I've immersed myself in online BDSM communities since I was 13 years old. 
  I read kinky fanfiction like the complete nerd girl that I am.  And I've had only 

  two partners in my life.  One, to whom I'm currently married. 

  I have avoided all exposure to the bdsm community to date.  How could 

  anything possibly be as great as the fantasies that I can author?  That I 

  live out in my head?  

  This all to say that I've spent a lifetime dreaming.  But as much as I've 

  seen and experienced, it's all been on a personal level, in the safety of 

  my blog, my mind, my online connections.  

  I'm hoping there's someone out there that would view this with the import 

  that it holds for me.  This isn't routine.  It's a first.  And a steady hand to 

  guide me....that's something I kneel for.  

 I'm not looking for The One.  
 I have him.  And I'm incredibly happy with that in all ways.  
 But bdsm isn't his thing.  And I believe that it is very much mine.    

 What I am looking for is a mentor.  A very discreet mentor.  
 I'm looking for confidence, but not arrogance.  For openness 
 but not flagrance.  

 I'm looking for a very deep, compassionate friendship in which both 

 parties can fully trust the other, but without the drama that comes with 

 letting the heart get too involved.  

 I'm after fondness.  Creativity.  Intellect.  

 I'm incredibly picky who I spend my time with.  
 I'm probably not for your average person.  
 Submission doesn't come naturally.  I spend all day mentoring others, 

 directing them in what to do, and handing out discipline.  

  Things that drive me crazy, in a great way: 

  -Physicians.  In any capacity.  

  -A solid grasp of grammar and correct spelling.  

  -Writers.  Artists.   Good writers and artists.  As a fellow writer, 

  I hold a very demanding standard for what "good" means.  

  -Mental fuckery.  I am paid to be great at what I do- which is 

  convincing people to do what I ask them to do.  It is nearly impossible 

  to find someone who is impervious to this ability.  And I'm not looking for 

  someone who wants to call everything a bluff and beat the shit out of me.  

  I'm after the Dom that can look me in the eye with a smile and know 

  *exactly* what game I'm playing.  

  - Like I mentioned....I'm not great at submission.  I don't buy the bdsm game from
  most people who try to play it.  It takes a great deal of mental composure to truly 

  command another person.  But I take delight in resistance.  In attitude.  If that's a 

  challenge you feel capable of accepting, by all means...I'd love to hear from you.