Dark and depraved.I am a sanguinarian - a vampire or blood drinker. I enjoy writing vampire erotica - and putting it into practice with the right partner. I am a hedonistic submissive with decidedly gothic tastes. I am a confirmed sensualist and hedonist, with a strong passion for the gothic eroticism and all that it entails; I hope to find a Mistress that will help me explore the dark and glorious side of my sexuality.

I was always destined to be submissive, even from an early age. My earliest sexual memory was watching 1960' and 70's vampire films where a beautiful woman rises from coffin to seduce an unwilling victim. Slow and langorous, with flowing hair, pale skin, long red nails. She looks at her victim, looking deep into their eyes, and smiles, exposing glistening sharp fangs. At that moment I knew that I wanted to give myself to the vampiress, to look into her eyes, be hyponotised by her beauty and be unable to escape. Instead of fighting or running I would submit as she approached me, offer my throat as she encircled me with her arms, give my life and soul to her as I felt the glorious pain of her bite, fangs penetrating me, I would willingly let the blood flow out of me into her as she sucked, draining me. Total submission and acceptance of the darkness within. I would be her willing and perfect slave, serving and worshipping her for eternity. 

There is a short story by C.L. Moore about giving one's self to the Medusa, one phrase of which sums up how I feel about submission: "...dimly he knew it, even as his body answered to the root-deep ecstasy, a foul and dreadful wooing from which his very soul shuddered away - and yet in the innermost depths of that soul some grinning traitor shivered with delight. But deeply, behind all this, he knew horror and revulsion and despair beyond telling, while the intimate caresses crawled obscenely in the secret places of his soul - knew that the soul should not be handled - and shook with the perilous pleasure through it all." I both and hate being what I am. I have been ashamed of my desires and needs, and yet know that I am not whole without submitting, without giving my body and soul into the hands of another for her pleasure and control. 

I hope that there is a Mistress out there who will allow me to submit into their hands.