plunged her fingers into me working my clit with her thumb as the hairbrush fell so fast I couldn't catch my breath. "remember if a coin falls you get the cane" the thought of stripes from the cane on top of the fire on my ass held me in place. closer....closer... suddenly I was pushed away from the wall and seemed to fall forever, all I could think of was the coins I knew were falling to the floor and what that would meen to me. then arms were around me and the sweet taste of mistress' lips were on mine. I was guided to the floor and the mask removed. She was cradling in her arms and smiling. "Well done pet, Now you may cum for me." I screamed as the wave I had been holding back swept over me. I was safe and loved and happy.


1/5/2012 5:58:34 PM

Last night was very revealing, in more ways than one. Mistress and i were both talking with a friend here when they began to discuss what went on during the session I posted about yesterday.

The subject came up as to what exactly I had promised in return for being allowed to cum during my ordeal. mistress instructed me to answer the questions truthfully and as I did I became more and more embarrassed about what had come out of my mouth. The more I told the redder I got and the more I wanted to hide. I finally revealed something so depraved I couldn't stand it further and closed down my computer and ran into the bathroom before mistress could stop me.

Rather than bang angrily on the door and demand i come out mistress came to the door and asked if I was ok. Bit by bit she calmed me down then feeling foolish I came out.

She sat me down and we talked about all the things I had promised and one by one she either set them aside or told me if and wear they would fit into our relationship and play. Some of my most outrageous were things she would never do to me, some were appropriate only if i had erred in a major way, and some are definitely in my future. One very special one became a promise of a new level of our relationship if we both decide this is what we want for the long haul.

Once we finished talking she reminded me that we had left our friend hanging with no idea of what happened. I agreed that i had been foolish in running away and promised to make explanations and beg her for forgiveness.

Mistress informed me that she was not angry with me but I deserved some kind of punishment. I prepared myself for a paddling but that was not what happened.

She took me to her bed and tied my hands and feet to the bedposts. Then she produced a feather and began to tickle my feet. I thrashed helpless in the bonds as she found every ticklish spot on my body and used them. I was out of breath and my sides were aching before she finally stopped and kissed my forehead.

She held me as my breathing calmed and then softly asked me what I wanted more than anything right then. My first answer i will not share because she said it was too soon. But my second was the gift she had denied me for four long days and she smiled as she said yes. Leaving me bound she lowered her mouth to my pussy and began to kiss and lick me. After 4 days it was the most wonderful thing i had ever felt. It was not long before i was whimpering and begging her permission to let go. With a giggle she whispered "yes". It was incredible, she sucked my clit into her mouth as my orgasm rolled over me and shook me to my core.

"That is one" she said and reach for her vibe. She placed it on my clit and began to drive her tongue deep into my pussy. My second orgasm took me before i could beg permission and I found myself begging her forgiveness as she laughed at me. Her response was to plunge the vibe deep into my pussy and then reach for a second one to tease my asshole. The climb was more gradual but when it came my climax was even more powerful than the ones before. I lay yhtere gasping and feeling like a rag that had been wrung out, yet my body also hummed with the deep contentment of being utterly satisfied. In this daze i heard her whisper in my ear "last time pet"

As I turned to look at her I saw her slipping on her harness and fitting it with one of her favorite dildos. At first she teased me with it running the head up and down my pussy but not inserting it.Then, slowly she began to thrust into me each stroke going deeper into me. Deeper and deeper she went, the dildo is 18" long and I took almost all of it into my hungry pussy. She took me and left no doubt who i belonged to as she wrung my last orgasm from my tired body.

For a long time we lay there with her still deep into me. Then gently she pulled out and undid my bonds. And I laid there wrapped in her knowing this is exactly where i belong.

I do not care whatever penance i have yet to do for how i arrived here. Last night convinced me every thing I endure is worth what i found here last night.

I am a reckless impetuous slut. I can not be trusted to protect myself from harm. Yet all is good because my mistress has me under her protection and I need fear nothing as long as I am hers.


1/3/2012 4:45:05 PM

Last night I was given a task by an admirer that mistress wants for me to post.

 

My task was to be anally plugged with the largest Toy in mistress' toy box. I made the mistake of mentioning that she had an inflatable butt plug and before I knew it the task was changed to use that toy.

 

After bringing all the required gear to mistress I was placed in a hood and then had a penis gag inserted into my mouth. Mistress inserted the plug into me and gave it a few pumps to expand it enough to keep it in place. I was placed face down on the bondage horse and strapped into place. She reminded me that an orgasm would be dealt with very severely (I had not been allowed for the last three days). She placed a set of headphones on me with the audio track mixed from several porno movies, not the music, the sounds of the action. With the sounds of one woman after another groaning in pleasure filling my ears she placed one of her vibes on my clit and turned it on.

Every time I would get close to losing control the vibe went away and she pumped the plug up a few notches.

Over and over this was repeated. I was rapidly in tears begging her that i would endure any punishment she would deliver if she would only let me cum. With the earphones in place I couldn't hear any response, only the ongoing sounds of passion. I had no idea how long this went on. My face was red with tears and I could feel tears pooled in the hood. Eventually the vibe went away and did not return. I felt the plug expand gradually pump after pump. She expanded me far beyond the point I had ever been before. Each pump felt like it would split me open, but then my bowels were relax and adjust.

After a long pause I felt hands on my bottom massaging my ass and thighs. they worked my bottom staying far enough from my pussy that it was impossible to get off.

Then I was alone, the sounds went away and no one touched me at all. I began to fear mistress was planning to leave me bound all night.My every joint ached from thrashing in my bonds and my nose was running from all the tears I shed.

 

Then after god only knows how long the headphones were removed and her voice was there telling me i had done well and she was pleased with me. I began to cry again. One by one she released my bonds and helped me to my feet, and then down to my knees on the mat. The gag was removed and then the hood. After the hours in darkness even the soft light of the fireplace hurt my eyes. She took my hands in hers and slowly began to release the pressure on the plug. As it deflated I began to feel empty and was shocked when the plug fell out of my ass despite my efforts to keep it in place. I felt hollow and could feel air entering my ass through my gaping hole.

For a time we just sat as my ass slowly adjusted to the absence of the plug.

With a soft kiss mistress told me I had done very well and I was to sleep in the bed with her. She reminded me that Iwas to post this then enfolded me in her arms and rocked me to sleep.


12/29/2011 8:10:15 PM

Training has been an experience to be sure. Tuesday was a test of my endurance. Mistress laid out seven of her dildos from the monstrous OMG (24" long and 4" wide) down to a 9" number I have taken both ways with no problem. I was taken over her knee and the rules were explained to me. I was to receive a long spanking with the hairbrush, I could stop the spanking at any time by telling her I was ready for her to fuck my ass. The longer I endured the smaller the dildo I would have to take. I was given no idea what length of time equaled each size so i had to balance out my endurance against what I was willing to let her stuff into my ass.

I lasted 35 minutes. This earned me a thick beast about 2" thick and 12" long which I took willingly with a very very sore ass and thighs.

Wednesday I was tested on self control and obedience.   After my morning spanking mistress anointed my clit with peppermint oil. I was forbidden to touch myself in any way until she gave me permission. Every hour I received a refresher that burned then settled into an itch. I was trembling with need long before supper. But I did not disobey. After I took my bedtime paddle mistress finally told me that I was permitted to relieve myself and she sat down to watch the show. She demanded 6 orgasms before I was allowed to join her in bed.

Today has been use of my mouth to please her. I spent two hours this morning with my face buried in mistress' ass servicing her with my tongue. The afternoon was spent between her legs and nursing at her breasts, all while my hands were bound to a belt at my waist. My tongue is numb. But she is pleased with my efforts and I am allowed to join her in bed again tonight.


12/24/2011 8:51:42 AM

The last 48 hours have been terrible and wonderful and beyond anything I had imagined when I began this quest.

 

As per mistress' instructions I let people I placed on my favorites list know that they could give me one order that I would have to obey without question. For most of the night no one had taken me up on the opportunity. When I was almost out of time tobeslut Answered and and challenged me to take a cold bottle of Pepsi anally. Mistress came in while I worked the bottle into my ass and found a seat to enjoy the show. She informed me that once I had it in I would be getting my bed time spanking. Once i had it completely in a new problem came up, the cold of the bottle caused my bowels to cramp violently doubling me over. mistress came over and held me as I rode it out then told me that we had a friend online. Domme26 had come on so I sent her our regards and told her that mistress had decided she would choose my evening punishment. Domme26 was sweet as always and assigned me 10 cuts with a fresh cut switch. Mistress decided that was a good idea and stepped out on the porch to cut a branch for me to clean.

She brought me in a 36" branch and tossed it to me and I cleaned it of bark and extra branches while she talked with her friend.

Once i was finished I was placed over a stack of pillows and given the keyboard so I could tell Domme26 each stroke. It started out slow with me counting each stroke and begging for the next as instructed, I was in tears by the third cut it hurt so much. Then, mistress gave me the last 4 cuts rapidly and all i could do was scream as the pain burned through my ass.

Then things took a strange turn. She dropped the switch and was carefully examining my ass cursing profusely. She informed me that two of the last 4 strokes had broken skin She took me gently into her arms and guided me to the bathroom where she carefully tended to my ass. She bundled me into my cushions and went to make a call. I could not hear what was said but when she came in to lay down she kissed my cheek softly and i could see her eyes were red with tears.

I woke form my sleep to the ringing of the door. realizing that I was not shackled I jumped up to answer the door as was proper. Standing there looking like a thundercloud was Mistress Maria, the lady who had accompanied mistress the night she came to my hotel room. As i took her coat she inquired as to mistress' whereabouts and I told her I assumed she was still in her bed.

She strode into the bedroom and I heard some angry tones then mistress telling me to stay out and to await them in the play room. I hurried there and knelt awaiting their arrival more than a little nervous.

When they arrived I could not believe what i saw. Mistress was nude and being led into the room by her hair by Maria. Maria put her on her knees before me and demanded her to tell me what was happening.

Mistress infored me that as cruel as she was she demanded as much from herself as she did from me or any other slave she took into her care. Part of that was a cardinal rule that drawing blood was not acceptable during play or discipline. She had broken that rule by being careless and her standards required that she must face the consequences of that carelessness.

Maria was here to administer that correction.

Maria put me on my knees at the base of the wall then bound mistress' hands to the wall above me and her feet to rings in the floor. She told me I could offer her any comfort I wished but to mind where she was working so that i would not suffer instead of her. I watched helpless as Maria methodically spent two hours working mistress over with straps, paddles, and her gloved hands until there was almost no place on her body that was not red and welted. I cried and screamed along with her until we were both hoarse. It was terrible to watch when all i could do was try to hold her while she endured it.

Then Maria brought out the switch and gestured me over beside her. She told me that we it was almost over but one more thing was to be done. She told me that mistress was to receive 10 strokes of the switch for each cut she had drawn blood on.

I refused. She slapped me hard enough to put me on the floor then helped me back up. She told me to ask mistress if I doubted what to do but never again to assume to outright tell her no.

With a hoarse whisper mistress begged me to do as i was told otherwise she would receive much more than twenty from Maria and I would punished as well. I`saw no mercy in the eyes of the woman who told me less than a week ago how fortunate a fool like me was to have mistress take notice of me.

With trembling hands I took the switch and gave mistress her first stroke. She jerked but Maria told me if I did not give her good hard strokes then she would tie me right beside her and switch both of us from neck to ankle. My next stroke drew a whimper form her and then as I laid stroke after stroke on her beautiful body she began to cry then scream. Long before the last stroke I was crying just as hard as she was it was so difficult to do.

When i had given the last stroke I began to bend and break the damn switch wanting to destroy it. Since it was green all I managed to do was twist it into a tangle. Maria gathered her things and told me to rend to my mistress, as she left she told me that there was some strength in me that surprised her. She kissed my forehead and left.

I rushed to take down mistress and lay there on the floor with her in my arms as we both cried until I thought we would die.

Then, finally at the point where she could once again speak she told me to draw a warm bath and then come back to help her into it.

I hurried to do as she had ordered, worried that this would be the end of us together. With great care I helped her into the bath and began to wash her trying very hard not to cause me more pain. Every time the cloth touched a welt she would flinch and then tell me to continue. As i worked my way around to her front I found her looking at me with a warmth that i had longed to see from the first day I saw her.

With soft hsnds she took the cloth from my hands and pulled me to her covering my mouth with her and locking me into an embrace that left nothing to discuss about her intentions or feelings. I don't know how long we spent in each others arms exploring our bodies. But when we finally came up for air she took my face in her hands and told me she was sorry for everything from wounding me and then making me endure the ordeal Maria had put her through. She then smiled and took me into her lap her breasts like twin pillows on my back. Her fingers began to work my nipples as she bit and nibbled my neck and shoulders. She would bring me close then settle to rubbing my breasts and belly until I calmed. Then she began again over and over until I was ready to scram from need. She whispered in my ear, you made a decision for me this morning pet. Her fingers began to work my pussy, her thumb on my clit. She took me higher and higher and just when i thought she would back off again she said "Now!" and took me over the top. I came so hard I lost track of everything but her touch. When I came down she was laughing and her arms enfolded me in warmth and security. We sat there like that so long our hands were like prunes when she finally told me that she was hungry and I needed to put on some tea.

I ran to the kitchen and made her tea just as she had taught me on the first day. I placed everything on the tray and carefully made my way back to where she sat at the table. I set out her cup and saucer, laid the slice of lemon beside it, and poured her tea spilling not a single drop. Proud of the smile I saw on her face as I finished I dropped to my knees beside her to await her pleasure.

She sipped her tea and then placing back on the saucer, she turned to me and cupped my face in her hand.

"Maria was right little one, there is a great deal of strength in you. I will help you tap that and together we came accomplish amazing things."

She told me to raise my chin and then picked something up from the table. placed her hands around my neck and I heard the snap of a clasp shutting.

"You came here looking for something that you barely knew about. You scared the shit out of me in your pursuit of me bringing up some bad memories you had no way of knowing existed. I was uncertain of exactly how prepared you were to live the life you were asking me for, but this morning you proved yourself beyond all my expectations. Will you wear my mark, obeying and trusting me in all things?"

I could barely answer for my crying but I think I stammered out a yes and started bawling again.

We are going out for lunch and some shopping. And then i do not expect to have an opportunity to be on again until after Christmas is over. I have my wish for Christmas and hope all of you receive yours as well.


12/20/2011 7:10:04 PM

Failed my first close physical inspection. Missed a few hairs on my pussy, 20 there with the belt then 5 minutes over her knee with her hard hand. Warned that if I fail tomorrow she will pluck them and then punish me.


12/19/2011 5:30:52 PM

Spent the day with mistress and learned how my life will be lived for the near future.

 

I spent the morning making arrangements to spend the winter here near mistress, took the car back to the rental agency, checked out of the motel, called friends and relatives to let them know I am here and safe.

Mistress is still serious about her privacy so I traveled to her home hooded and gagged.

Her home is beautiful and I understand why she treasures this retreat from the rest of the world. We ar so far from the road and anyone else that you can only hear the sounds of the wind and the occasional animals. I spent the afternoon in the yard tethered to a tree after asking too many questions when I was supposed to be listening to mistress.

I will spend Christmas and new years here learning from her both my duties and the rules of my compact with her. She is cruel but she is also very protective of me. She fitted me for a harness this afternoon making sure there was no slack to shift and pinch when she suspends me. I was slapped several times until I gave her straight answers instead of what I thought she wanted to hear. She went over my duties for when I am allowed to come here in the future. I am to spend this holiday season learning the standards she expects me to keep her home. For now I am allowed to keep my hair but she has told me that if I have not mastered the cooking and housekeeping by Christmas then the day after I will be shaved. Everything other than my head is to be kept shaved smooth and I am to keep myself clean and sweet smelling. She showed me a stiff bristle brush that will be used first on my ass and then on my skin should I fail to keep myself to her standards.

I was also introduced to her pond. She takes pride in being part of the polar bear club and I will be expected to join her in the pond New Years morning. This afternoon I got a taste when she tossed me in. BRRRRRR!!!

Outside I am allowed a snowsuit one piece. Indoors I will be bare unless mistress instructs otherwise. I will not be leaving here until the 3rd of January when we will go looking for an apartment for me to stay in while I work. During the week I will work and live in town. If mistress is home on the weekend I will be allowed to visit and serve her. Other than the orgasms she allows me I am not to have sex at any time. I am allowed to play online but may not cam or make any other contact with any of the people I play with. If I play I am to follow any order i am given that does not endanger me or violate the prior rules. I am not to contact or accept contacts from males under any circumstances unless she arranges it. She will have a key and I am to be prepared to drop everything and attend her at any time i am not at work.

This is my life and how i am to live until I am either found worthy of her or sent away.


12/18/2011 5:57:30 PM

I have been an idiot.

I chased after a mistress who has a major issue about her privacy for reasons i did not understand until tonight.

I made contact with her tomorrow to tell her that I was near her and wanted to meet her. She told me I could meet her tomorrow at a restaurant.

 

I came out of my shower tonight to a knock on the door. She was standing there with another lady and both were visibly upset. They came in and told me that if I did not do exactly as told I would be sorry. Police cuffs were brought out and in a moment I was locked to the bar in the closet nude with the other lady watching me like she wanted an excuse to break something. After mistress searched the room and was sure I did not come armed or accompanied I was ordered to my knees and she spent the next hour questioning me as to why I was here and what I thought I was doing. I poured out all the answers she asked and told her of my desire to serve her. That seemed to anger her and somehow amuse her friend.

After chewing me out and telling me in great detail exactly what she thought of my decision to travel all this way in search of her she finally left to get some air and I was alone with her scary friend. 

 

Maria then had a few things to tell me as to why mistress was upset enough to preempt our meeting and track me down tonight. I am not to tell more than the fact that she was hurt badly by a stalker and on that level my actions had terrified her. On the other had she told me that mistress had said many good things about me prior to reading my message to her and that the worst I should fear is to be rejected and told to go back to Chicago.

 

After a time she did return and simply sat in a chair staring at me kneeling there for what seemed like forever. She finally asked me if I still wanted to serve her. Almost in tears I begged her to accept me. She then told me that she was still angry that i was so stupid as to come without permission and said that whether or not she accepted my service I should be punished. I was told I had two choices, submit to the punishment with no promise that she would accept me or tell her no and she would leave and forbid me from ever seeing her again.

My decision was simple I told her I would accept whatever she decided was proper.

She tied me to a chair and spent the next hour lecturing me and punishing my ass, breasts, and legs.

She has just left and told me she would be back at ten to tell me her final decision. until then I stay on my knees and wait....


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Diosito
 
 Switch, Age:  41
 Pasadena, California
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