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MsMajique
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Sometimes you have to step away from your thoughts and feelings or you will be consumed by by the fire within .... there is escape only torment only fire...
I have tried to walk away from this lifestyle, from these feelings, I am grateful for those moments of clarity and peace..... |
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It is so difficult to describe how I feel at times. Dominants are always in such control of their thoughts and I feel as if everyone can read my thoughts and feelings. |
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I know now how vulnerable my submissive side makes me in the presence of people that can sense my feelings. Dom or Domme, I have become one who feels so intensely drawn to them. There are moments when my mind reels just from the close physical proximity of a dominant invading my space. The voice in my mind telling me you know this causes me at times to tremble. I pray no one sees this idiosyncrasy. |
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in our first session last night mistress has shown me how deeply submissive I am. I never knew I could tell anyone what lies in my darkest thoughts. I am so deeply touched by her words, how caring she is and how desperately I want her and need to be close to her. She is both master and mistress to me and I cannot tell what I need most from her except to belong to her completely |
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I met her for the second time just three days ago and already my mind is reeling. She is so much more than I expected, so out of my depth that I cannot catch my breath. She smiled and I felt myself tremble. She was so nice so friendly, not at all what I expected. She is beautiful and sweet but you know there's this complete sense of something so awesome in her. |
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My Mistress gave me purpose and direction when I was weak, and I ached for her presence for her touch..for her love and sometimes for her cruelty, there were times when I feared what I felt deep inside myself how difficult it was when words failed me but she knew ow to make me to respond to her and allowed me to find solace and comfort even when it came from the whip in her hand. |
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I think alot of submissives are scared, who wouldn't be to recognize that you're so different from everyone else? To feel the power of the intense need and desire for another to know it exists, to feel it course like fire through you and know that you must somehow cope with it afraid that she might discover it, might see it and know your weakness, the fear of not knowing how to express it, all of these things must be overcome, hence the intense physical and mental stimulation needed to be exercised by the dominant to crack that outer shell. |
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I sense your presence before I see you,
Hear your words before they’re spoken,
Feel your touch before it’s given,
Seek the answer before I hear your question,
Reflect upon the meaning hidden,
In my heart there is an answer,
One that even I don’t know…. |
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how my limits could have been so easily overcome by a dominant woman? One minute You’re in a vanilla relationship with an assertive woman, yet- you’re always deferring to her – you love her – it’s different, exciting, definitely kinky but the passion has been incredible. Now imagine your that she holds you closely in her arms, and asks you to do something that you normally wouldn't. at the same time she tells you that this is something of great importance to her. you’re a natural submissive – and so you give yourself to her rather easily. You allow her to place the leather cuffs on your wrists, the bondage belt around your waist and then let her lock your wrists down to your sides… and then it starts. Baby I want you to wear something special for me… and she holds up a pair of black lace panties. you can feel the deep burn of a blush in your fact: yes, a conflict arises immediately...you're afraid... she lovingly holds you as you tremble .speaks softly and reassuringly to you, this will mean so much to her, it will demonstrate your devotion for her in a very unique and powerful way, you feel yourself say no but the words don't come, you freeze, She senses your inability to act- your desire to please her so very intense-your fear so real-so she places the flogger on the bed in front of you, the reality sinks in – she knows all about your weakness – but now you learn about her strength, She knows all about your desire to submit and the release you crave...you can see it there right in front of you the flogger its tails-there is no turning back – she won’t allow it you struggle but the restraints hold firm. She laughs softly...you find your strength and say no, but you're still shaking, so She picks up the flogger and rubs it against your body. There is a promise to use it. "Please baby, she whispers in your ear, please do this for me. But you say no again. Now its barely a whisper.you ache for release and then she bends you over the bed and grabs a handful of your hair and forces you to arch your back while she administers a blisterng flogging. very intense but stopping abruptly and asks you again. please baby, altering the methods now, administering pain and then alternates the sensation with physical pleasure, all the while petitioning you to try something new for her. until you scream yes Mistress yes, oh yes yes anything and then the acceptance of the modification. you acquiesce, you are rewarded with an intense release that you have never experienced before.the terms you agreed to will never be seen outside of the bedroom and your Mistress is so pleased with you, so attentive, so loving, and she torments you frequently now, plays with you when it's unexpected..just to let you know that she owns you |
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My first experience with D&S started out as a rather vanilla relationship. I came upon a very upset young woman in a restaurant of all places and found her crying - My heart just went out to her. We formed a friendship almost immediately. She initiated the transition from friends to sweethearts, and when we were on our dates I was always a perfect gentleman. She always just seemed to take charge and I always deferred to her and gave her the space I felt that she needed. I had no idea that she was a lioness in her own right... she simply disarmed me with her gentle charm her soft and reassuring words and eventually I just knew in my heart that whatever she asked of me I would do if it pleased her. There was no initial discussion of dominance or submission things just seemed to happen naturally between us. she took what she wanted, guided me sweetly and patiently and played with me as she pleased - she would undress me - she didn't allow me to do this myself- she wouldn't allow me to touch her and she kissed me and fondled me very differently than anyone else that I had ever been with- and I of course responded to her with an open heart and open mind and adored her for who she was. Foreplay became very important - it was symbolic to her and she often instructed me to respond to her in a certain way when we embraced or touched. When she explained the symbolism for french kissing - is when things took a very different turn between us - it was her desire to penetrate me with her tongue and to have me accept her kiss by gently sucking on her tongue - this rule flustered me - but I found the need to please her so overwhelming that I acquiescence to this and opened my heart to her. Later on when she explained that this simple act was symbolic acceptance of her dominance (a slight role reversal since this generally symbolizes a woman accepting a males penetration of her) was when we had our first true I depth discussion on dominance and submission. She explained a lot about her views on the subject. And as we interacted more frequently often commenting on how I often just naturally responded submissively to her touch - and the impact of her words often made me tremble in her arms. She introduced bondage - wrist cuffs and a belt. My hands our meetings changed and each time after she undressed me she ritualistically put wrist cuffs on me and bound my hand to my sides via the bondage belt. Our relationship was very wonderful and she was very loving whenever she seduced me. She took complete control and enjoyed softening me - requiring a more feminine response from me she did require that I wear certain things that I found to be humiliating. She also introduced me to male chastity and orgasm control...She however would often urge me to respond to her whenever I was troubled with sweetness and loving attention at first and in very difficult instances - (when I felt conflicted) with instances of bondage and outright brutality in the spankings she administered. This she explained was necessary to stretch my limits. Afterwards she always spoke soothingly and lovingly to me and I began to ache for her approval in all things. I found that I could not resist her and was compelled to try and please her with every fiber of my being. I have recorded this journal entry because so many dominants wish to know how I became involved in D&S and what my experiences have been. I am very shy and discreet in person and the submissive side of my personality requires a lot of reassurances that it's safe to be expressed. |
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