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| It isn't always, you know. Easier to obey. When I don't belong, it's a struggle to obey, if I even choose to do so at all. My personality has never been submissive. I did not grow up trying to please the grown-ups. A cherished family member told me regularly that my contrary nature began in infancy. As I grew, so did that aspect of my nature and when a man told me that I am a natural submissive, I laughed at him. I also agreed to obey him, just to prove him wrong. Because contrary.?
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The freedom I gained when released from belonging felt restrictive. It was a loss that took away my breath and the ground beneath my feet, for awhile.?
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I again have direction and freedom, if not belonging. Giving up the freedom and direction willingly is not an option, and if belonging is to occur it must be in tandem.?
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I'm poly. I am available.
Right now I don't drive. That may or may not change in the future. This doesn't mean I can't get where I want to go, but it does mean I'm less likely to travel out of town to meet someone new since it requires a much larger time investment than it did when I drove. I am more willing to invest time once I know someone well enough to feel like they value me as much as I value them.
Occasionally I travel to the Seattle area.
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