As my profile says, i am nick from Holland and i am 45 years old. I have a 3 years old daughter from my marriage with a Filipina. My profession is teaching, Mathematics if you want to know exactly. my hobbies are: playing volleyball, photography, travelling, cooking, listening to music and aviation. For a time i ve put or pushed my bdsm feelings away but since long i have known and should admit it here i am submissive towards women. I discovered at a for most of us shocking young age but even when eating my bread i fantasized already of being undressed and being tied up by a woman. Later on thanks to internet i ve endulged myself in all the stories, pics and videos available. Thereafter i took the next step of my one and only bdsm reallife experienced here in Holland with an asian Mistress from Australia or downunder. I was literally taken downunder Her and i loved everything She did to me, like cbt, nipple torture, cloth spins, faceslapping, bondage and caning to mention some activities. This lasted for 1,5 year until She went back to Downunder. i never have been in reallife experienced thereafter; actually i enjoyed it alot on one hand but on the other hand i felt guilty especially because of my christian/traditional background (my late dad was a very known and respected reverend in church). To cut a long story short, i pushed myself into a traditional way of life as i grew up in for about 10 years but blood turns out to be much thicker than water. Right now i am taking my first step by signing up here and filling my profile. I hope to meet great people to chat or exchange messages with. Depending on how things will go, i would give myself online to know Somebody more and better to call Her my Mistress in the end. Not that i enjoy online over reallife but as this is a global website, i would preferrably give myself to a Mistress i know through and through ( and the other way around too). What i look for? I am not into extensive wish lists but based on my experiences described as above, She is between 25 and 45, from Downunder is a big turn on as i really like Australian way of life, openminded and not afraid of pushing limits and try new things but always with common sense, no permanent damage and as consenting adults. I am not into diapers, feminization, gay-ish things (yep i am submissive but not a brainless doormat or softsided male) and brown showers (There is enough shit going on in this world). What You can expect from me..... i am described at work by students and collegues as: hardworking, optimist, great sense of humor, great listener, socially involved, caring, sweet, intelligent, good conversation partner and faithful. And You can 100% be sure all Your information will never be given to others, period! i am expecting the same from You. Parts of my character that can be improved: patience (especially with failing technical stuff like computers), allow myself to enjoy, stress, time management, selfdiscipline towards deadlines when checking papers and too emotional involved with things or people. Wow if You came this far reading my quite extensive profile... sometimes i am too broad speaking and writing....please feel warmly invited to leave a message or just to move on if You don't like it/ not Your type of guy. i am looking for that special One Who will my my heart missing a beat, arouse me, intigue me, shock me, drives me crazy.... But also i can have great conversations with, visiting new places, discover and explore, laugh out loud etc. etc. Sorry for my English errors, Dutch is my native language and i did my best with my English writing here. With sincere admiration from Holland, nick