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No PIC ..No CHAT!!!!!!!!!
For those who wanted a better explanation of my view towards my subs/slaves here is a short synopsis of my feelings.
In my opinion the role of a submissive man is such that the submissive man, must submit directly to his Goddess on a daily basis, living a "crucified life" in which he says "not my will, but yours be done."
I am not saying that he ought to abandon the place he has made for himself say at work. No, a good/true submissive male will exercise initiative, take responsibility, and give direction while he sets the pace and directs the affairs of his vocation..........however,the true sub will do so in a way that places his Dommina's welfare above his own comfort and convenience. .........He must often sacrifice for her benefit, saying no to his own desires.
He is one who willingly, joyfully submits to her authority in his life, and his authority is always his Goddess, his mistress, his Domme...
For that devotion the rewards to him will be great... For she is the one with all the control all the power, and has the ability to punish any and all rebellion out of him should he choose to disobey her. A sub who dishonors his boss, by cheating, speaking disrespectfully, or living in a state of anarchy and rebellion, cannot expect to hold his Dommina's hand or heart for very long. For any good Dommina opposes the proud and gives grace to the humble....
In the dance of D/s, you will follow as I lead, taking you just where I want you....... |
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Exploring and expanding your limits, with love and absolute control |
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Well, I would like to thank all the subs sending me Email. I am in search for a sub, some one REAL, into pleasing his goddess...
No fakes need waste my time. If you are into pleasing then send me an Email..But READ all profile before you do so. |
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Member of the fem Dom Society:)
femdommesociety.
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If you are responding to any queries I have made of you or just sending me an Email...Make sure that you do so with the utmost respect....I find that beauty of mind and character super seeds any physical beauty. |
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To any one who is attempting to intrude in my world to ask for training sessions. I am DEMANDING. If you're a wimp and cannot take orders don't bother me..All you'll do is annoy me. ...
next, I am NOT A WELFARE system. if you want training be ready to pay the price for my time.... NO Cheap ass losers trying to get their nut for free need apply!!
if youre a "poor college student" apply for a grant i am NOT interested in you in any way shape or form. Come to me AFTER you have become someone and can afford to waste my time.
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My Sub ( unforgiven) has quit smoking :) congrats to him..... ( smoooooooooooooch)
he is quiet the submissive one. My friends are very happy to see sub's such as he exist and that one can indeed have her cake and eat it too. .....I am thinking of loaning him out to other up and comming Domminas so they can experience what a true submissive male is all about, given she has run into many newbies who seem to think submission is another work word for "sex me up ".
A true submissive male is not some wise ass wannabe who thinks he can talk shit and top from the bottom. They make it hard for us (Domminas) to move forth by wasting our precious time and playing games.
Remember you must always speak with respect ask permission and thank your lucky starts you were given a chance to communicate with a Dommina. On the other hand little girls playing Dommina, ruin it for those of us who do take CONTROL seriously, and do believe in female superiority over the male gender. To be frank i would have no problem at all kicking the ass of a fake ass little man bitch who wasted my time. leaving the mark of my 5 inch heel on his forehead as a tatoo.... :) |
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Note: I have a 24/7 slave ...Not interested in anything other than online training for any one who is a novice or far away......... |
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Today is a nice chilly day and all seems right with the world. Just finished chattting with my sub ( unforgiven) heading into our 4th month of the relationship and as time has moved forth we have oved into a very honest and positive part of our relationship. he is indeed a rare man, and i am glad i found him.
Kisssssssssss Tony !!! |
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KNOW YOUR ROLE:
I am Superior! My wants come before you needs, afterall nothing you need is more important then something I want. you WILL do WHATEVER it takes to keep me happy.
As my slave, you will be loyal, respectful, and dedciated. you must also hold a stable, well paying job. Like I said earlier...I am a lot to handle and sometimes one income isn't enough. I am not interested in switches, fair weather subs, assbites seeking something in return, or chit chat. If this describes you, then leave immediatly!
REAL TIME SESSIONS:
Occasionally I offer real time to those who serve me. This is given as a reward. In otherwords...you earn it, DON'T EXPECT IT! If and when I feel you have proven yourself, I may decided to meet you face to face. I am not interested in fuckwads who think they are gonna meet me right away. If I decide you are worthy enough to be in my presence R/T, I will let you know. HOWEVER, you will travel to me at your own expense. |
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Email is working well now yayyy!! Thanx to collarme staff ... |
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still cannot recieve Email here at collarme.
if any one knows of any other sites such as this please send me info at my aol Email address.
Contradiction01atAOL.com |
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Collarme's Email system is still fucked up it seems. I can read mail but not respond. However I did attempt to respond to inquiries yet the mail sent is never read. I have over 50 mails sent that have not been read over the period of a few days.
Any one with any info on how to let collarme know about this glitch, I urge you to contact them and inform them of their failing.
An alternate form of Email for me is contradiction01 at aol.com |
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Still under the weather but feeling better, and thank you all for the kind "get well" words.
I had some on eask what i mean by "generous when speaking about my sub, unforgiven. Well, in short I mean everything. he has a generous nature, he shares his feelings, his emotions as well as his uncomfortable moments. he is not greedy with sharing daily events that occur in his life and he offers me much attention most of the time.
Given the fact that we live in different states, our relationship is growing fast an in a very pleasing manner. he has not denied me anything nor has he negated to complete a task given in a timely manner.
I have found a rare connection with him, that supersedes distance, Its a spiritual and emotional conection i have only experienced very few times in my life.
I have a feeling we will be together for a very long time...
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Am still under the weather, but i took some time off and spent the better part of the day getting a pedicure with my girl friends treated by my sub unforgiven.
Goddesskatrina, who is also a member on this site, is one of my closest friends, we go out on a regular basis, she enjoyed it (the pedicure) as much as I and goddess Stephanie did.
She is looking for a generous submissive like my unforgiven to share her dominant ways with. If any one who reads this profile, feels they are worthy check her out her profile and be polite. Else you will have 2 Dommina's to deal with.
Kisses to my sub unforgiven... |
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NOTE: NOT interested in ANY male OR female Domes/Domminas, ONLY in submissive/slaves.
Get that!!!!!!!!!! IF you have DOM in your profile I am NOT interested. Don't be a lame ass and try anyway. |
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Thank you all for the well wishing and wanting to contact me to send a get well card or flowers. I do appreciate it ... if interested in sending a salutation via 1800 flowers I can email you my business address...
thanx again to all |
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have been sick with a bad cold for a few days. Blahhhh... My sub unforgiven has made the days better with his interaction and generous ways...But still I hate being sick..
C |
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where have all the true submissive gone? NOT one who calls himself a sub. yet is all about HIM, and HIS needs and wants. Pretending to be a sub. so he can get his needs and desires met. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr |
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Though currently in a very fulfilling D/s relationship, with a very sweet sub, I find that due to time and availability constraints on his part I am looking to add to our little group.
I enjoy the current time spent with my sub, however I need more attention for ME. I am someone who requires attention and dedication. When those important elements are not present 100% I find I drift off...
Please make sure you have the time to spend attending to my needs, via cam, or phone. I want to be able to get a hold of you 24/7 at any time of the day or night, should I not be able to sleep. We need to interact at this level 1) to find if we are compatible for it will be self evident in a month or 2 if we are not.
To contact me please send photo and a description of your expectations within a D/s relationship.... you must NOT be married or have any kids, be between the ages of 25-45, have a job, be clean cut, in GOOD shape, and have no baggage i.e.; ex G friends stalking you etc.
So lets chat and see what happens :)
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OK out of the blue, I received this message from some self proclaimed "dominant" now keep in mind i do not know this moron nor have we ever spoken in any way EVER, thus his comments though clearly child like in vernacular and syntax leave me wondering, if any one has escaped from any mental hospitals lately."message from GhostBlueWolf47:
You are not devotion the rewards to anything you never clean your slopy clit lip never were wash all my friends slave said to me smelly and taste awful look alike lamb would you please wash your self up how dirty seem you never bath wash yourself. suggest you go join group slopy whore.com you fucks leave my friends alone clear fuck cheap talker. put your soap your mouth if you are dominant should be classic but you not your self lowest like crap."
The reason I post this message is to show you "REAL" folks, that trash is indeed out there beware of so called "Dominants" ask questions and go with your instincts.
Ms. C |
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Though it took a bit of time for tony to see or understand how and what I am about, he has now seen that I as his Domme can choose to take and/or relinquish control whenever I wish. Moving in and out of D/s as many times as it takes to fit my mood.
We can spend most or a lot of time as a conventional loving couple, however when the mood strikes I have the say so, or the prerogative to change into my role as his Domme. With this understanding comes a feeling of moving forward and things could not be any better. As I allow him deeper into my life, I feel more at ease with letting him do things for me. By allowing him to do something for me or attain something for me, it seems to break down my barrier and further solidify him into my life and into my reality.
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Its OK to take one step back if your going to take two steps forward. |
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My desire is and has been to find a submissive male who is willing to put his mistress needs and desires above his own....His must be secondary, throwing a bone of time here and there or when he is not doing anything better is NOT what I am looking for...Me before all else, first and foremost. My desires should be what drives him...
His need to please me should supersede his own needs.........
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Everything is going well, our (unforgiven and myself) interaction is allowing for us to get to know eachother and deal with our idiosyncrasies. Tony has been (for the most part) very complacent. I am quiet happy with the choice I made for a sub. So far things are working out and we are moving forward on our journey together.
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" I said to my soul, be still, and wait without hope, for hope would be hope for the wrong thing"
Hope,love and faith, are all in the waiting. What will happen will happen. There is time for hope until there is not more time, but time has no end. |
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Having run across so may fakes and "wannabes" i find it difficult to believe that my pet is as true as I had perceived him to be at the onset of our interaction. His sincerity re: pleasing and being highly compliant is refreshing and very pleasing.
I foresee things moving forward in a positive manner and our relationship to grow and become very positive if this trend continues.
Looking forward to our 1 month aniversary.
Ms. C |
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So far so good, things are progressing favorably thus far. Looking forward to whatthe future may bring :) |
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I hear so much here on this forum about "wanting to serve her and her needs" However upon further investigation and or communication it seems that most of you so called "subs" are about is self gratification. Exactly the opposite of what a true submissive is about.
Even though I am a female supremacist, I am also a lover of men. men who are in touch with their true submissive feelings and desires, not men who are interested in getting off no matter who they have to fool to attain that end. We Dommina's put a lot of passion and emotion into our submissive and embrace their submission with much love and dedication. D/s TPE enhances the relationship we share, and in many cases deepens it more so than say a vanilla relationship.
So next time you state " i want to serve her needs above my own" make sure you feel that way all the time, not just when youre horny... |
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Some of you have attempted to gain my attention by offering a "tribute" of some kind and wondered in shock and surprise that I am highly offended by that offering. ..
I will explain to you my mindset as it pertains to tributes and gifts.
To me a gift is an offering from the heart. It is an intimate occurrence that takes place or should take place between two individuals who have serious feelings and adoration for each other. As a Domme I have a hard time accepting gifts of any kind unless it comes from someone I have been with over a period of time and something substantial and beautiful has bonded us together. Though I realize in certain situations it is a form of expression and devotion to the one you have feeling towards. But for me, I do NOT accept gifts or any type of "tribute" from strangers who use it as a form of getting my attention I see it as an attempt to buy me. If you attempt to gain attention via that route it will be negative and it may also send you to the "ignore" realm.
Again, in my opinion, To accept gifts and 'tributes" belittles the relationship. Whilst you are getting to know someone you concentrate on personality and other personal attributes. their wallet should not be a consideration unless you are a "financial Domme AKA hooker," if all you care about is getting gifts then you miss out in the essence of the personality you are seeking to enslave.
I find it excessively difficult to receive gifts. They are very intimate in my mind and thus ONLY accepted from people I deem worthy and know well and wish to acknowledge I also do not give lightly. I love the feeling of looking for something special for my special person. I know the feeling I receive when they receive it and thus try to be graceful when I receive a token of their affection.But again, if i do not know you and do not care to know you, you will NOT be able to buy me through gifts and or "tibutes".
I think of gifts "tributes" in these terms. Who do you give gifts to? to special and close friends and family on b-days Christmas anniversaries etc. They are an offering of friendship and devotion/love to that person. I do not offer gifts to buy someone's attention or friendship. Those types of people i do not wish to have near or around me. in fact people that know me know that IF I accept a gift from some one that person is close and dear to my heart, and thus i step outside the realm of my discomfort about receiving gifts and invite them in and receive gracefully and hope they know that by taking their gift I am also giving back something, and that is my devotion/love friendship ... For if I do not know you, I neither accept Nor will I give any gifts and or tributes.
I think there are 900 numbers you can give "tributes" to and receive a couple of minutes of temporary release. IF you seek that good riddens, but do NOT i repeat do NOT seek it here...
PS: I did receive a gift from my pet (unforgiven) and by accepting it, I hope he knows what deep and emotional meaning it has for me. I also gave him a gift, and that too holds deep meaning. Thus, I will not belittle anything we have by accepting anything from anyone, for he is the only one thus far that holds my attention and my heart.
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It has long been my belief that to keep a man happy you have to enslave him yet allow him the freedom to come to me on his own on his knees. It has to be effortless for him to do so, in that he will have such a deep desire and need, that he would do anything to be with me and by me. In doing so, I know I can keep him entertained aroused and very happy and content.
Keeping my pet in a constant state of arousal keeps him attentive, domesticated and very obedient. he looses all desire of "self" and I become all he thinks about. Keeping my pets mind on me of course is for his own good. I know how to take care and protect him, yes even from himself. I love the attention, so he feeds me as I feed him what he needs. He is constantly hard, keeping him focused on his sexuality, keeps him bound to me, in a way that can only be described as total mind control.
You may ask are men that simple mined? Can they be totally controlled by their sexual appetites. the only answer I can give you is the one that I am sure of, and that is YES?
Through "operant conditioning" my pet has learned and will continue to produce a specific response to a particular stimulus :) . In addition through deprivation and reinforcement schedules, I keep my pet wanting and needing me, the likes of which he has not ever experienced before. After all it's all about my needs, but keeping him wanting me, satisfies that need for me, as well as feeds his need to have someone to adore and love.
He ( unforgiven) is indeed a fast learner, and a very obedient sub. For if he is not, he will feel my wrath, and as we know, it can be quiet severe.
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Reading through many of the sub/slave profiles I ask myself ... where has the eloquence of a well thought out profile gone? Do you people seriously think you have any chance in hell of grabbing my or any self respecting Dommina's attention with a "i seek a dominant woman to take me and use me" as a profile...
IF you have this type of unimaginative thoughtless profile it speaks volumes of your personality and desires. You are BORING, and I would not even grace you with a response.I always have fallen for an articulate cunning linguist :) to grab and hold my attention. YOU are being interviewed by me. Thus, make yourself stand above the rest, or else get the f*)&^)* away from me and stop polluting my time with your drivel.
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Collared Unforgiven today!!!!!!!!
he deserved my collar like no other...Kisss
date to note (7/23/05) |
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Its early, and i am hungry, as I look over at tony he is sleeping like a baby on hias belly with his dog laying on the bed....what a couple of good pets.
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tony has proven himself to me daily. His desire to comply with my every utterance is highly endearing. I am looking to test his limits when it comes to humiliation in an attempt to humble his spirit. A humble sub. delights me and evokes a maternal instinct that both makes me want to cudle/protect him.
Though phenotypically smaller that tony, certain submissive acts from a male, evoke a protective instinct in me. By learning to put up with, and feel his humiliation, tony, is moving forward in his submissive training and eventual total surrender to me and all I am about. I plan quiet a few tests for him to pass. re: his humiliation training, he passed the one given to him today with flying colors.
One of my most favorite things to do with tony is tease and tantalize him, until he's willing to do anything, and his weak manliness is showing through. Then Just as he is begging for release, I enjoy leaving him swollen with anticipation and desire and go off without allowing the much sought after release. To hear groan in dissatisfaction and pain, makes my day!!!!!!
My goal is to OWN him mind body and soul. It is a gradual process, but I have the utmost faith in my ability and my technique to accomplish this formidable task. I want to be as part of his life as the air he breaths and the water he drinks.
I have been receiving a large amount email and IMs from "subs/slaves" and their ineptness in attempting first contact with a Domme.
I must state that the approach and perhaps ultimate "courtship" of a female Dominant, by submissive or subservient men is a delicate dance. One needs to show acceptable and appropriate behavior (manners) towards a Domme before any secondary exchange can take place. if you have any questions please feel free to ask (unforgiven) AKA tony for any advice he may have ... Given he had what it takes to not only capture but sustain my attention.. |
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Hmmmm, still waiting on my pets (Unforgiven)"buzzer" to come..I have this deep craving to ZAP him, and see him react to the electric current flowing through him, initiated by ME...
Weather is still hot and HOTTER, I long for the winter months to flood in. His first package is going off this morning should be at his home in 2-3 days...He is a sexy lill devil with much humor, sensitivity and sex appeal. He wears his chastity device like a champ. Though it pinched him a bit at the onset. He found a way to alter it so the fit is more bearable. I like the fact that he has to sit to urinate like a little sissy girl. He hates it when I refer to him in that way, so of course I have to keep referencing him in that vernacular :)
well off to Lab. will post more later.
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My precious pet (unforgiven) wore his chastity device all night...Though a bit uncomfortable for a first time wear, the sight of him locked tight made my insides melt with warmth and excitement.
In addition, watching him sleep as he tossed and turned whilst looking for a comfy position of his most precious Lower anatomical regions made me admire his resolve to please....I found a KEEPER |
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though I may have been a bit harsh in requiring tony ( unforgiven) to go cold turkey, regarding his cig habit, it was meant to shock him into abstinence. I have to give him props for trying, and cutting down to 1/5 of his daily consumption.
Perhaps a more humane method should be implemented rather than cold turkey...So, I will concede to 5 cig. a day maximum, and will lessen that number as he becomes accustomed to the increasingly diminished amount of nicotine entering his system.
Though our conversation started off shaky, it progressed nicely to a realm I am quiet agreeable to. My pet is as always making happy. |
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This morning, I gave my pet (UNFORGIVEN) a directive. I am quiet confident he will follow it to the letter. He seems to have an innate ability to anticipate my need and take action towards its conclusion before any vocalization has been uttered. His desire is to please me by any means I see fit.
Our F/m D/sTPE relationship is akin to a slow dance where my sub has and is learning to anticipate my moves and flow with the sound of my being before I even utter a command. He is very articulate and intelligent ( something that attracted me from the onset) and I believe this is an element that allows for his precognition towards my needs.
I am a very sexual being, and though not the only element of a relationship, his constant state of "readiness" for my use in any fashion I see fit is highly arousing. He is trying to quit smoking and I have directed him towards that means by finding a suitable substitution for the act of smoking and to just cease his cigarette habit. I have faith he will do this given there is NO other alternative. I wish him to be in good health and to be around as long as possible, with his habit standing in the way of my total control over him, I feel it may end to be a "deal breaker". After all, a sub should have only ONE true master, and she should be his ONLY vise.
If his desire to smoke supersedes his desire to please me then he is not who I suspected he was and thus not the one I will continue to be with. I refuse to take second place to any vice. I believe his high self esteem and intellectual capability will see him through this difficult time, knowing full well what I desire is not only for me but his own good also. I wish to him to be healthy and around for many years to please and serve me.
If he continues to serve me as he has thus far, I will reward him with some "things" he spoke of in our conversation this morning. As I look towards my future I foresee him by my feet, pleasing and anticipating as well as acclimate my desires. |
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Ok this 100+ heat is making want to kick some weather ass..... I can't stand the heat, its times like thsese Alaska is lookin sooooooooo good :P |
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Another good day spent "playing" and chatting with my sub. Unforgiven. His desire to please seems to be genuine and heartfelt. He is feeling more comfortable with talking to me about what his comfort level is regarding his limits and issues. I must say I find I enjoy talking to him about what he would and would not do and am feeling the "grove" start to take hold.
He is a very sensual and sexy sub. with very few limits apart from the ones that I myself would not cross. Compatibility factor is high and getting higher. Today's fruit basket was huge just like yesterdays. I must admit, I love the attention and heartfelt desire on his part to keep me from wanting anything at all. ( just the way it should be)
Good thing I have company and they will help consume this most generous gift once again.
When I said I "loved fruit" i dint mean a fruit basket every day.....Though very much appreciated LOL...
I can hardly wait till he gets his toy so I can "BUZZ" him as I see fit...His passion for my comfort, desires is unsurpassed. Thus, for his obedience and generosity, I plan on making sure he knows that I appreciate him and am glad I took the initiative to contact him on here...He just may be the one that I have been seeking for so long ... and finally found....I have a real good feeling about where things may go.
I have to stress here for any sub's who may be reading this. Total and complete compliance coupled with devotional attention to ones mistress is such a turn on for your Dommes. It's this desire to serve and please that makes us want to do all that we can to make sure all your desires as well as ours are met consistently and unequivocally.
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Wow how sahhhweeet!!!!
Today after a hot day at the university teaching anatomy to our future doctors, I come home hungry and worn out to a most beautiful, perfectly chilled fruit basket! Within it are most of my favorite fruits!!!!
Looks like my most precious pet unforgiven, anticipated my needs and had ordered a fruit basket for his mistress. Now that's what I love!! He took the initiative upon anticipating a need and gracefully bestowed upon me something so sweet and thoughtful!!!
I think I may have to pay extra special attention to his needs and reciprocate in kind with some extra special reward on my part. Hmm I have to ponder this :)
Thanx tony my little slave boy..smoooooooooch!! |
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My day is starting out good. Still getting over the humps of starting a new TPE D/s relationship. My new prospective sub shows much promise. After a few misunderstandings and a couple of near misses, we are off on a good footing. His desire to please supersedes any adversities we have encountered thus far.
He has rushed to make amends for any miscommunication and misunderstandings that may have taken place. I find myself growing fonder of his willingness to please and be taken over totally. I see much promise, and hope he realizes that just as he is rushing to please me I also am taking steps to make him feel more secure and certain about our new founded relationship.
Unforgiven (my new sub) seems to have the type of nature that is inherent in a true submissive. It comes from within, and permeates. His chastity belt will be there soon and he will be locked in, to be released only for my pleasure. In addition, he has several other "devices" that he is willing to endure to keep me at constant control state over his sexuality and manhood.
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PS: Another note on "moneyDommes" there is NO such thing..."money Dom." is a friggen HOOKER too lazy to get a real job and support herself...Save your cash and if you MUST have a hooker...Go to any seedy part of any town and pay 10 bux to one..at least they are up front with what they are and what they seek...and they dont mess with any ones head.....if you don't agree with I am saying, you can kiss my A$$ |
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My quest for a Host/Domain is still ongoing, having a hard time finding a host that is reasonable in price and yet allots for enough room to add pictures and what not. Having to deal with car repair bills taxes for 2 homes (and house payments, not to mention insurance) my Mom lives in one, and as she took care of me whilst growing up, my turn has come to make sure she is living the life an older dommina deserves to live in (my) her own home. As you can imagine 3,000 a month on house payments only, tends to weigh heavy on ones pocket book.
Normally that would not be a problem, however, since I got taken by a scam and lost my savings last month (which was quiet substantial) I have entered a realm I was not used to experiencing and thus am not familiar with, and that is "budgeting" I shudder at the thought of having to budget my own finances. I would spend freely and frivolously in the past, and the slap in the face of having lost my savings has brought me to a harsh reality.
I grew up never having to worry about money, we always were well off and if I wanted/needed a trinket I simply went to the bank withdrew what was needed and purchased the object of my desire... That luxury is gone now, and due wholly to my idiocy at allowing myself to fall prey to a scam the FBI stated many have fallen for (The fact that I was not the only one somehow does not give me any satisfaction.)
I sit here now, at work, whilst my students are doing their lab work, spending some free time I have on looking for an inexpensive Domain and host to create my website on. .. It almost feels beneath me to look for bargains, its something I have not ever had a need to do before and it does not sit well in my gut. .. However, as the old adage goes when, if you do not learn to roll with the punches, you may as well lay down and cry ( or something like that)...thats not an option for this Domme, I believe in taking a time out and regrouping, then going back at something full force.
This brings me to my current quest for creating my own web space and venting and exposing some of the uncanny scams out there. My particular scam was the invention of the 'Russian Mafia" or so the FBI informed me when I contacted my bank and they in turn contacted the FBI after my funds were gone. It irks me to no end that some lazy MF, sits around all day thinking of scams to purloin others hard earned funds.
For the most part I have accepted it (hardest days were the first couple of weeks) but when I have to spend my time looking for a "bargain host" the madness comes back with a fury. ..< takes deep breaths to calm down>
In the meantime on the other personal front, my pet is spending his day with a "friend" and her daughter playing at a theme park. To those of you who sent me email with various compliments and personal erotic fantasies, thanx. I love to hear what is in other sub's minds. ... I feel bored today, so feel free to send me your best fantasies.... |
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Today my pet Tony, got a wild hair up his ass and acted what I hope to be out of character. Upon further communication and reflection all went well, and he can thank his lucky stars distance is saving his ass from being beat red and welty.
I understand at the onset there are insecurities that set in. But one thing he needs to understand is that if I had any reservations I would not have taken things this far with him. I like to take things slow and see how he responds before I would move to the next stage of anything. Trust is a slow process and he better know, I am not flighty nor do I have a delicate disposition. I am strong and hard and my looks belie the devil hidden within me.
I like to own totally and once chosen that sub/slave is expected to surrender his all and be without a will of his own...after all only ONE can Carry the whip and wear the strap on...and its NOT my slave...
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There is something about erotic domination that trips my trigger. Its hard to believe that I have found someone who is so compatible to me in this manner. Every time we chat I get the urge to use him as one would use a favorite vibrator. Objectification is very prevalent in my need to dominate my pet. Yet I like to share or start of with a soft type of domination. Leading him by his own pleasure, mentally moving him in the direction where I want to go.Once there I can easily slip into Domme mode and focus our passion and eroticism into whatever distortion I wish it to take at that time. I like to get to this place of grace gradually, journeying together as opposed to agreeing to meet there individually. It is very sexual and spiritually energizing to reach the exact moment together.
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well, he (my pet) ordered the chastity device I had a preference towards..How good of him, Makes me happy to know that he is so compliant and so far, things are looking good...His compliance makes me HOT...I want to see him on his knees with his hands tied behind his back and his chastity device locked in place... I need to purchase a nice pair or thigh high boots to he can kiss them....But all in good time... so far, I have some plans that may include forced feminization for his little butt to act out for my pleasure...LOL..I love it, when I think of how uncomfortable he is going to be wearing my undies...Nothing more amusing than a macho man, being forced to be feminine, by wearing dainty girlie panties....muahahaha :) |
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We got into the chastity device discussion and my pet expressed an interest in procuring one of my favorite devices. I also fantasize about CBT, however, being a lover of the male form, besides admiring some of the instruments of "torture" i would not use them to inflict any serious discomfort upon my pets genital region. I want his body to be My temple and the only abuse he is to attain would be from me and for me...( I'm selfish like that) The thought of him using the chastity device when he is not playing with me (even whilst sleeping) is highly erotic... He is locked up and ONLY let out to "play" when talking to me...I love that thought.........
The Stockroom.com has so many lovely "toys and instruments of torture/desire..I am very fond of that place...........
I am starting to enjoy this time of discovery with mith my pet.......I look forward to much more interaction and much more "play" ... |
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Well, I have found someone who seems compatible and am giving then my consideration....... We will see how things go and where this may lead.
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I went on one of those "link journeys" today, you know, where you visit a random site you see in a search hit or something, and you follow a link, and then maybe another, and soon you find yourself in some no man's land part of the internet.
Well, I found myself there today, and it was a site called Briansprediction.com (not worth linking, but you can type it in if you so desire). Anyway, the PREMISE of this site (because all good works of fiction have a premise) is that Brian one day decided to get his mind right, and in the process of mental/spiritual cleansing, he discovered the ability to have prophetic dreams.
So, he goes to sleep at night, and has prophetic dreams, and he wakes up and writes them down and draws pictures to illustrate his visions. Sometimes (where specified) he actually draws the pictures while he's sleeping.
Now, I am not sufficiently gifted in the graphic arts to pass judgement on his drawings, but they sort of look like what you'd get if you got drunk one night with some friends and played "hey let's draw pictures with our non-dominant hand!". They're just THAT good.
He claims to not want money (truth be told, I never saw anything indicating he wanted anything from his visitors). He also says that so many of his visions have come true, he doesn't keep track anymore. He discourages people from sending email, but published his home address. Uh...okay? What?
Anyway, after perusing through some of his past month's predictions, I came across one that was MUCH more detailed than the others. Most are vague, parlor-trick type predictions, with just enough substance to let your imagination fill in the blanks, thus proving his 'gift' is legit.
Anyway, the DETAILED prediction was about a house fire in Cleveland that killed 7 children and 2 adults. He predicted that, city, time, date, occurrence, and what have you, and I read it and thought "WOW, either he's a charlatan or he's truly gifted!"
Cool your jets, he's not gifted. It's the oldest internet trick in the book.
People ASSUME that an archive is inviolate, meaning that once you archive a page, it is static and unchanging forever. Truth be told, Brian's 'archive' pages are more a work in progress. I pulled up a google cache that crawled his April 2005 predictions BEFORE the fire occurred...and there was no such prediction. It appears he inserted it after the fact, and just left it there. No self horn blowing. No fanfare. Just a "let them find it on their own" sort of vibe, I guess.
Neat trick, and I wish I'd thought of it myself. I could have had LOADS of fun with that one. But other than getting my jollies duping morons, I have to wonder if that's all he gets out of it, or if there's some other deep seated need being fulfilled. Does he just need people to believe in him?
I just don't get it. But, then, that's normal. I don't get a lot of the shit I see. People are strange. You'd think I would know that by now.
Ah well, have a good one. See ya when I see ya |
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Today for reasons I do not wish to elaborate upon I am feeling happy...I mean ecstatically happy. Perhaps the word here is blessed. Today an event occurred that made me look at and take stock of who and what I am. I was made to look back upon my life and daily tribulations that came along with being in my shoes and truly feel "blessed" and know beyond a shadow of a doubt Life is good. At least life has been good to me (thus far).
Have you ever looked back on your life and thought yes, I am indeed a lucky person. Like many I have had my shares of unexpected events come forth and push me off my pedestal. I took some of those negative events harder than others. Some have even caused me to change my life's course in terms of career and the like. But over all I must state here and now to the cosmic "powers that be" have dealt me a great hand.
Were I given the chance to change anything would I? This is a hard question to ponder, but for today it was easy. NO.
The fact is, that certain events occur and at the time they happen, may not be what seems to us "Optimal." We may even not appreciate them as they happen. But down the line, days, weeks, perhaps even years, we see the merit of our decisions and smile to ourselves. I have. I did good. Sure I had help. Mostly for a stable family base unit. That is the most important factor I think. A mother and Father who loved protected and assisted me along my life's path. if I stumbled they were always there to help me up, make sure I was back on my feet. I wish I can be such a parent someday (like my parents).
Don't get me wrong I have had my share of assbites run across my path. But Having a loving stable base unit has allowed me to recognize and weed them out.
I try to not sweat the small stuff (though at times its very hard). I know if a bit of time is allowed to pass, the true nature of people will come through. It does no good to cry over events you have no control over. It is in or nature to learn from mistakes and thus the ability to recall and ponder past experienced will hopefully assist us in not repeating events (if negative) and repeat them (if positive). I truly believe no matter how someone "seems" initially, it is their long term personality that will shine through given enough interaction.........Thus, I am all for interaction....
So far, my "gut" feeling has been right on the money. Even when I chose to ignore that little voice in the back of my head on purpose. In the end I have come to recognize it for what it is. My intuition, perceptive insight, my first impression, the act or faculty of knowing or sensing without the use of rational processes; immediate cognition, what ever you want to call it, has been correct i would venture to say 99.5% of the time, ( +-.5 , for error ) < wink> LOL..
Today, I take stock of what and who I am, and what I have and have not accomplished thus far in my life, and i feel good. I feel blessed, pleasure and true contentment.Mmmmmmmmm Life rox !~!~!~!
Even life's annoyances that pepper my life now and them seem to be there to make me stronger. Without them I would not be as strong as I am now...:)
I love the world and all that is :)
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One of the things that annoys me about some people, is that they seem to think they can get some quotes (thinking perhaps that they are profound) and spew them off to you for no rime or reason. Quoting someone else's ponderables does not make you profound. Nor does it make you seem intellectual. Esp if that is the whole content of your communication.........I can do a google search and come up with several sites with interesting quotes. So please, don't bother me by sending me a string of them.....
On the other hand, some of you guys are adorable and very sexy.... Thanx |
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One more time...NO SWITCHES please..I am a PURIST..I only want a sub. or a slave..thats it....
Thanx for your cooperation in advance. |
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First, it states at the top of my profile "no PIC no chat" so why do you folks send me Email asking me "do you want my PIC?" First, just send the damn thing along with your introduction.... That means an introduction not a "hi I wanna b dominated" BE CREATIVE, we women get an average of 50-100 emails each time we log on..make yours count, its a friggen interview... YOU are applying for servitude.
I do not want an into like this "hi im josh," what the heck.......all that tells me is that you are BORING, and I do not wish to communicate with you..so save your time and mine. .........Oh yea ATTACH A PHOTO PLEASE... |
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Damn some of these "submissive men" do get under my "collar" ha ha...but ... i do itch to teach them about respect, using a nice black leather belt.... |
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OK a note for all who run across my profile am not interested in married men...or any one who is owned by another...Please send a pic with your introduction. ..Thanx :) |
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Well the kids are back with their mom..wow...what a big job it is to watch kids ....i give props to their mom... |
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quiet a busy day today, I have also volunteered to baby sit my best friends 3 children. What a reality check it is....I must say, there is nothing better than observing children interact with one another. They are like little sponges sucking in and mimicking what they see in there environment.
The interesting thing for me is that certain men bring out the same maternal emotions children bring forth in me. Though each has a set personality that is quiet evident, one can also see where nurture/environment cad add or take away from that little personality.
On a different note, I have found (on this site) a nice looking submissive man, whom I find myself being attracted to the more we communicate. I started the communication with him bec. I liked the screen name he chose, so I sent him a short note, saying something like "hi" I think I don't remember, and he wrote me back a lovely email, full and robust....
Let's see where it leads shall we, it would be "unforgivable" to not pursue this further ...:) |
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wow, interesting development this night...as I look over the various profiles I find myself looking at the CD's and sissy boys with their nice girlie outfits on and though not sexually attracted to them, I find myself wanting to cuddle and protect them ...a maternal instinct is being brought out in me i dint know i had..hmmmm
Might be nice to have a sissyboy to play dress up with :) |
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Ahhh I love the night.....There is nothing like the feel of the crisp night air on my face and the scent of the night as I stroll on my porch....Things are looking up, I have received some very nice emails from a few prospects.... Though I have a house toy, I want someone I can develop a closer relationship with. My libido is on overdrive this past week, I seem to only be noticing the nice bodies.... Visualizing the hurt I can inflict upon their tender flesh and minds.... |
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Taking first break at work.... Mmm a nice cup of warm tea, a look see on the computer and back to work i go..... |
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ooooook , well, another one bites the dust!!!!!!!!! I can also be found on AOL under the screenname.....................contradiction01.........I know there are some true sub/slaves .....but the fakes seem to take over at times.... |
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I am updating the picture..i dint care for the old one..I may update pics all the time...I get bored with just the same ol pic..:) |
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I thought I found a prospect, but alas i was wrong ....grrr |
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OK, Its pretty sad I need to add this here but I feel i MUST..... PLEASE when Emailing me be literate and articulate... " I want you to own me" is not a complete sentence as far as I am concerned. To those of you who claim to be "professionals" yet cannot use the correct syntax when writing an Email all I have to say is IN WHAT FRIGGEN WORLD are you a professional with such an abhorrent command of the English language.????? Grrrrr I have a short fuse and a temper to match when it comes to idiots "wannabes" and illiterate fakes who claim they have a Ph.D. yet cannot type a single word correctly.... |
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Thank you to all who emailed me. I am going through and am weeding out the ones who ( in my opinion)I am not compatable with. Take care bbl
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Greetings to all who happen upon this journal. I am a single Domina from N cali, looking for a submissive male slave. My intent is to get to know you and see if there is any compatibility factor as it pertains to our mutual desires. I am a control freak and desire someone who is heavy into being controlled.
I am so tired of the "wannabes" looking for some fantasy play. though fantasy play is fine, it is not what I seek. I seek someone who is honest, submissive, fit, hard working, and REAL..... I work hard at my vocation and can appreciate that in another. I am self sufficient, I work, pay my own bills, own my own home, etc., etc...I am NOT here to look for a slacker who wants a crash pad.
I love intelligence coupled with good communication ability. Age is not of great import but I am at my prime and you must keep up with my desires. I do have sadistic tendencies, but am not into drawing blood....Ok thats it for now I have a headache and do not wish to write. |
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| Age: 33 |
| Middleborough,
Massachusetts |
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