Had an experience this morning which has left me somewhat conflicted so I'm backing away from CM for a while.

Thanks for your understanding.

Enn

Hey guys, random rant.

This doesn't apply to everyone, but is an idle heads up for those who are wondering where all the real women are.

I have just encountered a man with a promising profile. I messaged him to tell him that, although we seem rather incompatible, I enjoyed reading his profile. We swapped some polite messages, right up until he insulted a friend of mine. Then when I politely took umbrage, swore at me and blocked me.

I hate to tell you this, guys, but this guy still falls into the top 5% of people I chat to on here. All those of you reading this probably do, too. But if you wanna know why most women treat all the men here like shit and keep you at arms length, it's 'cause this is the sort of man we're used to dealing with.

Peace

My previous profile, when I was seeking long term. It tells you a lot about me as a person so I thought it was worth hanging onto.

I'll preface by saying I'm a girl of equal and opposites. I get depressed, stress and anxious easily, but I'm actually very cheerful most of the time. I'm the kind of girl who, if I like you, I'll squeak and bounce in the seat when I get mail from you, kiss my phone goodbye when I've spoken to you, and always have a smile and a hug for you when we meet.

As a submissive, I am very devoted. To me, it's not about the kinky sex (though that is lots of fun). I don't submit to someone because they break me down and "put me in my place." I don't submit to someone because I'm scared of them. I don't obey orders through fear of punishment. I submit because I am a caring person, desperate to please. If I am given an order and get it wrong, I will be devastated. I live for praise and affection; I've never had much of either. I can easily be put down with a harsh look or a warning word, and will be apologetic for the rest of the day. In three years and two Masters I've only been punished once; I have no desire to earn a punishment again. Not to be confused with funishment scenes by the way. If I have to explain the distinction to you, odds are you're not the one for me.

I'm not a masochist, and there are lots of things that frighten me, but as it gets me unlimited cuddles and praise I'll always do my best to please the man in my life. My biggest sexual fear is for "hitting" in it's many forms; spanking, caning, paddling, crops, the belt, etc. That's not to say that I won't do them, if I like you I'll endure what I can...but I'm very frightened of those things and very sensitive to them. I guess if you get off on the conflicting emotions, the anxiety and tears of your girl, then it's perfect. If you just want someone you can hit really hard, I'm certainly not for you!

I'm very much a little girl, looking to do things right. With a loving Daddy I will endure most things. I'm very vulnerable to someone when I submit to them, giving to them wholeheartedly. Even without the Daddy/girl dynamic, the incest play, age play or anything else, I have always been and will always remain childlike in my submission. Complete vulnerability, complete, unconditional devotion.

The only requirements I have are these;

1 - No married men. And by "married" I mean "in any sort of relationship." I'm sick of being the bit on the side, being dropped at a moments notice because 'she' is suspicious, or being strung along with "I'll leave her when the time is right." If you are cheating, then at best, you are seriously lacking in either balls or self awareness. I don't disagree with it morally as such, I just figure you shouldn't need to juggle two people to make you happy; find one and stick with it.

2 - You must be an actual Dominant; no just someone who does Dominant scenes. Someone who thinks like a Dom 24/7, not just someone who walks and talks it when they feel like it. I'm not just looking for a weekly spank n fuck; I'm looking for someone who will take control of every area of my life, give me daily jobs and contact, and do the 24/7 thing. Don't get me wrong; I don't wanna be kept tied up, naked or caged all the time or anything. But I think D/s is like romance; you have times when it's more or less intense, but you don't become a couple only when you have sex; you're always together, even when you're doing something complete separate and non-sexy. So is the way with D/s.

3 - I have very few hard limits, but a lot of issues. A first date with me will probably be either non-sexual or several hours long. I'm very safety conscious and get spooked quite easily. If you've read this far you've probably gathered I have a lot of "stuff" going on in my background, and although I don't need someone to deal with it for me, it is something that will always effect how I relate to people. More details available on request. It also means I may meet you and decide for some very vague, unidentifiable reason that I'm just not comfortable with you. It's not necessarily something you've done; it's just how I interpret you. Oh, and similarly; I'll happily trot down to the VD clinic with you, get tested, and prove I have nothing. I will expect the same from you before I let you cum in any orifice without a condom. That includes my mouth. Having to suit up every time even for a BJ is expensive and inconvenient, but then, it's still better than dying 30 years early from AIDS.

Got a friend aggressively telling me that homosexuality is just plain wrong and going the turkey baster route to have a baby with your lesbian girlfriend is child abuse.

WTF is up with this picture?!

If you wanna really impress me gimmie your views in your PM's.

Enn

Eeeerch housework. Got someone coming over today so I guess I'd better do it lol.

If I'm not around much, you bro's know why!

Has a good day with a good friend. Better than yesterday, and hopefully, not as good as tomorrow :-)

BTW; still under consideration, guys!

Having a down and anxious day today, so guys, don't get angry with me if I don't respond 'kay? Not up to much today.

Thankees

Guys, you know how there's a little "willing to relocate" option you can tick if you ARE willing to relocate?

I don't have it ticked. Guess what that means?

PLEASE stop asking me to move to your end of the country/another country/your boat traveling around the ocean/whatever. I have a son and his paternal family to think about.

Thanks.

Apparently I pissed off one of the collarme paedophiles; he's telling people (probably under a sock puppet woman's account) that I'm a boy. If you get this message but like my profile feel free to make contact anyways; I'll happily prove my identity with a proof pic of your choosing.

Enn

Just to make it clear; I'm chatting with intent to someone who appears genuine and just what I'm looking for. For the next couple of weeks I'll happily talk to friends, but until I know how things are going with the nice Daddy I'm talking to, I won't consider you for anything else, I won't meet for a drink, and I'm not taking new applicants for casual/phone/cyber sex.

Thanks.

Some things to bear in mind if you think you might like to message me...

1 - Yes, I'm always happy to make friends and chat with people. That said, I don't consider someone who only ever wants to swap fantasies online a friend. It does nothing for me, and I'll not see you in a good light if you try and insist on being "just a friend" while sending me your cock shots.

2 - I love the English language. Please don't defile it with txtspk and easily resolved spelling error's; CM comes with a spell check facility. If you want to talk to me, in any context, please use it.

3 - If you have no profile, no likes, and your message is a one-liner or a generic "Hi I like your profile this is my IM address" copy/paste, I won't message you back. I get a lot of emails from a lot of guys; I like to know SOMETHING about someone before I devote a chunk of my day to getting to know more.

4 - I don't submit to switches (although I'll happily consider them for fuck buddies) or women.

5 - I don't submit to men under 35. Ever. In fact I've never submitted to anyone under 50 long term, although I've met a few casually with good effect. Also, don't assume you're too old; the oldest man I've been with was 100 (a friend of my granddads. He could have 100 candles on his cake, or a BJ for his birthday.) so older men do not scare me!

Finally; you'll impress me if you message me telling me what movies you enjoy, how you like your tea, that we share a passion for firefly or that you would love to own some chickens. You WILL NOT impress me if you message me telling me that you share all my kinks and telling me I'm clearly a "true" submissive. The sort of submissive I am, true or otherwise, believes that the kinky sex makes up just 10% of what we do, so having them in common with someone is relatively unimportant.

That's all folks!

Already inundated with messages! Haha.

I'm always happy to chat with people and make friends, but I believe in pursuing one path at a time, so please be aware that although I'll happily chat as friends and keep you in mind if things don't work out, I'm planning to meet someone this weekend, and chatting to a couple of others. I'm not currently with someone or under consideration, but I am no actively looking for anyone else to talk to in "that" context just at the moment.

Always happy to make friends, though!

A fresh start, as it were :-) And to counter the slightly gloomier than normal profile; a few things about me that you probably don't know! ;-)

1 - I was introduced to BDSM when I was 10 years old by a wonderful Mistress/slave couple on my street. This is probably why I think BDSM begins in the mind not the bedroom; I didn't know about the sexual aspect until years later!

2 - My fave colour is green.

3 - I have a son, 2 guinea pigs named Peppa and Chloe (named by Jr. After the Peppa Pig characters), and plan to get chickens this year if I can ever actually afford it.

4 - I have a huge kink for watching people dress or undress. Not necessarily in a strip-tease way; it just strikes me as something sort of intimate.

5 - The more something scares me, the more it turns me on with the right person.

6 - I have had several poems and short stories published, and hope one day to write professionally.

7 - I compare myself to Rae from Black Snake Moan; I start going wobbly if I don't get sexed up regularly ;-)

8 - I HATE needles. The one hard limit I have that will never, ever change, is needles. Fucking hate them. I hate them enough that I would rather have my teeth pulled without anesthetic than have the injection to numb it first. So no needles. Seriously. None. Ever.

9 - I love Firefly; it's my fave sci fi show of all time. If you're also a fan let me know; I'll throw you a fuck just for being awesome.

10 - I take my tea with half a cup of milk, half a cup of hot water.