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Hello Everyone.



My needs have changed, but my desires have not.



Im a mostly straight man, with a weakness for red hair, pale skin, and tiny women. On the rare occasion that Ive desired a man, hes generally quite effeminate and small as well. I suspect my fascination with anal sex is the only reason I ever get the urge to play with a pretty man.



I am in a bit of a dry spell financially at the moment, and am looking for opportunities to make some money. As a mostly straight top, this doesnt open up very many possibilities in the bdsm world, but you never know.



I am quite masculine, complete with chest hair, tattoos, and an intense personality. I am not cruel or sadistic though. I can occasionally play that role, but it doesnt come naturally. I do rather enjoy a quiet, intense lovemaking session.. especially if it ends in me plundering someones booty at the end.



Im looking for a regular sexual partner, and Im looking for alternative s of income. There may be a way to get both without wandering into the realm of prostitution. Perhaps youve got some needs that arent met. Perhaps youve got some fantasies that youd like to make happen.



Let me know if you have some ideas, and we can discuss anything you please. Theres even a small chance Id be willing to try being a bottom for the right incentive, but my mouth is off the menu. I can barely brush my teeth without gagging.. I highly doubt Id be able to put more than a toothbrush past my tongue. (



Im looking forward to hearing your ideas.. perhaps we can find a way to make us both happier. )


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1/21/2016 11:39:43 PM
I haven't posted here for a while, as I've been trying to get some things figured out in my head.  I had a pretty good handle on what I wanted out of life and where I was headed...

..then my brother died today.

I'm the strong one, I'm the logical, practical one that never breaks down and never talks about things like pain, loneliness, anger, or hate.  I'm always the voice of reason, and the mediator for the family.

Today, I am none of those things.  I have no one to console me, I have no one to tell me its all going to be okay.  Eventually, we all find our breaking point.  I found mine today.

There are things I want, things I need, things I crave.

Burying my younger younger is none of those things. 

My mother died when I was 16, my father died when I was 22.  I had a rough childhood, but I always thought it made me a stronger man today because of it. 

I was wrong.  I am lost, dazed, confused, full of grief and pain, and I have nowhere to put it.  I may be able to act like the strong one long enough to bury my brother, but I don't know what I'll do once I'm sure everyone else is okay.  My heart tells me to run away, curl up in a dark corner and grieve..  but I'll never come out of it if I go in there alone.

8/30/2015 10:36:59 AM
So very alone.

While my time is often filled with fulfilling things, and my life is quite enjoyable..  I find that once I stop and try to relax, or meditate..  I find my aching heart is demanding my attention. 


7/24/2015 9:11:51 AM
As of July 24, 2015..
I will be home for at least the next 5 weeks.  This is a strange thing for me, and it accentuates the loneliness I sometimes run into on the road.  Now that I'm home, it has a sharp, dangerous edge..  and its a challenge I was not prepared to face.


As an introvert who doesn't drink or party, hates the bar scene, and is generally too shy and reserved to go pick up women in "normal" places, I find myself here again..  looking for that something, that someone.

I'm quite happy with my life, quite happy with myself..  and I rather like who I am, and what I'm about..  but I'm missing that connection..  that fascinating, terrifying, maddening, intense thing that happens when you let someone into your bubble.

Sure I'm lonely, and horny (I am a man..), but I'm aware of a place in my life that could be filled with so much more.  I'm not an ideal candidate for regular dating websites, as I'm not exactly a normal kind of guy with normal tastes..  and since I've never been good at meeting people in public..  this is the only place I've found that I have the freedom to be who I feel that I really am.

Perhaps I'll find something, someone..  perhaps I won't..  but at least these thoughts and feelings have a place to live, rather than driving me to distraction and inaction.

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 Age: 19
 Chicago, Illinois