confessions: i grew up with a boner for molly ringwald. even though i am, was, and always will be punk as fuck (dead kennedys, stiff little fingers, pogues, clash, refused, jawbreaker) i can no longer pretend my affection for the early phil collins oeuvre is entirely ironic. i believe the popcorn scene in real genius is the pinnacle of cinematic achievement. i believe kanye west may be the only genius in the music industry today. i read nietzsche as self-help. i once paid a woman 75 to give me a vicious wedgie, and would probably do it again. baseball, tennis, chess, and lacrosse are the only sports i care about. i love freud and marx, hate capitalist hegemony, but love paul smith and versace. sadistic, entitled women are irresistible to me. i've become infatuated with french horror films, spaghetti westerns, and das racist in recent weeks.
prurience: i'm kind of a martian, psychosexually. i've never had a problem maintaining boyfriend/girlfriend relationships (except i bore kind of quickly), and i'm not especially interested in the dreary long term mistress/submissive imaginary tea party--please don't get me wrong, i know that is totally what some people want and need and i respect that. for me? i'm interested in the psychology of really bratty, obnoxious, sadistic women. i don't have a checklist of activities (a lot of playground bully tactics get me excited i guess) i just get aroused by the idea of a woman deliberately making me miserable in creative ways. this ranges from being hogtied and tossed in a closet for a long time to being mocked when i have to use the bathroom while stuck in traffic. it's the psychology of the inventive, creative sadist that gets to me--experiencing the ways she finds things that are genuinely torturous to me and puts me through them until she's had her fun. one last bit of sexual housekeeping--labels are often counterproductive in my mind. i will play with anyone with whom there is a psychosexual bond whether she identifies as Domme or sub (submissive sadists exist and are hot) or anything else. types of play that interest me range from being tortured in a hotel suite to being given orders online (i'm given to being impulsive without much self-control when in the right mindset).
this has been awfully long. i'm always willing to speak to interesting people. the odds of any kind of "genuine connection" at a site like this are minimal so it seems like a waste to be one of those stiffnecked people who will only speak with "prospectives."
I remember being a dorky high school kid in the 90s and believing Paul Reiser in Mad About You was the smoothest, sharpest-dressed son of a bitch on the planet.
