Years ago I was introduced to this lifestyle in a way in which I would not wish upon anyone. I had issues with it but the lifestyle wasnt the real issue. As time went by I realized how I identified with the lifestyle. A 24-7 was begun but was doomed to fail. A relationship power structure was already in place and this transition only gave me more power. I thought all the power was freely given. I did not understand I was and had been taking too much for quite some time.

"Do not take what is not freely given"

There was little or no exchange. I knew this. I tried to understand it, figure it out; but, without 2 way communication it was impossible to do so.

We finally did figure it out and realized our foundations had some cracks in it and they would not support this lifestyle.

Vanilla life resumed.

The cracks grew and grew.

So now I am in a place where I have an opportunity to explore this lifestyle closer. 

I look forward to meeting new people and exchanging thoughts and ideas.