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4/10/2018 11:04:54 PM
I know it’s been a while since I’ve written in my journal. There has been so many things going on. Between the kids, work and some other hiccups... it has been absolutely insane. Daddy left yesterday for a business trip and should be home in a week or so. We had a heart to heart talk and I feel it did us some good. There are so many things we are unsure of right now and it’s causing tension between us. We know we both have somethings to work on but I know we can do it and truely be happy

3/18/2018 7:07:57 PM
Not feeling all that great and I’m feeling disappointed. Oh well! Going to finish laundry and then go to bed.

3/11/2018 10:30:39 PM
Very odd day. I woke up feeling good but by the afternoon I was feeling like I had been run over by a bus. I hadn’t really done anything other than laundry to that point. Short nap and some Tylenol and I was starting to feel better. Getting a “gg” from daddy definitely helped. Well I better get to bed. Got a long work week ahead of me. Night all!

3/9/2018 9:21:59 PM
Looks like I’m not longer in my “gg” status. I didn’t hear it once today. I heard it so many times yesterday that I was beyond on cloud 9 but today? My feet never left the ground and I don’t know why. I got so many things taken care of today that daddy wanted done but still no gg. I got the old furniture taken care of. Got the new dresser finished. Got the rug in our oldest bedroom. Bought the new curtains for the girls’ bedrooms. Still no gg.  I just don’t understand. Well I guess I better get to bed now. Night all.

3/8/2018 10:12:15 PM
Well daddy has gone back to PA and I miss him terribly. He will be back home in about 2 weeks and then we go on vacation. I can’t wait to have daddy all to myself for an entire week. I really wish daddy were here right now. I have had the busiest day ever. A lot of running around and tasks to complete. I’m very happy I was able to complete them for daddy because I made back in to my “gg” status with daddy. It felt absolutely unbelievably amazing when daddy said I was a very good girl. It put a HUGE smile on my face all day. Well it’s time to get to bed. Night all!

2/22/2018 9:25:31 PM
Well daddy is back in PA and we miss him immensely. Luckily he’ll only be gone a week but it’s going to be the longest week EVER! Well I better get to bed. I have a headache and another busy day tomorrow. Night all!

2/8/2018 10:24:55 PM
I am so excited!!!! Tomorrow is Friday and daddy will be home tomorrow night! I can’t wait to have him home. I have missed him so very much. I better get to bed so tomorrow can get here sooner. Night all!

2/7/2018 9:54:04 PM
Long day. Don’t feel good. Very busy day tomorrow. Missing my daddy like crazy. Night all!

2/4/2018 11:59:10 PM
Holy cow I just realized it was midnight. I was on the phone with my mom for 2 1/2 hours. I miss talking to my mom. We usually get so busy with life that we don’t get to actually talk. Going to bed now. Night all!

2/3/2018 10:40:45 PM
I really don’t know what to say right now. I feel so completely lost. I know daddy says that I keep a wall up and I don’t feel comfortable talking to him about certain things but I feel that daddy is the same way. I know that there is something going on and I’ve asked if I’ve upset him and he didn’t give me a direct answer. My gut says otherwise plus I haven’t gotten a “gg” from daddy in what feels like forever. Just like how daddy dislikes the word “really” I myself dislike the work “ok” which I have gotten a lot of over the past couple of days. It really bothers me. I am trying my hardest to be a good girl and it just feels like it’s not enough. I finished a picture project that daddy and I had started and no “gg”. I created a very special shadow box project for daddy and still no “gg”. I just feel so emotionally drained right now. I hope a good nights sleep will help me. Night all!

2/2/2018 11:13:43 PM
Head hurts. Exhausted and so ready for bed. Wish daddy were here to cuddle up with. Going to bed. Night all 

2/1/2018 10:33:53 PM
Such a very long day. I miss my daddy so very much but thankfully work has been crazy and it’s been keeping my occupied. My daddy needs to be home and it need to be soon. The girls and I need him so very much. I need to hear his heartbeating as I slow drift off to sleep. I need to see his face and be able to kiss his lips. 

1/31/2018 9:30:23 PM
Very sad day for daddy and his girls as it was time for daddy to go home. We miss him so very much already. We know daddy will be back with us in a week or so but it is going to feel like an eternity. We need him with us always. We love you and miss you very much daddy. Hurry home to your girls.

1/23/2018 10:10:35 PM
I am so excited! Daddy will be home tomorrow night. It has been the longest day and a half EVER! I have missed him so much. I can’t wait to be back in his arms. Time for bed now. Night all!

1/22/2018 9:25:54 PM
Well daddy had to take an kinda unplanned trip. He left today but will be back on Wednesday. Daddy said this a taste of what it will be like when we are finally living together. I didnt think I would have a hard time with this trip since he’ll only be gone 2 1/2 days but it still hurts being away from him. I hate being away from daddy whether it’s 2 hours, 2 days or 2 weeks. It all feels like an eternity. Now it’s time to go crawl in bed and try to sleep. Our bed is going to feel so empty without him in it. Night all!

1/17/2018 10:00:38 PM
This time tomorrow I will be back in daddy’s arms. I can’t wait. I miss him so very VERY much. Well I better get to o bed. Got a busy day tomorrow. Night all!

1/16/2018 9:03:53 PM
Long but fast paced day. My head is killing me and I’m still not completely back in daddy’s good graces. I haven’t heard “good girl” since Friday afternoon. I don’t know what to do. I’m trying really hard to be a good girl but it’s frustrating because I feel like it just gets dismissed. It’s no wonder why I have a headache and feel like I’ve been run over by a bus. My daddy isn’t happy and neither am I. It’s amazing how my body reacts to daddy being upset with me. I feel like I’m trapped in a dark hole and the only one that can save me is daddy. I’m clawing and clawing trying to get to him but my efforts seem pointless. I’m going to bed soon. This headache is starting to make me sick again. Night all!

1/15/2018 9:18:32 PM
Another lazy day. I didn’t have to work today so I hung out at home with the girls. I did manage to go to the grocery store. A trip to Walmart is always an adventure. 69 hours to go until daddy is back. Haha! 69! Yes I’m such a Little. Well I better get ready to go to bed. Got a busy work week ahead of me. Night all!

1/14/2018 8:24:37 PM
FOR MY DADDY
 
My life has always been a broken puzzle
Always missing pieces and never to be found
I had me, myself and I with a broken heart
Which everyday was being torn apart

But then I met you
And from that moment on everything changed
If I was feeling down, you’d lend a helping hand
You’d help me up and in life show me where to stand

Not that you’re in my heart and life
Everything makes sense
The picture has gone from black to white
And everything that was wrong you’ve made right

You’re everything I’ve ever wanted
For my eyes to see and my heart to love
You’re so brave and true
For no one would ever deny
And for these reason I never want to say goodbye

When we’re not looking into each other’s eyes
Holding each other or sharing special moments
Guaranteed I’ll be missing you
And remembering what we did last
And other priceless times we’ve had in the past

Ever since you have come along
All the pain and sorrow have left
The reason for this to be
Because you’ve completed me


1/13/2018 10:06:28 PM
Another semi rough day. I’m trying to make thing better with daddy by asking for his opinion on things and it’s just no working. I’m really trying. My head is starting to hurt again and my stomach has been messed up all day. I have heard “good girl” in a day and a half and it’s killing me. I hate when things are like this. I’m going to bed. Not even going to hope for a better day tomorrow because it most likely won’t happen. 

1/12/2018 10:42:55 PM
I feel I have something wrong again. Daddy got upset with me over one of our pictures and where I put it. I hate when things are like this between us. I hate when we aren’t face to face to talk this out. He says that we are all good but it doesn’t feel that way. I miss him so much. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

1/11/2018 11:46:47 PM
Got lost in my work and just realized it’s almost midnight. I better get my butt to bed. Night all

1/10/2018 10:15:34 PM
Feeling pretty crappy thanks to Mother Nature. My back hurts. My stomach hurts. Everything hurts. I wish daddy were here to cuddle with me. He always makes me feel better. He’s like my magic cure all medicine. I miss him so much. Well it’s time to get to bed. Hopefully I feel better tomorro. Night all!

1/9/2018 9:58:28 PM
Going to bed. Bad headache again. Night all!

1/8/2018 7:38:17 PM
Having a really hard night tonight. my head is pounding, my exhausted and I am REALLY missing daddy tonight. There are 2 things I do when I feel like this and I can’t go to sleep yet and that is draw or write. I don’t really feel like writing tonight so I think I’ll give drawing a shot. I do owe daddy a new piece of artwork. The only good thing about feeling like this is when I put pencil to paper some of the most amazing stuff comes out. 90% of the time I shock myself.

1/6/2018 10:37:05 PM
I am so excited! I found out today that daddy will be back on the 17th and we started talking about our next vacation. This is going to be a vacation just for the 2 of us. We love our girls to death but we need our time alone together. I can’t wait to be back in daddy’s arms. I miss his so very much. Time for bed now. I hope I have one of our dream dates. Night all!

1/5/2018 10:58:52 PM
Well it was a very long day. I spent majority of the day at home. The house felt so empty without daddy here. I’d give anything to be back in his arms right now. I love and miss him so very much. We need him here with us. I know the girls miss him as well. They keep asking when he’ll be back and all I can say is soon. I hate crawling into bed at night because I know he won’t be there to cuddle up next to and kiss good night. 

1/4/2018 6:57:17 PM
The last 3 weeks have been amazing. I absolutely loved having daddy here with us as long as he was. We put a lot of miles on the rental but we had a lot of fun doing it. We got to spend some much needed time as the family we are meant to be. But daddy is back in PA and the house just is t the same without him here. No daddy to come home to. No daddy to cuddle up with at night. I hurts so much not being able to see his face or touch him whenever I want. Seeing his smiling face. Hearing him laugh with the girls as they goof around. I know he will be back soon but not soon enough. I can’t wait for the days of no goodbyes just see you in a little bit. The girls and I need those days as well as daddy. 

12/11/2017 11:46:49 PM
A little over 12 hours to go. I am so excited! I can’t wait!!! Time to get to bed now. Night all!

12/10/2017 11:10:59 PM
I am so exhausted. I got all the wrapping finished up and got my step dads picture finished as well. I am also very excited because daddy will be here in 37 hours. I can’t wait! I am so so SO excited! I have missed him so very much! Time for bed now. Night all!

12/7/2017 10:03:23 PM
Crazy day at work and busy day after work. Slowly but surely I’m getting everyone’s gifts wrapped. All I have left is the baby’s and daddy’s gifts. I still have a little bit of shopping to do for daddy. I have a could of things in mind for him. Well I better get to bed. I’ve got another busy day ahead of me. Night all

12/5/2017 9:28:10 PM
Pretty easy day today. Thank goodness for that. After dealing with 3 sick kiddos, I think I’m getting sick. I am beyond exhausted. Time for bed. Nite all

12/4/2017 8:47:05 PM
I AM SO EXCITED!!!! Daddy just told me that he will be here next Tuesday. This time he will be staying with us for 3 weeks!!! 3 whole weeks!!!! I can’t believe it!!! We also have our short family vacation coming up in 2 weeks. I can’t wait. I don’t know if I’ll be able to sleep tonight because of all the excitement. Now it’s time to shower and then bed. Nite all!

12/2/2017 11:16:31 PM
It has been an exhausting past couple of days. So exhausting I slept 12 hours last night. It felt amazing. I haven’t written a journal the last couple of nights because I’m passed out earlier than usual. I think I annoyed daddy a little today because I keep asking him when he’ll be back. I miss him so much and I can’t wait for him to get back. I guess I’ll just keep my mouth shut and wait until he tells me. Well it’s bed time. Night all!

11/28/2017 9:06:19 PM
Well I woke up with the same headache I went to bed with. It was a very long and busy day today. I took a nap but it didn’t help. I hate dinner and still didn’t help. I finally had to take some Tylenol. It’s slowly starting to go away but not completely just yet. I’m hoping it’ll be gone by tomorrow. I hate trying to function with a bad headache. I know if daddy were here he could get it to go away. It amazes me that I rarely have one when daddy is here but as soon as he’s gone I end up with a massive one. 

11/27/2017 9:48:58 PM
Well daddy has flown home and all of us girls miss him so very much. This morning was so hard on all of us. Hugs, pouty faces and tears. I tried to keep myself busy at work so I didn’t become depressed. I’m not looking forward to crawling into a cold and empty bed tonight. At least I can sleep in one of daddy’s shirts and sleep on his side of the bed. It usually helps but not much. I hate when daddy is away. I feel so lost without his here. Time to go to bed and hopefully dream of my daddy. Night all

11/18/2017 10:48:12 PM
I am so excited!!!! The girls and I will be back in daddy’s arms in 13 hours. I can’t wait. I have missed him so much. We have both been through a lot emotionally the last couple weeks and we could really use some time together. I better get to bed so I’m nice and rested when daddy arrives. Night all!

11/16/2017 9:38:30 PM
Well it has been an exhausting and emotional couple of days. The girls and I went to Cali for my great grandmothers funeral. It was nice to see everyone but not so nice circumstances. It was a very beautiful ceremony and burial. I know grandma would have been very happy with how it turned out. Well it’s time to get my tired butt to bed. Night all.

11/13/2017 10:16:40 PM
Well today was just another day. Nothing too outlandish happened. The girls and I tried to FaceTime with daddy tonight but the connection was horrible sonit was just a regular phone call. I’m kinda excited about tomorrow but kinda not. The kids and I are going to California but the reason is not ideal. We are going for my great grandmothers funeral. I’m looking forward to seeing my family but not looking forward to the driving. Thank goodness the kids are good road trippers. Well it’s time for bed. Night all

11/8/2017 9:11:37 PM
Very busy and long day. Have a massive headache. Going to bed to dream about daddy. Nite all!

11/6/2017 9:17:11 PM
Had a very busy day at work but had a great time FaceTiming daddy tonight. The girls and I were acting so silly and goofy. I’m sure daddy was enjoying it. He took a couple of screen shoot of me making silly faces. I need to learn to let go sometimes and just have fun. No caring how stupid or silly I look. I know daddy would enjoy seeing more of it. Well it’s time for bed. Night all

11/5/2017 8:47:58 PM
Had a much better day. Daddy and I had a much needed heart to heart talk and said things that needed to be said. We are in a much better place in our relationship due to this talk. I am back to being his “Gg” and his “bg” and honestly I couldn’t be happier. We have both miss us and being the happy couple we are meant to be. I am so happy to say that daddy will be with us for Thanksgiving as well as Christmas. We need this time together as a family and as a couple. Daddy is also going to try to make it in for my company Christmas party. I am so excited that he will finally be able to put faces with the names. Well time to finished the laundry and get to bed. Got another busy week ahead of me.

11/4/2017 8:49:17 PM
Another bad day. Every emotional and I woke up with the headache I went to bed with. On top of dealing with my great grandmothers death, I woke up to a call from my ex saying he was in the ER with my 3 year old. She hurt her leg at a trampoline place yesterday. Nothing is broken but im guess she still hurt it because she not putting any weight on her leg. On a good note, I did get to babysit my friends 6 month old today. I love babies but forgot how much work they really are. Time to get the girls off to bed as well as myself. Nite all!

11/3/2017 7:39:57 PM
Another alright day. Got some bad news today. I found out that my 100 year old great grandmother passed away earlier this evening. Ended up with a really bad headache due to cry. I wish daddy were here to hold me.

11/2/2017 11:23:30 PM
Same type of day. Still miss daddy. Still miss us. Feeling so lost.

11/1/2017 11:15:10 PM
I have to be completely honest. I made some request to change a couple of thing with daddy and I am really hating it. Things have changed between daddy and I and I am not liking it one bit. Daddy isn’t the same towards me. I haven’t heard “good girl” or “baby girl” in days and it hurts so bad. I want things the way they were. I want my daddy back. I want us back. 

10/31/2017 10:21:52 PM
Fun night trick or treating with the kids. Made me miss daddy because he should have been there with us. It’s not fair to him that he has to miss out on things like this. I better get to bed. I am exhausted

10/30/2017 10:12:33 PM
Very rough start to the weekend. Daddy and I had a very big disagreement. I’m happy we worked it out though. It still doesn’t seem 100% but it’s a lot better than it was on Saturday. I almost lost him due to a  decision that I made. I know that we will be able to make it past this. We have such a strong bond and we are both fighters. 

10/27/2017 12:06:13 AM
Very busy night... getting girls ready to go out of town and getting daddy’s costume ready for the party on Saturday. I am really loving how it is turning out. Time for bed. Night all

10/25/2017 10:41:42 PM
Finally able to get on here. Well it has been a rather stressful couple of days dealing with work and the whole car thing. Just to add to it I found out today that my 100 year old great grandmother has been place in hospice care. My heart hurts knowing that it is soon coming to an end for her but she has lived an amazing life. She has done and seen so many things and has always cherished her family... especially her grand and great grandchildren. She is am absolutely amazing woman and I only hope to become half the woman she is. 

10/17/2017 9:50:45 PM
Tomorrow is going to be a very busy day. I get to go hospital hopping with a coworker. Thank goodness she’s a work bestie. She will be the one in charge of starting the hospital discharges so I’m taking her for a couple of the hospitals for face to face meetings. I know she is looking forward to getting out of the office. After work i have physical therapy and then tomorrow night I get to pick daddy up from the airport. I am so excited and I can’t wait to see him and get my arms around him. 

10/16/2017 9:25:16 PM
I... AM... SO... EXCITED!!!! I found out this morning that daddy will be here on Wednesday. I miss him so much. I can’t wait to be back in his arms. Cuddled up with him on the couch. Cuddle up with him in bed. We need him here with us. To love is. To protect us. To discipline us. We need him here to take care of us. F&A 2 I&B

10/15/2017 10:50:07 PM
Typical Sunday. Full of laundry and that’s pretty much it. Clothes clothes clothes. There was even some of daddy’s thrown in there. I love doing his clothes. Almost makes it feel like he’s actually here. Well time for bed. Got another busy week ahead of me.

10/14/2017 9:56:44 PM
Had a pretty good day today. I had to have a serious talk with our oldest about her current behavior and the consequences of her actions. I think I got through to her because her total attitude changed. Girls and I also went grocery shopping and I didn’t have to yell at them once. It was amazing! On the way home we were all acting silly and singing songs at the top of our lungs. It’s been awhile since we all laughed that hard. Once we got home a situated, we sat down and painted pumpkins together. It was so much fun. I think the baby ended up with more paint on her than on the pumpkin. I also got an unexpected phone call from my bestest friend in the world. It feels like forever since i heard her voice. It was a good day. It would have been absolutely perfect if daddy were here to share it with us. We miss him so much.

10/13/2017 8:57:34 PM
Can I please have one night that doesn’t end shitty? Just one! Is that too much to ask for? I guess I upset daddy again. I don’t understand why he is being so irritable. It seems like every night I say or do something to irritate him. I don’t mean to. I’ve also noticed that he seems sort of distracted at night as well. Maybe I’m reading too much into it but things just feel off between us and I don’t know why. I don’t know what to say or do. I guess I’ll just keep my mouth shut and try not to say anything that could possibly get me in trouble.

10/12/2017 9:28:12 PM
Another long day. Horrible night... going to bed. Nite all

10/11/2017 8:52:10 PM
Long day... to new kiddos...  physical therapy session... small grocery shopping trip... pick up girls from babysitters... made dinner... coconut oil treatment on my hair... now bed. I am so unbelievably exhausted. I wish daddy were here to cuddle with. I miss him so much.

10/10/2017 9:05:42 PM
Another night cut short by my big mouth. I don’t know what it is but it seems like everything I say caused daddy to become upset or frustrated with me. I don’t know what to do. It feels like I have done or said something wrong but what? It has been driving me crazy. I honestly feel like crying because I feel this wedge between us and I don’t know what it is. If I don’t know what it is then I can fix it. I’m going to bed now and I hope to god that tomorrow is a better day. 

10/9/2017 9:08:50 PM
Long day... bad headache again... going to bed... night all

10/8/2017 6:52:24 PM
I know I was really busy today but I have a gut feeling that something is wrong. I hang on to every word daddy says and there were a couple of things I noticed. I got a lot of “ok” and not 1 “Gg” from daddy. I don’t know what is wrong. Did I do something wrong? Did I say something wrong? I just feel so lost right now. I tried to start a conversation with daddy but all I got was one word responses. I don’t know what to do. I guess I’ll just keep my head down and mouth shut for a next couple of days until things get back to normal.

10/7/2017 8:15:22 PM
It has finally been a relaxed day. I got to spend the whole day with our girls and it was awesome. We went to Seaquest and ate out for dinner. On the way home through I did educate our oldest. We took a drive down Las Vegas Blvd and showed her where the shooting took place. It’s one thing to see it on the news but it’s another to see it in person. She was shocked more that anything. I don’t think she realized where exactly it took place. It was very heartwarming to  see the two vigils and the crowd that they created. Seeing all the crosses at the Welcome to Las Vegas sign was amazing. 

10/6/2017 10:02:42 PM
It has been a very long and emotional week for me and I am so glad it is over. Dealing with the emotions of the shooting to now having to go to therapy for my back/shoulder to going back to not having daddy here. I am an emotional wreck right now. I listened to a song that Eric Church wrote for the shooting victims and I bury into tears. I’m feeling so drained right now. I’m hoping to get a good nights sleep and be back to my normal happy self. Something good did happen today that made me and daddy feel beyond proud. My boss sent out a company wide email stating how good of a job I am doing and how I have doubled the company’s efficiency. It made me feel amazing being recognized for all of my hard work and dedication. 

10/5/2017 8:03:12 PM
Well today was a very lonely day. My daddy is back home in PA and have no clue when I will see him next. I feel so lost when he is not near. I have been going through a lot this past week and I know it has made things rather difficult for daddy and I. I’m still dealing with the whole car accident thing from last week. I started my spinal rehab today and they want me to go 3 times a week for a month. I can’t wait for this whole thing to be done and over with. On top of all of that, the horrific shooting that happened last Sunday has made things quite difficult at work. I may not have been born and raised in Vegas but it is my home. I may not like everything about Vegas but this community has come together in ways that are almost unheard of. It is so inspirational to see all the strength and love that everyone has shown for one another in this very hard time. I may not have been directly impacted by this unnecessarily event but my heart still aches for those whole were. #vegasstrong

10/5/2017 5:58:11 AM
Well daddy is currently at the airport about to head back to PA. He’s only been gone a very short time and I already miss him like crazy. The girls and I absolutely love when he is here. It makes it harder not knowing when daddy will be back but I hope it will be soon. We need him here with us every day. Daddy and I had a great anniversary week full of little gifts and a beautiful anniversary dinner. Daddy got me a new Pandora bracelet that I absolutely love. I love the fact that Daddy put so much thought into which charms to get and each one having a very special meaning. It really made my heart melt. As far daddy’s gift.... well daddy gave me a task quite a few months ago and I had ALMOST given up but I completed it! I am so very proud of myself for being so persistent and making the damn near impossible possible. 

9/30/2017 10:51:03 PM
Quick entry tonight since I have to get to bed. I am so excited that daddy will be here tomorrow. I can’t wait to see him. I have missed him so much. 

9/29/2017 7:14:50 PM
2 years ago my daddy became my everything. I can honestly say it has been the best 2 years of my life. I am without a doubt the luckiest girl in the world to have such an amazing daddy. Daddy has helped me grow and has pushed me to improve mine and the girls lives. Some of those changes were extremely hard and scary but very well worth it. I know I’m not always the bestest lil girl that my daddy deserves and sometimes act like an independent brat but I will make this next year better than the last. We deserve to finally become the family that we have both worked so hard for. We will always need our daddy to love us, guide us, and of course  discipline us. We need our daddy with us always and forever. Happy Anniversary Daddy!!!! I love you so very much!!!

9/28/2017 9:50:33 PM
Well it was another long day at work. Have a meeting at UNLV which went really well. I have to admit that I was nervous at first but once I got into professional mode it disappeared. Daddy told me I’d be fine once I started talking and he was right. Well I’m off to bed. I’m training a new hire tomorrow plus it’s discharge day. Night all

9/27/2017 9:09:18 PM
Another day of dealing with the  repercussions of the accident. First I went down the the police dept and filed a report. Then after work the girls and I ended up going to urgent care. We’re dont have any real major damage but there is a lot of muscle pain. The doctor recommended spinal rehab for me though. That is something I am not looking forward to and unfortunately it’s not going to be my first run in with spinal rehab. Last time it was 3 months of electro therapy just to get my muscles to “calm down” 

9/26/2017 8:54:31 PM
Well it was a very interesting end to my day. 2 or our 3 girls were in a car accident today. Everyone is fine but a little shaken up. The car is still driveable but I still contacted the insurance company just in case. I was not at fault in this one. Some lady rear ended me at a red light. My first thought was to call daddy and I did. I wish he were here to soothe his girls. I know we’re all going to be sore tomorrow. 

9/25/2017 8:22:48 PM
I am getting so excited. Daddy and I are 4 days away from our 2 year anniversary. I can't believe it's already been 2 years. We have had our ups and downs and the past year has been especially hard on both of us but together we fought and made it through. We have come out stronger than ever. Hand in hand we will face many more years together and strengthen the unbelievable bond we already have. He is and forever will continue to be my Sir, daddy, master, best friend, love of my life, and soul mate.

9/24/2017 8:20:59 PM
Got to FaceTime with daddy tonight. I know we both needed it very much. I know he misses his girls just as much as we miss him. He got to watch the girls goof around and tell silly jokes. I know he needs those moments when he is so far away. The girls need that time and attention from him as well. I can't wait for the days when we won't need our iPhones to share these moments. The moments when daddy can join in the horseplay. Daddy and the girls will get this time in 6 days. We can't wait until he's back with us.

9/23/2017 10:05:56 PM
Well I have manage to get to the point of dreading going to sleep. I have been having this  reoccurring nightmare. It's been going on for about a week and a half now. I hate it! I wake up in tears every time. I know it's just a dream but it still crushes my heart every time. I just want it to stop! I hate this. To be completely honest I've been contemplating on talking to one of my therapist at work about it. Maybe try to figure out what is triggering it and how I get it to stop. I need it to stop! I wish my daddy were here because I know he would make it all better.

9/22/2017 11:20:26 PM
Not so crazy day thank goodness. I took our youngest today to get her 3 year picture done. They came out so cute. I hate that she's so photogenic because all of her photos came out really cute and it was VERY hard to pick just one. Daddy is very happy with how they turn out as well. Well I better get my butt to bed. I am exhausted from such a long busy week. Night all

9/21/2017 9:05:37 PM
Had another crazy day. I had to cancel a big meetingni had scheduled at the university because our oldest was sick and needed to be picked. Thank goodness the people I was meeting with were so understanding. After I got back to work it was just straight crazy after crazy. It was nonstop. I am so happy tomorrow is Friday. I am so over this week already. Only 8 more days until daddy is back and I can hardly wait. I miss him so very VERY much!

9/20/2017 9:08:24 PM
Long day ending with a bad headache. Going to bed. Night all

9/19/2017 9:06:30 PM
Tonight I've been in a kind of funk. I feel like crying. I miss my daddy so much. Not having him here hurts so much. My heart is aching. Daddy will be back in 10 days but that's 10 days too long. I desperately need to be in his arms every night. I feel so lost without him. I have tried to distract my mind but nothing is working. Drawing usually helps but I can't focus. I put my earbuds in and tried listening to music but that didn't help one bit. I am exhausted and need sleep but I fear I will have the same nightmare I had last night. I was reassured by daddy that is was just a dream and there was no chance of it happening but seeing him there saying those words was soul crushing. I don't know what to do with myself tonight. 

9/18/2017 9:53:53 PM
Today was a very long day. I did however get daddy's anniversary gift today. I am so excited and can't wait to give it to him. There is no present on earth I could give to him that could show just how much I love him and how much he means to me. 

9/17/2017 10:02:53 PM
 For the longest time I had to hide my "little" side from the world but I find it absolutely amazing that daddy brings the little out so easily. Like tonight, I thought daddy went to bed without saying goodnight or I love you so yeah I threw a teeny tiny tantrum. Daddy makes it so easy for me to be so carefree and just be me. Able to put down the weight of life that I have carried and must continue to carry every day. Be able to lay in his arms and not think of anything but that moment. I need those moments so very much F&A

9/16/2017 10:48:59 PM
Well today had its ups and downs. Daddy and I talked about our Christmas plans and another family trip we are taking in December. The girls and I are so excited about our trip. I took the girls out for pizza and some arcade games. It was fun but it killed me seeing all the families there having fun as well. Our family isn't complete without daddy here. I feel so lonely. 😭

9/15/2017 7:58:02 PM
i had to keep myself busy today to keep from feeling depressed. I miss daddy so much. My heart hurts when he isn't near. I absolutely love our hellos but despise our goodbyes. I took our oldest to the movies tonight and tried to enjoy myself the best I could. I love hanging with our oldest but I kept thinking about daddy. I want him home so very bad. 

9/14/2017 6:15:40 AM
It's that time again when I must say goodbye to my daddy. The goodbye this time hurts so much more. We got to spend to much time together. We had an absolutely amazing trip with a lot of little adventures. New memories to share and hold deep in our hearts. The nights of being held in his arms was and is exactly what I need. i miss his so much already. Although daddy will be back in like 2 weeks it will still feel like an eternity. 

9/6/2017 7:05:47 PM
Very VERY rough day! I ended up with another 4 more kiddos today. That's 9 kiddos in 2 days. OMG! I am going bonkers with all of these kiddos. It has not let up at all for 2 straight days. Thank goodness I'm going to be on vacation next week. I am so excited. I get daddy all to myself for 5 days. Our alone time has become so rare and priceless. I will treasure every second of it

9/5/2017 9:10:58 PM
Extremely busy day today!!! After getting the girls off the school and the babysitter and a 9am meeting, I had to take my car to the mechanic. Once I got back to the office I got hit with 5 new kiddos. After I got them taken care of I had to go pick my car up which cause me to be a couple minutes late for a 4pm meeting. Seeing that I get off at 4:30, my meeting didn't get over until 5. All of this caused me to not have much time to talk to daddy today which made the day even worse. But at least it caused my day to go by quicker which puts me 1 more day closer to seeing my daddy. I miss him so very much. I need to be in his arms so bad.

9/4/2017 8:30:42 PM
Less than 3 days to go! I am so SO excited! Back to work tomorrow after a much needed long weekend. I know it's a short week but short weeks are usually the longest plus I have to get ready to go on vacation. Girls are all in bed now so I should start getting everything ready for tomorrow. Night all

9/3/2017 10:09:50 PM
Less than 4 days to go until daddy's here. I can't wait to see him. I miss him so very much. I can't wait to be swept away and spend some much needed one on one time with him. We need this time together to reconnect and make our bond even stronge. (If that's even possible) Well it's getting late. I better get to bed. Lots to do tomorrow. Night all.

9/1/2017 9:21:17 PM
Less than a week to go until daddy is back and I have him all to myself. I hate to be greedy but I am in desperate need of some daddy baby girl time. Next Thursday can't come fast enough. I'm going to to get to bed soon so I can have a dream date with my daddy. Night all

8/31/2017 7:29:58 PM
Well today was another difficult day. I've got to print off some paperwork to prep for another busy day tomorrow. Tomorrow is discharge day. The fun never ends. I didn't get to talk to daddy much today but he did help me with a big project I e been working on. He's so smart.... way smarter than I could ever be. Well I think I'm going to get everyone to bed soon. This baby girl is exhausted. Night all

8/30/2017 8:47:34 PM
Had a very busy day today. Month end is always fun. I ended up with 6 new kiddos today but I got 4 other kiddos discharged. That's always a rewarding feeling. i get to see these kiddos come in a hot mess and leave our care on a much better path. Well I better my kiddos to bed so I can get to bed. Night all.

8/29/2017 8:15:48 PM
Well today was a very busy day for me. Meeting after meeting after meeting. One meeting was a very important one at the local university which I have been invited back my one of the assistant deans to speak with current therapy students. I'm beyond excited but unbelievably nervous as well. I have no clue how big of a group we are talking about but I don't do very well with big groups. I guess I'll just have to work on my confidence. Well it's time for bed now. Night all

8/28/2017 10:08:04 PM
First whole day without daddy here. I miss him so much. I am trying to focus on work and the kids to keep myself from feeling depressed. 9 more days until he is back and I have him all to myself. I can't wait for our mini vacation. We desperately need this time together to reconnect and fall deeper in love with each other. Time for bed now. Very busy day tomorrow. Night all

8/27/2017 7:31:05 AM
It's a very sad day for this baby girl. Daddy is currently at the airport awaiting his flight back across the country. I miss him so much already. We had a great time together and I didn't want him to leave. We need him here with us every day. The house just isn't the same without him. Our bed feels so empty. We don't seem as happy when daddy is away. Having coffee this morning just seems so lonely. I really REALLY hate the goodbyes. I desperately need the good morning kisses and the good night cuddles. I need his face to be the first thing I see in the mornings and the last thing I see at night. I know daddy will be back soon but not soon enough. 

8/21/2017 9:46:04 PM
Tomorrow is the day! Daddy will be here in less than 24 hours... 21 hours to be exact. I am so so SO excited! I can't wait to be back in his arms. I miss him so much. I love that we can FaceTime but it's nothing like having the real thing in front of you. Being able to kiss, touch and be held by daddy is the most amazing feeling in the world. I can't wait for the days when I can have that every single day. I need those days so very bad. 

8/20/2017 9:51:49 PM
Very busy and very long day. 2 days to go until daddy's gets here. I am so beyond excited. I hope I'm able to get some good sleep tonight. I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a very busy day. I better get my butt to bed. Night all

8/19/2017 10:28:17 PM
Got the creative juices flowing today. I created a piece for my dining room wall and I am so extremely happy with how it turned out. I hope daddy will like the finished product. Speaking of daddy... only 3 more days to go until he's here. I am so excited. We decided  to surprise the girls. I'm going to tell them that I'm going to the store to pick something up but instead I will be picking daddy up from the airport. I know the girls will go bonkers when he walks in. Daddy loves surprising his girls.

8/18/2017 10:20:12 PM
Pretty busy and exhausting day today. I got 77 kiddos discharges today. My brain felt like it was going to explode. I had to come home and take a nap. i was just so drained. After my nap, our oldest and I had a much needed girls night. We went to the movies and grabbed some dinner on our way home. We went and saw the new Annabelle movie. It was good but not as scary as everyone said it was. Time for bed. Lots to do tomorrow

8/17/2017 8:46:30 PM
five more days to go in till daddy is back home with his girls. I am so excited that he will be here. I have missed him so much. Things just aren't the same when he's not here. I'm also very happy that tomorrow is Friday. It's been a very long and busy week. Between work and the kids starting back to school, this mama is about to  collapse. Good thing I will have daddy next week to take some of the burden off of my shoulders. I really don't know how I get up every morning and do what I do without him. I guess it's because I do it for our girls and to make daddy proud

8/16/2017 9:52:19 PM
6 more days until daddy gets here and I am so excited! We got to FaceTime with daddy tonight and the girls were so wound up. I realized today that daddy will be meeting my dad when he's out here for the kids party. I'm a little nervous but I know my dad will like him. Everyone daddy has met in my family absolutely loves him. Seriously, what's there not to love?!?! He takes amazing care of me and our girls. He loves my girls as if they were his own. He makes me and our girls extremely happy. He is the type of man that women only dream about. What more could a girl ask for? We are so unbelievably blessed to have him in our lives. He is our daddy. F&A 2 I&B

8/15/2017 9:14:17 PM
This babygirl is starting to get antsy. We are a week away from daddy being here and it is going to be the longest week EVER! Our youngest and I were making little videos for daddy to let him know that we love and miss him very much. I know he needs those little things from his girls when he is so far away. Well it's time to get the girls to bed and then myself. Night all

8/14/2017 8:17:16 PM
Pretty busy day with the kiddos going back to school and work. Tonight I discovered another topic to put of my "Do not mention" list. Well I'm going to get the girls ready for bed and then get myself to bed. Night all.

8/13/2017 9:02:55 PM
So daddy and I finished planning our September trip. I am so excited but I'm even more excited that daddy will be here in about a week. I have missed him so much! I can't wait to have him back here with us. Sorry to cut this short tonight but I've got to get kiddos ready for the first day of school tomorrow. Night all

8/12/2017 10:33:22 PM
Took the kids school close shopping today. It's been a very long day. I hate being a female sometimes. Enough said. Going to bed with another bad headache. Night all.

8/11/2017 11:39:34 PM
Had a great day at work. Was looking forward to a girls night with my oldest but we had to cancel. 😞 We will just have to figure something else out. So instead I took all 3 of the girlsnout to dinner. It was nice. Wish daddy was there to join us. Well I better get to bed now. Night all

8/10/2017 9:29:55 PM
Well the last couple of days have been insane at work. 9 new kiddos in 2 days. I am beyond exhausted. Today was a hard day. Daddy and I had a rough day but we talked tonight and all is good now. He is actually in the process of planning our next adventure. I can't wait. I have missed having him alone and all to myself. It is going to be the best ever. Well time to get the girls to bed and then myself

8/8/2017 10:36:54 PM
So exhausted but can't sleep 😞

8/6/2017 10:32:17 PM

Well today was a pretty productive day. I got my hair cut even though a really didn't want to. I also started on my newest project. I am redoing the seat cushions for my kitchen chairs. It's going to be a lot of work but it will look amazing when I'm done. Got 1 chair down... 5 more to go! I got to chat with daddy majority of the time. I didn't get to chat while he was at the gun range but that's ok. I know he enjoys his range time. As always I missed him very much while he was gone. I still miss him terribly when he is not here with me. I want to be in his arms so badly. 


8/5/2017 9:32:05 PM
Today had a lot of ups and downs. First I got to pick up our oldest from the airport. We were both so excited that she was home. I have missed her so much. Then we went and picked up the younger 2 and they were so excited to see that their sissy was home. Then all 3 girls got to come home and meet their baby brother. We just hung out most of the day but then my parents showed up to pick up the girls and take them the Cali for a couple of days. I am really bummed that they're gone again but daddy made me feel all better. Yup! Story time with daddy! My favorite time when daddy is so far away. He always tells the best stories. I absolutely love them but I love him even more. 

8/4/2017 10:59:53 PM
Had a pretty decent day at work. I was in a really good mood too. I got a lot of work done today as well. Oh! Mine and daddy's "son" came home today. We got a kitten. He is such a cute little booger. He big brother isn't too happy that he's here but they'll be fine. We all disliked our siblings when they first came home. Well I better get to bed. I have to be at the airport early to pick up our oldest. I'm so excited!!!

8/3/2017 10:29:41 PM
I had the worse day ever. But have you ever had that moment when you see a something or hear a song that makes you think of the one you love and you instantly feel better? I was listening to Pandora tonight and "Right Down The Line" by Gerry Rafferty came one. I instantly thought of my daddy and it made me smile. A while ago daddy told me to listen to that song because he thought of me when he heard it. It made me think of how lucky I am and how loved I am. It made me forget about all the bs I had to deal with today. It made me think of my daddy and how much I miss and need him. I love my daddy very VERY much.

8/2/2017 10:59:26 PM
 I had a crazy busy day today. Couple of meetings and one unexpected meeting with one of the owners. It was actually kind of weird because he asked my opinion on how to deal with a situation.  I guess it makes sense for me to come up with the solution to the problem since I am pretty much in the middle of everything. I got to test out my solution this afternoon and so far the  results have been amazing. I am so excited that it's actually working and paying off. I didn't get to chat with daddy much today due to me being extremely busy and daddy traveling. Hopefully we will be able to chat more tomorrow. I miss him so much I wish you were here.

7/31/2017 8:37:59 PM
I fear I may have fucked up again. Daddy promised me a story tonight but I told him that we could postpone it because I knew he wasn't feeling well. When daddy said he was going to bed I was kind of short with my goodnight. I didn't mean to be. I was in the middle of making something to eat for our girls. I know there is no valid excuse for my short farewell. I will just have to face the consequences of my actions.

7/30/2017 9:11:15 PM
Today was the typical Sunday. Nothing really special happened. Grocery shopping and laundry. Fun stuff! I did get to chat with daddy today. I want him her so bad. I hate not knowing when he'll be back. It kills me.

7/29/2017 9:17:47 PM
Just finished FaceTime with daddy and he looked so happy to see his girls. We miss him so much. I love seeing the smile on his face when he sees us. I know he misses us just as much. It hurts my heart when we are so far apart. He won't be able to come back for another of couple weeks and it's killing me. I hate being away from him for so long. I desperately need him here on a permanent basis.

7/28/2017 9:40:14 PM
 Well this week was very interesting one. I ended up sick all week and I had a very big back to school event yesterday for all the foster kids. I am so beyond exhausted that I can't think straight. I started a project tonight to make a teddy bear for one of the girls out of  A pair of pajamas that daddy bought her. The task seems to be a little more overwhelming than I thought it was going to be. But it will be worth it when I see the look on her face when she sees it. Due to this task I didn't get to spend much time chatting with daddy tonight. Hopefully we will have more time tomorrow. I miss him so much and I wish you were here

7/25/2017 8:48:25 PM
Well today was pretty horrible day. I woke up so sick but I still got up, took the kids to the babysitter and went to work. I ended up coming home early to get some rest but still. I also got some bad news today. Daddy won't be able to come next week. He had a very important meeting come up that he cannot miss. I know that he was just as disapp as I was but these things happen and I know that he is trying everything within his powers to see his girls. I know he misses us just as much as we miss him. We love him so very much and can't wait to see him again.

7/24/2017 9:12:08 PM
Well today was a pretty good day at work. I got 2 new kiddos and got their intakes done. I also got to pick up my new company banner. I absolutely love it! It came out perfect. On the downside I woke up still not feeling good. 😷 I'm really hope g that I get over this quickly because daddy will be back in a week. YAY!!!! I am so excited!!! I can't wait to be back in his arms again. I miss him so much. We need him here with us.

7/23/2017 10:06:08 PM
Well today had a great start to it. (Being sarcastic) I woke up feeling like crap. Stuffed up, throa hurting, and ears plugged and inching. I hate feeling this way. Then the nanny shows up and tries to start something stuff which you know I was not having it. Another reason My day kinda sucked was Daddy was in class majority of the day and was unable to chat. I do t mind because I know he enjoys his classes and sometime daddy just needs to do what daddy wants to do. Take the time for himself. Honestly my day ended a lot better than it started because daddy was back and I got a new kitchen table. I was and still am so excited. It will be really nice when we are able to be gathered around the table as a family.

7/22/2017 11:33:25 PM
Well today was uneventfu. Hung out at home all day and pretty much did nothing. I did make banana bread though. It was so yummy. I wish daddy were here to have tried it. I miss him so very much. I better get to bed now because it's late and I'm hoping to have a dream date with daddy.

7/21/2017 11:09:54 PM
Pretty busy day. Had to get my car smoged and renew the registratio. I was actually in and out of the DMV in 13 minutes and yes that is waiting in line and going to a window. The girls also came home today. They were only gone for 2 days but I missed them so much. Our oldest is still in AZ and will be home in 2 weeks. 😁 Chatted with daddy throughout the day. Also got a surprise visit from my mom and stepdad. Unbelievable that they would drive 3 hours just to see us and then drive 3 hours home. Well it's getting late and I better get to bed. Hoping for a chill day tomorrow. No major plans yet. 

7/19/2017 10:27:39 PM
Pretty uneventful day. Daddy was unreachable for a couple of hours again today which you know drove me completely nuts.  Luckily daddy will be out of Alaska tonight and back to  civilization. LOL Unfortunately it means a red eye flight for daddy. I honestly don't know how he does all this traveling but if anyone could do it, it would be him. He's such a hard worker and very focused on his career. He truly amazes me and he's all mine!

7/18/2017 8:12:00 PM
I am not liking the trip daddy is on right now. He's in Alaska and the cell service up there sucks big time. I am feeling so lost right now because I haven't really heard much from daddy today. It's been 2 hours since i last heard from him and it it driving me crazy. I hate this! I'm trying to keep myself busy so the time passes quickly but it's not working. GRRRRRRRR!!!!! I HATE THIS!!!!!

7/17/2017 9:38:20 PM
Pretty busy day at work. No new kiddos but a lot of loose ends to tight up. Daddy had and is still in the process of traveling. His flights have been so messed up the last couple of days and I feel so bad that he's having to deal with the bs. I wish everything could go flawlessly for him. He works so hard already. I am so proud of him and so proud that I am his.

7/16/2017 9:31:59 PM
Well today was pretty uneventful. I got to chat with daddy throughout the day. God I miss him so much! Things just aren't the same and dont feel right without him here with us. I would give anything to have him here with us on a permanent bases. We need him here. We have to be the family we deserve to be. 

7/15/2017 10:12:51 PM
Laying here in bed and I feel so alone. I wish daddy were here to wrap his arms around me and hold me until I fall asleep. I never have any problems falling asleep when he's here. I always feel safe and protected when he's here. Nights like tonight I lay here and listen to every single noise the house makes. Some nights I keeps me up. When daddy's here I know that no harm will come to me or our girls. We need him here with us every day and every night. We need his love, guidance, protection, his hugs and his kisses. 

7/15/2017 7:25:25 AM
Well my daddy just left for the airport. I know that he will be back but it's the question of when that kills me. The not knowing is what makes it so hard. Even though this trip was short we still had an amazing time. We had one of the best date nights. We talked and laughed and just got to be as we are meant to be. We got to spend last night as a family as well. Dinner, a movie, ice cream and a walk with 2 of our girls. It was perfect. I know that it's tough on the girls and I when daddy leaves but I know it's even harder for daddy to have to drive away as we watch him pull away. The house feels so incomplete without him here. We need him here with us. We need him so very much. 

7/12/2017 10:27:56 PM
SO EXCITED!!!! Daddy will be here in about 13 hours. I can't wait to see him and be back in his arms. I have missed him so much. I know the girls have missed him as well. Had a pretty good day at work too. I ended up getting 3 new kiddos all within an hour. I am happy I got them because 2 of them I fought to get into services. See what happens when you're persistent?!?! Well I better get to bed. Night all

7/11/2017 9:15:04 PM
Today was kind of a slow day but I did get one new kiddo. I did need to come home and take a nap. I'm still a little on the weak side. Daddy will be here in a day and a half. I am so excited. i miss having daddy here with us. The house feels just doesn't feel right without him. Well the girls are in bed so I need to get my butt to bed. Night all

7/10/2017 10:07:17 PM
Still feeling weak but I have to get better asap because daddy will be here on Thursday. I am so excited. I miss my daddy so much. I better get to bed so I can get better. Night all

7/9/2017 11:02:29 PM
still kinda sick. I know I over did it today. I did get to talk to daddy throughout the day which is always my favorite. I miss him so much. I also got to talk to our oldest. She's having a really hard time being away from home and she may end up coming home soon than planned. I don't mind one bit. I miss my co-pilot. Well I better get to bed. Night all

7/8/2017 10:48:51 PM
So unbelievably sick. In and out of bed all day. Still sick. Going back to bed. Wish daddy were here to make me feel better. Night all

7/7/2017 10:26:42 PM
Well daddy went home today. 😢 I miss him so much. I'm really not feeling all that great tonight. My stomach hurts so bad. Time to get to bed and hopefully feel better in the morning.

7/1/2017 10:26:32 PM
I AM SO EXCITED!!!!! This time tomorrow I will be with my daddy. The girls and I have missed him so much. I better get to bed. I have a busy day tomorrow finishing up before daddy's arrivals. Night all

6/30/2017 11:36:05 PM
Less than 48 hours to go!!!! I am beyond excited. I can't wait to see daddy and be back in his arms where I belong. I have missed him so much. I really should try to get to bed because it is WAY past my bed time and I have a lot to do to prep for daddy's arrival. Night everyone

6/29/2017 9:11:17 PM
About this time Sunday night I will be back in daddy's arms where I belong. I can't wait. This week can't get over soon enough. I miss him so much. Can't wait to spend our first 4th of July together. I know it will be our first of many. I know he will enjoy the excitement of the girls faces as they watch the fireworks. Come on Sunday and get here already!!!

6/28/2017 9:28:37 PM
4 DAYS TO GO!!!!! I can't wait to see my daddy. I've already warned him that I'm going to need extra EXTRA hugs, kisses, and snuggles. I have missed him so much and I am feeling BEYOND needy right now. I hope I don't send him running for the hills with all the loving I have stored up for him. I better get to bed so I can get past another day and be one more day closer to seeing daddy. Night all

6/27/2017 10:23:19 PM
5 more days!!!! I am so excited!!!! Had a decent day at work but it ended with a kiddo emergency. Luckily I have a great team behind me that jumps into action when I need them. Well I know this is a short entry but I am exhausted. Night all

6/26/2017 8:24:28 PM
6 days!!! 6 days is what I have left until daddy is here. I can't want to be back in his arms. I miss him so SO MUCH! I want to be at his side every single day for the rest of my life. I feel so incomplete when he isn't near. I can't wait for the days when I get to be in his arms and kiss his lips every night. I love him. I miss him. I need him. I want him. Forever and always.

6/25/2017 10:36:36 PM
Had a pretty good day. The girls and I got to hang out with my baby brother which whom we have not seen in over a year. The girls were so excited to see him. Got to chat with daddy throughout the day. Cant wait for next weekend because daddy will be back with us. I'm so excited. Well I better get my butt to bed. Got another busy week ahead of me. Night all

6/24/2017 10:14:54 PM
It's amazing how one word or subject being brought up can completely change the whole dynamic of your day. Some people get mad or upset or even complete shut down altogether. I know I am a talker... a big talker and others are not but I don't understand why it can be so hard to slightly discuss subjects or situations that are hopefully in the future. I guess one thing I did learn is that I will never bring up a specific subject again. 

6/23/2017 10:53:27 PM
Had a pretty decent day. I got 12 kiddos discharges today. I hate to see them go but they're leaving for good reasons. It was and ther busy day for daddy as well but we did get to FaceTime tonight. I am so excited because daddy will be here in a week. I can't wait air to have him back with us. I know it's only been a week but I miss his so much. This will be our first 4th of July together. It's going to be so much fun.

6/22/2017 9:20:35 PM
Had a rather busy day at work. Got a new kiddo today. Nothing outside of the normal. Came home to an empty house. No kids and no daddy. 😢 I don't mind some mommy time every now and then but I hate being alone. Does that make sense? I miss my girls and my daddy so very much.

6/21/2017 10:23:58 PM
Had a good day. Got a couple new kiddos and my company bought lunch for the people with June birthdays and yes i have a June bday. After work I got to see my mom and stepdad. I have missed them so much. I know they have miss the girls and I as well. I didn't get to chat much with daddy due to him being busy today and me being busy tonight. I miss him so much. Thank goodness he will be here in about a week and a half to celebrate 4th of July with us. I can't stand being away from him. 

6/20/2017 9:08:01 PM
Today was a pretty good day. I got a new kiddo and had orientation for a couple of new hires. Daddy and I was pretty busy most of the day. I missed him so much. I love being the center of his attention but I know it can't ALWAYS be that way but I know I'm always on his mind as his on mine. Time to get the kiddos ready for bed and get myself to sleep. Another hot and long day tomorrow

6/19/2017 5:10:59 PM
Well our vacation is over and have sadly gone our separate ways. We had the best time together and I loved getting to spend time as the family we deserve to be. I loved seeing daddy with his girls. Having fun. Playing. Being the daddy they so desperately need. The love he shows the girls is just so unbelievable to me. We need more times like these. We need these moments every single day and we are working on making that happen. i can't stand being away from daddy anymore. I need him here with us every single day and need to fall asleep in his arms every single night. 

6/9/2017 9:32:58 PM
Well the countdown is almost over. Soon we will be heading out to the airport. This time tomorrow night the girls and I will be back in daddy's arms where we belon. I am so excited but I am exhausted as well. I hope I'm able to sleep. 

6/8/2017 11:06:58 PM
Only 1 more day to go and the girl and I will be in Florida with daddy. I am getting so so SO excited! I hope I'm able to sleep tonight. I know tomorrow is going to go by so slow. Another thing I'm excited about is my Suicide Prevention class tomorrow. Just another mark to add to my collection of certifications. Well I better try to get some sleep now. Nite all

6/7/2017 9:53:24 PM
Well today I turned 33. I honestly can't believe it. I don't feel anywhere near 33 but then again I am Daddy's little. Had a pretty easy going day full of birthday wishes but my real celebrating won't be until Saturday when I get to see my daddy again. I did regicide a very sweet card from him in the mail today. I could definitely feel the love that was inside it. 

6/6/2017 7:26:19 PM
Out of my funk and feeling excited. The girls and I just talked to daddy. We talked about our upcoming trip and all the things we would like to do. I think I'm just as excited as the girls are.... maybe even more. I can't wait to see my daddy and get to spend an entire week with him. Our first (of many) family vacations!!! I can't wait!!!

6/5/2017 9:02:56 PM
Today was an ok day. I'm not really feeling like myself right now. I'm feeling like something is off... like something isn't right. I don't know what it is. I honestly feel like crying and I don't know why. I'm going to start getting the girls ready for bed then I'm off to bed.

6/3/2017 11:27:19 PM
Well today was average. Nothing really special happened. Went grocery shopping, took a nap, and did a little bit of work. I did chat with daddy throughout the day which is my favorite thing ever. The count down to our vacation truly starts. We have 6 days and 7 hours to go. We can't wait!!!

6/2/2017 11:01:36 PM
Had a pretty busy day today. Came home and worked some more. Fed and bathed the kids and then worked some more. I'm trying to make the time go by so quickly because I am beyond ready for vacation and even more ready to see my daddy. Finally going to bed now. Nite all

6/1/2017 8:31:46 PM
My day started out completely crazy. I hate to refigure out my whole plan of attack first thing this morning. Some people are just so unreliable. Our lil D got 3 awards at school today and one was for perfect attendance for the whole year. We are so proud of her. I did end up coming home early because I ended up with a massive headache from the roof of my office being worked on. The smell of hot tar filled the entire office. The girls and I got to FaceTime with daddy tonight. Which is always a fun time. We were telling wach silly corny jokes. We also talked about our upcoming vacation. Only 8 more days to go!!! We can't wait!!! Well I better get the little ones to bed so I can get to bed at a decent time. Nite all!

5/30/2017 10:54:35 PM
Just had another amazing story time with daddy. I love hearing the things he comes up with. It gives me a mixed feeling of excitement, being scared, and the unknown. I LOVE IT! I better get to bed now. Nite all

5/29/2017 10:00:30 PM
Wish I had a better day. I woke up with the worst stomach ache and dry heaving. As always daddy was there to keep me company. We had a pretty good day full of chatting. i love how daddy always makes me feel better. I wish he were here with me. I could use some cuddle time on the couch. The count down beings until I get to see daddy though. We have 11 days to go until we get to see daddy again. We will get him for an entire week with no work or school interfering with our time together. It is going to be AMAZING! We always have the best time together as a family should. 

5/28/2017 9:27:37 PM
Well tonight didn't end quite the way I thought it would. For some reason daddy and I were on different pages tonight. I hope tomorrow will be better. Getting the girls to bed and then myself to bed. Night all

5/27/2017 11:19:36 PM
Had a good day chatting with my daddy. Daddy went shopping and buy me a new outfit and a pool coverup. I am so spoiled rotten. I also ended up with a new fridge because mine was definitely on its way out. The girls and I also got to FaceTime with daddy. I miss seeing him so much. I am at my happiest when I see his face. The girls and I are getting so excited because we are less then 2 weeks away from our first family vacation with daddy. It can't come soon enough. I miss my daddy so much. Now it's time to get to bed and hopefully have a dream date with my one true love.

5/25/2017 8:17:40 PM
Not feeling good tonight. Going to shower and get the girls to bed so I can go to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day

5/24/2017 9:36:02 PM
I know sometimes i can be a little over the top with my sappiness and it's hard to not really hear it in return. I know that daddy really isn't the sappy type of person. I love reading his sappiness which I guess is why I read his journals over and over again. I know daddy has this side. I've seen it! I just wish I got to see it more often because I want to know his deep down feelings and thoughts. I know without a doubt that he loves me and he wants to get our life together started.

5/23/2017 7:58:35 PM
Just got home from our oldest spring concert and she did very well. I wish daddy were there with us. It just didn't feel the same without him. I know he wishes he were here with us too. I did take picture and videos for him. Well I better get the babies bathed and ready for bed. Hopefully I don't have a relap of last night. I am exhausted. I'm running on like 3 hours of sleep and a lot of coffee. I really wish daddy were here. He would know how to make things right. 

5/22/2017 9:54:25 PM
Call me a sap or whatever you want but I just finished reading through all of my Daddy's journals. I love seeing his heart. I go through so many emotions looking back at what we have been through. I fall deeper and deeper in love with him every day. He is and always will be my everything. Mine and the girls lives revolve around him. We need him to be the center of our universe. We need him to guide, protect, and love us endlessly. He is and continues to be the best daddy in the world. It fills my heart with unbelievable joy seeing how happy he makes our girls and how much they truly love him. He is our world.

5/21/2017 10:24:51 PM
Had another day of missing daddy while he was in class. I miss him so much already but when I don't take the ability to chat with him I feel so lost. I hope everything will be back to normal tomorrow. Well both be busy with work but at least we're use to that. I hope we are able to FaceTime tomorrow night as well. I know the girls are missing him as well. I better get to bed now. Nite all!

5/20/2017 10:42:41 PM
I really missed my daddy today. He was busy all day in a class. I was pretty productive though. I cleaned the house with the help of my lil busy bees. I did end up in urgent card with our youngest because she woke up from her nap with pinkeye. I hate having to do the eye drops. She doesnt like them but she takes them like a champ. I better get to bed. I've got another busy day

5/19/2017 10:47:23 PM
Had a very boring and uneventful day at work. I didn't get to chat with daddy much today because he was really busy. Plus I think he wasn't in the chatty mood today because he is upset with me again. ☹️ I hate when daddy is upset with me. I did get to hang out with our oldest tonight. It was couch, popcorn and a movie for us. We don't get to hang out like that very otter and I really miss our one on one time. We need to do it more often. I'm off to bed now. Nite all!

5/17/2017 9:51:14 PM
My head hurts so bad I can't think straight. Going to bed. Nite all!

5/16/2017 9:54:01 PM
I am exhausted!!!! I did a clean sweep of the system today and I found 83 kiddos who had not been completely discharged. My eyeballs felt like they were going to explode. I just love having to play clean up from past employees. NOT!!!! I did get a new kiddo completely through the intake process in less than 7 hours which is completely unheard of.  Well I am beat and I feel so sick. I'm off to bed. Nite all!

5/15/2017 8:57:24 PM
Well today was a pretty rough day. I discharged 25 kiddos and ended up with a new one. I am so beat but I am still on cloud 9. I'm back to being daddy's good girl! I am so beyond excited. I am really trying my hardest to to be good. I want my daddy happy and proud of me. I don't like when daddy is unhappy and upset with me. Well I better get our girls to bed and then myself to bed. I've got another long day head of me. Nite all!!!

5/14/2017 9:40:04 PM
Well today was a pretty uneventful Mothers Day. No card... no flowers... not a peep out of the kids. Oh well! It's just another day. Typical Sunday full of grocery shopping and laundry. Daddy did wish me a Happy Mothers Day which brightened up my day. We also got to FaceTime with daddy tonight. I love seeing the girls get excited when they get to see him. We miss him so much. Only a couple more weeks until we get to see him again. We can't wait!!!

5/13/2017 10:14:14 PM
I am the luckiest girl in the world. I have the most amazing daddy EVER! He takes such good care of the girls and I. I know I tend to put him through hell sometimes and I know I don't say it enough but I REALLY appreciate everything he does for us. It means the world to me knowing that daddy is there to protect us and keep us safe. I truly cherish him and will try to show him just how much he means to me every day for the rest of my life. I love you Daddy!!!!

5/12/2017 5:58:23 PM
Well today is the day I hate the most. Daddy flew home this morning. I started missing him before I even left the airport. The girls and I really need him here with us. We have so much fun together and it feels amazing having the 5 of us as a family as we should be. I'm not looking forward to going to bed tonight because the bed is going to feel so empty and cold. I have a feeling that it's going to be 4 weeks before we see him again and it is going to be the longest 4 weeks of my life. 😟

5/4/2017 9:54:15 PM
I am so excited! Daddy will be there tomorrow. I can't wait to see him. My day is going to drag on FOREVER! ☹️ I really hope it does. I'm going to try to get all my work done asap so I can come home and wait for my daddy. I have missed him so much. I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight. I better get back to cleaning so I can shower and get to bed. 

5/3/2017 8:55:55 PM
2 more days to go until daddy is here. I need his cuddles more than ever. Today was just crazy. I had to pick up our 2 year old early from daycare because her shoes weren't appreciate. They were close toed flats with an elastic band across the top but whatever. Good thing I came home early though because my water heater sprung a leak. I have an amazing property manager and home owner because I had a brand new water heater within 3 hours. Now it's baths and bed for all of daddy's little ones.

5/2/2017 10:06:41 PM
Only a couple more days to go until daddy gets here!!! I am so so SO excited! Our oldest almost spilled the beans about daddy coming. I can't wait for him to get here. I need to be back in his arms and kiss his oh-so-yummy lips. I have been trying really REALLY hard to be on my bestest behavior and stay daddy's good girl. So far I'm doing very well. Today I got a "very good girl" from daddy. Completely made my day! Well this good girl better get to bed. I've got another long day ahead of me. Nite all!

5/1/2017 10:17:36 PM
I am so excited! Daddy will be here in 4 days and then it's off to Cali to see some family. I can't wait. I haven't told the girls yet. We want to surprise them. The best part is that I have a surprise for Daddy. 😈 I can't wait until he get here. He has only been gone a couple of weeks but it feel like FOREVER!!! I miss him so much and I know the girls do as well. I better get to bed so I can have a dream date with daddy. Nite all!

4/30/2017 10:35:40 PM
Another day with a headache and the typical Sunday full of laundry and grocery shopping. I do think that I have figured out the cause of my headache though. Now that I've got it under control i hope the headache will finally go away. I wish daddy were here. He knows how to make everything all better. I better get to bed now. Early morning and a long day head of me

4/29/2017 10:55:50 PM
Woke up with a horrible headache which I still have. Instead of wasting the day, I deci to get up and do some cleaning. I was trying not to think about my head. I know I made daddy proud with how clean the house is and I am so proud of our girls for all of their help. I got to have story time with daddy tonight. I love daddy's stories. He definitely knows how to get me going. Now it's time for bed. Nite all!

4/27/2017 7:36:46 PM
Another very crazy but busy day for me and daddy. I had a lot of traveling today as well as Daddy. Daddy had a very important meeting today and I know he knocked it outta the park. He is so amazing at his job and I always find myself in complete awe of him. I got 3 kiddos processes completed today but as soon as I was done, I received 3 more. It's a sad and never ending cycle. I ended up coming home early because I ended up with a massive headache that was making me dizzy. Very odd feeling. It's still kinda there but not as bad as it was. Hopefully I get some decent sleep tonight.

4/25/2017 8:36:09 PM
I had another crazy busy day today. I ended up with 7 new kiddos. After such a hard day, I am REALLY missing my daddy. I am in desperate need of some daddy cuddle time. I can't wait for the nights when I get to cuddle with him every night. safe in his strong warm arms with my head on his chest listening to nothing but the sound of his heartbeat. That's the only time I am at complete peace.

4/24/2017 10:32:01 PM
Well I had a pretty average day today. Started out kind of rough but ended much better. The frustration between daddy and I is much better now and regardless of how frustrated we get, we will always love each other very much. I am the luckiest girls in the world to have the best daddy ever! I can't wait to crawl into bed in one of his shirts and have one of my dream dates with him. I miss seeing his face so much. I have pictures of him in the house but it's not the same as seeing him face to face. I can't wait to be able to kiss those lips that I love so much and be back in his arms where I belong. I better get to bed. Got another long day ahead of me. Night all

4/23/2017 8:33:49 PM
Today was not a good day. Stomach and head still hurt. I did manage to get a couple things crossed off my to do list but frustrating daddy wasn't one that I had planned on doing. I really don't like being so far apart. Phone calls and FaceTime help but there's nothing like having the one you love right in front of you. When I frustrate daddy, I feel so helpless because I can only TALK to him and 90% of the time the words come out completely wrong and make matters worse. I hate when both of us are so frustrated because we both tend to shut down. Days without my daddy or minimal contact with him, make for a very long and lonely day. I hope tomorrow is better for the both of us. 

4/22/2017 8:45:17 PM
I am so exhausted tonight but I did get to talk to daddy tonight. I love the fact that we can FaceTime with each other. He doesn't seem so far away but I still miss him so much. I can't wait until he is back with us. I was very happy to see daddy's smiling face. I love his smile. I love everything about him. Well I better get these kiddos to bed so I can have my dream date with daddy.

4/21/2017 8:55:02 PM
I really don't know what to say right now. I am completely speechless. I'm going to get the girls to bed and then get myself to bed. Hoping my night would have ended on a better note.

4/20/2017 10:41:23 PM
Had another very busy day at work saving the world. I am so unbelievably beat. I did take our oldest out to dinner tonight. Had lots of laughs and good food. I'm off to bed to dream of my daddy. I can't wait to havr him back with us. I miss him so much. Night all

4/19/2017 9:43:26 PM
Well today was straight hell. It was so crazy busy. I am completely drained and just want the day to end. I wish my daddy were here to hold me because my head is pounding. I miss him so much. I miss him even more after the day I had. We didn't get to chat much. Well I promised daddy I would get to bed early. In bed before 10 is almost unheard of for me. Better take advantage while I can.

4/18/2017 11:08:30 PM
Today has been a very long day. Tomorrow is going to be even worse. I made the mistake of looking at my work emails and in a matter of 20 minutes, I got 8 new kiddos. I am seriously going to have to lock myself in my office tomorrow. I hope I will still have time to make some site visits. If not oh well... kiddos come first. The girls and I did get to FaceTime with daddy for a little bit tonight. We miss him so much and we can't wait for him to be back with us. Well I better get to bed. Extremely busy day ahead of me.

4/17/2017 7:45:11 PM
Why am I such a screw up? For a brief moment I was daddys good girl again but once again, I have lost that title. Daddy is frustrated and mad at me tonight and I am not really understanding why. I honestly feel like crying right now. "Good girl" means the world to me and not hearing it tears me up inside. My head is killing me and the thought of food makes me nauseous. I hope the girls get to bed soon.

4/16/2017 7:26:45 PM
Well today was an exciting day. Daddy told me that we are going to be taking our first family vacation in June. I haven't told the kids yet but I know they are going to be excited as well. We will be going to Disney and then camping with some friends. I can't wait to go. It is going to be so much fun. Time to start dinner and finish up the laundry. Got a long week ahead.

4/16/2017 12:03:37 AM
Well our girls are home. The only thing that would make this perfect would be to have daddy home with us. I miss him so much. I wish he was going to be here in the morning to watch the girls do their easter egg hunt in the house. I guess we will have to rely on good old FaceTime. Speaking of FaceTime, I did get to talk to/see daddy today. The girls got to see him too. I better get to bed now. I want to be up before our lil bunnies wake up.

4/15/2017 9:16:29 AM
I am so excited this morning. Our girls are coming home!!!! I have missed they so much the past 6 days. I know they had a lot of fun in Cali with my family but I can't wait to see them. Since daddy left, I have been working my tail off to finish little things around the house. I know they are going to love how the house turned out. I know I do. 

4/13/2017 9:17:48 PM
The past week has had its ups and downs for me but I was amazing regardless. I still find it hard sometimes to let go and let daddy take control. After being the adult for so long and not having someone I could trust to take care of things. I have to admit that it is almost a daily struggle but it is getting easier. I know daddy has me and the girls in his best interest and sometimes it may not make sense but it always works out. I was able to spend the last week with my daddy, our girls and my family. I am so unbelievably blessed to have sich amazing people to help me and stand beside me when I feel like giving up. Having daddy and my mom with me for 3 days was at time tough but I loved it. I have to be the luckiest girl in the world to have all the love and support that I have and words cannot fully express all the appreciation I have for them.

4/5/2017 8:40:11 PM
Today was a better day. Work was crazy and I was getting pulled in 20 different directions but I got a lot done. Came home and started cleaning the house a little bit. My daddy will be here tomorrow. I am so excited. I haven't told our 6 year old when he'll be here yet. I want to surprise her. I can't wait until daddy get here. I have missed him so much. Well it's time to get finished so I can get in the shower. 

4/4/2017 6:32:16 PM
Well today turned out to be absolutely HORRIBLE! I started off waking up with a headache. I tried taking something for it and drinking coffee but it just will not go away. Then I get a phone call about a major issue which I tell daddy about which in turn caused him to be upset with me. This caused me to become my not so happy self and in fact made my headache worse. I hate when daddy is mad at me. It effects me in so many ways and my actions cause pain across the board. With dealing with all of this, it was time for my review. I had hoped my evaluation would have helped my mood which I didn't. Didn't even faze it. After my evaluation, I asked my boss if it came with a raise and.... wait for it.... of course not! This did not enhance my mood either. I am so drained right now... emotionally, physically and mentally. Every inch of my body aches. 

4/3/2017 8:28:37 PM
I am in such a good mood right now. I have a lot to be happy about. I had a great day at work. I actually pitched an idea to my boss and she loved it. We are going to do a test run and see what the outcome is. i have a feeling my idea will have an amazing outcome because it just makes sense. I also have my evaluation tomorrow, which not to sound cocky, I'm sure will go VERY well. My boss has made it very clear that she is pleased with me and my work. Another reason to be so happy is because my daddy will be here in 3 days! I have missed him so very much and I can't wait to be back in his arms. He is without a doubt the best daddy in the world.

4/2/2017 8:21:16 PM
Today was not a very good day. Daddy is upset with me again. I hate it when he is upset with me. I need to stop being so stupid and stubborn. I feel like I have been hit by a bus. My head is killing me and my stomach hurts. I know I have a lot of work ahead of me and a lot of changes to make... I will overcome and become what my daddy deserves

4/1/2017 5:06:50 PM
I have been a very bad girl. I just realized that I have not written my journal from 2 days. I was a little distracted Thursday night because it was story night with daddy. I love daddy's stories. They always make me feel so excited. Last night... well last night I was just exhausted and alone. No kids or daddy home. I did get to see my sister for a little bit when she dropped off my furry niece. Today so far has been pretty uneventful and quiet. Kids are all home and daddy is busy taking care of his to do list. I can't wait for next week tho get here because daddy will be back and he gets to meet some of my family for the first time. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I know they will love him just as much as I do. However, today is an extra special day. 14 months ago daddy and I became 1. It was a night that I will NEVER forget. A night that we will always celebrate. 

3/29/2017 7:33:34 PM
Today had its ups and downs. Day started off losing another referral but then I got the satisfaction of discharging 27 kiddos. Just when I thought things couldn't get any better.... I got 3 new kiddos! That's 6 kiddos in 2 days! 😲 The thing I love about my job is that it can go from one extreme to another at any minute. There is never a boring moment and I ALWAYS have something to work on. I'm starting to get really excited because my daddy will be here in a week! I can't wait to have him back with us. The girls and I are missing him like crazy.

3/28/2017 8:52:06 PM
Oh my good lord! Today was insane. Day started off with me losing a referral to another company and then worked on discharges for about 3 hours. My head felt like it was going to explode. After picking up our youngest from daycare and getting home, I checked my email and discovered that I had 3 new kiddos! After working on their paperwork for about an hour or so, I still had to make dinner and bathe the kids. On top of all of this, I was told by our oldest that she is now friends with "Aunt Flo" I am so exhausted... mentally, physically and even emotionally. I feel like collapsing. I need my daddy here to hold me.

3/27/2017 8:32:17 PM
Well today was ok. Nothing really special to report. I don't know why but I have so many emotions going on right now. I'm frustrated and a little pissed because the "sperm donor" of my girls is of no help what so ever. Everyone said he was going to be a flake and I was stupid enough to think otherwise. To be honest it is only going to get worse. I know daddy loves my girls like they are his own and I am a very lucky girl for that. My days have become so long now because of the driving I have to do for daycare and after awhile it takes its toll. I would LOVE to find a daycare closer to home that won't cost me an arm and a leg but finances are really tight and I just can't afford it. (Another factor in my frustration) I took a bath when I got home hoping it would help my mood but I just sat in the tub a cried. I'm just so exhausted.

3/26/2017 10:09:45 PM
Today was the susual Sunday. Laundry... grocery shopping... watching TWD... pretty uneventful but I did get to talk to my daddy for like 2 1/2 hours today. It was great. I love the sound of his voice. I miss him so much. He will be back with us in 10 days!!!! That's 10 days too long in my book but good things come to those who wait. It's getting late here and I better get to bed. Night all.

3/25/2017 10:00:37 PM
Today was another day of little projects. I did work on my discharges this morning and did some laundry. Daddy and I went over my budget and we also sat down with our oldest and went over her grades. It feels amazing to have a man that honestly loves and cares for my girls just as much as I do. It feel even more amazing knows that we stand united. In the past I have had to play referee between my oldest and my insignificant other. I no longer have to do that because daddy always knows what is best for all of his girls. I am so very thankful to have him in mine and our girls lives. We would be lost without him

3/24/2017 9:35:20 PM
Today was insane!!!! I got 4 new kiddos today. 3 of them were back to back to back and the 4th was received right before I was getting ready to leave for the day. Never fails... my week is pretty quiet and then i get hit hard on Friday. I did get some discharges done before the sh*t hit the fan. Today was hard because I didn't get to talk to daddy much because we were both so swamped. Only 12 more days to go until our daddy is back with us. I can't wait. I miss him so very much. 

3/23/2017 9:41:33 PM
I am so exhausted but I had a great day. I was informed today by my boss the the company's percentage is up from like 74 to now 90 thanks to all of my hard work. I was also informed that my turn around rate went from 9 days to 5 days. I am so proud of myself for proving to my company just how valuable I have become. My boss even said that she will be doing my review when she gets back in town in a could of weeks and will definitely get me compensation for my hard work. I know my daddy is very proud of me for being at my best. I have to always try to be at my best because I am a reflection of my daddy and I do not want to  portray the wrong image. 

3/22/2017 10:04:30 PM
Had a pretty chill day at work. I got a new kiddo today. Came home early and finished my work day at home. The house just isn't the same without daddy here. We did however talk about his next trip here in about 2 weeks. I can't wait. I miss him so so much.

3/20/2017 9:52:44 PM
The day started out rough and has continued that way. I was up early with daddy this morning to take him to the airport. I hate when he has to leave. This goodbye was so much harder because this time around he was with us every minute for 5 days straight. I came home from work and the house didn't feel that same without him here. There was no laughing or playing... no smiles... just a feeling of absence. The girls asked me where Danny was and i almost broke down I tears. I miss him so very much. My heart aches not having him near. 

3/19/2017 10:40:48 PM
The last couple of days have been amazing. Having daddy home with us has been a dream come true. With a heavy heart I have to say that the time has come that daddy has to fly away. We will miss him so very much. He need him here with us always. We have had so much fun together and it will not be the same without him here. Cuddling on the couch, the hugs, the kisses, the I love yous before bed. Daddy and I had an absolutely perfect date night. We were celebrating another special anniversary. It has been 1 year since daddy first collared me. I treasure my collar and wear it proudly. Thankfully he will be back home with us in a couple of weeks for our oldest birthday. We will officially have a teenager. 😕 Time for me to get to bed because daddy and I have to be up early to get him to the airport. I'm sure it will be a tearful drive home. Night everyone

3/14/2017 10:41:16 PM
This time tomorrow night I will be cuddle up on the couch with my daddy. I am so beyond excited that we'll have him home. Just a cople things let to do tonight and then I'm off to bed. This change in the weather is killing my  sinuses. They have been draining all day and now my throat hurts. Good thing I'll have my daddy here to make me feel better. House is done for the night and I am off to bed. Night all!

3/13/2017 10:44:20 PM
I am getting so extremely excited. Daddy will be here in about 36 hours. I can't wait to see him. I am going to give him the biggest hug EVER!!! I can't wait to be back in his arms. I really am lucky to have him. He is most definitely one of a kind. He told me tonight that even though he will be staying at the house with the girls and I, he will be sleeping on the couch because we are not married and the girls need to see things done right. I mean seriously... how in the hell did I get so lucky to have a man that loves my girls so much and wants them to be raised right? It is completely mind blowing and almost unheard of nowadays. 

3/12/2017 11:20:24 PM
What a day! I am so beyond exhausted right now. The girls and I did some massive spring cleaning today and I rearranged my bedroom. Even thought I am physically drained I am BEYOND excited. I was informed today that daddy didnt cancel his trip and he will be here on Wednesday! I can't wait to see him and get him home to our girls. This trip daddy will actually be staying with us and will get a chance to see our home life. I hope he is ready for the craziness. I know the next 2 1/2 days won't go by quick enough. I miss his so much. Well I better get to bed. I have a busy and exciting week ahead of me.

3/11/2017 9:16:12 PM
Today was an alright day. I didn't get to talk to daddy on the phon. 😢 We did chat a bit throughout the day. I took the girls to get their hair cut, went to the store, and did some laundry. I also worked on my budget tonight. I'm feeling so down right now. I miss my daddy. I miss how we were. I miss "love you" being his last words to me every night. I feel like breaking down into tears right now. It hurts so bad.

3/10/2017 6:32:57 PM
I am so unbelievably happy that I got to talk to daddy again today even though he had a very busy day. I do have to admit the I still feel horrible for what happened and I know that I will continue to feel this way until daddy and I are back to the happy couple we were. I undoubtedly deserve to feel this way. I betrayed the only person whom has ever truly cared for me. He did not deserve this and I will do EVERYTHING within my powers fix this. I will earn my daddy's trust back. I also have to admit that I am still so very heartbroken that I caused daddy to cancel his trip out here. I was REALLY looking forward to it. Having him with us was all I thought about and now all I think about is NOT having him here and that it's all my fault. 💔 😭

3/9/2017 9:32:38 PM
I am on cloud 9 right now. My daddy said that he missed me today and I heard the most amazing sound tonight. My daddy said he loved me. Those words have got to be the most amazing thing I have ever heard. I have missed the sound of my daddy's voice so much. It has been the longest 4 days of my life. Just hearing his voice tonight did so much for me mentally, physically and emotionally. All the smiles I have had to fake and keeping my normal upbeat self the last couple days has been exhausting. Now I have a reason to smile and it is all thanks to my daddy. Excellent way to end my day but it would be an absolutely perfect if daddy were here right now. I miss him so much. It has been a month since I was in his arms and each passing day just gets longer and longer.

3/8/2017 9:30:15 PM
Day 3 of feeling horrible and it is definitely taking its toll on me. I can being to fully express how bad I feel. I made a very VERY massive mistake. Come hell or high water I will fix this. I can't live without my daddy. I need him so much. Everywhere I look I see something that reminds me of him. Every love song I hear reminds me of him and I burst into tears. I miss him so much. I am officially the worlds biggest idiot. I may be a Little but I am a big moron. 

3/7/2017 7:11:53 PM
I hate feeling this way. It is pure HELL. I cried myself to sleep last night and had to hold back tears many times today. As I write this I am balling my eyes out. It hurts so bad  knowing that I damaged mine and daddy's relationship. I will do ANYTHING to fix it. I need him back so bad. What hurts the most is my actions caused daddy to cancel his trip out here and I know the girls were REALLY looking forward to it as was I. I miss the sound of his voice. I miss bragging to him about my accomplishments at work. I miss hearing about his day. The drive home from work has become so lonely as well as my lunch breaks. I think about him constantly. I can't eat because I have ZERO  appetite and I can't sleep because I keep thinking about how much I screwed up.. I feel absolutely HORRIBLE... mentally, emotionally and physically. 

3/6/2017 8:06:04 PM
I messed up BIG TIME!!! I betrayed my daddy's trust. I feel absolutely horrible. I have physically feel like crap. My stomach is so upset and my head is pounding. I have been in tears off and on all day long. I need to regain his trust and I will work my very hardest to earn back his trust. I love him so much and I am the world biggest idiot for being dishonest. The girls and I need him in our lives as our daddy to love us, guide us, and protect us. Daddy said that he was going to cancel his trip out here next week and I pray that he decides not to. His girls miss him so very much and are in desperate need of some daddy time. 

3/5/2017 10:58:13 PM
Finally got our littlest one to bed. Time for me to get to bed. Going to need my rest to deal with tomorrow. Night all

3/4/2017 11:51:40 PM
Had a pretty rough start to the day. Daddy and I were getting frustrated with each other over my new budget. We did take a couple of hours apart to calm down,  clear our thoughts and refocus. I think it really helped because when we discussed it tonight there was a little frustration starting back up but after a deep breath, it subsided and we were finally on the same page again. I am so thankful to have a daddy that helps me to understand things better and that is patient with me when I'm being stubborn and unfocused. I love my daddy so very much. 

3/3/2017 8:22:16 PM
Today was absolutely HORRIBLE!!!! I woke up with a massive headache and just won't go away. i didn't get to talk to so much today. I guess he was pretty busy. I'm counting down the minutes until this day is over. 

3/2/2017 7:24:10 PM
Another busy and long day today. I got another 3 kiddos and was in and out of meetings all day. I am so exhausted. I did get to talk to daddy quite a bit today. I love hearing his voice. I can't wait either because daddy will be here in 13 days. I can't wait until he is here with us. We miss him so much. Time to get the girls settled down and hopefully get to bed at a decent time tonight. 

2/28/2017 10:35:28 PM
Today was absolutely insane. I ended up getting 8 new kiddos today! Yes I said 8!!!! I am completely exhausted and drained. I didn't get much time chatting with daddy today but I did get to talk to him tonight. I miss the sound of his voice so much. I know that tomorrow morning is going to be insane as well. I have to hit the ground running hopefully get a lot done tomorrow. daddy did give me the dates of when he will be back. I am so excited. This time daddy is actually staying in the house with us. We are going to have so much fun together. I can't wait to be back in his arms again. I miss him terribly.


2/27/2017 8:11:49 PM
Had a pretty busy day today. I got 4 new kiddos today. It was a very busy day for me and lots of traveling for daddy. I know I say this all the time but I really miss my daddy right now. I am going through such a hard time right now mentally and emotionally. I am just so exhausted. I feel like so much more weight has been put on my shoulders and I feel like I could collapse at any minute. I'm trying my hardest to be strong and keep a smile on my face but deep down I just feel like breaking down and crying. I can't right now. I have to carry on. 

2/26/2017 9:33:34 PM
Had a pretty productive day. I didn't leave the house at all but got a lot done around the house. I got to chat with daddy throughout the day which is my favorite part of my day. I also got to talk to daddy tonight. He sounded so tired. I just wanted to crawl through the phone and cuddle up with him. I miss him so very much and it gets stronger every passing day. I need my daddy with me every single day for the rest of our lives. 

2/25/2017 11:25:27 PM
Had a very productive day today until the kids made me mad. They will learn that when mommy says to do something that it need to be done and done correctly. I did get to have some viral playtime with daddy. I really needed it. I miss him so much. I can't wait until he's back with us. The girls and I need him home with us so bad. We love our daddy very much.

2/24/2017 7:57:06 PM
Well today had its ups and downs. I am very happy that I got the discharge process started for 15 kiddos today. We are so sad to see them go but we've done what we can for them and they are on the right track now. I got to talk to my daddy a lot more today which always makes me happy. I do however need to say that I am a little jealous because he is on a little brocation a friend right now. But I did get to talk to him tonight and even FaceTimed with him for a little bit. I miss seeing his sweet face so much and I can't wait for the day when I get to see it every day. I love him more than words could ever fully explain. He is my forever and always.

2/23/2017 9:10:03 PM
Had another busy day today. I got 4 new kiddos and I'm pretty proud of myself because I got their charts taken care of and on the schedule is record time. Because of my busyness I really didn't get much time to chat with daddy. I missed him so much today. I miss him more and more everyday. I can't wait until he'll be back. I need to be in his arms and I need his kisses. I need my daddy! PERIOD!!!!

2/22/2017 9:09:48 PM
Today wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be except for the fact that I was exhausted by 4pm. We hit the ground running around 10 and didn't stop until about 3pm. Lots of driving and in and out of the car mixed in with phone calls and emails from my regular job. I really have to give it up to CPS workers. They deal with a little bit of everything and there is no such thing as a routine for them. I can't kind of relate because every morning I walk into the office never knowing what is going to be thrown in my lap and honestly, I LOVE IT! There is never a dull moment. I did miss daddy a lot today because we were both so busy. I didn't get to talk to him when I finally got to eat lunch. I miss him more and more each day. His girls can't wait until he comes home.

2/21/2017 9:11:01 PM
Had a pretty up and down day. Day started off pretty good until I had to rearrange my whole schedule due to a last m nite meeting which ended up getting cancelled an hour before. Then our network decided to go down and I ended up going home with a MASSIVE headache. After dinner with our girls, daddy and I got to FaceTime whichbi absolutely love because it feels like he's right here with me. I miss him so very much and our oldest has been asking when he'll be home. All of daddy's girls miss him so very much. Daddy and I got to talk about a lot of things. I was telling how excited I am because tomorrow I get to work in one of the CPS units. I just hope I don't come across anything too overwhelming. Even if I do, I know I will be able to handle it like everything else I deal with on a daily basis. I do have to admit that most days, I am one tough cookie but every now and then a cookie does crumble. I just hope tomorrow isn't a crumbling kind of day.

2/20/2017 10:28:09 PM
Had a pretty good day at work. I got 13 kiddos files closed. It's a bitter sweet feeling. These kiddos are no longer in our services but that is because they no longer need them. There will surely be missed but they are finally on the right track to a better safer life. I got to chat with daddy today and told him about my kiddos. I try every day to do my best and make my daddy proud. Well it's time to get to bed. Got another busy day tomorrow. Night all.

2/19/2017 7:45:42 PM
Today was a pretty busy day. Heading to the store first thing this morning and then hung out with the girls until my movie date with daddy. Our date did turn out as well as we had hoped and it kinda sucked. I know daddy and I were disappointed with how it turned out. I came home and started laundry and dinner. i still feel really bad that our date didn't turn like we had hoped it would have. Time to go finish laundry and get my butt to bed. Hopefully it'll be at a decent time.

2/18/2017 9:59:23 PM
Had a pretty low key day today. Hung out at home with the girls. I also rewatched 50 Shades tonight because daddy and I are going to see 50 Shades Darker. It should be interesting. I was telling daddy that I had forgotten how much the main characters remind me of us. Christian is a very confident head strong well dressed business man and Anna is shy mousy non stylish not so confident girl. I remember how I was when I first met daddy. like Anna, I had no clue what I was getting into but daddy gained my trust and showed me things I never knew. I have changed and grown so much since our beginning. I now walk with my head held high and always try my best to be at my best. It is all because of daddy. 

2/17/2017 10:24:26 PM
I had a pretty decent day at work. I took advantage of the fact that it was a slow and quite day. I ended up getting 21 cases closed which felt amazing. I was however a bad girl and daddy was upset with me. I planned a night out to myself without asking for his permission. I chose not to go out because I failed to ask and just assumed it was ok. I feel horrible for what I did. Daddy was going to give me a punishment of no contact for 2 whole days but thankfully daddy was gracious enough to forgive me. I couldn't imagine going 2 days without having any contact with daddy. They would have been extremely long and even more unbearable. Daddy is a HUGE part of my daddy and I can't function with out him. I would have been so unbelievably lost. Thank you so very much for your forgiveness daddy. 

2/16/2017 9:14:32 PM
Well today was another day full of clean up past employee messes. This is starting to get ridiculous. I'm hoping to have it all cleaned up by the end of next week. I did get a new kiddo today. 4 year old kiddo with anger issues and starting to self harm. Kinda makes you wonder exactly what this kiddo has been thought. Thankfully he is now in the caring hands of the state. Hopefully he gets the help he need soon. I didn't get to chat much with daddy  today since we were both extremely busy but we did get to chat tonight. I miss him so very much and after the day I had, I was in some desperate need of some daddy attention. As always daddy was there for me to vent to and to show me love. I'm such a lucky girl. I love my daddy so very much and miss him tremendously

2/15/2017 8:24:37 PM
I had a pretty good day at work. I got 2 new kiddos today. I did get my second gift from daddy today and I absolutely LOVE it. I have M&Ms with our pictures on them and I also got the cutest little white teddy bear. I've decided to name him Barry because he is "Barry" cute. I'm thinking that since it's Barry's first night that it would be best to sleep in bed with me. I wouldn't want him to be too lonely. Speaking of bed... it's time to get everyone settled and ready for bed. I'll have to come out swinging tomorrow morning. Night all

2/14/2017 9:50:42 PM
Happy Valentines Day!!! I hope everyone had a great day. I know I did. My daddy sent me the most beautiful flowers today. I absolutely love them! I know that today were supposed to show the ones we love how much we love them but to be completely honest with you, I believe we should show them that every day. I have come to cherish every single minute of every single day that I have an amazing man that loves me and our girls. I know I don't say it often enough but I love my daddy very much and would be completely lost without him. He is my guiding star. He has shown my the way through some of my darkest times. Because of him, I have become stronger and more confident than I could have ever dreamed I'd be. He is always there to push me when I feel like giving up and there to catch me when I have fallen. To encourage me to always be at my best. I am the luckiest girl in the world to be owned, loved, cherished, and protected by such an incredible man. He is definitely one in a billion and he is all mine. F&A 2 I&B 

2/13/2017 8:33:15 PM
Well my daddy is currently in San Diego. He's so close and yet so far away. I remember the last time he was in San Diego. I got to go with him. That was an amazing trip. The San Diego trip before that is memorable as well. Daddy had a moment of insanity and decided to drive all the way to Vegas just to spend a few hours with me and then drove all the way back the same night. When he did that it confirmed that he was the one for me. No man had EVER done or even thought of doing something like that for me before. He is the most amazing man I have ever met and he is ALL MINE!!!!

2/12/2017 10:16:44 PM
Today was a pretty easy day. Just hung out at home and did laundry. I got to chat with daddy throughout the day and that's always my favorite. I did however do a little bit of work today to kind of prepare myself for my work week. I just love discovering that people were not doing what they were suppose to be doing and now I'm stuck cleaning it up. On a better note, I did get to "play" with daddy tonight. Well it's time to dry my hair and go to bed. Night all

2/11/2017 11:26:23 PM
I am beyond exhausted. Just got the last of our girls to bed. Had a busy day of running around and handing out with the girls. I got my grocery shopping done a day early and I got my hair cut today. I needed it bad. Daddy is happy with it and that's all that matters. I am off to bed now to get some much needed slee. Night all

2/10/2017 7:55:32 PM
Day started off horrible... ended that way too and I don't know why. Did I say something wrong? Did I do something wrong? I hate not knowing! It drives me absolutely crazy. I honestly feel like crying right now and I don't even know the reason why. Something has been feeling off all day but I can't put my finger on it. Today was suppose to be a great day of being happy and celebrating a HUGE victory and yet it feels like the total opposite. I have a feeling I'm not going to be getting much sleep tonight. My mind is racing a million miles a second. 😕 I guess I can just bury myself in my work. Get a jumpstart on next week. 

2/9/2017 9:24:43 PM
Had another very and crazy day at work but my day ended in an awesome way. I am extremely exhausted and have a little bit of a headach. Gonna head to bed since the girls are already in bed

2/8/2017 9:03:04 PM
Had a really busy day and ended up with a huge headache which cause me to be in an extra needy and bratty mood tonight. I just want my daddy here with me. I miss him like crazy. I don't feel good and all I want is to be cuddled up in my daddy's arms. Where I belong... my forever home. 

2/7/2017 11:28:05 PM
Crazy busy day at work. Our youngest and I passed out on the couch. Back to bed we go. So sleepy. Night all

2/6/2017 9:16:29 PM
Had a busy but decent day at work. Got 2 kiddos today. One of them had been on runaway status since August. I'm glad someone finally found him and he's safe. I got to chat with my daddy throughout the day which is always my favorite part of the day. I am very excited because I bought daddys Valentines Day gift today. I am not going to give any details but I know he is going to absolutely LOVE it! I'm pretty proud of myself for coming up with the idea. I have always been the type of person to give oddball gifts. Things people would never expect. I think it keeps things interesting and unpredictable. I can't wait for him to open it. Well it's time to our kiddos ready for bed and get myself to bed as well. Night all.

2/5/2017 10:18:19 PM
Had the typical sunday at home with the girls. I did have to have a very hard talk with our 6 year old today. We had to discuss some big changes that will be taking place soon. I don't think it completely sunk in but I know she will be fine. She's a tough cookie just like her momma. I am so thankful that I have daddy's support with everything that is going on right now. i know it's going to get a lot harder before it'll get easier. Knowing that I must continue to get up a fight every day makes it all worth it when I see our girls and think of my daddy. Soon we will be the family that we deserve to be. Sometimes it just seems that it won't happen soon enough but good things come to those who wait And I am trying my hardest to be daddy's good patient little girl. 

2/4/2017 9:37:37 PM
Today was kind of an off day. I took our oldest to get her eyes checked and then went to the grocery store. The rest of the day was spent hanging out with the girls. I think I'm going to head to bed now. I'm not feeling good plus my head is pounding. Night all

2/3/2017 8:40:17 PM
There is never a dull moment at work. We've dealt with kiddos having meltdowns in the waiting room but today... oh lord! Today we dealt with a VERY upset mom. We almost had to call the police because she wouldn't leave. We were trying to get her out before her kiddos got there. We were very well prepared to get the kiddos into the office safely without them crossing paths with Mom but thankfully we didn't have to go that route. Spent the majority of the evening at home in my jammies alone. I wish my daddy were here with me to cuddle on the couch with. I miss him so very much. I actually got to watch grown up tv for once. No cartoons or Disney movies for me. Kinda nice but I missed my girls. Glad they're home not. Time for bath and bed.

2/2/2017 9:05:35 PM
Well today was kinda slow and boring at work. I did get 1 new kiddo today but I had 3 siblings that were moved out of their foster home and into a shelter. I was a little upset because of this displacement but I do have to give props to the foster families. They take these kiddos in not really knowing what they are getting into. I didn't get to chat with daddy that much today because he had a very busy work day but I know my daddy loves me and misses me just as much as I do him. Time to get our girls and myself ready for bed. Nite all

2/1/2017 8:30:32 PM
Today is a very special date for sir and I. One year ago today, sir and I became one and my ownership was completed. It was the night that we had both been looking forward to for a long time but weren't quite to that point in our relationship yet. It is a moment we will never forget. A very important milestone in our story of love and devotion. A memory that is locked deep in our hearts forever and always.

1/31/2017 9:58:15 PM
Had a decent day at work. Daddy got to see all of his girls tonight. We went to dinner at the Rainforest Cafe. it was the first time for our youngest. She would reach for me every time a thunderstorm would go off but it was still fun. We always have so much fun with daddy. I know he misses his girls so much just like we miss him. We need our daddy here with us always. We need his love and guidance... his hugs and kisses... his silly side as well as his stern daddy side. We love our daddy very much. F&A 2 I&B 

1/30/2017 7:52:03 PM
Had a very busy and kind of frustrating day at work today but it's all good. Tomorrow is a new day! Today I made a huge  decision and I met with sir to discuss this decision. I have decided that I am officially going to stop smoking. I found out today that even though I do not smoke in the house, my habit is causing our youngest to have issues. I know sir has wanted me to quit for some time and I have his full support. I apologized in advance for any feistiness that may be directed towards him while I am going through this process. I promised that I will try to control this the best I can and he completely understands. I am also looking forward to later tonight. Sir bought us a new toy and we are going to try it out. I hope this whole "controlled remotely" works the way it's supposed to. I can't wait. I am so excited!!!!

1/29/2017 6:00:18 PM
I just got home from my time with daddy and all I have to say is A-MAZ-ING!!! We had such a great time together. Daddy got to see me with absolutely no guards up and completely being myself. I always have some thing on my mind and for once that wasn't happening. It has been a very VERY long time since I was that relaxed and carefree. It felt great! I was actually smiling and laughing. We had the best time together and it is exactly what we needed. We needed to be in each other's arms and be able to focus on nothing else but us. I did get the much needed and very well deserved spanking from daddy. I had been such a disobedient little girl but daddy set me straight and i couldn't love him more for what he has done for me. He only wants what is best for me and I appreciate his guidance and strong hand for keeping me in line. I promise to be everything my daddy wants and needs in a little girl and to never stray again.

1/26/2017 9:30:21 PM
Had a decent day at work. Had a very diffi case this morning but with the help of my great office team we pull it off and got our kiddo taken care of. I love having a team I know I can depend on to bust their butts. On an even better note, my daddy will be here in less than 48 hours. I can't wait to be back in his arms. I miss him so very very much. 

1/25/2017 9:09:16 PM
Had a pretty decent day at work. I have officially moved into my own cubical in the county building today. I'm so excited because now I can spend more time there. i am so excited because my daddy will be here in 3 days. I miss him so very much. I cant wait to be back in his arms sleeping like a baby. Nothing to worry or stress about. I can just relax and enjoy my time with my daddy.

1/24/2017 9:33:28 PM
I had another great day at work. I hate to be excited but I got 5 more kiddos today. It's bad that they need our services but good they we will be able to help them. I was also told  by 2 managers that I am doing an amazing job and to keep up the good work. I truly work for an amazing company. That's only a small reason why I am the luckiest girl in the world. The main reasons are my daddy and our girls. They are the reason I get up and bust my butt every morning. They are my inspiration and strength. I could not ask for a better support team. I love them more than anything. They are my world.

1/23/2017 10:36:25 PM
Well today was a very busy and productive day. I ended up getting 3 new kiddos at work and got 7 appointments scheduled which is completely unheard of. I also took a very big step in the right direction as well. I am so happy with how today turned out and yet I'm not. I didn't get to talk to sir much today. I was getting and still have the feeling that something was wrong. I didn't want to ask or say anything to sir because it probably just me overthinking things again or at least I hope that's what it is. Hope tomorrow will be a better day for us. Only 5 more days until sir is here with me again. 😁

1/22/2017 8:51:21 PM
Angrier typical Sunday at home with the kiddos. I did get to go shopping and talk to daddy. Seem like forever since I've heard his voice. I miss him so much but I am excited because we are one more day closer to our sleepover. I can't wait to be able to sleep in daddy's arms. I always get the best sleep when I'm with him. Only 6 more days until I am back in my daddy's arms where I belong

1/21/2017 10:50:15 PM
Just finished story time with master. I have missed story time so much. I'm so sleepy now. Time to get to bed. Good night all

1/20/2017 7:46:04 PM
Had a rather interesting start to my day. I received a phone call from a paramedic saying that she was with our oldest and that she had fallen on her skateboard. So I left work, picked her up from the paramedics,  took her home to rest, and headed back to work. i also had a big conference call with the county's clinical department that went rather well. I stoped on my way home and got my nails done. I got the cutest lil fox and paw prints. Daddy loves how they turned out. The rest of my night I e been chatting with daddy and thinking about our sleepover that is coming up next weekend. I am so excited!!!!

1/19/2017 8:17:01 PM
Went into work late this morning because I woke up unbelievably sick. Everything from my head to my toes hurt. Thank goodness I have a boss that understands. Enough of that. I have come to a realization with the help of the book I'm reading that I have not been the "good girl" that my sir deserves. I have been quite disobedient and that is not what my sir deserves. He needs a good lil girl that will obey his every order. I promise to get us back on track and back to being sir's good girl.

1/18/2017 10:08:48 PM
Kind of a busy morning at work today but the afternoon was slow. This gave me time to chat with my sir and to read more of my book. I was only able to get 6 chapters in today. 🙁 But it's a very good read. My sir picks the best books for me to read. I can't wait to jump back in to it tomorrow. For now I must get to bed I have a rather important meeting tomorrow and I need to be on top of my game. Good night all!

1/17/2017 10:35:33 PM
Had a good yet busy day at work today but I am super excited. Daddy found me a new book to read and I got it in the mail today. So far I am 9 chapters in and oh buddy is it a good read. My daddy always picks out the best books for me. Today was also an interesting day for me because daddy was on my mind ALL DAY LONG. Honestly, it was hard to concentrate at times but those times were like a kick in the butt from daddy telling me to focus. I love the fact that i get lost in my thoughts and daydreams of daddy and yet I still see his stern look of disapproval for being off task. I know I should enjoy that as much as I do but I can't help it. Playful daddy, sexy daddy, stern daddy... I love and need them all. 

1/16/2017 8:35:51 PM
Had the day off due to the holiday so I got to hang out with our kiddos for an extra day. Our oldest and I spent some time working on her project. I usually get sucked into at least helping. Rest of the day was spent watching cartoons and playing with the younger 2. I did get to chat with daddy throughout the day. We chatted about a lot of different things like our daughters project, the sleepover we're gonna have, the inauguration. I love that we can talk about anything and everything. I love having someone that knows what I'm talking about and someone I can learn from as well. I still have a lot to learn and i am truly blessed to have the best teacher in the world!

1/15/2017 9:08:13 PM
Today started off with a shock. I read my daddy's journal entry and I was stunned. I would like to publicly apologize for making my daddy feel the way he does. I know there is no valid excuse for my behavior. I promise that I am going to step up my game and make things right. My daddy is FAR from a  distraction. He is my everything... my reason for pushing on. In his heart and arms is where my home is. At his side is where I belong. I know what I want and I want HIM! I want him to lead our family to the greatness we are destined to be. I have NEVER loved another as much as I love my daddy. He is the true owner of my mind, body, and soul. F&A 2 I&B 

1/14/2017 9:29:05 PM
Daddy will soon be on the other side of the country from us. 😭 We had a good night out with the girls tonight.... dinner and build a bear. I got to spend Thursday night and Friday night with daddy. Thursday was simple. Dinner and cuddling in bed. Just the way I like it. Friday night was amazing. Daddy invited me to a business dinner with him. I have to admit that I was nervous because it was my first business dinner with daddy and I knew I had to be on my very best behavior. Daddy told me that I looked beautiful and that he was very proud of me. I means the world to me to know that I've made my daddy proud. I felt so out of my element but I knew daddy was there to let me know that everything was fine. I needed that extra hand squeeze or his hand on my leg to keep my centered. I miss him already but he'll be back in 2 weeks and then we'll get to have a sleep over. I absolutely LOVE sleeping in daddy's arms. I can't wait! I am so excited! Well it's time for me to get the girls settled down for bed and get myself to bed as well so I can dream of my daddy. Night all

1/11/2017 8:46:09 PM
Today was a very busy day. Meeting after meeting. Going from point A to B back to A and then back to B. I felt like a grasshopper. Jumping all over town today. I absolutely love it. It is so much better than sitting behind a desk for 8 hours a day. I didn't talk to sai much today. I missed him so much today. I am so excited thought. Sir will be here tomorrow night! 😁 I can't wait to see him. Now it's time to get the girls to bed and then get myself to bed. 

1/10/2017 5:45:46 PM
Had a very busy day at work but it looks like I f**ked up again. Sir isn't happy with me right now. I'm not going to go into details about it but I will say that I feel like sh*t. I mean I literally feel horrible... my head is killing me, my stomach is upset and I am in a terrible mood. I have zero appitite so I'm just going to make dinner for the girls and hope that everyone goes to bed early tonight. 

1/9/2017 10:22:17 PM
Had a pretty productive day at work. Having to get use to my new schedule too. All I could think about was that I get to see my daddy in less than 3 days. I am so excited. I have missed him so SO MUCH!!! I'm sorry to make this short but ended up with a massive headache. Good night all

1/8/2017 8:34:33 PM
Not the ending to my night that I wanted but oh well... suck it up and deal with it, right? I better get going. I have kids to get to bed, a shower to take, laundry to put away and a budget to complete before I can go to bed. Night all

1/7/2017 10:00:49 PM
Today was a pretty average day at home. I got to take our middle child to the pet store and let her pick out another fish for our tank. I go to chat with daddy throughout the day. Keeping him up to date on whats going on in the house. I did get to "go shopping" with daddy this morning. He bought me a really pretty outfit that I can't wait to wear. 4 more days until I get to see my daddy and I can't wait. I miss him so much! 

1/7/2017 9:09:13 AM
First I would like to apologize to daddy for brain farting on writing my journal last night. i had a lot on my mind last night and I just wanted yesterday to be over with. After work I had to go rescue our girls from daycare and on top of that I'm having issues with my car. If it's not one thing it's another. Today is another day and hopefully it will be better. On a very good note, I get to see my daddy in 5 days. I am so excited. I need him here with me and our girls.

1/5/2017 8:06:00 PM
Very busy day full of traveling and a little on the emotional side. I visited one of the sites that house children that are waiting for homes and I must admit, it was hard on me. Reading through their paperwork is a lot easier than seeing them face to face. All the tiny ones is what really got to me. They are so little and so fragile and yet they have been through and have seen so much. No child should go through the things these kids have gone through. It did make me hug our girls a little tighter tonight when I got home. I am also thankful for having my daddy there to talk to after I left. 

1/3/2017 10:40:01 PM
Had a very busy but great day at work. I absolutely love my new job. It is constantly moving. Whether it's meets or emails or phone calls. There is always something to do. I didn't get to talk much to sir today. He as well had a very busy day with work. It's ok though. Soon we will be back together and be able to focus on us and nothing else. We need these times to just sit back and enjoy being together. Holding each other and talk about whatever or just lay in silence. These times together are so precious and priceless to us. 

1/2/2017 7:36:18 PM
Pretty average day for me today. Finished up some laundry and hung out at home majority of the day with our girls. I did get to talk to daddy while I went shopping. Oh and I FINALLY found and bought the jacket that I have been looking for the past week. I was so excited. I can't wait to wear it. Daddy thinks I'll look good in it. Well it's time to up the girls in the tub and get ready for work and school tomorrow.

1/1/2017 8:15:52 PM
Let the countdown being!!!! 11 more days until I get to see daddy. I am so excited and I want the days to fly by. It's like Christmas all over again. I miss him so very very much! I can't wait to see him, be able to touch him and be able to hug and kiss him. I absolutely LOVE having him near and being at his side. There is nowhere else I would want to be than in my daddy's arms. Safe, loved, protected, and cherished. 

12/31/2016 7:02:10 PM
Well it's the last day of the year and there is only one person I want to kiss at midnight but that'll have to be postponed for  2 weeks. I wish my daddy were here right now. Besides the fact that it is New Year's Eve and that I miss him terribly, my daddy and I are not feeling well. We should be taking care of each other. More taking care of him than me. I should be there massaging away all of his aches and pains. Making sure that he is very well taken care of. Keeping him relaxed and comfortable. Cuddling with him. Nursing him back to his healthy normal self. I need to be at my daddy's side... where I belong. F&A 2 I&B

12/30/2016 8:05:17 PM
Well Ive got 2 weeks before I can see my daddy again. I miss him so much. I miss looking into his eyes. I miss kissing his lips. I miss feeling his touch. I miss hearing his heart beating as I lay my head on his chest. I miss feeling his arms wrapped tightly around me. I miss his smile. I miss feeling his hand on my leg as we ride in the car. I miss every single thing about him. I love him so very much. He and our girls are my entire world.

12/29/2016 9:24:56 PM
I am so happy to be back. My daddy grounded me from my journal for a week for being a bad girl. It was a very well deserved punishment. So much has happened in the past week. The girls and I got to see daddy and spend some time with him. The girls and I took a road trip for Christmas. The girls and I got to open our gifts from "Santa" while daddy joined us via Skype. We are 4 very lucky little girls to have such an amazing daddy. I also started my new job and I absolutely LOVE it! My coworkers are amazing and they are all just one big happy family. I better get going. Our girls come home tonight from being away visiting family. I missed them so muc. Good night all!

12/18/2016 8:42:17 PM
Today was the usual Sunday full of shopping and laundry. I did get to talk to sir while I was shopping and driving home. Need to start getting things ready for tomorrow because I start my new job. I am excited. Time to go. Night all

12/17/2016 8:22:40 PM
I want to take this time to say that I love my sir very much and that I am a very blessed girl to have such an amazing sir. I willingly without hesitation give him all of me to obey his every order and fulfill his every need to the fullest. He is my all... my everything. I will do nothing ithout his permission and  guidance. I need him like no other. I want him like no other. I miss him like no other. Most of all, I love him like no other. I am his to love, guide, protect, discipline, and cherish. F&A 2 I&B

12/17/2016 9:20:29 AM
Yesterday had its ups and downs. I took the first step into a very good direction. On the down side our girls still weren't feeling good and honestly either was I. All of us were actually in bed and asleep by 8pm. I know we all needed a long good rest. Hopefully we'll all have our energy back by Monday. I wish our daddy were here. He would know how to make us feel better. We miss him so much.

12/16/2016 10:36:51 AM
I didn't get a chance to write my journal last night. I spent 5 hours in the emergency room with our youngest. She's fine now but we were all exhausted when we got home. She is doing much better now and is almost back to her normal self. I am very glad to see that she is because I am taking a very big step today. I am doing what needs to be done and like a bad girl i have dragged my feet long enough. 

12/14/2016 10:16:21 PM
Had a pretty good day. I got to hang out with our younger 2. Had some mommy things to do first thing this morning but then we had lunch and just hung out the rest of the day. I didn't get all of my to do list knocked out but it will just get dumped to tomorrow. I got schedule for the first 3 days of my new job and HOLY COW!!! I have tons of meetings at a different location each day. I am so so so excited!!!! I hope I make my sir proud. I know I will absolutely love every minute of this job. Everyone has told me that this job is a perfect fit for me and can see me doing great things. I just hope that rings true. Well I am off to bed to have a dream date with my sir. Night all.

12/13/2016 9:17:37 PM
Well I got the text I've been waiting for today. Looks like I start my new job. I know I haven't said much about what my new job will be so I guess I will let you in. I will be working for a company that provides psychiatric help as well as therapy for children. Their main contract is with the state and helping out foster children that have unfortunately been through some really horrible things. This is were I came in. I will be the "middle man" between my company and the Family Services/Child Haven. I know that I will be hearing a lot of heartbreaking stories but to be a part of the plan to get a child the help they need will be amazing. I am so excited and can't wait to start.

12/12/2016 10:16:19 PM
Had a pretty average day. I didn't get to talk to daddy much during the day though. 😞 It made for a very long and lonely day but daddy had some business to tend to. I did have an unexpected trip to the pediatrician today. Our baby girl has a really bad cough but Doc says there is nothing wrong other than the cough. I did get to talk to daddy tonight. The sound of his voice is so warming to me. i absolutely LOVE the sound of his voice. Time for bed. Got a pretty busy day tomorrow.

12/10/2016 9:08:09 PM
Had a pretty good day hanging out with the kids. First we went down to the biggest toy drive in Vegas and dropped off some toys. I explained to the girls that these toys would go to kids that without our help would not get anything for Christmas. Our 6 year old makes me tear up when she told me "Thats not fair mom. Everyone should have a happy Christmas"  Then we went down to the Bellagio to check out the winter display in the Conservatory and also watch the fountains. The girls had a blast. We wish daddy were here to join in the fun. We miss him so much.

12/9/2016 8:08:14 PM
Today was as a pretty good day. Had a lot of morning errands to get done. Unfortunately one of my main ones got postponed to Monday. I did get some stuff done for my new job and I am even more excited. It's all becoming so real and I can't believe it. Don't get me wrong, I love being home with our girls but there are other children out there that are in desperate need of mine and my companies help. i did get to talk to daddy for a little bit today which is always the best. Well I'm off to bed soon. Really not feeling all that great tonight.

12/8/2016 10:00:27 PM
Today was a pretty average day. Did lots of "mom things". Had to take our youngest to the doctor and then to lunch. Picked up our middle child from school and then nap time for everyone until big sister got home. Pretty much hung out at home the rest of the night until I had to take our middle child to target to get an emergency light night. Damn that invisible monster in her closet. I did get to keep daddy company on the phone when he was driving home. I love talking to him. The sound of his voice is so soothing and calming to me. Makes me feel all warm and tingly inside. Time to get our baby girl to bed and get myself to bed as well. I have a pretty full day tomorrow.

12/6/2016 10:14:39 PM
Well today was my first full day at home. I startedy day off with getting the girls off to school and then coffee with my daddy before he headed home.I miss him so very much and i wish he didn't have to go. But I know right now daddy wants me to put my focus on other things and getting things taken care of. To be honest, it's focusing on him and our girls that gets me up and keeps me going. Right now there are a lot of things going on and I need them more than ever as my inspiration. I need to go to bed now because the battle is only going to continue. 

12/5/2016 10:54:50 PM
Well today was an interesting day. Today had its ups and downs. i just want it to be over with. I at least got to have dinner with daddy, our girl and my mom. Yes! Daddy got to meet my mom. Alright well that's enough for tonight. I am going to bed.

12/4/2016 11:16:06 PM
Had another really good day. I got to hang out with daddy this morning and I even got a really nice massage from him. Its felt amazing. I love spending time with him. Tonight the girls and I got to have ice cream with daddy tonight. It breaks my heart to see the girls in tears when we have to leave daddy. I know it's not easy for daddy either. Seeing our 2 youngest in tears made me tear up. We need to have daddy here with us every day with no goodbyes. That is the only way we will be truly happy. 

12/4/2016 12:16:52 AM
Had a great start to my day. I got the hang out with daddy and wrap presents for our girls.  Tonight we went on our first official road trip. It was short but it was still a family trip. We had a blast and I loved having all 5 of us together. We felt like a real family. It warmed my heart seeing daddy with his girls. I know he loves spending time with them and soon enough we will be together every single day Like we are meant to be. Since it has been such a long day I better get my butt to bed. I've got another date with daddy in the morning. 

12/1/2016 9:16:57 PM
I had an AMAZING day!!! The job that I had been waiting to hear back from for the last 2 months called me today and I got the job. I am so excited. I wanted to tell sir as soon as I got the call but he was in a meeting so I had to wait until lunch. He told me that he is sooooo proud of me. I love making my sir proud. He even had a great day too which makes me even happier. For once everything was going right for us. On an even better note, sir will be here tomorrow and I get to see him after work. I can't wait to see him and be back in his arms where I belong. I have missed him so much. This time tomorrow we will be laying side by side with my head on his chest. My all time favorite place to be.

11/30/2016 11:26:07 PM
FINALLY able to get on here. I have been trying for the last 2 hours to get on. Things have been as usual. Work is ridiculous but I keep putting in apps and submitting my resume darn near everywhere. One a good note.... my daddy will be here in a day and a half. I am so beyond excited! I wish the girls and I could spend ALL weekend with him but life gets in the way and we do what have to do. Time for me to get to bed. Nite all

11/28/2016 11:39:11 PM
Tonight is going to be a quick entry because I am exhausted. I was excused from writing my journal by Sir but I can't go to bed just yet. Today i made the switch back to an iPhone from an Androi. The reason being... FaceTime! Yep you guessed it. I get to FaceTime with my sir now. It kinda helps with the whole distance thing and plus he gets to see our girls. I know sir needs to see his girls just as much as we need to see him. Ok finally time for bed and time to dream of my sir. 

11/27/2016 9:42:15 PM
Let the count down being!!! I am so beyond excited that I get to see my daddy later this week and we get to take our first short family road trip together. I can't wait to see my daddy. I know it's only been a 3 weeks since we last saw this each other but it feels like an eternity. Every minute spent away from daddy feels like a life time and I don't like it. I need to be at his side and in his arms every single day. He makes me feel whole. Without his I would be lost and living a meaningless life. He has shown me that there is so much more than just living day to day. There is so much more to mine and our girls lives thanks to him and I never want to lose him or that feeling EVER!!!Hebis my one and only F&A

11/26/2016 10:41:55 PM
Well today was pretty uneventful. Hung out at hold with the kids and watched a couple movies. My night however was great. Kimi got to play with Master for a little bit. She's such a good little fox always trying to patiently wait for her time with master. She misses him terribly. The feel of her tail brushing against her hind legs. The over excited wagging of her tail at the though of her master. She longs to be at the end of her masters leash. The amazing feeling the a slight tug on her leash and hearing the words she aches for "good pet". I know Kimi will have sweet little fox dreams of her master tonight. 

11/25/2016 9:43:29 PM
Well you today was an interesting day full of the usual bs. Work was ridiculous as usual but I got to take our older 2 girls with me. It was fun and they decorated the front office for Christmas. Came it pretty good. I did get to talk to daddy on my way home from work. Had an ever more horrible night. Got into another argument with our nanny. All I know is that I just want to go to bed and meet daddy for one of our dream dates. I miss him so much.

11/24/2016 5:21:45 PM
I want to take a moment to give thanks for everything I have. I am thankful for having 3 healthy, beautiful, smart little girls. Everyday they test me is some way, shape or form but I wouldn't have it any other way. They are the best thing to have ever happen to me. They give me so much strength and courage. I am also thankful to have the love of an amazing man. He has done so much for the girls and I. He has proven that he is the one that deserves to love and guide our family. He has give no reservation to excepting the responsibility of protecting and cherishing every one of his girls. I am truly thankful to have such a beautiful and loving family. I love my sir and our girls. They are my everything... my whole world.

11/23/2016 8:43:27 PM
Have you ever wanted something so bad that you'd give anything to have it? I want my daddy here with us so bad. I hate being in my current situation and I can't stand it anymore. I know that a life with daddy will be perfect. Full of love and family. I need him here with us every day. Only that will make me truly happy. I miss him so much and I know he will be here in a little over a week but the time will come when he must leave. I have grown to despise that time. I try so hard not to burst into tears when we must say goodbye. I truly hate it. I truly yearn for the days of no goodbye only see you when I get home. To sleep in his arms, to kiss him when I want, to heart his heart beat as I lay on his chest. These are the things I need and must have every day for the rest of my life.I hate to sound like a spoil brat but I need and must have NOW!!!!

11/22/2016 7:45:51 PM
Interview went VERY well this morning. I definitely have my fingers and toes crossed because I really need to get away from the stress I'm dealing with right now. Every day I leave work irritated and stressed. It's not healthy. I would be taking a slight pay cut but it will be worth it just to get out of my current mess. I didn't get to talk to sir at lunch today because I didn't take much of one but I did get to talk to him this morning after my interview and on my way home from work. I absolutely cannot live without hearing his voice. It does so much for me. He does do much for me... mentally, physically and emotionally. He keeps me balanced and focused on what's important. He is my everything.

11/21/2016 8:56:27 PM
Was excused from writing last night's journal. I was as sick as a dog last night. I'm still not 100% but am feeling a little better. Work was the usual BS. A day filled with my rude coworker and getting my butt chewed for the stupidest reason. It's just ridiculous. But none of that matters because I got to take to my daddy today. I love the sound of his voice. It's so calming to me. He made me laugh which I desperately needed. I also had a phone interview on my way home from work. It went very well and they want me to come in for a face to face tomorrow morning. The company sounds like a very good and very legit company. So fingers crossed. I'm really excited but I need to stay calm. Per daddy I was to eat soup for dinner and rest of the couch. So here I sit like the good girl I am, in my jammies wrapped up in my blankie. Only thing b I am missing is my daddy's chest to lay my head on.

11/19/2016 11:11:24 PM
I have been in somewhat of a dark mood lately. I don't know if it's the unhealthy stress from work, the unnecessary stress at home, or what but I've just been in this mood. I actually thought about doing something really stupid tonight that I haven't done since I was a teenager. I was prepared to do it but then I stopped. The thought of my sir and our girls flashed into my head. I thought "What in the hell are you doing? Stop it! You're stronger than this!" I instantly dropped to the floor and started crying. I sat there and cried for a good 30 minutes or so. To be completely honest, I feel better. There is just so much going on in my life right now and I think I just needed a good long cry to get it all out. All of that built up frustration and stress. In my current situation, I always have to be the one to carry everything on my shoulders and do it with a smile on my face. I guess that weight had finally gotten to me. The thought of my sir and our girls gives me more strength than anything I could ever imagine. They are my rock... my everything... my world.

11/19/2016 9:01:41 AM
Well yesterday was another crazy busy day as usual. Somehow my Fridays are worse than my Mondays. But it's all good because I got to talk to my daddy at lunch and on my way home from work. I think I did most of the talking though. I tell him about work and how the kids are doing.

11/17/2016 8:06:36 PM
Today was horrible and no not because of work. I didn't get much time with daddy today and I'm feeling so alone. I know he has to work just like I do but I'm a very needy little and I need my daddy's attention. I hate being away from him. I'm sitting here on the couch with one of daddy's t-shirts on and I'm on the verge of tears. I miss him so much. Why do we have to be so far apart? IT'S JUST NOT FAIR!!!! 😭

11/16/2016 8:52:01 PM
Well it looks like I'm back to the drawing board. So far none of the jobs I am waiting on have come through. This is so frustrating. I'm a great employee and I'm good at what I do. Why can't people see that? Oh well... I guess it wasn't meant to be. I did have a breakthrough on an issue I have been dealing with for quite some time and things are starting to look up. Things are finally happening. I have to be honest though... I am really scared of the unknown. What will the final outcome be? How will it effect the girls? I know it will lead to a MUCH better life but the road getting there is going to be an extremely bumpy one. I'm not worried about myself because I know I can handle anything. But my girls are so little and fragile but like me they are some pretty tough cookies. Thank goodness we have our daddy to make sure we are all safe and protected.

11/15/2016 8:22:57 PM
WORST DAY EVER!!!! I just want it to be over with already. Morning started off fighring with our nanny. Work was crazy plus my least favorite coworker was being a total you know what. Come home and go to start dinner and the charcoal in the BBQ won't light. I am so exhausted, stressed, and irritated right now. I just want to take a shower and go to bed. At least in my dreams, I'm with my sir.

11/14/2016 10:32:59 PM
Very long and very crazy day. I need to go to bed. I need to dream of my daddy. I need him here with me so much. Missing him like crazy.

11/13/2016 9:37:32 PM
I'm not really sure why but I miss my daddy a lot more than usual. It's just so hard for me sometimes because I have to be a big girl and take care of things. To be honest, I am so tired of having to be a big girl and carrying all this weight on my shoulders. I had to grow up at such a young age and be the responsible parent. To make sure there is always a roof over our heads and food in our stomachs. It has been a nonstop struggle. Always having to fight to make ends meet. But now I fight for another reason. I am not alone in this fight either. My daddy and I fight for what we know we deserve. Everyday is a struggle for us but it is one more day closer to where we are meant to be. Here I have this absolutely perfect man that loves me and my girls very much. My girls and I only get him in short spurts and every time we have to say goodbye, it gets harder and harder. This last time damn near killed daddy and I because saying goodbye brought our younger 2 to tears. Just a simple mention of daddys name brings the biggest smile to our 6 year olds face. It hurts so bad not having him here with us. Our family isn't complete without him. We need him here to cuddle with us, play with us, and be our daddy.

11/12/2016 10:06:51 PM
Had a fun night with the girls. Took them to the Magical Forest and rode rides and looked at all the Christmas lights. We has a great time but I really wished sir was there with us. Christmas is about spending time with family and our family isn't complete without him. Can't wait to have him with us every day forever and ever. I better get to bed. I have a very busy day tomorrow full of running errands. Off to have a dream date with sir.

11/11/2016 8:49:06 PM
Had a very busy day at work as usual but I did get to take my girls out for dinner. I love getting to spend time with them. Talking them about what's going on the school. What they want for Christmas. Stuff we don't really get to talk about everyday. Our time together was almost perfect. It would have been perfect if daddy were with us. I seeing him with our girls. The smile he gets whenever he is around them and the love i see in his eyes when he looks at them... it's unbelievable. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have such an amazing man not only loving me but my cubs as well.

11/10/2016 8:43:56 PM
Story time with daddy tonight. Perfect way to end a hectic day.

11/9/2016 8:12:54 PM
Had another busy day at work except today I was told that ANOTHER task is placed on me. I am now in charge of all new contracts. Ok cool but no training on them and no raise. Big WTF!!! I wasn't even told about it by the person whom decided to give me that task. It's things like this that keep me wanting 5o quit my job. Over worked and EXTREMELY underpaid. I know what I'm worth now thanks to my sir and it's nowhere near what they pay me. I put up with why too much childish BS to actually enjoy what I do. If it weren't for my sir and our girls, I would have walked out a long time ago.

11/8/2016 9:30:32 PM
Well I had an absolute horrible day at work. I got a massive butt chewing over something I knew nothing about. It took so much for me to not walk out the door but the thought of my sir and my girls kept me there. After work I decided to go to the gym. Everything was going great until my phone lost service. I have no idea why it happened. The bill was paid so I knew that wasn't it. I restarted it a couple times and even took out my Sim card for a little bit. Over an hour later... poof! Phone starts working again. My sir was so worried because he couldn't get a hold of me for close to 90 minutes. I feel so bad and I hate making my sir worry like that. I promised him that if it happens again, I will call him to let him know that I'm alright. After all that, I get in the shower, eat dinner, get the girls off to bed and start to vacuum. I notice that the brush on my vacuum isn't spinning. So I grab my spare belt, take the vacuum apart, replace the belt, put it back together... only problem is... I'm too tired to vacuum now. I really hate this "flying solo". I need my sir here with me. I don't know how much more weight I can carry. I think I'm just give up on vacuuming and just go to bed. I am so over today.

11/7/2016 8:16:01 PM
I feel so alone right now. I miss my daddy so much. Just simply saying good night to him tonight made me tear up. I have gone through all of his pictures so many times that I lost count. I've read through his journal entries at least 3 times already. I just want him here with me. In his arms is where I belong. I hate being away from him. Why does life have to keep us apart? It's just not fair. We belong together. I know good things come to those who wait but the little inside me is growing quite impatient. She needs her daddy and I need my sir.

11/6/2016 9:56:56 PM
It's time to go to bed and I'm really not feeling all that great tonight. But it amazes me just how much of an impact my sir has on me. When he is not with me, I feel so empty and so lost. He will always be in my heart but not having his touch or even being able to see him just kills me. I have never loved someone so much and so deeply ask I do him. I need him with me every day for the rest of my life and I will continue to push until that day comes.

11/6/2016 8:48:00 AM
Well I have just said goodbye to my sir as he leaves for the airport. I already miss him so much. I couldn't make it a block away before I burst into tears. He has become so much to me and ever time he leaves it gets harder and harder to say goodbye. I don't want to ever let him go. I think it the thought of not knowing when I will see him again that really gets to me. Not knowing when I will kiss his lips, hear his heart beating or be in his arms. It's just so hard to not be able to see him face to face. But like sir says "each time gets us closer to not saying goodbye" and those are the days I cannot wait for. To be able to cuddle with him and kiss his face whenever I want. Those are the days I need.

11/6/2016 12:13:17 AM
So the last 2 days have been absolutely amazing. I got to send some time with sir on thursday night. It felt unbelievable being back in his arms. I have missed him so much. Friday was perfect. I pulled a little surprise on my sir. I met him for coffee in the morning and acted like I was going to work. I knew that he had a meeting at 9am so I decided to be a little sneak and take the day off. When he left, I went back to his room and waited for him to come back. The look on his face was priceless. Spending the entire day together was exactly what we needed. I also worked it out so that I could spend the night with him. Falling asleep next to him is absolute heaven to me. It was the best sleep I have gotten in a very long time. Tonight, sir got to hang out with all of his girls. We had dinner, bowled a couple of games, had ice cream and then played some games in the arcade. Our poor 6 year old cried the whole way home because she didn't want to leave sir. It broke my heart seeing her so upset but it just shows how much sir means to all of his girls. We need him with us. It has been forever since I've seen our girls so happy. They deserve to be that happy every day. Seeing sirs face light up when he sees his girls is that most amazing thing ever. The happiness and joy that I see in him is something that he deserves to feel every day. Soon our world's will finally come together and we shall all have what we deserve... a happy, healthy, loving family.

11/2/2016 8:56:13 PM
I am so excited. In less than 24 hours I will have my sir back. I've missed him so much. I can't wait to be back in his arms. Sorry entry is so short tonight but the sooner I get to bed the sooner it will be tomorrow. Good night all!

11/1/2016 9:53:16 PM
Today was a busy day. Got to talk to may sir at lunch which is my favorite way to spend my hour. I had a chiropractor appointment after work. After a couple snap, crackle, and pops I'm actually feeling pretty good. At first I wasn't too sure about going because I despise them but this doc is pretty good. I also decided that I'm going back to my vape. No more cigarettes for this this babygirl. I know vaping is just as bad as smoking a cigarette but with the amount of stress that I am currently dealing with, I'd end up killing someone if I quit cold turkey. I will slowly get to not smoking at all. Just got to finish dealing with all my drama first. My reasoning for switching back to my vape is my sir. I know he doesn't like the smell of cigarettes but he understands everything I am dealing with and agrees about me not completely quiting. I am so thankful and lucky to have a sir that understands my struggles.

10/31/2016 9:16:04 PM
Today had to be the longest day ever. My sir was busy taking care of some very important things. I wish there was something I could have done to help. All I could do was be there for him when he needed me which I do not mind one bit. There are a lot of tough things we must go through in our lives and unfortunately some me have to deal with on our own. Just the simple fact that you know you have someone here for you to vent to or lean on can be the best support ever. Having someone that is that light at the end of your dark tunnel. Sir and i are each other's bright lights in the darkest we must fight fight to get to. Although we struggle now, in the end we will come out stronger than ever before.

10/30/2016 10:25:16 PM
I have to be the luckiest girl in the world. To have found that one person you can be completely open and honest with. That one person that you're not afraid to show your flaws. That one person that is your first thought in the morning and your last thought at night. That one person you can't even imagine living without for 1 second. That one person that makes your heart race just by seeing their face. That one person that makes you smile just by thinking of them. That one person you want and need at your side. That one person that makes you feel like you could do anything. That one person that you fall so deeply in love with that it makes you pinch yourself because you still can't believe they're real. That one person you would spend the rest of your life protecting from harm and always making sure they feel loved. That one person that finally fills the hole in your heart and makes you feel complete. That one person you willingly give every ounce of yourself to. That one person is my sir. The man that I will forever love, cherish, adore, protect, and serve. He is priceless to me and I will never take him for granted.

10/29/2016 10:38:52 PM
I was just on the phone with my sir for 2 hours. I really needed to hear his voice. It has been such a hard day and the sound of his voice has an amazing effects on me.I am in a completely different mood now thanks to him. I know when I've reached my breaking point I can always call my sir and he can put a smile on my face. I love him so very much and he is my everything. He's my voice of reason. He's my clarity. He's my strength and weakness. I don't know what I would do without him. I am such a lucky babygirl to have him as my sir, my daddy, my master, my husband, and my best friend.

10/28/2016 9:42:03 PM
Very long day... first started the day off with a doc5ors appointment fo4 our youngest then work. Work wasn't too bad because the co-worker I can't stand wasn't there today. I did get to talk to my sir a couple of times today. I love being able to actually talk to him. The sound of his voice is very calming to me. I also made sir proud today. I have an interview scheduled for tomorrow... yes an interview on a Saturday! I do feel really bad though. I kept zoning out on sir tonight. I didn't really chat much and now his in bed sleeping. 😔 I guess I better get to bed since the kids are in bed.

10/27/2016 10:01:30 PM
I didn't get to say nite and I love you to sir tonight. I guess I got caught up in the fun I was having with the girls carving pumpkins. 😢 I wish sir were here with us. We had a blast making a mess and then lighting them up. One thing I discovered tonight, our youngest is afraid of pumpkins... carved or uncarved. Not really sure why but she is. I really wish sir was here. I think all the fun is catching up with me. I'm back to not feeling good. Everything aches and I know my sir would know just what to do. In less than a week sir will be back with his girls. We can't wait.

10/26/2016 10:45:37 PM
Had a very long and very slow day. Didn't get to chat with sir that much today (seems that way) because we were both very busy. I had an interview today that went very VERY well. Got to chat with sir for a little bit tonight but it was an early bedtime for him. I better get my butt to bed as well. Got a hot dream date with my sir to get to.

10/25/2016 9:03:18 PM
Had a hard day. Not really feeling all that well. Per sirs instructions I am to be in bed soon. One thing good did happen today. I got a call for an interview. It's will one of the biggest medical equipment companies in town. The good thing about this company is that it's owned and operated by a health insurance group. Which if and when sir and i move out of state I could most likely just put in for a transfer instead of looking for a whole new job. Times up... bed time for me. Nite PS I love my sir very very much. F&A 2 I&B

10/24/2016 7:12:57 PM
I am so excited right now. Sir and i have been talking about getting tattoos for awhile now. At first we thought about the whole lock and key thing but that is just overrated. I knew that in time something would hit me and it would be absolutely perfect. Well that moment has come. A couple of days ago I came up with an idea for our tat. I sat down on Saturday morning and drew it out. Sir said that he loved it and it fits us perfectly. Last night and tonight we talked about and made decisions on the little details of our tat. I love the fact that I can bounce ideas off of sir and we are agreeing rather easily of the details. I can't wait to have it down on paper and completed. Time to get to work... lots of ideas that I need to get down before they are gone.

10/23/2016 9:49:35 PM
I believe my "pissy little brat" reared her ugly head tonight. I know that most of the time I can be a bit needy and when I don't get the response I feel I need to hear, that is when the inner 5 year old pouts and becomes a brat. I know that I will be punished for her pissiness. I will accept and take my punishment because I need the learn to control her better. My only fear is the punishment my sir will have for me. I will never forget my last punishment and I hope/pray that I will not have to endure it ever again.

10/22/2016 11:48:28 PM
Pretty busy day but I got to talk to sir while I went shopping. I love hearing his voice. It feels like home. It is a sweet sound I will never be able to live without. Hearing him say "love you" sends my heart soaring beyond the clouds. Time to get to sleep so I can see my sir.

10/21/2016 10:15:23 PM
Well I had a pretty average day except for getting to talk to my sir. That always makes for an amazing day. Had an awesome experience yet tiring night with the girls. Too our youngest to get pictures done and then dinner. Home now to relax and hopefully get to bed soon. I am so exhausted and is in desperate need of sleep and a dream date with my sir. I miss him so very much but we get to see him in about a week and a half. I can't wait to be back in sirs arms.

10/20/2016 10:18:57 PM
Have you ever been so connected to someone that you feel what they feel? When they are feeling sad, you feel their sadness. When they feel lonely, you can't help but to feel lonely as well. Of course when their feeling happy, you feel happy. Having that strong of a connect is an amazing feeling. I am lucky and truly blessed to have this connection with my sir. I love my sir so very much. I love what we have and what we will become.

10/19/2016 9:10:16 PM
Had a pretty average day. Nothing really exciting happened except that I did a digital interview and 2 assessment test for one of the biggest health insurance companies. I missed my sir very much today which is why I want to get to bed asap. I need a dream date with him and I need it now. I need my sir F&A 2 I&B

10/18/2016 11:29:19 PM
Had a rather interesting event happen today. I got a response from the job I was hoping to hear from. However it was not quite the response I was hoping for. I guess they would like to interview other before making a final decision on me. It's so extremely frustrating because I put in a lot of follow up and had a lot of patience with these people. Sir says "All this uncertainly in the workplace is not good" I agree with him. If they can't make a simple decision about me and this position then how else do they run things in the office? Like I always say, everything happ3ns for a reason. It may not make any sense now but in time it will. It's extremely late and I need 5o get to sleep now. Nite

10/17/2016 11:21:40 PM
Another day of biting my tongue and trying to keep myself from walking out of my job. I just don't understand how people... full grown adults... can't own up to their mistakes. They always have to throw someone under the bus. Even the tiniest mistakes, they won't own up to. Why do people in is it on pointing the finger at others. It's pretty sad when my children are taught better than adults. Enough about that, nothing yet on the new job possibilities. I'm trying my hardest to be patient. (With sirs guidance of course) Have a pretty easy night with the kids. Just hung out at home, ate dinner, and watched some cartoons. We got our 6 year olds school pictures today as well and she looks so grown up. 😭 Well I better get to bed. I've been have lower back issues tonight and I'm hoping it'll be better in the morning.

10/16/2016 9:46:23 PM
You know, I absolutely love the fact of tomorrow being completely unknown. Will it be just another day at work filled with the usual BS or will it bring the beginning of a new chapter? The unknown can be an exciting and yet a frightening feeling. Regardless, you start it off with your head held high and ready for anything to be thrown your way. At the end of the day you either come out a champ or battered and bruised. Just remember that today you may have gone down swinging but tomorrow is always a new day. Every day is a battle and it's not about if you win or lose. It's about fighting with everything you've got and getting back up no matter how many times you get knocked down. Never give up. Never lose hope.

10/16/2016 8:02:53 AM
So I'm late doing my journal entry because I was feeling very sick last night along with our youngest. I'm happy to report that I am feeling a little better. Not sure how the baby is feel yet because she is still asleep. I have a couple things to do today that hopefully I'm feel up to doing. Of course there's the usual laundry and grocery shopping that needs to get done. I just got sirs permission to dye my hair. 😆 speaking of sir, I miss him so very much. We are going through a lot in our lives right now and we need to be strong. Even when I feel that I can't carry on, my sir is always there to give me the strength and love to carry on. I love him so very much and one day soon we shall be side by side as we are meant to be.

10/14/2016 8:36:46 PM
Had a very long day at work. Had to deal with irritating people as usual but all in all it was a good day. I had my sir to chat and talk to and that always makes my day so much better. I took the kids to get their Halloween costumes tonight which is always a battle but everyone made it out alive. Now we're home just relaxing and I'm trying to get over this headache. Hopefully I'll get to bed soon so I can dream of my sir holding me.

10/13/2016 9:58:10 PM
Had a very long and boring day today. I am so glad that it's over. I got to chat with my sir today which I absolutely love. I did have another word removed from my vocabulary today and that word is "whatever". I used that word with sir today which displeased my sir very much. I have to be honest that I haven't been on my best behavior the last couple days. Yesterday I was disrespectful and burped while I was one the phone with sir. I did this not once but several times. Looks like I still have some bad habits that I need to break. :-(

10/12/2016 10:20:40 PM
Well I had a very unexpected surprise today. I got a phone call from a company that I interviewed with a couple weeks back. They really want to hire me but they are in the process of creating my position. I was really heartbroken when I got the "thanks but no thanks" email. This job is absolutely perfect for me. I get to help kids that are in the foster care system and have mental issues. This position is something I know I will be very passionate about and will give me that sence of accomplishment. Of course I was very excited to share this information with my sir. I know it makes him proud to see me pushing myself and striving to do my best. I would like to thank my sir for giving my the strength and courage to pick myself up and continue on. He is my rock... my everything... F&A 2 I&B

10/11/2016 8:23:51 PM
Had a good day at work. No major issues reported or small fires to put out. I did however get an email from the job that I've had 2 interviews for. She said that she would like to speak to me and possibly make me an offer. I am so excited. I was suppose to have a phone interview for another job today but the lady never called me. Oh well... her lose! I did get to chat with my sir today and he confirmed that he will be here at the end of the month to see his girls. He is making a special trip this time. I miss him so much and I can't wait to see him.

10/10/2016 8:39:00 PM
I had a very busy and very crazy Monday but that's normal. The best part of my day and night was when sir talked about our future. I love hearing what he sees for us and our girls. We talk about living out in the country. I was born in the city but I'm a country girl at heart so this thought sounds amazing to me. Of course it would take some time for our girls to adjust but I know they will come to love the outdoors just as much as sir and i do. I could see sir and i sitting on the front porch watching the sun set while the girls are chasing each other and playing fetch with the dog. I've live under the bright lights of Vegas for so long I have forgotten what it's like to hear nothing but the crickets and being able to look up and see the stars. A home filled with so much love and laughter is exactly what we need. A home where we can live without the fast pace hustle and bustle of life flying by. Where we will be able to just stop, take a breath, and enjoy the moment. Our happy ever after is just beyond the horizon and I can't wait to get there.

10/9/2016 9:49:58 PM
Another lazy day full of laundry and just hanging out with the kids at home. Tonight we had some cuddle time on the couch watching a movie. I wish daddy were here to cuddle with us. While chatting with daddy today, he told me the dates that he's going to be making a special trip to see his girls. I am so excited. I can't wait. Missing him like crazy lately... more than usual. I didn't even know that was possible.

10/8/2016 10:38:18 PM
Got some much needed sleep this morning but hit the ground running as usual. The girls and I clean out the garage. It was much needed as well. I got to chat with my sir throughout the day which is always my favorite part of the day. Rest of the day was kinda lazy. Tonight sir and i talked about going one out first family trip with the kids. It's gonna take some planning but it's gonna be amazing. I can't wait until we can always be together as the family we need and deserve to be. There is so much love already and I want the whole world to finally see how happy we are together.

10/7/2016 10:09:03 PM
Started my day off with an interview. It went really well and hopefully I'm up for a better position than I originally thought. After my interview, i took a big step in the right direction. A step that has been delayed for way too long. One more step closer to having sir and his girls together as a family. As usual, I had a crazy busy day at work. I did get to chat with my sir throughout the day which always makes the day easier to deal with. I wish I was with him right now. I wish I was with him every day but that time will come... come soon I hope. Sirs girls desperately need him.

10/6/2016 9:42:39 PM
I was a very bad girl last night. I gave sir attitude and was being a "pussy little brat" I got what has to be the worst punishment ever. I absolutely hated every minute of it and I definitely learned my lesson. I don't ever want to endure a punishment like that again. But I know it was for my own good and it was well deserved. I also know that Sir punished me not for his enjoyment but to teach me that my behavior displeased him greatly. I want to publicly apologize to my sir for my behavior and I also would like to say thank you for loving me enough to give me the stern guidance I so desperately need.

10/5/2016 9:13:08 PM
Got a very good email today. It was a request for a 2nd interview with a landscaping company. I interviewed with them a couple weeks back and they've been waiting for the right time to vacate the position. I am really super stoked. My sir says that he is very proud of me which makes me even more stoked. I am so happy and proud of myself that I have kept focused on getting things done. I'm not going to lie... I did get a little discouraged at times but sir kept me focused and on my path. I am thankful every day to have such an amazing man standing by my side. Loving me, cherishing me, and giving me the strength I need. I love him to the moon and back.

10/4/2016 10:08:54 PM
Again, today was a crazy busy day. I go5 to talk to my sir today and there are some interesting things happening right now. Imy actually a little excited when I think about them because it means we are getting closer to having the family and the life that we deserve. Of course I am a little nervous because these are some really big steps but I know there is nothing to worry about because my sir would never let anything happen to me or our girls. We are the luckiest girls in the world to have such an amazing daddy to watch over us.

10/3/2016 9:00:11 PM
Today has been a very long day. My interview this morning went very well. Fingers crossed because I really need to get away from my current company. I took a 15 minutes lunch and worked an extra hour to make up some time. The kids are fed and ready for bed... so is this exhausted momma. Hopefully they'll go down easy tonight because this momma bear needs some sleep.

10/2/2016 7:41:57 PM
Getting ready for story time with sir. I absolutely love his stories. They are so detailed that I can picture it in my mind. I can feel and hear everything. His stories make be feel all sorts of cray feelings. I love it. Just wish sir were here to tell me his stories in person. But then again I wouldn't need the stories to get me feeling the things he does. I still have yet to figure out what it is about him that makes me submit to him so much. Honestly, I don't really care what it is. What I do know is that he is my sir, my master, my daddy, my love and I belong to him... heart, mind, and body.

10/1/2016 9:22:18 PM
Had a pretty good day. Took our youngest to get her first hair cut and then off to the Bellagio to see the conservatory and the fountains. Wish our daddy was here to have fun with us. The girls and I miss him so much. Can't wait for the days when it will be the 5 of us on these little adventures. The days when we are the family that we long to be.... that we need to be. We need to be with our daddy... happy, loved, and cared for. All of us need this including our daddy.

9/30/2016 6:39:27 PM
A year ago today I met a man that, unknown to me at the time, would turn my entire world upside-down. We were both looking for a simple distraction from life but what we found was the beginning to an absolutely priceless relationship. This one man has become so much to me and my girls. He has become my best friend, mentor, protector, husband, sir, master, and daddy. He has become my everything. Without reservation, he has not only taken me under his care but my girls as well. His love for us is completely unfathomable. This man could have very easily dismissed me but instead he chose ME to stand at his side. To be his to cherish and own. He has done so much for me over the past year... mentally, physically and emotionally. He took a naive little girl and is turning her into a strong woman that is fully aware of all the negativity that tries to surround her. He has given me the knowledge that true love does still exist and my heart has never been so full of passion. In this man I have found a rare gem that I will forever hold dear and never let from my sight. This man is an absolute one-of-a-kind and I am blessed to have him as mine. F&A 2 I&B

9/29/2016 7:56:06 PM
Today was especially hard on me today. Even though sir and i were not in the same state but he was near. Right now he is on his way back home and I have been feeling the sense of loneliness. I miss his so much and to be honest, there were several times throughout my day that I would instantly tear up looking at his picture. I need him here with me. I need to be in his arms. I need him period!!! It is so hard to be away from him for any amount of time. The days get longer and the nights gets even longer. I love him. I miss him. I need him. I want him. F&A 2 I&B

9/28/2016 9:44:21 PM
This week has been so hard on me so far. Sir is traveling as usual but he has been busier than usual and I missing him so much. I wish I could hear his voice right now. Just a "Hi babygirl" would bring me to peace. While sitting at my desk today, I kept catching myself staring at our pictures and day dreaming of him. Wishing I could feel his touch, kissing his lips, hearing his heart beat as I lay on his chest. God, I miss him so much. All I want right now is to be able to look into his eyes and see that smile that I love so much. Just being near him does so much for me mentally, physically and emotionally. He connects with me and my body in ways I never thought possible. I'd give anything to be in his arms right now.

9/27/2016 9:41:13 PM
Had a pretty good day. I started my day with an interview that went great. So fingers crossed. I had a crazy busy day at work. I didn't get to chat much with sir today. 😢 I missed in a lot today... more than usual. I picked up a little surprise for my sir after work. I'm really excited. I can wait to give it to him. Not really sure when that will be though. 😭 I had another interview after work but unfortunately due to the hours I am unable to take the job. It has been a very long day and I am exhausted. I wish sir was here. I could really use some cuddle time right now.

9/26/2016 9:15:55 PM
I had a great day today. Worked sucked but I have 2 interviews lined up for tomorrow. I am so excited. I can't wait to get away from my current job. Overworked, under paid, and under appreciated but it's all good. I'm keeping focused on finding a better job where I will be paid what I am worth and respected. I got to talk to sir today. I miss him so much. Looking at a picture of him actually made me tear up because I miss him so much. I just want to be back in his arms where I belong. F&A 2 I&B

9/25/2016 7:29:40 PM
Had a pretty good day hanging out with my mom and the girls. Didn't really do anything special. I am so happy I got to spend some time with my mom. I know the girls love having her here. Unfortunately she will have to go home soon. 😢 I got to chat with sir today which is ALWAYS my favorite thing to do. He always knows how to make me smile and feel strong. I love him beyond all words. F&A 2 I&B

9/24/2016 9:47:45 PM
Today turned out a lot better than I thought it would. The girls and I are back home and my mom is visiting. We just hung around the house and did nothing. It was great. Seeing my mom with the girls always bring a smile to my face because I know she loves them more than words could ever express. With everything that is going on with my life right now I am truly blessed to have my family, my girls and most importantly, my sir. Without them I would be lost. My sir has been my rock and my voice of reason with everything I am going through. My love and respect for him grows each and every day.

9/23/2016 9:43:39 PM
Safe and sound with our girls. Been a very long day so time for bed. Night

9/23/2016 12:35:38 AM
Had another crazy busy day at work but I got to talk to my sir a couple times today. Which always makes me a very happy girl. I did get a chance to get to the gym today which I bumped up my weights. 😆 Sir said he was very very proud of me. After a quick shower, I got to hang out with a very dear friend of mine and fellow little. We had a great time. Now it's time to get my butt to bed and dream of the love of my life... my sir.

9/21/2016 9:42:32 PM
It has been a very.long and very busy day. The very best part of my day was when I got to talk to sir at lunch. The sound of his voices always calms me. It still amazes me that will just one word from him changes my mood completely. I wish I could end my night and every night but those nights will come soon. I can see that amazing life for us and our girls. It's so close and yet not close enough. I know it will be worth the wait. Sir says it's time for bed and I completely agree. Night

9/20/2016 10:25:55 PM
Today was a true test for me... to stay strong and professional when I'm discussing issues with an owner and pretty much not being taken seriously. In my head I thinking to myself "our girls... my sir... new job" This was the only thing that kept me from getting up and walking out. After talking to my sir and getting my head straight, I've decided I'm going to keep doing as I'm asked but I am going to do it with the biggest smile on my face. So when the day come when I give my 2 week notice, they will realize exactly what they will be losing. I am going to push myself hard to prove everyone wrong and show them that I am worth a whole heck of a lot more than they think. The thought of my sir and our girls is what and will continue to push myself. They are my rock.

9/19/2016 7:46:55 PM
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who I have in my life that counts. You can have money, cars, a big house, and vacations but they mean nothing if you don't have someone to share them with. When you find that one person that completes you and makes you feel things you've never thought possible, you should hold on to them for dear life. Nothing is more precise and priceless than finally finding your one true love. My sir is my one and only, to have and to hold, my forever and always. He is my everything... the air I breath... the reason my heart beats. He has taken a lonely broken girl and turned her into a strong confident woman. But regardless of how strong or confident I become, I will always need, want, and love my sir. I have NEVER loved anyone as deeply as I love my sir. He owns my heart, mind, body, and soul. F&A 2 I&B

9/18/2016 9:43:05 PM
Feeling pretty off tonight. My head and back hurt... not really sure why. My heart hurts as well but I know why that is. I am missing my sir like crazy. The easiest way to explain it is it feels like being home sick but times 100. I miss my home (sirs arms) so very much. I honestly feel like crying because I miss him so much. I need to be cuddled up next to him with my head on his chest. I need to be at peace and in his arms is the only place I find it. I guess I better get to bed now. I hope and pray I get to have one of my dream dates with sir. I could really use it right now.

9/17/2016 9:40:12 PM
I wake up every morning with a smile on my face because I know I am the luckiest girl in the world. I am beyond bless to be the mother of 3 absolutely beautiful little girls and I have the love of a very intelligent, strong, extremely sexy man. There are things in my life that I would love to change and are in the process of changing but all of that stuff is minor to me. My sir and our girls are what matter most. They are my entire world. Without them, I would be living a meaningless life with zero direction. Because of them, I continue to push and fight my way to a better life for us. A life full of love, happiness, and joy. My sir and our girls deserve the very best from me and that is what they will get every day for the rest of my life. I love them so very much.

9/16/2016 10:19:49 PM
Had a pretty easy day today compared to how my week was. Hung out most of the day stress free and got 99.9% of my work done. I actually had some time to call and request some paperwork that I need. It was great. I could actually see my desk when I left. I had a good work out at the gym and then came home to our girls. The only thing that would have made it better was if sir was there when I got home. I miss him so much. I wish he was able to come back sooner. I hate not knowing when I will see him next. It drives me absolutely bonkers. I need to be in his arms and at his side.

9/15/2016 9:17:13 PM
I had a very long and stressful day. First off the battery in my car died. It was so dead that a jump wouldn't even start it up. So me being me, I jumped into action. I crawled into my trunk and took the battery out, went to the parts store, bought a new battery and reinstalled it myself. After being 2 hours late for work, I had tons of stuff that needed to be done. I worked through my lunch and stayed after to make up time. But with everything going one there was and still is one thing on my mimd... my sir. I miss him so much. I really hate when he has to leave. Life seems so perfect time when I'm with him and when he is away, my life seems so empty. I need him here with me forever and always.

9/14/2016 9:59:17 PM
I had a very rough day at work. People just amaze me at some of the things they do and think they are ok to do. It makes absolutely no sense to me at all. What made my day even harder was the fact that my sir was no longer in town. I hate being away from him. I have to be at his side every single day for the rest of my life. With him I am truly able to be myself and not have to carry the weight of my world on my shoulders. He is and forever will be my one and only... my one true love. My heart feels so empty when he can't hold me, kiss my lips or even give me that smile that I love so much. His touch is what my body yearns for. To be in his arms is to be at complete peace. I miss my sir so very much and need his here with me.

9/13/2016 9:29:35 PM
I had the most amazing day. I went to my interview this morning and it was a slam dunk. The lady kept telling me "I really like you and I'd hire you right now if I could." After my interview, I tried to go handle some paperwork which didn't turn out the way I wanted it to but it's all good. After that I got to spend that whole day with my sir. It was absolutely perfect. I love and cherish every minute of the time we spend together... vanilla and non-vanilla. Being in his arms feels like home. I feel safe, protected, happy, at peace. Sadly, our time together had to come to an end. Honestly, I cried the whole way home. I hate saying goodbye to him. It breaks my heart every time. The unknown countdown begins until he returns.

9/12/2016 11:50:09 PM
I had a pretty good day. Morning started off with a visit with my sir for some coffee. CoffeE is so much better with my sir. I had a lunch interview today and went ok I guess. The guy seemed like he didn't even read my resume before my interview. Got to see my sir at lunch time. Wasn't for very long but I got a much needed hug and kiss. Got to spend a little more time with sir after work. First thing sir requested was to put on one of his shirts. I love wearing on of his shirts. They are so comfy and warm. Almost feels like I've got sirs arms around me. Well it's getting really late and I need to get to bed. Got another interview in the morning.

9/11/2016 9:41:42 PM
Had an absolutely amazing day today. First I got to spend some 1 on 1 time with our oldest and then it was lunch and go karts with sir. We had so much fun. Tonight sir got to hang out and have ice cream with all of his girls. We had an absolute blast. I love seeing sir with our girls. The love that he has for him is amazing to me. He is so patient and caring with them. I never known a man to be such an amazing sir, husband, best friend, and father. I am a very lucky girl.

9/10/2016 11:23:19 PM
Had a good start to my day. Had to take a 2 hour class that literally made my head hurt. So much information that I needed to obtain in such a short amount of time. I came home and slept off and on most of the day. I had to get rid of my massive headache asap. Got to chat a little with my sir in between class and myou naps. Which my first one I failed to inform sir that I was laying on the couch. He was so worried when I wasn't answering his phone calls or texts. I hate making sir worry like that. Speaking of Sir... I get to see him tomorrow. It's gonna be lunch and go karts with our oldest. We can't wait! We are both so excited. Well I better get to bed. Early morning gym visit for me and then a nail appointment before seeing sir. Night all

9/9/2016 11:10:45 PM
Just finished story time with sir and i absolutely LOVE his stories. They make me feel excited, nervous, happy, and a little scared but I trust my sir whole-heartedly. I know he would never let any harm come to me or leave me unprotected. Ivery got one thing left to do and then it's off to bed. This little girl has class in the morning.

9/8/2016 9:50:16 PM
Had a much better day but I missed my sir so much today. Our baby girl turned the big 2 today. She is growing up so fast. Went to dinner and then the park to play. I am on the verge of falling get asleep. Time to have a dream date with my sir. I can't wait. I love our dream dates.

9/7/2016 9:33:48 PM
Every feel like you're slowing losing something and you don't know why. You try your hardest every day to keep that grip strong but it still feels like it's slipping. That's how I am feeling right now. I feel like I've been punched right square in the chest. I feel like crying and hiding in a dark corner somewhere. I work so hard everyday to be at my best but get the feeling like it's never enough. At this current moment I am in fact sitting in my bedroom... in the dark... alone... in tears... I guess the next thing to do is to try to get some sleep but we'll see how well that goes. I wish my sir were here to make everything better.

9/6/2016 9:44:41 PM
Day started out pretty average until I got a phone call for an interview from a really good company. My day ended amazingly. I had an interview which I thought I totally bombed but come to find out they want me to come back for a second interview. I have 2 interviews scheduled for tomorrow. It is definitely going to be an exhausting day for me. I guess this just shows me that I need to have more confidence in myself. I am so unbelievably grateful to my sir for helping me find my confidence. I know that I still have a ways to go. With sir by my side guiding me and teaching me, I will become that perfect little, slave, sub, pet, wife, stepford that my sir deserves. Thank you sir for all you have done and continue to do for me. Tomorrow will be a true test of your great work.

9/5/2016 9:34:40 PM
Had a pretty good day with the girls. Did a little shopping for the girls bday. Can't wait for sir to be home so we can celebrate their bdays. We have missed him so much. Only 5 more days to go... I am getting so excited. I'm also excited because I have a big time interview tomorrow. I am really hoping and praying that I get it. It would change so much for us. I better get going... got a lot to get ready before I can get to bed.

9/4/2016 7:48:24 PM
Had a decent day hanging out with the kids. Took a nap and woke up to an awesome voicemail. It was to schedule an interview. I am really REALLY hoping I get this job because it would change everything that is going on in my current life... for the best of course. I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much but I know I can/will ace this interview. It will make everything so much easier for me, the girls, and our daddy. Whom we will see in approximately 6 days!!! 😆 We miss him so much and can't wait to be back in his arms.

9/3/2016 10:30:10 PM
To my one and only, You are the most important person in my life and so I decided to write this letter to express my deepest feelings. You continue to make my all dreams come true and I still cannot believe that you chose to be with me. With you at my side, I know that I could suffer all the vicissitudes of life and yet feel no pain. A caress and smile for you is enough to make even the toughest of days seem like a breeze. Your hugs come as a comfort to me when I am feeling low. By being held in your arms... I know that I am safe, protected, untouchable. I will try my very hardest every day for the rest of my life to always make you feel love, cherished and adored. Forever & always, Your Babygirl

9/2/2016 9:00:48 PM
Another night sick. Managed to keep food down this time. Sir kept me company while I laid on the couch. Wish he were here to lay with me. I desperately need to get some uninterrupted sleep. Going to bed and hopefully have a dream date with my sir.

9/1/2016 8:33:38 PM
Was excused from writing my journal last night. I don't know what got into me but I ended up ridiculously sick. Pounding headache, puking, head spinning... thankfully my daddy was there to keep me company as I laid on the couch. He even told me a bedtime story. I wish he was physically here with me. I really need some serious cuddling. 9 more days and I will be back in his arms where I belong. I miss him so much... his face, his kiss, the sound of his heartbeat, even his scent. I miss everything about him.

8/30/2016 10:45:05 PM
I heard the most amazing sound today. This single sound has the ability to soothe and calm me at the drop of a hat. Not matter what kind of mood I'm in or what kind of day I've had. This sound is something I will never get tired of hearing. This sound makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. This sound has the ability to warm every inch of me or send chills down my spine. (The good kind of course) This sound also has the ability to make me run towards it or stop me dead in my tracks. This sound means everything to me. This sound that I've come to love so much much and can't live without, is the sound of my sir's voice.

8/29/2016 10:32:02 PM
Absolutely horrible day at work. I don't understand what I ever did to my coworker for her to treat me the way she does. Sir says it because she's jealous of me. It is so hard to keep my mouth shut and put a smile on my face but I do it to be a good girl and keep my job. Heading to bed because it's late and I've got another massive headache.

8/28/2016 10:57:27 PM
I know I've said this numerous times but I am beyond blessed to have such an amazing man in my life. I know he loves me and our girls very much and would never let any harm come to us. The girls and I are extremely lucky to have him in our lives. With him and our girls, I know we will have an absolutely amazing life together. A life full of happiness, love, and joy. I never have to wonder if I am on sirs mind because I know I am just like he is on mine. Always in each others hearts. Always knowing and feeling that we are loved to the fullest. I ask myself everyday how I got to be so lucky. To be honest, I don't care how. I'm just extremely happy I did.

8/27/2016 10:39:15 PM
I took a very big step today and I am feeling so many different emotions right now. I'm feeling relieved that it's finally done. I'm feeling worried about the kids. A lot of things are going to change and I just want them to be ok. I wish my sir were here. I know he'd make everything better.

8/27/2016 8:50:20 AM
Today was a very crazy day. I think I'm going to have to fire our nanny. I discovered that our girls were being put in daycare so the nanny could go do whatever. I find this out when the daycare called me because one of the girls was sick. Thankfully sir was being my voice of reason or yesterday would have gotten very nasty. He's always there to keep me out of trouble and level-headed. I did get to spend some time with the girls and took them out to dinner. So besides what happened, the ending was a good ending. The only thing that would have made it perfect was if sir was with us. We miss him so much.

8/25/2016 10:06:23 PM
Another ok day at work. I strongly dislike that days when sir is extremely busy buto I understand that he is in high demand and I do have to share him every now and then for work purposes.I just miss him terribly. Only 2 more weeks and I will be back in his arms where I belong. I could really use one of his amazing beast hugs right now. They always make me feel so protected and safe. The hunt continues for a new job. So far I've got a couple things in the works. Hopefully one of them pans out soon because I don't know how much more I can take. Well it's getting late and I better get to bed. Night all.

8/24/2016 9:28:13 PM
I had an ok day. Didn't really get to chat much with sir today. I miss him so much. I really wish our situations were different right now. If I could I would be on the next plane to Pennsylvania. I need him with me every single day. I need to be at his side. Going to bed because I have a massive headache again.

8/23/2016 10:18:32 PM
Had a pretty average day to start. Had a lunch time talk with sir regarding me taking a very big step. It's a very big step in the right direction. It's going to be hard but it needs to be done. Of course there are things that I am worried about but if those situations arise then I will face them with my head held high. My only concern is the girls and their wellbeing. I have a few days to prepare myself to this big step. I know I can do this and everything will be fine. Life will be so much better in the long run. I've got my sir and our girls to give me the strength. Without them, I'd be lost. I love them more than words can ever express.

8/23/2016 6:27:40 AM
Yesterday was a good day. Took some steps in the right direction. There are 2 things that need to change in my life and it is definitely hard work to get it done but it will be all with it in the end. I've got my sir helping me and pushing me to keep going. Day by day and task by task everything will be ok and fall into place. Slowly but surely building a life with sir. The hardest part is that I want to shout at the top of my lungs that I am his and he is mine but I know that time will come when the time is right. Just need to be patient. As long as I have my collar and my right, I know I am his and the world knows that I am taken.

8/21/2016 11:15:21 PM
Had a great day with the kids. Took them the Adventure Dome to ride some rides and play some games. I even got to see my best friend whom I haven't seen in 7 years. After the ride and fun, we got to hang out with my parents and aunt. I miss seeing them so much. I wish sir could have been there in person to share in the fun. It would have made the day absolutely perfect. Now it's time to get to bed and try to completely get rid of this massive headache I've been fighting with all. Sir told me a story which helped my headache. I love his stories and what they do to me.

8/20/2016 10:51:34 PM
Well today was just ridiculous. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. I was seriously on the verge of throwing a fit but after talking to my sir everything was better. Sir always knows how to make me feel better. He is absolutely amazing and has the ability to snap me out of my funk by saying one thing. I am without a doubt extremely stubborn and moody sometimes but not with sir. He's got some magical way of blowing that stubborness and moodiness right out of the way. No one has ever been able to have that much of an effect on me. I know he is my perfect match... my soul mate... my one and only... my forever & always.

8/20/2016 8:00:20 AM
I had a very interesting day yesterday. I had an interview and yes I'm looking for a new job. One I have now, over qualified and under paid. Plus they lady that is in charge of payroll took my overtime. Anyways, interview went well but still need to discuss with my sir. I also got my accounting number in yesterday and they were outstanding. I am so proud of myself. Sir said that he was very very proud of me and my numbers. Last night I got to hang out with sir and our youngest. We were having fun sending daddy pictures of us and watching cartoons. We miss our daddy very much and can't wait for him to be back with us.

8/19/2016 12:21:01 AM
Got to hang out with a fellow little tonight and I had a blast. We talked about anything and everything. I love hanging out with her. We really need to get our daddy's in town at the same time so the 4 of us can go out. I really missed chatting with my sir tonight. I miss my sir every night. I may be chatting with him but I still miss him. Miss his face, his smile, miss everything between the top of his head to the tips of his toes.

8/18/2016 6:26:12 AM
Had a decent day at work but I had an GREAT time at the gym. My sir and i had a friendly little competition of heart rates. The goal set for me was to meet 163 or hit 164. Well I hit the 164 but I pushed myself just a little harder and met Sirs 166. I am so damn proud of myself. I'm even more proud of myself that I didn't keel over right there in the gym doing it. It just shows me that with my sirs pushing me, I can do anything. Every day my sir pushes me to be and do my best. Even when I don't think I can do it, I still push myself to get it done. If sir believes that I can do some thing then I get it done. He is my strength and my reason to push on everyday.

8/16/2016 11:01:27 PM
Got something put on my schedule for Friday morning and I am excited. Had a rough day at work though. Aunt Flo must be getting ready to visit a coworker of mine because she was being a royal... yeah! But it was all good because I had my sir to chat with and my new "focusing chant" Of course my new chant includes 4 of the most important people in my life... my sir and our girls. I know without them I would have completely lost it already. They are the reason I get up every morning and face the day strong with my head held high. They are my reason for living... my inspiration... my world... my everything

8/15/2016 10:55:00 PM
Today was a good day. A couple of promising things happened. I am excited and a little scared of the changes that will hopefully be happening soon. It's a good kind of scared thought. I know I have my sir right beside me and supporting me 1000%. He is my rock and give me the courage to reach for the stars. Thank you sir for always believing in me when my self doubt and negativity kicks in. It means the world to me knowing I have you to guide and protect me. I will forever be grateful.

8/14/2016 9:48:46 PM
Had a good morning at the gym and running errands followed by a protein packed lunch. I am really trying my hardest to be sirs good girl and stay on my routine. My sir deserves the very best and that's what I am going to try to give to him. He deserves 110% from me. He deserves my all. I am going to give him my all... mind, body, and soul.

8/13/2016 10:48:25 PM
Had a great day just hanging out with our youngest. She so much fun... most of the time. Got to chat with my daddy today. I love chatting with him. It's the best thing ever. Got to hang out with Kimi for a little bit tonight too. Playing with her tail is so much fun. I also got to color with sissy tonight as well. We colored a pretty picture for daddy and we even stayed inside the lines. We hope daddy like it. Well it's late and we better get to bed. Early visit to the gym in the morning. Nite nite.

8/12/2016 10:34:42 PM
Well it looks like I have a new challenge set before me but it's ok. It's going to work out and it's going to be for the best. I've got my sir standing behind me 110% and I know he will keep me pushing on with my head held high. He is my rock, my strength, my encouragement, my voice of reason. He is my everything. I know that together we can concur anything.

8/11/2016 9:36:11 PM
I'm missing my daddy so much right now. I have my footies jammies on and now all I need is daddy's lap to cuddle up in. I love cuddling up with my daddy. I feel so safe and protected in his arms. So strong... so warm... feels like home... feel complete in his arms. I need to get my little butt to bed so I can see daddy in my dreams. Nite nite everyone

8/10/2016 9:54:43 PM
You know, a lot of people go through life living a mediocre life and never being fully happy or satisfied. Fortunately I am not one of those people. I have everything I could ever want in life. I have 3 absolutely beautiful little girls and the love of an amazing man. I can honestly say that I am truly happy and blessed. I wake up every morning knowing that I have what most people dream about and I do not take a single day or moment with them for granted. My girls and my Daniel are absolutely priceless to me and shall be treated as such.

8/9/2016 8:55:06 PM
Had a somewhat good day at work today. Got to chat with and talk to my sir today as well. It's always the highlight of my day. Hearing his voice makes everything just melt away. I love the fact that I am soothed and calmed just by hearing his voice. I miss him so much. His face, his smile, being in his arms, the feeling of peace I get just by laying my head on his chest. I miss everything about him. I miss holding his hand as we walk side by side and even when we are in the car. I miss his smell. I miss his touch... oh my goodness... his touch does things to me I couldn't imagine possible. Hopefully he will be back soon. I need him so much.

8/8/2016 10:54:34 PM
Had a pretty busy day at work or at least I tried to keep myself busy. I got to chat with my sir tonight. As usual it was my absolute best part of my day. I know every baby girl thinks that their Sir is the best but I know for a fact that I have the best sir in the entire world. He has and continues to make a very big impact on me and my life. He is my everything... my white knight... I will love him forever & always.

8/7/2016 9:43:03 PM
There are times in your life when you should just throw your hands up and walk away from a situation and there are times when you never give up and fight with every ounce of strength you have. I'm currently in a situation I am going to fight for because I know it is worth the fight. Every second of every day I am going to fight and will continue to fight until I have nothing left.

8/7/2016 6:06:28 AM
Yesterday was pretty uneasy eventful. Spent the whole day hanging out at home with the girls. I did get to chat a little with sir which is always my favorite thing to do. Better get started on my busy bust day.

8/5/2016 8:29:23 PM
My mind is starting to race again which is never a good thing. I start wondering about things that I will probably never get answers to or just get generalized answers. I am a very inquisitive person. I want to know the whos, whats, wheres, whens, whys... every single detail. I know a lot of people find it annoying but with all those details, it makes it easier to see the whole picture and to plan for the next step if need be. Knowing every detail helps people to be honest as well. Honesty is a very big and unfortunately a rare thing.

8/5/2016 6:16:35 AM
Last night was ridiculous. Another flat tire right after getting my nails done but after getting every thing taking care of... no one chip or broken nail. I take pride in the fact that I am not afraid to get some dirt on my hands and get something done. I know it makes my sir proud to know that I can handle things when I need to.

8/3/2016 10:43:54 PM
Had another busy day at work and then the gym afterwards. But i am a very happy girl. I got my tail today. It's so pretty and fluffy. I absolutely love it. I even got to try it on tonight and I love the length of it. It's got to be a good 14 to 15 inches long. My master is very pleased with my new tail. I can't wait for him to see it in person.

8/2/2016 9:55:58 PM
Had a very busy day at work but had an amazingly fun dinner with the girls. We were all laughing, singing and just acting silly. I really love being able to be like that with them. I wish our daddy were with us though. I be he would have loved seeing me like that. Due to my current situation, it's rare that I get to act like that. Plus I think it was the lack of sleep I've had the last couple nights. Speaking of bed, I promised daddy I'd be in bed by 10 tonight. So good night and Farwell for now.

8/1/2016 11:06:50 PM
After the night I had last night and the ridiculously busy day I had today, I am seriously about the drop dead. I am so exhausted. Now it's just a waiting game with our youngest. I hope I don't fall asleep first. LOL I know that won't happen. I know as soon as I crawl into bed my mind is going to start racing again. Thinking about work, the kids, my sir, everything that is going on. I wish my sir was here. He's always able to calm my mind. I miss him so much.

7/31/2016 11:18:27 PM
You know there are very VERY few people I have been and can be open and honest with. But there is only 1 that I have ever been COMPLETELY open and honest with. This 1 person is the ONLY person that has ever seen me venerable. This person is the only one I would not only trust with MY life and well-being but the lives and well-being of my 3 absolutely priceless little ones. The 1 person I know I can run to when I need that extra boost of strength or even just to share some amazing news. That 1 person that I know will always be there to encourage me to get back up and try again. The person always there to push me to be my very best. That 1 and only person is my sir... my daddy... my master... my husband... my lover... my very best friend... F&A

7/30/2016 8:39:27 PM
I really don't know how to feel right now. I still don't feel good. My sir says that he is ok but my heart and gut tell me differently. Sissy feels like she's sitting in time out and kimi feels like she was told to just go lay down. I know my sir/daddy/master is not happy with me. Not once did I get a "good girl" today and that alone says lot. I yearn to hear "good girl" or "good pet". I strive to hear those words from him and when I don't, I feel almost crushed. I know that my sir is going through a lot right now in his life and I am truly trying to remember and understand that. I know that these moments are a true test of our relationship but I also know deep down in my heart that together we will prevail.

7/29/2016 11:53:22 PM
I'm laying here in bed unable to fall asleep. I don't feel good. My head is pounding and my stomach is killing me. I hate feeling like this. The funny part is... it all started when I discovered that my sir was upset with me. Something I said didn't come out the way I meant it to and now sir is upset. I feel absolutely horrible. I guess I will just lay here until I get to the point of total exhaustion and just finally pass out. Wish me lick... good night all.

7/29/2016 6:16:38 AM
Last night was my absolutely perfect. I got to spend more time with my sir. We went shopping and then went to dinner. I also got to do my absolutely positively all time favorite thing. I got to fall asleep in one of sir shirts in sirs arms. I get the best sleep ever when when I am in his arms. His arms make me feel so warm, loved, safe. There is no place I'd rather be than in his arms. They are my home... where I belong and will forever stay.

7/28/2016 6:36:41 AM
I had such an amazing night with sir. We talked and talked about current situations and our future. Had some really good food. I love spending time with him. I even feel asleep on his check for a little bit. Unfortunately I woke up with a headache and ended up "revisiting" what I had for dinner as soon as I got home. All in all it was a greal night. I love being with my sir. It's the only place I belong.

7/26/2016 11:05:27 PM
I am so happy that my sir is here. We had a great night with our girls. I absolutely love seeing sir with them. Playing around, laughing, smiling, having fun with him. It fills my heart with so much love and joy. Seeing his face light up with the biggest smile just puts me in a state of awe. He is truly amazing with them and I couldn't ask for a better daddy for our girls.

7/25/2016 8:59:23 PM
In less than 24 hours I will have my whole world sitting at 1 table. Yep that's right!!! Daddy will be back with his girls. We're planning on taking the girls out for frozen yogurt tomorrow night. I can't wait to see sir with our girls. He absolutely lights up when he is with them. The love and caring he shows for them is amazing. How did I ever get so lucky to find such an absolutely incredible man?

7/24/2016 11:11:03 PM
Had a pretty fun day. I took the girls to play 3D mini golf and went to dinner. I also got to hear one of sirs stories. I absolutely love his stories. They are so detailed that I can actually feel every sensation. They get me so excited and I love it. Being able to picture everything in my mind is just amazing. He is very talented and very mine. F&A

7/24/2016 12:32:36 AM
Today was pretty low key. Didn't really do much. Just hung out at home with the kiddos. I got to chat with the love of my life today. I love chatting with my sir. Even though we are apart, I always have a piece of him with me. I spent the whole day wearing one of his t-shirts. But it wasn't just any of his shirts. This yellow shirt is very very special to us. It is my absolute favorite one out of his collection of shirts that I have. It's special because of what happened the last time he wore it. I remember that night like it was yesterday. I think about that night quite often... probably more than I should but I don't care. It was an absolutely amazing night that sir and i will never forget.

7/23/2016 9:13:47 AM
Yesterday was another crazy busy day at work. But I always have my sir to keep me focus and on track. I am a little upset because yesterday was "Daddy's Day" and Sissy didn't really have the opportunity to come out and play. Poor Sissy keeps begging for time with her daddy. She misses him so much. But I keep telling her that the countdown has begun. Daddy will be here in 3 days. We are all so excited that we'll have him back. We miss him very much. We need to see his face, kiss his lips and be back in his arms where we belong. The time can't go by fast enough. Come on Tuesday!!!

7/21/2016 10:06:50 PM
Today was a perfect example of how much I need my sir. I am about to start down a very rocky path and I am so happy to have my sir to help and guide me down it. I start going off into several different directions at once and my sir is always able to snap me back in line and focus on what I need to do. My sir is my rock to keep me strong and my navigation to keep me on the straight and narrow. I love him deeply and appreciate everything he does for me.

7/21/2016 6:19:21 AM
Had a fun night out with a new friend. She is absolutely awesome. She is a fellow little and boy she is a pistol. We hung out and talked and talked and talked and then talked some more. We talked about our daddies and our lives with them. It was amazing having someone I can talk to face to face about my life with my Daddy. I want to thank my daddy for finding her for me and for letting me spend time with her. I am a very happy little girl. I love you daddy!!!

7/20/2016 6:30:48 AM
It's never ending... my ac broke again last night and our youngest decided to lock me out of my own phone so I have do a factory reset. Why can't I have 1 easy uneventful night? At least I got to chat with my sir last night for a little bit. With I could write more but I've got to get ready for work.

7/19/2016 12:14:59 AM
I miss my daddy!!! I want him here with me so bad. I don't like when my daddy is so far away from me. I miss our cuddle time. I miss his kisses. I miss that smell that calms me instantly. I miss him holding my hand so I don't wander off when we go places. I miss that smile he gets and the excitement I feel when we see each other for the first time in weeks. I miss him playing with my hair. I miss the pride is his voice when he says "good girl". I miss everything about him. I need and want my daddy very much. I feel lost without him near. I love my daddy to the moon and back. Forever & always

7/17/2016 9:56:46 PM
Well I guess I did it again. I made a judgement call and it was the wrong one. Why do I think I can make decisions on my own? Why do I think I can actually be smart enough to make decisions? When am I going to stop being such a moron? I feel like I am trying my best to deal with my current situation and it's seems to always come out wrong. Enough of the self bashing for tonight. I'm going to bed. I do want to say that I am terribly sorry to my sir for being such an idiot.

7/17/2016 8:32:24 AM
I would like to take this time to publicly thank my sir for coming to mine and the girls rescue last night. Our AC was fix but then it broke again last night. My sir got us a hotel room and even stayed up extremely late to make sure we made it and got settled in. It is an indescribable feeling to have such an amazing man that will go above and beyond for me and our girls. Finally... someone I can rely on to step up and take care of situations instead of throwing them back in my lap. I am so unbelievably blessed.

7/15/2016 10:03:50 PM
Not a good time to be writing this right now. I am absolutely FURIOUS!!! It happens every single summer and I am so tired of it. Just discovered that my AC is out and it was caused by our nanny. NEVER do a 500 degree self cleaning on a stove when it's already 110 outside!!!! Come on!!! That's common sense!!!!

7/14/2016 10:41:12 PM
Had another amazing night with sir. He told me another one of his stories. I love his stories so much. He sure knows how to get me excited. I really wish I could write more but I am so beyond wiped out. I will end this entry by saying that I love my sir very much. He is my everything and means the absolute world to me. Love him. Miss him. Need him. Want him. CRAVE HIM. F&A2I&B

7/13/2016 10:09:11 PM
So my inner 5 year old (Sissy) was being a little bit of a brat tonight. Went to the store and she wanted a new coloring book but couldn't find one so she pouted the whole way home. I told her that she needed to behave or I was going to tell daddy. That didn't go over very well with her and she continued to pout. So when we got home it was dinner, bath and then bed. Sissy is definitely coming into her own now and I must say... daddy has definitely got his hands full with her. She is very loving and playful but can act a bit spoiled at times. She is generally a very good girl... just needs her daddy to love and care for her.

7/12/2016 9:15:16 PM
Had a crazy day at work but as always, I had my sir to keep me sane. He truly keeps me balanced. I assess situations completely different than I did before. I know without him and his influence, I probably would have gotten fire by now. I always try to remember that I am a direct reflection of my sir and must be on my best behavior. There's nothing wrong with getting into a little trouble now and then but only under my sirs watch. Btw... I love getting into trouble with him.

7/11/2016 10:00:57 PM
Had an amazing "date night" with my sir tonight. He told me one of his stories that I love so much. He can really get my mind going and not long after my body. His stories get me so excited. I can picture us in these stories and it makes my squirm. They make my heart race and my breathing quicken. I can see (and hope) these to come true one day... when my sir and i are finally together and life has settled. Each day we are one day closer to getting there. That amazing day when can stand side by side in front of the world and be known as one.

7/10/2016 8:47:28 PM
As I sit here, I can't help but to wonder how did I get so lucky? I have been blessed with 3 beautiful intelligent little girls. 3 little girls that i would do anything for. I have the love of an amazing man. A man that means the world to me. I have been given the extreme honor of being a mother and wife to them. They deserve the very best of me and I will spend every day of the rest of my life making sure they have it. I will not take any time with them for granted.

7/9/2016 10:06:50 PM
Today was a good day... I took the girls to lunch, the movies, and then the arcade. We had a blast and I won a huge stuffed unicorn out of the claw game. Sissy absolutely loves it. I wish daddy could have been there with us. It would have made the day perfect. I am missing my daddy like crazy. I want and need to be back in his arms. I need to be with him every day and night... forever and always.

7/8/2016 10:48:53 PM
I would like to publicly thank my sir for being so understanding and for helping me realize I was in the wrong AGAIN. I ended up in a situation kind of like one I was in about 6 months ago. I thought it was different because of the person it involved and the history I had with this person. Sir showed me that I was completely wrong and would not have been in the situation if I just stuck to the protocol. After a long talk about my discrepancy, sir and i are back to being good. The funny part is... my stomach and my head don't hurt anymore. It still amazes me the impact he has on me... mentally, emotionally and physically.

7/8/2016 6:27:57 PM
Today was an absolutely horrible day. I unintentionally upset my sir and i feel so heartbroken about it. I wasn't able to eat lunch because my stomach was upset. I cried the whole way home from work. I tried to go to bed when I got home but wasn't able to fall asleep because my head was starting to hurt. I'm most likely not going to eat dinner either because my stomach is still upset. I hate when my sir is upset and I hate it even more when I'm the cause of it. I am feeling so alone and depressed right now. I wish I could snap my fingers and make everything better. I need and want my sir to be happy.

7/8/2016 6:18:47 AM
Dang it!!!! I did it again. I forgot to write my journal. I was so brain scattered last night. I was thinking about my sir and our life together... how it will be at his side every day... becoming his Mrs.... I can't wait. The road that lead me to sir was a very rough and rocky one. Now that I have my white Knight, I am NEVER letting go. I am his forever and always.

7/6/2016 7:59:52 PM
I know everyone is getting tired of hearing but I love my sir. He is my everything. The reason my heart beats... The air I breath... He is the only one that can make make me melt just by saying my name. He is the only one that makes my heart race by a single touch. Every second of every day, he is the only one on my mind. He is my very best friend, my protector, my lover until the end of time. It is only my sir that I want and will forever want. He is my forever and always.

7/5/2016 6:57:30 PM
Had a very long and busy day today... my boss came back from his 2 week long vacation and was acting like everything was URGENT. Today was also a very sad day at work. Our company puffer fish sadly passed away over the weekend. He had been very sick for quite sometime and nothing our fish guy did was helping. None of us could walk past his tank without tearing up. He will be deeply missed. One a good note, I have a very big interview tomorrow for a federal job. Fingers crossed it's a shift I can take.

7/4/2016 7:21:27 PM
Wanted to get my journal written before it got too late and I got side tracked with the girls. We had a pretty good day. Took the girls to get some new fish. Now I'm doing laundry and trying to keep the girls entertained until dark. I got to chat with my sir today which I absolutely love. Sir did something today that priceless to me. I know it may not have seemed like much but it spoke volumes. I love him so much and I am so very proud to be his babygirl, sub, pet, slave, best friend, lover, and wife. Forever & always

7/3/2016 6:46:06 PM
Today was a rather boring day. Girls and I went to the grocery store and then went to buy fireworks. I didn't get to chat with sir very much today either. I strongly dislike days when I don't get to talk or chat with my sir. I miss him terribly. I wish he was able to be with us tomorrow night to set off fireworks. But I will make sure to get plenty of pictures for him.

7/2/2016 5:57:25 PM
I am one very happy mommy right now. 2 of our girls came home today. I have missed them so much. The house was just too quiet without them here. In 2 more weeks all 3 of our girls will be back home and I will be even happier. I love our girls so much and they are one of the reasons why I push myself every day. I am extremely lucky to have been deemed worthy of being a mom to them. Our girls and our daddy are the very center of my universe and I would not have it any other way.

7/2/2016 1:31:55 AM
Gave my sir a bit of a scare this morning. My alarm never went off which caused me to be about 45 minutes late for our morning coffee and i am NEVER late. I felt so bad and still do for making my sir worry. I have to be honest though... it felt really nice to have someone be genuinely concerned about my well being for once. To know that I am cared for, cherished, and loved is an amazing feeling. To know that those feelings are REAL is absolutely priceless to me. I will never take those feelings for granted.

6/30/2016 11:22:50 PM
Had a pretty busy day at work playing catch up but I don't mind one bit. It was well worth taking the time off to spend with my sir. Had a crazy ridiculous storm hit vegas today. Rain, thunder, lightning, wind, and hail... yes I said hail and lots of it. I thought I was going to have to swim home. I spoke with my sir today (best part of my day) and we decided on my next book that I should read. I'm already 2 chapters in and so far I'm really liking it. To be honest though I was having a hard time concentrating because I couldn't stop thinking about my sir and how much I miss him. I wish I was back in his arms where I belong. I got really sad when I realized that I have no idea when I will get to see him again. It could be 2 weeks or 2 months... all I know is that either are way too long. I need to be with him always. He is always and will forever occupy my mind and heart.

6/29/2016 9:02:28 PM
I love you so deeply I love you so much I love the sound of your voice And the way that we touch I love your warm smile and your kind, thoughtful way The joy that you bring To my life every single day I love you today As I have from the start And I'll love you forever and always With all of my heart

6/29/2016 5:49:12 PM
My sir is and will forever be the owner and keeper of my heart, mind, and body. I have never loved someone so much. I want and need to spend the rest of my life with him. He has and continues to make me feel loved, cherished, protected. He is my forever and always. He is my love, my life, my world, my everything.

6/27/2016 9:39:57 PM
I totally forgot to write my journal last night. I was too busy having an amazing night with my sir. I had a pretty good day today. I got to spend some time with my 99 year old great grandmother. She is an absolutely amazing woman. She has been through so much and is so unbelievably strong. I hope and pray to become at least half the woman she is. I am such a happy girl right now. I am here is San Diego with my sir getting to spend some much needed time with him. I have missed him so much. Although he spends time away from me it makes his return all that more special.

6/25/2016 8:37:26 PM
In 10 hours I will be getting ready to get on a plane to see my sir. I can't wait. I am so beyond excited! I can't wait to see him and be back in his arms. I've miss him so much. Speaking of so much.. I still have so much to do. Still have to shower and finish packing. So I think I'm going 5o cut this one short tonight.

6/24/2016 9:09:13 PM
33 hours and 35 minutes to go until I am on a plane heading straight into my sirs arms. I am getting so incredibly impatient and excited. I can't wait to see his smile and kiss those lips that I love so much. Be back at his side right where I belong. We both need this trip very much. Life hasn't been the easiest on us and we need our time to just sit back and enjoy each other. Time to talk... time to be playful and laugh... time to enjoy being in love. I miss the feeling of excitement I get when my sir walks through the door at the end of his work day. Miss the good morning and the good night kisses. I miss snuggling up next to him and falling asleep. These are all things that I need and absolutely cannot live without.

6/23/2016 9:43:33 PM
Had another crazy day at work today but I absolutely loved my lunch time call with sir. He sounded so happy and I love hearing him that way. It kills me when I hear him upset, stressed, tired or anything but happy. A happy sir makes a happy babygirl. As for tonight... I had a fun yet tiring night with our girls. We went to dinner, the conservatory, and watched the fountains at the Bellagio. We had a blast and I made sure to take plenty of pictures to share with our daddy. I can't wait for him to be able to join us on these little outings. Soon enough we will have our daddy back. BTW... 2 days and 9 hours to go until I'm on a plane to see my sir. I can't wait!!!

6/22/2016 7:48:23 PM
I am getting so impatient... a little over 3 days until my trip with sir. I need to see him so bad. I miss him terribly. I need to feel his touch, hear his voice (in person), sleep in his arms, see that smile that I love so much. I could go on and on about what I need but to sum it up... I NEED MY SIR!!! I need him in every way, shape, and form. He is my everything and I am his... mind, body, heart, and soul... forever and always!

6/21/2016 9:29:58 PM
Another crazy day at work. I didn't get to chat with sir that much today because we both swamped. Not a happy camper right now because my sir had to leave me for the night because he has an early flight. But on a good note... I just book the flight home for our oldest. I can't wait to have her back home. I miss her so much.

6/21/2016 6:24:44 AM
For some strange reason my entry didn't save from last night. So I am rewriting it now. Had a crazy busy day at work. So typical for a Monday. But my night definitely made up for it. Sir and i had the most amazing date night. He told me one of his stories that I love and enjoy very much. His stories are so detailed that I can actually feel myself being there with him wherever we are. I can feel his touch... hear his voice. It is so breathtaking. Now it's time to get to bed and have one of my dream dates with sir.

6/19/2016 7:57:15 PM
Sitting here going through pictures of my sir and i can't help but to wonder how I got so lucky. He is intelligent, handsome, sweet, strong, caring, down to earth man and he picked me. Any intelligent woman would give their right arm just to be at his side. He could have had any woman but no... he picked me. He chose me to be his sub, little, slave, stepford, best friend and wife. It's still hard for me to fathom that he chose me above all but I promise that I will not let one minute go by without serving him and being his everything.

6/18/2016 7:50:07 PM
Well today is a sad day for me. My co-pilot and mini me is on her way to Arizona for 2 weeks. I'm going to miss her so much. The house is so quiet with our oldest here. She only been gone a couple hours and I miss her terribly. I did get to chat with my sir a little bit today which always brightens my day. Got one more day down until our next mini moon... 7 more days to go.

6/18/2016 10:44:41 AM
Oh my goodness... I just realized that I didn't do my entry last night. I feel horrible that I forgot. I was a crazy day and an even worse night. I discovered that not only is our youngest sick, our 5 year old is sick as well. I hate when my girls are sick. My morning hasn't been much better. Woke up to no wifi. I called our service provider and was told there are no issues. Then I called the company we got the WiFi booster from and of course, no issues reported. I then called the manufacturer for the router and once again, no issues. I called my service provider again and was told there is an outage. WTH?!?! Would have been nice to know the first time I called them! I'm so over today already.

6/16/2016 10:37:59 PM
Had a crazy busy day today. Took the girls out to dinner and some shopping. Wish daddy was with us. I am absolutely exhausted. Time for some much needed sleep and to get to my dream date with my sir. Night all!

6/15/2016 7:57:06 PM
Had a very rough day at work. I can't stand when people wait for you to walk away to start talking about you or making BS comments to other people about you. I'm sorry but we are all grown adults and should act as such. If you have a problem with me then tell ME not everyone except for me. I practically ran to my car as soon as 5 o'clock hit. I feel really bad for my sir because I spent our lunch call venting about work. He truly is my sanity. On top of all that... our nanny is being a total jackass (pardon the language) and purposely trying to start an argument. I am so over today but I am 1 day closer to mine and sirs mini moon... 11 days to go.

6/14/2016 10:12:08 PM
I sit back and think of everything that is going on in my life and I couldn't be any more blessed than I am. I have a man that loves and cherishes me beyond words. A man that is my true soul mate. A man that I couldn't possibly see my life without. A man that, without reservation, has accepted the responsibility of leading our family. I am a mother to 3 of the most beautiful intelligent little girls in the world. I know that they love pushing my buttons but I wouldn't have it any other way. They are my world and I don't know where I would be without them. They remind me every day that I must continue to push on with my head held high. I couldn't ask for anything more than the love I receive from my sir and our girls.

6/13/2016 7:31:17 PM
Oh my goodness... I cannot believe just how much I am missing my sir right now. I feel so alone not being at his side. I need his so much. He makes me whole. I am completely at peace when I am with him. All of my stress and worries just seem to disappear. He is my sanity... my rock... my happiness... my everything. He is the only one that makes my heart race just by looking at me or speaking my name. I can't say enough about what he does to me mentally, physically, and emotionally. I have NEVER been so deeply in love with someone as I am with him. He holds the only key to my heart. I love him. I need him. I want him. F&A

6/12/2016 6:50:51 PM
Took a not-so-quick nap today and I had the best dream ever and of course it was about my sir and I. Picture this... White sandy beach... crystal clear water... just before sunset... us sitting on a blanket wrapped in each others arms. Just sitting back enjoying the breeze and the sound of the waves crashing. I look up at my sir and say "This is absolutely perfect". He smiles at me and replies "Not quite". He takes his phone out of his pocket, puts on this beautiful melody, and while holding out his hand, he asks "Shall we?". I give him a huge smile and reply with "absolutely sir". Once again wrapped in each others arms, we began this slow romantic dance. He leaned down and whispered "now this is absolutely perfect" That's what I woke up 😭

6/11/2016 10:19:56 PM
I have not been able to stop looking at my left ring finger. I know that people see it and think "she's taken" but it's beyond that... I am loved, cherished, owned, protected and yes I am taken... very taken. There is 1 man in my life that is the center of my universe. That 1 bright diamond that stands out among the darkness that surrounds us. The lighthouse guiding me through the thick fog of my life. He is and will always be my everything... To love, honor, cherish, and serve for the rest of my life. He will forever be my sir, master, daddy, husband, and best friend. F&A

6/10/2016 10:54:59 PM
I'm feeling so half and half right now. I am extremely happy because I have an amazing man that loves, cherishes, and adore me. He would do anything 5more protect me from any harm. He strives to make me a better person and pushes me to be my best. And yet on the other hand, I am extremely sad because he had to go home today. I miss him so very much. I feel like half of me is missing. But I look down at my hand and I remember the promise he made to me and it makes me smile. It makes me feel like he is sitting right beside me with his arms wrapped tightly around me. Hearing him whisper "Love you babygirl" and it makes my heart explode. He is my true one and only forever and always.

6/10/2016 7:48:57 AM
I am a VERY happy lil girl right now. I didnt get much time with sir this trip but our time together was absolutely amazing. Nice quiet dinner and then straight home for some much needed alone time. My sir always goes above and beyond to make me feel special and to make me happy. I don't know how I got so lucky to have the love of such an amazing man. He makes me feel like I'm the only person in the world. Looking into his eyes, kissing his lips, feeling his hands on my body is an indescribable feeling. Falling asleep in his arms and being woken up by a swat on the butt is differently something I need and want on a daily basis. He is my one and only. F&A

6/8/2016 9:37:08 PM
Had a busy but good day at work. Got to see my sir for a little bit when I picked him up from the airport. Had my day end on a not so good note. Enough said. Good night everyone.

6/7/2016 10:41:29 PM
Well I am now officially 32 years old. Had a good day full of TONS of birthday wishes and I even got a birthday cupcake and a balloon at work. In past years, my birthday was just another day. My sir is making sure that attitude and outlook are gone from now on. My birthday is special and should be treated as such. It is MY day to feel special. I loved every minute of it. My special birthday celebration won't be until Thursday. Sir and i are getting some much needed time together. In less than 24 hours sir will be home and back in his arms where I belong.

6/6/2016 7:55:54 PM
Had a very long and boring day at work today. There was a rather interesting moment... I almost DIED!!! Not really but I came really close to being seriously hurt. One of the crappy filing cabinets at work had too much weight in the top drawer and it almost fell on top of me. I was pretty shaken up but not hurt at all. I consider myself to be very lucky... luckier than I already am. 😉 The best part of my day was getting to chat with my sir... it always is. Sir brightens up my day no matter how bad it's been. Sir and i chatted a little about my birthday plans for Thursday night. I am so excited. I even bought a new really cute dress to wear. My sir will be home in about 48 hours. I miss him so much. I can't wait!!!

6/5/2016 8:32:08 PM
I was a very busy girl today. I was up at 6am and I hit the ground running. Washed my car, grocery shopped for the week, laundry, and continued my deep cleaning in the house. I am so exhausted. Thankfully our girls helped me out with little tasks. I got to chat with my sir which always makes me a happy girl. What makes me even happier is sir will be home in 2 days!!!!

6/4/2016 7:48:17 PM
Today definitely sucked... our oldest woke up with a really bad migraine and was on the couch all day. The younger two were driving me absolutely bonkers being cooped up in the house. Good thing I had sir to chat with to keep my sanity. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day but it will be full of playing catch up from today. On an even better note... only 3 more days until sir is home. I can't wait to see him. It's only been a couple of weeks since we last saw each other but every time he leaves, it's hurts more and more and the days we're apart seem to become longer and longer.

6/4/2016 8:13:42 AM
Had a good yesterday at work. Got to chat with my sir but no lunch time call. :-( But I am pretty proud of myself. I was able to get my thoughts and feeling out correctly to my sir. I feel better now that our frustration is gone. I feel so much better that I got things figured out and off my chest. The number one reason why I am in such a good mood is that my sir will be home next week... 4 more days! I know they are going to be the longest 4 days of my life... they always are.

6/2/2016 7:07:50 PM
Sir and i had a very frustrating conversation today. It was frustrating because I was trying to make a point about something and it was coming across utterly and completely wrong. It was frustrating to sir because what he was getting out of it was not what I had intended to mean. I need to clear my head and write down what I am trying to say. Writing always helps me get my real thoughts and feelings out. Time to get writing.

6/1/2016 8:30:40 PM
Had a pretty good day chatting with my sir. I was in a very playful and naughty mood today. I kept making naughty comments and hints to my sir all day. What made it extra fun was that he was in meetings while i was doing so. He kept calling me a tease and at one point he even called me a "lil turd" which made me giggle. I love being playful with my sir... I mean that "Tag! You're it!" kind of playful. I could tell my sir was enjoying my playfulness just at much as I was. I am so glad that I can share this part of me with him and not be looked at like I'm crazy.

5/31/2016 10:23:19 PM
It truly amazes me that my sir knows me so well that he can tell my mood even when I'm trying to mask it. It amazes me ever more when he can tell when we are texting. It's hard sometimes when I must fight with myself over how to handle situations. My non-rational 5 year old wants to cry, throw a tantrum, and scream "Not fair". The logical adult wants to assess the situation from all aspects and make the correct decision. The playful pet in me wants just that... to stay up and play. The nonfilter lil J just wants to spit out the first thing that comes to mind. Shes not always the best choice. I must learn to synchronize all of them and keep myself out of trouble. I am so happy that my sir knows all of these "mini mes" and MOST of the time enjoys them (in the correct setting of course) I know that with sirs guidance, they will all balance out eventually.

5/30/2016 8:32:43 PM
Ok so today really sucked... my sir was really super busy today so to keep myself from going completely insane I buried myself in cleaning. I am so exhausted and I know I'm going to be paying for it tomorrow but it kept me busy. I cranked up Pandora and got lost in my cleaning. I forgot how goofy I look when I'm singing and dancing when I'm cleaning. Our girls were cracking up and looking at me like I had lost my marbles. Our youngest didn't mind because she was dancing right along with me. We had a blast. Ok so maybe the day didnt totally suck. Kinda glad sir wasn't here seeing me acting so silly... at least not yet. I know one day he'll see it and give me the same look or maybe even join in... who knows. We shall see...

5/29/2016 11:17:47 PM
Well today was a pretty lazy day... I did however take a big step in the right direction. I am more then ready to tackle this situation head on but I worry about our girls. I know that they are all fighters and very strong be no where near as strong as they may have to be. I know this is going to be a tough time for my sir and i but we have each other to lean on and the combined strength of a freight train. We must keep pushing and we must do it together. Hand in hand and side by side, we can make it through anything life throws at us.

5/28/2016 8:31:01 PM
Another busy day... spent majority of the day running errands and cleaning. Didn't get to chat much with sir due to technical issues. We did however find a solution to our problem and got to chat for a little bit. I miss him so much. We kinda talked about our next mini moon that is coming up the end of next month. I know we both could really use some one on one attention away from everything and everyone. Able to focus on each other and just enjoy being in love. Enjoy falling asleep in each others arms every night and waking up to each other's smiles. Getting sirs "good morning sleepy head" because he has let me sleep in. I can't wait for our trip and getting 3 whole days with him. It is going to be the best... as usual.

5/27/2016 8:50:45 PM
I once heard a quote by the French writer Antoine de Saint-Exupery "Love is not just looking at each other, it's looking in the same direction." This quote rings more true now than it ever has. Sir and i are having to deal with some hard situations right now but together we must push on and move towards out goal. We must continue to fight for what we want and both deserve. Overcoming these obstacles,hand in hand side by side, will only make us and our love stronger. We will not only grow individually but grow as a couple... stronger, wiser, deeper in love. We will have what we've always dreamed of and never take a single day or each other from granted.

5/27/2016 2:12:11 PM
I wake up every morning and know that I am the luckiest girl in the world. I have 3 beautiful perfect little girls and the love of an amazing man. To be completely honest, being lucky isn't even coming close to what I am or how I feel. Saying that I'm blessed doesn't even come close either. It is hard to put into words how I am feeling right now. Almost 8 months ago, I met this man that unknown to me would change my world forever. This man would make me the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. This man would become my everything. The hardest part for me to believe is that this man would sacrifice damn near everything to be with me and the girls. This man is my sir, daddy, master, husband, best friend, lover and he deserves nothing but the very best from me. F&A 2 I&B

5/26/2016 9:21:04 PM
These are the nights I wish sir was home with his girls. Dinner, bath time and cuddle time on the couch watching a movie. Everything is perfect except for we're missing our daddy. These little girls mean the world to me and sir. They give me a purpose in life and without them I know for a fact that I would not be here today. They push my buttons and test my limits on a daily basis but I wouldn't have it any other way. I can't wait to share these times with our daddy.

5/25/2016 10:14:13 PM
Well today was not a very good day. Ended up with a massive headache that just would not go away. I left my lunch at home so I had no choice but to buy lunch. The lunch that I ate made my stomach hurt. On top of struggling to stay at work... my "manager" was being a PITA as usual. I was planning on going to the gym after work but after the day I had, I just wanted to go home. I am so over today. I can't wait for the baby to fall asleep so I can go to bed and dream about the love of my life... my sir. Fingers crossed that tomorrow's a better day.

5/24/2016 8:19:43 PM
I am one very happy babygirl... my sir will be here in 15 days for my birthday. I am so beyond excited that I get to spend more time with him. I am leaving all the planning to him. I know my sir will plan something amazing for us... he always does. I am however a little nervous because sir is going to be a passenger in my car for the very first time. I knew it was bound to happen one day. It's not like I'm a human crash dummy or anything but I am a bit of a speed racer. Sir knows all of this and truth be told... so is sir. It's one of the many things I love about him. Anyways... I already know what I'm getting for my birthday and I actually already have it but I'm not allowed to peek (without permission) or touch it until sir is with me. It's driving me crazy but I am loving every minute of it.

5/23/2016 10:40:09 PM
Had a very busy day at work today but the best part was how it ended. I got to have a date night with sir. I love the talks we have and tonight's talk was about my absolute need for him. My need to please him. My need for his approval. My need to be at his side. I hate being the "needy" type but when it comes to sir, I can't help it. I NEED HIM!!! I crave him. I am beyond addicted to him. Every inch of me, inside and out, belongs to him and him alone. Every minute of every day is spent with him on my mind and in my heart. He holds the key to my heart and my collar. As a proud babygirl, his is mine! My sir... my master... my daddy... my husband... my everything... my forever and always.

5/22/2016 9:11:44 PM
Had a full day of running errands but one of my errands was going to Barnes & Nobles for another book. This time sir picked The submissive by Tara Sue Me. She wrote the last book I read and it was incredible. So far I haven't been able to put this book down. These books make me think of my sir and i. What we have and what we are going to be and I love it. To be at his side every day for the rest of our lives is all I dream about and hope that will soon come true. He is my everything... my sun, my moon, the air I breathe. F&A 2 I&B

5/21/2016 9:35:09 PM
With sirs permission, I decided to chop my hair off. It's a lot shorter than I originally wanted but I absolutely love it. Also got to have lunch and do some shopping with our girls. Needed to get a dress for our 5 year olds graduation next week. They grow up so fast and I hate it. Got to chat with sir in between having to deal with life. I really miss him. I can't wait until our "lives" because our "life". Our girls and I need him home more than ever. We all need daddy's structure, discipline, love, and attention. Having him here full time with us will be absolutely AMAZING. That day will come and our family will finally be complete.

5/20/2016 9:24:26 PM
Well I am beyond exhausted. Busted my butt at work as usual and then took the kids out for dinner and some fun. I figured it was the least I could do for them after what happened last night. I still feel pretty crappy about the whole thing but everything happens for a reason and maybe we weren't meant to go on our trip. I know the kids had a blast tonight and so did I. Wish daddy could have been with us. I miss him so much. I have so many things going on in my life right now and so does sir. (A lot more than me) I am trying my hardest to stay strong for myself, our girls and my sir. Sometimes it's extremely hard to not fall apart but then I think about what sir and i are working towards and I continue to push on full force. He is and will forever be my rock.

5/20/2016 6:24:43 AM
At one point in your life you try and try and try to make something happen and it just doesn't work out as planned. Well that was me last night. It wasn't the fact that I failed at getting it done that upset me. It was the fact that I failed our girls. Seeing the looks on their faces and the tears in their eyes is what killed me. They deserve the very best in life and I just couldn't make it happen for them last night. I still feel so horrible.

5/18/2016 7:38:14 PM
Starting tomorrow sir and i will be back on our usual schedule. My inner 5 year old is still a little on the pouty side because sir isn't home with us. We know that soon our sir/daddy/master will be home with us again. We miss him tremendously. He is our entire world. Everything we do and don't do is done with him in mind. My heart beats for him and him alone. It still amazes me how just looking at his picture makes me feel all different kinds of emotions. It makes me smile because I love him so much. Makes me want to cry because I miss him so much. Makes me get excited because he just so damn sexy. Makes me feel so small because he is my image of power. Makes me feel safe because I know he will always protect. Makes me feel lucky because he chose me to be his babygirl. My sir makes me feel things I have never felt before and I am loving every second of it.

5/17/2016 10:02:37 PM
Another day of going insane missing my sir. My inner 5 year old is really not liking the trip her daddy is currently on. I'm trying to get her to understand that he is busy with meetings and what not but she just won't listen. She has been pouting most of the day and all of tonight. We just miss him so much. We get to chat with him but no where near as much as usual and no lunch time phone calls. We are going absolutely bonkers with out our sir/daddy. I keep reminding her that he will be back home soon and we'll be able to give him all the love and attention he can handle.

5/16/2016 10:39:19 PM
Missing my sir so much right now. Is it crazy that I actually feel physical pain when I'm not with him? It's not the good kind of physical pain either. I know my sir is always on my mind and in my heart but I feel somewhat empty when I'm not with him. Like a piece of me is missing. Every time he leaves me, he takes my heart with him. Whether it's just down the street or thousands of miles away. He truly is my everything. The keeper of my heart and soul. I have a feeling it's going to be a VERY long 3 1/2 weeks without being at his side.

5/15/2016 9:47:19 PM
More time away from my sir only this week he's further away then he usually is. I miss him so much. I miss everything about him... his touch, his smell, his lips, looking into his eyes, the sound of his voice. I miss everything about him... every inch of him. Couple more weeks he'll be home for my birthday and I will be back in his arms where I belong. I am however very VERY excited because I'm getting something special in the mail tomorrow. I can't wait to see it and have it in my hands but I have to be a good girl and not touch it until my sir is home to properly give me my present. 13 hours until I get it and 3 1/2 weeks until it's put in its proper place. I am a very lucky girl to have such an amazing sir to love, cherish and protect me.

5/14/2016 10:40:00 PM
Well today was an emotional day for sir and i. We both had to handle some very hard situations. I'm sure these aren't going to be the last ones we will have to deal with either. I just keep thinking of staying strong, patient, and understanding... not just for myself but for my sir as well. We are going to need each other more than ever as we walk down this portion of our path.

5/14/2016 9:45:16 AM
Yesterday was a crazy busy day. Work was ridiculous and the girls were even worse. Called it quits for the day at about 9:30 last night. Today on the other hand I'm hoping will be a little easier but I doubt it. Today I must face a huge situation that I've been dealing with for the last 2 weeks or so. I'm extremely nervous but with my collar, wearing one of shirts shirts, and recently obtained bruises I will feel very well protected. I will face this demon with my head held high and my sir on my mind and in my heart.

5/13/2016 6:27:35 AM
Well last night was my last night with sir for a couple weeks. I hate when he has to leave. I miss him so much already. As usual, I cried the whole way home. At least we got to have a nice dinner and some alone time to just lay in each others arms among other things. I need him so very much in my life and I need him even more here with me. I need the structure and guidance that me sir provides me. To keep me safe and protected from all harm. To be my sir, my daddy, my beast, my best friend ... F&A 2 I&B

5/12/2016 6:30:30 AM
Yesterday was an amazing day. I got to spend all day with my sir. Our main accomplishment was my dermatologist visit. I am so happy that I got everything done. Since I was a good girl, sir took me out to dinner and and shopping for panties. Of course I modeled them for him. I am so happy to have my sir home and able to go to doctors appointments with me. Being able to spend entire days with him doing regular normal things is completely priceless to me.

5/10/2016 10:22:05 PM
Had a rather long yet interestibg day at work today but it was quickly forgotten butcause the girls (2 out of the 3) and I just got to see daddy for a little bit. I have missed him so much. I can't wait for tomorrow because I get to spend it with my sir plus it's a big day for me. I'm taking care of something I've always wanted to take care of. I am so happy it's finally getting done and I'm even happier that sir will be there with me. It means the world to me having him there for such a big event. I know this will be the first of many big events that we'll share.

5/9/2016 9:16:50 PM
I am so excited!!! This time tomorrow I will be back in my sirs arms where I belong. I miss him so much. I can't wait to kiss those sexy lips of his and feel his arms wrapped tightly around me. I'm also making a special meal for him tomorrow night. Honestly, I'm kinda nervous because this is the first time I've ever cooked for him. I hope everything comes out alright. Fingers crossed!!!

5/8/2016 7:20:36 PM
Had a very emotional day today. I had a very long and emotional talk with our oldest. I said things that I believe she is old enough to hear and understand. We cried and hugged and cried some more. I think our talk helped us out a lot... not only communication wise but for her to be able to know just how much I do and deal with for her and her sisters. I'm hoping this talk opens up new door for us. She has been my co-pilot for years and I'd like to keep it that way.

5/7/2016 11:58:02 PM
Had a very trying day. Our oldest (preteen) was pushing every button with me today. I made it through the madness with my sir being my sanity. I cannot wait until he is home to help me keep our girls in line and become the respectful beautiful women they are meant to be. Speaking of sir coming home... he'll be home (for a little bit) in less than 3 days. I am beyond excited. It feels like forever since I've been in his warm loving arms and kissed those soft lips of his. I miss him more and more each day.

5/7/2016 8:32:42 AM
Yesterday was a crazy busy day and my night was even worse. The girls did nothing but fight all night long and the nanny was blowing up me phone with texts and calls. I was completely wiped out and exhausted. As soon as I got themy to bed, I went to bed. Hoping today is a much better day. Fingers crossed!!!

5/5/2016 10:12:33 PM
Had a pretty busy day at work but got to hang out at home with our girls. Wish daddy were here for cuddle time on the couch. The latest discussion my sir and i are having is making our life together more and more real. It's an exciting yet scary feeling. When I say scary I mean a good kind of scary. My life has been the same day in and day out... that was until sir became a big part of it. The thought of my world being totally rearranged and flipped upside-down is the best feeling in the world. The thought of finally having sir home with his girls is an amazing feeling. I just can't wait!!!

5/4/2016 9:18:58 PM
Every relationship is give and take. Trying to keep everything in balance and fair to both people involved. Recent activities had got me thinking and I've come to the realization that I have not been very fair to my sir. Seeing that our life together is really starting to take shape, I think we need to sit down and have a serious discussion to find our happy medium. I know that we can agree on something together and continue to build our life together.

5/3/2016 10:19:52 PM
Had another amazing date night with my sir. I couldn't pass on one sir sirs stories. I absolutely love sirs stories. They always get me so excited. His stories give me the opportunity to see where my sirs imagination will lead us and every time they have an orgasmic ending. My sir did give me some really exciting news tonight about our next trap. I am so beyond happy to have my sir all to myself. Let the countdown begin.

5/2/2016 8:22:56 PM
I had a pretty uneasy day following last night's events. My stomach hurt majority of the day. I tried to bury myself in my work to take the focus off of what happened. I am so unbelievably thankful to have my sir to be my rock and my sanity... to keep me and our girls safe and protected. I just need to learn how to control the panic attacks. I've somewhat got them under control and I can at least feel when one is coming on... for example right now. Just the mere thought of last night's events is more than enough to push me. My secret weapon against them is taking deeps breaths and thinking of my sir.

5/1/2016 11:15:11 PM
Awesome day with our girl but had an absolutely horrible night... enough said.

4/30/2016 9:18:44 PM
Had a rather busy day but had to be done. I did however finish my book and one of the writing assignments sir gave me. I am so proud of myself. It's funny how I get so excited to do an assignment for sir. First off I love writing and I believe I'm quite skilled at it but to write something and have it read by my sir just makes it all that more enjoyable. It gives me a chance to stop thinking about the normal every day stuff and just focus on one thing. Being able to focus on 1 thing is a whole new experience for me. I've always had to multi-task and it gets exhausting at times. Well I'm off to get our girls ready for bed and possibly start on my next assignment. I can't wait to fin8sh it and have sir read it.

4/29/2016 11:20:33 PM
Having another priceless date night with my sir. I have to be honest, I like and dislike all of his traveling. I love it because we get to have our date nights but I also hate it because I worry about him. He is currently in the process of driving home and it is extremely late. I am very happy I can keep him company during his drive.

4/28/2016 11:38:47 PM
Well today had there ups and downs. I was a bad girl and forgot to send sir his morning picture. I did not enjoy his punishment at all but I did learn a very valuable lesson. Due to this breach there was some friction between sir and I causing me to lose my date night with sir. Sir gave me a task to do to earn our date night back. I completed this task to the best of my abilities considering I was overly emotional due to my disobedience. Sir gave me permission to redo my task over the weekend when my mind is right. But on a better note, I got to share my love of singing with my sir tonight. I very rarely sing in front of anyone unless it is our girls. I am so happy that sir loved my singing. It is something I have wanted to share with him but fear always got in the way. But now that I know he enjoys it, I will be doing it a lot more often.

4/27/2016 11:16:48 PM
Had a rather stress full day but all of that disappeared thanks to my sir. We had another amazing date night. We discussed some new possible adventures for us and sir told me one of his orgasmic stories. I absolutely love he stories. They get me so headed and excited. They pull me in so deep I can almost hear my sir telling me the story and can almost feel his hands on me. I know I'm gonna sleep good tonight. My sir, master and daddy are my whole world and I wouldn't have it any other way. F&A 2 I&B

4/26/2016 10:54:51 PM
Had a very good day chatting and talking to my sir. It really amazes me how I can go from a strong willed 31 year old to a feisty yet obedient 5 year old. I absolutely love the feeling my sir gives me when he becomes the strict yet fair sir I crave. My sir informed me today that he feels that I am mentally ready to more the physical aspect of our relationship and I couldn't be happier. I want and need my sir in every way, shape, and form. He is and will continue to be my everything... to serve and obey... F&A 2 I&B

4/25/2016 11:26:16 PM
Had a pretty good day except for the fact that my phone is acting stupid again. It's all good though because I have a brand new one coming to me tomorrow. Got caught up in my book again. It got pretty heated. Sorry this entry is so short tonight but I must get my beauty sleep or I will be a total hot mess in the morning. Good night all.

4/24/2016 11:13:28 PM
Had a pretty good day. Got to spend some time with my sister this morning and then some time with our oldest. It was a pretty uneventful day which is a new rarity in my current situation. Sir and our girls are the only for sure stable part of my life right now. I did manage to get some reading in tonight. I am absolutely loving this book. I find myself thinking of my sir and it makes me "excited". Makes me wish even more that my sir was here to help me handle that excitement. Time for bed now... busy work week ahead of me.

4/23/2016 11:36:09 PM
Had a good day... no drama... no issues... it's was great. I got to spend all day with our girls watching movies and just hanging out. Now that I'm working I miss seeing them during the week. After everyone was fed, bathed and asleep I got to jump back into my book. To be honest, this book is more than just a story. It has become a tool for me. It is helping me to better understand why my sir has requested certain things of me and it is also a learning tool as well. The sub that is in this book is the sub that I'm finding out that I want to be. It's a little frightening and yet intriguing to me. I want to be the perfect little one that my sir deserves. F&A2I&B

4/22/2016 10:10:13 PM
Happy Friday everyone!!! Again, I had another fantastic day. I got to chat and talk to my sir. I finally got a chance to start on my book tonight and so far I love it. The main character reminds me a little bit of myself except she isn't new to BDSM like I am. I know I will learn a lot from this book and it will only help me grow. Sorry this is so short tonight but I want to get back to my book. :-D

4/21/2016 10:15:16 PM
Had a good day but yet frustrating day as well. My stupid phone was all messed and I was having issues chatting with my sir. I hate the fact the we have to rely on technology to stay in touch. We are so far apart right now and it's our only way of communication. I can't wait to be able to look at his face instead of looking at his picture. Actually being in his arms instead of dreaming of being in his arms. All good things come to those who wait and I'm not afraid to admit that I'm a very impatient little girl when it comes to my daddy. He is my everything. F&A 2 I&B

4/20/2016 8:32:14 PM
Had another good day. Got to chat with Sir a little more today. He gave me a task this morning that I was unable to complete at the time it was due by because it would take the help of a professional and sir agrees. I will complete this task but at a different time. He then gave me a new task that I could complete within the amount of time I had. Sir also picked out a book for me to read and give me the task of reading it and then completing a book report. I picked up my new book tonight and I can't wait to get started on it. I absolutely love the tasks that sir gives me.

4/19/2016 10:51:09 PM
Had an awesome day. So happy that sir and I are back on the same page again. I received my new daily list of tasks and I absolutely love it. Some tasks are ones that I have been doing pretty much since day 1 and some are brand new tasks... regardless of new or old... I enjoy every one of them. Sir even gave me my first "Random Evil Little Task" and I enjoyed every second of it. These tasks definitely give me the feeling that sir was with me all day long. It gives me the feeling of being completely owned which I have longed for. I believe these tasks and my future tasks will only make sir and I have a stronger bond. They will forever and always be cherished.

4/18/2016 6:38:28 PM
I had such a good day. I got to talk to my sir during lunch. We discussed some things that have happened recently and I am so glad we did. I really dislike when my sir is disappointed or upset about something... especially if it's because of something I did. It kills me and I try my very hardest to make things right. I love the fact that we can talk things out and come to an understanding of where the other ones head is at. So many times things can be looked at in different ways. Some seem harmless others seem hurtful. I know that I have been Sir's little for over 6 months now but believe it or not, I'm still getting used to having someone actually care about where I'm going, what I'm doing, what I'm wearing, and who I am associating with. Honestly, I love the idea of keeping my sir informed of his Little's status and well-being but I guess old habits die hard. I am extremely happy and thankful that my sir is understanding and is being patient with me. He told me that he is working on putting a daily, weekly, and monthly task list together for me. We both believe that this will help me get rid of old bad habits and create new more productive ones. I need my sir and his structure in my life. F&A 2I&B

4/17/2016 6:38:54 PM
To love is to share life together To build special plans for two To work side by side And then smile with pride As one by one, dreams all come true To love is to help and encourage With smiles and sincere words of praise To take time to share To listen and care In tender, affectionate ways To love is to have someone special One who you can always depend To be there through the years Sharing laughter and tears As a partner, a lover, a friend To love is to make special memories Of moments you love to recall Of all the good times That sharing life brings Love is the greatest of all I've learned the full meaning Of sharing and caring And having my dreams come true I've learned the full meaning Of being in love By being in love with you.

4/16/2016 10:11:45 PM
Had a good day with my family but today was definitely a day from hell. I busted my hump making sure everything was perfect for our oldest birthday party and of course getting no help from anyone. I know that if my sir were here he would have helped in any way he could have. The party was great and had a blast with the family. Lots joking and laughing. Everything was going good until after the party. I found out someone went behind my back making false statements to my family and asking them to not say anything to me about it. There are 2 things wrong with this situation... first, do not mess with my family or you will severely regret it. Second, why would you try to hide something from someone that involves their family... you'd think that the dump @$$ would be smart enough to know that that person's family is going to tell them. I strongly despise people that feel they have to lie, cheat, and steal to get what they want or they feel they need. These types of people make it extremely hard for honest people to be trusted or trusting. Ok... so I'm done with my rant. Have a good night and thanks for reading.

4/15/2016 7:53:50 PM
Had a very busy day. Today was my first day of my new job and I love it. I didn't get to chat with Sir all that much but we did get to talk during my lunch. As always it was the highlight of my day. My sir has told me many time that he is proud of me and that is all I want. I want to make him a very proud sir/daddy by being and doing my very best. I want to be his good obedient little girl that deserves his love, protection, and guidance. My sir is my everything... F&A 2I&B

4/14/2016 3:38:26 PM
Well the day started out fantastic but then quickly went to shit. (Pardon the language) it's kinda funny that my last post was about not using my filter. Well I learned today that sometimes it's best to keep certain things to myself until the time is right. If it is something important or exciting it must be told to my most important person first. Due to this mistake I have decided to stay off of social media unless it is to post a picture of my girls for my family to see. I will not be posting any type of information about myself, my life, or work. This is privileged information that will only be known by a very small group of people. I will however continue to write my nightly entries here.

4/13/2016 8:41:03 PM
Today was a good day. I made some more muffins for the kids, got some new fish for the kids tank, got to talk to my sir on the phone TWICE. I don't know what it is about the sound of his voice but I love it. It's very soothing and calming to me. I could listen to him for hours. We talked about some things he had me do research on and how my muffins were coming along. Normally I have to have some type of filter when I talk to people but with him, I don't have to worry about that. He loves the fact that I don't have a filter. I know I tell him things he really doesn't want to know but I know he enjoys it. He is my shoulder to cry on and my ear to vent to. He is my everything.

4/12/2016 10:22:20 PM
The last could days have been great but honestly very hard to deal with. There are things that I have to deal with on a daily basis and I thinking it is taking a toll on me. I am my usual happy-go-lucky self on the outside but on the inside not so much. I have gotten to the point where I look for things to keep me out of the house. The person I am currently living with is completely worthless and a total waste of a human being. He lies, cheats, and steals. He complains about everything and yet does nothing about it. The weight of the entire household rests on my shoulders and I am so tired of carrying it on my own. But dealing with this on a daily basis makes me treasure what my sir and I have more than words could ever express. He is a true man that would gladly relieve me of this weight. A man that will truly love, cherish, and protect what is his. He is the light at the end of my dark tunnel. I cannot wait for our life together to be in full swing and finally have a man that I would not hesitate to rely on.

4/11/2016 8:21:41 PM
Had a very good day chatting with my sir. I was told by him that he was very proud of me today. I had an interview today and it went very very well. Sir says that he has a very good feeling about this interview and so do I. Fingers crossed that we are right because this position fits me to a tee. I do want to say thank you to my sir for giving me the strength and confidence to keep pushing when things seem to crumble. Because of him, I walk with my head held high and a smile on my face. I love him dearly for everything he has done and continues to do for me. He is my forever & always.

4/10/2016 9:03:03 PM
Today was a blast. Hung out with the girls and got to rides some rides and have tons of fun. Unfortunately daddy couldn't be there with us but I kept him updated the tons of pictures. Really wish he could have been there to join in the fun. Miss him terribly. I hope it won't be too long until he comes home again. The girls and I want and need him home so very bad but we make it through every day knowing that our daddy loves us very much.

4/9/2016 8:51:56 PM
Had a good day spending time with our oldest for her bday. Didn't get to chat with Sir as much as we would have liked. I miss him like crazy. I know that I seem needy when it comes to my sir but as long as he doesn't mind then let the neediness continue. He truly is my everything. I need to be at him side every day for the rest of my life. I need to be in his arms every night when we go to bed. I need to be his little girl forever. I need him period. To love, honor, and cherish forever & always.

4/8/2016 11:53:06 PM
Missing my sir like crazy. I know that being apart is hard for us right now but it is completely worth the fight. We are going to making it through this and it is only making us stronger. We will be able to concur anything. We have the strength and determination to make our life exactly how we dream it will be. We will have the life we want and deserve. The hardest part is finding your perfect match and we are lucky enough to have found each other. We are forever... we are always.

4/7/2016 11:02:36 PM
Well my time with Sir is over (for now) He is currently in the process for flying home. The last couple days have been absolutely amazing. Seeing him with our girls always bring a smile to my face. I know the we all enjoy our time together very much. Last night and all day today my sir was all mine. Laying in his arms while we slept was the best ever. It is the only place I feel protected, peaceful, and relaxed. In his arms and at his side are where I belong... my forever home. Today was a absolutely perfect. Knocked out a couple of doctors appointments and got in an afternoon nap all with my sir at my side. Had dinner at a little Mexican restaurant my sir found. Good food but the conversation was even better. I loved having my sir with me today. I can't wait for every day to be like that. Fall asleep in his arms and wake up to his smile. I need him in my life. He is my one and only. The only one I will serve and cherish every day for the rest of my life. He is my forever & always.

4/5/2016 11:01:51 PM
Just got home from having an amazing dinner with sir and our girls. We had blast. I know sir enjoys his time with all of his girls. We love him very much. I am so happy to have him home. I have missed him so much. The next 2 days are going to be absolutely priceless to me and I am going to cherish every minute I have with my sir.

4/4/2016 6:40:17 PM
Today was full of ups and downs. My sir is always my up. He got my mind off of things by talking about our plans this week. I am so happy that he's going to be home. I miss him so much. I will be back in his arms in less than 24 hours. I can't wait to feel him close to me and being back in his arms where I belong. Hearing his heartbeat as I lay my head on his chest. Looking into his eyes as he call me his good girl. Every moment with him is absolutely priceless to me. He is my everythung. F&A2I&B

4/3/2016 5:19:48 PM
Today was a great day. I took the girls to a big picnic thing in the park. Bounce houses, face painting, crafts and tons of food. Unfortunately our daddy couldn't be there with us physically but I sent him plenty of pictures. We had a blast. I love having family time with our girls but we won't be complete until daddy comes home. Miss him like crazy! Thank goodness he'll be home for a little while in 2 days. Have to get as much loving in as we can. F&A2I&B

4/2/2016 6:09:09 PM
Babygirl is not a happy camper right now. There was a misunderstanding on my sirs schedule and it looks like he might be flying home a day sooner than I thought. If so then we really will not get much time together. I know my sir will try his hardest to make it happen. The thought of not getting the amount of time I anticipated makes me want to burst into tears. I miss him so much. I have been really looking forward to seeing him and getting our much needed time together.

4/1/2016 10:40:36 PM
Had a great day chatting with my sir. We talked about our plans for next week and where we were going to have dinner for our oldest bday. We also had a big success today. We had been looking for a specific gift that sir wanted to get our daughter and me being the good girl that I am... I made some phone calls and I found it. It's an inside family joke but I know she's gonna love it. Just like me, I know my sir can't wait to be back home with his girls. I miss him so very much. 3 DAYS!!!!!

3/31/2016 6:48:09 PM
Had a very enlightening day. My sir gave me the task of writing a 1,000 word paper on what I think is the perfect pet. This being our newest adventure, I was pretty clueless. I was so fascinated and focused that I got the paper written a day early. I learned so much about things that I would want and things I will have to do to please my sir/master. I have to admit that this path I walk down with my sir maybe be new and unknown territory to me but I am loving every step.

3/30/2016 10:00:08 PM
I've been a very bad little. I forgot to write my journal entry last night and I have disappeared on my sir twice the last 2 days. I know I will be punished for my behavior and I also know that is is well deserved. My sir deserves the very best of me and I have not provided that. I need to get back on track and be sirs good little again.

3/28/2016 8:31:19 PM
Starting to get really antsy. My sir will be home in 8 days and I can't wait! Some of the current situations I'm dealing with I'm finding myself needing him more than ever. Needing his guidance, his strength, and most importantly his love. There have been times when I feel lost and hopeless but then I think of my sir and that he would want me to continue to push on.

3/27/2016 7:51:12 PM
I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter. I know sometimes (especially holidays) it can be hard when you are so far away from the ones you love. Today I couldn't help but to think about my family and how I wished they were here. I thought about my sir and how wonderful it would have been to have him physically here with us. Soon we shall share every holiday and every single day in between together... as we are meant to be... a family. Creating new memories and traditions as well as continuing old traditions. Sharing special moments (even the little ones) together and tresuring every second of it. This great new life is just around the corner and I can wait to get there.

3/26/2016 8:33:59 PM
You know, you never really know when a single moment is going to change your entire life. September 30th everything changed. My life was turned upside down and inside out by a single phrase... "I think I'll keep you". Those words had me confused at first but looking back that small phrase was the beginning of something greater than I could ever imagine. It was the beginning of a path I would travel down with a man that has grown into being my everything. A life where everything makes sense and feels so right. A life with a man I couldn't possibly imagine living without. From such a small phrase to a man that has become my sir, my daddy, my master, my hubby, my lover, my soul mate, my best friend, my entire world... my forever and always. I will forever hold those 5 words in my heart.

3/25/2016 7:40:36 PM
I know the saying goes "Homes is where the heart is". Is it possible to have your heart is 2 places at once? Absolutely! A part of my heart is here with my girls and the other half is with my sir. I need my sir with me. To make my heart whole. To make our home, our family, our life together. To be the Mr. and Mrs. we are meant to be. To be the loving parents our girls deserve. To have the forever love that we both deserve and long for. I also know that people say that patience is a virtue. So we must be patient because nothing comes easy. We must continue to fight for what is ours. Side by side hand in hand my sir and I will continue to fight until that day comes. The day of no more goodbyes... just see ya laters.

3/24/2016 10:16:38 PM
Your lips speak soft sweetness Your touch a cool caress I am lost in your magic My heart beats within your chest I think of you each morning And dream of you each night I think of your arms being around me And cannot express my delight Never have I fallen But I am quickly on my way You hold a heart in your hands That has never before been given away

3/23/2016 9:33:54 PM
Had a very stressful morning. Took my big test and I passed but was not happy with my score. I was very disappointed in myself and felt like crying. But I talked to my sir and he reassured me that he is still very proud of me. I am so happy and blessed that I have my sir to pick me up and dust me off. I know and feel that I am loved, cherished, protected above all. I also know and feel that my well being is Sirs top priority. I am the luckiest bg in the world.

3/22/2016 8:06:16 PM
Another hard day for sir and i... I find myself thinking of him all the time. I also catch myself playing with the lock on my collar. We did get to chat a little throughout the day and got to talk on my drive home. I love when we talk about how our days were and I also love when my sir tells me how I make him proud. I am a little nervous about a big test I have at work tomorrow. I am going to study extremely hard tonight and try even harder to ace it. I want to make my sir so extremely proud. I never want to disappoint my sir... ever!!!

3/21/2016 6:40:06 PM
Today was a very hard day for me. I started a new job and I was so busy doing tests and training that I didn't get to chat with my sir as much as I would have liked to. I miss him so much and today just made me miss him even more. On a positive note, one of my new coworkers said that our girls are absolutely beautiful and my husband is "easy on the eyes". It definitely made me smile. I am so proud of my family. I also got a couple complements on my collar. That really made me smile. I love wearing my collar and am very proud of what it stands for.

3/20/2016 7:46:08 PM
Well today was an ok day... the best part was when I got to chat with my sir. He always know how to make me smile and brighten my darkest day. He is the sun that breaks through the rainy gray clouds. I miss him dearly. I cannot wait to be back in his arms again. He is my everything... my sir, owner, master, daddy, lover, husband, my love. F&A2I&B

3/19/2016 10:42:59 PM
Had a good day. Chatted and talked to my sir today. Sir and I added a first to our book the other day. In addition to my collar, I fulfilled my sirs request of a tail on his lil pet. I love surprising my sir and absolutely love the feeling of being sirs pet. Sir gave me permission to wear my tail today because I wanted to feel the warm soft fur of my tail. Makes me feel like such a pretty lil pet... sirs pet to love, cherish, play with. F&A2I&B

3/18/2016 10:37:45 PM
Its been a long wait but we took a big step in the right direction on Sir's "project"... had the first of what I'm sure of will be many appointments to get myself back on track and 100% healthy again. I know it's going to be somewhat of a long road but I know I have my sir here to keep me motivated and pushing on. I need to do this for our girls, my sir and most importantly myself. I have left myself on the back burner for so long but now it's time to focus on me. What I need... what I want... i want to spend the rest of my life with my sir and I need to be there for my children. I can only accomplish these by taking care of myself. I am so happy to have my sir beside me as i take this path. He is my strength, my rock, and my encouragement... my everything F&A2I&B

3/17/2016 7:02:00 AM
Yesterday was amazing... I got to spend the majority of the day with my sir. We talked about a lot of different things. I got my lap time and my chest time which are my absolute favorite. I even got my collar put on me as well and I absolutely love it! Sir says it looks so beautiful on me. It will forever stay around my neck. I am so proud to be wearing it and to show my love, dedication, and obedience to my sir. He holds the key to my heart, mind, body and soul. Unfortunately last night was extra hard on us... the goodbye. It is the time that I dread the most. The time when I must walk away from my sir. The time when I must leave my sirs side. The time that gets harder and harder to do. But I know my sir will be back and I will be back right where I belong... in my sirs arms.

3/15/2016 10:17:28 PM
Had a great day... the girls and I had dinner with sir. The kids had a blast with him. Watching him talk to them, goofing around with them, and just being daddy to them is a sight that can definitely get use to. I am getting even more excited about tomorrow. I get to spend all day (when he's not working) with my sir and I get my collar put on tomorrow! I can't wait to be back in his arms where I can release everything and just be sir happy babygirl.

3/14/2016 10:45:38 PM
Sir just stopped by to see me and I surprised him with a visit from our youngest. It warmed my heart so much seeing the 2 of them together. The smile on his face and the pure love in his eyes was absolutely priceless. Our girls and I are very lucky to have such a loving, caring daddy. Seeing her in his arms has been something I have been waiting for for what seems like an eternity. I can't wait until tomorrow night when he has all 4 of his girls together. I know it will be absolutely perfect.

3/13/2016 8:38:26 PM
I am so excited... my sir will be here tomorrow night but won't get to see him until Tuesday morning. I am really looking forward to our time together. I am missing him so much. I know you're thinking that it's only been a couple weeks since we last saw each other but for me it feels like an eternity. I really hope that the next 24 or so hours flys by because I can't wait to be back in his arms.

3/12/2016 8:29:27 PM
So I dozed off on the couch for a little bit and I had the best dream ever. My sir and I were sitting on a white sandy beach watching the crystal blue waves crash. There was a lite breeze and the sun was warm. We were just sitting there enjoying the sights and sounds when all of a sudden sand came flying at us. We looked over to our left and there were our 3 girls digging this long trench looking hole. I asked the girls what they were doing and of course, they replied with "Digging a hole mom." Well duh! Then our middle child said "mommy we need something to put in the hole." All 3 of the looked at each other and got this devilish grin. They came running towards us and tackled sir (daddy in this dream). They all started giggling and saying "Let's bury daddy!" Needless to say, daddy was buried up to his stomach with sand. Once daddy got up from the sand, the girls screamed and ran yelling "It's the sand monster! RUN!!!!" Running after them, daddy swooped down and picked all 3 of they up at once. We all started laughing. It was an amazing dream.

3/11/2016 9:03:01 PM
Sitting here in the couch in the dark and all I can think about is my sir. I miss him like crazy. I miss his touch and his arms wrapped around me so much. I miss the taste of his lips. I miss listening to the sound of his heart beat as I lay my head on his chest. I miss the grin he gets when I sit on his lap and I give him the playful butt wiggle. I miss the devilish grin he gets when he sees my brush laying on the bed. I miss the joy on his face when we first see each other... weather we've been apart for minutes, hours, days, or weeks. I miss everything about him. 3 more days until I will back in his arms where I belong.

3/10/2016 9:01:15 PM
My sir... my master... my owner... my white knight... my love... my best friend... my everything. These are just SOME of the things you have become to me. My mind, body, heart and soul belong to you and no other. I have made a forever & always commitment to you and I will continue to uphold that commitment until the day I die. My bond of ownership has been completed and I will not take it for granted. I know I have cause disappointment and I will try my hardest every day for the rest of my life to take that feeling away. You are my f&a2i&b

3/9/2016 11:03:23 PM
Today was a so so kind of day... definitely had its ups and downs. I was fortunate to find a job with what seems to be a great company. I am very proud of myself for landing it but it wasn't all me. If it weren't for the confidence and praise that was given to me by my sir, I would never have been able to walk in there with my head held high. Getting this job is a victory for both of us. I just want to say thank you to my sir for all the support, encouragement, and drive to keep me focused and pushing on. I love you sir very much. F&A2I&B

3/9/2016 8:40:57 AM
First off I would like to publicly apologize to my sir for last night's journal entry. I was in a dark place when I wrote it. It has been brought to my attention that what I said could be misread and those were not my intentions. Thinking about it now (with a clear mind) I don't care if any one reads these. I don't write them for other people. I write them for my sir and him alone. He is the reason I put my heart out there for him to see. To read all the things that I have trouble saying. These journal entries are meant for him and I will continue to write them. Show my sir my heart and to show him just how much he means to me.

3/7/2016 10:41:17 PM
Had an awesome day... I got to chat with my sir while he traveled up until the last hour or so. Lost connection some how... right in the middle of sir telling me one of his stories that I've come to love so much. I hope we are able to reconnect soon. We still have email but its just not thw same. I miss him so much. We shared a lot of things today. I shared my darkest fantasy with him. It feels amazing knowing that I can share these with him and not have to worry about being judged or criticized in any way. It's even more priceless seeing just how much more we have in common... like things we want our of our relationship... things we want to experience together and as a family. The more I learn and discover about him the deeper I fall in love with him... yes, even his darkness. He is and will continue to be my everything. F&A2I&B

3/6/2016 6:02:19 PM
I've been doing some thinking about my sir and I. I love him to pieces and want to without a doubt spend the rest of my life with him. Unfortunately right now our lives have to be kept separate. I can't help but to worry about him. He travels so much and we live so far apart. What if something were to happen to one of us? How would we know? There is only one person in each of our lives (that I know of) that knows that the other exist. I know we really have nothing to worry about but it's still there in the back of my mind. I don't want to go a single day without my sir whether it be chatting, talking, or at his side. He is and will forever be my whole world.

3/5/2016 7:53:51 PM
Pretty easy day... got to chat a little with my sir. It amazes me that with as much as we chat and talk about, there are still subjects that we have not discussed. Regardless of his views or beliefs on things, it would never change the way I look at him or feel about him. He will still be my strong sexy intelligent sir that I love and absolutely adore. In agreeance or not, I will continue to serve him and fulfill his every need. F&A2I&B

3/4/2016 10:41:49 PM
Sir and I had a chat about punishments today and oh my goodness... he gave me an example of what would happen if I continually disobeyed him. It was kinda scary but it turned me on just visualization it. It felt odd that I was turned on by this. The thought of "being in danger" but my sir not letting any harm come to me was an amazing feeling. I know my sir will administer appropriate punishments as needed but I know it is done out of love. For this I love him dearly... F&A2I&B

3/3/2016 11:13:17 PM
Today was a pretty good day. Got to have coffee with my sir and a friend of his. Fought with our nanny. Went to the gym and hit it pretty hard to to all of my frustration and aggravation out. Watched The Good Dinosaur with the kids. Took the kids to pick out fish for their new tank and grabbed some dinner. Spent to rest of the night chatting with my sir. I love chatting with him. No matter what kind of day I've had or what BS I've had to deal with, he always makes things better. Always makes me smile. Always makes me feel loved and protected. Always a shoulder to cry on or an ear to vent to. He is my white knight. F&A2I&B

3/2/2016 9:00:38 PM
I am so excite!!! I got my lock collar today. I can't wait for my sir to put it on me. Of course he will have the only key. Just sucks that I'll have to wait for him to be able to put it on me. This collar will be a visual reminder of just how much I am loved, cherished, and protected. That I have the best sir that a girl could only dream of having. I will wear this collar with pride and show the world that I am proud to be owned. F&A2I&B

3/1/2016 7:30:01 PM
There's so many things That I'd like to say But when I move my lips The words get in the way I've waited for you To come into sight I never thought It could feel so right When two people meet Things are so new But I never thought I'd fall in love with you I felt the instant I walked through the door There is no one else I could ever want more I love you so much I want you to know With only you, sir My true love will show I know in my heart That you are the one Even thought we have only Just begun

2/29/2016 7:17:14 PM
Ever since I was blessed with my sir, I've actually been noticing just how childlike I really am. I still sleep with a teddy bear. I pout when I don't get my way. I bat my big blues and pop out the bottom lip when I want something really bad. I love sitting on my daddy's lap. I can't sleep unless it's in one of my daddy's t-shirts. I absolutely love wearing my footie jammies. Newly discovered... I blow bubbles with my gum. I enjoy acting goofy and just being silly with or without the kids around. It just amazes me that I'm 31 on the outside but deep down I'm really 5. I've never been able to really "unleash" the child in me because I've been to busy being a grown up. Thanks to my sir/Daddy that 5 year old can now be free to play.

2/28/2016 5:26:04 PM
So... on top of being sick I'm starting to have "sir withdrawals" We really haven't had a chance to chat the last 2 days with being sick and all. I am having the hardest time functioning without him. It's almost like being borderline depressed. I miss him so much. He perks me up quicker than any Starbucks ever could. I can't help but to smile and be on cloud 9 when I get to chat with him. My heart beats for him and him alone. My mind can only think about him. My body yearns to be near him. A single touch from him is enough to send chills throughout every inch of my body. The sound of his voice is like laying in a hammock and just listening to the ocean. A thought of him is like curling up in a warm blanket fresh out of the dryer on a cold night. No man has ever had this much of an effect on me and I am loving every minute of it. He is my everything... my whole world. F&A2I&B

2/27/2016 7:10:59 PM
Well today was horrible... I woke up with a fever, chills, full body ache, and a massive headache. I hate being sick. I didn't get to chat much with my sir today either. I wish he could have been here to hold me. I havery zero strength to do anything. I did manage to take our 5 year old to get her hair cut but it was back in bed as soon as I got home. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

2/26/2016 5:27:38 PM
I am missing my sir like crazy. We didn't really get to chat much today. I catch myself looking at our pictures constantly. I can't wait for the days when we don't need the pictures any more. When the only waiting I'm gonna have to do is wait a couple days for his work to bring him home. When I get to see his face before bed and in the morning when I wake up. When a hug or a kiss is only seconds away and not weeks. When we can stand face to face and say how we feel about each other. These are moments I will never take for granted and will forever treasure. We don't get moments like these often enough which makes them all that more priceless.

2/25/2016 10:30:50 PM
Sitting here at home all alone and the house is so quiet. I cannot stop thinking about my sir and what he did yesterday. It showed me just how much I mean to him. I had never dreamed that I would ever find a man that would love me as much as my sir does. I am a very blessed little girl to have him in my life and I would never want to think about my life without him. I could never put into words just how much he means to me and how deep my love is for him.

2/25/2016 2:42:37 AM
You know, love makes you do some pretty crazy things. My sir drove all the way from San Diego to Vegas just to spend some time with me. I can't even begin to express just how special and loved I feel right now. Any man that would drive over 650 miles round trip just to spend time with you is definitely one of a kind. Of course the worst part was having to say good bye but it will be ok. I know we will chat every day and we'll be together again in a couple weeks. I am still in shock that my sir deems me worthy of such a trip. I have never been treated like this by any man and I know it's going to take some getting used to but I am loving every minute of it. He truly is my sir, my daddy, my master, my love, my world and most importantly... my best friend. I am so deeply in love with him that it has become almost unfathomable and it will only grow deeper... F&A2I&B

2/23/2016 8:55:24 PM
I love "date night" with my sir. We may not be together physically but it gives us a chance to talk about whatever we want. Last night we talked about our girls and how things are going to be for us. It makes it feel like our family is already together and I love it. It feels like a husband and wife having a chat before bed when the husband is away for work. The best part is being able to say "good night" and "I love you" right before bed. Hearing his voice on the phone is the best way to end my day and I can't wait until it ends that way every day.

2/21/2016 10:23:28 PM
You know, my sir and I have a lot of great conversations but I have to admit that I love when we talk about our future. Things we want to do or places we want to go as a couple and as a family. New and old traditions we want to pass on to our girls. I sit back and I think about just how perfect our family and our life is going to be. Now I know that there will be some not-so-perfect times that we will have to handle but there is not situation sir and I can't handle together. I also know that having 3 girls is and will continue to be a challenge but between sir and I, we will have it handled. I know with our guidance and love, our girls will thrive and grow to make sir and I very proud parents... even prouder than we already are. I know you're all thinking that there is no such thing as the perfect family or the perfect life but together, sir and I will strive from nothing less. It's time for sir and I to finally have what we've always dreamed of... true friendship, open honest communication, endless pure love, to be cherished and adored... forever and always

2/20/2016 7:18:41 PM
Most people don't think that certain things are important... for example dates. I have always lived off of a calendar or some type of schedule. I guess it's my way of having some kind of control of my life. But I caught myself off guard today. While at lunch with our girls, we passed the restaurant where sir and I had our first official date. The part that caught me off guard was the fact that I remembered the date and what day of the week our date was. I recall the exact date and day of when my sir decided to "keep me". I remember when we finally got to celebrate sirs birthday and christmas. I find it incredible how these dates have become so significant to me. The date that I will always hold dear to me is the day my ownership was completed and our bond was sealed... forever and always.

2/20/2016 10:01:25 AM
Life gets pretty interesting sometimes. You never really know what can happen in the blink of an eye and you can never be fully be prepared for some things. Well last night was definitely a night to learn from. I would like to think of myself as a strong woman but now I'm not so sure. People can push you and push you until you reach your breaking point. You can either snap and go completely psycho or have a total meltdown. Losing mental control, not being able to breathe, and feeling your heart damn near explode in your chest is some pretty scary shit. Thank goodness I have a sir that will stop at nothing to make sure this person never makes this happened again. To keep me and our girls safe and protected at all times. For this I love and cherish him deeply... F&A2I&B

2/18/2016 10:33:07 PM
Started the day in a good mood... unfortunately it did not end that way. I took a drive to help clear my head and get me out of my funk but unfortunately it didn't work. I feel almost lost in a sense. Every now and then I find myself running into a wall that for some reason is heavily guarded. These random walls tend to throw me off causing me to feel frustrated and somewhat helpless. I do not want to press against these walls because it's not in me to force these walls down. I will just wait for these walls to taken down by the person whom built them. Well I'm off to bed and hopefully I will be able to turn my brain off long enough to get some sleep.

2/17/2016 7:25:18 PM
As I sit here on the couch, I look around me and I can't help but to feel like something is missing. I close my eyes and all I can see is my sirs face. I hear him whisper "My sweet one" and I get chills. The thought of his hand caressing my face makes me smiles. I miss him so much. I miss everything about him. I miss how his eyes brighten up when we first see each other. I miss the sound of his heart beating as lay my head on his chest. I even miss the goodbye kisses as I throw my arms around him. I miss having his face be the first thing I see in the morning and the last thing I see at night. I could continue to go on about all the things I miss about him but there just isn't enough time in the universe to cover everything.

2/16/2016 9:19:04 PM
I truly am the luckiest girl in the world. I have the love of an unbelievable man and have 3 amazing little girls. Everything else is materialistic and can easily replace but the love of this special man is irreplaceable... it's one of a kind... the kind of love that is only read about in fairytales. The connection my sir and I have is indescribable. We may be miles apart but I can always feel him with me... in my heart and on my mind. He will forever & always be my sir, my love, my daddy, my master, my white knight, my beast.

2/15/2016 9:17:18 PM
Today was an amazing day because I got to talk to my sir twice today. Regardless of the mood I'm in, hearing his voice makes things all better. Getting to hear him say "I love you" is absolutely priceless to me. I have never been so deeply in love with anyone and it amazes me that my love for him grows each day. He has filled the void in my heart and has made my life complete. He is my everything... the sun, the moon, my world, my universe. He will forever and always stay in my heart and in my mind.

2/14/2016 8:22:59 PM
Didn't get as much time with sir today as I had hoped for. I strongly dislike when "life" gets in our way... whether it's on my end or his. We know that it is going to be tough at times but we also know that it will be worth it in the end. We just need to stick together and continue to fight for what we want and deserve. Each passing day, we are one day closer to having everything we could ever want... our perfect life together with our girls. My sir will have all the love and attention that he could ever dream of. My love for him will only grow and NEVER dwindle. He is and will continue to be my world... F&A2I&B

2/13/2016 7:01:00 PM
I just want to take a minute to say thank you to my sir for everything he has done for me especially the last couple days. He has been the glue that holds me together when I feel like falling apart. He has been my common sense when I feel like I've lost my mind. He has been my compass keeping me on path when the world seems to be spinning out of control. He has been my shelter when it feels like everything is caving in on me. He is my everything... my whole world... from now until the end of time. F&A2I&B

2/13/2016 12:22:15 AM
Today was a roller coaster of a day and not the kind you wish to go on again. I was seriously on the verge of falling apart but my sir held me together. He is my strength when I feel I can't continue. He is my smile when I feel like bursting into tears. He is the arms that pick me up when I have fallen. He is truly my rock. He is always there for me... through the good, the bad, and the hot messes. Him and our girls are the only reason I continue to battle every day. To continue to fight for what is mine. They are my entire world... F&A2I&B

2/11/2016 7:07:02 PM
Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're apart, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete. This love is unconditional affection with no limits or conditions: completely loving someone. It's when you trust the other with your life and when you would do anything for each other. When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them. Their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa. It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up. The feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. Love involves wanting to show your affection and devotion to each other. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them. Love can make you do anything and sacrifice for what will be better in the end. Love is intense and passionate. Everything seems brighter, happier and more wonderful when you're in love. If you are lucky enough to find it, like my sir and I, don't ever let it go.

2/10/2016 10:23:12 PM
Another busy day but I don't mind at all because I had my sir to chat with. Had dinner with a new special friend. We had great food and the company was great as well. We talked about our kids and life. It was very nice being able to be completely honest with someone that knows about what sir and I go through. Someone that knows us both and knows that what we have is special. I love being able to tell someone other than sir just how much I love and care for my sir. How he means the world to me. How I couldn't imagine my life without him.

2/9/2016 7:57:25 PM
Today was another busy day full of running errands and shopping. Didn't get to chat much with her due to the snow back east. I did get to chat with him a little bit which is always my favorite part of the day. I am so excited for tomorrow. There is a lot going on. I get to have dinner with a friend of sirs. I'm hoping I get to learn more about my sir from an outsiders perspective. I know the more I learn about him the deeper I fall in love with him. My goal in life has become to know anything and everything there is to know about him and to make sure that his every need and desire is taken care of. It is also my mission to become his very best friend, his obedient baby girl, his perfect Stepford, his everything... F&A

2/8/2016 7:09:58 PM
So much to do today and I honestly think I maxed myself out on time but I got everything done. Had a great day chatting with my sir and doing my best to make him proud. From what I heard from him was that I make him very proud. It makes me very happy knowing that he is so proud of me. It is my daily and life long mission to make him as proud of me as possible. To not be afraid to say "That is my babygirl" and to make every man want to be him. To have the love, dedication, and strength that our relationship has and continue to have forever and always.

2/7/2016 7:38:06 PM
Pretty easy day... hung out with the girls all day. Made a very yummy dinner and watched a movie. I know most parents think that children should be seen and not heard. Which I agree to a certain point. Our girls know when to be respectful and when they can be loud, laugh and have a blast. Today was a loud kind of day and I loved it. I love hearing our girls laughing and having fun. We spent an hour throwing a nerf ball at each other and laughed about where it hit us or the close calls. I love having fun with our girls. I just wish sir where here to be able to join in the fun but I know those days will soon come.

2/6/2016 8:08:34 PM
Well today was a great day besides having some issues. Sir and I are definitely in for it with our oldest. Attitude for days but we've got it handled. Spent majority of the day chatting with the love of my life. We talked about the kiddos and how we will have the perfect life. It's hard being so far away from him but you know that saying "Good things come to those who wait" and I would wait an eternity for him. There is no other man that could ever come remotely close to him. He is my perfect match in every way and I am his forever & always.

2/5/2016 8:56:16 PM
It has been a very interesting and rough day. Had some unforseen turns and setbacks but it's ok. I feel positive about things because I have a very special man in my life that I know will not let anything happen to me or our girls. I know he will take care of us and keep us safe. His arms will always be there to catch me when things fall apart. He is the reason I dust myself off and carry on with my head held high. He is my positivity, confidence, and strength. My forever & always

2/4/2016 10:06:11 PM
1st day back to work and it was crazy busy but it's OK because I have brand new pictures of my sir and I on my desk. I kept catching myself staring at them and smiling. We look so perfect together... even a coworker agreed. We look so happy but the picture does no justice for just how happy and in love we really are. We have a connection that with NEVER be broken. He truly is the love of my life, soul mate, and very best friend. F&A

2/3/2016 8:55:34 PM
I really hate being away from my sir. I feel like a piece of me is missing. I have returned to "real life" and I am realizing just how unhappy I am without having him with me. No smiling... no laughing... no being able to truly be myself. I smile and laugh with our girls but it's not the same. I am happy when I'm with our girls but it's not the same happiness I feel when I am with sir. There is a big piece missing from my life and it's kills me that I know who and where that piece is but I can't have it yet. I know I must be a good girl and be patient but it's getting extremely hard to do... especially when I fall deeper in love with him with ever passing day. But I must keep my head up and carry on until I have my sir by my side forever & always.

2/3/2016 10:12:25 AM
The last 3 days have been absolutely priceless. Falling asleep in my sirs arms and waking up the same way. Getting that excited feeling when he walks in the door. Laying in bed amd just talking about anything any everything. These last 3 days having given me a preview of what our life together would be like and I absolutely love it! I want to spend every day for the rest of my life with him and no one else. He is my sir and I am his good girl... Forever and always

2/2/2016 8:46:51 AM
Sir and I have crossed over to the point of no return. We have become one and have intensified connection. This experience with him was more than I could every imagine. It was astonishing, astounding, surprising, shocking, breathtaking, awesome, awe-inspiring, sensational, remarkable, spectacular, stupendous, phenomenal, extraordinary, incredible, unbelievable, mind-blowing, jaw dropping, orgasmic and you can't forget AMAZING!!! The love and dedication we have for each other is honestly unheard of and now that we have added this piece to this unbreakable bond of ours; our lives will never be the same. I love him with every inch of me... F&A

2/1/2016 10:17:03 AM
Life is as perfect as it can be right now because I am back in my sirs arms where I belong. Last night was absolutely perfect. We laid in each other's arms and talked about us. The only thing that would make this eventry better i's if we had our girls and we didn't have to part in a couple days. I am absolutely 1 million percent sure that my sir is the man I want for the rest of my life... no other. I know that we have some things to work on and we will overcome those small obstacles. Our relationship has become work every stuggle and we will continue to fight until we have what we want.

1/30/2016 9:00:40 PM
15 1/2 hours to go until I'm on my way to see my sir. I can't wait to see him. The next 3 days is going to be absolutely priceless to me. I'm like a little kid the night before going to Disneyland. I really hope I'll be able to get some sleep tonight. I still have a couple things left to do before I am completely packed and I'll still have stuff I can't pack because I'll need it in the morning. Oh well... it is so worth it. I have to make sure to pack picture of our girls too cause I know I'm gonna miss them terribly. Well back to packing :-D

1/29/2016 6:58:40 PM
Well the count down truly begins... in 41 1/2 hours I will be on a plane to see the love of my life. I can hardly wait to be back in his arms where I belong. It feels like forever since I've heard his voice and felt those strong arms of his. I miss him so much. Although we won't be together the whole time, I will cherish every second of every minute I do have with him. I plan on holding on to him as long as I can and kissing him every chance I get. I hope sir doesn't get sick of me because he is going to be the center of my attention the entire time. I know it is WAY too soon but I'm going to go start packing now.

1/28/2016 7:01:20 PM
Great day chatting with sir... just wish my night ended the same way. I just don't understand how people can be so mean and rude. People just need to learn to keep their mouths shut and not keep pushing someone to their breaking point. If I didn't have the self control that I have I'd probably be in jail right now. I wish my sir was here to make everything better. Just have to keep telling myself that I'll be back in sirs arms in less than 3 days.

1/27/2016 9:43:54 PM
I know I have said this before but I am truly amazed at what D and I have. The connection that we share is unbelievable and it will only grow. The dedication that we have for each other is immeasurable and to be completely honest... unheard of. We are truly blessed to have found each other. I can honestly say without hesitation that we will spend the rest of our lives together. I have found this man that isn't trying to "change me" but encourages me and pushes me to perfect my current qualities and to always be at my best. The praise and discipline he has shown me has made me not only become an all around better person but a better mother to our girls. He is exactly what I need... the missing piece to my quzzle. He will forever and always be my iron fist in a velvet glove.

1/26/2016 10:19:49 PM
Today had its ups and downs as usual but I got to chat with my sir. We only have 4 days until our mini moon and I am getting so excited. I can't wait to be back in my sirs arms. I know it's only been 3 weeks or so but I miss him terribly. I can't stand being away from him. I always keep him on my mind and in my heart but it's not enough. I need to be at his side. I know we can't have that right now but one day we will and everything will be absolutely perfect. Us and our girls togethet forever and always.

1/25/2016 10:30:36 PM
Today was a good day. I got to chat with my sir and we got to have one of our "date nights". We chatted about our trip and how we feel about our relationship. Maybe it just my past luck but I have never met a man that is just that a MAN! My sir has given me a whole new set of standards of what a man should be and how a man should treat his woman. With as much as I still need to learn and experience, he has taken so much weight off of my shoulders. He has helped me remove as much negativity out of my life. With my sir, I know that my life is complete. I will live to be his best friend, babygirl, and stepford forever and always.

1/24/2016 8:31:08 PM
Sir and I didn't get a talk at all today. I'm sure he's probably got some cleaning up to do after the big snow storm. I just hope everything is alright. I've been thinking about him non-stop today. Everything I did today reminded me of him. I went a signed up for the gym. Must keep myself healthy and fit for my sir. Then I went shopping for some miscellaneous stuff I'm going to need for our mini moon in a week. Then I went and got my nails done just the way my sir likes them. When I came home, I put his shirt on and took a nap. I had a dream of waking up next to him. Seeing that smile that I love so much and hearing him say "Morning sweet one" as he caressed my face. I miss him so much and I hope this next week flys by. Now it's time to get our girls in bed and get ready for the week ahead of me.

1/23/2016 6:40:51 PM
Didn't get to chat much with sir today. He was outside fighting the big blizzard that's going on right now. After seeing and hearing about everything that is going on back east, I will never complain about being cold ever again. I couldn't imagine being in 30 inches of snow. I did however get sirs approval on going back to the gym which I know will make both of us very happy.

1/22/2016 10:11:30 PM
Had a day full of ups and downs. My sir and I chatted throughout the day about the weather, one of the girls being sick and some other random things. But my night was pretty much filled with total BS. It just re-enforced the fact that some changes need to be made and I have to be the one to make them. I have decided to do some research and get my ass back into the gym. This decision was not made based on the back that I am unhappy with my weight but the simple fact that I was referred to as a "fat ass". I could honestly give a rats ass about the person that said it but it got me thinking "Is this what other people see? Do they see my weight issues as well?" Now I am bound and determined to show myself, the world and especially this person that this "fat ass" will once again look amazing. When this person sees me at my finest, they will be kicking themselves in the ass and wish they had never said anything in the first place. Don't get mad... get even!!!!

1/21/2016 9:55:22 PM
Had a good day. Got to chat with my sir. We chatted about somethings that I'm curious about and some experiences that I've had. It's amazing that I love the feeling no get when I am completely open and honest with my sir. I have NEVER been able to so open and so honest with anyone ever. We have a connect that most people dream about and it's only getting stronger. My sir is truly my one true love... F&A

1/20/2016 8:18:53 PM
Today was a pretty decent day. I didn't get to chat much with sir because of us doing other things but we did chat about our mini moon. I am really looking forward to this trip. Not because it is a getaway from reality but because I get to be with my love. His face will be the first thing I see in the morning and the last I see at night. I'll get to sleep in his warm protecting arms. Lay my head on his chest and hear his heart beating. Hear him call me his babygirl. These are all the things I want... all the things I need and I can't wait!!!

1/19/2016 10:21:24 PM
Another busy night with the kids but I got to chat and share the night's craziness with my sir. All in all it was a very good night... just wish my sir were here to cuddle with me. I miss him so very much :-( Only 11 more days until our mini moon :-)

1/18/2016 5:52:00 PM
I don't think you will Ever fully understand How you've touched my life And made me who I am I don't think you could ever know Just how truly special you are That even on my darkest nights You are my brightest star I don't think you will ever fully comprehend How you've made my dreams come true Or hot you've opened my heart To love and the wonders it can do You've allowed me to experience Something g very hard to find Unconditional love that exists In my body, soul, and mind I don't think you could ever feel All the love I have to give And I'm sure you'll never realize You've been my will to live You are an amazing person And without you I don't know where I'd be Having you in my life Completes and fulfills ever part of me

1/17/2016 8:48:25 PM
Today was a pretty lazy day but had another movie night with the kiddos.... movie of choice? Frozen! The younger 2 absolutely LOVE this movie. We even went a little crazy and got into a popcorn fight. I know I'll be finding popcorn everywhere for the next couple days but it was so much fun. I love hanging out with our girls. Wish daddy was there to join in the fun.

1/16/2016 7:04:25 PM
You know you've found your one true love when just thinking of them makes you smile. When everything around you reminds you of them. When your heart starts racing when you get a message from them. When you can talk to them all day and never run out of things to say. When even in your darkest moment they are the light to guide your way. When you're miles apart you can still feel their arms around you. This is my sir. He is my one and only. My love, my world, my everything.

1/16/2016 9:07:35 AM
Didn't get a chance to my journal last night. I was have way too much fun with my girls. I took them down the see the conservatory at the Bellagio. They love seeing all the flower and the different decorations. Then it was home for dinner and a movie. We all hung out in our jammies and had a blast. Just wish daddy was with us. Having him here with us would have made it absolutely perfect.

1/14/2016 9:07:20 PM
My heart is whole again. My sir and I chatted today and we are more in love than ever. I'm happy when my sir is happy. My promise to him is to forever and always love, cherish, and obey him. He is the owner of my heart, mind, and body. He is my one and only. The rest of my life I shall be dedicated to him and him alone. Words cannot express how deep my love is for him. We also chatted about our mini vacation that is only 17 days away. I cannot wait to have my sir all to myself. To cuddle in bed with him. To go out and be on his arm. Showing everyone just how proud I am to be his.

1/13/2016 10:07:35 PM
Well it looks like I messed up and now my sir is not happy with me. I feel so heartbroken right now. He said that he doesn't think I'm ready yet which felt like an extremely hard punch right to the chest. Reading those words I instantly teared up and honestly, cried on the drive to get my hair cut. I hate when my sir isn't happy with me. His unhappiness and the fact that I caused it is killing me. I am going to be on my very best behavior from now on and promise to tell my sir everything... even the small stuff.

1/12/2016 7:25:34 PM
I know I was excused from my journal entry tonight but I have to share something with all of you... 3 1/2 months ago I first met my sir face to face. We were both looking for a much needed distraction from the real world. Little did we know, we would be starting something we had never dreamed possible. Within such a short amount of time this "mystery man" has become my whole world. Not a minute goes by when I don't think about him. He truly holds the key to my heart. He has become so many roles in my life... my sir, my daddy, my love, my best friend, my forever & always. I am truly blessed to have him in my life and will always be grateful that fate brought us together.

1/11/2016 6:02:12 PM
Today was a very good day considering the fact that it was Monday. I got to chat with my sir today which is always my favorite part of the day. We talked about moving to the next step in our relationship and I couldn't be happier about it. It is the point of no return. The point at which we will fully give ourselves to one another. I will be his in every way, shape, and form... heart, mind, body and most importantly soul. All that I am and ever will be will belong to him. I cannot wait to take this next step with my sir and become one. F&A

1/10/2016 9:44:54 PM
Well today was the typical Sunday. Running errands, doing laundry, being the domestic goddess that I am. I did get to chat with my sir here and there which is always the highlight of any day. I did find some time to sit down and work on a couple different projects but for some reason my need to write was stronger. So here is what I came up with and yes it was inspired by the love of my life, my sir, my daddy. Because Of You Because of you My world is now whole Because of you Love lives in my soul Because of you I have laughter in my eyes Because of you I am no longer afraid of goodbyes You are my pillar My stone of strength With me through all seasons And great times of length My love for you is pure Boundless through space and time It grows stronger every day With the knowledge that you'll always be mine Anything and everything for you I shall do For I have it all now and it's because of you

1/9/2016 11:04:24 PM
I have been doing some thinking since my punishment the other night and I know that I had clearly crossed a line with my sir. In my life I have always strived to do and be my best. I try the be the best mother and provider for my girls. I try to make myself a valuable asset to my coworkers and managers. I continue every day to push myself to do my best at these tasks. I have made many mistakes in my life but that is how you learn and grow. The newest task that has been laid in front of me is to be and do my best for my sir. The best baby girl, sub, slave, wife that he deserves. Each day I learn and grow just as my love and respect for my sir grows. I know as time passes I too shall be and do my very best for my sir and it too shall become second nature as it has with home and work. My sir deserves the very best of everything in life and I shall be the one to fulfill his every need and desire.

1/8/2016 11:32:39 PM
The day my sir leaves is always the hardest but at least I have his shirt to sleep in and his sweatshirt to keep me warm like he does. The existing sting of last nights spanking is a friendly reminder of him and thankfully that will SLOWLY fade. I miss him terribly. Every time we part it gets harder and harder to say goodbye but I know that one day there will be no more "goodbye" only "see you later". Those are the days I yern for the most. To always be at his side with our girls. To sleep in his strong warm arms. To hear "I love you baby girl" in his soft caring voice. Those are the days I cannot wait to have. That is when my life with truly be complete. That is when my sir and I will become one... forever and always.

1/7/2016 11:29:36 PM
Well tonight was my last night with my sir. It'll be another 3 weeks before we see each other again. But we had an amazing night together. We went to dinner and talked about so many different things. We learned so much about each other and have fallen deeper in love. I did however get my first official punishment for being dishonest with my sir. The spanking I received hurt like hell but I know sir did it out of love and to teach me a lesson. I want to thank my sir for setting me straight and putting me back on the right path. Your baby girl will NEVER be dishonest again and I will be his... forever and always.

1/7/2016 8:30:44 AM
Didn't get a chance to write last night because I was busy spending some much needed time with my sir. I have missed him so much. Laying next to him feels like home. I was in pure heaven last night with my head on his chest listening to the beating of his heart. The sound of his voice makes my heart skip a beat. Looking into his eyes makes me feel beyond loved. The touch of his hand on my skin makes me melt every time. He is my sir, my master, my daddy, my love... forever and always!

1/5/2016 8:43:31 PM
I am so excited!!! In less then 24 hours I will be right where I belong. I will be back in my sir's arms. I have missed him so much. I cannot wait to back at his side. I really don't know how I'm going to get to sleep tonight. I think am about as excited as a 5 year the night before Christmas. My time with my sir is absolutely priceless to me and I am going to enjoy every minute of it.

1/4/2016 6:49:00 PM
Today was a crazy day. My sir had a bit of a situation he had to deal with today and I am so glad I could be there for him. Seeing that he trusts me enough the share things like this with me means and says a lot to me. Life is full of ups and downs... there is no one else I'd rather ride this crazy roller coast with than him. Together we can handle anything.

1/3/2016 5:57:39 PM
I don't feel much like writing this tonight. I have so many different feelings running through me right now. I feel lost, confused, slightly frustrated, clueless and down. I hate feeling like this. I really hope tomorrow is a better day... a much better day. I love you sir...

1/2/2016 8:19:16 PM
Today was an amazing day spent shopping and lunch with our girls. Got to chat with my sir today and he shared something with me that I will forever treasure. Every single thing I learn about my sir is absolutely priceless to me. It shows me just how much my sir cares for me and trusts me to let his guard down. The more we learn the stronger our bond becomes. I feel unbelievably honored to be that one person for my sir.

1/1/2016 11:01:36 PM
Very big lesson learned this morning. One may think that 1 single word can have very minimal to no impact... oh boy was I ever wrong. The word "nevermind" has forever been removed from my vocabulary. My sir educated me on just how disrespectful this word can be and I am forever thankful for the enlightenment. With his stern yet gentle hand he shall continue to teach and guide me. Thank you sir for all you do.

12/31/2015 6:38:14 PM
I feel so lost and heartbroken right now. I disobeyed my sir and this action cause my sir to cut off our conversation and leave me for the night. I came home from work and crawled straight into bed but I can't fall asleep because I can't stop thinking about how I was a bad girl and caused my sir to leave me early. I guess I will continue to lay here in the dark and think about my actions.

12/30/2015 8:55:16 PM
Forever and Always When I'm with you Eternity is a step away My love continues to grow With each passing day This treasure of love I cherish deep within my soul How much I truelt love you You'll never really know You bring a joy to my heart I've never felt before With each touch of your hand I love you more and more Whenever we say goodbye Whenever we part Know I hold you dearly Deep inside my heart So these seven words I will continue to hold true "Forever and always, I will love you!"

12/29/2015 9:24:00 PM
As each day passes I get more excited... excited because I'm 1 more day closer to seeing my sir and 1 more day closer to our mini vacation together. It seems like FOREVER since I have been in my sir's arms. Even though we talk everyday, I miss him terribly. Words cannot even begin to express how much I miss him. He is my heart, my soul, my everything.

12/27/2015 7:13:28 PM
Every day is a good day when I get to chat with my sir. I love when we talk about what lies ahead of us and all the possibilities. Throughout my life I've never really believed in finding that one person that makes you whole or the fairy tale happily ever afters. And I know this may sound a bit corny but I believe that I am one of the luckiest girl in the world to have found my white knight in shining armor. Sent here to rescue me from all the drama and negativity that surrounds me. I know that once all is said and done, I will feel even more safe and protected at my sir's side. In his arms is where I will forever and always be.

12/26/2015 7:55:12 PM
I want to take this time to say that the last couple days has made me realize just how much my sir really means to me. Setting titles aside, he has become my everything. My first thought in the mornings and my last at night. I cannot think of going a single day without hearing from him and being apart is hard on both of us but I know that he is always in my heart and on my mind... as I am his and his alone. Even though we may be miles apart, I always keep him with me and keep a smile on my face. I can't wait to be back in his arms where I belong.

12/25/2015 8:38:19 PM
Many miles under our belt today. Too much to count. Time to get some much needed rest but all in all it was an amazing day. Just wish my sir could have spent it with us. Good night everyone

12/24/2015 6:22:52 PM
Good food and laughing with the family... only thing that could make this night perfect would be to have my sir here with us. Missing him like crazy. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone!!!

12/23/2015 9:26:33 PM
The end of the day has come and I am wiped out. Did day 1 of Christmas with our girls tonight. They were all so excited. We wish daddy was here with us but i made sure to take plenty of pictures for him. Wish my sir was here to cuddle with me and fall asleep in his arms. I miss him so much... his touch, his scent, his voice, his everything. Soon enough we will be back in each other's arms. Well it's bed time and I can't wait to have one of my dream dates with my sir. Good night everyone!

12/22/2015 9:33:44 PM
I had the best ending to my day today. My sir sent me a surprise with a very heartfelt card. I was in complete shock but had the biggest smile ever on my face. I couldn't stop smiling... I'm still smiling as I type this. I can't help but to ask myself how did I ever get so lucky to finally find my perfect sir. A sir that has become so much more to me than a sir. He is my love, my protector, my mentor, my best friend, my everything. I love and cherish him dearly. He will forever stay in my heart. My one and only.

12/21/2015 7:12:46 PM
Today was an amazing day. My sir and I learned so much about each other. Every day we continue to grow individually and as a couple. We have open our hearts to each other and have begun to bare our souls. I know that it is extremely hard to talk about ones deepest darkest secrets but it must be done in order it fully understand and trust another person not only with your love and with your safety as well. My sir and I have taken a very big step in the right direction and it will only bring us close together. I deeply appreciate everything my sir has shared with me. I will treasure it forever.

12/20/2015 9:26:30 PM
Had an amazing day... chatted with my sir and got to hang out with our oldest. We had lunch and did some shopping... she was even serenading me in the car on the way home. I love the fact that my sir strongly encouraged that we take our girl time. I know it pleased sir to hear about all the fun we had. I am one lucky babygirl!!!

12/19/2015 8:39:10 PM
Had a good day chatting with my sir. No matter what kind of day I am having all I have to do is think about him and it makes everything better. He truly holds the key to my heart. He is my love, my sir, my everything. I could not see my life without him in it. I am a very lucky girl to have become his chosen one.

12/18/2015 11:18:42 PM
Good day... very bad night... Wish my sir was here to make everything better. I miss him so much!!!

12/17/2015 9:36:54 PM
Well to was interesting... had a short but big meeting today at work. Hopefully this will get some things moving in the right direction. I got to chat with my sir today as well which is ALWAYS my favorite thing to do. We talked about random things. One of the main subjects was talking to my sir about a friend of mine and asking if I may spend some time with my friend. Yes my friend is a male. It took some explaining on my part but I know my sir is confident that he is my one and only. My sir has my mind, body, and heart forever.

12/16/2015 9:46:49 PM
Today was a great day. Sir and I chatted about a new project that we're going to work on. I am really excited to be able to help my sir fulfill this dream of his. I hope this won't be the only dream of his that I help fulfill. Tonight was amazing. Our oldest daughter had her first orchestra recital and she did fantastic. I couldn't help but to tear up watching our little girl. I wish sir could have been there. We are beyond proud of her.

12/15/2015 7:01:59 PM
Today was a very interesting day for sir and I. We were able to start a very long conversation. We have a lot of thinking and planning ahead of us but I know that we will work this out. We already have the makings of an inseparable bond and we can only grow stronger from this point. As long as we have honesty, trust, communication and dedication we will be unstoppable. We will become that power couple that is envied by all. Hand in hand we will build our perfect life together. My sir has my heart, my mind, and body... no one shall stand between us. All in all it was a good day for us.

12/14/2015 7:23:24 PM
Well today was the typical Monday but it doesn't matter because I got to chat with my sir. We talked about my collar space page and messages. He actually got the opportunity to read my correspondence with another sub and I think it helped him realize just how much I love him and how dedicated I am to him. We also talked about our mini vacation. I'm so excited to have my sir all to myself for 3 whole days/nights. He even surprised me with a phone call. I love his phone calls. The sound of his voice just does so many different things to me. Makes me happy, gives my chills, feel cherished. They are always the highlight of my day. Had a consultation today after work for some minor work I would like done then off to a parent teacher conference for our 5 year old. No surprise there... her teacher said she's doing amazingly. She's unbelievably smart but she needs to work on her writing and size of her letters. All of that will come in time. Sir was very happy to hear all of the praises that her teacher had to say. We are one set of VERY proud parents. For some reason my sir seemed a little off tonight and kind of short with me. I get a little nervous when he's like that. Hopefully it's just because he was tired. Well tomorrow is a new day.

12/13/2015 7:54:40 PM
It's been a very busy day full of running errands and getting my "To Do" list knocked out. Got to chat a little with my sir today which always brightens up my day. I had such a wide spectrum of things on my list and I love it. First some shopping, got some pricing for my sir's "pet project" then came home to fix our nanny's headlight. Then I got to spend sometime on myself doing my hair so I always look my best for my sir. Rest of the day was spent finishing Holiday cards, laundry, and hanging out with our 3 beautiful little girls. It's been a very long day but thinking about my sir just makes it so much more easier to handle.

12/12/2015 2:34:57 PM
I am so happy that I got to chat with my sir today. I dread the days when we don't get to chat as much as we'd like. I deeply cherish every second of every minute that I get to connect with him in some way. I have learned so much from him these last couple weeks. I have learned that he does cherish me a great deal and my well being is his number 1 priority. He has shown me many things... good and bad. Things that I did not want to see but by opening my eyes to these it has made me a stronger and more confident person. Words could not express how grateful I am to him for this. I have learned that I can place all of my trust in him without any hesitation. He has challenged me in many ways and yes, i have made mistakes but he is very patient yet stern with me. I know that I still have a lot to learn but that will all come in time.

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 Mistress, Age:  45
 New York City, New York
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