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5/1/2014 5:25:30 PM

A man can't treat you like his queen if you are to busy trying to be the King. 


7/12/2011 8:49:15 AM

Things I would Like to do one day:

  • Hike or bike the appalachian trail. The whole thing, not just part of it.
  • Stand in the water of 3 different oceans. 
  • Fly in a hot air balloon.
  • Drive the AlCan Highway AND route 66. 

 

theres definitly more of these, but theses are what i feel like posting for now.

 

random thought of the day, men that smell of a clean shower, aftershave and a slight hint of smoke make me quiver.

 

more to come.

 

 


7/8/2011 1:09:17 AM

hmm, some random thoughts of the day.

I am afraid of clowns. not run away screaming from the circus afraid, but yes, still afraid. I think it comes from having been put in a shoebox and handed to clowns when I was an infant, and being stalked by the local clown as a preteen, and pushed into traffic just recently by a clown. . . yes, yes, I am nearly positive that those account for a large portion of that fear. 

 

There are some days, when I just do not like kids. even the ones related to me. I love them, don't get me wrong, but there are some days when I just don't like them.

 

Spiders, and bugs, will still make me scream like the girl that I am. Yes, that's right, finding there is a bug on my shoulder, or realizing I have just walked through a spider web (especially one that still has the creepy thing attached to it) will make me scream and flail around in a nearly seizure-esque fashion. Don't judge me. 

One last one. . . .

Sleep deprivation makes me ramble.


4/10/2011 11:02:55 AM

 

Read Kafka's 'In The Penal Colony' by recommendation of a friend. It was, certainly, oh lets say, certainly intriguing. A bit dark for my taste but I do plan on reading more of his works.


4/6/2011 8:41:43 AM

I've always said, when I am asked what I am looking for, that I don't entirely know. I could list the same thing everyone lists, someone honest, that i can respect, that is kind and firm, and funny and cute but that seems so cliche'd. I've always said I don't entirely know what I want but that when I find it, I will know.  


3/6/2011 10:48:41 AM

You can break a thing, but you cannot always guide it afterward into the shape you want.


1/25/2011 11:29:24 AM

So, for those wanting to know more of what i mean when i say i am dominant by nature submissive by choice, take a look at my personality profile. after reading about it, and knowign that i still prefer to be submissive, it should clear some things up.

 

According to the  myers-briggs personality type test. I have an ENTJ personality, that stands for: extraversion, intuition, thinking, judgment. 

ENTJs are often classified as Fieldmarshals, one of the four types belonging to the temperament called the Rationals.

ENTJs are among the rarest of types, accounting for about 2–5% of those who are formally tested.  

  

They tend to be self-driven, motivating, energetic, assertive, confident, and competitive. They generally take a big-picture view and build a long-term strategy. They typically know what they want and may mobilize others to help them attain their goals. ENTJs are often sought out as leaders due to an innate ability to direct groups of people. Unusually influential and organized, they may sometimes judge others by their own tough standards, failing to take personal needs into account.

ENTJs often excel in business and other areas that require systems analysis, original thinking, and an economically savvy mind. They are dynamic and pragmatic problem solvers. They tend to have a high degree of confidence in their own abilities, making them assertive and outspoken. In their dealings with others, they are generally outgoing, charismatic, fair-minded, and unaffected by conflict or criticism. However, these qualities can make ENTJs appear arrogant, insensitive, and confrontational. They can overwhelm others with their energy, intelligence, and desire to order the world according to their own vision.

ENTJs tend to cultivate their personal power. They often end up taking charge of a situation that seems (to their mind, at least) to be out of control, or that can otherwise be improved upon and strengthened. They strive to learn new things, which helps them become resourceful problem-solvers. However, since ENTJs rely on provable facts, they may find subjective issues pointless. ENTJs appear to take a tough approach to emotional or personal issues, and so can be viewed as aloof and cold-hearted.

 

 


1/7/2011 8:17:01 AM

"never ask for what ought to be offered"


1/5/2011 8:44:01 PM

Word of the day: proverbial

ok so not sure why people have issues with this word, but based on the number of messages i get asking what kind of church my father preached at, apparently they do. so here, for all the world to see, is the definition.

pro·ver·bi·al - adjective - having become an object of common mention or reference

yes, that means that I am not LITERALLY a preachers daughter. Get over it. 

 



1/1/2011 5:27:54 PM

Step outside your own head and look around!
Has the world ended? Towers fallen?
Civilization collapsed? Armageddon happened?
No?
THEN WHY ARE YOU COMPLAINING?
You act as though your life is over and yet you walk, and talk, and breathe!
You are a blind music lover who claims because she can no longer see the notes, there is no sound!
Become whole again by living your life instead of using your life to wallow and sorrow and bemoan your fate.
A slammed door keeps out foes and friends alike.


12/3/2010 8:43:24 PM
So, Guess who jumped off 150 foot tower today? That's right, I did it, freefall, just me, a little harness and a tiny wire, and 150 feet of open air. No fear, ok, well a little bit of fear. but only during the step off into nothingness. once falling it was peaceful-ish. not that there was a choice in the matter, once you are on the tower theres no other way down BUT to jump, so its not like fear of the jump is worth worring about, afraid or not, you gotta do it. and well jump is a bit of a wrong word, they dont technically let you jump off, you have to walk calmly to the edge and step off. a fast jump into space and you could hit the wood and get hurt.

11/28/2010 7:53:42 PM

It has recently been requested of me to expand on my thoughts of respect and trust and about whether they are a right or a privlege. I cannot honestly say that I've really put more thought into it in the past year, I've not sat down and thought about it more, I think, that I still very much agree with what I said a year ago. I still think its a bit of both, it's a right, for common courtesies, for a thank you to hold a door open, or an excuse me if your bumped into. Certain things even strangers are entitled to. however, I think that a wider range of respect and trust can only come after one knows someone, to be earned isn't quite what I want to say. You shouldnt' have to earn it, to prove that you are worthy of respect, but I think also, that you should show in your actions that you are deserving of it, that you should be respectful to others. It's hard to be respectful to someone who hasnt shown they know the meaning of the word themselves. I think you should show you know what you are talking about.

I think that respect is just something thats a bit hard to put a frame around. I do think, after a year though, that it is something the younger generation needs to focus on more. I've seen groups where a demonstartion is going on at one table, and a line has formed around that table and those watching the demonstration cannot hear what is being said, nor for that matter focus on it as they are being jostled and bumped in the back of the head and shoulders by those in the line. Now I am sure there are those of the older generation that need to work on this to, and I'm by no mean perfect at it, but i do try to do my best to be resepctful and apologise when I haven't been.

This thought still isn't as complete as I would like, However, given the fact that One never quits learning and thoughts never quit evolving, its a subject that I am not convinced I will ever have a 'final' thought on.


2/13/2010 9:47:57 PM
does anyone else despise the wooden sticks in popsicles? or is that just me?



12/21/2009 1:02:42 PM
So, i have seen so many profiles stating that they want to break down there subs, build themselves up. is that what this lifestyle is turning into? seriously?

i may be young, and yea i'm relatively new, but i thought this lifestyle was about enhancing each side of the proverbial collar, not decreasing one and increasing the other.

12/18/2009 5:57:52 PM
managed to get another burn. on my hand (for those that keep up thats 3!, WELL technically 4, cause this one is on 2 fingers)

12/4/2009 8:41:12 AM
"Friendship Efflorescence, a Chrysalis de L’amour"

A friendship in love culminates in adulation.
Magnanimous effulgence, dulcet anticipation
For gratuitous ebullitions of innocuous intent,
Ingratiate forgiveness, nescience circumvent.
Narcissism has no place, slake, expatriate.
Foment ambrosial maleficence, amorously inebriate.
Altruistic deference, laden with the truth,
Idiosyncrasies abided, a fortuity, uncouth.
Compassionate understanding, intrinsically profound,
Perpetuate esteem of each, euphorically astound.
Rhapsodize conjointly all thy hopes and dreams,
Subjugate opposition, bring fruition to thy schemes.
Vacuous ambiguity, ostentatiousness   spurned,

Acrimony, duplicity, umbrage, all adjourned.
Coquettish propositions, voluptuous rendezvous,
Delectable elation, exalted rapture ensues.




8/2/2009 11:14:40 PM
ok, so this will probably get me some hate mail. i accept that.


but, a thought occured to me today, If our main picture is suppose to be the picture we want people to see us as, well sometimes i laugh of the mental images i get when envisioning half the main pictures on this sight walking down the street.

i mean, you dont walk down the street with your tongue out, do you? why put that up for a main picture then.

and yes i know i know, big words from someone with out a picture.

7/21/2009 5:03:50 PM
It's national junk food day! i made peanut butter blossom cookies.

oh, and strawberry flavored watermelon sweet pickles. (the meat of the watermelon, with a sweet strawberry brine), mmmmm SO good!

7/15/2009 10:02:29 AM
Is it just me, or have there been more airline accidents than normal lately . . . 

7/9/2009 9:54:22 PM
ok, so way to many people don't use there manners. Seriously, just because you have found your way to the world of ds, is no reason to forgot your p's and q's! dominants, you may be dominant and demanding, but would a please or thank you kill you? and submissives, slaves, how ever you identify yourself, would a your welcome, or a brief nod, or even a no thanks be to much for them to ask for?

6/3/2009 10:23:10 PM
" Well you can't expect to wield supreme executive power just 'cause some watery tart threw a sword at you! "


bonus points if you can quote the same movie back at me, extra bonus points if its from the same scene

5/29/2009 2:31:58 PM
Respect. Trust. Is one a common courtesy, or are both? or is giving that respect first a common courtesy in itself?

Respect . . .does it have to be earned? or is it given automatically until just cause is given to take it away?

Trust is, for the most part I've found,  earned. After all I don't trust automatically that the guy that bumps into me and knocks my purse to the ground isn't really just after my wallet, but I am going to trust the fact that the majority of the population probably isn't after my purse, so I'm not going to break out and accuse him of trying to steal from me.

Of course, it could be that, both of these should be given in moderation until there's a reason not to. . . Or, does that change between vanilla and ds?

Does respect have to mean obeying someone? Especially if they don't own you? And, if that's an accepted concept, that you can respect a dominant with out obeying them if they don't own you, how is it that most of the self proclaimed dominants have trouble abiding by what they preach.

I may not have the answers to these for everyone, but I can answer for myself. For me, I'll respect you as a person, until you give me a reason not to. If you want me to respect you as a dominant though you have to show me you are a dominant that deserves that respect. As for trust, I give a basic level of trust to people too, unless my gut tells me not to or unless you give me a reason not to trust you.

i consider both of these, meaning the basic levels of trust and respect, to be a common courtesy. Its part of being a polite person.


*this is an unfinished though*

5/16/2009 9:50:24 PM
hmm chances are, if you send me your yahoo in teh first message, you wont get a reply from me or if your question is stupid (can be answered with common sense) or if it can be answered by reading my profile.

5/9/2009 1:00:52 AM
Hmmm, I seem to talk more and answer questions I would ignore more often than not when I am sleepy. I suppose that means torture would be bad, i would spill after 4 hours of no sleep.

4/30/2009 10:38:24 AM
Crap,so someone keep me out of my kitchen for my  own good, please? yesi burnt myself again, with soup this time, very very hot soup!
heres the kicker on it, it burnt my finger tips!the tips! and i dont care that they arent blistered! they still hurt just as bad, if not more! and then i launched it out of my burnt hand at the sink, and it backsplashed on my other hand (the one that ALREADY has a healing burn?) and yeah well it hurts again and more too!

oww . . . .

4/11/2009 6:50:17 PM
ow. i burnt my arm making cookies. it hurts. its about 5 inches long and a half inch wide, not blistered not largely yet at least, just enough to feel tight, no liquid gathering yet its just red and shiny right now.. ow.

4/2/2009 9:40:37 PM
wow lovely fucking start to my birthday, if you pardon the french. Que sera sera I suppose. C'est la vie. ugh, one to many languages in there perhaps? another year come and gone, so i suppose the question here is, am I any wiser for the wear? who knows. so many things have happened and yet, it feels like so little has gone by since this time last year.

9/9/2008 6:11:39 PM

Wow so I keep going to walmart, and I swear, the same guy, with t he SAME brand of juice keeps showing up behind me. And, yes, I do keep letting him in front of myself. But i have yet to find out if he passed it on. I will have to ask him next time I let him in front of me. I wonder if he is following me. . . .



**brief edit**


had a date with juice guy. . . he tattoo's out of a van . . . there will not be a second date. and no. i did not get the tattoo that this referances. 


5/15/2008 1:57:06 PM
just a quick note today.
I was at walmart with a cart load of stuff. Walmart was doing inventory so there were hardly any check outs open and lots of people shopping. I went to check out with my full cart. The person in front of me had a full cart. The person behind me only had a jug of juice. I let the man with the juice go in front of me so he wouldnt have to wait forever for his juice. I told him to "pay it forward." I wonder if he will. I made the world a little bit nicer today.

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 Age: 20
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