I have been a solo act for the past few weeks.

It is rather...boring.

Things are tough. 

It is a truth that none of us really want to accept in life.

None-the-less we must keep moving on with life, despite how hard something may be.  I know what I want in life and it is only ever going to be tough, difficult to achieve.  Ambition is the cruelest thing to have, at times.  The desire for something that may never happen is something that can lead you into a precipice...climbing out of that fate can be one of the hardest things to and moving on even harder, but where there's a pitfall, often there is an alternate road to follow instead.

I feel as though at this moment I am stood at the edge of a precipice and unsure whether there is a bridge over it or if I will simply fall in and have to find the alternative road to follow.

I will not go into detail, for I have so many desires within my life, so many ambitions that in fact many of them will be nothing but precipices, but why sign them off so eagerly?  I will take my chances, for taking chances may lead to failure but at least not regret to dwell upon in the future.

It has been hard these past weeks. Started uni year 2, getting busy with reading and work prep and etc....missing my kitten....you can never imagine something until it happens. You can think one thing but it doesn't tend to go the way the mind would believe it to do so..... I know that I did the right thing. I let her go, she needed it in her life to grow. But I still miss our time together. More than I could have ever imagined.

So, my kitten has left to work in China.  I shall miss our time together and especially miss training her and enjoying her every inch of mind, body and soul.

I know she will return to me some day and I know we will be together again, but it is a ways off, a year or so, and though I will be at university, I shall miss all the fun activities we usually have/had, choose your tense.

I wish I lived in Devon.  Recently come home from a short holiday there and it was so inspiring and beautiful that I wish I could live there.

Maybe, some day....I will.

But the important thing is I enjoyed my time there, went to various locations and did many things.  Shame it cost me in stamina though, walking in the sun drains you of so much strength it is quite annoying at times when you desire to unleash the beast and your body is too tired when the mind is more than willing.

I found two fossils while fossil hunting on a beach, though they were very small and not worth the huge stones they were on to bring home (sadly did not have the equipment to extract them).

The scenery was more than adequate to highlight my mind with fresh thoughts and ideas and of course aesthetic pleasures abound while with my kitten.

Recently I have noticed my profile has been viewed by not only men but some women lately, which is quite surprising since I seem to (for some reason) attract mainly male views.  Though still no messages or replies form people I have contacted, even if to just befriend them.  Such a pity really.  Oh well.

For my own personal enjoyment and random fun.  I have decided to start working on a text adventure game.  The good old fashioned games were sometimes the best and in some cases are still awesome, much like Zork and Hitch Hikers.

Also going to pursue other thoughts and ideas.  Why not?

I am a little tired of seeing profiles of people who obviousely want to be given an 'easy' ride through life.  Seeking older men who would supposedly have a house and etc of their own and can coast someone through life with them needing to work or whatever...frankly...it pisses me off.

IT is shallow minded and quite rude and so forth to also assume that an older person is more worldly or wise and etcetera etcetera...just being old is not a cause of wisdom nor intelligence.  Heck, if they had an easy life and were looked after by their parents until their late fourties/early fifties (like my scumbag of an uncle) then how the heck would they have ANY wisdom?

Wisdom is gained thorugh experiences in life and some gain those experiences early, some late.  Soe poeple mature young and some mature...never, quite fankly.

Life is a mysterious thing, that is for sure, so why limit yourself to an age?  Surely it is better to get to know someone of any age range and then if they are not what you desire or hope for, politely (And I MEAN politely.  Too many rude poeple these days) decline them and be kind enough to say, "Sorry, but I am not interested" or somehting of equally respectful terms.

Jeeze, some common courtesy is nothing to be ignored, all people deserve a basic level of respect and either should gain or lose it from that base amount...

(This was a rant, so there may be some spelling issues or typos due to a blurb of concious thought directly set into typing fingers)

It has been a while since my last entry.  The weathe ris hot and I wont complain, but it is rather bothersome to try and sleep in the heat, especially when you already have a rathe rhigh natural body temperature...atop that, oddly enough I find myself more amorous than usual when it is hot weather and when you have no enjoyable outlet for such intentions it can make sleep even more difficult.

Things have been going well with my little kitten and she has been improving steadily.  I am planning to get ahold of a chastity belt for her soemtime in the close future and begin her trianing in the long term use.  Also, I have been browsing clothes and other items for her to wear as everyday attire.  She is my property and I want her to look nice and make others desire her but be unable to have her.

We shall also be looking into some other supplies for use on a semi-regular basis when both our shcedules allow time to indulge in our real lives as /master and slave and we can shed the vanilla skin that we wear far too regularly.

Portugal was good and bad.

But ignoring the bad things to the reason I went, some private and long lasting time with my kitten enjoying what Lisbon had to offer.  Then it was all good, though the one 'sex shop' we found was, very disappointing!

Oh well, we had fun and enjoyed some well deserved time together.

I am looking forward to my birthday and seeing my kitten again as soon as it is possible.

Been a while since I have wirtten in this journal.  Likely because I have just been reading my kittens journal and have seen no point writing in my own for various reasons.

The amount of fakes or judgemental idiots on this site bugs me. 

Anyway, on a possitive note; I will be going to Portugal with my little kitten to see an exhibition of her art work in a gallery over there.  We will have a week together to see the sights and make some noise.

It is always enjoyable to be with my kitten but for some reason my mood as of late has been rather low and I have been quite sluggish.  so hopefully this get away to Portugal will get me out of this rut or whatever it is I am in at this moment in time.

Seriousely, read people profiles/information.

No offense to men out there, but I am straight and I doubt I wuld be interested in dominating a male, especially after the amount of rediculous messeges I have received from male subs.

No offence but 90% of the time I will not reply to you, if you are lucky I may converse with you simply because I am generally not rude, but at this point, my patience is waring thin.

Stop messeging me asking me questions which should be obviouse to answer without me responding, if you'd like to talk, maybe I will respond, depending on that subject matter, otherwise do not waste either of our time.

Despite being ableto see my kitten a few times over the time at uni, lately it has been an impossibility and I am starting to be drowned with work to do.  Which in basic terms 'sucks'.

I do look forward to seeing her again, of course, but time and interuptions seem to be against us.  I am being drowned in work and so is she of an alternative kind.  So fidning soem free time is getting harder and harder to do.

I am hoping to be able to get smoe of my work finished and out the way, to free up time, but they are quite challenging and I need to focus on them....issue being getting rather stressed out.

Settled into University life, makes time with my kitten a little hard, thin walls make commands and noise a somewhat shakey issue.  Though I don;t tend to care about other peoples opinions, I am concerne dI may be kicke dout of my accomodation if there are any complaints.  But we shall see.

I have given my kitten three tasks to do.

One: Write a list of her likes, dislieks and extremely not allowed.

Two:  A list of ALL of her clothes, a description of each item and a level of desire to keep items.

Three: An assignment, which is the thing I look forward to reading onc eit is done, see how her mind sees things and etc.

Other than this I often spank her and drive her crazy with lust, taking a slow process to make her addicted to me.

Which, has worked very well, she is putty in my hands whenever she comes ot me, so really all that is needed is the slow and careful moulding like a sculpter and their piece of art.

I have left this for a while I know, been busy.   Such is life.

I start university soon.  It is both a happy and a sad occasion.

On the 17th I move away from my home to live in a ne wone, leaving behind friends and my kitten, though yes it is for a short time and sure I may meet new people, I am still going to miss having as much time with them.

I appreciate thethings I have, even though I always seek other thigns and ne wor more things I do still appreciate who and what I have.  I am simply a glutton.

I will, of course, especially miss seeing my Kitten on a frequent basis, I will still see her every few weekends more or less depending on both our schedules, but the pleasure I gain and happiness I revel in while plying her under my thumb is something to be missed while unable to see her.

It is not odd to say I love her dearly as my kitten, nor would it be a fault if I think fondly of her.  Many poeple seem to assume this lifestyle is for pain, sex, whatever.  Those are the fake people.

This lifestyle, however we choose to live it relys on love, compasssion and most of all trust in eachother.

I trust my kitten to be loyal, devoted and longing for me while I am away, I know she will be, as I also know that the day she can see me will be a day of extreme amour.

While away I may be able to even meet a new girl to add to my hand and be plyed beneath a finger, to be enjoyed by me and my kitten while she also revels in our company.  who knows.  tiem will tell.

All I can say is, my life is going well, I have a little slave kitten who still needs training but it will be worth it once we can get it done.  and that even though I seek more in life, I still appreciate what I have.

Until next time.  I wish all who read this, well.

My kitten has joined this site now, it will be a good experience for her I am sure, to chat and learn from the boards and others opinions/views/experiences.  It will also give her an outlet to talk about how she is finding things, what she thinks and etcetera, via the journal.

I am intrigued to see how it goes for her.

Recently returned from France with my kitten.

We had two weeks together in a hot and quiet little area of the country.  It was very enjoyable indeed.

Training is progressing, taking it slowly and carefully is paying off.

My kitten finally got the privelage of enjoying her Master in the most intimate of ways and she is even more addicted and infatuated now, training her will only get easier and more productive form now on.

It has been a measure of time and time with my kitten is now led to a more permanent opportunity.  So for the time being I shall class her as mine and see what happens over the next measure of time.

Thus far she has been responsive and eager, her training is going fairly well, though she is a little slow at times to learn I am happy to be patient with her, she is worth my time and efforts.

Valentines day, a day of romance.  Well thats pointless when you are with a filthy little slut, just drag her into a dark corner and shove her down onto her knees, she loves it.  especially when so many people are around who might be able to see, adds to the thrill.  Forget all the romance crap, just violate your girl and the day for all they are worth.  Simple.

I am currently training a little kitten, sadly it will not lead to full ownership since she does not desire to be enslaved, but it is still an enjoyable experience.

She is 25, slim and a petite bosom.  Quite a dirty one indeed, she loves to be spanked and degraded.  Grinding her crotch into me as I spank her firmly.  Whoever she decides to date and enjoy kinky bedroom time with, will be very lucky indeed when I am finished training her and introducing her to the lifestyle.