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so hard to find a ride...wtf |
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I need a ride tomorrow...... |
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I can't wait to have my own space again. I really am in the mood for sime down and dirty fun. I keep thinking about sitting on the top of my pink cage. Inside sat one of the most nasty sissy cuckold I have met. (so far) This night was not exactly one of the dirtiest by all means. It was just fun pouring beer over different parts of my body and watching as he tried to catch every drop. His eyes were burning some and his make up running. I still have pictures some place of how stupid he looked. |
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Chilling on here for a bit. I wanted too bring some issues up I am experiencing on here.
1: I am encountering some negative feed back when sending out my rules for engaging with me. I have my rules and guidelines for a few reasons. I do not need little submissive slaves to waste my time. I am a single mother of three. I do not receive aid from there father. My time is very limited in a way. So if you didnt like my rules just excuse yourself. No need to send swears and degrading comment. Its inane people think it's okay to treat someone they just submitted submission to.
2:I DO NOT need a live in slave. I do not want to be supporting another person. Its a joke that slave would want to stay home while a goddess is working her ass off.
3: I am no longer replying to one word messages. I know that most of you can do so much better.
4: Last I have gone through so much lately its hard to even believe. (Repeated for those who have not read through my journals) I have in the last year(ish) lost my mother, bio father, had a fire destroy most of my our belongings. No insurance is not covering or replacing any of it. I have also been in two car wrecks that destroyed transportation. I am planing (if all goes well) to get my third car in less than six months. Fyi they were not my fault. This last thing is most embarrassing. I was physically hurt by my sons dad. His response to some personal matters was to strike me three-ish times. I did receive a mild black eye and a very swollen jaw. Point it please bear with me. |
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Ugh, I'm in one cranky mood due to circumstance today. I'm sure it has to do some with the stupidity and selfish behaviors of some.
If I had a sissy slave boi he would be feeling it today. I'm i in the mood for degrading and flogging. I want to hear heartfelt begging. Seeing a boi struggling not to get hard in a cage is so appealing. I can't wait to laugh until I hurt.
Kinda like the time my ex got his plug fur tail stuck. Watching him get the courage to pull it out was hysterical. I truly never laughed so hard in my life. Unfortunately that toy is dead now.
Anyone wanna do me a favor and brighten my day? |
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I seem to have to explain this very often. I decided to put this up for the sake of saving time. I am back for good this time. I might be busy for a few days but I'm staying bank on for good.
My life is a series of disasters from birth. (NO EXAGGERATIONS) Just in the past two years:I watched my mother wither and die from cancer.(MY BEST FRIEND) I also lost my biological father as well. I also have lost most possessions in a fire. The smoke and water damage was more than expected. At the moment my children and I have been sleeping on the floor at my dad's house. The lack of a vehicle is limiting my life tremendously.
I ask to please bear with me on timing. I'm trying to rebuild everything from the ground up. I had no insurance to cover the losses.
Thank you. |
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I can not wait for the chance to fuck an amazing bull while having my ass licked. |
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Ugh, all I want to do is drown my sorrows in the lifestyle. |
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The amount of mail I receive is just crazy. What should I do to weed out the wankers and fakes.. |
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I'm going to have to rebuild my stash of toys and clothes. Looking through my stuff today was sad. The fire or water damage ruined everything. |
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I want to watch a submissive sit in discomfort. I would adore teasing someone in chastity right now. I have always wanted to be a key holder. |
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Free time.... what shall I do?
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I could use a spa day! Though the employees should all be submissive little bitches. Lol A mistress haven. Lol They would either be un-owned or tasked to be there by their owner. Perhaps to earn their keep. ;-) |
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I have been able to meet two very cool people from here. I just wanted to share my positive experiences with collar space. I think we sometimes hear horror stories that may keep us from reaching out.
For now we shall keep submissive pets identies in the dark.
Sub 1 was a very intelligent, nervous, funny guy. We were able to spend a good amount of time talking. We were able to have a two hour session on our second meeting.(which he kindly spoiled my on our first meeting)
I sincerely enjoyed our fun together. Between our meetings he wad able to handicraft a toilet box. I still am so very happy to own this. It was only fair he be the first in and sit beneath my pussy.(while he stroked his poor excuse for a dick) I know he enjoyed his time. ;)
Sub 2 was also very intelligent, open and very giving. During our car ride he impressed me with how extreamly open he was. No shyness or shame of who he was. I enjoyed very much laughing and walking through the local mall. We intend on meeting again, hopefully soon.
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Would anyone want to meet and greet in the morning. I need some help before 12:30pm tomorrow. It would be greatly appreciated. |
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I hope this finds all of my old friends well. I am so grateful too each one of you that have welcomed me back. The response has been very heart warming. Seven pages of mail in just 2 hours.
In short it has been a very hard few years. I am thankful to be so warmly welcomed back. I feel back at home.
I am very excited about seeing some of my old friends. I am even more excited to meet new ones.
I'm going to start a new web page again if anyone would like to expose the their fetish for the world to see. (Or yoy can wear a mask)I would love to help. I have nightly space availibal for setting up and recording some fun. ;-)
I am always seeking a bull type that could help degrade sissy slaves with me. The Alpha male type that thrives on belittling weaker men. The kinda man that enjoys pissing on a bitch boi then fucking me. Verbly degrading and reinforcing that only he enters my tight pussy. Also must enjoy creating and watching slaves eat cream pies.
Sissy , bitch ,cuckold, cross dressing, humiliation whores are always welcome. I'm very sure I left a few things out. :-)
As I mentioned above it has been a seriously hard few years. I have been reduced to having absoulty nothing of my own. I am seeking to rebuild my life quickly. I would love to start meeting and filming asap because I needed money yesterday. Lol. If you are interested we can chat.
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I'm back on. Let's make it interesting. |
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Alright now I have my internet..lets do this bitches! COme on crawl over here! |
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Ha, fun reliving this one!
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5/5/2012 4:06:29 PM
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So my cuck is so funny. I gave him my toy to use on his ass and he hurt himself. Omg so so funny to see his asshole get tight as he fell over to the floor. He cant move he is in so much pain and all I can do is laugh. I knew when I gave it to him what would happen and warned him. Omg so so funny . Fuck I wanna watch that again.
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Ha, fun reliving this one!
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5/5/2012 4:06:29 PM
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So my cuck is so funny. I gave him my toy to use on his ass and he hurt himself. Omg so so funny to see his asshole get tight as he fell over to the floor. He cant move he is in so much pain and all I can do is laugh. I knew when I gave it to him what would happen and warned him. Omg so so funny . Fuck I wanna watch that again.
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Had a friend over.. coming again tomorrow! |
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Sent out more links tonight! I think I might be abusing the fun. Lmao!
I can not wait to expand myself. I have over thirty pages of mail trying to read them and be fair. I hope I am met with understanding on this. I am sure there are ways that you could stand out.
I have been very busy as well. I want to remind all applying I am a single mom. I think this will filter many down. I am thinking one lucky winner a week will be graced with an online session. :) How will the winners be picked msg me.
Btw I just thought of this game as I was typing it. If you want to join the game please apply with a photo and one word GAME! I will have further orders from there! |
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That was fun last night sending out some links. I wonder who they were to!! Lmfao! I love exposing what a dirty nasty crossdressing whore you are. I bet some people faces this morning were like "wtf did I just see?" |
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Your a dirty slut who cant control your ego. Give up the fight , I will win! As long as you keep trying to get up I will keep knocking you down. One day you will understand why I am so 'mean' to you. Once you fall into total submission wonderful things will happen. My control is so crucial to making this relationship work. I am very dominate and I need a real sub pet. I want to be treated like a queen who is feared and obeyed. Figure yourself out and become the cock sucking bitch you know you are.
I love it so much and hope that you understand this. I am not being 'mean'. I am conditioning you. I’m training your sissy mind to be filled by me. I can only do this if you obey and allow me in. You must forget about yourself and think of what your mistress wants. I see that you could make a great sub , if you are ready. I hope you are.
I wrote this 5/25/12
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The question is do I follow through.
Yes, if you cum when I say no then you just have to deal with not seeing me. Your a dirty bitch who needs to learn to stop thinking of yourself. It takes away from me. Dont be selfish and get mad because you chose to disobey. I own you and you will stop thinking of yourself. If you did something wrong I dont care why you did it. JUST DONT FUCKING DO IT. |
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I remember this. Lol
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4/5/2012
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It so hot seeing my bitch pissed on by me! I love seeing him a dirty slut. Thinking this is the first time I have pissed , why did i not do it before. It was so wonderful seeing him squirm in the tub....
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obey me always and forever.................. meet my needs before i even tell you........be mine!
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I need to fill more of my time with the lifestyle. bored as hell! I need the rush! |
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Wish I had a dirty maid cooking right now! |
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If you are inquiring please be into everything except: Kids,blood, pets, and scat.
I am open to I think everything else. I wont do an online session without a girt of some sorts. Think about it. Other than that is waste of my time. I could be hanging out with a real person.
On another note I cant wait to play online again in both manners. I love showing off and having sex with bulls on cam. I like using sissy boys online and showing their friends.
Maybe tonight I will get all sexy on cam and see who is out there. |
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Dirty freaks is what I like. I love not being normal..
Fuck I need a boi I can tuck under my bed or throw in a closet. Caged or restrained until I see fit to use them. |
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“Keep me rather in this cage, and feed me sparingly, if you dare. Anything that brings me closer to illness and the edge of death makes me more faithful. It is only when you make me suffer that I feel safe and secure. You should never have agreed to be a god for me if you were afraid to assume the duties of a god, and we know that they are not as tender as all that. You have already seen me cry. Now you must learn to relish my tears.” |
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That's part of the joy of being a submissive. None of the decisions are yours. When you can't refuse anything and can't even move, those voices in your head go silent. All you can do, and all you are permitted to do, is feel |
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which lucky boi wants to serve online tonight |
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In need of a sissy boi to do house work! Nsa but if you are good:) |
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Public notice: Scott Gallagher is a loser. He begs to pay his ex to use him. He is a crossdressing , ball licking, bi-sexual , loser.
I am expanding my punishments to public degrading. His friends will all know how low he is.
I have always know how to get what I want from him. Now more than ever do I have the power!
There is no escape.
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My pussy is so wet. My mind lingers in thoughts of inflicting pain on a sub.
To bring someone to their limit and back. I want to see tears of relief from my toy.
How I have grown into a mean and harsh mistress. I expect only the best.
My eyes need to be laid upon hot red skin. I yearn for the weak words to be uttered. I am your toy. Please miss beat me till you need. |
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going to have to teach a bitch a lesson. :) Rihjt now too! |
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mmm this is fun... my pussy feels so good |
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Each day she grows stronger.
All physical functions
require acute concentration
unwavering vigilance.
Her invisible shackle's bind me.
Tornadoes my conscience
weakens muscles, bruises skin
Splinters the soul.
Her outstanding weapon?
Relentless emotional chaos! |
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Dark Mistress
We conquer all worlds,
Sweet creature: melt my soul,
freshly thawed, vulnerability exposed.
Eager for unbridled wickedness,
within lilting rhythms of your magic.
So inviting, such interwoven seduction,
I discover that you are indeed, She.
The Mistress who cannot be denied,
so take my hand, I shall guide you,
while you, Dark sweet demigod,
Guide me to intoxicating magic,
magic that is you: and you alone.
Pour your evil charms upon me,
Stoke dying embers of my neglected power.
See the flames rekindled;
feel the comforting ice of my being,
savour my destructive cold fire.
Let me soothe you in return,
offering delicious despicable deeds.
Havoc wrought in your name.
The demonic glow inside grows,
until I fear nothing, Dark Mistress.
I am exalted in this vile inferno,
A conflagration of our own creation.
Dark destiny shall not desert us,
but shall become the favoured guide.
I shall never be without you,
Dark Mistress, and together,
We conquer all worlds.
© Paul Chafer 2014
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But oh, how slowly minutes roll
When absent from her eyes,
That feed my love, which is my soul:
It languishes and dies.
John Wilmot |
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Well I get to be 29 for the next year..and then...Dirty thirties!
I wonder how much more dirty? Cant wait! |
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Omg wanna use my strap on |
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Feeling like smothering my pussy all over someones face. |
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Made it through about five pages of mail!:)
Pretty horny now I must say!
So many fresh ideas come to my mind.
I really am sick and twisted! |
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Nothing planed for the evening. Just sitting at home. Well now is a good time to go through my 16 pages of mail! |
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I am very into the idea of making men cry in shame. I want to see real tears when I break them.
I also am wanting to push the pain limits. I fucking love my life.
An ex once spoke of having a stable of hookers..well maybe I will have a stable of sissy bois.
The thought of a barn and sissy bois filling it like livestock. Omg it is amazing. |
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I am sure my ex enjoyed sucking cock. I know how much he turned into a lil fag.
I am sure looking with excitement to see two subs sucking.
I am still waiting on another fifty still owed. Yes he pays me to degrade him. He understands after so long that he is so gross. This is the only way.
His friends he wants to be disclosed to as a sissy is costing him too. Each of those friends hand picked by me. Watching him cum while I am emailing them and taking money is pure comedy. |
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Warning If you mail to me is: Pointless , stupid, asking what I believe to jerk off with, or abusive. I will not read or reply.
Please dont waste my time or your own time. |
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I wanna tie someone up and inflict some pain! |
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So horny today! Cleaning up house from the last few days. It is always fun picking up from play.
It is kinda like looking back in rewind. |
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Last night was so much fun. I disclosed how much of a loser my ex really is. My bank account in bigger now.
I can still see him in my mind. Looking up almost crying at my feet. The little slut begging me to take his money and send pics of him to friends.
I have started small only to dig in deeper and deeper. He now has a youtube page admitting to how big of a sissy loser he really is.
I planted this idea over a year ago. I never imagined he would be sniffing his own ass while jerking off. So pathetic I would not even touch him.
As I sent the first picture of this nasty boi, his cock throbbed. His face winced in shame. I know though his load feels lighter knowing he is not hiding his true self.
Oh there is so much more to come. I am going to take vid of the next time I piss on his head. (that brings something to mind) I am going to share it so everyone knows.
That reminded me of last night. This fool was so drunk he pissed through his dress. He forgot to lift it and soaked himself. He then sniffed it while cumming on himself. |
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Good memories!
I once had a slave who ate his own cum off of some celery.
I save used condoms for him upon return from a family trip!
I also had him fill his ass with water until he came.
I believe I even had him fuck the plunger.
I forgot how much fun the cam can be. |
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My lover's got humour
She's the giggle at a funeral
Knows everybody's disapproval
I should've worshipped her sooner
If the Heavens ever did speak
She is the last true mouthpiece
Every Sunday's getting more bleak
A fresh poison each week
'We were born sick,' you heard them say it
My church offers no absolutes
She tells me 'worship in the bedroom'
The only heaven I'll be sent to
Is when I'm alone with you
I was born sick, but I love it
Command me to be well
Amen. Amen. Amen
Take me to church
I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your feet
I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life
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My ex begging me to be his mistress again! :) Total and complete control of everything. Sound like it could be fun.
I want it all.
I had him over the other night just to see how true he really is. I had his nasty dirty head in the toilet begging me to piss on his head. Poor lil shit could not even look me in the face after.
He is a broken man. His mind divided by the love of shame and what would his friends think. Well they and he shall find out soon enough.
The first step of public lifestyle ..I sent him to the gas station with his pretty lil make-up on. One small step for a cuckold one giant step for sissy bois all over the world. Lmafo
Anyway ..... |
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Back online again. Internet was down for a bit.
Hoping to have some fun tonight. Post more in a bit! |
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Some fun last night. Much need release. Always makes me desire more.
I need much more. I cant wait to pull out my strap on the next time I play. I miss that the most! |
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Inviting a friend over tonight. Serving me is one of his dreams. He never gets enough. I keep dragging him lower and lower.
I have brought a once well respected man to the lowest points he has ever been. He has broken himself into submission. He wanted what he could not stand to handle.
Even at that point he still comes and begs for more. He knows it is no mans land without me. The only one he could ever be his true filthy self with. |
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Submission..... I live for making men submit to me. As a small lady it entertains me to see the power I have. The control you can gain with a touch or thought. I love to have control over a group of men. Interesting having every need met at once..... |
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please bear with me as I have nine pages of mail. I am only one person ..lol ! |
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4/5/2012
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It so hot seeing my bitch pissed on by me! I love seeing him a dirty slut. Thinking this is the first time I have pissed , why did i not do it before. It was so wonderful seeing him squirm in the tub....
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Wrote this over 2 years ago!
I am new to this whole thing. The truth is I was afraid and uneducated about cuckolding. I have a new outlook on life now. I feel great and love the lifestyle. I am a natural born Dom. I can’t believe how great it feels to have my bitch worship me. I love that he thinks of me night and day. Most of all I love the deep connection I have with him. This is not a game I was born to dominate him! Feels wonderful! Heading out tonight.. Mmmmm |
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Cant wait to share some dirty ideas! |
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Getting back in the game!
It seems a bit hard but my love for the lifestyle keeps me seeking.
I can not wait to be using my strapon again. I miss the tight straps on my hips. I love the power it makes me feel. The pure joy of standing over a broken man. His desires to much for him to handle and leaving him in a weak little boi.
My mind is a wonderful sick thing. I have only become more and more powerful over the years. I have learned just make a sub go crazy. I love to study the mind and how to use it for my sexual gain!
My evil smile pokes through knowing I can control someones mind. My sexual being is stronger than ever. |
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I am open to all questions. Please ask away! I many likes and few dislikes. As a mistress I love degrading, worship, and inflicting pain. As a cuckoldress I love other alpha males. Nothing is hotter in a bedroom than having an alpa and a sissy boi! |
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