Ah, the times we have had.  

Lows of such degradation some still shake when I call.  And I always call.  When you ask for extreme, for hard use, to be pushed onto men, women, groups, for humiliation quite perverse one never knows the shape or intensity of the "blowback".  Will you hate Me afterwards? Some have.  Accountability is a curious thing.  It strengthens resolve.  I am not Cortez, who burned the fleet and conquered with his withering, all-encompassing resolve.  I am Cristobal Colombi, your ardent and loyal guide/Explorer. My direction and effort discovers and unlocks your New Worlds.  I bow to your willingness to undertake the voyage, my resolve is to see it through . Like Columbus and his Spanish Royals, you are my patron.  But I am not your subject.  We are partners in your search for "use",  as General Partner I am accountable for your safety, security and providing the scene, session, party, or date you want to experience, and most importantly, tender empathetic after-care. To Me, the rebuild is more important than the tear down, and as many of you know not everyone shares this opinion. Unfortunately, for a few the catharsis of discovery is too much. Like a cheating 'nilla girlfriend it is better to lie about who and what you are than embrace the things that make you drip and shudder.  Remember it is there, the thing that drove you.  Be easy on yourself, you still masturbate thinking about it. We both know You would judge Me even more harshly if I did not make "it" happen or push to such extremes. So shake on babies, Daddy is going to call soon.

But also, highs so sublime I have to hide for some time afterwards, fearing I will never get such an attenuated and singular emotional, physical and life altering response again.  These highs often come from the same degrading, perverse acts that makes the "nilla girlfriends" go bat-shit crazy with guilt and self-loathing.  And then I am not a Conqueror, but a passenger on your voyage.  On some interstellar Time Machine of emotion, devotion, gulp, Love.  

We can, and do (ask your cheating 'nilla girlfriend) love many.  I love you all: The Ones who love Me, The ones who hate Me, the ones who hate themselves and the Ones who have achieved perfect disinterest.  

As Always, Interested, and At Your Service

Have any of you noticed how many "models" have been stranded in West Africa??  It would seem Ghana, Nigeria, Liberia and equatorial Guinea are all being over run by young white girls who have been lured there with promises of fame and cash...tsk, tsk and now they all claim they want to be slaves--let that be a cautionary tale to all you would-be supermodels who frequent this site....