Its only been a few days yet,

I miss him so very much. To the depth of my core.

The very fibers of my being yearn for him.

His touch, his smile, his attentions...

It is almost overwhelming.

My need, to feel that enveloping safety when he is near, is mounting daily.

I just want to nuzzle my head under his chin and breathe.

I'm missing that delicious electrical charge that I feel when he accidentally brushes against me.

No matter how many times he's touched me, it always surprises me and makes me catch my breathe.

Nothing & no one makes me feel like he does.

I have grown accustom to his voice being the first thing I hear in the morning. What a beautiful way to start my day. And how it saddens me when it isn't.

I used to think it silly that I always had to call him when I got to where I was going. Now it is a comfort, to know he cares enough to make sure his baby girl is safe.

I can't sleep until I hear him tell me goodnight in that soothing voice that he uses with me. It caresses me with warmth and security. Knowing he will be there in the morning and the morning after that and so on.

Something about him asking me to paint my toes tickled me pink. Or when he requests an outfit. He never comes off as ridiculing, he asks because it pleases him. And I love pleasing him. (Even if I can't always get to it right away. lol)

Although he could be a bit less stingy about saying I'm a good girl and that I please him. ;-)

I hunger for him. And no one brings me satisfaction like he does.

I really don't know how much longer I can hold out.

I have been ordered not to orgasm until he makes me.

And to be honest I've been so preoccupied I hadn't really thought about it.

That is, of course, until he brought it up last night.

And now, all I can think of is him and his attentions. Which in turn, is driving me to distraction.

Just thinking of him naked, gets me into such a state of arousal. 

I get instantly moist when he has his shirt off. One of my first memories of him, I came around the corner to find him chopping wood, glistening with sweat in the heat & humidity of the summer. The sun shining on his naked torso, wet with exertion. His muscles rippling under his skin as he brought that ax down hard, over and over again. He looked up and caught me staring at him & smiled a disarmingly mischievous smile. Then went back to work as I blushed and turned away.

Oh, that chest & shoulders, they look so divine from below, flexing as he thrusts into me. Taking all that is his.

Have I ever mentioned how much I love his hands? They are a real mans hands- they work hard & raise hell during the day but gentle when the situation calls for it.

I fantasize about those strong, rough hands all over my body. Smacking my ass, caressing my face, grabbing my hips, tangled in my hair, demanding entry inside me.

Mmmm and those lips and tongue. I could kiss them all day. I don't think anything turns me on more than when he kisses me. Especially when we haven't been with each other in a while and I can feel the hunger in his kisses. It makes me tremble with desire. Like he could just devour me. 

The skill in which he uses that mouth is unbelievable. Kissing, probing, tasting my hot, moist, private parts.

I can practically feel his breath on me now. On my neck, across my breasts, upon my dewy thighs & my swollen, sultry kitty.

Oh god, how I want you. I need to feel your thick, throbbing, wet dick slide into my juicy pink velvet. I want to feel your grip around my waist, pulling me into you, holding me there. Shoving your hard cock all the way into me, full hilt all the way to the base.

Even though its almost always too deep for me, as I squirm at the intensity, you overcome me with your strength and force me to take it, to give myself over to you. Pausing to let me gather myself and succumb to you. Whispering to soothe me, I relax and I am overcome with the need to move a little on that magnificent cock. I start to gyrate my hips feeling that lovely friction of you inside me.

I feel your free arm across my chest and on my throat as your teeth bare down on my neck. I want to feel your full might, Ive been afraid to ask for it. But I want it. I want the animal lurking in the undercurrent.

I want to cum in waves over you and coax every last drop of pleasure from you. I want to rub that dick till I feel that hot, sticky explosion over my breasts and pussy.

Then I'll play with her for you. I'll rub this thick pussy until she is good and wet and pouty. Maybe use some toys for a really good show for you.

And then lick & suck you till you're hard again. I'll stroke it and rub it on my full, swollen, hot pussy. And just put the head of your cock inside.

Oh god, I gotta get off of here........

"You da one that I dream about all day.
You da one that I think about always.
You are da one so I make sure I behave!"

:-)

Thinkin about you babe.

Wishing there was something I could do.

You always make me smile.

And it makes me sad that your beautiful smile (you know, the one that melts icebergs & hearts) hasn't graced your countenance as much lately.

Things will get better.

Keep your chin up.

I love you.

You instruct me to lay back on the couch and pull up my skirt. I pull it up a bit but not much. I feel a bit shy. I don't know why, but I always feel this way with you. I've never been shy in the bedroom- always took what I wanted. But with you, With you it's different. I feel a strange juxtaposition of reservation and wantonness that I've never experienced before.

"Higher. Let me see it."

I slowly pull it up to reveal my mound of pleasure covered in black velvet .

"Mmmm. Nice. That's a pretty pussy."

I smile and look down, avoiding your gaze. Sometimes its so hard to look you in the eyes. Especially when I'm turned on. Like, somehow meeting your eyes for too long will give up some secret or hidden desire.

"You want to touch it, Don't you?"

I nod yes. "Touch it for me" you say.

I still have my legs together & I gently trace my fingers over that mound and slightly feel the inside of my thighs and the top of my outer lips.

"Open them." And I know you mean my legs. I open them slightly for you.

"More. I want to see it." I let my legs fall open.

You lean over and pull my panties to the side and move in close. I feel your tongue dancing over my clit every so softly, like a feather. Then, you stop. I feel somewhat disappointed.

"Stand up. Turn around."

You pull my skirt up around my waist as you kneel behind me and pull my panties down to my thighs. I feel the cool air on my ass and get goosebumps either from the breeze or the delicious anticipation. 

The sharp sting of your hand resounds on my round, plump ass. Leaving a wonderful little reminder for later.

You command me to spread my legs further. Growl to bend over. "Further" you say. Again, I'm a bit embarrassed and feel vulnerable. You're so close & everything is on display.

But I obey you and stand there for what feels like an eternity as you look me over & caress my ass cheeks and occasionally my full, now pouty lips.

You grab a handful of my ass with both hands and squeeze. I can feel your breath on my skin. On my most intimate parts. You kiss me gently and I quiver with delight.

You ask me things like "Do you want me to take this?" and "Whose ass is this?" followed by a sharp bite right next to my little pink rose. It takes my breath away.

I am most certainly wet now. Just as I feel you slip your fingers inside and you growl "Oh yeah, my baby wants it. Doesn't she? Yes she does."

My clit tingles with excitement. 

I feel your tongue probe my ass, getting it all wet & slick. Mmmm, I quiver with excitement as I know what to expect soon. You reach between my legs and spread my lips apart with your fingers and slide your tongue between my folds. As you play with my clit and taste my dripping pussy, I moan with pleasure.

"You want to feel my thick dick?"

"Yes! Yes, I do. Please" I purr.

You stand up and rub your thick, hard dick along my slippery lips. Back and forth. Pushing me over, holding me down. I try to wiggle & position myself so that magnificent cock will slip in. I want it so badly!

You grab me by my hair, forcefully pulling me back into upright position. Holding my ear close to your mouth. "You want this dick? You want it bad don't you?" I nod even though it pulls at the handful of hair you have in your fist.

You thrust you hard cock into me. Filling me up. As you thrust I push back hard as I can to feel every inch of you. Your body slapping against mine, over & over. I can feel your hips thrusting against my ass, your hands gripping my hipbones. Slamming into me. And just as I'm about to come,

You play with my hot, swollen pussy & push your hard, throbbing dick deep into my ass. I cry out in ecstasy as you burrow you dick deep inside me.

"Mmm, my baby likes that, doesn't she?" you growl.

"OH! Yes! I love it!" I scream.

"Tell me. Tell me what you like!"

"I Love it when you take my ass! I want to feel you swell inside me!"

"Whose ass is that?"

"YOURS!!!"I shout, as I cum in waves like a tsunami all over you.

I can feel you cumming.

I want to feel you cumming in me again....

mmmm...

kissin, kissin

that's what i been missin....

I like the way you touch me there
I like the way you pull my hair
Babe, if I don't feel it I ain't faking, no, no
I like when you tell me 'kiss you there'
I like when you tell me 'move it there'
So giddy-up; time to get it up: you say you a rude boy: show me what you got now
Come here right now

Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me

Come here, rude boy, boy; can you get it up?
Come here rude boy, boy; is you big enough?
Take it, take it baby, baby
Take it, take it; love me, love me

Tonight I'ma let you be the captain
Tonight I'ma let you do your thing, yeah
Tonight I'ma let you be a rider
Giddy-up, giddy-up, giddy-up babe
Tonight I'ma let it be fire
Tonight I'ma let you take me higher
Tonight, baby, we could get it on, yeah, we could get it on, yeah

Do you like it?
Boy, I want, want, want whatchu want, want, want
Give it to me, baby like boom, boom, boom
What I want, want, want is what you want, want, want
Nah nah-ah

Tonight I'ma give it to ya harder
Tonight I'ma turn ya body out
Relax; let me do it how I wanna
If you got it I need it and I'ma put it down
Buckle up; I'ma give it to ya stronger
Hands up; we could go a little longer

Tonight I'ma get a little crazy, get a little crazy, baby

what a waste of a beautiful day.

not by your side, basking in the light of your smile.

or laughing with you.

or quite simply, enjoying your companionship.

there are quite a few things I miss about you, when you are gone.

perhaps, one day, I will relay them to you....

we were driving around when he pulled into a new construction site.

He smiled at me and asked "Wanna be new home inspectors?"

I laughed. I had an idea of what he had in mind.

I could feel my heart speed up in anticipation. I had missed his touch so much! I was positively bursting with pent up cravings.

We drove far back into paths, there weren't very many new builds, just fields upon fields of open space.

At some point he pulled over, shut off the car, and turned to me. He grabbed my hair and pulled my face to his, kissing me, roughly pulling my shirt up with his other hand to caress my breast. Squeezing my nipple, pulling. Oh, but his kisses, I could melt within those kisses.

I could feel his erection through his jeans. It was warm and hard. I wanted him soo badly.

My pussy was already wet with want.

He unzipped and shoved my head onto his hard cock. Pushing my mouth all the way down his shaft until i gagged and tears came to my eyes. He groaned with pleasure and growled how much he had missed this.

I shuddered with excitement at pleasing him as he guided my head up and down his cock, his hand clutching a handful of my hair at the back of my neck. His forceful ways always turn me on.

As I sucked his dick he asked me if I wanted to feel this dick in my pussy? I nodded yes and purred.

He jumped out of the truck, walked around to my side, opened my door and pulled me out. Grabbing my hips, he turned me around, and bent me over the seat. Growling to lean over, he yanked down my pants.

He rammed his cock inside me, thrusting harder and harded. His skin slapping against my thighs and ass. It was positively delicious.

Oh I could just cum now thinking about it.

I am sure I will regret this honesty by the light of day.

As I am never honest with my true feelings. I distrust too much. Everyone is to be scrutinized.

I suppose I am broken.

The Japanese have a word for beauty in flaws.

Wabi.

I may be drunken, but he is still on my thoughts.

What strange affliction is this? that I think of him night & day?

I shudder at the thought of being addicted to someone.

But is that, perhaps, what has happened?

I think I have, become smitten.

Well then, I guess, I wait for my heart to be broken.

Silly girl.

To be eluded by the human race once again......

But i love him.

I love him!

In the purest sense of the word. I love him!

Does he know? Does he care?

Does he care that I lament him in my goings about, even in the the most mundane of tasks?

That I would have waited for him 5, 10, even 20 years, had he just asked?

How pathetic an I?

But what is more pure than love?

I have always seen what a good man he is.

And I love him for it.

He is a rare treasure.

A dying race.

Wish you were with me right now.

I really enjoyed how worked up you got the other night when I deep throated your cock.  Everything was so wet and slippery. That dick was soo wet!

You get me so unbelievably hot. When you pulled my face up to yours to kiss me and groaned as I stroked your cock, I nearly came undone.

I love how you talk dirty to me- telling me the things you like, asking me if I like the naughty things you do to me (when you already know the answer- you just want to make me say it. To admit to being the dirty girl I am for you.)

Later, when I was in the shower, and alone, I thought of you and touched myself.

Vigorously.

And a few times.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NG2u-wSvOZ8

I really must watch this in its entirety again.

It is soo hot! Is it weird that this really gets me going?? ;-)

~Crush

I get goosebumps just thinking about your hot breath on my neck & in my ear as you whispered filthy things to me.

Your forehead pressed hard against my cheek & temple as your grasp around my waist & throat tightened.

Inhaling your smell was sweet intoxication- making me heady and wanting more.

Collared, my dears.  ;-)

This body is 100% owned. By a fine, sexy stud- Who I adore.

So if you're going to contact me- please be respectful.

I crave my rough, hot handler.

His deliciously strong hands on my throat, my waist, my body. Forcing me to his will. Handling me with ease. Taking me as he pleases. Making me feel small and helpless, yet safe and sexy the way only he can.

Last time he pushed me down with one hand, & held one of my legs up for full penetration, as he thrust from behind. How I loved that feeling of being held down. Of being told what to do. I want to feel his full strength but I'm too afraid to ask. It just might be more than I can handle.

And the biting! The first came as a surprise on my lower back. It hurt but at the same time sent a shiver that shot straight to my core.

The perfect balance between gentle touches & bruising clutches. Feeding my fire. Pushing me to a frenzy of animalistic need.

Another image flashes to mind- Of when he held my knees pinned to my chest, my ass in the air, as he teased, licked, and sucked my slick slit until I came waves. Then I dropped down in front of him, crouching, knees wide open. As I sucked his raging cock, I was pinned between him and bed. Something about him standing before me, between my legs, exposed and trapped there, excites me.

Of course, I vastly enjoyed when his knees seemed to buckle and he moaned ever so deeply, like I wrenched all the pleasure right out of him.

I am so wet just thinking about him and our next encounter. Its going to take an immeasurable amount of will to keep from pleasuring myself tonight but I want it to be explosive when we meet.

I'm beginning to wonder if I'm a sex addict? But then again it has been a week.

I think, perhaps, I need an extended play session.

Either that or I have a serious problem, lol. A couple hours after a steamy encounter with him & I'm all hot and bothered again.

Perhaps it is the exquisite boy toy? <shrugs>

All I know is that I feel like I need a full 24 hours of hot, heavy, sweaty, intense, dirty, rough, exhausting sex. lol

No distractions. Just wild abandon.

Till neither of us can walk.

He came to me with not much more than a smile, the one that dances in his eyes, the one that surely spells mischief. I shiver with delight when i see that smile.

He knelt down beside where I was laying, his knees parted. I felt the heat rush into my thighs. My pussy tingle in anticipation.

He sat back on his heels and opened his robe, revealing strong muscular thighs. A tight, beautifully sexy body that I could kiss all day. And of course, that cock that more closely resembled a horse's than a man's.

Oh I had to touch it. I reached out and stroked it, and was gratified with his deep groans of want. I leaned over and kissed his stomach, down to his dick. Kissing it and taking the head into my warm mouth.

Slowly taking his length into my mouth and down my throat. He grabbed the back of my head pushing me further onto his ramrod hard cock. Making my eyes water, and occasionally eliciting a gag response... But I didn't care. I wanted him. I wanted to take all of him.

He fondled my breasts, squeezing my nipples. I moaned with pleasure. Oh, did he know just how wet he made me?

He thrust hard into my throat, rocking his hips. I could feel his girth scrape the sides of my teeth and pinch my tongue. Cutting off my ability to breathe with every deep thrust. My hand gripping his cock, pumping up and down with his motion.

Fucking my face until i felt his body tense and he exploded in the back of my mouth, over my tongue, down my throat. He held my head there firmly, on his cock, as he spewed his cum in me.

He released me and I kissed his abdomen and smiled up at him triumphantly.

I was pleased when he bent over and placed a gentle kiss upon my head.

Till we meet again.... ;-)