Well I'm half way there to earning the privilege of meeting my mistress. I still cant believe I'm doing this on the hope of meeting mistress but will be worth it if she allows me to serve her. I got hard again, that worries me still :(

I had to do something today that sickened me to my very core. I'm so confused. Mistress rented me out, I had to do things with a man that I cant believe I did. The only thing that kept me going was the thought that it was for mistress and what she says goes.

I hate him for paying to have me be his bitch and I hate myself for doing it. I hate myself even more as I got hard whilst serving a man, I'm not gay and I got hard, I'm so confused

I need my mistress so bad

Performed for mistress on cam again today she made me feel so worthless and useless. Mistress is my boss, she is my life, she is what I live for.

I want to meet miss so bad it hurts. Mistress does not want money or tribute, she wants me to earn the privilege by being used for her financial gain. Sounds frightening! :(

Started to chat to someone amazing today although she does sound frightening. I'm excited yet scared at the same time if that makes any sense. I'm hoping she will consider me even though I'm a complete novice, happy days! :)