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I figured I would include what I am actively looking for in a journal entry. Here, my plan is to simply let you know the basics about myself, which wil be done in bullet points for now. I'm sure it will evolve over time, as I like keeping my profiles up to date. Let us begin. - I am a soldier stationed on Fort Stewart in Georgia. Currently, however, I am deployed in Afghanistan. I will be coming home in less than 2 months, about 50ish days from May 23rd (today). - I am a sub, currently seeking a Dom, more details on that will be in my journal which I will begin writing after this. - I'm a bit of a nerd and a science geek. - I am one hell of a good cook. I can't take pride in a lot, but I take great pride in my skills in the kitchen. - I love to read, and have a great love of animals. - I have skills in sewing, knitting, crochet, ect... I actually enjoy designing and making custom plushies. - I don't drink, have never been drunk, have never even once done an illegal substance.

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5/23/2013 1:41:04 AM
I will try to be as succinct as possible here, but please understand that I am fairly new at this, and my naturally timid personality probably isn't helping. I will attempt to describe what I'm looking for, or rather my own private fantasy... Which, oddly enough, is also my own private nightmare. I understand nothing is ever just as it is in ones head, so during my explanation keep in mind it is a mere outline, a rough sketch by an amatuer awaiting the hand of a Mistress to show him how it's done. I'm sure everyone reads, or has read the occasional BDSM story. I've denied this to myself so many times, but it always seems the ones I come back to are those of Female Domination. Not just any Domination though, those of professional Dommes don't hold my interest much, for example. Usually it involves a husband whose wife is reluctant to make his BDSM fantasies comes true, or one who screws up royally and end up becoming a sub for forgiveness, and eventually a full slave. It's not the sex that makes these so intriguing to me, in most of them the husband doesn't get to do anything of the sort, being forced to wear a chastity device. The wife, consequently, sleeps with other men in front of him, sometimes having him 'prepare' the man. He is degraded, humiliated, and sometimes it goes so far as he has to service men(sometime men he knows well, his friends) or her women friends all the time. I may even get to the point where he has to live as a woman, a sort of slave maid if you will. Is it the degradation that makes me want it so? The humiliation? I'm not entirely sure. I do know one thing, however, and that is the main thing which makes me want such a lifestyle more than anything else. The husband usually ends up with this same realization, that doing this to him is not only deeply intimate in a way, but it makes her happy and keeps her satisfied. That is what matters, that is all that matters, her happiness. I might be fairly new to the lifestyle, and it could be argued that I have no idea what I am truly getting into. I do know what I'm getting into though, even if I may not completely understand it I admit. I know reality and books are two entirely different things, but this is what I want. The strange part is, I think a lot of what might excite me is the husbands unwillingness(at least at first) to obey. He does obey, he doesn't want to do these things, but he is forced to do them. Me, inside I want to do them, for my Mistress... But I am timid by nature, and fairly shy usually. All that said, I ponder to myself, would I truly be unwilling? I think so. Because of my nature, I would be entirely humiliated, but due to that, I would obey because I know it would be what I asked for and I can't turn back. There, it all might sound a bit silly, but I've come out and finally said it. Perhaps here, somewhere, I might find a Mistress who would enjoy a sub such as myself. One who doesn't need sex, who cares only for her happiness... We shall see.

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newsub4u
 
 Age: 32
 B.C, Canada