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Alot of things, people, and situations have brought me to this point in my life. Some amazing and great, some depressing and horrible. There have been things that have shown me what I didnt want to have or be in a relationship. I have slowly found out what type of person I am and want to be, and am still growing into my skin. There have also been things that have shown me the beauty in life, the world around me, and the people that are on this rock we call earth. Even though some lifestyle relationships ended, I thank them for teaching me, nurturing me, and accepting me in the state that i was in.

Vanilla things about me

I am a weird, crazy, strong, independent and unique person
I moved out to MN and through a string of bad luck and medical issues (post concussion syndrome) I am back at my moms house with my wife
I know what I want and I do everything I can to get it
I make mistakes, Oh boy do I, but I own up to them and take the consequences
I am kind, caring, and fiercely loyal

BDSM things about me

I am a submissive
I have been a slave before and could possibly be again
I am at times a little, normally when under extreme stress
As a submissive or slave I strive to do everything i can to please
I believe in clear communication to be the success of any relationship, even if its only a one off or for a scene

About my Wife and I

We are there for each other no matter what. even if it means we take turns crying on each others shoulder
I will do anything to make sure she is safe and all is well and good with her
We are polyamorus and are currently looking to add someone to the mix of things
We are hoping to find someone that will either be hers, mine, or ours, and can be included in the mix of things without any disruptions or hassles
We are looking for someone with a like-minded attitude and someone who can give us a run for our money, but also knows when to cuddle up on the couch and relax for the night
I am a lesbian and my wife is pansexual

Random facts about me

I am a writer, I write all sorts of things, poetry, short stories, novels, etc.
I play clarinet and bass clarinet
I like to knit but am only good for scarfs
I tend to be shy at first but when I warm up to someone I relax and bloom
I am trying to learn ASL but Im a bit slow with it

ANYWAYS, to end this novel my name is Sam. Its nice to meet you.



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3/12/2010 9:45:27 AM
This is a bit late but I was haveing a fe off days. I saw Mistress yesterday and it has seemed to reing in all the erreant emotions. so here it goes.

last week from thursday - sunday I was with Mistress. Granted most of sunday was driving. lots of it. We went to death fest. We stayed in the mod with her friends while we were up there. Thursday we saw the midnight showing of Alice in Wonderland. that was full of creepy. friday we just chilled at the mod did some shopping so we could cook a dinner. Backed mac and cheese brocclie and stuffing. We watched movies and cuddled. Saturday we went to the dethfest event. It was amazing. Mistress made it to teir 3 and i won the hopkins award for creative morality. I only made it to teir 2. after the game we ate. we were going to go for a walk but it was late and I had to drive us home the next day. In bed we talked and cuddled and eventually we fell asleep. The next day was catastrophe. her friends cornered us into going to a diner to eat food. and we left extreamly late. we got to rachels late i got to work 2 hours late. but driving with Mistress was a wonderful time.

2/3/2010 7:10:32 AM
Things with my Mistress are going so well. We started talking a while ago and it was on pause for a bit do to extenuating circumstances but we are talking again. And when i say talk i mean the deep meaningful kind about problems or worries or fears and not the everyday kind of work school or family. Talking is becoming easyier to do though i still have times where i fight telling her something when my old fear or insecurities rise up.eventually I tell her but sometimes things have been made worse by my lack of communication. She is extreamly pacient with me during those times but i know it frustrates her when it happends because she has to do 3 times the work then. Although she is proud that i have gotten much better at being able to talk to her alot more even if i do still stumble ocasionally.

Trust is a hard thing for both of us to give. For her because of other slaves and subs in her life that have hurt her. For me because people who were in a place of dominance and respect over me when I was a child badly hurt me in so many ways. I was a navy brat so I moved alot and never learned to make meanigful relationships with friends. in fact all i learned from that was how to keep secrets and hide myself and other things from everyone. And it is hard to go against what i learned growing up. from all the harsh things said to me to all the time i spent finding the best ways to push my friends away before i moved again.

Although things seem to be an uphill battle with me right now I think the hill has become less steep and less dangerous. I am deffinitly beginning to trust her alot more than i initially did which is as much a scary anf frightening thought as it is a wonderful and thrilling feeling.

I wrote this in part because I want her to know how much I love her and appreciate what she is doing to help and love me. And also in part because I am tired of people telling me she is no good for me or that all she will do is hurt me or leave me. In a year she has done everything in her power to not do any of those things. she bent over backwards at times just to get me to talk to her when ive been upset so she can know what is wrong and fix it. And like all couples we have had our rough patches but we worked through them. she is as much my girlfriend lover anf friend as she is my Mistress. And she is deffinitly everything I am or ever was looking for. I love her on a much deeper level than I have anyone else. I dont know how deep that is..but i do love her deeply.

1/17/2010 1:31:01 AM
Our one year was the 16th. for the thursday and friday before it I went and saw my Mistress. Those 2 days were wonderful. we got to cuddle and just be. we went to dinner on thursday which although minorly rushed was still a wonderful thing. it was delicious food and the company was amazingly beautiful. friday we went walking. got some really good hot dogs around 3. on the way home we walked through the lit trees and talked holding hands. we got dinner and ate it watching tv. it was easy and so fantastic. I love you Mistress.

1/16/2010 9:40:13 PM
For all you scam artists out there. I am not intrested in samming anyone.  thats not what Im on this site for. Nor will I be sending you pictures of myself for you to scam others with. unlike you i have morals and a consious. So if you keep contacting me with stuff like this. no matter how often you change your name and send me creepy messeges saying your thinking of my ill keep blocking you.

1/7/2010 9:59:04 AM
I find it funny how other dommes  have to messege me to tell me I am ugly. Thinking it will throw me into depression or some such thing. When it does the total opposit. I am beautiful. Not because i have long flowing hair or blue eyes or the body of a super model. I have none of  those. I am beautiful because I can see the love in day to day things. I can take a bad day and find the good thing in it and disregaurd the rest. I am loved deeply by my Mistress. And also by my girlfriend which my Mistress has let me have. They both know about the other, and know I love them just as deeply as they love me. If I was ugly I wouldnt have any of that.

11/23/2009 6:42:05 AM
Oh internet. how i wish i had you on a steady basis. instead of haveing to nab it from a neighbor cause my family sucks. might be on might be off its up to the connection.

11/23/2009 6:41:55 AM
Oh internet. how i wish i had you on a steady basis. instead of haveing to nab it from a neighbor cause my family sucks. might be on might be off its up to the connection.

11/12/2009 9:17:09 PM
Today was a wonderful day. There was a bit of drama before I got to Mistress. My first ride delegated to the younger one in the family and he chose to dick around and make me late for the train so I had to wait for the next 2 hours later. I was unhappy with that and had a bit of an angery rant/cry that evolved into my expressing my frustrations over my family. When I got there things were a bit lazy. lounging for a bit and cuddeling which was wonderful. the talk got a little heavy then it lightened back up. At some point we napped on the couch with me on her chest and in her arms which was enough to knock my migrain out. We ate a wonderful dinner at a resturant known for its cake. from there we went to our favorit show and took a bit of a walk dispite the cill in the air. I walked her home where she marked me before I headed to the trains to take me home. Saturday will be a good day.

11/10/2009 10:37:21 AM
Where the Love is

Drifting in a sea of me
Of you
Of US
My sails down
Torn by the storms of life
And no land in sight
But I feel you
Tugging at my heart strings
And playing the violen with them
Meleodys made from off key strings
Too tierd to spring back to tautness
And I look to my North Star
Hopeing its yours as well
And that we will meet somewhere in the middle
Your middle
So delectable
Your skin shining like the moon
And just as intoxicating
A canvas laid before me
That I traverse like a veterened mountanieer
Or an artists brush on the eve of her fourtun
Wispered words and stifeled moans
Swelling and ebbing
Like an ocean
Waves of exstacy and emotion breaking
On the shores of our lives
And two lives lost
Find eachother in the dark
And with your patience
I learn to spark a controllable fire
Setteling to warm at your hearth
Your heart
As my strings slowly tighten
And the music goes from dissonent
To love
With creshendos
Diminuendos
And all that is in between
The stars twinkel
Lightning bugs come out to watch us
As we light up the night
Brighter than a thousand of them
I trace my hand over her heart and smile
Home is here
Away from all the chaos and turmoile
Even if its only for a little while
I will make this journy nightly
To be here with her
Before faceing the world again.


Dont let anyone say I dont love you. Because I love you more than you could ever know. And more than just the tiny fractions im able to show you.

11/10/2009 7:27:02 AM
Well hey there total stranger who thinks I will just fall at your feet and beg you to let me live with them. Apparently you tottally didnt ready any part of my profile because I state numerous times I have a Mistress and in my journals I even state how happy and comitted I am with and to her. A couple might have a bit of dissonece in it but couples fight or drift sometimes. Its normal. Even in a D/s relationship. WHats even funnier is your looking for a bi girl and I am so far from that its not even funny. OH yeah. Plus the whole porn star thing. Im sorry but you may be fun to look at but unless I knew you before and during all that there is no way in hell I would get with that. Sure id be willing to be friends but I doubt youd be able to handel that maturly so Ta-Ta. Have a nice life.

11/5/2009 10:27:32 PM
My time with Mistressis prescious. today was so wonderful in many different ways. and although it was hard it was worth it. We talked about things that had been hard for me to voice in a way that was civil before. I was able to explain the feelings behind my thoughts and to ask for the simple knowledge of knowing. Of knowing before something happened or knowing when i was needed more than as a comfort. And in our talking I realized I needed to voice my needs more. and that it was okay for me to be greedy and to demand a bit of attention when i am feeling neglected or needy. even if its just to be held. her words. those words rang in my ears and my heart. after i had said i was restraing myself to one day a week and she said no if anything i should be greedy. to get onto skyp and yahoo. to tell her i wanted her attention. i melted then. all the tension and hurt and everything just lossened and fell away. She wants me. And she wants me to tell her when i need her and not wait until she says she needs me. and although i am out of practice and out of use. i will slowly build up my energy and strengh and reach for her mentally. first just to feel and be felt. but when i can sustain it without it draining me i will do more. please her. tease her and myself. minimize and hopefully make her proud again in my abilities. i know she is always proud of me. but sometimes i know i also dissapoint her and i will do my best to not dissapoint her as much or hurt her as deeply as i have recently.

11/3/2009 9:50:33 PM
I need to work on talking with my Mistress. Thrusday is a day thats been dedicated to me and her talking and hopefully no one else intruding on it. I know that i love her. and that with a choice i would never leave her. but things have been getting so built up and backed up and pushed to the side for later that its acutally been hurting me. And its to a point where if there isnt some releifi feel that for my own safety and health and mental stability im going to have to walk away. When i voiced concerens i felt like they were dismisses off hand with no thought or regaurd to what I said and I am hopeing that thursday i can voice them again and explain them and that they will be taken into consideration. Thursday is a day of talking.

10/22/2009 4:21:15 PM
I saw my Mistress today. we talked and cuddled for a bit at first and then She took me into her room to show me how much she loved me and how much I was hers. I came a few times but then..when she was just touching me and letting me feel she was still there i came again and asked if she would enter me. She smiled at the request and slowly pushed into me then let me ride her finger where when i was pushed so much higher that suddenly i had the best orgasm ever..my howle body from the tips of my toes to the tips of the hair on my fuzzy head i colappsed afterwards my body still twitching from the pleasure for a bit as i cleaned my Mistresses fingers and then stayed in her arms untill i was back on the ground with her.

10/12/2009 10:48:57 PM
Today I gave my Mistress a ring. A solid and physicall showing of my promise to her. I got down onto one knee for as long as I could and I presented it to her. My speech got a little messed up but I got across what I wanted her to know. Its not a fancy ring but it is steel and I am hoping to one day turn it into something more precious. The ring is to show her I am irrevocably hers. That I am always with her. Loving her, protecting her, strengthening her, and healing her. It is to let her know that even if I do start to drift a bit when I am feeling overwhelmed that I will always be coming back to her. I knoe its not real expensive or fancy but it was all I could afford. I want to get her a ring for her right ring finger. Because her left is already laid claim to by her boyfriend. I was going to wait till our 10 month to give her the ring but I felt she needed it now. Mistress I love you.

10/9/2009 8:46:59 PM
I went to dinner at my Mistresses tonight. I was unsure of if it was a good idea at first because I was afraid it would be too much of a tease to me not thinking we be alone while we ate. When I got there Mistress came down to meet me while I signed my car in and then we went to the mall to get some food. I got a sanwhich and a cookie. She got a wrap and a soup. We walked back to her house and sat at the table to eat. I got a bit emotional because I wasnt expecting to be able to see her and I had been telling myself things that werent true. She calmed me and we started eating. I only ate half the sandwhich but promised to eat the rest later. We curled up on the couch for a bit to talk and just reconnected a bit. She played with my collar and i made sure i looked in her eyes as often as i could while i cuddled. I left about 20-40 minuets after i got there. But just before I left she used my trigger word on me. Showing me that it was still there and still worked and that i just needed to relax and unstress to find it again. Today was a very good day. And I am so happy that I am her girl. I cant wait till she becomes my longest relationship and I am even more excited for our 1 year aniversary in 3 months. Mistress I am Your girl. And I love you.

10/9/2009 9:50:35 AM
It looks like my weekend has been foiled again. My brother missed a bus and now I will no longer have the house to myself. And I dont want to subject my Mistress to even a small part of my family. i guess there is always alcohol and tv to distract me from the fact that itll be 2 weeks if not more that i will not have seen Her. work might make me work through her days off this week to make up for me not working last week.

10/8/2009 7:16:24 PM
I made a friend today. Her name if Kitten. shes fun and hyper like me. we seem to bounce off of eachother fairly well. shes tiny and cute. i want to stick her in my pocket. its actually the first friend ive made on just the site alone and not in the chat rooms. shes fun. stay my friend forever kitten cause i dont want to give up my tiny friend.

10/7/2009 7:54:38 AM
no more journals. no more writing. no observations. no shareing my days or my life. hope this makes you all happy.

8/20/2009 11:15:52 PM

Okay so im gonna do something a little different today. I wrote a poem for my Mistress which is also an oath of my solidarity to her. and so thus it will be titled.

My Promise

And I lay down as the stars fall against my skin like a summer storm
My eyes on the moon
Waiting to see its answers to the universe
Grass soft beneath my head
Like her breast
Without the beat or breathing
Leaving me feeling lost
Her touch missing
My ears yearn for her voice
My skin her touch
I call her Mistress
And she is
I've willingly given myself to her
All of myself
In hopes that she would take me
And keep me in her love
Which she does
I have found my place
My peace
My exsistance
I strive to make her proud
And keep her happy
She is my life
And I try to make hers better
By expanding mine
Her lips heal me
Bring me strength
And stability
Her eyes lock me in
Without trapping me
I am free in her restrictions
She knows I need freedom
To florish and bloom
She holds me back only in things that could cause harm
And pushes me forward in what can bring me peace
My need to serve is fullfilled with her
And I am confident in her love
I am her slave
And I live to serve her
And will until I die
This is my promise and bond
My spiritual marrige to her


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GazersKitten
 
 Age: 21
 Chicago, Illinois