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I'm going through a bit of a sexuality crisis at the moment. Okay, that would be dramatically overstating it, but I have been dominant and had no problem finding women to play with me. But my last stab at a Master/slave relationship just left me feeling hollow. I don't think of myself as a switch for a few reasons. The first is that I find it difficult to switch with a single partner. The other is that I think that I'm just highly intelligent, creative and devoted to pleasing my partner, so that means I'm usually best in the dominant role. But as a dominant, I am generally all about crafting an exquisite experience for my sub.
These qualities make me more suited to being a sub or slave, but also make it difficult for me to be one. I'm short on time because I'm pursuing an extremely difficult career, and have a pretty active life. It's not like I wouldn't happily convert my free time to something compatible with my owner, but I wouldn't wholesale abandon my activities right off before I know that the fit is a good one. I don't get bored easily unless I'm left in a room with no outlets (which is really a waste of my brain). I know it'll sound demanding and not particularly slave-like or sub-like, but I'll lay out what I'm looking for, and if that's in the neighborhood of what you're interested in, then I hope that you will contact me. I don't want "my demands met" because I want to be molded and transformed, but for us to get anywhere, we need to start from a place that scratches those itches if you want to take me further.
As a sub, I like to be used and experimented upon. My main drives are to have my Owner(s) use me for their amusement and pleasure. I am not a piece of meat, so I do like conversation and the other things that go along with that, but I also like keeping that element of sexual slavery there constantly...I also like challenges. I'll lay out some examples so you know what I mean. I would love being made to wear some sort of hidden and embarrassing clothing in public. Panties are the obvious one for this. Being made to wear a butt plug while we go for a bike ride together, or something even more extreme. Having a beer in public, and then having you fetch the refills...only instead of bringing back two beers, you slip into the bathroom, piss in one glass, and refill the other. Then I would be made to drink the piss while trying not to let on what it was. Or even something as simple as being made to clean the house while wearing a humbler, or something like that. I need those sorts of humiliating, difficult, and sexualized experiences all day. I don't necessarily need attention constantly, but a little attention and then leaving me to experience my chore is fantastic.
I respond less well to being loved than being enjoyed, challenged and humiliated. I'm not married to any one act, so I don't want to come across as one of those people who demands that you indulge them in a particular fetish, I just want to give you some kind of idea as to what makes me tick. I prefer not to cum after sex except on rare occaisions or when I'm put in some highly ambivalent situation. Being allowed only to cum while being fucked by a man would be something like that. I particularly enjoy watersports for a couple of reasons. First of all, it's not enjoyable for me at all. In fact it's damned awful and difficult. But having someone who will force you to consume their urine really defines a fundamental attitude split between Dominants looking for love and Dominants wanting to use someone for anything they want. Forced bi is another one of those things where I enjoy that it's hard for me, I get nothing out of it, and everyone else does.
I'm looking to play for a while before I throw myself into a relationship. I know many don't like to play until they're in one, but for me all the important aspects of my Owner revolve around how well their whims match my needs...everything else I will accept unquestioningly.
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