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DaddyslilMaija

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No i'm not looking to join someone elses household, i'm very happy right where i am and have no intentions on leaving my Daddy anytime in the near future....but am interested in meeting others in the area who are involved in the lifestyle and share the same views as myself, and we are currently looking for a new sister or playmates to either join our household or just visit on occation just e-mail this one for the details.......
owned and collared
by Ur_Pain_My_Pleasure

Please allow me to introduce myself my name is maijaheen and I'm a 24/7 owned, collared, and registered slave...tho Sir says i'm a slave with privleges, i'm a slave none the less... In His own words...."i belong to Daddy solely as His toy, His most prized possession, and as such i'm for His use when He wants, where He wants, and how He wants..." i'm not allowed to argue with the fact....nor would i even dream of it

He has very high standards, as to my day to day words and actions reflect back to Him and how He has trained me

i tend to be shy more often than not till one gets to know me, then you most likely will be looking for the closest ball gag, duct tape, etc. to shut me up.....

i'm a natural blonde, Sir says i dye it to have artifical intelligence....i say this to warn you all of my blonde moments ....no i'm not able to walk, text and chew gum at the same time, and my mind easily wanders from one topic to the next...

But this does not take away from the fact i desire nothing more in life than to please and serve my Sir....

i'm here to meet people of a similar mind set....Well one can dream can't one....i know from my past experiences that most so called Sirs and Mistresses are looking for a quick cyber, (i mean no disrespect in the least to the true Sirs and Mistresses please forgive me if i offended you) but that's not what i'm here for....

What i'm hoping for most of all is the chance to be able to meet other people who live in Sir's and my area who share our lifestyle and ideas.

i'm allowed general chit chats on these types of sites,if you have any questions directed twards my Master feel free to message me and i will be more than happy to give you His information.....


if you would like to know anything more please ask P.S. thank-you for taking the time to read my entire profile... huggs this ones yahoo tis heavenlyangeldreamz......but if your a male looking for a quick cyber pleas move on this one tis not interested in those types of activities..............

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5/15/2012 4:47:10 PM

yes at the moment this one has taken her other photos off this site...sadly with how things have been looking in her life she thought it twas for the best as she took a step back to take a look at things.....

 

the sister hunt has all but dwindled to a crawl.....this one truely doubts there tis anyone out there whom is very truthful which tis saddening.....


12/20/2011 8:50:35 PM

smiles wow this one tis seeing just how many truely are thinking bdsm tis all sex and nothing more.................


12/16/2011 9:02:43 AM

smiles this one tis looking to perhaps meet up with someone to have a little fun before the start of the new year.....

 

understand if your male this would not include sexual activities...sorry to me bdsm tis not all sexual intercourse that tis just a small part of it  and the lifestyle.....

 

 


8/4/2011 4:40:28 AM

this tis starting to get a bit anerving......this one sees a distorted profile photo....and tis not the one that if i go to edit profile i see......really wonder what others are seeing.....let alone what tis happening to my photos......


8/2/2011 2:39:12 PM

unsure what tis going on with the photos as of late...this one added and moved some around but yet sees the same old ones.....and her profile photo now looks distorted....


7/16/2011 6:36:34 PM

softly she kneels before him, placing her soft cheek against his thigh
she feels her enslaved heart start to race
she inhales and savors the essence of him
fires begin to burn within her belly
he fills her heart, mind, body and soul
she could never imagine herself anywhere but at his feet
no other can make her feel this way
her coal dark eyes   gaze over him, hungry with need
she feels the flames begin their dance within her soul
her heart interwoven with his
she is slave
he is Master


7/16/2011 6:35:59 PM

**a kajira is a canvas
furnished by God
embroidered by her Master**


5/24/2011 12:04:01 PM

to all Masters/Mistress's/Doms/ Dommes 

this girl humbley begs for your forgiveness if she has at anytime written anything to you that would have caused offense.. 

as of late her behavior in her responses has been very illbehaved and she has acted more like a spoiled brat or child a far cry from the well trained slave her Master has so lovingly taken the time and effort to train her to be..... 

her Master has trained her to be respectful to all no mater what level of experience or their interests are.....and her recent outburst has brought Him much displeasure...... 

so again she asks for forgiveness and she will corect her behavior and act like the proper slave she is imediately 

maijaheen

 

 


5/10/2011 4:45:04 AM

i would like to take a moment to greet those who actually stopped by my page not by chance but because you actually took the time to read the profile of a lil dark haired avi more than likely kneeling in some out of the way location normally behind barrels or potted plants as i observe the goings on in the area and read the books given to me on notecards...yes i am actually reading the books......more than likely you will rarely see me talking in area chat as to i do not speak unless spoken to.....as to the fact i'm still new to gor, please if you would like me to serve i do know how, but it may take a while for me to locate the proper items....and it will be a drink, but i cant guarentee it will be what you ask for nor can i vouch for what shape the kitchen will be in once i bring it to you.....but tis an honest serve from a girl who has the desire to serve, but not the knowledge as of yet.....

 

maijaheen


4/11/2011 4:14:41 PM

the newest pix i uploaded were from this afternoons events


3/21/2011 6:37:14 AM

it saddens me a lil bit when i realize that freinds whom i have known in the past broke off the freindship not because of any personality flaw on my part or on the part of my Sir, but because my pocket book was too small for them, and we were not able to provide them with the high quality of life they believe is due to them......

 

beauty in time fades away...money and possesions are soon lost, spent or broken.....

 

but friendships are cherished......tho all too often taken for granted......

 

 

i'll still miss my friend, but realize that if thats all they were after....then i was better off without them......


3/19/2011 5:37:39 PM

Hmmmm.......Sir had me dye my hair black.....which is far different in my mind from the deep red it has been for years......He feels that it is a vast improvement......my opinion differs, but as i am nothing more than a meer slave my opinion matters for naught......a new photo will follow shortly


2/16/2011 5:27:24 AM

forgive me for not logging in as of late.....

 

our family dynamic has changed a bit as of late and the vanilla world has somehow creeped into our happy home, more due to the ecconomy than by choice....

 

not to mention that i have been trying to get rid of a lingering cold that refuses to break it's grasp of me....

 

i still serve my Master as best as to my abilities, just without the spankings and such that my body and mind craves....

 

*sighs*

 

with luck life will return to normal in the near future....


1/11/2011 8:28:53 PM

Please forgive me for not answering my corespondences as of late....tho most i have at least glanced through.....i have not been able to answer them.....mainly because i have been very ill this past week....i'll try to get to them on friday, please be patient with me.....

 

 

maijaheen


12/26/2010 7:33:57 AM

Happy Birthday Master


11/7/2010 9:19:45 PM

Tis getting late and 5am comes early night all

dream well


11/7/2010 7:45:51 PM

Just wanting to write a brief note to those who have been following my day to days that i post here.....I haven't really got much input on the new profile ideas that i posted.....*shruggs* i'll most likely put up a blend of the two ........

i also would like to take a moment and appologize for no new pictures.....atm Sir and i have not had many sessions due to an increase in His work schedule......but He has moved on to using humiliation as a form of punishment for minor infractions in my behavior......

As for my mental well being i find myself still grieving at my recent loss and still find it hard to totally accept it all.....I still think at times it is all a horrible nightmare and that i'll wake up and be able to call her and she'll answer the phone........

i find myself very lucky to have a Sir who understands my pain and has forgiven me for small lapses in our protocal......but it is also in my rules that i find safety and comfort......


11/3/2010 8:21:26 AM

Sir is still currently looking for a submissive to train either on an occasional basis (when it fits into the vanilla world schedule) or perhaps one day as a live in situation

as much as i dislike writing profiles i know that they are needed to at least give people an idea of who and what i am....tho to be honest there is no way i can really describe myself to the fullest by mere thoughts written to paper.....

i am a slave....i am owned and collared

i'm extremely submissive in nature, this was the reason i chose to give myself over to to a very wonderful man, who has been involved with the lifestyle alot longer than myself......

In the vanilla world i'm still just me......i'm human after all.....i still make mistakes.....and tho i strive daily to obtain what i believe to be perfection .....i am still just that human.......i still burn the toast from time to time in the morning......i can't explain where the missing sock went.....(tho i know two went into the washer).....i do suffer from lapses of irritability......i do get sick.....but even with it all i need to remember who i truly am.....

i am His.....

i am His possession

His prized possession
.....
He chose me out of everyone to be His......

to mold me into what He desires.....

to make me into what you see before you today.....it was far from an easy journey, but the results were well worth it...and the journey still continues as time progresses.....there is much i still have yet to learn.....much i still have to experience and i hope one day i'll have a sister to enjoy the journey with me......smiles mischievously well one can hope can't one.....

if you have any questions feel free to ask......


11/3/2010 8:20:35 AM

i'm looking at redoing my profile page just posting a few ideas i have written over the past few days


i'm extremely submissive in nature, this was the reason i chose to give myself over to to a very wonderful man, who has been involved with the lifestyle alot longer than myself......

i chose to give myself over to be trained and molded into the image of womanhood i was truely ment to be.....and as such i have become His most prized possession, something to be cherrished and treasured......

i'm a perfectionist by nature, and strive to become pure perfection in my service to Him, and tho i tend to fall short of my goals, that doesn't mean that i'm not going to continue to keep trying to achieve what i desire.....

i can honestly say that as His possession i have no limits except His imagination, but that doesn't mean your gonna see me with spikes pounded into me anytime soon......i mean by this that i trust Him totally enough to know what i can physically and mentally bare, and tho He may push those limits, He knows not to cross them and cause me irepairable harm.....

i tend to be a very playful personality.....yes i'm the one you'll most likely will see running around work greeting customers in a pair of fairy wings and a halo one day (yes i have actually done this, not to leave out the day i wore bunny ears as well) i can be very lil at times plopping myself down enveloped in a blankie thumb in mouth watching cartoons one day.......mini skirt, see through shirt, stockings, and heels the next.....

i enjoy to cook for others (actually i'm a very good cook) Sir and i have been hosting subbie cooking and movie nights....There is nothing like a house full of giggling subbies/slaves cooking, laughing, pillow fights, popcorn fights and such.....yes we have an extra bedroom for overnight guests.....

i have found that i enjoy spankings with the belt, bare handed, floggers and such and am not happy till i'm reduced to a blubbering sobbing mess. i enjoy orgasm control, eye restrictions, formal rules, nakie time, i'm learning more about humiliation, and have found out over time i dislike ice play, spankings with the metal cane, forced orgasms, and being ignored.......

i hope this tells you a lil bit about me .....if you want to know more just ask.......


10/19/2010 5:39:15 AM

(((hugs)))

with luck i'll be setting up another subbie cooking/ movie night in the near future............

my Master has mentioned He missed having the house filled with giggling subbies.......

hmmmm..........pop corn fight............


10/18/2010 4:11:53 AM

for those who know me and talk to me on an almost daily basis....i would like to apologize for not returning your messages.....my mother has been ill for a very long time, and finally found peace this past tuesday.....Master and i made the long drive northward to see my family and atttend the funeral.

the drive its self has been an interesting one to say the least, but we are finally only seven hours away from our own home sweet home again....tis an amazing feeling to be home.....i'll return all letters on tuesday.....

the drive has given Sir and i alot of time to talk, as well as giving me plenty of time practicing my oral reading skills......(i've been reading aloud this whole trip...till my eyes have gone cross eyed and my tounge has been in knots)

i have also found out who are my true friends this trip....those who have text me words of comfort and concern this whole trip and those who for some reason known only to them have turned thier backs on me....

well it's just about that time to wake Sir up and get back on the road again...take care all....

(((hugs)))


10/9/2010 7:13:27 AM
you know your Sir keeps it cold in the house when you no longer can feel your toes while running around making His breakfast

9/16/2010 4:47:42 AM
*closes eyes and thinks to myself*

For those that actually have taken the time to read my journal entries as i post them.  You all know how i have been growing and evolving into being more and more as He desires me to be.

You have been there in the forms of letters and chats offering up words of wisdom and retellings of personal experiences, for these i am offering you my thanks...........

i am still growing and evolving trying my hardest to seek the perfection inside......i know that it is in there somewhere......i have had my failings and short comings......

i'm on formal rules now until further notice due to a childish weekend long temper tantrum that He humored at first, but when it got out of hand....i got punished which is not what was desired, but tis what i deserve........

but tho i now have to ask permission for even the smallest boon that most of us take for granted.......i'm realizing that He is doing it for my own good and well being.......i grow and thrive in His control over me, and He is helping me become as i am truely ment to be....

i am very proud to wear His collar and remember kneeling before Him out in the yard the day it arrived......i remember how the sticks and twigs dug into my knees as i kneeled there waiting for it to be closed...i remember the warmth of the sun on my skin...the sound of my own breathing....and then the weight of the leather and the coolness of the metal beads on my skin.....from that day forward i belonged to him forever.......

this collar i wear around my neck means more to me than a wedding ring ever could....to me it means that i was chosen to be His and His alone......i'll always be His most cherished possesion.....


Tis my one wish that if we ever find a sister to join our family she can find the same joy as i have

maijaheen




9/12/2010 9:31:40 PM
*kneels down....bowing my head*

Master please forgive your humble slave for acting up these past few days..........


it is my one wish to truely be as you desire me to be....

9/12/2010 1:27:18 PM

*THROWS HANDS IN THE AIR*

I GIVE UP.....i really don't know what my Sir is up too....or what He's considering.....He tells me one thing then He changes His mind two moments later...............

*tears roll silently down my cheeks*


9/12/2010 10:45:10 AM
*Sighs*

I have been informed this morning that the female who was under consideration has decieded that she was unable to handle a poly situation.

So Sir is once again looking for a sister to join our happy home......

my ideal sister would be one who is fun loving and playful.....one who has a good head on her shoulders,  common sense a must!!!....

i would like one who is more than willing to work outside our home, seeing i do as well.....this keeps all from monopolizing Sirs time and keeps the lil green eyed monsters at bay.....

i would perfer one who is bi or at least bi currious.......

and for the record both of us would be treated by Sir as equally as humanly possible...We would all sleep in the same bed....We would share in the household duties....there will not be one sleeps with Sir mon.wed,fri....and the other tue,thurs,sat....He's off on sun that to me is just plain creepy.....

ultimately tho it is Sir's choice as long as the two of us get along.....but i want to have a quiet house free from conlflict for Him....

9/10/2010 12:08:49 PM

Sir has informed me this morning that He has taken another female to be under consideration as a sister to me,  but as she is not bi, He has given me permission to look for someone for me to play with or just plain have cuddle time with........This means in short that this female has to have no interaction with my Sir other than general conversation and the like......(He just wants to make sure His lil one stays safe).........In short the female need not have any sexual contact whatsoever with my Sir


9/10/2010 6:52:33 AM
*sighs*......

there are times i find it doubtful that there is a true sister out there to join our family dynamic......

the last one actually won my heart only to lay it out broken and shattered......

Daddy was there to pick up the peices and help center my life back to where it should be......

He says that i have been on relaxed rules and without proper guidance for far to long that it's time to remind me of my proper place....

part of me believes i should be afraid, but in all honesty i'm looking very forward to it....

8/14/2010 1:17:38 AM
srry it's been so long since i last wrote...

but my life has taken many twists and turns as of late....

Sir an i have started speaking to someone interested in joining our family....and yes *smiles mischieviously* she's alot like me.....

the three of us have been speaking for a bit now and she will be coming to visit us in the near future......

7/26/2010 7:12:59 AM
*sighs* yet another failer....not on my part this time....tho to be honest i've been not all too perfect as of late....i'm irritating my Sir without meaning too....i swear he told me to wake Him up at 8:30 this morning....He says 8:00......i try to argue...not for arguements sake, but bite my tounge He's right...i'm wrong no matter what.....just put that error in the growing pile against me.....i'm actually afrad at times that if the pile gets too high my whole world will come crashing down around me, and He will remove my collar....a living nightmare from my point of view...(please don't contact me with notes saying you'll be my master....)

With luck (lots of it) one of the "playmates" will come through this week and all will be forgiven....if not....lets just say another card will be added to the growing pile....

i want to be good....i strive for perfection...He knows this, but the stress of it all gets to me at times and causes me to make errors of judgement....and to fail at even the simplest of tasks....such as what time to wake Him up....

*sighs*

as for the sister hunt....Sir was speaking to one who didn't seem to mind that He already owned me....but said she wouldn't be interested in Him as a Master if He wasn't ready to move her in with us site unseen....no meeting first....*lmao*....even Sir wouldn't agree to that....

the second one contacted me....but after a few moments of chatting online all conversations stopped....i'm unsure of what happened....

So the sister hunt continues....


7/19/2010 6:44:55 AM
*sighs*

im sorry i haven't written here for a lil bit.....but to be honest with life going on pretty much as normal there hasn't been all to much to say that i think would interest anyone, other than myself....Sir and i are still looking for a sister and i have been slightly disheartend at all the females we have met as of late that claim they are submissives, or even slaves, but then produce long lists of things they refuse to do.....demands made by them for us to do.....i understand hard limits....even i have mine....(tho to ask Sir He will tell you i have none....He says He knows what i really dislike and find disgusting and He avoids them out of respect for me....)We have met submissives who have told Him they could never be truely submissive to Him as long as He had me.....We have met some who all seemed fine and life would be perfect with them till that lil green eyed monster popped up on their shoulders.....We have met one who refused to do anything oral due to he past....which is actually understandable, but according to Sir during their conversations, which i don't really follow, but Sir keeps nothing of importance from me, She showed no desire of overcoming her fears and phsychological fears of performing oral or anything around her face.....(even with my abused past i have learned to trust my Sir enough to overcome my fears)

So i'll be honest when i say this that i'm finding it doubtful that a sister is out there for us, but i'm not going to give up hope on this....

i was so saddened by this yesterday that i actually had to excuse myself from Sirs feet and go to our room and weep....well it was more along the lines of the lack of us finding a sister....me having doubts on whether or not i'm a good slave....my birthday in a few short weeks.....

when i admitted to Sir that i had to cry, and what i was crying for...first i got a stern talking too....cuz it had started to rain and for some odd reason it always rains when i get truely saddened...(laugh if you want but its true) and He had made plans to take me swimming....but afterwards He held me close and told me that i was perfect for Him and He accepts me even with my faults....

We even had an unexpected playtime in which we practiced my deep throating .....i'm finally starting to get past my gag reflex somewhat...this makes me proud....

sorry that this journal entry is long winded, but i really needed a place to vent and this spot was perfect

maijaheen

7/9/2010 4:57:37 AM
*sighs*

i'd really like to find a sister for us...but every glimmer of hope of finding the right one seems to get shot down.....this is getting very disheartening.....

7/8/2010 8:15:12 PM
Sir has started to get a lil bit frusterated at so called submissives as of late.....one such submissive was in theory to pay us a visit this weekend....and tho she had spoken to us for a while ...Sir has had only silence this past week......

i really want to find Sir a playmate, but everyone i have found just wants playtime with me.....

7/4/2010 7:01:22 AM
would love to wish all who live state side and those from the states living abroad...or stationed abroad a Happy Independence Day......

6/25/2010 4:31:21 AM
well i started to type this last night, but got called away from my computer so now that Sir is off to work i'll try it once again......yes i'll admit i've been a brat as of late.....but in reality it was a means to a wonderful end.....which i was greatful to have been given what i have so long desired Wednesday night....upon my return from work i took a showr and sat down on the chair next to Sir and after a few bratty comments i stuck my tounge out at HIm....He told me i was asking for it....i said perhaps.....He said i was asking for the cane...(the cane is a metal rod that He has been working hard to add a leather handel to reserved just for punishment).....i very sassy mouthed told Him sure....bad attention is better than no attention.....i was told to go to our room and wait for Him....after four whacks with it i was giggling so bad Sir switched to the floggers and we had play instead.....guess it's hard to punish a babygirl when she bursts out laughing everytime the lash meets her skin.....He continued trying to bring tears to my eyes...but i'll admit i was enjoying it way too much for me to cry....
my backside was brite pink wednesday nite....a few small bruises came to the surface last night....this morning a few more are able to be seen.....Sir said we'll take pictures of it laters today...

maijaheen

6/19/2010 8:53:15 PM
*smiles*.....i'm looking so forward to tomarrow....not only is it Daddys day, but it's Sirs and my two year aniv.  Two years ago tomarrow He came up and moved me down here to be with Him.....

6/17/2010 1:23:57 PM
*cries*

i really don't know whats wrong with me as of late.....i'm becoming bratty and disrespectful.....i'm arguementative.....i'm totally out of charecter for me and who i am.....
i'm tired of acting this way....i'm not a bad lil girl honest....i want nothing more than to please my Sir but my behavior is getting terrible......
i'm spending more and more time crying because my behavior is upsetting Him....and the more and more i try to behave the more it seems that i inadvertently fuck everything up.....
my heart hurts so bad right now.....i'm so scared that He's gonna release me if i don't change my behavior.....i don't want any other Sir....i want to belong to only Him......

6/15/2010 4:28:25 AM
morning all.....just waking up.... and was doing some reading here are a few of my favs....

The Collar:

    It's just a piece of leather

    That rests upon my neck

    There are no jewels upon it

    Nothing for which your eye to beck.  

    But to a submissive it has such meaning

    That no Vanilla could hope to understand

    To us it is the Alpha and the Omega

    For it is placed upon us by our Masters hand.  

    Our vanilla sisters call us weak or foolish

    To wear a sign of ownership so proud

    But in the words of Master Shakespeare

    "Me thinks they doth protest too loud" .  

    For I once was as they are now

    Ignorant of the joys they could not know

    And as I kneel here at my Masters feet,

    I realize that the first step to being raised above them, 'tis to kneel low.  

    To kneel before my Master

    As doth the willow before the storm

    To offer submission for His Dominance

    This is no sickness, but 'tis the norm.  

    For what could be more natural

    Than to accept for what my heart and soul doth crave

    To kneel in pride before him and

    say with pride to all the world

    "He is my Master...i am His slave" .  

    'O my poor vanilla sisters

    Who upon my head heap scorn,

    Look deep inside your womanhood

    And understand why for you I mourn.  

    I am a proud, yet humble submissive

    I am what I was born to be

    I do not rage against the feelings

    within my heart and soul

    I bow and accept them...instinctively.  

    It rather is you my sister who rages against what you are

    Though you may deny it to your final breath.

    But to refuse the dreams you have

    in the dark of the night...

    Is this not the most bitter of all forms of death?  

    And when you have those dreams in the dark of night

    Tell me, of the "men" about whom you dream

    Are they prim and proper and "politically correct"

    Or do you dream of a somewhat darker scene?  

    Are those men strong and powerful?

    Do they take and then smile

    as you protest that you are cruel?

    Do they use whip and flogger?

    Cane, oar and crop?

    To control and enforce their rule?  

    You know the answers deep down in your soul

    Though the word on your lips are like dust

    You know what the truth is                                                   You have no excuses                           My sister...tho are already one of us.
     

Submissive Prayer

Author: Unknown

Allow me the strength to answer questions I can't fathom.
Allow me the spirit to know his needs.
Allow me the kindness to choke back retorts.
Allow me the serenity to serve Him in peace.
Allow me the love to show Him myself.
Allow me the tenderness to comfort Him.
Allow me the light to show us the way.
Allow me the wisdom to be an asset to Him.
Let me be able to show Him each day my love of my service to Him.
Let me open myself up to completely belong to Him.
Let my eyes show Him the same respect, rather I sit at his side, or kneel at his feet.
Let me accept my punishment with the grace of a woman.
Let me learn to please Him, beyond myself.
Grant me the power to give myself to Him completely.
Give me the strength to please us both.
Permit me to love myself, in loving Him.
Allow me the peace of serving Him.
For it is my greatest wish, my highest power To make his life complete,as he makes mine.


6/14/2010 6:17:46 PM
question......

wondering if i should feel honored or if it should really bug me......

a gentleman messaged my Owner in reguards to know if He was interested in selling me, or transfering my contract........

6/10/2010 8:34:40 PM
*sighs*
i took time to read my most recent journal entries and to be honest even tho i was feeling at my lowest at that time of my life.....i sounded far from the slave i was trained to be and more like a spoiled child.....i have no idea what the future holds for me, but till then i'll forever be proud to wear His collar.....

6/4/2010 9:11:35 PM
Sir has found it in His heart to allow me to remain His....of this i am very proud.....but my heart is still heavy with the knowledge that i have failed Him

6/3/2010 9:25:18 PM
i was so happy when He finally picked out the collar i was to wear.....and i waited anxiously for it to arrive in the mail....almost holding my breath till the day i'd feel the weight of it on my neck.....i was fainthearted when it arrived and He put it on....i was so proud o belong to Him.....He is the most perfect Master any slave could be lucky enough to have.....and when i mentioned that it had fallen off at work He purchased the stuff to seal it permanently ....

i must have started to take it all for granted cuz now through my own failings i'm losing everything.....my heart is lying in a million peices on the floor.....and no matter how hard i beg and plead with Him....He refuses to listen to me......my words fall upon deaf ears.....

6/3/2010 9:12:51 PM
it's with a very heavy heart i write this entry.....i'm a failier......i deserve nothing.....i don't even want to exist anylonger......after being trained for 3 years now and finally earning the right to wear my Masters collar....i'v failed Him greatly.....i failed at a task He set before me over and over and over again......and i ran out of chances to redeem myself.....

i'm sure that He will agree that i've been a perfect slave in all aspects except one....and that was the one task He set before me.....and it has been an ongoing task....one that i have failed at for almot 2 years now.....

i want nothing more in life than to be His slave to belong to Him....to be used for His pleasures....and i took it all for granted and now i must pay the ultimate price....

i'm a fallen slave now and deserves nothing....my mind body and soul belong to only one man....and He now nolonger wants it because i'm a failure.....

the task actually was pretty simple in thought,,,,,but my fears got the better of me and now because of those fears i've lost everything.....i'm losing the collar i worked so hard for.....and have been told i'll never have the chance to earn it back......i don't know what to do with myself anylonger....i don't want to exsist .....i'm nothing without Him.....


5/9/2010 7:17:40 PM

Sir and i went to our first munch last night....we had a blast everyone was so excepting and friendly...the playparty afterwards was enjoyable as well.....not to mention Sir purchased a new toy and placed an order for another one.....He also ordered my first set of leather cuffs today....he ended up having to have them adjusted to fit my wrists....he was unable to find any that would fit my wrists which are barely 6 inches around...


5/8/2010 9:15:56 AM
*smiles* well we've just about finished our move and Sir celebrated it by practicing His rope bondage....He took a pix of His very first attempt.....

with the exception of learning to overcome my ticklishness i rather enjoyed it.....i enjoyed how the rope felt on my skin....i enjoyed the finished product....not to mention the closeness of my Sir.....tho i've learned not to giggle during the process now....

4/28/2010 6:33:20 AM
I must apologize to my not being on much this week.....Sir and i are in the process of moving into our new home......

but i will let everyone know this....

*smiles*

Sir replaced my training collar with my permanent one  this past Monday night.....I'm so very proud of it....it only took me two years to earn the right to wear it.....Well according to Him He's been meaning to give me one for a while but had not found what he desired.....

i'll post pix shortly

4/25/2010 9:21:49 AM

Sir stated last night this song fits us perfectly as a duet....the first verse being sung by me ....the second verse Him



Your cruel device,
Your blood like ice.
One look could kill,
My pain, your thrill.

I wanna love you, but I better not touch (don't touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much (too much)
I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains.

Your mouth, so hot
Your web, I'm caught
Your skin, so wet
Black lace on sweat

I hear you callin' and it's needles and pins (and pins)
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't wanna touch you, but you're under my skin (deep in)
I wanna kiss you, but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

One look (one look), could kill (could kill),
My pain, your thrill.

I wanna love you, but I better not touch (don't touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much (too much)
I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

I wanna love you, but I better not touch (don't touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I wanna too much (too much)
I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison

Yeah
Well I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

Runnin' deep inside my veins
Burnin' deep inside my veins
Poison

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
It's poison
I don't wanna break these chains


4/20/2010 7:36:02 PM
*smiles* i was lucky enough to have the day off.....and Sir even allowed me to go to work with Him today....so i had internet time as well.....not to mention the joy of being able to please Him at His job site

4/18/2010 9:36:36 AM

i would like to apoligize to all of you who have wrote me telling me you have spilled drinks due to unexpected fits of laughter from reading my last journal entry that wasn't my intent, i just was taking a moment to vent out my frusteration.....something under normal conditions i'm not allowed to do


4/15/2010 8:36:31 AM

351-474-939

smiles

 

Please allow me to introduce myself my name is maija and I'm a 24/7 slave...tho Daddy says i'm a slave with privleges, i'm a slave none the less...

In His own words...."i belong to Daddy solely as His toy, His most prized possession, and as such i'm for His use when He wants, where He wants, and how He wants..." i'm not allowed to argue with the fact....

i'm here to meet people of a similar mind set....Well one can dream can't one....i know from my past experiences that most so called Sirs and Mistresses are looking for a quick cyber, (i mean no disrespect in the least to the true Sirs and Mistresses please forgive me if i offended you) but that's not what i'm here for....

What i'm hoping for most of all is the chance to be able to meet other people who live in Sir's and my area who share our lifestyle and ideas.

i'm allowed general conversation on these types of sites....if you would like more you will need to submit your desires to my Sir....His name here is SirOfMaija......and His yahoo is bdwilson1226.....i'm not allowed to give out my yahoo without his permission....

i'll update this profile page when i'm able to think of more to say..

smiles if you want to know more about me just ask please...

P.S. thank-you for taking the time to read my entire profile...

huggs


*giggles* Sir says I need to edit it I wanted to keep my old one for reference


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jane10180
 
 Age: 25
 Tooting, United Kingdom