Well, it has been over 2 years now since I lost My AJ. The pain is less but I dont miss Him any less. I have not visited sites or taken another since because I needed time to digest My loss.
It is funny how life has a way of tossing random things your way and out of the blue 2 months ago, I was tossed a random.
A quirky little bartender with a hot pink mowhark caught My eye.
I fought My natural instinct and the impulse to want to use My dusty floggers on her but her persistance and constant turning up on My doorstep won out.
She claimed not to be a sub but is now addicted to the floggers, cuffs, blindfold, earplugs and anything else I seem to toss her way.
It is a torrid journey with her since she has never been in a BDSM relationship and fights Me all the way and I have not had a fulltime female before sub either, so the learning curve goes both ways.
At least I know I am still alive now lol
I won't be accepting any contact requests for now. This girl is very high maintenence and requires most of My time to earn her trust.
To those who have left messages for Me asking for contact, please forgive My ignorance, I was too deep in My own self pity to respond to anyone else, let alone My own needs.
Feel free to leave messages, I will be calling in to check every few days.
Peace and light to all
Dolly D |