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Where I am now
54, divorced, unemployed, financially ruined and emotionally damaged. What a catch!
Currently, in no condition to own a cat let alone a slave.
but I wasn't always like this.
I have almost 30 years experience as a Dom (off and on, the relationship ranged between vanilla to TPE over the years).
But sometimes life takes you places you'd rather not go. What can you do?
Like Humpty Dumpty putting himself back together again, working on getting my health back, both physical and emotional, getting back to work and getting my finances back in order. Getting a car, a place of my own. It's a journey.
After I recover
I'm hoping to stay here, in the San Francisco bay area. Such a wonderful leather community here and I would miss the Folsom Street Fair if I left, but we'll see where life leads.
I will be starting a extended poly BDSM, Pagan and 420 friendly household, including multiple Dom/mes, switches and their subs/slaves.
I will be looking for a few slaves of my own, who either understand their place as property, or want to be taught, who understand that they are giving up all rights, who expect only to be used, trained, molded and broken to my will.
who will call me Daddy.
and I'll be getting a cat.
Slaves offering themselves for my consideration
I’ve been getting a number of emails like this lately. So my first question is, why? I think my profile pretty well indicates that I'm not in very good shape right now. Hopefully in the near future, but I've got a ways to go yet.
As my property, you would sometimes have a Master who would be cruel, controlling and demanding, but much of the time would have to be cared for like an invalid. I think it's pretty unlikely that anyone out there would be into something like that (on the other hand, there are people out there who get off on having someone puke in their mouths, so maybe it's not totally impossible).
Realistically, I have to conclude the emails I’m getting are from scammers (it's fun to imagine they’re real, but come on, seriously!). If you are a scammer, first thing you should understand is that I’m BROKE! Totally and completely and will probably have to file for bankruptcy soon. There’s nothing in it for you! Leave me alone!
I have pretty exceptional critical thinking skills so I'm not going to fall for whatever you've got in mind anyway!
I will not get a yahoo account and I won’t write to you on yahoo, or anywhere else except CM (at least in the beginning and not without really good reason).
If you’ve read this far and still want to correspond with me, for friendship (friends are always good) or anything else, please put “Transhumanist Neo-Pagan” at the top of your email, so I’ll know not to send the email straight to the trash.
Thank you and sorry about the rant.
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It's been a while since I've been on Collarme.com. Depression is still disabling. I'm being told that I shouldn't expect to get my old life back, that I should learn to enjoy my new life. It's a struggle. Have found someone. I'm living with a Domme. We hope to get to a place where we can own slaves together. I need to update my profile. |
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Well, I've decided to start dating (or at least thinking about dating).
Eventually be looking for a slave, right now I'm just looking to get back out there, meet people and have fun.
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Another year older...
It's the start of new year for me. Spring is in the air. I feel myself coming back to life.
I'm counting this as year one of my new life. Things are getting better. I'm feeling less paralyzed each day, like a spring thaw after a long winter.
I still have a ways to go, but I've started the journey.
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This time of year...
is the worst for me. Just got to get through it.
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This is probably pointless, since the scammers don't actually read this....
but I'm going to go ahead anyway...
Relocation
WHEN I am up to owning a slave again, I won't be sending a check to anybody to relocate. If I do decide to take someone on as a slave I will come out there, meet them in person, help them go through their stuff to decide what gets packed up and will bring them out here personally. Don't ask me to send you money. Right now, I don't have any anyway.
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Happy New Years Everybody!
May 2010 be everything you're hoping for!
One of my New Years Resolution for the second half of 2010 is to begin an extended, Poly, BDSM, 420 friendly, Pagan friendly household in the bay area (probably Oakland or San Francisco, but other possibilities haven't been ruled out).
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Like all the other Xmaswhores out here...
Check out 's Holliday Giveaway!
Sit on Kinky Santa's Lap, tell him what you want, and be registered to win one of 218 kinky prizes.
Then be a Xmaswhore like the rest of us, put up a link like this one, and get more chances to win!
Check it out at http://.com/sit_on_santas_lap
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Even after the addition to my profile, I'm still getting a lot of offers from "slaves". Well at least I know which ones I can delete without reading.
Do people really fall for these? "I'm from the usa, but owned in another country and available to anyone who will buy me and relocate me back to the usa"? Come on, how stupid do you have to be to fall for this kind of crap? One even claimed to be Nigeria! Is there a clearer way to say "This is a scam"?
I seriously don't understand most people. |
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Back home again
It was a great trip. Difficult at times but being with family can be very healing. Got to connect with family members I haven't seen in a while. Finally visited the cemetery where my father is. It only took me ten years.
It's good to be home though. I have resources for dealing with my depression that I don't have out of state (would say more but I'd probably run afoul of some collarme TOS).
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I'm off to Las Vegas in a little less than a week. Looking forward to it. It means something different to me than to most people.
I don't gamble and haven't seen many shows. For me, going to Vegas is about seeing friends and family. My brother is putting on a big Thanksgiving celebration.
I'll also be looking into finding work and moving there. It's not a first choice, but it's a fun place. I might even check out the BDSM and Poly communities while I'm there.
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So what am I looking for here?
Friends are always good. Especially those who are, or have lived in a Poly household or a BDSM household. I'd enjoy hearing your ideas and experiences and sharing mine as well.
And, while I'd love to hear from slaves who are seriously looking to be owned as property, it's going to be a while before I'm back on my feet.
I feel like a new chapter is opening in my life. One in which I am very different than how I have been.
So I wouldn't mind hearing from Dom/mes or anyone else who is living like this or who wants to.
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Lying in the wreckage of what used to be my life...or is it a cocoon...or a dream. It's difficult to tell sometimes. My mind was shattered along with my life...and my mind wasn't in such great shape to begin with. Pathetic, pathetic, pathetic...and I listed myself as a "Dominant"...who am I kidding? I'm of no value to anyone like this....but I remember...I used to be of value. I used to be Dom. I'd often thought it was the best part of me...when I felt it, I just seemed to know what to do. It just came naturally...and it went away when I got too stressed out or depressed...That's got to mean something. So hear I am, starting to pick myself up in the wreckage of my life...or starting to tear open the cocoon....or waking up from the dream. 53 seems to be too old to be starting over, deciding who you are and what you want to be when you grow up....but that's where I am....What can you do? I know what I want now, what I'm going to be working towards as I put my life back together. An extended, Poly BDSM household. I will be looking for at least 2 slaves of my own and the household will include multiple Dom/mes, switches
and slaves that they have. I used to see myself as a romantic Dom, looking for a sub partner to love and cherish...I'm over it. It didn't seem to work for her either, but that's no longer my problem. I will be looking for slaves, to take care of my needs. My reasons for attending to their needs will be twofold...They need to be kept in good shape to serve my needs...and I take pride in keeping my things in good condition...but what counts are my needs...but I have a long way to go. Unemployed, no car, renting a room from friends, soon to be filing for bankruptcy...and, while not quite as 'mental patienty' as I was this time last year, still significantly impaired. It'll be a long way back...but I'm taking the first steps.
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Age: 38 |
Centre,
Israel |
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