Just received my first tattoo and it was a feeling I will never forget.

I realized that I truly am a pain slut.

Every stick of that needle in my skin sent a shock up my spine and down to my hot wet place.

It's like my first session,

the sting of the slap,

the grip of the choke,

the use of my body...

PURE ECSTASY.

I can't even imagine living a life without feeling the pain of someone's else abuse,

And the release of giving over everything to my Master.

I never want to go back to vanilla...

THIS LIFESTYLE IS THE PLACE FOR ME.

When she pleases You, she's also pleasing herself. The pain You cause can be and should be her for of orgasmic release. The fact that You would take the time out to punish her for her wrongs and reward when she's right should attach her to You. Every slap, bite, smack, stroke, should connect You to together in ways You never knew could exist.....

At least, thats what I've experienced...

The P/power Exchange

The P/power exchange is something so AMAZING! It's incredible to be so vulnerable and so open with someone, to allow them to take all thinking and action out of your hands and to let them care for and control you. Had my first REALTIME PLAY DATE this evening and I still feel like I'm floating. The courage it took to put my pride aside and to take what was giving was liberating. My soul was opened and looked deep into, as well as my heart and mind. I will admit, I BROKEDOWN, but I know that in time that will only lead to being BUILT-UP into something even more BEAUTIFUL. I don'[t even know the words to describe it! IF you've experience it, you know and if you're a newbie like me, be ready for a WILD RIDE!!!

            I came in the door and I knew exactly what to do, no words exchanged. Up the stairs I go, shedding one piece of clothing after the next until a path is clearly written on the floor. "Follow me," it says. In the bedroom, laying across the bed, you find me, body sprawled and open, waiting for you, for I am yours to command. you stand, staring, contemplating, and I'm anxious. I want you, but my words have been forbidden. That's how today will be. No sounds of protest, just quiet sounds of need, desperation, and only when you permit it.

           You stalk across the room, your stride lethal, deadly, so controlled. My body yearns for you as you come closer. Your hands stretch in front of you, hovering over my body and I want to stretch up and touch it, take it from you, but I don’t. I know it will mean more punishment for me, so I wait.

            You hands get closer and closer to my body and just when I think you’re going to touch me, you don’t. at least, not how I expected. You hands grab my wrists and pull them behind me, using them to yank me closer to the head board. I let out a yelp of surprise then quickly regret it. You let go of my hands and intertwine them in my hair as you bit my neck, no words spoken. I squirm, your teeth going deeper and deeper into my skin. It hurts, but it feels so good.

          The control you have over me is unbearable. You let go of my neck and grab my wrists again. This time I’m quiet, expecting, so I’m a good girl. We reach the headboard and almost inaudibly, you tell me to grab it. My small fingers grasp the steel design and hold on for dear life. I want no more punishment, but I know I’ll receive it anyways. Walking away, you disappear and come back with two clothe pieces. I assume they are my restraints. I look up at you eagerly as you begin to tie one wrist to the left post and the other to the right. I pull testing their strength and I have no give. I know I’m in for it now…

Maybe, just maybe,

This is how things can go, but then again, you’re in control. I want you to show me.

some times i lay in the bed and think of thing i could do to you...with you....i could turn you over and give you a slow sensual back massage ...as i give you the massage i lean forward and turn your face towards me and kiss your lips...i trail my lips down your back and tell yu to turn back over...i lick and kiss your chest as i make my way towards your dick....slowly i stroke your dick until it begins to rise in my hand....i stare at its girth and wonder if i can deep throat it...i decide to find out....i wrap my lips around it and begin to move my head up and down.... i lower my head down more and slowly begin to take more and more of you into my mouth and deeper into my throat...i pull back as i begin to choke but try once again...this time im successful.....i speed up my movements as your fingers grip my hair...your dick begins to pulsate in my mouth as you pump your hips upward on my every down stroke...your grunts fill the room as your cum fills my mouth...your turn... show me if yu can keep up with what i have to offer...i know one person who can..and if yu read this yu know who you are...

THIS IS MY EXTENT OF BEING IN CONTROL...DO YOU