NO fun....

mmmm mmmm mmm my mind is turning me on too much! 

Wanting more and more ..... no sex in almost two weeks ... or beable to touch myself... ugh

What a dirty bitch only want to have submission cuckold relatioonship then makes me feel used! 

mmmmm dirty ideas crossing my mind. They are so very dirty.. I cant imagine any sub wanting to endure what I can dish out! I am going to build stocks for a submissive! Yes!

I just want my pussy and ass worshiped! 

Seems to me the contract is void! I guess so be it!

I am a small lady and it is easy for this bull to overpower me. He is quickly and swift about binding me and placing an open mouth gag in! His intentions are plain. I know is is going to use me like a whore and degrade my girly pet cuckold! 

I am thrown onto the bed to watch as my sissy toy is drug to the bathroom. His puppy eyes tell me he is unsure but his cock says he likes the abuse! I hear a few bumps and muffled groans then a steady stream. I can now see in the reflections of the glass bitch bois head is in the toilet and my bull is pissing right on him! 

So that naughty idea the bull wants to try! 

I was told to advise my pet that we have a special night going on and I got us a hotel room! I give the orders to bring the stuff to our room which I already obtained! I give him his key and send him to his fate. 

I have not told pet at this point that anyone else will be involved ;)

As he opens the door to the room he is jumped and forced into ropes. His cuckold mouth gagged and left in the dark conner. I am sure this would throw him off not expecting it. 

As I enter the room I greet our unknow visitor with a smile and kiss! After that noth but a real alpha man making me submit to his real and amazing cock in front of a lil bitch! 

MMMMMM I cant wait to write here in a bit! I have the most awesome idea! SO HOT! 

This dirty girl is in a good mood today! Feeling very horny! 

All I know is I am fucking horny! I know my pussy is yearning to cum so hard! 

Sex is such a great medicine and I have until sunday until I can! Talk about the universe playing a role reversal! LMAO! 

I guess I will just have to imagine the sick little things my head comes up with! 

ugh I should have known better! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=vW-SN4mmhtc

For sure feeling naughty tonight! I have been talking so dirty with a bull the last few days! The only thing missing is a cuckold submissive. I again mention the ring of power! I love the exchange. I can not wait until I am back to my old self again! Just a lil while longer and i will have this kid and be back to my old self! 

Those of you who follow on my cam know I am very preggo! It has been fun and made for new tried things! I was surprised at how many men out there like that!I had been asked out many times and been with a few bulls at my ex cuckolds house! Amazing fun to have your pussy filled with cum and to force sissy boi to eat every drop!

Ahhhh well soon! 

I have to say very pleased about the amount of toys I have! The years have been good to my freaky side. I am so so looking forward to using them. All of them and my new rope skills too! 

On a more positive note I got a buttplug tail that I am excited as hell to make submissive wear. I am in love with this new toy! 

It would be so fucking nice if the temp sub I was using could follow the rules! It also would have nice to know about your trips out of town before last moment! I am feeling used by this lil slut! Never saying thank you for journals , hence the less posted!  Reading mesg and not responding..hum! I dont think punishment is in order. I dont have my glory hole box yet either. 

I guess I need to make plans for the next few weeks. Or I need to find an online slut for use. 

ONly a few more days and I will be off bed rest. I am so excited for this! I cant wait to be back to my normal self again! Hoping to get my nails done and feel like a queen AGAIN! 

Looking for proof real subs are out there! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r24_T-HOcyg&feature=player_detailpage&list=PLa8fLALJ7mobE552Ny0V61m3yz95zQLaw

I need more and more .....  I need it now! I want it all!   Fuuk all the games ... this is for real! 

Now what? What? I'm taking control
I get what I want
I  do what you don't
Dirt and glitter cover the floor
I'm pretty and sick
I'm young and I'm bored
It's time to lose your mind and let the crazy out

Promiscuous girl
You're teasing me
You know what I want

 I'm a big girl I can handle myself
But if I get lonely I’ma need your help
Pay attention to me I don't talk for my health

I’m only trying to get inside your brain
To see if you can work me the way you say

I tried to let it go,
But I'm addicted to your chemicals
I got a taste, I want an overdose
I love the way she gets so physical
Fucks like an animal

Still waiting on my thank you for reading my journals from someone. Punishment and maybe i should find a new unknow blog so you cant see em! 

I want to ride and fuck a huge cock right now. I am so horny my pussy is soaking! MMMMM fuck i want more than one cock! 

Been so busy all day...my legs are so so very sore! MMMM I am think very sick for the weekends plans! My mind is progressing further, deeper , and darker! I love the the idea the I have such perversion that I can not admit it to all. Also for reason not to be mentioned I can not always reveal all of them at this time. I would never want to feed the slave my ideas I would only like to mention in passing. I like to allow someone to grow into their own thoughts. (or so they think) 

The pink cage is back ......

Contract broken! Wonder what kind of punishment I could dream up in that case!!!

This weather makes me so horny! I love it! I will have to finish that journal entry! 

A dark candle lit room is prepared for mistress. The Romantic dinner table is set for two. She has had sissy working hard for this special night! The tasks have not been easy to complete due to the spreader bar and gag. Such a foolish feeling drooling over your sissy clothes all day! 

Mistress has been preparing herself with great care. She emerges from chambers so wickedly beautiful it makes the knees weak. A goddess of power and balance engulfs the room. Sitting on his knees with his eyes on the floor awaiting her approval of his work. He knew he would be withered on the floor in pain if it was not to her standard!

This time he took special care in his work was rewarded. At last the gag was removed and her soft lips touched his. His body overcome by goosebumps as he was not often touched in this manner. Mistress knew it was a perfect time to reveal her plans for the evening ... 

While leading him on leash to  the stockade she informed him that her new bull would be joining tonight. Mistress's evil smile and devil eyes  could almost tell of what was to come. Had she found someone as limitless as her? 

Sissy cuckold boi would spend the duration of dinner locked in the stocks. His balls weighted to cause just enough pain to keep his lil clit soft...... 

more to come soon......

I am very dirty today! 

I would have you crawling all over for me. No pet should be allowed on two feet. My lil pet should know his place and fall to the floor. A lil bitch pet should feel lucky to eat at my feet.

I see you are forgetting to thank me after reading my writings! Hum.......

I love my job they are so understanding. I have off half the day tomorrow and then off until Friday. Having a party that I have had no time to get ready for...but now I do!  Wishing I had a full time sissy to do my dirty work. I am sure no matter how degrading this Mistress is worth it.  

I would love to be sitting on the couch with a bull while a sissy boi aid is serving and doing chores. This way I can be pleased sexually while things get done! Then the lil cuckold could clean one last mess(creampie)!

I want a dirty bitch tonight! i want to make a man lower than I have ever made him feel! Then I want to use his body. Teasing and bringing to the brink just to stop! I am feeling evil tonight. LOL

Maybe I will get some writing done tonight.. I have some wonderful ideas in this lil head of mine! 

Feeling very dirty today!   

Think I need to vacation... camping yes please! Two more weeks..can i make it! I have to for the time of my life!

I did have fun this weekend ... think the best part was fucking that lil boi ass of yours! 

Not feeling sexy right now!

Lucky got off work with pay! I like that! 

Feeling so dirty today!  I dont think a shower can help this kinda dirty! LOl

Just cant wait to find a right match who is as wicked minded as me! 

A dark room filled with dim light. Sub pet crawls in to see his Mistress dressed in tight fitting leather! Her gleaming legs exposed and smell has filled the room. He knows he is the lowest sexual being on earth. He has done well and will spend the next hour pampering and worshiping. Her bull will be arriving soon and the real fun will begin! 

Everything is set in place for a erotic and pleasure filled night. MY bull has informed me that I will be sucking on his massive cock while sissy boi shaves my pussy for him. He wants my pussy to be a clean as it can be so he can make it dirty. This bull wants to see a dirty bitch boi clean his manhood. He knows what a lil bitch pet is and will agree to anything for dirty pussy. 

The toilet gloryhole will be amazing just the right place for a low filthy sissy sub! 

At this point I am so wore out and have way too much to do! Feeling really down! 

At this point I am so wore out and have way too much to do! Feeling really down! 

Tomorrow should be a nice stress relief and a ton of fun! Meeting a new bull. I have been looking for a mind as twisted as mine to help use pet! I want to see a powerful man take charge and show no fear in abusing cuckold!  I am so eager to find this! 

The devil opens his eyes
He breathes right into your face
If you like the smell
You'll really like this place

Your body stripped down to the bone
No breath to scream out or moan
No freedom nowhere to run

As I sit and think about how far I come in this lifestyle.. 

The more that I learn about the mind and body the less limits I have! I can imagine making a lil sub pet my toy for life. 

As I type this I have a sissy pet working on a glory hole toilet box. This is something I never thought I would be into. The truth of the matter is I am super turned on at the thought. It all started when I was 18 and doing modeling for a bdsm site! I did not admit to myself then how much I enjoyed the power! 

At 18 I was trampling men two and three times my age. I was jumping onto them from chairs and tables. My heels making their skin red. I loved it but still did not admit it! Shocking their balls while in stocks. It was so much fun but i enjoy it so much with someone who I know better and not a model. It is so much more of a turn on to tie someone up who is owned by me. Someone who I know really enjoys my power! 

My mind has moved to even more dirty thoughts. I opened the gates with twisted thoughts rushing through. I am loving this new found evilness I feel! 

Need a sissy dish boi right now... 

I have these deep dirty desires that all seem well to daydream about..but the question! Can they happen and still lead a healthy life. I want the person I end up being with to know that sexually they are much lower than me. I also want to have that ltr where play is play and life is life sometimes. 

I do believe that my sexual  desires must be filled though. I must explore my deepest filth desire! I have to see a sub pissed on and forced to please himself in it while I laugh with another man! I want a bull sleeping over and sissy at the foot of the bed. I want it all at least once! 

Full time live in sub.. yeah thats what I need and miss! Lifestyle whatever you want to call it! 

Gotta go get my own coffee ... sucks! I am not lazy but love making a sissy earn that pussy! 

Had a lot of fun the other night making sissy boi clean and eat this pussy! Loved being bent over having him clean my dirty ass too! Would not let him on the bed then sent him home with nothing. Made him cum online for me while riding a dildo like a slut! He is a fag I think and loved bouncing on it! 

The thought of getting down on my knees and letting an aldha use my mouth is so hot!  I want my alpha to degrade my owned sissy while he shows who is boss. The power exchange needs to be full circle.  I am not one to want to be used but I own a human punching bag to take it all out on. I also already have so much power I could never really feel low! 

I cant wait to have an alpha make a sissy toy lick my spit off his balls! I wont be the only slut that night! After I make a real man cum you will love the taste of his man juice from my mouth! He will love watching you be a lil fag boi! 

I just want a big cock

I am so horny... why am I cursed like this. Lol. I need sex... and my body pampered. I wish I had a hot bath and coffee right now! 

Got my hair cut and looking sexy as fuck! I cant wait to find a bull male that I can have around more often! 

mmmmmmmm i need more ..... loving sexual play!     I am needin so much cock!

Well my adventure last night was amazing! I brought my lil ex sub to Bijou in chicago! Look it up! 

This a very dirty 70s style gay male sex club. They have all sorts of dirty lil corners and rooms for you to let your inner slut out! Well the is just what I made the sissy bitch do! When we first walked in the smell hit you. I knew I would never lower myself to doing anything for anyone here~ I am not low like that lil bitch!

His face showed his fear of what was to come! The first room you go into has gay porn playing on the screen. We sat and watched as people walked through to the back rooms. Lil sub pets cock grew as I touched it telling him he would be just like the men on screen. Men walking by stared at  us like they never saw a woman in there. 

As we explored the building I could feel slut bois heart racing! Where would I make him serve the gay men. Would he have to go into back door alley or blowjob corner? His mind racing and loser clit hard. I decided to take it easy on him and set him on his knees in blowjob corner! 

I dont think that we had been there waiting for more than two or three mins. Two men walked back and undid their pants. Sissy boi offered service to them and it was on. I was sitting in a small dirty dark corner watching with a smile on my face. Men were lining up watching the show touching their cocks. He only sucked two but five or six were watching! Omfg So hot! I told the lil fag to suck em like a good slut. I love pushing his head down choking him. I have vid confession of this event and cant wait to use it! 

I am one sick bitch! 

Hummmm.... Punishment! I WANT THE HUMBLER ! 

I think all worthless lil men should submit to pain for his mistress! I personally love seeing a man shrink in pain with his cock begging for touch! Well to bad you are not worth it! You must pay the price first! Show how thankful you are just because I put up with your filth.

I will keep you so low and owned! 

Anyway just a passing thought ..

I cant wait until tomorrow. I need the thrill of this glory hole place that a bitch is going to submit to for me. 

MMMM I want a sexy night too... Candles ...bath.... .... whole body worship! Dinner at my feet gazing  up at the powerful sexy woman that controls your life! One day! 

Poly house.. I want one! I would love to try it for a bit see the dynamics! Plus what girl like me would not love a sissy and bull in the same house! 

I was thinking it must be something you have to work into. Adding time not just jumping into living together to soon. Transition into poly! 

• Those who enjoy indulging in fetishes are psychologically healthier and happier than the general population, say Dutch researchers
  
• Experts believe this is because they are more outgoing and less neurotic
• Those who played the dominating role in sex games were deemed as the most mentally healthy and submissives the least
• But none of the S&M participants scored lower than the general population in psychological tests

hum...........

This contract is effective May 7, 2014 to November 6, 2014.

This contract between domme and sissy ensures both parties feel comfortable in such arrangement – Dominant / Submissive relationship.

Sissy has agreed to serve Domme as she wishes. This includes helping around her home when needed. Running errands. Serving her sexual needs only as she wishes. Sissy agrees to entertain domme as she wishes. Sissy has agreed and understood any requests are within reason. Sissy is exempt for requests that conflict with time with his children and work only.

Sissy agrees he will not have any intimate relations with any other female. He will not date and remain completely single, but not ‘broadcast’ he’s single or available. Domme may request sissy to service another male at her request. She may or may not be present.

Sissy agrees to allow domme to take any pictures or video she requests. With this ownership, she has permission to do anything she wishes with that media, as long as it’s not illegal. Neither domme nor the children of sissy should ever find out about this arrangement.

Domme can administer physical pain and beatings at her whim. No reason necessary. From time to time marks may be left. Only the safeword can stop any beatings.

Domme has full authority to request temporary body modifications. This might include tattoos, shaving, beard and hair.

Sissy acknowledges he is a slave to domme. Sissy acknowledges he is requesting this attention from domme. Sissy requests to be treated like a submissive sexual slave to domme.

Sissy acknowledges that he will not touch his own cock without permission from domme. Sissy understands from time to time, domme may request a payment for release, or for what she desires.

Sissy has agreed to give domme any information she requests, including password information, address, website history and full access to his computer upon request.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm  I have the dirtiest mind!I love it... 

MMM what a dirty girl I am! I am digging deeper and deeper into the life! 

I am going to places I only dreamed of with this lifestyle! I cant say enough how I feel at home in my own skin as a Mistress! 

I find the fewer and fewer limits I have the more I enjoy! Inflicting pain is a new found love of mine! I just want all you lil bitch men to know you are the lowest on this earth. You dont deserve shit. You should consider yourself very lucky if you find a Mistress/Cuckoldress/Hotwife that will allow you to be around!  To give you what you were born entitled too...

Cant wait to have a sisssy boi all dressed up cleaning my home! My lil french maid! 

I wish i did not have kids living on my block or I would have my windows washed in this fashion as well! I need them done so badly and the gutters too! 

MMM so this weekend coming up I am planning on bringing a sub toi to the gay theater where they have glory holes and gay men for the boi to please! He is going to puke on cock! I will make sure of it! I am excited to be living out one of my wildest dreams! 

I am hoping to get his fag ass filled with cum! 

I am one dirty girl! I love it and with no shame! 

Cant sleep.. But at least my mind is wondering about dirty things! 

I have been wanting a vacation with a bull and a sub.. Just a weekend would do! One day maybe somewhere where our lil pet can walk behind us on a leash! I really have no hesitation about showing off the cuckold lifestyle in public. In fact it makes me very hot and bothered! 

I am more and more turned on by power displays. I want people to know when I walk down the street that I am very sexual! I also want them to see the sissy on a leash. I want them to know he is serving another man and I! I often think about an outdoor cafe where sub pet is forced to sit at our feet! 

Feeling a little bit alone tonight! 

I have the spreader bars for making sure a sissy cuckold boi can be kept on his knees! It holds the wrists too! Oh yes cant wait to use this! 

I am going to buy one of the lil blue pools. It may sound funny but very useful! I could use it for so so many things. I want to make it a very dirty place for a submissive degradation whore! I imagine all the cum, piss, and food that could be used along with the pool! 

One of the things I also am looking forward to is the glory hole box being build for me! I can wait to put  sissy fag in the box and lock the door! I want him serving any and all cocks I place in the dark box.  I only want lil fagot covered in cum. 

So many dirty thoughts getting me wet today! I wll share some at lunch.... mmm !

Ok well the bi male is not going to make it tonight!:( That is ok I have my own plans to use the pet toy! I have him going out to the shed in panties to get gear to strap him up. I know he has touched himself at least three times without permission  Let the punishment begin .... thinking on cam will be fun! 

I think he is more scared for this than a I man coming over to use his mouth. Some of the things that were intended on this guy doing were very dirty! I think the bull bi male called him his cum dump. I still cant wait to see a so called man gag on a real cock until he turns red. 

Well at least I get to try the new paddle.:)

HOly cow OMG! I had the best bull male last night. Submitting to his amazing cock in front of sissy toy boi was so amazing! This guy really knew how to work my pussy! His awareness of my body was almost scary! This bull was making me scream holding the toy on my clit not allowing any break! 

I loved begging for his cock as he choked me. Sluty sissy sitting on the floor watching as I have never given into any man like that before. I do now crave his cock and cum ... I want to be filled again and again by him. A true alpha males cum! MMMMMMM The best part is seeing the sissy fag lick his manhood from my soaking pussy! I love the feeling of being a dirty cum dump for an alpha and knowing I have a bitch that will lick it clean. I feel like a new woman! 

He filled my pussy three times with his cum. Sissy toy was lucky enough to clean it three times. Omg I came like 100 times! Three hours of the best sex I ever had! 

My pussy and legs are very sore today. Tonight he will be serving a man as his slut. I do not think I can take much more cock so let the show begin. This bi male is coming to use his face like a fuck toy! Sissy toy is ready to have his mouth filled with cum and gagged so hard! 

Feeling very horny today... just want to be served ..maybe by one or more! I need pampering! 

mmmm I just want my tits sucked right now ....and my pussy played with. 

I want to put my thigh high boots on and make some lil sissy lick the bottom.

My new spanking tool needs some use! I WANT TO PUNISH!

Not sure about how long it has been ... but omg putting that sissy bois head in his toilet and pissing on him was amazing! I cant get enough of putting lil sissy toys in their place. So controlled by my pussy! 

OOO I ma just feeling so sexual! On Friday I was able to have a lil pet cuckold offer his house and service in finding a third. 

What fun it was to meet a sexy bull and have him choke that lil bitch with his cock! This is always so fucking hot to me! I love ...love seeing a low ass bitch choke like he should. He was made to open the door in lil pink pig tails. 

Not much time to write now but will get to more later. I am so happy to have bought two more toys today.... MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Bought a paddle today..well kinda paddle and a hood mask! MMMMMm exciting !

Had a threesom last night cant wait to share the details! I will be on in a bit! Loving life and its dirty little freedoms of expression! 

I am so horny today!!!!!!!!!!

only a few mins till next job ..cait wait to get home though!

Oh what a dirty slut I am! I love it.trying to get ready for friday! I think i Have two bulls lined up! 

Slave must endure any and all punishments without speaking, swearing
or other vocal statements. Sobbing, wailing, shrieking, etc., are
permitted, as long as no words are uttered.

Slave will not speak unless spoken to by Mistress or any of Mistress’s bulls! 

Slave is to be naked at all times.

Slave is forbidden to touch its genitals or ass without permission.

Slaves are considered as the lowest form of life on this planet. 

Absolute obedience is mandatory.

Slave is not permitted to use any seating other than the floor.

Slave has no privacy.

No effort shall be made by Slave to cover up or hide its lowly status from
others. Male Slave is required to undertake all hostess duties, and provide
enough food ,refreshments, and offer its mouth as an ashtray for
those guests who smoke.

All orders given to Slave must be obeyed immediately, without
question, and without hesitation.

When Slave is not being commanded, it will sit on the floor, hands
wrapped around Mistress’s ankles.

Slave will be locked into a chastity device at all times.

 Slave understands that it will be subjected to any and all sorts of
varying things, including, but not limited to, urination, pain, and
bondage.

Slave will immediately apologize, and request forgiveness of any
wrongdoing.

Tell me what I gotta do to please you
Baby anything you say I'll do
Cause I only wanna make you happy
From the bottom of my heart, it's true

I wish that I could take a journey through your mind, alright
And find emotions that you always try to hide babe, oh
I do believe that there's a love you wanna share, oh, oh
I'll take good care of you lady, have no fear, oh
So I wanna know

It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm
Everytime you come around me I get weak, oh yeah
Nobody ever made me feel this way, oh
You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know

I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more

 dommedesired YOu need to send me email for gangbang ..... or maybe you dont want to watch me be the true slut I am!

Wow I have eight pages of mail in three days! Thanks trying to go through em..

Some are so very stupid. I cant imagine how people think the way they do! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=ffNFWsF8S-4

Sitting outside work waiting to see if we can go in today. They decided bombing on a weekday was productive. Well atleast I have a little time to write!

I cant wait for the weekend following this one coming! I have convinced the submissive toy with my sex appeal to crossdress to the city! He is going to have to shave his whole body so then maybe I can find a man to use him. Boys town will be so much fun! I have had been wanting this for a while now.

I cant wait to take pictures of this event! I am sure with the luck I have had before in the city I might find someone too! I would love to find a bull to use us both!    

:) One happy Mistress here! I am in love with the degradation. 

I wonder about the type A people who never leave their safety box... Do they feel like they are living, or are they playing that DVR in their mind? 

How truthful are you about what you want in the bedroom? Is this a hiding place to leave you safety box or can you ask for what you really want? 

Another day gone and a new one coming  tomorrow! My mind is racing with new thoughts, ideas , and emotions! 

I love the roller coaster of life. I am a thrill seeker in other ways than others! 

Oh do I have some stories for you! I had a great weekend! I cant wait to live it again in writing it ! The future plans to come will be amazing! I really am just a dirty girl who loves her men even more dirty! 

Most exciting is a gangbang I am trying to put together! I want to be covered in cum and have my submissive lick it all clean! I love seeing fagot sissy boi enjoying cum from my body! I love to see the disgraceful look as the salty cum touches pets lips! 

I also cant wait to be doggie straddle over making sissy watch a real cock enter my tight willing hole! 

online dirty play tonight? 

Cant wait to tell you all about my night! Omg so much fun... I did get to feel stress free for a while! 

oh my oh my ... how bad am I ... details later! 

You are a dirty bitch and I am a dom who needs to have the power and control my sexuallity brings!

DOne with work ..going to till the garden! I am so very excited tonight! I migh thave to change my pants ... I am getting too wet! 

Ugh Long day at work... just now taking lunch! MMM yummy salad! 

Thinking about all the fun I should be having right now! I want a big hard cock to fill me! I want someone sucking my toes and begging to have more. 

Ugh this day is taking forever! 

I feel alive again stepping back into the life style. Tomorrow I think I will pamper myself with a new toy. My best one broke and I deserve to squirt every single time I play. 

I think I have cum about three times in the last hour. It is not enough. : ) 

Just over a year ago I had a birthday gangbang that was amazing! At the time my sissy cuckold arranged it for me. Best gift ever! 

I was given three or four hard cocks that night! I was gagged so hard on one I threw up all while my lil bitch sat and watched! Oh how I love being a slut! I could see his rock hard cock he was not permitted to touch! 

My god I came so many times that night. After all was said and done I had a great clean up boi to do his job. 

In my warm bed ... How I would love to have a submissive sissy pet at my feet! Naked and still a little wet from making myself cum. I am excited at the thought my hand is covered in my cum right now. I can imagine how a lil sissy bitch would lick it clean. All the meanwhile a real bull is giving himself to me . 

Only then after the bull leaves would I allow you to earn the right to taste us. I love making a public fool of submissives begging for the cum or another man out of my pussy! 

Cant wait to have my cake and eat it too! I want to come into dinner after a night out. A sissy little toy serving and taking his place between my legs. I love a submissive eating a good creampie. 

Stir-Fry Chicken with Veggies and Rice Pilaf that was for dinner! 

Looking forward to being served 

What to make for dinner ????? 

When I am ready for a sub it is going to be wonderful and dirty! 

I wish tonight I had a foot soak ..and a rub down!

I need my dirty pussy licked and begged for.

I so desire this ass to be worshiped again! 

Sitting in my car finishing off lunch and maybe myself too! 

Wishing I could wear my strap on .... Was thinking about this very funny time I used it on a guy while my ex sub was serving him.. omg so disgraceful. The guy I used it on was so fucking dirty! To say the least we had a mess to clean up and never invited him over again! 

Late lunch ...  Cant wait to get off today! 

Well back to work.... with a wet pussy and dirty thoughts of exploitation! 

On break just found out good news... a sitter again tonight! 

Back home now enjoyed my coffee , people watching , and thinking time.

Well hello there! 

Ugh .. I am so horny all the time! With all of y things  pretty much unpacked and I have a closet full of toys I have not used.

His wonder, esteem, and marvel had grown so much for his powerful mistress.

Squirting .... I like that shit! 

Kid free in about an hour... yea its been a long time!

Got a sitter..maybe coffee and just peace tonight!

Life is good!

Off work early!Maybe I can find a sitter tonight and just go chill! 

http://vimeo.com/79351537

Sitting here alone eating my lunch..... mmm dirty thoughts! I need someone under this table. 

Tis the season for bonfires , coffee and late nights! (almost)

Think I may be in the market for a foot boi. I have not had any kind of rub down in months! I need it. 

lunch....whats for lunch..

Awake ....Making coffee! Even though I have been gone for months on this site I was still keeping track of my day to day thoughts! I was reading some of the stuff I wrote last night! I should say I have a very creative mind! Maybe an erotic book is what I should be writing. 

Flogger.........yeah so happy to unpack this! I have not seen any of this stuff in months!

Loving the new place...been here sice Jan and just got the place painted... pink and black in the bedroom.

All settled into my new place. Just brought over the pink cage .. was among of the last things to come. 

Although it just sits in the back of my closet , the thought of it there is such a turn on! One day I may use it again! I think about it often! I still entertain my dirty thoughts and desires! 

Was cleaning my car out and I had a bag in there! It had my exs old chasity ... he never could wear it but man the idea is still hot! 

only looking to chat and make friends right now..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=65PlARKkMvs

dead on the inside 

NOt sure what to say......

Really some people on here are crazy as heck! I want a good looking full time sissy cuckold! If your not that dont send me mail that just puts me down! I am what I am an to each their own! If you dont like it then just move to another profile! 

Yes I am still searching for the one I can share my life and love with! I do not limit myself to what others think is normal! I live by what makes me smile! 

I have met a few from here , but they were not truthful about what they were! Please be what you say you are! 

JUst got home from the doctor! NO reason to have a fever or infection but I do! They say its stress..... LOL I dont know about that??????    PAin meds, probiotics and anit

I desire to be a Cukoldress again! I miss the whole thing! Every up and every down! I miss fucking other men and having my pussy cleaned! I miss the slow nights sitting on the couch ...with lotion being spread over my sexy body! I was to tease again and make some balls hurt. 

ONe step in the right direction! Still a long path! 

Just went through a whole family fight over me asking for help! I guess I know who counts and who I should never see again! 

Excited for new coming adventures but fearful of my legal shit! I cant believe this guy told the judge I kicked him in and beat him when I clearly have all the emails to prove he begged for me to do that! I think I may even have some vids! The SA are such jerks. It is like they never ran into a bdsm relationship where someone got mad and turned shit around to get what they wanted! 

All his mind fucks are getting to my head! 

Feeling hopeless ...this is just to much.. Still keeping this smile though! 

THis first time i use my toys on a lil sissy boi again ...I know how much has built up! I better take it easy but looking forward to it! 

So yesterday was a small step forward! My mind is calming down and all I can think about is owning one of you subs. I miss it and cant wait to find the right one. I cant wait to be me again! 

OH my oh my........ the calm before the storm ..thats what this is! In a very good way! 

I am feeling good today! My legs and pussy shaved so smooth! Feeling sexy today! 

SO much I want to do.. think I am going to start a new site for just me. A place I can place all my exs pics ...when he sucked a black man and tried taking it in the butt...he was a real slut then... how about eating his own cum from a blow up sheep.. or eating fresh cum from my pussy.... yeah that will be awesome .. maybe I can sell the pics to pay for the legal bullshit I am going through because of him..

this is hard...

Up ..alone... and wet..always

MMMM such dirty thoughts.... maybe I will have a party to meet all you willing subs in one place.... a night full of fun I am sure..

So still searching and weeding through so many one line bs... 

Some stuff I read on hear is just a joke. GIve me something real... SOmething worth reading. 

This is something from my profile I shut down a while ago......

I want to be a huge dom bitch right now.  

Using someone ,degrading them.  

Make them mine to control and tease.  

Squirm bitch.  

Beg for this pussy.  

Homie don't beat it like a bullet
Beat my drum drum
Like a drum line boogie
Dive head first if you wanna
Sing to my body
Hold me tight mister lover
Do it like I do it
Like I said
Keep it up, boy
We can do this all day

Suck my cockiness
Lick my persuasion
Eat my poison
And swallow your pride down, down

Place my wants and needs
Over your resistance
And then you come around
You come around
You come around

I want you to be my sex slave
Anything that I desire
Be one with my femin-ay
Set my whole body on fire

No one can do ya the way that I do

I love it, I love it
I love it when you eat it
I love it, I love it
I love it when you eat it

I can be your dominatrix
Just submit to my every order
Enter my diamond matrix
If you want my golden flower

Make me your priority
There's nothing above my pleasure
She may be the queen of hearts
But I'm gonna be the queen of your body parts

Taking a shower then I will be on cam if anyone wants to say Hi!

thinking ill be on cam in a bit...

I just want a sexy ass man right now.. either way..anyway....just need  some fun! 

Wanna hang out tomorrow someone wanna? Ill be checking in the morning time. 

Well this ex of mine is making my life so hard! I owe so much fucking money now is court costs. I hate the legal system and I wont get started on it here. BUll shit ..

man oh man ..... i am feeling my late night...need serving!

Lol I decided not to go to bed and make use of the night! 

I am happy I did ...in bed and pretty messed up. I need a sub slave here now. My dripping pussy is going to die without some tlc. I have such dirty thoughts of sucking someone one and spitting it right in your lil bitch mouth. I can wait to make someone lick loads of alpha cum in their cage. (out or the dog bowl) My whole body warms at the thought.

In my altered state i yearn for a slut I can squirt on and laugh at! I want him in the cage pressing his face on the cold bars begging to fluff my bull. Such a good severent learning to love cum. I love to laugh and tell my friends too! 

I am a proud cuckoldress and I do not hide it in my day to day life. I love that people know the control and power I have. All of my male and female friends know. Also a few family members .... I love this life and cant wait ... bring on the best sub out there and I will love him for what his is. Oh I wont forget to exploit him too.

DOne for the night feeling hopeless

or just alone

Where is my perfect sub boi. I want you here right now kissing my feet. 

I want my lil toy to be here right now .. I am tired of waiting ! I need the ground I walk on worshiped! 

In need of a sexy bitch right now! Tattoos a plus !

I have been fucking myself with my toy..for a while now. My sheets are damp and my body is so warm. 

My inner thighs are soaking with my cum. I have not had enough .. I crave an alpha to fuck me while a sissy would watch.

He knows he is a lil fluffing worthless fag. He deserves nothing and will be happy lapping up the juices. even though sissy boi wont cum tonight .....he smiles knowing he is earning the the right too...

Swear I am so horny it hurts! 

Had a lil nap and feeling a bit better now! Wish i would have ad a pet to wake me with coffee and dinner. Although I did cook a good meal! 

My dreams keep reminding me of what I am seeking. I see the perfect cuckold there ...I hope I find him! 

oh boy wore out from yesterday.. my feet hurt. 

Wishing ......hoping .....needing! 

I am so ready to begin my next adventure! I also am excited to so how much deeper I can dive into this life. 

It is wonderful to know that others agree with my views. Love is the foundation and must be built strong.  I could never live without a submissive life mate. 

I wish I had the time to write all the stuff I come up with on here... this next one should be long hot and mmmm so good! 

Really want on of the leather pig masks for my next pet! 

A smile is upon my face as I feel things are a bit clearer.

I want a sissy cuckold live in long term relationship. Some lil bitch that know I cant live without degrading and breaking him. Only to rebuild into a better person each time.Lets make it fun and explore our limits. With love and trust the forward motion will never cease. A life full of chemicals , worship , power,love...........

I need a dirty begging cumslut boi 

mmmm so horny it hurts

Its been a long time since I got any flowers. I miss those nice lil gifts to remind me I am special.

I want you under the table while I wine and dine with a real man! 

Wow ..... 

I need to be pampered. I need you to help lay my clothes out for my date with a bull.

How much fun it will be when we return ready and turned on. 

I will give you my already soaked panties to sniff. 

I dont want anything to do with a sissy while such a sexy alpha male is here! 

He deserves my pussy ... while you are low and worthless in that manner! 

I am sure you will beg him to suck his cum from my pussy. 

Maybe you can beg him to bring his friends to fill my pussy more.

I could place a funnel so you can catch every drop. 

My pussy deserves as much pleasure as it can take. 

I am a lil fucked up right now_ had a few drinks. O almost made a mistake and emailed my ex-cuckold.... Almost..... Glad I came to ........ Just alone and missing shit..Hope I can figure shit out cause I dont like a lame life! 

Laughing at myself! 

HAnds tied...... begging looking up and your goddess! Wondering when you will get the chance to taste or smell her. She walk away laughing as you struggle to follow. You look so low and feel it too. As the whip comes out you know respect is the lesson. Willing to learn and please you put your ego down and submit!

Its true I am out of control and need real sex. My hand and toys are not cutting it anymore. I am pleasing myself to to much .... Prolly over ten times today! Its always to the same thought too! A sissy cleaning a creampie! Yeah Im horny!

I like beards and tattoos ...... I also like em fit and trim! Oh my do I ever love beards. 

Oh my dirty mind ......

My pussy stays wet. My mind consumed at a dirty low sub cleaning my creampie. I love warm cum filling me. I also love the warm drips that leak out and down my leg. I love feeling like a slut  yet still the Queen! 

I seem to always be day dreaming about loads and loads being cleaned. 

Miss

Thinking I want to trample and do some face sitting!

A loving cuckold relationship. I once said I would never leave a cuck for a bull. I still hold true to this. I could never imagine a life without a sissy cuckold serving me.  In my mind the relationship with a cuck/submissive is more about the psychological gain. For this Miss it makes me feel safe.

I know for myself a bull alone is not what I need. I dont want to be treated like a whore all the time. My throne is the most fulfilling place. A poly house would best fit my needs. That is a big step and I dont think I have worked to that yet. 

The air is cold now and I am ready for warm tea and fires! I believe fire is the most sexy lighting. I love this time of year. 

OK , so I cant sleep! 

I was thinking of all the things I can not wait to do. 

I just love it when my mind goes crazy with ideas. 

My body craving a thrill. My soul longing to reach out and embrace my calling. 

Being a mistress/cuckoldress I crave too much already. Its it what it is ....... 

Dirty thoughts, to many mesg.. and just wanting to be held till i sleep... I need to sleep now I guess. Feeling worn out from the day and just missign m old simple life. 

Life, love  and joy! 

Wow this is hard with so many people mailing me ....i I cant handle all this mail!

Just cant get sex out of my head .....

I need to use a lil toy. I need a real man to fuck me then make a sissy clean it. I am horny! 

Hahahah I was thinking of this time I made a sub ride the plunger like a cock. I could not believe how far it went in his ass. The best part was it was all in a live show we did for fun! Awesome times. I miss making a fool of a manboi on cam. Some love to watch and some can't  believe what they are seeing. 

I cant wait until the next chance I get to act on my desire.

I love having a sissy cuckold dressed like a bitch. NIce pink thong or booty shorts and some matching top. I love looking at manhood being taken away. Sometimes I can even hold back my laughing at what a sissy boi will do. I also love putting make up on my pets. 

I get so wet and turned on taking the power. My pussy is young, tight , and worth everything I dish out! It smells so good and also tastes  so good dirty! 

My flogger ,strap on, butt plugs , and cage need use soon. I have my pink throne and need my lil prt to sit at my feet. 

This is not 50 shades of grey here , maybe 50 shades of Pink........Lol

so tired..... come rub my body down  so I can relax and sleep in your arms

Thinking I need a big black cock to slap off a cuckolds face. This always makes me laugh when I think of it. 

I am in the mood for a good session. I would love a dirty creampie to drip out of my well fucked pussy. I want to watch as every last drop is licked and sucked from my hole. Thats the best part and it turns me on so much. The though of someone cleaning it all up is the most wonderful of all. 

I also love to fucked right over a little bitches face. It is amazing to see a bull pull out and shoot his load all over the sissys face! 

YOur a dog who should be on your hand and knees. Your place is on the floor at my feet. Obey and be loyal! 

i want my loving life back ...

wishing it was easier 

needing some mind blowing sex

omg so much fun .... no sex but had so much fun!I was so freaking drunk and have not been in years!  

Still just touching my pussy ...

        I want a bare ass to whip , slap , and tease. 

Went out but no sex. I am wishing I had someone in my bed right now.

I would like a hot drink and a nice rub down with oil. My soul is on fire and my body is burning. I want out of this dull A type life and back to my old ways. 

"marriage with being whipped, tamed, and cuckolded. Marrying would mean sacrificing his independence and breaking his pride."-Benedick

I think I have made myself cum about seven times today and I am still needing more!

Gotta get off line checking email to much 

I yearn to punish a slave. I want to inflict pain and pleasure. I want to be the taker and the giver. I will capture your mind and take hold of your soul. Come take an adventure with me. Let go of all thing and embark on a sexual submission.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Edwsf-8F3sI

So My plan is to find a good sissy cuckold. I need lots from him and I will give him the world. I am happy to be hunting again.  I hope I find the perfect lil sissy boi. A well trained dressed up house boi. I teach you everything you need to know, or ill beat it into you! 

My pussy need someone to come and beg for it. I am missing my lifestyle so much today. I have to say it was perfect and cant wait to find the right sub cuck to fill my last cuckolds shoes. They were big and I hope to find him soon. The right one who says all the right things without even knowing they are right. The one who sees what I really want is a sissy boi to dress up and make me smile. I want to be able to be myself! 

So horny wanna be dirty 

I won my case! 

strap on is getting dusty.....

I really want to use my cage tonight.  I want to be the queen again!

I am the lady of your dreams. I am the warmth you feel as your eyes slowly shut. I cradle your soul as you fall deeper into slumber. 

I am some what back to my old ways! Lol... Although in this case not a bad thing! I got to have some real fun this weekend. I needed it too! 

Plain and simple ... I want to sit on someones face right now. I want to trample them and make them lick myfeet. I want to squirt and play rough. I want to take my toys out! 

Aww I guess I found the right way to push back .....the stalking , abusing, lie telling , little mangirl has left me alone. I am so happy to be so free of that controlling ,degrading , fake person. 

I once thought was the man of my dreams is now just someone I used to know! I am free from the ongoing saga! I cant even remember why I tried to make it work for two years. (love?) In fact I dont even want to try to think about why. 

He has erased himself from my life. With all his lies to the court and the police I could never imagine again. I have not even see a face to face sorry for all the problems he cause for my family. My time wasted for the last two years. 

I guess the lifestyle is what kept me. I knew even on a bad day I could have fun! Take it all back out on him. In 11 days this will be all over and his control will be no more. I hate having any kind of law or legal shit in a relationship. Oh well court will be fun having to spill the bdsm beans to the judge and his lies will be shown. 

I wonder will my face even get red explaining this to a group of people..... Prolly not. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=9v5vrfPcavc

Seeking - Good looking ,fit, out door type.

Seeking - submissive /slave

Seeking - limitless fun

Seeking - thrills and wonderful moments 

Seeking - lifemate

I really wish I did not get all the stupid mail I get. Some people here have no idea what I am about! A few I think have seen the real me. 

I try here to be as truthful and open as I can be. I hope now to get some more mail worth reading. Say something a little out there. Say something I have not heard. 

To you bitch men...remember your place. You are here to be our sissy property. Live with it, lose your egos, and submit ! It works out for the best

Still working on  making my life better! When it rains it pours! Single and waiting for the next right sub , slave, and cuckold. I am tired of being alone and cold. The weather is just right to sit next to the warm fire and enjoy coffee. I want a little toy to prance around for me! I miss being served and pleased when needed! 

Well all I can say is the last few days could not have been worse.JUst imagine all the freedom you had taken away and being beaten with a stick!  I think I need to hide under a rock for a while! 

one more entry from the past...

First and foremost, there is no way, man, sissy, boyfriend or husband, could I possibly endure this lifestyle for months or years without a true foundation of love.

Sex and it’s friends can’t suffice.  I’m blessed with the fact that Mistress shares the same morals, values and beliefs as me.  Heck, we have a couple of passions that we share before being a cuckold relationship.

Something my past cuckold wrote for me!

While our relationship has truly been bizarre, I feel the truth in her, I see something and I see her like no else does.  No one.  Mistress is not a simple woman, but I see the truth in her love.  I know, unequivocally, that she loves me.  LOVE.  Real, deep down love.

Sometimes it hurts, I  hurt her.  But I feel the same.  She understands me and understand that I am different.  Mistress understands I love her dearly, but this isn’t a love story,

Well tomorrow is the court for my last relationship! A bitter end to such a wonderful thing. I  hope the 15th brings my money in and the 18th moving into my new home a few towns away! I am dreading all this change but it must be for the good or it would not happen!

Anyway getting a 4bedroom with a den! A lot of space and a new cat! Hoping to make my own lil sex room in there too! All work and no play makes fraya a dull girl! LLol!

I was thinking about the last time I cuckolded! 

Even though it lead to the demise of a growing relationship , it is still sexy as hell! 

Really quick Ill set the stage and write more details later! 

S was zip tied in his pink cage full off beer! Dressed up as a sissy boi left to piss on himself! As I left the room and out the front door to go have sex with a real man my heart was fluttering and the sight to be seen! 

When I returned just as I had hoped he was soaked in his own piss begging to be release! 

Still waiting to feel good! Moving on the 30th of sept! I will be free then and have my own 1300 sq ft home! I cant wait to move the fuck away!

Actions speak louder than words ... and the actions I have seen have made me mad! Someone will suffer soon sexually! I am building up tension and cant wait to release! 

Just been down in the dumps! Not to much going on in life..Thinking........ I feel paused! 

is or was it to much to ask?

oh boi.....

Oh and also thinking of just meeting some new people! Who wants to join for coffee tomorrow? I gotta get out there and make some new friends! 

OH sex..... I am thinking of doing this for fun and for A living! Why not do what I love most! 

Ah what am I talking about... All I know is I am going to have some fucking fun tonight! 

Fuck make my day easy! PLease for one day!

Be back on soon! I miss ya guys but the last few weeks have been a living hell!

I am not ok right now! This is not the life I wanted! Broken and lost! 

blah what a rough night! 

To you bitch men...remember your place. You are here to be our sissy property. Live with it, lose your egos, and submit ! It works out for the best

This was my first journal entry ever

I am new to this whole thing. The truth is I was afraid and uneducated about cuckolding. I have a new outlook on life now. I feel great and love the lifestyle. I am a natural born Dom. I cant believe how great it feels to have my bitch worship me. I love that he thinks of me night and day. Most of all I love the deep connection I have with him. This is not a game I was born to dominate him! Feels wonderful!

Heading out tonight.. Mmmmm

OK I need some help tonight! I need a hotel  room and my check wont be here until the fifth! 

OK I need some help tonight! I need a room and my check wont be here until the fifth! 

Something I wrote A while back-

Submission..... I live for making men submit to me. As a small lady it entertains me to see the power I have. The control you can gain with a touch or thought. I love to have control over a group of men. Interesting to have every need met at once!

Still awake and the meds are making it hard to keep my eyes open now! The pain in my head is gone after all the bull shit! Thanks sis for helping! LOL feeling warm and fuzzy ... well and always dirty! 

I was just thinking about the first time I used my pink cage! I love that cage so much! First of all it is pink and for a sissy! I have a bunch more ideas for it now too! 

Fuck i really hate being alone! I hate it... Hate it

My second cuckold experience was quite strange! I was new to the life and wanted to dive in as deep as I could! The reason we had planned our first in haste was my sissy was leaving for a trip!  I could not wait for him to get back before I cuckolded him again! 

My second adventure was with an old schoolmate! I had not seen him in years and reconnected through(yep you guessed it) facebook! I guess he had always thought I was hot and i seized the moment! 

I had informed my lil bitch toy that I would be with a real man that night! His little sissy ears could not believe what he had heard! I am sure he was feeling the blood flow! I knew that this time he could not hear , see ,or smell what was about to happen! The rush from just telling him was amazing! 

The sex with K that night was amazing and I was pounded hard and long! The best part was I saved all the used condoms in the fridge! He was forced to eat them when he arrived home after two weeks! I dont think the lil fucking bitch knew what hit him! HE just sucked everyone clean just to make me happy! fun fun  

Need some company ..... im so bored ...... guess i gonna write by the pool! 

We had made plan in hast with a complete stranger! The very thought of that was enough to make me do it! I like thrilling and out of the norm situations! 

My cuckold and I were flying down 90 headed to chicago for our first Hotwife/cuckold date! My stomach was in knots knowing that soon I would be dressed as a lil school girl! I would be fucking and sucking a complete stranger! To top it off my cuckold sissy would be watching! 

At this time I did not know how deep I would wind up in the life! It all seemed to good to be true! I loved cock but never found a way..until now! 

We arrived at his home around ten pm! With out saying we were invited in and he made it clear that I was in his control! He also made sure my sissy knew to keep to himself! His lips met mine before I could say Hello. HIs hands were not shy either! 

I could almost see the drool coming from the cuckolds mouth! He wanted what that man (real man) had. I could see the fire revived in his eyes! I didnt understand cuckolding until that moment! As I saw how much this made him want me I knew it was key to keeping a relationship fresh! Cuckolding would keep a sissy bitch on his toes always trying to please! 

The night moved somewhat slower after that but we manged to make it to his hot tub! (omg so much fun) I fell right into my position of a mistress/hotwife! I had my bitch at my feet rubbing them while I was making out with our so called bull! This went on for some time but then the really really fun part happened! ........ Our bull instructed my boi toy to help hold me over a very powerful jet in the hot tub! The next thing I knew I had two holding me in place with so much pleasure I could not stay still!  I was able to squirt twice this way. I fell in love with cuckolding at that very moment!

I was so horny at this point I had to get him to the bedroom! It didnt prove to hard to do! It was all action once we made it! Our bull again forced me to squirt on the bed. I took advantage and shoved my cucks head in the mess! HIs eyes lit up like a lil school boi and licked it quickly! Meanwhile I was being fucked so hard from behind! My pussy was feeling so good, unlike I had ever felt before!

Once the bull was in my super tight pussy (no joke) it didnt take long! As fast as it begain it was over and we were heading home! There was one thing that had changed from the ride there! My cuckold bitch could not stop touching me , he was out of control with lust! I put him in his place and made him wait the 45 mins home to even smell me! 

Feeling super dirty and in the hot tub as I type! Wishing I had a boi to serve me! MMMMMM sexy in my white swim suite! I look pure and lady like! (hahahah never judge a book by its cover!) I bet with my mindset I could make anything happen at this moment! 

My very first time cuckolding was in a hot tub! I can still remember every detail! It was the most natural thing I had ever found! I fell right into my title! I cant wait to write more! I am going to try and recall each time and log it here! 

HAve fun reading .......

Really missing the lifestyle! I am missing more too but who wants to cry about it! I am so tired of trying to find the right person! I am just plain sick and tired today! 

I hate for one being alone, hence my lifestyle! I choose this because it fits me well! So very sick and tired of shit not working out! 

                   -A tired mistress losing hope! 

Well today is proving harder to find a place to stay! 

Have to figure out what I am doing tonight! 

fuck ,so horny and nothing I can do at this moment! 

TOYS?

I need a hot lil sissy man here right now! 

I want my body licked from head to toe! My smell lingering in your nose! I want to be pampered and pleased! My body yearns for control and teasing! 

The cold hard truth right now is: I want to fuck some lil cuckold bitch in the ass till he is begging me to stop!I dont mean play begging either! I want this bitch tied up and unable to resist! I will fuck him until he is sweating and can take one more pump!  

Just sad right now !

Have to give a public thank you! I can relax in comfort tonight! Got a room to stay in! Thanks to a very helpful person! I will survive and kick your ass on the way back up! LOL

 Working all this week coming up! GOd has a way of shutting doors but opening windows. All ya gotta do is prove you are willing to take the hard with the easy! Anyway I have some writing to do!

MMMMMm dirty dirty writing! 

So I thought of this really dirty night I want to have .....

       Even I was shocked as I sat and day dreamed .....

         Although my pussy was dripping at the very idea....

I need a hotel in algonquin tonight! I have got to get off a couch and have some hot water! I got a few leads on some places! I think in just a few more day things might be alright! I gotta get this shit on the move so I can have some dirty fun that I miss! 

It is set in motion!

DIdnt make it to a hotel last night but maybe tonight! It was a rough night on a couch to small for me! I am tiny so if you can imagine how small it was! LOL I woke to my ex in the drive way giving me shit! As if he thinks he can give me shit now! You left me dumbass! You kicked me out! Oh wait now your mad I am sleeping at your friends house !Well we all gotta do what we gotta do! I have to survive! 

Hope your all well out there! 

Need a hotel room tonight ! 

Need to stop trusting people ... in another world of freaking shit! 

Homeless now with tow kids what more could I ask for! 

Im a fighter Ill find a way! 

I feel so full of sexual tension! I want to use and abuse a bitch right now! I want to feed him my leaking dirty pussy! 

My feet need kissing and my back needs rubbing! I am a sexual queen! I fucking need a dressed up bitch sucking my strap on! I cant fucking wait to get this shit figured out! 

My deepest desires have to be filled! I need a coffee and a foot rest! I need a real mans cock to fuck the shit out of me so a low bitch can taste it! mmmmmmm Spanking and begging! Learn respect and give into my will! 

I am not looking for a bull or dom man at this time! I am going to focus my efforts into finding the right cuckold sissy first! I can not live any lifestyle until I again am a Cuckoldress! I need a loving , serving , loyal sissy first!

If you dont know what a cuck is ,dont contact me until you do! I am not new to the life and I know what I want! I have a very open mind and love leading a relationship! I was born to be a Degrading Mistress! I was meant to own a sissy! I love the lowest too! (or maybe just breaking down to the lowest form)!

"Horns show up consistently in the play as a symbol of marriage (and the corollary notion of a husband being whipped in marriage). Remember, cuckolds were men who were married to unfaithful wives, and were generally long-suffering. Horns are an interesting symbol, because while they’re used in this context to denote a whipped guy, they’re also a thing of wild beasts."

“You can't tell your friend you've been cuckolded; even if he doesn't laugh at you, he may put the information to personal use

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Wow , I really try to keep up with my mail! I was off for a few days and I think I have five pages of mesg! Hang in there...

Real quick too... I am kinda of a switch for those of you asking! I do however only submit to real men that never switch! I love my sissy cuckold men for my all the time lifestyle! I do like to serve a cock with my cuckold! By no means am I a submissive! 

Fun fun fun...who wants to have some! 

Well once again sitting at the beach trying to figure out something to do! Its going to be super hot today! Guess no place better to be then! 

I just cant believe it! 

A dark candle lit room! In the warm flickering glow a cage in seen with toys placed on top! 

Your mind is racing with the many ideas but it is the unexpected that makes your heart race! 

This lady has grown into a powerful mistress who's mind can not be stopped! 

Her heart set on breaking all the rules! A queen who can not be stopped 

What a dirty, powerful, and sexual mistress I am! Was just sitting here and pondering the question: How and what will be my next adventure? My mind is consumed by all dirty thoughts! 

I want my darkest desires filled! I cant wait any longer! It took me two years to train this one! He would have been tied to a tree for me and kicked over and over! I could have tied him down and had him pissed all over while I would be getting fucked! He was a willing fluffer and cum dump! HIs ass had grown used to my strap on! He was thankful for his pink cage and sissy wear! CAN ANYONE FILL THOSE SHOES? 

Again I am sitting on the beach! Getting ready for work tomorrow! Wondering what are my plans for tonight? ????

Well I know I always come up with something! This week has been a hard week! I have filled it with sex and bonfires! However the person I have been with is not right for me! I need a super sissy cuckold! I love the control and power! 

Anyway thinking of going dancing tonight! Its is always fun to put on super sexy clothes and feel really hot! It is a great time! 

Cant wait to find what I need! I know that perfect sissy bitch is out there! I know he wants to beg and beg for my pussy! I cant wait to be begged to go and find pleasure! 

Sitting by the beach watching the rain fall over the water! I try to recall some of my best times! 

I would say the time I beat the word respect into my ex cuckold on cam! The slaps were so loud and you could hear the fear in his voice! 

Just a few days ago I moved up on the scale! My first large sum of money to keep my mouth shut! His little bitch ass has been begging me to degrade him but he kept backing out! It was such a waste of my time I snapped ! I returned home to find the hush  money in my mail box.

Guess he really did care about his girlfriend! 

Ok well I guess I should explain a little bit! I have been in a cuckold relationship for two years now! We have struggled through a lot of ups and downs in life. Due to it all we have decided to end things for good this time! 

Our bdsm cuckold relationship was over the top wonderful! We had to grow together to make this work and sometimes it was hard! We both grew into the perstyle! We trusted one another and pushed our limits. To my understanding he felt the same and that is what makes  it hard to part ways! 

Our bdsm lifestyle only made us love each other more! We knew that no matter what we had Love! It was an equal balance between Mistress and life partner! I am sad to let this go due to not knowing what else is out there! 

It is time now I admit to myself it is time to move on! I depart in hope that the balance of life will emerge again! 

 I am seeking now a loyal submissive! I have very strict training and wont deal with bullshit! I have been able to grow with this life and in turn my mind has developed a sixth sense! I have figured out all the tricks! 

This is something my sissy wrote before I had to leave him! 

It’s been a couple of weeks since my first real experience as a cuckold. Although my Mistress and myself have been exploring and learning of this lifestyle for over a year and half now, this experience was like no other. We’ve have met a few that have become regulars, but it seems most men who aspire to become a bull are merely in the lifestyle solely for selfish purposes. A cuckold lifestyle is not about being selfish. Sure, I serve my Mistress and she tells me her demands. I usually comply without question, I put my own sexual satisfaction always behind hers, but she is not selfish. She understands that a cuckold has needs, and she is always the first the help provide those needs. A bull, like a cuckold, should be concerned about my Mistress’ needs as well as mine, and in turn, us as a couple, will try to ensure he is most happy. We are there to serve. Our experience with D was all that. He came in like a bull and took my Mistress by the neck and begun fingering her, as I dropped to the floor when I saw her sexual passion. It wasn’t long before he threw out his first degrading comment to me, and I heard my Mistress melt in his arms by his words. For the first time, we both became very sexually turned on by this man degrading me on the floor. Mistress was very happy. I was very excited to see just how excited she became when D became claiming her pussy, putting me on the floor and shoving my face into my blow up sheep, to clean my cum from the night before. I’m happy she was happy. This experience was everything I dreamed about being a cuck, and it wasn’t role play. Mistress truly enjoyed her sexual experience more than I could ever do and I’m very thankful for this.

I am sissyless... 

I am back after vacation! It was wonderful and full of nature! The end of vacation did not end well though! I have been back and forth with all this! 

So, I am feeling very dirty today! I am missing the lifestyle! 

Had another BUll over tonight! N is a very fast fucker! Not as in he cums fast but fucks fast and long! I love speed when being fucked! My sissy can never ever keep his speed! He is always stopping and making me mad! I always make him make me cum before his weewee can enter my perfect pussy! 

N on the other had I love fucking for this reason! His cock always finds the right spot! He is not to bad at reading my body either! I am still very eager to find the right match! N is not dom enough for me! I really still think that D is still at the top of the list! 

Still I find myself wanting to dig deeper and deeper into the lifestyle!  I want it to be more dirty and more often! I love the new pain my slut endures! I just cant get enough of this! 

So back to the bull D from the other night! I find myself thinking of it often! I never have had so much fun! It really made me happy to find out that what I was looking for is out there! 

His cock so big in my tiny mouth! I could barley take half of it and I am a great cock sucker! His dick felt amazing on my lips! I loved sucking his cock! It looked and felt so much better than my cuckold slave! Unlike my sissy I could not wait to feel him inside me! 

D's power for command was what I was looking for! The moment he started degrading sissy toy my pussy was soaked! D made him watch well telling him what a low useless slut he was. D knew I enjoyed his cock way more than my cuckold's weewee!! 

I want that power back! I crave D and his outstanding dick! I feel though as he is a stepping stone and wont stay long! I hope I am wrong about this feeling and he can come many more times! I just loved it! 

Bitch,

Begging is my greatest pleasure.  I want more…

Begging to lay eyes on your Goddess

Begging to sniff my armpits, pussy and feet/

Begging for me to cum on real cock

Be a little begging pain slut.

I want a low sissy cuckold to beg for everything

You are my slut who who deserves nothing

Begging will be the only way

If you think it, BEG for it

Omg I just met the bull of my dreams! His cock was huge and bigger than my cuckold sissy! MY mind has been overtaken by this bull! He was as Dom as they come!

The night started very fast and into the bedroom very quickly!  His hands on my warm skin before I could close the door! I was so very excited to feel his firm grasp on my neck! My pussy started to tingle as my sissy walked into the bedroom! 

D was a very good looking man and had a cock to match! He had no problem finding ways to degrade my sissy whore of a bf! D was very much in charge of our bedroom tonight! It felt so wonderful to hear him call my cuckold a nasty bitch! I found the bull I have been wanting for so long! 

As his hands hands were tightening on my throat his hands found my pussy! I could not escape D, nor did I want to!I did not even need that worthless slave!  My panties we already soaked when he told my sissy to get my pussy wet for him! D really blew me away with the verbal degrading! I was his slut and my cuckold a worthless bitch! D Loved spanking me and making my cuckold clean up all of his cum! 

This was a very hot ,hot , hot night! I do believe the best we have had so far! I am sure I will write more about it tomorrow! 

Last night was above the rest! I had the best outfit and plan! My lil sissy was made to cum with a blow up sheep! His stupid ass fucked the plastic and loved it! Cuckold Scott could not able control himself and fucking blew his nasty load! He did not have permission so is now suffering! His guilt is my control! I have some awesome pictures I will have to post later! 

I also found some of my old shoes ...what should I do with them!

Tonight I have the most sexy lil punk rock outfit for my sissy bf slave slut! He dosent know it yet but he is going to feel so much like a girl in this! His heart is going to be pounding out of his chest! 

I also had bought him a blow up sheep to fuck but we fought once and killed it! I have now went and bought another. He has a playmate for his pink cage now! This is going to be exciting!  

Having fun tonight trying new things! My cuckold has been begging me to kick is balls. I finely gave into his wish after two or three days! His reaction was better than I thought! I always thought he was a weak sissy who could endure no pain! OH I was wrong and this is going to become apart of our life! I also am excited to see a bull take him down to his knees in this way to! I want him dropped to the the floor where he belongs! Then I want to be fucked and not able to control my moans! I want him to know my body is feeling so much pleasure! At the same time he is on a lower level in pain and not worthy until all demands are met. I odnt even want to look at him until I have be completely pleased sexualy! 

My cuckold is the lowest of the food chain! (so to speak) He knows it an I know it! I hope we soon find an alpha male that can see this too! I am so happy to see that my training has worked on my slave! I now need someone to enjoy him with me!  

Oh last night was fun! We meet up with two other men! They fucked me and made me cum! My sissy boi right next to the bed on his knees! I love the lifestyle! His eyes could not even handle what he was seeing! I dont think i saw his head raised once! I was getting fucked like he could never fuck me! My cuckold always cums to quick! I needed more and got it last night! I was fucked so hard by N! I have been pounded that hard in a long ass time! 

Looking for company tonight , having a bonfire and need a bull to complete the circle! 

New dirty thought are coming to mind! I have been down a lot of roads but grow tired fast! I want to whole package at once. I want My bull that has a control and is not scared to use it. I want my cuckold degraded like he has not been before! I need him to look up with lusting eyes begging for my used dirty pussy! I need him brought to his knees and feeling low. I love making him lower than.  I love a dirty bitch that I can control ...

I want my sissy begging my bull for permission to worship and smell my body! The cuckold will have no rights. 

We are a very dirty couple! I cant stop my mind from day dreaming  all day! My thoughts are consumed by a ploy household! I love the chain of command and want my cuckold sissy boi slave to serve my new  boyfriend and I! I want this lifestyle so bad! 

I am not new to the site but starting fresh was the idea! My cuckold submissive and I are very eager to find someone to fill this role! We have had many men come and go but none really matching what we need! As a very sexual person I need more fulfillment! I want to be the center of a poly household!