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Hello to all who find themselves here, the public space for the dark side of me to let loose, reading this in the hope to gain an insight into the type of person I am, or some understanding to some greater mystery that I represent.
Welcome.
The first thing you need to know about me is that Im an introvert, meaning that unless Im comfortable I dont like talking about myself, or being the centre of attention. But in an environment such as cyberspace I can relax.
No-one is watching.
For this reason, when people initially meet me in real life that may have chatted with me on-line, they undoubtedly are confused. Its like Im a different person.
The way to correct this false impression is quite easy, apply a anti-inhibiting social lubricant or take me somewhere quiet where we can get to know each other better. Both will increase the chance of success.
On-line I am confident and playful at my best, or an annoying arrogant clown at my worst. Thankfully, Im not like that in real life. I find that I like to play when on-line. Reading between the lines, Im not as mature as I shouldcould be at my age, and therefore get along better with people a bit younger.
Second thing about me, which Im still discovering, and fighting against kicking and screaming, is that Im emotional. This doesnt mean Im some teary emo who turns into a blubbering mess after watching a chick flick. Instead it means Im passionate and empathetic. For those of you how have done Myers-Briggs, I feel Ive switched from an INTP to an INFP (a thinker to an idealist) - and Im not sure what to make of this.
Ive always been aware and empathetic to peoples emotions, but lately (possibly as a result of the dramas that happened a few years ago) I feel that Im more in-tune.
Couple this with my giving nature and some of you could possibly understand why Im a top.
In my opinion, and I know we all differ on this, the top is responsible for their subs. This is more than just their safety or their training, its their desires and respect too. Subs are actually the ones with all the power, they might be submitting themselves, but they have all the control if the power exchange isnt what they want. Which is why role-players have a safe-word or tune, to eliminate the ambiguity.
Power exchange is the perfect term for it too. The feeling of power I get when restraining my sub is only there because she has agreed to give it to me, by submitting it to me.
Lastly, and most importantly, Im a deviant. But not just a deviant, as it isnt something Im 100 comfortable expressing to the world. For me itll always be that nasty little secret thatll possibly ruin my life if it got out, but that actually makes it so much more exciting. Bondage in particular is my basis in this dark world, my beginnings and core. It is very important to me that it is a part of my life and therefore any long-term relationships. Something about it effects me more than just a turn-on, something more primal.
In the bedroom its part of foreplay for me, but before I was even sexually active the beautiful image of a bound female always seemed more natural to me than the open leg shots found in standard pornographic material. To me its art. Even the mental images conjured by reading a self-bondage or predicament bondage short story.
As for the scene, Ive never really been involved as Im kinda shy. But given Im single again Ive decided that to find someone with similar interests, I need to look in the right places.
Which leads to the pitch - I am looking for a play partner who loves bondage as much as I do, who enjoys being bound or otherwise restrained.
Ultimately I would love to find someone with whom I could spend the rest of my life with, but for that to happen there needs to be an attraction, a proper relationship as its basis, a lot more than just having compatible kinks.
If you wish to chat and get to know me feel free to message me here, or ask me a question at ask.fmMasterManiac
Maniac.
P.S. For those on FL, my account name is Maniac13.
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Exciting times ahead, I'm all paid up to go to Lewbari in Melbourne (a shibari class hosted by the famous Lew Rubens) where I'll get to meet several of my favorite riggers and bondage models - Yay.
But I'll also be in Melbourne next week for business, so if anyone wants to meet in person I'll be around. |
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Did you want to come for a ride with me?
I've been fantasizing about a particular scenario a lot lately, probably ever since I got my motorcycle licence and bought my first bike. This is something that'll probably never happen due to the risks involved, but that's why it's fantasy.
It starts differently every time; maybe we've just woken up and I decide it's a nice day for a ride, or we've just finished a session and I've got to take you back home, or maybe we're doing a kidnapping scene - it doesn't matter, as it inevitably always leads to you hanging by your wrists, naked. From there I start to dress you for our ride.
The first item is a wireless vibrator that I tape to your clit followed by a pair of latex panties with built in plugs to hold it in place. Now there are two types that I have in mind when I'm fantasizing, there are normal rigid dildo-style plugs, or the inflatable type, but I guess the same effect can be reached using a normal dildo and butt plug.
Over this I secure a leather belt and crotch-strap to hold them in nice and tight, which I make sure is nice and tight before padlocking in place. This all gets covered by skin-tight leather motorbike pants.
Now the boots, they are of coarse either a bondage style that can be locked on, or a leather cuff is applied. These are actually to secure your feet in position on the bike so you can't move them from the passenger pegs, albeit in a discreet way.
For your hands I have more leather, but not normal gloves. No, these are mittens with cuffs that close your hand into a ball, and allow me to either connect them to each other around me to make it look like you're holding on to me, or to the passenger seat behind you to make it look like you're holding on to it. (Actually, it was the image of a passenger holding on that way that originally got me thinking of this)
Next, depending on the mood I'm in, I can either apply (vibrating) nipple clamps, breast bondage, glad-wrap, etc. to your breasts, or leave them unfettered before putting a leather motorcycle jacket on you, and doing it up nice and tight too.
Lastly, your head. So many options here too, assuming the right helmet is used - obviously it would be a full face with a dark tint for what I've (or you've) got in mind - gags, blindfolds, latex masks, noise cancelling ear-buds, headphones playing music, or me talking to you telling you what'll happen to you when we reach our destination.
So, how do you like my little fantasy? Did you want to come for a ride with me? |
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