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Hetero Female Submissive, 32,  Rhode Island
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Alright, so I've decided its time to revamp my profile. I know there isn't(or rather wasn't) anything wrong with it but its been quite some time now and I have a much better idea of who I am now and what I'm looking for and hoping to find. First off, I am demented. talk to me long enough and you'll realize I'm telling the truth. I am very very different from people, and I don't just mean normal people. I am different from "different" people too. That's me, deal with it. I am not here for cyber play, cam shows or meeting up for NSA fun, or non-fun as i like to call it. I've done all of it before and didn't enjoy it nearly as much as the other person. I have been both the cheater and the cheated so don't try that either, both ways, not fun. I am a beginner. I am getting tired of telling people that. I have been handcuffed, spanked, face fucked a little, and that's all folks. but I did enjoy every last second of it. I am really looking to learn more, make friends and perhaps explore with the right person. The right person will be someone in my age group that I can connect with, a man I can respect completely that understands and respects me as well. Ideally this will start out with communication and friendship. I have jumped right into bed before and did not care for the results. I like to think that I am older and wiser now but the truth is I don't know.
So, I have an active imagination. Perhaps over active sometimes. I appreciate others that also do but dear god please, do not contact me if you are dressed like a wizard, or wielding a katana(sp?) I imagine there are probably a lot of you saying "that's who she is" right now. I still appreciate the compliments I received on my old profile but like I said, it has been a long time and I know more about myself now. Speaking of myself, I work at a store and I see hundreds of people a week, so no face pics. It is not that I am ashamed or whatever but I am very accessible and I would rather not bring more sleazeballs into my store, seriously, one is known as "creepy hand and foot fetish guy" and another is just "the one that stares"of course, there was "the short guy that wanted to bring Lisa to the lake after closing..." as well. I really don't need more, or even anyone recognizing me... unless it is "the one with the glasses*eyebrow raise*" or "large soda guy with the pecs" I suppose I will wrap this up now. If I sound like someone you would want to know feel free to contact me.









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 Submissive Female

 Rhode Island

 5' 7"






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Friends Only

 Lives For:


 Hair Pulling




 Renaissance Faires



 Anal Play

 Web Surfing

 Heavy Metal Music


 Punk Rock Music

 Rock Music




 Alternative Music


 Eighties Music

 Folk Music

 New Wave

 Nineties Music

 Seventies Music


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Journal Entries:
8/2/2014 11:58:44 AM
Sarcasm got me blocked

7/30/2014 11:34:45 PM
Just saw against me for the first time.

7/30/2014 12:50:42 AM
Nice girls also finish last. I just feel like I'm probably not meant for happiness.

1/7/2014 11:38:06 PM
So... Someone I had known years ago, and had been attempting to know again OD'd Monday night. I feel like if he'd given me a shot it wouldn't have happened. I know it's out of my hands but still sad. Such a waste watching people give their lives to drugs and alcohol.

12/12/2013 4:26:59 AM
Going home today, guess no one wanted to meet me up here

12/9/2013 12:15:29 PM
In nh till Thursday!

11/7/2013 7:55:07 AM
Happy birthday to me.

10/21/2013 8:55:15 PM
Everyday there comes a time, today it's right now. Lonely, sad.. Hanging out with my two cats wondering why it's so hard for me to get what everyone else has; purpose, family, joy... It's getting old dating people who play games, and then come out on top when karma should be kicking their ass. I haven't hurt anyone and here I am, getting ready to sleep alone again.

1/4/2013 12:22:21 AM

looking for a lady for a friend if anyone can help. she was a domme, almost positive she was from CT.  owner of large dildos, was blonde and had a prfile pic of her smoking a huge cigar. please thanks!!

12/31/2012 3:30:17 PM

goodbye 2012

I don't know whether to be relieved that the world didn't end and I didn't die alone or be disappointed. I want someone to love and cherish me. Be outraged that some douchebag followed me to my work because I cut him off while he was going through a stop sign, come help me when I'm on the side of the road with car problems and maybe, just possibly, not be married with kids.

12/8/2012 12:22:50 PM

been here for over 4 years now... and thats just this profile. maybe its time to stop trying.

11/19/2012 7:04:17 PM

love fall, especially the chance to get new eyelashes on sale after halloween!

8/30/2012 5:04:30 PM

thinking its time for new pictures.....

8/19/2012 6:35:07 PM

not doing great lately.

6/26/2012 8:07:20 PM

such an awesome time tonight but no metalheads for me :( i did seem to attract a lesbian but im not into the preteen boy look. maybe mayhem fest...

6/25/2012 8:42:34 PM

alice cooper and iron maiden, here i come!

5/28/2012 2:01:50 PM

washing your car is overrated and washing the windows is underrated.





4/4/2012 4:40:00 PM

becoming so very fed up lately. seem to be a target for lonely guys when they need someone, where is the person thats there when i need them?

3/1/2012 5:57:38 PM

sooo much pain. just want to sleep

2/23/2012 4:41:57 PM

wondering what color i should paint my nails....

2/21/2012 8:24:03 PM

think i had a little too much fun last night

2/11/2012 6:01:09 PM

whitney houston is dead... did not see that coming.

1/25/2012 5:14:40 PM

had a wonderful night and a delightful breakfast with someone special. cant wait for the next time!

1/20/2012 6:13:34 AM

oh my god

1/17/2012 7:13:13 PM

a couple new pics for the leg fans coming momentarily

1/15/2012 7:37:26 PM

  welcome to 2012.


been a while between entries but not much has been going on. i'm really bored and tired but i don't want to go to bed early. i attempted some drinking but wasn't feeling it... thought about painting my nails but i couldn't decide on a color. maybe tomorrow will work out better for me.

12/12/2011 9:37:25 PM

alright so i did eventually sober up enough to get to dunkin donuts a few blocks away this morning so i had egg n cheese croissants instead of my breakfast burritos. im having a bit of an "as seen on tv" day, i painted and decorated my nails using the salon express thing which works nicely and i blinged my hair with bling string, also pretty awesome.

12/12/2011 5:27:56 AM

fucking A!!! i want breakfast burritos!!! why doesnt mcdonalds deliver?! i refuse to drive under the influence, even though i could probably pass every sobriety test in the world, im still afraid to try, because if i fail an arrest and imp0ounding would really really suck... especially since tomorrow is payday so im broke

12/9/2011 5:45:23 PM

okay, i just put it back together, i am only one bead down

12/9/2011 5:37:36 PM

i just broke a bracelet my nephew made me :(

12/5/2011 4:55:10 PM
Tuesday 11:34 am... Who the hell drives a hybrid escalade? I mean, what are you trying to say about yourself there "I am a cheap baller"? I will blow my money on a SUV but I can't afford to fill it up? I'm so confused right now. I am looking at an oxymoron.

taking anti-bullying to the streets! just followed a van like 3 miles out of my way because he was passing people semi recklessly(on the right!?) when there was no reason(they were going above the speed limit). after he figured out i was following him he stopped being such a douchebag. i am happy with myself, i've made the streets a bit safer tonight.

12/2/2011 6:57:43 PM
Saturday, 11:37 am. So I thought I'd found someone... Rather, he found me. Very attractive, seemed to be mutual, unfortunately very very far away :/ however I was willing to try. Well, apparently there was not much time available for him to talk :( wish him all the best but I can't help but feel a bit disappointed. I mean, its not everyday I feel that comfortable with someone and I hate that for two days I got barely a word and when I pointed it out in a playful manner he became upset, working overtime you see :( my problem is that if we were closer, what would all that overtime mean to a real relationship? I mean, I don't think I'm being very demanding but if you can't spare 10 seconds to text back good morning then what could I expect if we were living in the same town? Someday I will find the one, he will be big and manly and everything I've ever wanted and in return I will be completely devoted and caring. Hope everyone else fares better than I have been.

its a rum and coke kinda life!

11/28/2011 3:01:24 PM

distance sucks :(

11/24/2011 5:59:06 PM

Seven-day weekend,
Up all night,
In at the deep end,
Hang on tight
Won't take a minute,
Won't take long,
So get on in it,
Come on, come on, come on

11/18/2011 8:37:27 AM

happy birthday to me!

11/14/2011 5:05:12 PM

i kick ass at farmville

9/28/2011 9:36:51 PM

alright so its official, I've started watching what I eat and tracking my burned calories. this is going to be fun.

9/26/2011 7:59:38 AM

might have to work tonight :(

9/23/2011 3:23:15 PM

someone just offered to hypnotize me online... how is that even possible?

9/5/2011 11:58:09 PM
9-17-11 2:44am. Just woke up ill :( wish I had someone to cuddle with

feeling pretty low lately... want to communicate but I'm afraid to try again.

9/4/2011 6:33:51 PM

does anyone else find those fucking ballet heels repulsive??? every site with a fetish shoe section has them and it makes me want to gag!

8/23/2011 6:46:28 PM

i think i might have accidentally killed my tarantula :'(  just googled a bit though and they said not to take her out of the tank until she smells as sometimes they just play dead... they also said don't poke her... i have my fingers crossed, she means a lot to me but is far too quiet for me to remember to feed as much as i should.

8/21/2011 7:59:43 PM

sooooo bored tonight. ive already watched two movies. thinking about going outside and standing in the rain, should really do some laundry though... got new shoes on friday, painted my nails in anticipation of wearing them tomorrow though i really need to find a shirt....

8/13/2011 5:13:55 PM
Having an interesting night at work.

so I've googled gavin rossdale's asshole brother and found out he doesn't seem to really have one... well not in LA anyway. he has a step brother that's in England and works for the church. thought i would share in case anyone else was ever curious

8/12/2011 8:36:22 PM

so much fun tonight, cant wait for next  time

8/12/2011 1:11:26 PM

feeling tired, want a nap but too excited to sleep

8/12/2011 11:49:54 AM

getting really really sick of the way some people act on here. others have been surprisingly nice but some... stop messaging me if i don't reply, obviously you've crossed a line and i am done. and don't attach the same pic 5 million times. i don't care if you are a forty something that is proud of your abs, if i had liked them i would have said so. i haven't made any commitments to anyone so stop treating me like property. pressuring me doesn't help at all, in fact it just makes me think you want to meet up to kill me and rape my corpse.

8/9/2011 8:35:58 PM

i had a fucking beetle in my hair

8/9/2011 8:23:24 PM

i am here.

7/30/2011 3:10:30 PM
I seem to have lost one of my very good friends here. I've waited to see if his profile would become active again but it hasn't :( I will try again, if you are inactive, no messages. If you are hidden, no messages :( wish you were here.

so here i am, house and computer to myself tonight, feeling chatty and no one is around.

7/18/2011 11:38:20 AM
7-20-11 12:38am. To the one that I haven't replied to, it is because your profile isn't "active" and collarme won't allow me to respond.

so today i was driving along admiring the green charger in front of me when i thought 'only thing better than looking would be driving it' yeah, i got an odd look from the mail carrier next to me after shouting "I WANT TO BE INSIDE YOU!"

6/27/2011 4:38:23 PM
7-11-11 7:00pm. Where are all the glory holes at?! 7-1-11 9:03pm. Here I am back to bitching. I am working my first night in a very long time, but that's not what I'm going to complain about. A woman just pulled in driving a chevy cobalt. A pretty newish car, gold bracelets and rings, nails done professionally. Comes to the counter with 2 redbulls which are on sale for a total of $4.28. She slides a card and I say "debit or credit" and she says "foodstamps" WTF? Seriously? Seriously? Shit like this makes me so friggen mad. Thank goodness we don't take EBT because I get no greater delight than telling these fucking douchebags we don't take foodstamps. 6-28-11 8:09pm. So I feel like all I have been doing lately is bitching. Well, today I came to realize that I absolutely love driving. Love love love it! Its like, a new aspect of living for me, an extension of myself. While I can be happy and playful and troublesome and serious and I can drive my car to fit my mood. I find myself playing cat n mouse on the highway and I feel as if I am flirting with the person driving the other car. Maybe that's why I don't care for clubbing and bars, I'm interacting with fellow drivers several times a day. A few days back waiting at a light I found myself checking out an awesome pickup truck in the lane next to me. Well today, I caught him looking at me as we passed each other. It was a nice feeling!

so here i am, on an actual computer... well, netbook anyway so i'm making a NEW entry. excuse the lower case lettering at the beginning of sentences and when i say i, my phone automatically fixes it and i've gotten too lazy to care about doing it myself... at least if i'm not at work emailing a higher up. Then, I care. so here i am, at home with a couple days off finally and looking forward to my pajamas and bed. trying to eat a popsicle but its too cold to hold LOL.



So, I am a bit upset with some of the people I have talked to on here. I know, not everyone is a douchebag but I'm starting to feel like maybe 99% of people are. What I'm trying to say is that I am a respectable young woman with a lot to offer someone and yet is seems I have to start all over again every week or so because I am serious. I am almost completely honest and more open that I should be with complete strangers and it says it all in my profile. I am not looking for one night stands; well guess what? that doesn't mean chatting for 3 days on yahoo is enough to get my pants off! i have spoken with so many people lately and i am appalled that so many seem to just give up after a few days because i'm not willing to meet them tonight. i am also upset by how many men seem to forget things, me in particular. it is very distressing to me to have to repeat myself or remind men that i've told them to leave me alone before or that they have just stopped talking to me out of the blue and a week, month, even a year later the message me and hey, look, there below the message is previous messages and oh my, they tell the tale! the worst is when i get cut and paste messages though. i absolutely hate them and i receive so many it isn't even funny. some i have never responded to so when you look at the previous messages it is the same one 3-4 times with different dates and times. serious guys, straighten your shit out, we are onto you. just because i am submissive doesn't mean i will let you feed me shit!



6/4/2011 12:34:23 PM
6-26-11 1:57pm. How do I receive a message and the profile is gone within 2 minutes? Anyway, if he is still checking me out, I'm going on 27, but thank you for thinking I'm younger. 6-19-11 9:26am. So I've been rather sick this week but I'm finally feeling better today after a few days of antibiotics. Still have a stupid ear infection but I can still hear with one ear so I'm functioning. The week began a blur of hallucination-like dreams during the fever and is now coming to a close. Tomorrow will be my sunday so yippee! Seriously just had a lady bring her fucking coke back saying "this is leaking" lady, if you hadn't let your 2 fucking brats fight over who ot their chips first your soda would not have become a casualty. Honestly, anyone who has ever sold soda for a living, you can feel it when you hold it, if the cap is lose the whole bottle feels different. Yeah, I get worked up over stupid shit but you know what? I've been doing this for over 4 years now and nothing pisses me off more than a person that acts like A. I don't know what I'm doing or B. I don't know more about this shit than they do. Seriously, don't tell me "its leaking, can I switch it?" because if it had been leaking when you first got it I would have coke all over my fucking counter! I'm a nice person, tell me your four year old dropped the bag and I'll still let you get another one, don't treat me like a retard! Anyway, back to my week, a few days ago I was accused of being a man, and then given the "well you aren't verifying it on cam" reason to why I must be a man. No, I won't verify anything on cam, especially if you are supposedly from cali, younger than me and have no profile whatsoever. I'm not interested, go on and think I'm a man, I don't care. Other people know me, know I'm not a dude and you know what? They earned their piece of mind. You reported me? Right, because I'm sure the tech staff here have nothing better to do than listen to a member of less than a month talk about someone that's been here for years, wait, years? Yes, plural of year, YEARS, that as far as I know has never had an issue with gender. Sure, every so often I look for local transsexual doms, however they seem to be impossible to find. If you know of one please, direct them to me. I have questions and have been longing for answers. So here I am at work on a sunday morn, kinda looking forward to perhaps meeting someone from , though nothing is set in stone yet. I am hoping he will stop in today though :) thinking I should have put some eyeliner on though at least... Oh well. 6-12-11 10am. Elderly transvestite gamblers drive me crazy... Well, this one does. 6-12-11 7:19am. Crunchatize me cap'n! 6-9-11 5:26pm. Grabbing some dinner and heading home to hunker down for the storm. Gonna do my nails. Send me color suggestions if you want, I am still undecided. Two colors if they will work together. 6-8-11 9:45pm. The term "princess by day slut by night" that is popping up everywhere is really starting to piss me off. To me, it seems to be the mating call of the male that cares about appearances, not the actual situation. My opinion is as follows: You want a girl that is a total freak in bed but is presentable to your friends. If there is mutual attraction, and if you know what you're doing, the average woman will have no trouble fucking the ever living shit out of you every night. You could possibly have a real, classy lady. Instead of just waiting to see what happens you are pretty much just telling me "I want a whore that will let me use her but is dumb enough to deny she is, in fact a stupid slut" 6-8-11 3:22am. DO NOT ADDRESS ME AS "GIRL", EVER. Or ma'am. Don't ma'am me either. No joke, I will not respond to messages containing those words anymore. 6-8-11 1:14am. "I met him at the candy store he turned around and smiled at me, you get the picture?" Oldies and late night cleaning. Love it!!!!!! 6-7-11 11:19pm. Curling my hair, thinking about getting out tomorrow! 6-7-11 8:18am. CAFFIENE WEEK IS HERE!!!!!! 6-6-11 2:57pm. Working late.... A creepy guy just came in. Hate this 6-5-11 7:56am. I totally fell asleep mid conversation last night :( I am so so so sorry! why do some people select 99 as their age?

5/25/2011 7:28:44 PM
6-4-11 7am. Laying in bed thinking how empty it is :( have the rare weekend off... It has been a long long time since I've had a saturday off, let alone saturday AND sunday. Just wish I could have had someone to share it with. 6-1-11 8:32pm. Back to square one 5-31-11 11:55am. Bookstore 5-28-11 5:53pm. Do some men really talk to sooooo many girls they can't remember one when she tells him to fuck himself? 5-28-11 9:50am. Work work work. At least I'm where I belong today and know what's going on 5-27-11 4:46pm. Talking to a few great people, they are really opening my eyes and my mind. so here is a new entry for me to edit on my phone..... hey, at least its dated 2011 now. collarme really should fix the site for blackberry users! hmmm... now whats with the date? it says 5-21 when today is 5-25

12/5/2008 9:27:14 PM
5-24-11 10:23pm. Kinda bored. Kinda lonely. Kinda wishing I had rented another movie today. 5-24-11 12:22pm. Shoe shopping!!! 5-23-11 8:16pm. So maybe I slipped up... Got my nails done at least! 5-22-11 9:33am. I can't help but snap my fingers whenever take on me comes on the radio. 5-21-2011 12:55pm apparently honesty isn't worth much... Online or in real life. 11-24-2010 omg omg omg. Making a few enemies, lol but seriously, it wouldn't happen if people read my messages. If I say "you are too young" it means, you are too young. Do not continue messaging me, do not tell me age is nothing and how much experience you have. I don't care, I am set on the age thing, it will not change so do not try. Now today,this asshole messages me, someone I once replied to on another site and we had a brief conversation until he must have decided he was not interested, as he never replied to my last response. When I recognized him right off the bat I told him so, in the first message I sent today, he replied saying he is indeed interested and gave me his number. Now I am of the impression that if you don't click with someone, don't bother trying to force it. I tell him again that I'm not interested and yet again, he sends his number saying call or text and we can clear this up, I say no and I'm a bad guy. What is with these desperate guys? Do others subs give in? Why? Do they really want to serve men that are downright pathetic? 11-22-2010 so aggravated that I can't make new entry using my phone, I don't have a computer ATM, collarme, please fix this! Anyway, uploaded a new pic and lost at least one old pic, I don't know what I did wrong :/.... So, I've been seeing my ex,for all you naysayers I say this, we enjoy each other. That's all that really needs to be said. There's no drama, and I'm perfectly content at this time, so if and when you message me and I tell you so don't even bother with that "come on baby..." crap. I am open to friends as I have always been and I've never been one to just jump into shit head first so don't expect to just message me for pics and then ask to meet. I'm not like that, I have seen strangeland. 9-12-10 disappointed... The out of control messages have seemed to stop which is good but I thought I had found a couple decent people to talk with, and yet, I am no longer speaking with any. It appears honesty is wrong. 9-9-10 went in to work this morning to hear from the boys that strippers had stopped in, I asked how did they know they were strippers? And one replied "they were wearing fishnets and heels" LMAO!!! Guess that makes me a stripper. 9-7-10 for the last 24 hours I seem to be overrun with messages from other subs. I don't mind making friends, but I have no interest whatsoever in being anything more. Also, I don't mind becoming friends with people in other states or countries, but don't get pissed at me when I don't want to cyber or trade pics. If I wanted fap material I know plenty of sites where I can get it, I don't need someone telling me "I grab you by your hair and force your head down on my cock, making you take me deep enough to gag you, I watch your eyes swell up with tears as you struggle to breath around the cock in your throat..." I have an imagination, and I can use it on my own if I feel so inclined as proven by the cyber quote above written by my own hand. I'm not exactly sure what I'm looking for, unfortunately, I had and lost something great but I'm not looking to replace it with something cheap. I'm going on 26, I have no kids and no set in stone plans for the future but I want both. I'm not going to waste time with anything less. 9-6-10 is anyone here not superficial??? Tired of the bs, if I wanted everyone and their mom to see my face there would be a pic of it in my profile. I work with the public and I've been burned far too many times in the past. What I'm going to say will make me sound ugly but can't anyone try to see inner beauty before outer? Why is it people want pics before even asking how your doing? I know things are different on the internet but can't anyone show common courtesy? 9-5-10 Okay, so I'm limited to a blackberry. I can't chat, I can't reply directly to messages and I cannot make new journal entries. I want to say, I'm a pretty nice person for the most part. I respond to lots of messages because I'm nice but certain ones.... I won't respond to cut n paste messages. I've received quite a few over the years since joining and all from the same man, who I've actually talked to about it. That was a while ago though so maybe he doesn't remember but upon reading it over again I don't even think he has changed his age... So is he 34 now or has he been claiming to be 32 even longer than just the last two years??? Another thing I will not respond to is someone that comes off as insecure by seeming vain and fishing for compliments. I did not look at your profile, I told you in my last message I was just responding because it was the nice thing to do. Don't tell me I must be interested and what it is about you that got my attention. Honestly, I would not have even looked at your profile if you hadn't sent me a message. You come off as shallow, immature and you have a bad haircut. And that's just from three messages :) to better explain, how could I ever let myself be dominated by a man that seems lazy or insecure? The same goes for my strict age limit. I cannot bow to someone younger than me or way older than me. The old get older and feeble, I want to serve but not as a nurse. Also, if you are a non-smoker, that's fine. But if you smoke it better be full flavored cigarettes. I can't stand the thought of a man dominating me but needing a smooth menthol cigarette. REAL MEN DONT SMOKE MENTHOLS!!!!

12/5/2008 9:24:08 PM
just got a message and I'd like to share it.

"You dont belong on this site or in this lifestyle, all you appear to be is some loudmouth, bossy ass female.. Go read and come back when you grow the hell up!!!"

the 40 something who is telling me to get off the site is telling me to grow up? that strikes me as funny.

also, loudmouth? bossy? simple, I have standards. sorry if I can't see myself kneeling before a man wearing an eyepatch.

no offense intended to anyone missing an eye, it was just a pirate reference.

11/29/2008 7:51:56 PM
its cool, just ignore my fucking profile. message me based on my pics that don't really tell you anything about me and then, sit back and wonder why I don't reply.

my profile has guidelines in it, not simple prefrences. if you want to say 'hey way to be honest about what you're looking for, not many do that' go right ahead, I'll reply and say thanks(thanks again to all those that did so) like anyone with good manners would.

since adding pictures like, 10 minutes ago, I got 2 messages from the same guy who obviously didn't read a word of my profile. I am upset by this.

my boobs aren't that big BTW.

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