Sorry all but I have been off line for a little over a month....nice to be back

Thank you to all who responded to my last post. At least now I know I am not the only one with these feelings. I still have the guilt after each session low not as much. My period is still messed up and wish I could get back to a regular flow there. Time will tell.

So far my only partners have been with couples and I have appreciated having another female involved in more ways than one. Working up to a one on one with a male dom, who will offer something a bit more rough than I have had so far. I hope that doesn't tur out to be a mistake.

A new pleasure point for me has been looking in the mirror and enjoying the few marks that last into the next day or two...a pleasant reminder of the events  and being able to relive them in my mind with something tangable to see and touch.

'thanks again

kim

On a more serious note, and maybe I hope to get some feeback from the ladies who have been in this longer than I have.  It seems that when I am active (with a Dom/Domme) I loose a sense of my self as the "play" intensifies.  It's like I am out of my body watching and wondering how I can allow myself to be put through these things.  I have had amazing orgasms, done things I never dreamt I would do and love it all.  Afterwards I feel totally guilty and question who I am and what am I becoming.   That said, I wake up from a sound sleep horney as hell and wet.

Is this normal for women new to this life?  I think about sex now all the time.

Am I moving to fast?  On a personal note it has even affected my period.  It comes and goes...not on schedule...sometimes just a bit of spotting, and others   a rageing flow.

This year has held an amazing level of enlightenment.     I have met a few real time and learned that my body tends to respond in ways I didn't know possible.  Even to things that start out painful but change as the expereince goes on

Some have asked for a certain phot and I have been reluctant to post it.  SO....for you guys and gals that have asked I will post it and leave it up until I go to bed tonight.

Life my get back to normal now.....first day back at work since Christmas

I miss sleeping in....whew

Smiles but great to see everyone at the office and am trying to get back in the swing of things...

Hello again....grins

Well the holidays were great and I have 3 days of vacation left beforee I go back to work so I can catch up on email and messeges now that I am back home.

News Flash....my big Christmas present to myself.....I was in Kansass City and finally had the nerve to get pierced....my god I was scared and as it turned out aroused over the process, but (SMILES) have a beautiful ring in my right nipple!  Still getting used to it, a little tender...just enough to be a constant reminder it is there.....did I mention damp

kisses to all

Kim 

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE HERE!!!!!

Gosh, have a house full of family and kids for Christmas. I have my brother and his family (3 boys under the age of 10) plus their big Irish setter....My folks have my sister and her family with them. Thursday we are supposed to have snow and wouldn't you know we are all headed for my grandparents farm for the weekend. Hope the snow holds off until we get there at least.  May not be online much until after Christmas so a fantastic Holiday to you all!!!!  (though I might get on in short bursts)

kisses and huggs

Kim

WOW....off work now for Christmas and can enjoy family and friends thru Jan. 5th.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all of you and thanks to those who sent such wonderful comments.

Huggs and Kisses to all....

Kimberly