I keep changing my profile. I'm very new to this whole scene, and trying to sort out my own desires, the lingo, the whole BDSM environment is sometimes an arduous process.

Technically, I'm bisexual, not lesbian, and technically, I have enjoyed, at least in online roleplay environments, topping men as much as bottoming to women. But, as I have started engaging the scene here, I have realized more and more that I am not prepared to get into real life topping situations as such a newbie, and that in fact, the whole dynamic of entering into something so unknown and opening myself up to these latent desires puts me in a space that is very much more submissive, and in which I really only feel comfortable with women.

So, I am changing my profile to reflect my current state of mind. Somebody asked me if I was confused. I'm not confused, but I am learning and it is fair to say I go through phases. Some of those phases are just BUSY BUSY BUSY, which is why I seem to so rarely get on here lately.

- Decatur