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| UPDATE 1.18.14
I am taking a hiatus from dating in order to learn more about myself. When I do meet the right person, I want to come to them in the best condition possible, not as a problem for them to fix! Although I am very open to non-sexual play in the context of friendship, I am in no way looking for anything long term or exclusive, nor anything quick and baseless.
Now for the general overview :)
I'm looking for the right Domme. Someone who's looking for a real, all encompassing relationship, into which a natural hierarchy of her guiding and me supporting is simply what works for us. There are oh so many fun things I'd like to try, exploring your curiosities and my limits, playing around with concepts of power and gender, but mostly I want to find someone whom I can grow into.
Creativity is very important to me. I mostly write music and sing and play guitar quite well, but I also dabble in world building, with an idea to write later in life. I'd like to find another creative person, one who wants to orient her life around her art, and could make use of my support and collaboration to make that happen.
I'm an intellectual, an atheist and skeptic. I like to analyze and discuss art, media, philosophy, gender, and science (especially astronomy). I'm an avid gamer. I like to watch movies and TV and ponder the motivations of the actors, directors, and producers for making the choices they did.
I am a sub in all aspects of life, and definitely a beta male. Actually, I view myself as separate from either gender, as I've come to understand that I don't really get how men think, but that I don't quite think like a woman, either. However, I do feel I lean toward female, as connection and emotion are the most important aspects of being attracted to someone else for me. I'd like to find someone who feels she approaches the world in a more "male" fashion.
I like to be obedient. It drives me crazy to disappoint people. I like to know I'm being good, and serve happily. I just feel safe in someone else's control. I do enjoy pain, but really, I enjoy knowing that someone is enjoying my suffering. I like being psychologically overpowered, and having my buttons pushed. I would really like to have someone explore all my limits and push them, whether in edgeplay or simply mental manipulation, but on the other side, I really want someone to be cute with or at least for. I have a mind that enjoys these contradictions.
One of my deepest fetishes is cuckolding, and that's not easy to admit. I don't want to discuss it in detail here, but, although I don't want a purely cuckolding relationship, it is a powerful aspect of my psyche.
I want to find someone who learns me as I learn her. I want to be the guitar, and you the player, and the music we make together be something that mystifies others. I want them to wonder what we have, and to know that no one has shared what we do.
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