It's been quite some time since I've updated... I'm a bit behind schedule, but I'm almost done. So my year is going to be a little bit more than a year. But I'm alive, so no worries everyone!

I'd like to post updates on what I've been up to, but my publisher (who I met on CM actually) insists that I don't and save it for the book. I was home to celebrate the new year with my boyfriend, this upcoming monday, I'm heading out again.

Little bitty updates... I have gotten pregnant 3 times in the past year, and miscarried each one. Dont tell me you're sorry, I'm over it now, I was half sad and half relived, because I don't know who the fathers were each time. I pretty much expect that I'll be pregnant again when this is over with.

I've both enjoyed and hated this journey, and I've learned a lot about myself. I began this as an experiment, something to learn about... I've learned that I actually don't want this to stop. I want to continue to meet more people, and be their plaything for a short while, then move on to another. I do feel like this is something I'm going to do regularly.

I came into this being very shy, now I don't care who sees me, touches me, or uses me. I don't really see my body as mine any longer... I see it as an that exists to please others. I am not my body, I live in my body, but it isn't me. I've sort of grown into masochism... which is interesting. It's not something I thought I'd enjoy... in fact, the pain at first was the worst part of this... and there's a few more months of it to come given how behind schedule I am... but I've started to look forward to the pain as much as the humiliation. Maybe it was a way of my body sort of adapting to the situation... constant pain while being sexually stimulated? Well... might as well learn to enjoy it!

I've done embarrassing, humiliating things... things I'll never be able to live down... I've had photos of me posted online, sent to friends, etc... And yet... I want more.

I've made "friends", both masters and other slaves around the country. I've met amazing people, and absolutely terrifying and evil people. I've had things done to me that give me nightmares, that also end up running through my mind when I find myself aroused with nothing else to do but enjoy my own company.

And through this all, no one in the world has been as supportive as my boyfriend, who has encouraged me the entire time, and put up with every bit of it... Also, I'll be posting a little teaser photo, likely the one I'll be planning on using for the cover of the book. It shows what has become a pretty normal state of my body... bruised and beaten.

Holy shit.... it's been a while. 2 months since I've been home. I've tried checking messages when I can but there's so many, and so little time to reply.

There's lots to say, and a lot of people have been asking for updates on my excursions.

I'm glad there's so much interest.

I'm home again for another week to relax. The past 2 months have taken a lot out of me.

The last person I visited gave me a task to complete. I've got a guessing game, anyone who can answer the correctly get's put on the list of people I'm visiting, even if you're in a state I've been to already. You'll have me for 1-2 weeks, your call.

Okay... Prepare yourself!

You ready? Alright... How many men have I had sex with since January 1st? You can apply a little bit of deduction to it, but that won't quite be enough.

Good luck!

And by the way, I won't answer if you get it wrong, don't want to give anyone the chance to cheat with their friends or alternate profiles or anything!

Don't worry everyone, I'm still alive and still meeting people. Shit has been ridiculous lately. And it's been pretty rough...

Thanks for all the concern. I knew what I was getting into when I started though. And there's no backing out for me.

Short little break, need to pick out an outfit before I head out... blah. I'm exhausted, and so so sore.

Back home for a week before I head back out.

Three weeks in... 2 visits down. I'm not going to lie, this is rough. I'm pretty close to broken already. I've learned a lot already, and written down plenty of thoughts. Compiling this all together is going to be equally as difficult. I can already feel it.

Do I regret what I've done? no... but I'm sore... everywhere. And I've cried more in 3 weeks than the rest of my life combined.

This is so much different from everything in my life up to this point.

Do I want this as my life? I'm not sure yet. But I'm going to keep going. 

no breaks for me by the way. If anyone local wants to get together this week, let me know. First come first serve though.

Heads up, no condoms allowed. If that's not cool with you... well, sorry. :(

I am leaving for my trip in a few days. Those on the list, you know when it's your turn. So see you then! :) I'll be on here much less. So I'll reply when I can.

First local person to message me gets to fuck me tonight. You must be willing to cum inside of me, and take pictures.

All runners up get a consolation prize.

Totally stealing this idea from someone else on here, but here it goes... I want to play a game. The winner of the game will get me all to themselves to use for a week.

If your interested in playing my game, let me know. :)

I leave the meet the first person to abuse me on January 5th. 2 weeks there, then on to the next. I have 2 months to get prepared, and find ways to break myself in. Opinions welcome there.

I could use a list of backups for each state in case anyone backs out so I don't have the ame bullshit I had last time I tried to start this. So if you're interested, let me know. Remember, the more twisted and fucked, the more interested I'll be.

Soooo... I'm bored and can't sleep and thought "Hey Fatima, you should do something stupid tonight." So I decided I'm going to go out dressed super slutty tonight and kind of get a feel for what's in store for me come January... But then I chickened out... lol so any ideas?

Gah today was such a long day... I need to take my mind off of things. Anyone have any ideas?... blah :(

So quite a few people either bailed or got sketchy when it came time to make plans. So I'm still looking for more people. Don't be shy! :)

Because of some personal stuff that came up, I had to delay my trip. I'm planning for some time this year to begin meeting people, I want to thank everyone who so far has "signed up" for being so patient.

 I'm still taking on more people to meet up with by the way, so don't feel like it's too late.