I've always had a hard time labeling my sexuality. In a vanilla type of dating scenario I would find it very hard to date another male, it's not that I'm disgusted by the idea of sucking a cock or anything like that, but in the context of romance and dating, my brain only clicks into that mode with a girl. So when I started looking for people in the lifestyle I naturally started looking for a Mistress, but as I read profiles and talk to people, I've come to realize it's much more nautral for me to submit to a man, and really my personality in general has always been submissive to men. At this point I've realized I'd prefer to submit to a male dominant, not something I'd have thought when I went into this journy.