Today is my third day post hospitalization. After 2 1/2 months of being in a hospital bed, and 8 days sedated and intubated, life looks a bit different now. I still would love a female bondage partner or even one more kinkier that that. However, after being that close to the other side the emphasis or drive for my search is different. Hopefully those looking at this profile will understand that right now I am very weak - but getting stronger every day, and will once again be able to really handle a whip, cane or paddle.

I wonder why so many subs here deliberately string along Dommes. If you have no intention of relocating or actually become a full time slave--- say so. If a sub finds they have reached a wall and cannot go any farther --- say so. Another heads up to all those that are married or have families, you will NOT be able to keep this life secret forever. As any woman knows-- when you are cheating or trying to hide something, we will find out. It just happens, if you cannot or will not talk with your Domme when things get rough, BOTH suffer and the relationship is doomed. A Dommes time is just as valuable as yours, in my case -- I have to schedule time for work with a sub, so spending days or weeks talking and establishing a rapport only to have them disappear is more than aggravating, and why perhaps Dommes SHOULD go pro, it would at least make it seem our time is appreciated.

My ideal situation (fantasy) would be to have a sub cuck male and sub female couple or a female couple for my partners. Living and having them work while still under my control, locked into harnesses and their collars and slaves at home. They would be subjected to strict discipline and bondage when at home, forced to perform and compete as a team and against each other. I know-- it will not be--but of one is to dream it should be a big dream.