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Divorced, college-educated, intelligent and Dominant Black male seeks a submissive or slave, bi-sexual caucasian, Asian, Native-American or Pacific-Islander woman (3-hole biological female) between the ages of 18 and 60 to be at my side during good times and bad, just as I will be there for her. She should be polyamorous, have good hygiene and enjoy role play, enjoy orgies, and serve as a BBC nympho. I have established a group and will meet first...if that helps. I am very strict but fair and will expect some domestic service in addition to sexual play within your limits. I seek a sub who can and will communicate. I do not seek a doormat that will let me do anything to her without question. I am imaginative when it comes to sexual play, promise to respect your limits and understand that submission is a gift to be cherished.


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2/15/2022 4:55:13 PM

Looks like I can enter journal posts again.

 

I'll keep you posted.


3/24/2018 2:01:36 PM
I have two bad feelings...

For starters: The Black American Woman (BAW) has quickly become a thorn in the side of Black men who are not criminally-minded. The BAW ridicules the Afro-indigenous male (who is NOT a thug), shames him into paying child support/alimony - even if the child is PROVEN to belong to someone else, decries a violent crime being committed by them (Rape or assault), or use a variety of tactics to ensure the loss of a job, school, financial windfall, etc.

As my profile states, I won't associate with the BAW - especially if they wear weave and insist I support them wearing it. (Instant turn-off and DEAL BREAKER!!!)

Secondly, my soon-to-be former wife has gone FULLY INSANE LIBERAL! She has joined a stable of a useless dominant, as well as sleeping with members of a poly group. I am demoralized and humiliated to where I can place the blame on her. She has followed the advice of a vindictive BAW who suggested she divorce me.

I said that I would explain my dislike of the BAW...and they NO LONGER ARE WORTH MY TIME, MONEY, or TROUBLE!

3/24/2018 6:14:39 AM
For the past year or so, I feel like my wife is blatantly cuckolding me. Note that she is a die-hard liberal. I will explain later.

3/3/2018 8:55:35 PM
Sigh...Obviously, some individuals don't respect MY decisions or lifestyle choices. Dare I explain?

Apparently, I am surfing online and watching YouTube videos. (I am central, yet leaning more to the right with each gaffe made by the liberal left because of their narrative.) During a video binge, I receive an email from someone who is Trans. (This email is from a competing website that reportedly boasts 'results' in hooking up people for dates with a 98% success rate.) I respond to this person KINDLY telling them I am not interested...only to get a RUDE, ANGRY, and TOTALLY TRIGGERED reply with an accusation of Bigotry.

I tell EVERYONE in my profile here, and EXPECT people to respect MY CHOICES! I don't have a soft spot for other peoples 'FEELINGS,' because MY FEELINGS are not respected in return. The phrase is 'give respect to earn it,' not expect it and not give it in return. I say that I want a PURE-BRED, NATURAL FEMALE! (I like three-hole sub/slave women, NOT TWO-HOLE!) IF a male takes the risk of being a Male-to-Female and has their dick removed, you MUST learn to train your new 'pussy' to handle a BBC! (I didn't give this compromise to the triggered Transsexual/Pre-op loser with a narcissistic complex.)

Sadly, NO ONE CARES about the feelings of the person they contact. They ignore the profile of the person they contact and INSIST that said person gives them attention. (Anyone sick of the 'Riley Dennis' craze?)

As this site has few people contacting me with WHAT I crave in my profile, I pay it little mind. I make replies...don't get me wrong. I simply have NO FAITH in this site and block all gay/pre-op/Transsexual/gender-queer and confused men, as I have NO INTEREST! I am into PURE women (White/Hispanic/Polynesian/Asian/Native-American) who crave BBC and are WILLING to submit to MY dominant personality. I will explain why I avoid Black American Women in another entry.

2/18/2018 9:52:30 PM
Been a while since I last wrote in my journal...

Lost another vehicle...AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGH!!!

My hometown Eagles FINALLY won a Super Bowl. Wish I were there to see the parade.

My wife and I are divorcing...


I will try to keep you posted...

5/31/2017 5:53:13 PM
I have an obligation now...

I am appalled at the massive genocide of white people in South Africa.

This atrocity is going unreported.

As a Black Male, I WILL NOT back a government dedicated to the total genocide of a race.

Governments worldwide are turning a BLIND EYE to this, and the atrocity is a STARK REVERSE of the Holocaust in WWII.

Share this and help the stricken white families in South Africa.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpaWtrEqga0&t=625s

3/3/2017 1:22:44 PM
As of three weeks ago, I have another slave: slutwhorebitch19

1/20/2017 6:15:15 PM
A historic day, today...


Like it or not...WE HAVE A NEW PRESIDENT!

12/19/2016 3:53:16 AM
Link from a member's profile:

http://www.xvideos.com/video9411194/you_are_my_slave

I won't mind lesbian domination...I just won't accept Men fucking men.

12/4/2016 5:41:38 AM
Well, the elections are in the books of history...and I can't believe we dodged a nuclear war. (FOR NOW!)

I will write sparingly...as my stable is growing and changing every day.

I also edited my profile a bit.

9/9/2016 3:49:37 PM
A LOT is going on...

I turned 49 a few weeks ago.

The election for a NEW president of this country is turning VIOLENT!

This is a premonition: People are THREATENING AND KILLING PEOPLE in an effort to keep Donald J. Trump from being elected. (Despite claims of Hillary Clinton's transgressions, MANY are gravitating towards her being president "because she's a woman."

The quest to break down barriers SHOULD NOT COST YOU YOUR FREEDOMS! Heed these words: The United States will CEASE TO EXIST if you vote for a liar, cheat (Bernie), swindler, murderer, and OVERALL MAN-HATER!

I love my Second Amendment Rights...and enjoy going to the weapons range to 'shoot-off' some rounds. (Best alternative to going out and starting a killing spree.)

I love my freedom of speech...words are the LEAST KIND OF WEAPONS! PHYSICAL VIOLENCE IS MUCH WORSE THAN YOU WOULD THINK!

The oxymoronic thinking is that people would assault someone to prevent a man running for the highest office under the ASSUMED premise that he is a reincarnation of Hitler. LOOK AT AND DO THE SAME ANALOGY TO HILLARY CLINTON! SHE'S NOT AN ANGEL!

I am done with my rant! EVERY American serviceman and woman who served this nation and those who paid the ULTIMATE Sacrifice...have sacrificed everything for NOTHING!

This will probably be my LAST and FINAL journal entry. At the end of this Month, the United Nations will take over the internet. ICANN - The Internet Corporation for Assigned Names and Numbers - will turn over the procedural properties to the UN by order of the outgoing president, Barack Hussein Obama.

Enjoy the Internet while you can...Pretty soon, there will be no more Blogging, tweeting, and saying ANYTHING...right or wrong.


7/15/2016 4:13:29 PM
I have a new slave...one that wants to spend time with me, and will encourage those who wish to still be under my control to get in touch with me to request their photos be removed with no questions. Those who do not will have their information and photos removed.

I have no time to pay attention to those who are not serious. IF any slave were sincere, they would have contacted me.

5/23/2016 5:41:02 AM
Introduced my wife to the sex toys I bought last week...

Do the math!

5/11/2016 5:27:20 PM
Now that graduation is done, I will focus on submissive non-black women who are serious about meeting an educated Back Man.

5/9/2016 5:36:58 PM
I finished a productive session with my wife...it was a continued session from the morning. I am content with the methods used to please my wife. I plan to take her to work, but will make future trips to work a part of the budget.

5/8/2016 1:30:29 AM
After an eventful day where academic achievements were recognized, there remains an empty void...

AND I KNOW THAT TWO WOMEN - QUEENS IN THEIR OWN RIGHT, SMILED FROM UP IN HEAVEN!!!

On Saturday, My late mother and Mother-in-law...Grace Lewis and Gail Blanchard, gave their approval of my graduating from Upper Iowa University. Although windy, their presence was felt as I walked across the podium.

Being a Dominant doesn't save you from showing emotion: As the clip of the senior year played, my efforts to contain the waterworks failed...LITERALLY!!!

Today is Mother's Day, May 8, 2016. I reflect on the teachings of two women who earned the matriarchal title. (Giving birth doesn't always give the title of Mother...PROPERLY RAISING YOUR CHILDREN IS ESSENTIAL. GUIDING THEM TO BE PRODUCTIVE, LAW-ABIDING CITIZENS IS PARAMOUNT!)

Happy Mothers Day to all who sired and have raised their children to be law-abiding citizens.

5/6/2016 4:46:39 PM
I am in Cresco, Iowa for an overnight stay. Tomorrow morning, I will attend the commencement ceremony at Upper Iowa University in Fayette.

Congratulations to ALL the graduates, and wish you the BEST OF LUCK in 2016!

5/4/2016 10:13:18 PM
I am leaning towards the MGTOW lifestyle in a serious fashion. There's such a thing as a Black man getting cuckolded, as my wife has numerous lovers, and the many women I try to talk to have ridiculed and shamed me. I see why many veterans commit suicide. Issues like this, among other things: hopelessness, depression, etcetera. There is some solace in going MGTOW...I can get my act together, gain wealth, and be successful. And I won't have to deal with women coming to me and clowning me. They will be outside looking in, as I gain prestige.

4/23/2016 8:49:11 PM
Less than two weeks before I walk across the podium to honor the promise made to my late mother-in-law.

Over three years of Blood, sweat, tears, pain, discomfort, a plethora of scammers, fakes, wanna-be subs, etc.

Getting through this event is strenuous in itself...but I remember the words a fellow dominant told me:

"Enjoy this moment...it isn't the start or the end to savor, but the journey!"

For those that are graduating, reflect upon the journey...be it the time you spent with that Dom/me or sub/slave who made your life special, the obstacle that you thought impossible to overcome, or the child/pet that enhanced your life.

Congratulations to the Class of 2016!!!


4/22/2016 7:17:22 AM
I got responses from some members today, and I have had to edit my profile accordingly.

Also, I have gotten accosted by a RUDE Black Male WHO DOESN'T KNOW TO HANDLE A SITUATION CALMLY! (Note the use of caps, he didn't slow down to process the debacle.)

A submissive has been made to have her accounts looked at because this LOSER (I said it, because there is NO WINNER in this argument) became a 'BULL in a china shop!'

I remember the teachings of the businessman that gave me advice...handle the matter, and move on. 

If HE doesn't think I am a REAL DOM, that is HIS issue...NOT MINE!

4/21/2016 7:24:00 PM
Thoughts and prayers to the family of Prince Rogers Nelson...AKA, Prince.

Listening to many of his songs, as I mourn a GREAT musician!



RIP PRINCE!!! Doves are crying n heaven.

4/21/2016 5:40:21 PM
My wife is on a date with one of her doms...so I am stuck with watching my son for a couple of days.

I am taking the free time to plan my trip to Iowa in early MAY.

4/16/2016 3:09:11 AM
Assholes surround me by the dozens...

I get an occasional one or two who block me, and add a derogatory note or two. (This site is a far outcry for the prominence it USED to have).

This site is QUICKLY becoming a JOKE! I harp on people being 150% sincere, but like vanilla dating sites...it has become a haven for fakers, scammers, and wanna-be's. (If I have difficulty getting members to meet, then it speaks of the difficulty for men in general.)

A friend has introduced me to the MGTOW movement, as he grew sick and tired of the FDBS that women spew. Should I get divorced, I will take his advice and 'Go My Own Way.'

(Note, my friend has a business, and a HIGH five-figure income.)

For those who block me...take business classes, and try using the people you block as success stories: The one you block and ignore today will be the one you interview with for a job you apply for tomorrow.

4/15/2016 5:26:55 AM
Three days after my surprise session with my wife, the low-testosterone issues have resurfaced, and the supplement dosage times are not correlating with the times I want to be intimate with my wife.

She surprised me wearing a sexy outfit...which she has not done in a while. I had to do my duties as a husband and please her THE BEST WAY I COULD!

Whoever made Viagra should work on a healthier alternative...I want to make my submissive wife happy, but NOT have a heart attack doing it.

Grrrrr...I am so pissed off right now. 

4/12/2016 4:47:05 PM
I finally gave my wife A good session of sex.

The issues with Low testosterone still are in effect.

I will try to work on my low testosterone.

4/11/2016 4:03:59 AM
Now people have done it...

I have gotten a FLAMING message on one of the BDSM sites that I frequent.


THIS IS THE LAST STRAW!!!

Quoting the Popeye cartoon: "That's all I can Stand...I can Stand NO MORE!!!"

As of this morning, I posted a response to a member living in another state. To save the member from embarrassment, I will not post her profile name. I grow tired of sites that cater SOLELY to women, and men are treated like "Sugar-Daddies' from the jump. Granted, it is a business...but it is NOT LUCRATIVE!

After 10 years, I noticed that the revenue for SEVERAL sites has DROPPED in dramatic fashion.

From now on, THE MESSAGE I am posting below is my initial response. If you don't like it...pass me by. When I do attain wealth, don't seek me out for a relationship.

Response example:


All that I can do at this point is correspond with you...if you choose to respond.

I have been for short conversations, compliments, and getting to know someone.

What I got in return: ignored emails, responses of "not interested,' or (if I do get a reply) discussions of being able to pay for the cost of their gas or plane ticket. The latter has been stated in the email engine: DO NOT SEND MONEY UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES! (A woman's charm carries THAT MUCH WEIGHT TO WOO A MAN INTO SENDING MONEY? really?)

I have gotten played, scammed, cheated, and treated like an UNOFFICIAL Sugar Daddy over the course of ten years. I am a Black Male, Dominant, educated, (Graduating from college this May in Iowa), polite WHEN POSSIBLE, in good shape, (for a 48 year-old man), and father to a 3-year-old son.

Not accusing directly...but the hypergamous nature of some members has corrupted this and other websites to the point that I don't care if people respond or not. As a former Marine, I have had the displeasure of getting counseling for my depression, and the frustration with this website has forced me to have a change of opinion about it.

I read many profiles, and feel that I am too far to warrant relocation. Further, this site ...like countless others, is being geared towards women, and women alone. (Couples are welcome, if the woman is the Dominant one.)

I will probably get pushed aside...but feel that my presence on CollarSpace is not needed. I have posted my views about dating sites in my reports in school. (At least, I got a grade for my research.) If I post my problems, I'm told that "I'm not trying hard enough," or "We don't see nothing wrong with the system."

Sorry for venting...but I live in a city (Milwaukee, Wisconsin) CLOSE to a major Metropolitan city in the upper Midwest. (Chicago, Illinois.) I am educated, Black Male, 48, in great shape, and married to a wife into other Dominant men than myself. I tried MANY ways to get this site to work for me, and feel like it does not work!!!

Thanks for hearing my rant. Unless you have the same issues, I don't expect a response.

4/8/2016 6:33:56 PM
I will be changing my profile tonight... I am married to my wife, but am no longer her dominant. She is doing her thing while I go my own way.

4/8/2016 2:13:02 AM
The wife and I have ironed out a few issues...but I STILL lost my dominant edge. It sucks having to be an educated, handsome, and Marketable Black male.

4/4/2016 5:07:50 PM
I'm going to ask a question...and this will shock: Can Black men get cuckolded? What I will say may make people think...but recent events have me thinking that my martial problems won't be resolved. I have low testosterone...and many factors have contributed to this. (Work, school, and my son). Over the course of several days, I have had little to no interest in sexual activity. Stress from a mother-in-law passing, work, and a crabby son who will not hear his grandmother speaking over the phone anymore have sabotaged my sex life. Two sessions with a dominant that my wife adores...and I will say it - ADORES, has left me feeling inadequate. (Flaccid both times). I thought that cuckoldry was a white woman belittling a white/asian/hispanic man or woman. What I see Black women doing to Black men has made me think about this long and hard. I am supposed to be the head of the house...and feel like close to a eunuch. People are telling me that I am 'not a dom,' 'a pussy,' or 'weak.' I feel that my wife ridiculed me during a session that her online dominant controlled. I have NEVER been so humiliated. As of right now, I will not speak to her. She has chosen her dominant friends over me, and although she says she doesn't believe in divorce-she might as well be with them. I have to spend the night in my car that I bought. She can ask her dominant friends to take care of her.

4/3/2016 12:18:41 PM
This month has not started off in the best of moods.

So far, I have learned I have low testosterone...

Every woman on this site either gravitates towards women, or doesn't want men.

To top things off, I had a session with my wife and one of her Doms. (Online.)

I have been under some stress since my mother-in-law died.

It has affected my relations with everyone.

I need some advice from fellow dominants.

I will also change my profile.



4/2/2016 5:41:15 AM
I just shared an online session with my wife and one of the Doms she is serving. Since the women on CollarSpace have been stalling at meeting up, she woke me up with clamps on her genitals and nipples.

I will not push for people to meet unless they show 150% sincerity.

Lack of honesty, and following an order is a DEFINITE TURN-OFF! I will go more outside this site...as it benefits women more than men.

4/1/2016 6:09:54 AM
I don't subscribe to any April Fools' Jokes this year...and I will not say if my posts are one.

4/1/2016 4:03:41 AM
Someone who is a dating coach gave me some pointers...but will simply post the SUGGESTED profile statement. I will edit it, because I AS A BLACK MAN do not feel that Black American women respect Black men UNLESS they are thugs, drug-dealers, gang-banger types, and shoot-up their neighborhoods.

I DON'T WANT ANY CHILDREN BEING RAISED IN THAT ENVIRONMENT!!! 

Here is the statement:

I don’t want any Black woman that thinks she’s the man. I am real and honest; for some Black women this is a problem. I know that there are women out there that want a man to be honest and real. I desire to meet an honest White woman. I don’t like or play games. I am not a thug so don’t expect me to act like or be one. I’m a Black man that strives to become more honorable day by day. I take care of my home and bills. I am looking for a relationship that has the potential to develop into a long-lasting one so if you are a black woman that feel like you don’t need a man you may want to pass me by because I’m now looking for a white woman that desires a good man and realizes they are better together than they are apart. I don’t bring necessary risk to myself or those involved with by selling or using drugs so if you prefer thugs I’m not for you. I chose to work and develop the talents that God gave me. So for the Black women that likes thugs and drug dealers as mates, move on…because I have no respect for you. For those non-black women that know the value of a working and steadfast man; I honor and respect you


I will covet married non-black women ONLY IF THEY ARE IN A TOTALLY UNHAPPY MARRIAGE. (I.E.: the woman was abused, she was cheated on, etc.)


I will slowly edit my profiles to reflect my stance...and have already gotten hateful responses. I am a Marine...I COULD CARE LESS WHAT YOU THINK!!!




3/31/2016 11:15:24 AM
I have viewed some videos...

and I am convinced that dating outside my race is the BEST thing to do.

3/28/2016 10:52:32 PM
I worry about my wife...

Days after her mother-in-law's passing, she is taking advice to play with 'Blue-collar men.'

I feel that the open marriage has benefited HER more than it I.

She doesn't believe in divorce...yet has MORE Dominant males than I have submissive females...

She hardly wants anal sex or sex from me, but is getting it from others. I will add that she takes safety to heart. for health reasons.

I have a job, and will eventually have a career. My level of stress is where I rarely will have sex with her, and our agreement where I can fuck other women is met with scorn.

Gynocentric thinking has reversed the mindset of the lifestyle.

3/27/2016 10:56:42 AM
My mom-in-law is in a better place...no sadness, pain, or fear.

My wife is trying to cope, and hope the fellow Dominant she met online will soothe her grief.

I have other issues to do...like honoring her memory by going to commencement.

I will say this ONCE to anyone NOT sincere about meeting: I don't support a money-entitled, lazy, scamming person. IF you ask for me to pay to have you visit, I will DROP you like a bottle of expensive whiskey.

3/24/2016 12:17:38 PM
Mother-in-law is not doing well. She is in the hospital in Madison Wisconsin. Her outlook of recovery is bleak. She is currently on life-support until the entire family can be present.

Please keep my family in your prayers.

3/17/2016 5:36:30 AM
I have to plan for my senior functions...The first one is next week.

3/15/2016 2:36:55 AM
Should I say frustration?

I am totally frustrated with the lifestyle, and may plan to follow the path set by a friend who is fed up with all the bullshit.

There is this underground thing called MGTOW (Men Going Their Own Way) that I want to look into. In my opinion, I feel that women ARE hypergamous, greedy, self-serving, and TOTALLY VINDICTIVE! I have been ridiculed into shame, so I will 'Take my dick, and go home.' Since no one appears to appreciate me or what I offer, I will go to graduation in May, then apply my degree to a new job. No one will have this Black Dominant to cherish.

Over time, I will get money, and will spend it on myself. I will stop pursuing women, SINCE THEY CAN'T BE 150% SINCERE!

I have YET to meet a woman that is sincere on this and other sites. To give an example: I was told by a woman on another site that I was a 'Fake/Fraud/loser' and told to fuck off.

Asshole is what asshole does...I no longer will pine over women who play games. Be sincere, or go...IT'S AS SIMPLE AS THAT!

3/14/2016 10:55:37 AM
Back from a harrowing weekend...and lost something I had used this weekend.

Also, I have a bratty, crabby son that does not want to listen to his parents.

New change to the profile:

For now, I added potential slaves to the favorites list. They must...UNDER ANY AND ALL CIRCUMSTANCES be 150% sincere about meeting, and able to travel/relocate on their own. (Instant deal breaker if ANYONE insists on me paying for everything...INCLUDING travel costs for a car, plane tickets, etc.)

I have been scammed and played out of money, and put the people I contact on blast if they show even the slightest excuse to play 'entitlement' BS. (Asking someone to wire transfer money is an AUTOMATIC RED FLAG.)

Sounds like I am venting, but I have grown sick of the FDBS. (Freeze-Dried BullShit.)

3/10/2016 11:42:48 AM
Two new subs have been contacted...

One in Arizona, the other in Indiana.

3/4/2016 4:18:48 AM
Two days off of work, and I have to go back...I misplaced something, and have to look for it.

3/3/2016 8:27:21 AM
Preparations for Anime Milwaukee are underway...

2/29/2016 4:18:30 PM
Life has a way of making things right...and stressing me.

I got my car back from the repair garage...and it turns out that the drain plug was not tightened.

I grew incensed, and contacted the original repair shop that did the repair. (Yes, I bitched them out...but that isn't the point.) As of closing time today, they will NO LOGER get my business.

2/26/2016 8:40:46 AM
I lost all my dominance points with my wife. I don't want to point fingers, but I encountered a faltering economy, a shitty car repair, and an upcoming commencement.

2/24/2016 5:33:48 PM
Today is been one of the tough days I have had post graduation. I have to put all things aside to remember the start of the ground offensive of the first Persian Gulf war. 25 years ago, American, Saudi, Egyptian, and Kuwaiti forces began the 100-hour assault on the Iraqi Republican Guard and regular army units. Casualties were reported as light at the start.

2/23/2016 5:53:32 PM
25 years ago today...the ground offensive of Operation Desert Shield/Storm began.

100 hours of ground-pounding, nerve-wracking, combat.

And that was just the Iraqi soldiers surrendering.

2/18/2016 4:15:43 AM
Sheer frustration with sites like this...I have willing partners who want to meet. One of the many issues is that they either live with parents...who continue to treat them like they are children WHEN they are adults. (Blaming the dwindling economy.)

I also encountered the normal fakers, scammers, etc. (The usual.) Right now, my focus is on repairing a vehicle that has drained my financial resources to where everyone INSISTS I trash the vehicle I purchased and start fresh.

Such is the pain of being Black, a veteran, college educated, and a catch for a woman.

This is going to be added: I WILL NOT DATE OR HAVE SEX WITH A BLACK WOMAN! I don't care if I am called 'Gay,' 'Self-Hater,' 'Uncle Tom,' etc. The bottom line is this: No Weaves, No attitudes, be submissive, and stop acting like a "BOSS BITCH" White, Asian, Hispanic, and other women of different ethnic backgrounds act TEN TIMES better than you do.

My 'Lame' behavior has turned me away from Black Women. I also feel for those women of different ethnic cultures who say they don't want a Black man. Brothers in my race have ruined it for me...I won't lie.

Although Married, I will promote the MGTOW movement for Black men such as myself. I feel that NO WOMAN WORTH THEIR WEIGHT as a submissive is proving themselves worthy. (There are a select few, and I WILL NOT call them out.)

My focus is on getting to commencement, then getting on with life.

2/15/2016 1:13:42 AM
Yesterday was a hassle...24 years ago, my mother - a source of my motivation and success - passed away from Heart Disease at 63.

The 24 years of struggle to find identity has become a slow blur...but I have become the man she wanted me to be. If she were alive, she wouldn't mind me having a wife outside the Black race...as the ratchet behavior would make her disgusted to see it.

12/31/2015 2:44:16 PM
2015 comes to and end with me fixing my vehicle. (Took a full paycheck, and got an angry wife as a reward.)

I look to 2016 with some events...to include my going to commencement in May.

12/28/2015 1:02:07 PM
The Christmas holiday is done, and so are my finals...

The link I include below will explain all.

It is for ALL ages, and the music is carefully selected.

See you in 2016!

video link - via YouTube:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcdJdM5heto

11/28/2015 3:40:31 PM
My final exam looms...

I have to request everyone's prayers and well wishes.

11/26/2015 9:59:37 PM
Thanksgiving is done!

GOBBLE, GOBBLE, GOBBLE!

11/24/2015 9:20:58 AM
I keep getting pestered by fakes and scammers. I met one, who has an account on CS. She keeps contacting me to ask for money for some 'flight stipend.' I never heard of this FDBS in my life. Even after telling her I had no money, and exhausted all avenues, I get called a 'fake,' 'cheapo,' 'wanna-be,' etc. (The same things I call a fake slave.)

It is obvious that Scammers are everywhere...even here.

The definition of insanity is clear: "DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER, AND EXPECTING A DIFFERENT RESULT!"

Stop the mass insanity...IF a woman/man/couple asks for you to send money, DON'T!

The saying, 'a sucker born every Minute' comes to mind...

11/20/2015 11:56:45 PM
I met a few members who experienced the same thing I have: talking to anyone that interested us, then we get blocked. I'm going to stop talking to people that block me. If you are too chicken shit to talk to me, don't reply in the first place. Silence is golden, as the saying goes...

11/16/2015 10:23:50 PM
I am THIS CLOSE to a monumental objective!!!

and I flunked the midterm.

AAAAAAAARRRRRGHHHHH!!!

I am stewing over the fact that I am stumbling at the finish line.


and I Don'T like it!

11/10/2015 8:58:22 PM
Today is the 240th Marine Corps Birthday...

I reflect on the sacrifices of my peers.

10/22/2015 8:05:14 PM
I am tired of this BS site. With the exception of my wife, and a few members, I am not going to chase any bitches.

9/29/2015 10:13:18 AM
I will warn you about contacting a woman named Cherry Ribbs. (Cherryribbs1988, and cherryribbs88) As far as I know, she IS NOT a slave worth pursuing. She and her handlers are bonafide scam artists, as I purchased a plane ticket that is NOT BEING USED!

She and various other women are GOLDDIGGERS...and not worth your time and effort.

I will add that women who contact me HAVE THEIR OWN MEANS TO TRAVEL!

NO MORE FDBS! If you want to meet...email, text, get to know.

Stop the '5 pic sets' shit...

Stop the asking for money for travel expenses...

And lastly: STOP THE GAMES! I have an XBOX 360, that is now used for my son's DVDs...PLAY A STUPID GAME, AND WIN A STUPID PRIZE!

This is the last straw...all members on Collarspace who have contacted me, and know me understand that I can correspond, just will NO LONGER assist you with relocation, travel, etc. I wasted financial resources...which my son needed, to get a woman WHO DOESN'T CARE, to travel to me.

9/25/2015 1:12:30 AM
Updated my profile with the new pics...

I think that changing things up will slightly dispel rumors that I am a 'bot' account.

I work, and am too busy to play games.  IF you desire to play games, go to the nearest pawn store and BUY an XBOX Game Console.

9/17/2015 3:39:39 PM
The stresses of a new schedule...

With it come the addition of another Dominant...this time, one who has a profile on CollarSpace.

My polyamorous slave wife gets three potent Dominants, while I get the 'Scrubmissives' that make an issue of identity, and make NO EFFORT to meet.  (For those that DO TRY, this is NOT geared towards you.)

I check back on CS when I have a message worth the time. Nevertheless, I am using other sites that do the job that CS DOES NOT!

9/4/2015 4:08:36 AM
I have a bad case of inopportune timing...not only is the stress of home life, and my job getting to me, so is the inopportune moment.

NORMALLY, I am ready for a morning fuck...but lately, my stress is getting me frustrated. When a Black man CAN'T perform to please his wife...something is wrong!  NO AMOUNT OF THERAPY OR COUNSELING MAY JAR IT LOOSE!

I also have a headache from said stress...

(Go figure.)

9/1/2015 4:58:01 PM
Alright...I will stop using CollarSpace for searching for my slave woman. I have other sites to use, and will employ that website.

CollarSpace has lost its luster...

8/31/2015 2:24:44 AM
My 48th birthday passed with no action...
I wonder what I have to post to get some white pussy.

8/27/2015 2:02:35 AM
Now I am pissed...

Collarme...collarspace...whatever you want to call it, it is officially a joke. 

I don't get any true members here anymore...except for my current wife. I am of the opinion that the 'diminants,' 'scrubmissives,' 'Dummes,' or other sexual-preference idiot moniker you can think of...take from the page of the scammers, fakes, wannabes, etc., and apply it to their FDBS. I try to overlook a disability, but as a FORMER MARINE, 'I can't fix stupid.' 

I am of the opinion that if someone REALLY wanted to have a relationship, they would get past the games, and get on with it. I have other sites...some pay for messaging, some free...that I can use. As of today, Collarme/Collarspace is SO FAR BENEATH ME! I contact people, only to get the lowest of the low, the haughty, the bitchy, and...as I mentioned earlier: THE STUPID!

I apologize to those who DO make an effort...it's just that CM has evolved into this 'meat-market wholesale' crap I get in a regular night club. I'm not going to tell my sites, as the fakes and wannabes will gravitate to it, and ruin things for those who are 150% sincere.

8/8/2015 4:31:35 PM
Ok...what is the F****** matter?

I know I don't appeal to most people, and a slip of the tongue sets them to block me, call me a 'fake,' accuse me of copying pics from the internet AND subsequently post them on my profile, and call me an outright liar.

To know me is to research me...I invite those who 'doubt' me to do a simple background check. In Fact: I will provide some items that will show in the initial check...

I have a criminal record. (Domestic Abuse in '94; Driving after Revocation in '96 (Thereabouts); NUMEROUS Probation holds (Served a Three-year probation hold that I completed...THANK YOU!)

Here is the Kicker: NO PRISON TIME! ( For those that said they met me in prison...the County lockup is that: THE F****** COUNTY LOCKUP!!! Prison means either a Minimum or Maximum facility.)

IF YOU WANT TO CLAIM ME AS A FAKE...GET YOUR INFO RIGHT!!!

For those who see my rant, pardon the flaming. I have to set some 'Diminants' and "Scrubmissives" straight.

8/6/2015 5:23:54 PM
The simplest thing to do is also the dumbest.

I have been blocked again, and just when I get to know someone.

7/24/2015 10:42:09 AM
I feel so frustrated, as well as horny...

Frustrated, because I try to get my schoolwork done, and fail miserably.

Horny, as my wife has health issues, the bills pile up on us, and other Doms are trying to weasel their way in. I told her that the three Doms she has access to is the limit.

I need a willing white, Asian, white-Hispanic, native American, or Polynesian slut to join our poly dynamic.

7/23/2015 4:22:51 AM
Remembering the 4 Marines and Sailor who died last week:

A Veteran is someone who at one point in their life wrote a blank check payable to the United States of America for an amount up to and including, their life. That is beyond honor and there are way too many people in this country who no longer remember that fact.

Copy and
 paste this to your journal if you are a Veteran,... know a Veteran, Love a Veteran, or Support the Troops! May God Bless Them All

7/21/2015 1:14:27 PM
I got a few prospects contacting me...but many won't follow-through with going past the greeting stage. Making the issue worse: Those I managed to meet from other sites than CM had the will to meet at SOME POINT IN THE RELATIONSHIP! I admire a female sub / slave courageous enough to go through with the meeting, the actual courting, etc. I get the fact that the fakers, scumbags, and wanna-bes make you cautious of bearing your soul.


I really don't know what to do...I use every method. try politeness, even say my wife is involved in BDSM. I will simply wait until the sub has shown a genuine interest. 

7/8/2015 2:04:32 PM
It amazes me that some people visit my profile, only to block it minutes later.

I will only say this once:

IF you want to talk, do so...JUST HAVE THE COMMON COURTESY TO LET THE PERSON YOU CORRESPOND WITH RESPOND!

IF YOU DON' T WANT TO TALK TO ME, THEN DON'T POST TO MY PROFILE!

6/21/2015 2:08:06 PM
Great...only on Father's Day!

I try to reply to a respondent about an issue they have, and I get blocked...

What am I going to do show my intelligence?

I MUST BE A DUMB JOCK, WHO DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HE'S TALKING ABOUT!!!

I keep the profile name out of the issue, as they have to handle it, and it poses a question:

A widow has two quite dominant daughters, and one of them has now a black dominant boyfriend. What comes of this scenario?

The trigger is that the widow is a submissive, and doesn't recognize it. The dominant figures are running the household, and she is at her wits' end.

I am tired of getting blocked...

6/3/2015 4:56:39 PM
I am on the cusp of an event that is YEARS in the making:  I am days away from getting a vehicle. I will have the freedom to travel that was ripped from me when I went to the VA in 2008 for depression.

This is a HUGE step for me, but my wife is DEAD SET against the idea. Times have turned drastic...and simply relying on Public Transportation is NOT CUTTING IT!  Besides, you can't rely on a city bus to get you 10 miles to work IN FIFTEEN MINUTES on a last-minute notice, when you have a possible chance to work more hours. (I have to take two buses, or bike/walk to the bus that stops in front of the doors of my job.)

I would like someone to argue the pros/cons of this decision.

5/12/2015 7:20:21 PM
Last night, my sexy slave took my dick deep in her anal orifice for the first time. She experienced her first anal orgasm, and can't wait to have more.

4/24/2015 9:58:35 PM
Getting closer and closer to obtaining a Bachelor's Degree.

My slave wife has a dilemma...as W/we lost contact with a prospecting playmate, who didn't stay in contact. (This drove my wife NUTS!!!) We have since contacted another male...Dominant, and able to keep my slave wife horny.

The dilemma is this: The other playmate came back in the picture, and I face a decision where I may have to tell one of the playmates that it is not possible for my wife to meet.

1/3/2015 9:42:05 AM
A new year has started...but I have gotten so busy with school, work, raising a 2-yr old monster...lol

IF time permitted, I would be posting, surfing, etc.

All the best for the new year, and in your searches. May you find what you seek.

4/9/2014 5:54:36 PM

I remember things that happen on this site...especially if it has happened to me.  I quoted a member's journal post, and it makes sense: "Those I blocked the first time around remain so. If you message me and you're blocked, its due to previous actions, even if you cant remember, my block button does."

 

Recently, I got told I was "fake" and blocked. If you think I am fake for a few things that I can't do at a whim (Ask for nude pics, chat, etc.), the phrase 'get a life' comes to mind. When I had profiles on other sites, I blocked many people who became questionable.  I have been in the lifestyle for many years, and the major issue is the same: TVs, TSs, sissy bois (Gay males), and bisexual cuckolds begging me to dominate / own them.

 

I am a dominant Black Male that craves a THREE-HOLE female, who has her original genes from birth. (No sex-change sluts or pre-op feminine types, as I deem that wimping out.)  I don't want no other gender, so quit asking / begging / convincing me.

 

I have also gotten flaming messages from sissy types, 'wanna-be' sub women, and most switch women.  In turn, I have been blocked for being fake, refusal to 'claim' them (the sissy bois, and trannies), or  - in the case of the female switches: "Be a man and submit to a dominant woman."

 

I am married to a lovely submissive woman, a BBW slave. If you read my current profile, you would know that I seek other submissive women willing to serve alongside my slave wife.  I am returning to Anal play, and recently had a successful anal session with my slave wife. (At least a successful entry, she grew uncomfortable after some time.)

 

I won't divulge her info, as the same individuals mentioned attempted to discourage her. This is one thing that I hate about CM:  The jealousy from the members resulted in the loss of some prospecting members. As she also has a profile on CM, other sissys, switch males, etc. contact her.

 

Venting session is done, so I will finish this journal.


3/27/2014 2:01:45 PM

Well, this is an interesting week...

 

I have an upcoming interview tomorrow.  Also, I received a block from a member wanting me to take a photo holding a bullwhip. (I lost my bullwhip years ago, and purchased another one.) Due to the person's jumping to conclusions, I won't display the pic when I get the bullwhip. She can call me a liar, bullshitter, etc., I am married, and my slave wife appreciates me.

 

I have encountered people like this, and the only course is to block them as well. if they want to be serious, they have other means to reach me.


3/6/2014 1:14:46 PM

Today, I have had a meeting about how my company is to improve. I can't say much, but I have an assignment: describe my procedure for brushing my teeth. lol


3/1/2014 7:29:08 AM

Life with a wonderful son, and a beautiful wife are good. It is the tough times and the rut that you have to hurdle over. Recently, I obtained a cold - contracted during our Anniversary excursion to the 2014 Milwaukee Anime Convention. Despite the disadvantages, we enjoyed the convention for two days.

 

I was hoping to begin her Anal Training when this cold started. I purchased lubrication, dildoes, vibrators, etc., only to get put in my place by MOTHER NATURE - The ultimate Dominatrix that even males and females of ANY denomination, religion, creed, color, or background must heed. (Female Dommes, even YOU can't resist her. lol)

 

My health is improving, but work schedules, School, O/our son, and the frigid Wisconsin weather constantly intervene. I tolerate at least three...meaning the weather is the odd one out.

 

I will inform you of my progress later.


2/28/2014 11:52:18 PM
I am looking at the photos on my account, and updating them.

2/24/2014 8:50:12 PM

It has been a year, and I have been sooooo busy with my slave and our toddler son.


2/24/2013 10:41:53 PM

It has been more than a week since I married my slave wife. She is happy, and I have been eager to fuck her on a constant basis. The big issue is my availability. (Hence why W/we seek a submissive female to join.) She is open to having a Dominant Bi-sexual woman join us, but will convey that I am the Dominant one that control everything. (Save a woman's finances, job, clothing, and what the circumstances dictate.)

 

 


12/28/2012 5:34:32 PM
New Year's Day is approaching fast. My slave and I are eager to have a sister slave jpin our family, yet no women are inerested. Issues at work have slave victoria as stressed as anyone can be, and I suffer for it. (Fatigue, discomfort, and a surprisingly low interest in sexual intercourse have ruined our morale...for the most part.)

12/11/2012 11:50:49 AM

Getting ready for the holidays...Not an easy task.

 

Got gifts to shop for.

 

 


12/5/2012 11:45:16 AM

Rough year is coming to a close.

 

Classes are going well, and hope that I can finish them and graduate soon.

 

I got time off from work for Wednesday afternoon...so I'll finish my courses, and prepare for the final week of studies.


11/11/2012 1:53:57 PM

Veterans Day greetings to those who have served, or are currently serving.

 

I went to Applebee's for my free meal, and am completing homework at Starbuck's before returning home to a lovely slave fiancee' - who is taking care of my infant son.

 

School work is going along well, and will hope to get through this year with no failed classes.


11/1/2012 5:34:19 PM

Just a small update...

 

Baby and mommy are doing good.

 

School is ok, for the most part.

 

Halloween season is in the books, and am glad it is done.


9/25/2012 1:38:11 AM

One week ago, at 6:04 PM on September 18, 2012, Hugh John Blanchard was born via C-Section. He weighed in at 5 pounds, 12.3 ounces, 19 inches long, and was a month premature. Mother and son are doing fine.


9/14/2012 9:02:41 AM

I REALLY HATE WHEN THINGS DON'T GO MY WAY!!!!

 

I will tell you, I am an ANGRY BLACK MALE!!!

 

I'm using this journal to post / vent.

 

Right now, I'll keep it short. (Just these words.)


9/2/2012 5:19:52 PM

This next college term is challenging: I looked to have an edge on my classes by getting all the textbooks. Talk about flunking miserably...the editions I purchased are earlier versions.

 

Now, I'll miss a window to buy / rent the current version, and I'll fall behind in my studies. Moreover, I am in a leadership position at work, and the stress nearly got me fired.

 

I HATE WHEN THINGS DON'T GO MY WAY!!!


8/19/2012 9:09:01 PM

The first college term is done...almost.


7/22/2012 2:10:07 PM

Posting something I wrote on my Facebook page regarding the movie shooting:

 

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Right now, I have a LOT on my skull...

Friday, I heard on the news about a gunman opening fire at a theater in Colorado during the midnight premiere of "The Dark Knight Rises." At last count: 12 dead, and more than 50 wounded. Among the dead, a 6-year-old girl.

I'm a former Marine, and have been trained in the art of warfare. A few years ago, I got several demoralizing remarks from someone while going through a second heart-wrenching divorce. I won't divulge this individual, but he lived in the location that the shooting took place: Aurora, Colorado. (Don't know whether he was in that theater or not.)

The remarks he said were about my NOT being the father I was supposed to be...not doing 400% of what I should do...and NOT giving up total control to my spouse or girlfriend. (I discuss my views of religion like this: God created man, and then God created woman to be his helper.) To make it short: He said I'm supposed to be a 'sniveling, submissive suck-up.' (This is his words: "Any man who served in the armed forces is a dumb jerk. Macho attitudes are what cause war.") He was against me for making my life better.

Normally, I blow-off disparaging remarks, until he made a threat...one that is ominous. He wished I would be like the guy that shot up the theater, then get sent to jail to die. I'm not wishing for ANYONE to be like this guy, and my heartfelt prayers go out to the families of this SENSELESS tragedy. But wishing this upon someone is JUST AS DAMMING as the idiotic gunman that committed this crime.

I had a specific prayer...that I don't end up like this gunman, that I will one day live long enough to see my kids meet each other, (not to see their dad behind bars...like this idiot vowed) and that they can be proud of their dad.

So far, One objective has been met. The other two are ongoing.

For me, I THANK GOD for his giving me SOME smarts to not use weapons like this...

I'm a Marine, and we've been taught to fight. The one thing they teach us...and I learned it from Boot camp - as well as a poster from the 80s: The battle is first won in the mind. This gunman lost his the moment he planned this heinous crime.

I thank God that he gave me the wisdom to calm my rage. Life may be wasted on the living...but I'd rather be doing that than dying.

If anyone 'feels' my sermon, let me know. Life is too short for grudges...despite this, I have to live long enough to get my life right. The demons I have are waging a CONSTANT battle to win. It is my fight alone, and this gunman has made it harder for me to win a battle. (He showed how futile it can be to fight...yet showed how much of a struggle it is to lose.)

Apologies if I sound like I offended anyone...I could have ended up like the gunman, and the person who made this threat would have won.


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I'm serious when I say that the gunman is a coward. (Brilliant or not.) It is one thing to kill college students, people at a work plant, even postal employees. (No, I'm not endorsing it...so DON'T GET MY MESSAGE TWISTED!)


But a MOVIE THEATER?


We go to these places to unwind...relax...de-stress. Now this asshole had the balls to commit a heinous, cowardly, and ass-backwards crime.


Again, I'm not endorsing the Aryan Brotherhood / skinheads, Bloods, Crips, Gangster Disciples, Vice Lords, al Queda, or any gang / terrorist group out there...but this shit is something that THEY would do!!! 


An everyday example I will point out: Muslim terrorists would be so ass-backwards as to suicide-bomb a mosque of mourners attending a funeral of a young Muslim girl - if I am correct. (Like the common drive-by gang shootings, they kill someone to see how many come to the funeral, then kill them as well.)


What will be next...we get checked for weapons as we leave the house? Russia, Korea, and a few other countries had a solution for dumb assholes like this...shoot them.

 

 

 

 


6/22/2012 8:18:32 PM
Got registered for online classes at Upper Iowa University. Now the only thing to do is get my textbooks for cheap. lol

6/17/2012 5:04:16 PM

Short text...

Had some issues, they got settled.


6/10/2012 7:35:42 PM

New month...New issues:

 

I will start with the anticipated, but over-rated recall election that Wisconsin had survived. Gov. Scott Walker (Scotty-2-Hotty, as I now call him) is the first Governor to survive a recall attempt.

 

Due to certain individuals...including some not into the lifestyle, or on this site...I will be weighing the option of changing my photos. I've been told to have a constant stream of pics...a few every other day. (As if this site WERE better than Facebook. lol.)

 

Regarding pics...I DON'T HAVE THE TIME TO POST NEW PICS, AND THERE ARE PIC THIEVES, COLLECTORS, ETC., WHO WOULD LOVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO THAN TAKE A PIC, USE IT ON A WEBSITE, AND THE ONLY EXCUSE IS THAT, 'SOMEONE EMAILED IT TO THEM!'

 

If you believe THAT bullshit, there is a basketball team in Boston...that JUST became eliminated from the playoffs, with AGING players, that I want to sell to you. (IF I had such a team.)

 

Now the recall election. I will quote my post from one of my Facebook pages...with a few changes:

 

"The recall election is finally done...a couple of years...$100 million dollars of supporter funds...countless volunteers, petitions, and arguments...and what did Wisconsin get?

For starters...we still have "Scotty 2 Hotty" in office. (Scott Walker)

Tom Barrett is still the mayor of Milwaukee...which still is high with unemployment.
...
The $3 million of surplus MAY BE $97 million of debt. (If you see my view, do respond: $100 million could be BETTER SPENT GETTING JOBS - NOT TRYING TO RECALL an official who had the courage to fix a problem...RIGHT OR WRONG!)

Schools...companies...and many Wisconsin residents still suffer. IMHO, we get ourselves into these situations, and many detractors / benefactors don't provide the proper solutions. (Or we are so greedy, we 'hoard' all the resources.)

WE GOTTA STOP LOOKING FOR THE QUICK FIX! Gray Davis of CA evidently screwed up in 2003. Wisconsin panicked over the loss of Collective Bargaining, and have to eat this cost. In the movie, "Ace Ventura, Pet Detective" There was a line he said: "In every contest, there is a winner and a loser...LOO-HOO...SER-HER!"

We are a state of $97 Million losers..."
 
I'm sure fellow Dom/mes in the lifestyle will learn from this - Right or Wrong.

5/28/2012 4:03:04 PM

My slave and a roommate are knocking heads...we're moving into her parents' home, and vickie harps on the roommate - a domme at that. It has in effect ruined my Memorial Day - which started with emails from female subs telling me that I haven't paid attention to them, and appear to be uninterested. I'll say five simple words: I WORK FOR A LIVING!

 

I don't have money for anything...we're in a bad economical time, you know. Mind the phrase: "I owe, I owe...and it's OFF TO WORK I GO!"


5/25/2012 6:36:32 PM

Short, sweet, and to the point...slave vickie and I are having a baby boy.


5/21/2012 6:21:42 PM

Today at work, I witnessed how vindictive a woman can be to a man. A fellow co-worker has an issue with a former girlfriend who dumped him a couple years ago. She had some issues, and slept around on him...and it was enough to demoralize him. After getting over the failed relationship, he found his 'soulmate,' only to be given a rude awakening by this vindictive former girlfriend.

 

Apparently, she harassed him at work...spreading a vicious lie to his current girlfriend - in the hopes of ruining his relationship...Threatening to send her boyfriend to his job or his home to 'beat him' into submitting to her whims...and the last thing she did: Told him he mistreated her, when all he did was treat her like a queen. (Male subs listen: NOT ALL WOMEN ARE TO BE TREATED LIKE THIS...I DON'T CARE IF MOM OR DAD TAUGHT YOU TO HAVE MANNERS!)

 

He was in tears over the fact that he was about to lose his 'soulmate' - to the point that he seriously contemplated suicide. Being that I was in that predicament, I took action, calmed him down, and told him to think the issue through. Finally, a female co-worker who knew him got through, and helped him resolve the matter.

 

I will tell you that it is not funny...having been through this situation, and to witness a despondent co-worker...being made to cry. (I ask that cruel Dominatrices refrain from laughing, as suicide IS NO LAUGHING MATTER!) I don't care if you want to be "Queen Bitch," but make sure that the male has wronged you physically - if you have an issue with ruining a man's life. (BEAT you or the kids, stole from you, etc.)

 

Here is a hint for the fakers and players, and for those women who have a man:  When a man gets a woman gifts, money, clothes, and she is not appreciative: Dump her IMMEDIATELY!

 

If a man DOES NOT buy you at least some clothes, a gift, or take you out...HE'S NOT WORTH THE TIME!

 

If he does work around the house...that is an exemption. (Killing the Black Widow Spider you are afraid of is a plus.)

 

I'm off the soapbox for now...


5/13/2012 1:26:08 PM

Just a quick post wishing a Happy Mothers Day to all the sub / slave women, The Domme women, and all the males filling the parental duties of mom and dad to the next generation of Masters and slaves. I lost my parents in 1992 (Mom) and 2001 (Dad), but their teachings...however great or small, are being put to use by me.

 

My pregnant slave is experiencing a SMALL taste of motherhood. I might be a Dominant, but my slave is deserving of a treat today. After all: She is carrying my son or daughter, and that child will learn to Dominate a white slut (If the child is a Black Male) or submit to a Dominant Black Male (If the child is a female.)

 

Note that this is my opinion...but my slave and I decided our child will have their  parents in their lives...NO MATTER WHAT!


5/12/2012 10:29:38 AM

Just a short post regarding wire transfer of money. I have heard horror stories about this, and learning from past lessons is the basis of my advice. (Yes, I was dumb enough to fall for this shit.) I will tell you firsthand - NEVER USE WIRE TRANSFERS! (I'm sure everyone knows that, but the message needs repeating at times.)

 

Here are some tips regarding financial transactions:

 

  • ALWAYS USE MONEY ORDERS OR CHECKS! (When someone says the wire transfer payment process is easier, that is a RED FLAG!) I don't care if that is the best way, I need a paper record to handle the issue in court. (Covering your ass...CYA, as I call it.) If they don't aggree to the use of money orders and threaten to cancel the transaction, beat them to the punch, and report them. (You can tell them that you won't mind cancelling the deal - if they ARE sincere, they'll go with it.)

Money orders ae easy to cash. (If you don't have an ID, you shouldn't be making deals of ANY type.)

  • Make it a small amount. (Don't send the whole amount at once...if they contact you asking for the FULL AMOUNT, an amount greater than the aggreed cost, or more than you can afford, instant red flag.)

50 dollars is my set amount. I have bills, and WON'T waste my whole check when responsibilities come first.

  • Keep the receipts in a folder. (Having this on hand will make the cases on "The People's Court," "Judge Mathis," etc., go a little easier.)

Having a running record keeps you sane.

 

I hope this will help when dealing with financial payments.


5/6/2012 8:18:32 PM

I am very impatient this week...I cleaned my laptop of all malicious software - only to have it come back with impunity. When I uninstalled a program that it feeds off of, it tried to shut down my laptop. I accessed system restore, and the matter is settled for now.

 

That was one issue...the other is searching for a sister slave for vickie. She is in her 16th week of pregnancy, and VERY HORNY! I am capable of fulfilling her insatiable sex drive, however, she wants another slave to share her lust for me.

 

Here is what we seek:

 

The sister slave must be a caucasian, asian, hispanic / white-hispanic, native-american, or polynesian woman. (Not a Transgendered, Transsexual, or Hermophroditic individual.) BY NO MEANS DO W/we seek a Gay / Bi-sexual male...I want women handling my dick and swallowing MY come. I have a gay roommate, and he is NOT in the picture...he has a boyfriend, and will not participate if asked. (My slave girlfriend knows my hard limits, and respects them...just like I respect hers.)

 

If there are some hard limits, we can discuss them. Keep in mind the sister slave MUST love Oral, Vaginal, and ANAL sex. (IF it is a life-threatening issue, it will be addressed.)

 

I did not ask for dominant women or couples...although having them as friends is not a problem.

 

This is also the week that the landlord...the greedy, snobby, ignorant, "I'm not a slumlord" asshole - who doesn't repair / upgrade / monitor the apartment we rented from, takes us to court to evict us. We notified him to work with us regarding this, and he didn't even touch one thing. (He DID replace the water heater AFTER we threatened to get an inspector over to look at the house.) AS of this month, we are hoping to get the old house my slave's parents owned.

 

Right now, patience is NOT a virtue...


5/4/2012 11:01:11 PM

This is a sad day in Hip-Hop Music: Adam "MCA" Yauch, Founder of the Rap group, 'The Beastie Boys,' passed away. (Rumors had it that he battled Cancer.)

 

Also, former San Diego Charger linebacker Junior Seau died from a gunshot wound to the chest.

 

I grew up listening to rap music during its 'infancy.' The Beastie Boys helped pave the way, and despite their seemingly immature ways, grew up and rolled with the punches reality threw at them: Yauch supported the Tibetan human rights issue, denounced rape of women, etc. (Kindly provide your example of what the Beastie Boys did off-stage.)

 

Junior Seau needs FEW words. He terrorized MANY an opposing QB. The commercials he did: A Wheaties Commercial with San Fran QB Steve Young, and the Nike Commercial with the late Dennis Hopper, to name a couple, were iconic.

 

He became a popular San Diego icon, and most people loved him.

 

They will be missed DEARLY! Please give your prayers to their families during this difficult time.


5/2/2012 6:28:14 PM

Someone is having a laugh at my expense:

 

I just got  an eviction notice in the mail from an asshole of a landlord...he can't even fix things in the apartment when I ask him to. (He won't even accept receipts for the repairs I make - if any.)

 

This is going to be a Looooooooooong month!


4/22/2012 8:07:13 PM

Tonight, I have been facing the difficult task of putting a landlord in check. When I returned from the library, I saw my future wife clean our home - the same one that the landlord is pushing for us to pay, when he doesn't fix shit in the place. We are getting an inspector to look at the house, and the advantage we look at is that he didn't fix the place up to code.

 

The disadvantages...well, I welcome comments - if anyone has advice on the matter.


4/13/2012 8:21:59 PM

Went up north to get some R&R...found out some news: My slave is pregnant.

 

I also had made myself absent from the internet.

 

I will be busy at this period...and will check back in periodically.


3/31/2012 9:31:22 PM

G**Damn! I feel like someone is trying to prove to other people that I am not Dominant, when they should look at themselves. I've been labeled as a fraud, fake, wanna-be, liar, and the laughable term: WUSS!

 

Their claim is That I don't come out DIRECTLY in my responses to women demanding they submit to me. Something I learned from the years I've been on this site is how to be a TRUE DOM!

 

I got this from another site, and it was composed by the sensual Dom in 2008. I will now post it here so every man can 'get it.' (Note that I put some sentences in Bold and Italics.) ZThough I will disagree with a couple points, it is a VALID read.

 

Finding a man is no easy task for submissive ladies. It seems many women do not understand the red flags signaling “Beware.”

 

- A dominant man will not start off by with, 'Bow down on your knees upon receipt of my message!' There seems to be many complaints from women about this kind of ploy as first introduction, and this is reason alone to 'block n’ move on.' (I would advise ladies to use this tactic often and liberally rather than engage in argument or flame wars…life is too short.). Ignore the Insta-Dom.

 

- A dominant man will not seem ‘desperate’ for your attention. Getting dates or getting laid is not his problem; he can find women on kink sites, at work, or in the grocery store. He knows women, and women are drawn to him. Many women, kink or vanilla, prefer a man who is take-charge both in the bedroom and in life. If a 'Dom' becomes frantic, anxious, or despairing because you don’t write him back every other hour, chances are he has a hard time with the fairer sex. The good news is desperation is easy to spot.

 

- A dominant man most often will be successful, a maverick, or at least happy in his chosen profession. If he has had some bad luck in his past, it will be fleeting, for he will strive relentlessly to place his universe back into the order mandatory to his existence. If your suitor languishes in poverty, unemployment for years, or hates his job, most likely his dominance is merely a cover-up to appease his lack of success. Though he may not be the millionaire, look for the man who is happy, confident, unique, and/or successful in his chosen endeavor.

 

- A dominant man will be very interested in you, and not just your sexual needs (though they will certainly get his attention). He will see you as a puzzle, and desire to make sense of that puzzle. The dominant guy loves challenge and that in essence is why so many submissives find disillusion in the vanilla world; most men do not seek challenge in sensuality, they fear it. Submissive women are the most challenging of lovers for they have great fantasy. Their fantasies often require a man to move far outside normal gestures requiring both skill and creativity. How you think about a myriad of criterion will be of great interest to him.

 

- A dominant man is likely to be damn good in the sack. Most men have their hands full with straight-up vanilla sex. The dominant man has either mastered or has no interest in such elementary play, at least not all the time. Making a woman orgasm many times has left him bereft of sport, so he now seeks a woman who will challenge him on other levels. The dominant guy is going to have a good understanding of the female anatomy, and will persist in finding the keys to your body and mind. He will have done his homework and already experimented in real-time on many lovers. He will be a bit of the Don Juan, if not Don himself; not a womanizer per se, but certainly sexually advanced.

 

- A dominant man may have all the accoutrement of kink (the whips, chains, and whatnot), but he will not need them to be dominant. A whisper, a word, a look, a swagger, and a touch are the essence of his talent. Confidence is his weapon of choice, not bragging about his dungeon. Those who tout their toys too highly might well be lacking in other departments.

 

- A dominant man will be very cautious in selecting you because he knows you have great desires, hopes, and dreams, and it is he that has to live up to them. Above all things he will wish to be good for you. He attempts to choose wisely but may at first make many mistakes in his choices as he finds his way.

 

- A dominant man will make mistakes and have no fear admitting them. The dominant guy knows he is not All Knowing, for he is human. A guy who believes he never makes mistakes or does not admit to them with good cheer is most likely not dominant.

 

- A dominant man will never send you a cock shot at first greeting and it is highly unlikely that he’ll have one on his profile.

 

- A dominant man will not beg you for naked photographs. In fact, he won’t beg for anything. He will simply wait till you’re dying to send him your naughty pictures unsolicited and accept them with lordly composure (or a rock hard-on, depending on the photo).

 

- A dominant man will never lie about being married or already having a girlfriend. If he’s married to vanilla, he’ll simply say so. If he’s dating vanilla, he’ll break up with her before venturing in with another (less he’s doing a poly thing and brings her along, or in an open relationship). The dominant guy is straightforward, will wish to be plain about his true desires and needs, and if he is attached, will be forthcoming with that information. If he’s cheating on his vanilla wife, he will say so. He made his choice and is going for it.

 

- A dominant man won’t lie about much, though he surely will keep some of his thoughts from you. A Dom who feels swallowing golden showers to be right up your alley may well know telling you straight out might have you running for cover. This is not in itself lying, he’s just taking the appropriate steps first and at the speed he thinks you can absorb them (he may well discard such thoughts as he gets to know you; he will discard his thoughts often). The lying 'dom' will have an agenda that has no bearing on your needs. The real dominant guy wants no part of someone for whom he cannot be good. A man who attempts to get with a woman he cannot handle or vice versa is desperate.

 

- A dominant man will not be heavy handed in his approach. He will be skilled at drawing you in, opening you up, making you feel at ease or on edge (depending on his tastes). His efforts will seem effortless; even aloof at times. He will grow on you. Capture you. Enlighten you and make things seem clear that may have been once blurry. You will feel better about yourself when communicating with him (even if your desire is to live in debasement!). Only an impostor will try to tear you down in order to raise himself to higher ground. The dominate gets off by watching you soar, not fall.

In essence, taking on a submissive is both invigorating and empowering yet also a humbling experience. He may err constantly, particularly if he is new. Yet he will always, always strive to be better, and though he longs and seeks challenge, he will avoid that which he knows he cannot handle, or will in some near future be unable to handle. It may take time but he will understand his own limits as well as his woman’s.

 

A submissive is a truckload of challenge (ask their ex-vanilla lovers), and so the dominant man needs you like he needs air. He wants your worship not simply for worship sake but because he has gone beyond the call of the norm, ventured into the realm of risk, and passing across the dangerous abyss where footing is treacherous, hopefully breaks into the sunshine of success offering you something glorious. THAT alone is why he seeks your worship; because he has earned it and deserves it.


If a man does not seek risk and challenge in his life, if he wishes worship without venturing his ego, if he does not persist continually toward excellence in handling a woman as he does in many things, he is not a dominant man.

 

Happy hunting, and the best of luck for those who search!

 

 


3/24/2012 1:56:38 PM

Got an email from a female who had a thing against Dominant men. Obviously, she has a vendetta...and tried to dissuade me with the topic of Females being equal. I viewed a message from a member on , what he said to another female member...and the views which make sense. I will post it here, in the context I copied it:

 

"What intrigues me about your questioning and debates is that you emphasize exceptions as a way to logically dismiss things. You state things such as a woman's fitness level for professional athletes, or education for those who have gone to college. I do not see how those things make a woman superior to a Man. You can always find an exception. Monkeys in captivity can be taught how to do puzzles and operate buttons. If I find a human who cannot do the puzzles with the skill of the trained monkey, does that mean monkeys are the equal to humans?

 

You speak of, if women were naturally inclined to submit, then why do such a majority of women consider themselves equal to men? You are bright enough I assume to not ignore the fact we have had centuries or either religious, social, economic, political teachings that permeate our culture that tell women they are "just as good" as a Man.

Yet if one steps away from Western culture.......If we go into the jungles of the rain forest and view tribes that live in a manner of ancient Man without modern technology, we see these tribes operate under a similar philosophy of Male superiority. Men are the chiefs, the warriors, hold the most important roles in society. Those tribes are not influenced by any sort of ideological text available to us in the United States.

 

 Should we then just label it a huge coincidence that a tribal way of life such as this, has existed since mankind has formed social bonds, all over the world? Or view it as evidence to support the belief of Male supremacy?"

 

The woman in the email to me tried...and I mean TRIED to tell me that ALL women were superior. (She sounded exactly like the woman who made an attempt to ridicule my manhood in a previous post.) I would argue for a case that SOME women are equal, either financially or in some different fashion. (Again, explaining how they encountered and survived extraordinary circumstances.) However, if you make a case of ALL women being superior...it would be best to bring 150% of a VALID claim to the argument.

 

I will give a link proving a theory that NOT ALL women are superior:

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1Kog1is7Yc

 

 Simple questions need a SIMPLE answer.


3/18/2012 3:00:50 PM

Damn...messages just keep coming. WHAT DID I DO TO PISS PEOPLE OFF?

 

I got a 'flame' message from a guy that backs the female Domme in my last journal post.

 

Sorry if my views or preferences are not in line with yours, but I stated them very clear:


I DEFINITELY AM NOT A SUBMISSIVEI AM A DOMINANT BLACK MALE!


I wonder if they were on Collarme, and banned for one thing or another. If not, then they didn't get what they wanted, and have their sights set on me.


Regardless of my making the message clear, this guy was also a member of NAMBLA. (The North American Men / Boys Love Association) He tried telling me that Gay Marriage is the thing of the millennium...and traditional marriage is obsolete. He went so far as to TELL me that his view was right.


If you read my recent posts, you should recall a journal entry that stated I will support Gay Marriage TO A POINT! (No children in a gay marriage.) Children need to learn about being men and women of GOD! They need to grow up in a traditional household, where a Man AND a woman are the parents. IF they want this, try imposing their views on a child in an orphanage...and see how far that takes you.


This person has me so angered, I simply blocked him. I support gay marriage IF you don't want kids. I REFUSE to be treated like a sperm-donor by any Gay couple wanting kids. (Both my former wives are doing that with EXTREME IMPUNITY!)


I am so pissed. MOST People act dumb sometimes...and I wonder what they drank or inhaled.



3/18/2012 2:39:21 PM

I got a HUGE slap in the face...from a wanna-be Domme.

 

While surfing on some BDSM sites, I came across the personal ads. I thought nothing of it, and looked through them. My slave girlfriend is bisexual, so I get permission to look at women's profiles. The ONLY stipulations are that the women MUST be Bi-sexual, submissive or slave-oriented, healthy, and of Caucasian / Asian / Hawaiian or Polynesian / Hispanic, or a mixture of ANY of the ethnic groups mentioned.

 

Nevertheless, I got a message while searching. A woman berated me for being a 'coward.' and told further that I "Don't have the balls to submit to a Dominant woman." I told her that I was a Dominant Black Male, and she FLAT OUT refused to hear it. She went on her spiel of 'ALL men should be submissive,' and 'Women rule this earth.'

 

If you love your rights as a female, that is fine...however, God created man, then woman was created as a helper. She tried to convince me that God created women to rule men. In my most humble opinion, I am a Christian male...raised in the Baptist religion, then switched to Catholicism to "appease" my first wife. She claimed that Feminism is a religion, and all women are goddesses to worship. Keep in mind GOD is the main ruler...not the male, and DEFINITELY NOT the female.

 

I don't know her angle, yet she did not convince me one bit. She kept insulting, ridiculing, and slamming me. She was rude, and ill-mannered...and to top that off, threatened to ruin every relationship I am in or have ever had. She warned me that she has the email and chat addresses of all my friends.

 

Putting caution aside, I told her to back up her threat...or simply just carry it out. The response was laughable: She backed off and said she didn't have my info...then BEGGED me to share it.

 

Does it look like I am DUMB? DUH!

 

In this case, I would support Female Inferiority - MOST women I know that have their rights use them well...NOT ABUSE THEM! In those cases, the women force their issues down society's gullet. (Some women CHOOSE to submit to a Dominant Male...Some are 'switches'...and the rest are Dominant through many circumstances - including how they were raised.) Trying to convince women that Abortion is cool, and a "God-given right" is illegal, and a "Peer-Pressure" type of tactic.

 

If you choose to abort, that is YOUR choice. Keep in mind that choice when you see the face of GOD. (I don't care if you are religious or not - he judges MORE than I would.)


3/17/2012 10:32:11 AM

Welcome to March Madness...

 

If you invested in the tournament poll, and received the shocking news of the Duke upset...don't feel bad. HALF of the country suffered. Missouri, Texas, Duke, and a few of the major colleges took a MAJOR beating

 

Norfolk State, and Lehigh Universities have shown some spunk. (Pardon the pun.) Do not count out the little guy (underdog), as the saying goes.

 

 


3/4/2012 3:55:56 PM

New month, NEW PROBLEMS!

 

Seems that all I discuss on Collarme is work, issues with religion, and something other than what those who are here on Collarme (I will re-phrase that: most) seek...a relationship.

 

Granted, I have someone...and she is happy pleasing me. (And as a Dominant, I am pleased with her.) She wished to have another slave female to share with me. (Look at my profile, and pay attention to it.)

 

However, My issue in this Journal entry is the gay males, Trans-sexual, Trans-gender, and Hermaphroditic people who INSIST on pursuing a relationship with me. I support gay marriage TO A POINT! (No adopting children into your marriage.) I will make this clear: I won't go against my beliefs that a man and a woman should marry BECAUSE a gay wants to hook up with me. (One individual tried this on a defunct site years ago, and was VERY rude.) The "Try it...you'll like it" quote doesn't fly with me. IF you like men, join the NAMBLA chapter in your town. (NAMBLA means North American Men / Boys Love Association.)

 

Actor Kirk Cameron got blasted by the media for commenting on this issue, and he views it as evil. I like his 'Left Behind' movies, and grew up watch "Growing Pains." My wife is Bi-sexual, and STILL leans toward men. However, a female that loves women and men EQUALLY is what W/we seek.

 

I had a talk with her about this last night...after going over the Milwaukee area for a certain toy she craved. (I'm ordering it online...as I planned to do in the first place.)


2/19/2012 10:18:18 AM

Finally, a new week is about to start. The news I have will be withheld for reasons I can't divulge upon penalty of dismemberment.

 

I will tell you that a member on this website got harassed by three men regarding her preference for Black Dominant men. (They have been promptly reported to the Collarme staff and blocked...though this has little effect.) I advised the woman to notify all her contacts to subsequently block and report the men,

 

I learned a lot in college - strength in numbers, people.

 

Pardon my venting about politics, but what I say MAY have relevance to the strength in numbers quote: The protests last year regarding the Governor of Wisconsin, Scott Walker, and his "Union-busting" tactics. (Or controlling of the bargaining rights.) People protested and went to Madison - the state capitol, in HUGE numbers.

 

I am for education, and the things being done may anger or benefit people. I generally lean toward Conservatism, and know some issues are touchy. Just because my views are different DOES NOT mean you should hate me for it. I'll support Gay Marriage TO A POINT! 

 

 

 

I have gotten hate mail from people, telling me to FULLY support the issue. Note I like sex with a woman, and same-sex couples frown upon that. How is a gay man GOING to give birth to a child? (If you HAVE a foolproof answer to it, I'd switch to being a gay male...IF you think that is hot.) Child-rearing SHOULD NOT be included in this issue...they NEED to understand that I grew up THE WAY GOD SEES MARRIAGE - ADAM AND EVE, NOT ADAM AND STEVE!

 

Gay women can get inseminated, but I frown on the fact that two females are raising a child. The child NEEDS to have family values of a man being in the household...in my honest and humble opinion. Seriously, If you really want a child, adopt one from a foster home or orphanage.

 

If you are offended by my journal entry, sorry...but I like my sons being able to grow up knowing they can date, marry, and have a child with a woman. (My daughter is old enough to have a child, and hope she has a man in her life to be by her side.)

 

BTW, This is Black History Month. Take the time to learn about and acknowledge the achievements of a historic Black Figure. I honor two role models: Retired Generals Frank Petersen, (LGen, USMC, RET.) and Colin Powell (Gen, US Army, RET.)

 

Lt. Gen Frank Petersen currently held the highest rank for a Black Marine before retiring over 20 years ago.

 

Gen. Colin Powell was the head of the Joint Chiefs of Staff during the First bush presidency, and led the Armed Forces during Operations Desert Shield / Desert Storm.


2/12/2012 12:42:06 AM

DAMN!

 

First, Don Cornelius commits suicide, now I hear that we lose ANOTHER Black Icon.

 

I just heard from my Girlfriend that Whitney Houston died Saturday. I got my portable modem restarted, only to hear this sad news.

 

It was one thing to have been married to Singer / Rapper Bobby Brown of New Edition fame...but to have let drugs and booze derail you is a saddening thing to hear. I grew up on Whitney during the Mid to Late 1980s.

 

What I will remember is her moving rendition of our National Anthem prior to the 1991 Super Bowl. (I was serving in Saudi Arabia during Operations Desert Shield / Storm - and ready to fight for my country.)

 

You will be remembered, Whitney.


2/5/2012 2:17:12 PM

I have some issues to post:

 

First: My condolences to the family of the late Donald Cortez Cornelius (Don Cornelius to those that watch Soul Train). I grew up watching 'Soul Train' in Philadelphia as a young 7-year old brat. He was a unique visionary who brought Black Music...IF NOT ALL FORMS of music to television. Yes, American Bandstand was popular...however, Soul Train has one distinction Bandstand doesn't: "The Hippest trip in America!" (35 years.)

Entertainment Tonight and Wheel of Fortune are the next two longest-running shows behind the Train, and have a shot at surpassing the 35-year run Don had mastered. (ET in 2016, and Wheel in 2018.) Though I like the shows, I DON'T want this mark to be passed. (Sounding like the '72 Dolphins celebrating their record standing, or Joe DiMaggio's streak not being broken.)

 

Second: I won't pay much attention to the Super Bowl. (The teams I want to be in aren't...and Tom Brady will give another letdown like the last SB.)

 

Third: I am frustrated with the tax shit...and will take my papers to the vets shelter, so the assistants can do it for free.

 

 


2/4/2012 11:08:48 AM

2012 is fast becoming like 2011...with one difference: I am planning to return to school.

 

I am tired of the same old shit about having to need a higher degree. I'm doing something about it.

 

I am also having to work on my taxes...not a fun thing. (I owe someone...and won't get needed funds to handle my issues.)


12/29/2011 5:53:54 PM

The Year 2011 is becoming a HUGE disappointment.

 

To top it off, the Distribution Center manager of my firm recieved his walking papers Wednesday. It seems like every year, my company loses someone.

 

I will keep this brief: I thank God I have a job.


12/24/2011 4:20:14 PM

Just another short journal entry for Xmas:

 

I finally got a gift for my daughter and slave girlfriend...and this is the FIRST time in a Looooong time that I bought gifts.

 

For those that celebrate Xmas: The happiest of holidays to you and yours.

 

For those not into the holidays: enjoy your days off.


12/10/2011 10:41:39 AM

Short Journal entry - as I am putting WAY TOO MANY hours in at work...and for 'peanuts.'

 

Got notification that I have until year's end to get my shit out of storage at the vets shelter. So-called fellow vets that hated on me got put into positions they didn't earn, and asked to have the shed cleaned out for no reason at all!


I am ticked...due to the fact that I have to schedule a time to meet as well. They notify me, and add a needless task like this.

 

Right now, work is all I have left to focus on. One of the counselors said it best: "If you try to hold onto something for too long, you will lose it...NO MATTER how hard you try."


11/19/2011 11:21:21 AM

Today is a tough day, as I got notified a year ago that my name would be crossed off the vets list. (Crossed off as in my name written out of the roster...like this: EARL LEWIS.)

 

One year ago, the few vets that were jealous, haters, scammers, etc., managed to get me into hot water. I have been fighting to stay in the shelter up to Early spring of 2011.

 

What got me ticked was what one of them commented: I won't say his name, HOWEVER, he told me I'd NEVER amount to anything, and I'll be put in prison where I belong. (Surprisingly, this was a Black man telling me this.) Black males are the majority in most american prisons, and my late mother would turn in her grave if I were ever incarcerated. (Realistically, I'd NEVER survive.)

 

I just learned some time ago that after I left, he was arrested for rape, and assault. Some kind of ironic twist, but I stated in my last journal entry about not paying attention to what SOME people did. This individual badmouthed my pastor during the election, and laughed when he lost. (Again, the dark irony was that my pastor was implicated in some sex / pregnancy scandal that killed his chance of being elected.)

 

Henceforth why I kept from not posting my journal. Yes, the mighty has fallen, but since I fell down, I'm getting back up. Like Rocky Balboa said in Rocky V: "I didn't hear no bell."


10/31/2011 11:08:53 AM

As a former Marine, I have an UNTAPPED amount of motivation. One of the things I need is inspiration. Regarding my profile, I will deduce that NO ONE will pay attention to it...save for the fakes, liars, cheats, posers, etc.

 

I am borrowing from a member, and the name will be withheld to protect their privacy. Their journal post will serves as inspiration for what I seek: (Modified to fit my requirements.)



 

I have been on CM before and know that listing what I DO want is useless, since no one reads it. So this time, I am performing addition by subtraction (and judging by the negative feedback I have gotten, you are apparently reading what I don't want).

 

Yes, I am Dominant. Yes, I have the ability to choose when a slave has chosen. Yes, once she has chosen, choice is done for her. Here is what I do NOT want:

 

Not interested in Straight / gay / bi-sexual / Transvestite / transgendered men of ANY race / creed / color.

Not interested in Dominant Females...except for friendship.

 Not interested in any couples over 53.  (Couples where the woman is submissive is ok to a point)

Not interested in your pets...except to pet-sit. (watching actual dogs, cats, etc.)

Not interested in race play (even though I enjoy white women as what they are: women who happen to be white - no need to build an obsessive fetish around that).

Not interested in being a pimp...except to my girlfriend, when she feels comfortable.

Will not chat on here.

Not into fetishes involving defilement. (shit play, piss play, etc. Seeing a woman 'squirt' is allowed, as long as it is DURING an orgasm.).

Not outside of US...UNLESS they can travel here under their own financial means.

Not interested in being a 'Sugar Daddy,' or seeking a 'Sugar Mama.'

Not interested in paying to get you here.

Not interested in Black women. (You may be 'queens,' and I have to give you respect. However, the majority of you put your jealousy and negative views / beliefs in front of everything else, and ruin a promising relationship, another's well being, and it is a DEFINITE TURN-OFF!)


10/31/2011 10:27:10 AM

I spent over an entire year with my profile hidden. On this Halloween, I am emerging from the shadows. I will not be able to respond to any and all who correspond with me.

 

Instead, I wil ask you to read my post from Oct 26, 2010 - I have a lot on my mind, and keeping a job / supporting my kids / keeping a roof over my head is important.

 

I may have bookmarked people while hidden...per my profile, it is because you showed something that people seek in a mate: intelligence.

 

A fellow co-worker, and former Marine, asked me to 'clean the clutter from my closet.' (NOT COME OUT OF THE CLOSET - GET THE DIFFERENT MEANINGS STRAIGHT!) Some members on this site STILL do the same shit...others are new/novices, and some return after dealing with assholes, creeps, etc.

 

For those I know who have someone: well wishes

 

For those who seek: I myself am taken, and my girlfriend comes with.

 

For those still doing the same shit: life is too short...grow up a bit more.

 

For those who are Thinking that I am "Nuts": I'm a former Marine...many of my brethren (brothers and sisters) served in the two current conflicts (Iraq and Afghanistan) - many losing their limbs or minds. Marines don't suffer from insanity, we endure every nanosecond of it.

 

I'll change my profile to reflect my direction. Keep in mind that I may appear to be an asshole, but "Assholes are what Assholes do."


9/26/2010 6:26:51 PM
Well, I have another sermon to post, and this time I will write from my notes: Topic: Stay on Guard! In light of the incident involving pastor Eddie Long at a GA church, I will pray for him and other pastors in this similar predicament. I will also pray for the congregation, and nothing else. (Issues like this tend to discredit God, so I REFUSE to address the issue.) Keys to staying on Guard: Per scripture I Peter 5:6-10 Keep humble @ all times Stop worrying (Remember I told you to have an "I don't Care" attitude? Use it.) Guilt kills you more than anything else. (Fear.) Even if you make a mistake, keep going & completing the assignment God has for you. (Remember this quote: "Just because I make mistakes in my life, my assignment is still there.") Trials, tribulations, and attacks will come before you get to heaven. The key is to remain alert. The devil uses two things to trap us...sight & hearing. (If he sees you having difficulties, and you speak it...he will add more.) Keep in mind that the Devil is Man's enemy...NOT GOD'S! (God & Jesus conquered the Devil...so we have to follow their path.)

9/12/2010 1:06:30 PM
Yes, this site is still a piece of human waste, but I will post a copy of the pastor's sermon. (If he wins his campaign, it isn't because of people on this site...mainly me.) He spoke at the Sept. 11th tribute in WI, and there was NOT a dry eye in the crowd. The same topics he spoke of were in his sermon today. Topic: "God love using weak people to compound the strong." (This is how GOD gets his glory.) As a Christian male, we are living the way the world WANTS us to...not the way GOD expects us to. Everyone lists my defects, and they should focus on theirs as well. IF you don't look at your defects, NOTHING will get done...as fear will make us lie, cheat, steal, etc. (In addition, you won't say / do what GOD tells you to.) One way or another, God will use you. (The very best thing to do is to LET GOD USE YOU!) When God wants you to do something, it is best to STOP LOOKING FOR HELP. If we are short on a payment, we get loans, stimulus checks, etc. (Not asking you to pray, but say this for 21 days STRAIGHT: "When GOD wants me to do something, I'll stop looking for help...and let GOD bring them to me.") If you have the vision, you will get the pro-vision. (The steps to get there.) By reading Judges 7:2-25, Pastor King gave the following pointers: *If you have too many friends, they will brag. *Stand still & call on GOD. *Cut some people loose. (Lots of PROSPECTING slaves...'fakers' or 'posers' I've cut loose. It is NOT hurting my feelings at all.) *Learn to trust GOD *Stop seeking glory, as you are NOT willing to endure the hardships. *The closer you get to GOD, the more you want to cry. *When things get bad, you will need to 'touch and agree.' *Don't go to solve the issue - USE AND READ THE BIBLE! (If you have a cell phone: Take the phone, put it down, and read the Bible.) *You always have a battle to fight somewhere. *I have friends, but I will also have detractors. (enemies.) Even Jesus has had battles, enemies, etc. It is your choice, but for me: I chose to go to my spiritual resources, prepare for many of the trials and troubles that come my way, and learn to trust GOD as best I can.

9/5/2010 2:59:27 PM
Today, I am running behind on some shit, and have to bookmark some profiles. I will call out one, and don't care if Collarme boots me: AREALITYCHECK should get some prozac, and chill out. I bookmarked your profile to read for LATER! Obviously, you have some issues...like the rest of the fakers, liars, players, etc. All I can say is I wish everyone, including her, the best of luck on this farce of a website.

8/30/2010 6:09:07 PM
Today, I turn 43...Somber a time in my life, as I have this advice from someone:

With 43 wishes and goals, think of the many steps (positive) to take to achieve them.

I have many, but others will probably NEVER happen. I am that much closer to death with each passing year.

I don't want to find the one when I am in my 60s, 70s, or 80s.

8/29/2010 12:24:07 PM
My pastor told me to relax, and take things easy...so I will do that by typing a journal entry.

What I type will be read by a new GF...who is pregnant. (Keeping her name anonymous, as to protect her from the fakers, posers, jealous women who didn't let go of their misgivings, etc.)

This is why this site is pathetic...

Pastor King's sermon for August 29, 2010.

Title: Help Wanted - I need TWO!

Christians try to run the race, and we get weary & tired.

We ask someone for advice, and they give THEIR sob story. Who will Get it?

Having one support person is NOT enough!

We will need TWO people to hold us up. (One on each side.) They are to keep us in their prayers, fast on our behalf, etc. We need two WHO WILL FIGHT on our behalf!

Most people seek leaders to TELL them what to do. (Former Marine, DUH! I had to follow BEFORE I could lead.) They must also take responsibility, as most DON'T know how they seek a leader.

Besides leadership in the BDSM lifestyle, we need leaders in the SPIRITUAL REALM!

I will fast, pray, and stand in the other gap for someone...but I need another person. (Remember: TWO people.) I will start by finding two in my church, then going out into the community.

Tell the person you pray for to tell those errors, as you both touch and agree.

It's ok that the person not know I am praying for them. (Spoils the fun.) I don't even brag about it. (That is how bad blessings are brought upon everyone.)

If no one is picked - It's scary

The strong should pick the weak. (Like the strong should prey upon the weak.)

What is done in secret is rewarded OPENLY!

In the busiest of times, We're drained...mentally, physically, and religiously. (We react & think much slower.)

My pastor, who is running for Wisconsin Secretary of State, spoke in 13 cities in the course of THREE days!

Finally, we commit, and be faithful. As Apostle (Pastor) King discussed this, we were reminded that Jesus sent his disciples out in PAIRS!

He spoke a verse from the Bible, that hit home: "We looked to see who stood in the gap and found NONE!"

He did say that I could select more than one...so I have the following:

My pastor - David King
Darrel Cole, and his family
Thomas Jefferson (Not the famous president...and yes, he shares the namesake.)
Hunter Jefferson - his son
Felipe' - one of our newest congregation members.

And my pregnant girlfriend. I consider her my girlfriend, as she stood by me through thick and thin. When problems arose, we touched & agreed on at least 90% of them.

I am considered a 'Gap Stander,' as Jesus stood in the gap for us.

Read Exodus 7:9-13

8/19/2010 6:20:20 PM
Just a quick journal entry...as I am under intense duress from my job. My boss has grilled me on NEEDLESS shit, and it is so bad that I ALMOST hauled off and punched him.

This issue brought to mind a similar situation I encountered in Hawaii, when I was enlisted. I got into a fight with a senior NCO, and went in front of the General. I was lucky to leave his office with my stripes.

That was 20 years ago...but my boss did the EXACT thing that became a trigger, and kept doing it. (The worse thing is that my co-workers were also singled out.)

I had a little time in the computer lab, as a fellow member nearly committed suicide. He had a job, and was saving money. The shelter said that he worked for a plant that was NOT on the acceptable list, and forced him to quit.

The worse blow was that he was ordered to serve 30-day restriction...and pay restitution.
So now, my accomplishments are a moot point, as I can't work more than 6 days a week.

I'm going to go for now...this site has some members that I respect, and some that DON'T get it. I have other issues besides fakers, posers, wanna-bes, etc. (For those that know me AND are for real, disregard my rant...it is NOT geared towards you.)

8/8/2010 12:14:41 PM
Again, I have another huge audio file...done with the use of the laptop I have. I managed to get 45 minutes of a full 90 minute sermon. For narrative / instructional purposes, I will point out what he said today in a summarized version: Apostle (Pastor) King laid out the basic groundwork for being successful, and the points I list will be generalized. * Discipline - We must have the tendency to follow instructions. * Humble - Having humility. For dominant men, humble themselves before GOD! (Submissives, humble yourself before a Dominant / Master / Mistress) * Confidence - In this case confidence in yourself. *Victory - No one actually claims or says this with pride. Nearly 20 years ago, We claimed Victory over Iraq when we drove their so-called 7th largest army from Kuwait. Saddam Hussein claimed victory over the US, and forced a sense of pride amongst the populace...not to mention a lot of fear. * "Don't Steal" - This raised an eyebrow, until the explanation made sense: Don't take God's credit for your doing a good job. (I will use a different example: Barack Obama takes credit for George Bush's successful programs, and Obama bashes Bush for the failures of the current administration.) * S.I.S. - Stand In Silence...being slow to speak. Even if the devil, life, etc., makes things tough, don't say a thing about it. (The Devil won't trap you if you hold your tongue.) * Have an "I DON'T CARE" mentality - This one made PLENTY of sense. If you have a conscience, you won't get what you want. If a member bashes you, say "I don't care." Regarding a gay male I ran into: He CLAIMED he was a Christian, and I called him on it. (Read Leviticus in the Bible, as it will debunk the oxymoron of a Gay Christian.) As he called me a hypocrite, and said that traditional marriage is a true sin. (Yes, he said this - screaming @ me, as he did so.) I said, "I don't care." (It made him mad, and he stormed off.) I will add in addition to this journal: I DON'T CARE what you think of me...I joined this site to find a partner into the same things I am. If you are Gay, that is YOUR issue with GOD! Don't force people to your views, or seduce them, or coax them. If you are jealous, a faker, facsimile dominant or submissive, or scammer. I DON'T care what you think of me if I don't respond the way you want. Those that do read my journals and the profiles of others, keep in mind that I can do a lot with God behind me...and sticking to the things I hold true - to include following God's words (Bible) will guide me to VICTORY! With God, EVERYTHING is possible.

8/2/2010 5:08:46 AM
After viewing an old document I had in my possession for over five years, I have come to understand my purpose in this lifestyle.

Right now, I have ZERO tolerance for fakers, scammers, poser, want-to-be dominant / submissive / slave females, Gay / Bi-sexual males, and Black women.

I have gone through two HEARTBREAKING divorces, and refuse to go through a third. (This site has added to my severe depression.)

There are some that I will say have made the effort and were sincere enough to keep in contact. For those that bailed: keep searching, you missed out on the one that would make you happy. (I refer to the people who contacted me, then stopped.)

The sermon given by the pastor @ my church set the tone, and will say that I am searching on other sites...especially after being told I am a 'Fake,' 'idiot,' 'liar,' etc.

Some people know about the site, and for personal reasons, won't divulge it here...lest some scheming faker tries to visit it, and spread his 'filthy disease.'

I am poised for a breakthrough, and having that submissive / slave by my side is going to make it that much sweeter.

I managed to overcome 95% of my depression, and get a good job. However, it became bittersweet, as I got divorced for the second time, and lost custody of my youngest son.

For those that say I am a "Faker," "Idiot," "Liar," etc...I have things that take up my time, and if I say something stupid, should NOT be taken seriously.

As a matter of fact, go find 'the one' that fits your needs.

For those that believe in me: stick by my side...and be patient. You don't ask for much from me, and that is fine.

I am writing this before heading to work. I had to take time to think, and it is hard trying to get my life in order. Someone said I should get a home, and a car. IF I do that, I will get harassed by everyone that did not become involved with me.

I will go to work, and concentrate on that. It seems all I have for the moment.

8/1/2010 3:03:29 PM
Usually, I give a copy of the sunday sermon. This morning, I didn't have any paper to take notes. It wasn't a lose / lose matter, as I used my digital camera to record the sermon.

7/27/2010 6:23:47 PM
After all of the fiasco surrounding my accounts being tampered with, there is one person I am missing, and  due to the issues involved, will continue to leave her vent. I am getting chastised, harassed, ridiculed, and scolded...and the month of July has not ended, yet.

7/26/2010 4:56:49 AM
After getting in touch with some friends, I have decided to leave the profile hidden occasionally. I will not keep it constantly open for the reasons I have discussed previously. I have also changed the password, so that it can't be accessed. If the profile says not active...the best thing is to send a message.

7/25/2010 12:09:47 PM
This is one for the books...The friend admitted to helping some individuals in stealing a computer from the shelter. I reneged on the promise of turning him in, as he went overboard.

Stealing the property of the shelter is NOTHING to joke about...especially when some of the members told me that they don't keep their passwords, private info secure. The police were notified last night.

What was to be a recovery for a bad week entered into a hellish gate. After 7:00 PM, this account will be deactivated. I can't worry about people not contacting me. I have far too many people that are jealous, cruel, and callous in their behavior. (I am thankful for those that show their compassion...that is not the issue, and for those that show kindness, kindly ignore this paragraph.)

I went to this 'institution' - a transitional shelter for veterans, because the VA won't take me, the other shelters had NO ROOM, and I WON'T start on Prison...I refuse to do a crime and be a prison statistic like this individual...AngryBlkMkeDom.

I got access to the account, wrote apologies, and deleted it. (Thanks to a friend who has equal computer skills...if not better.) I am using his laptop, and wiping the password from it after logging on. Which brings me to this important topic.

If you don't check for your flash drives, or check for your passwords to see if they are not on the computer, you would have the same issue.

7/24/2010 6:55:23 PM
I used my rusty blackmail methods to get this so-called Angry Dom to give up his website...I found out he did cocaine and relapsed. In return for not reporting him, I will get the account. Learned that the fucker stole some old files of mine.

7/24/2010 2:41:29 PM
Well, AngryDom and I have a falling out. I told him he doesn't have the experience to control a white woman, and he threw the words back in my face. HE told me to go back to Black Women, since I couldn't hack being a trusted master.

I will have a trick up my sleeve, and he won't like it. I know why I DON'T keep friends, much less, girlfriends and wives. It is because of sneaky bastards like him.

He is up to something, and I will look into it.

7/24/2010 9:09:02 AM
A friend that I thought moved out of Milwaukee contacted me last night. We talked, and learned that he started an account on Collarme...WITHOUT letting me know. AngryBlkMkeDom is one of those veterans who HATES being treated like shit.

I have problems, and prior to those, told him to STAY AWAY from Collarme, due to the Fakes, players, etc. He is more hard-headed than I am. (I will encourage him to close the account.)

One of my contacts saw his profile, and got on his case. I know his demeanor, and will tell him that it is his choice to pursue. (This contact has switch tendencies...and he won't like that.)

He had dated a Black woman that lived in Detroit. When he was laid off, she dumped him like a vat of hot oil.

He blew up on me when I discussed my issue. I anticipate he will close the account, then tell me his thoughts. (I got a scathing email, telling me how DUMB I am.)

I'll keep you posted.


7/18/2010 6:52:36 PM
After two weeks, I reactivated this profile. However, will hide it again if things change for the worst.

7/4/2010 12:29:34 PM
As you are enjoying a cookout, ball game, etc., remember that flag...and the people who gave their lives to keep it free this 4th of July holiday.

As a side note: Don't forget the Declaration of Independence, or just as importantly, the Constitution...SACRED Documents that MUST NOT BE TAKEN FOR GRANTED! (Like the fakers do to this site.)

Enjoy your Independence Day.

7/3/2010 7:13:11 AM
I am copying this info from another member's profile. It makes sense:

1. A slave chooses to give herself. Once she does, she does so completely.

2. A true Master earns respect and obedience. He takes what will be given freely to him eventually.

3. When the cuffs and chains are no longer needed, true servitude begins.

4. There is no shame in doing anything her Master demands. All that matters is Master's pride in a slave.

5. A slave is more then just a piece of fuck meat, she must be intelligent, well versed and thoughtful.

6. Men are superior to women, however very few Men are capable of being a Master of slaves.

To all the fakers, wanna-be Dominants, etc., #6 is one to pay CLOSE attention to. (Also pay attention to #5)

To those who love #3 - It is a small preference for you, and you have the option to beg to remain in cuffs, chains, handcuffs, etc. (No one is asking you to get rid of it.)

I follow all 6...as I have a slave.

6/27/2010 12:34:31 PM

The Pastor did another ‘salad’ – this time, with a little change from normal procedures:

Tithing is considered an act of worship, and shows God your honesty. (I must make sure my heart is clean & pay 10% of tithes) I now have to tithe @ altar…as it is between me and God.

If I rob / Cheat God – it will come out later.

His sermon:

Watch what I say – or ‘I gotta watch my words’

Words are killing us, and God needs to shut our mouths. Every time we speak against God, there is NO HARVEST! He knows us by the fruit we bear.

The congregation has NO respect or consideration for leadership.

He said the men may be the head, but we don’t speak submission to God. (The only thing we should fear. The reason why most men of ANY color are WIMPS!)

He said that if we quote scripture, look @ both sides of the coin.

He talked about this with us:

James 1:26 – Demons know if we are faithful or not.

Mark 11:23 – Guard what goes in your mouth and Heart

Malachi 3:10

Proverbs 18:21 - Eat my words

Romans 10:17 - Heads & tails

Invest in things pertaining to religion. (Books, clothing, etc.)

Watch what we say. We realize NOTHING of what comes from our mouth. “Be slow to speak, and quick to listen”

He asked this question: “Is what you speak going in God’s direction?”

Matthew 12:33 – What is in your heart is the action you will take. (If we are drunk and / or angry – everything comes out.)

We are now judged by what we say & we discussed how it affects the following:

  • Health
  • Finances
  • Relationships
  • Kids
  • Jobs
  • Other endeavors

He asked us another question, (Why are we here?) and as we answered it, He said we ‘messed up’ First, we made a confession, and he asked us to obey God’s commands with the risk of being rebuked, admonished by the congregation, and finally…dismissal.

He is not playing. Someone got on his nerves at a tailgating party...I can see it in his eyes.

For those not into religion, take note: there is a day of reckoning...and it can come sooner.

6/20/2010 3:38:55 PM
This Father's Day, I got a STERN 'rebuke' from my pastor for my 'Sinbatical.'

The service started with the Pastor telling the MEN...not the women - that all of us men are 'Selfish.'

Many Christian males are NOT standing up for the beliefs in the Bible, and like many of the Males...I greedily expected God to bless my selfish behavior.

What we see in music videos, sports, films, etc., is indicative that Men are not teaching our children to stand up. (For those that ARE doing so, I applaud you.) The Bible teaches us men to take TOTAL Dominion, yet many of us don't lead by example. (Fathers are SUPPOSED to be Role Models...NOT Kobe Bryant, or Alex Rodriguez.)

The Pastor went on to advising the congregation to give 110% selflessly. (God won't prosper a selfish heart.)

He then went into the Law of God. Prior to explaining, he informed us of five laws that no one in WI knew existed, and could be enforced IF the authorities decided:

Adultery, Jaywalking, Littering, Spitting on the ground, and Holding hands in public. (Gay couples would be up in arms. lol)

He went forth preaching about God's Law...focusing on seed time and harvest. The law cannot be changed / broken.

He had us remember certain phrases:

'Every action has an opposite reaction.'
'You reap what you sow.'
'What goes around, comes around.'

His point was simple...IF you sow homosexuality, you get homosexuality in return. (I will apologize for many gay couples reading this, but I must pick on you...and use you as an example.)

Men have far too many self-inflicted wounds...and we give up too easily, WAY TOO EASILY!

He said the seed can only produce what you put in.

He used scripture from the book of Mark in the Bible...and using farming jargon, told of three things you have to experience: Blade (plant leaf), Ear, and Corn.

The Blade of the corn stalk resembles the view of the desired dream - or the outcome.

The Ear - This is one of the tougher ones, where we should stay the course, and NOT get impatient. (Distractions and lack of motivation are also key antagonists.) Removing dead things - or things that are in your past help. (And so does changing the pot to help expansion.)

The Corn is the fruit of the labor.

In order to get to the corn, the men in the congregation has to look at their 'cluster'  - and who is in it. He described it further as a 'window of opportunity.' If we miss it - by moving too slow or ignoring it, we lose our blessings to the next person.

In one of my recent journal entries, I talked about the mind and mouth being in agreement. IF THEY ARE NOT WORKING IN UNISON, THE DEVIL HAS POWER OVER YOU!

As always, I listed the scripture readings at the end of this entry:

Genesis 8:20-22, Mark 4:26-29, Mark 11:22-23, Matthew 6:33, Proverbs 3:5, Philippians 4:19.

6/17/2010 4:08:27 AM
Again, the haters out there won a major battle...as issues got more difficult to handle - and the frustration I have is NOT an issue.

6/16/2010 5:53:51 PM
The profile BlkMstrnbrat has been removed. We feel that there are no sincere people on this site, and we are considering other options.

6/14/2010 5:02:22 AM
Because of my weekend off, will give another update next Sunday or Monday. DAMN! I feel much better.

6/13/2010 5:04:11 AM
Don't ask me how: It just happened!

I got my restriction removed, got an award, and got a weekend out of the deal.

One of the staff members saw that I was given a raw deal, looked into the issue, and got me a, "GET OUT OF JAIL, FREE" card. lol

Moreover, I learned that my determination in keeping a job got me nominated for an award by the workforce coalition. I may post the pics on this site, or on Facebook. (It is official - Facebook.)

I attended a small weekend for addicts (volunteer function that was a requirement when on restriction.) Using a LOANED laptop for emails.

There is a saying, but won't recite it here. Just know that all of you hating fakers, and want-to-be Dominant / submissive men and women miss out on someone that lives his life the way God has him live it.

6/8/2010 7:01:23 PM
Critics, haters, and now racist fakers...

I am writing a small update to my journal. I will be on a FORCED restriction to the transitional shelter I am staying. Some dumb individual saw fit to go through my shit, find a flash drive with all my nude pics, bondage files, etc., then lie to the shelter staff about my being in the computer lab downloading porn. I HAVE A LAPTOP FOR CHRIST'S SAKE!

The lab computers have viruses, and they shut it down. This hating asshole...who claims he is LOVED by all women, RESPECTED by all men, and RULES over ALL like he is GOD ALMIGHTY has a mad-on to clown me, then come off like he is a saint.

I write in my journals that God and Jesus are the ones I follow. (Not to slam any other religion, but I DON'T follow a man's commands like that.) I don't obey NO MAN claiming he is God!

Almost a month ago, a so-called Gay Dominant tried to ridicule me and my religion. (One-way ticket to being 'Blocked' from contact.) He could be put in this category, as they sound alike.

I am borrowing someone's laptop, and had to update my issues.

Read my last entry...Proverbs 18:21 said it best: The words that come from your mouth speak two things - LIFE AND DEATH!

6/6/2010 1:05:18 PM

I did the religious introduction this morning. (The pastor calls them “Salads.”) I discussed prayer in the time of decision. (James 1:5 and 6)

 

I then discussed having strength in the time of temptation. (I Corinthians 10:6-13)

 

The pastor asked five other members of the congregation to produce salads, and they were blessed to be there. The scriptures many have used are listed below:

 

Proverbs 18:21 – talked about holding your tongue. (Watching the words you speak.)

Revelations 12:11 – discussed using yourself as a testimony.

 

Ephesians 4:29

 

Deuteronomy 30:11

 

II Corinthians 8:7

 

II Corinthians 13:11

 

Matthew 5:48

 

I John 1:8

 

The pastor then asked this question of the congregation:

 

“Are you truly free, or are you just avoiding the situation?”

 

What he talked about relates to those seeking a mate…Male AND female. Many of us had a ‘Bozo’ and NOT a ‘Boaz’ (See the Wikipedia link: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Boaz

)

 

Like the situation above, anything I encountered was solo. Many of us avoid the situation that confronts us, instead of going through it.

 

John 8:30-38 was used through the entire sermon, since we IMPRESSED the pastor with our use of scripture verses. I will try to give the points he laid out to us:

 

  • Get priorities in order
  • Check the person to see if they are ‘free’
  • What do you do for you? (I.E.: go to Ritz Carlton, buy expensive car, etc.)
  • Love a man or woman for THEIR HEART…NOT THEIR BODY! (Players, fakers, and ‘wanna-be’ dominants and submissives of all genders pay attention to this.)
  • How can two walk together? You must be in agreement with yourself. (Trick question that was asked.)
  • The life you are living is not true.
  • IF your mate wants you to jeopardize your salvation, he / she is NOT right for you. (In other words: Test their spirit.)
  • Single women do more for God.
  • Married women are to submit to their husband, and do more for him.
  • Check the company (people) you hang around. If they can’t be saved, move along.
  • Get over the fear of rejection. (Yes, people hate to hear the truth.) You must conquer your fear.
  • The Spirit of poverty has us in bondage.
  • The Spirit of Denial also has us in Bondage.
  • Being free is SCARY…no excuses.
  • I said conquer your fear earlier: Fear of success, loneliness, and responsibility.
  • Examine yourself
  • If you have to fight before getting somewhere, you don’t belong there.
  • Have a ‘son’ mentality
  • Stop looking back. (Having hindsight.)

 

The thing is: we are looking at the natural, and that restricts us. We should look at the SUPERNATURAL relating to a heavenly God. (For those into the Wiccan religion: don’t say I am taking from your practices…as my pastor is the one you should PERSONALLY talk to.) We dream from a NATURAL POV. (POV means Point Of View.) With god, you can dream again. The only one to kill that dream is YOU!


6/6/2010 1:02:50 PM
Posted this afternoon...as my laptop kept freezing.

I should have entered this on Friday...but it was so bad of a day, I had to take time off to calm down.

Three years ago this past Friday, my son was born. It has been two years since my former wife took him away from me.

I will go to church and get my life together.

6/2/2010 4:28:47 AM
New month, new issues...

It seems my one has fallen ill, and decided to spend the day off Yahoo Messenger to give her time to rest.

I have had to spend time by myself, as I'm not sure if I will want to keep this profile. I have had people mocking me, my religion, my choice of relationships, and my sanity. (The so-called Gay Dominant that harassed me a couple weeks ago is a MAJOR example of asshole...simply because he got molested at a young age, doesn't mean he should lash out at everyone. Hope he gets help in the institution he is in.)

This is a free site, and should be blessed that I had six...count them, SIX relationships, and countless other meetings with those in the lifestyle. The fakers, players, wanna-be people, and others that ruin this site will get my thanks for one thing: making me work harder at finding someone that matches my ideals, and trying to break up those relationships, or play me like a video game.

I took a day off from work to get my thoughts in order. (That, and an overdue doctor's appointment.) Right now, any people that view my profile, contact me, even ridicule me are beneath me UNLESS they say they are happy in the lifestyle. (They know who they are, and they let me know every day.)

I'll finish this short week (shorter for me) just like I started: STRONG!

5/31/2010 1:06:07 PM
As I mentioned several days ago...remember those who are currently serving in harms' way. They are putting their lives on the line so you can enjoy parties, parades, etc.

HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY!

5/30/2010 12:49:32 PM

Pastor David King had a continuance of his sermon, “My works must look like his works.”

 

(For the so-called Gay Dominant that tried to ridicule god’s word, my Pastor ‘rebuked’ you. lol)

 

There is a movie John Hagee directed: Escape from Hell. My pastor challenged me and the congregation to look at it.

 

He went on by saying we can deceive and pacify ourselves, but we won’t get into heaven if we die.

 

Reasons:

 

  • Not walking in Jesus’ footsteps
  • Not sleeping well UNLESS the gospel is shared. Opportunities to share the gospel with someone are wasted. Granted, I am involved with the lifestyle…and MANY of the things I do go against God. It is important to know that God can use us to do his will.
  • Things you do are between you and God. (Hence the phrase, ‘Only God can judge me.’)

 

Here are the questions the congregation was asked:

 

Where’s your works?

  • Jesus tells us to do works while it is light out.
  • It is NOT about YOU…It is about God.
  • We should be working on God’s agenda…NOT OURS!

 

We are the SALT and the LIGHT of the Earth.

 

Meaning we are supposed to be the light, and working with God. (Not for.) No salt means we are Bland.

 

The Church is supposed to be the most powerful thing EVER! My apologies to Phoenix Suns fans, but I am using the team as an example of ‘Not getting in the game.’ The pastor talked about a coach leading a football team on the field, but they stayed in the locker room. (I punched a jab at Phoenix, when I should have used the Milwaukee Bucks.)

 

When we sinned, we broke fellowship with God. (My testimony, as I am already sinning…and this is what I post to look back on for remembrance of what I need to do.)

 

Which brings me to my next point: If I offer the gospel, and people reject it…I’m saved! (Meaning that come judgment day, it won’t be my responsibility if you turned your back on God.)

 

There is either Hope or discouragement in this journal entry. (I will post the scripture readings at the end of this Journal entry.)

 

If you are NOT getting what you asked for…you haven’t been saved yet. You must be saved BEFORE getting blessed.

 

If you don’t commit…you’re in hell. THERE IS NO MIDDLE GROUND! (There is something I’ll add: Everyone will go to hell. It is the ones that Jesus looks at to tell if they carried his message. If he says, “I never knew you,” You go into the Lake of Fire.)

 

Regarding the ‘Gay Dominant’ from last week, I dealt with a ‘Horror’ and won’t care if I get rewarded. It is bad enough I get ‘clowned,’ ‘ridiculed,’ or ‘called out’ as a liar, but DON’T MAKE FUN OF RELIGION...ESPECIALLY CHRISTIANS, AND JESUS CHRIST!


Also, don’t clown religion when you are living in sin as a homosexual.

 

(Yes, I’m calling it for what it is…I like it when marriage is about ‘Adam and Eve’ – NOT “ADAM AND STEVE!”)

 

This last point is important: “The body will work out whatever the mind believes.” I AM A DOMINANT BLACK MAN, AND DESIRE TO RULE OVER SUBMISSIVE / SLAVE WHITE WOMEN! God ordained in the Bible that Man is to have dominion over things of the Earth. For BDSM purposes, I will bring up that Dominance is shown, perverted, even misrepresented at times.

 

When the word of God is received…ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE! (The gay Dom last week is a clue.) It is my fault if an outsider takes my spiritual inheritance.


Scripture readings: Ezekiel 3:17, Mark 16, Hebrews 9:27, Matthew 5:13-16, the entire book of Genesis.


5/27/2010 6:57:46 PM
Just a short entry asking everyone to remember those that sacrificed their lives in the defense of freedom this Memorial Day weekend. We have the freedom to enjoy our lifestyle because of our service men and women.

I have don a tribute on You Tube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tVhvhs16Rc

Have a safe and Happy Memorial Day.

Master Earl Lewis

5/26/2010 4:23:44 PM
I got over the individuals that run roughshod over this site. I have claimed my slave, and her qualities are what I seek in a dream slut. (She is Dominant towards other women...yet submissive to me alone.)

Any and all postings by Doms and gay / Bi subs on this profile should be sent to my yahoo email:

blktxdom2004@yahoo.com.

Note that there are some Doms, and other fakers that want me to lose a relationship with a slave. If you try to ruin it, and I hear of it...be warned: A Marine - ESPECIALLY A FORMER MARINE - is the WORST ENEMY to have. (Short of a heinous crime...I will make you wish you never cross me.)

5/23/2010 6:08:15 PM
Now, I am getting some flack for a "gay dominant" in the UK...by the name of JonnieBoyCumbria.

He claims my 'sermon' from the pastor of my church is a 'load of shit.'

Just like the gays, TSs, and other bastards that don't listen when I say don't reply to my profile...I block them. "If you don't have a thing to say, just ignore them...as they are 100% assholes."

Now, I see why you were incarcerated. Right now, God is the only one to judge you...remember that.

And No, I won't unblock you...since you 'do as you please.' Fat ass? The only fat ass is the one I just blocked.

Have a good one...you just proved to those on this site that there are assholes of EVERY creed and color.

5/23/2010 11:52:12 AM
Weekly Church sermon for Sun, May 23, 2010 is as follows:

My Pastor made a brief summary of the Bible teaching - 'My works MUST look like his work.'

Bible Readings: Genesis 1:26, John 6:28-29, John 9:3-5, Mark 16:20, and John 14:10-16.

This morning, He said that the FIRST thing Jesus did was to clean up all the churches. (Pharisees were hypocrites.)

Regarding the message: 'My works MUST look like his work,' Our life and lifestyle MUST mirror God's, and believe in Jesus Christ 100%. He told us to choose the route of Zacharias or Mary. (Refer to last Sunday, When I gave the sentence: 'Let it be done unto me.')

John 9:3-5 referenced his additional message - "While it is daylight, you are the light of the world." In English: We go about God's business, speak God's word, and Jesus will back it...IF you believe in him.

This is what he also told us...if we pray for something, say: 'Father God, In the nake of Jesus...' then add the wish, and believe, it will come true. We make the mistake of using Jesus' name alone, and DON'T get what we want.

There are other readings given by fellow congregation members: Matthew 6:33, Hebrews 6:10-12, Proverbs 18:9, Hebrews11:6, Proverbs 31:29-30,
And Proverbs 13:4.


5/22/2010 11:51:07 AM
My new slave and I have started a new profile on May 20. The name of the profile is BlkMstrnBrat. I will use this profile to transfer photos, and will use it for journal entries on occassion. IF at all possible, direct all replies there for contact. I placed my slave in charge, as she is tasked with screening all prospecting submissives and slaves.

Read the profile BEFORE contacting.

5/20/2010 4:51:50 AM
I updated my profile again, and am in the process of planning to get a place, get my submissive ivory queen...and her equally submissive court, and hopefully, save for a better life.

With each woman I contact, it is getting easier with the addition of my slut's involvement...and adding her profile here is a benefit. For those who do contact her, she can tell who is sincere, and who is lying.

Speaking of lying sluts...one woman contacted me while I was chatting with my slave, she denounced the BDSM lifestyle, religion, slavery, etc. (I don't like ignorant airheads, and DESPISE atheists - as they only believe in one thing: themselves.) She initially was into religion.

She tried to ridicule me regarding men being the Dominant gender. Then she tried to challenge me to submit. (Sissy white 'bois' are spineless enough to do this, but I told her she does not have the authority to do this to a man of God - God alone has the power to do things like this.) She had an attitude when I brought religion into the argument.

It is because of women like her that Dominant Men have a more tougher time with life...and why we are broke, cuckolded, trampled over, etc.

Some people have a different perception...that is true. However, some men follow God's command, and TAKE CHARGE!!! I threw a challenge back at her to read the first three chapters of the Bible, and got a reply: "That is a book for faries."

Nothing gets me incensed when you ridicule the Christian religion. I would be hunted down or killed if I clowned Muslims,  Buddhists, or some atheists.

Some aspects of BDSM and Christianity go hand-in-hand. I am focusing on my submissive slave, and hope she is sincere enough to stay by my side.

Life is easier, but also difficult at times.



5/18/2010 5:59:17 PM
I had to miss Bible study, and focus on getting my life in order.

The following is from a forum I joined, and everyone should read.

Person asked this question: I've been doing some reading on protocol... I have to admit I'm confused..  From what I gather protocol is a set of communication about expectations of behavior. Seems to have a lot of background in military protocol.  If I am incorrect, please please inform me....

I am sure that protocol is especially important where BDSM is lifestyle.  So in those households where it is lived as can or in the bedroom, how does protocol relate... how do you see it's importance, and can you give me some examples? 


Response 1:
Protocols cover a diverse area with in the life. How a Dominant approaches a submissive they don't know. How a submissive reacts to a Dominant that they don't know. When a submissive must report contact with a strange Dominant. How a Dominant is to dress in leathers and when.

Yes a lot of this was based in the military since at the very start of the lifestyle, the majority of those in the life were from the military and gay. This beginning was the era of the "Leathermen" and predates the Old Guard. During the time of the Leathermen it was mostly a gay community lifestyle that does not resemble the lifestyle as it is today.  During the early 70's movements were there for the lifestyle to include straight males and females. I had the good fortune to be Mentored by one of the first of the Old Guard in San Francisco. I was introduced to a group there that is there yet today, called the Janus Society. This where I learned about the life and what it means. It is also where I earned My leathers as well.

Protocols can vary from Leather household to household and from Dominant to Dominant. There are some very basic ones that all adhere to. There are good lists and comments about these on the web and can be found by a quick google on the BDSM and Leather Museum.

Continued response:
Protocol like rituals can be used as a touchstone for those new in the life. Not only do they give structure and order, but they give them a sense of stability and continuation when their Dominant/Master is not there.

From My point of view Protocol runs from the day to day aspects of the lifestyle to the deeper mental aspect of it. There is a great need by most submissives and slaves to have that established set of rules and rituals that comprise the day. These protocols also define how W/we interact in public as well as private. Properly set protocols and those that have stemmed from the start of the lifestyle are those that keep U/us from devolving into the players that abound on the net.

We know how to be proper, We know what is right and wrong and what is accepted and not with in the community at large, but for wont of these protocols, teaching this proper manner would be harder and not as readily accepted over the broad spectrum of the lifestyle.

From My military days, protocols and propriety were ingrained deeply into Me. I spent 12 years in the military and their protocols fill the days and they were there to fall back on when you faced the unknown. Here it's not different, when faced with a situation that has an unknown quality, you can fall back on the protocols that you have been taught and know that you will be to some measure correct in how you comport yourself.

Over the last month I have been working with a new D/s couple to establish a set that will be based on those that are correct for the broader community and for the private of their home. He has embraced the concept of this for the lifestyle and she as also come to a deep understanding and appreciation for the sense of peace that she receives from these as well.

With protocols,we come to the deeper mental aspect of the lifestyle. This is sadly an area that is not touched upon much by those that are new to the life. They have a feeling of what it's about but due to the time investment they seem to shy away and take the easier road. This aspect goes back to, "Learn to control yourself before you seek to control another."   

I hope that I did not start to ramble on this topic. These are thoughts and things that are near and dear to Me.

Food for thought...Be well.


5/18/2010 4:45:16 AM
My new girlfriend and I discussed the events that happened in the past few days. She wants to be with me badly, but is patient. I am the opposite, but nonetheless, am committed to her being here. She is doing what I asked EVERY woman that contacts me: STAY IN CONTACT!

I told her I will be doing some 'house cleaning.' I have already removed some members that were and are inconsiderate, insincere, and outright ignoring me.

I put her name in my profile...and will do all I can to get her here.

5/16/2010 2:00:48 PM
My pastor is pissed off @ me and the rest of the congregation: To start, I accompanied him to a Weekend conference for the males in the community...called Need For Leadership. (Sponsored by the National Football League, and a popular Chicago Church.)

There were two keynote speakers...The first was Sam McNabb, Donovan McNabb's father - who is the assistant senior Pastor. The other speaker was the chaplain of the Indianapolis Colts: Ken Johnson.

I learned some important things, and know that What I apply will set me apart from the fakes, wanna-be Doms, and most important of all...the 'Game players' that permeate this website.

I know that the women on this site have 'issues,' and that is ok. Just understand that all of the men are "Sick." (This was discussed at the conference.)

Now, regarding my pastor...He told us to do as God told us to do. I stood my ground and said I have responsibilities, and God would understand if I had to do them. Rebukes and Rebuttals were handed out this morning with a fury.

* He said, and I quote: 'Where there is no disaster, there is no manifestation of Jesus.' Everything I am doing now, I must let Jesus destroy.

He quoted I John 3:8, Luke 1:11, Luke 1:18-20, Luke 1:28, Mark 11:12-14, and Mark 11:20-24. (If you don't follow the bible, I sugest you do - it helps a lot.)

Your Heart and Mouth MUST be in agreement, and Have faith in God CONSTANTLY. I recall saying that anything I say and do invites the Devil into the mix...My pastor told me to say, 'But' (That erases the statement, and holds off the devil.)

When I pray for God in Heaven...even pray to Jesus...I say "Let it be done unto me." I am instructed to say this every day. Blessings will overtake me, if I have faith.

The pastor said that as a Dominant Black Man, I shall be the 'Head' and not the 'tail.' I interpreted what he said as this:

I SHALL be the 'Head of the Household,' NOT the 'tail.'

Humanity is a bunch of 'unbelieving believers.' What I mean by that is simple: we want to see proof that it is happening...When, Where, What, Who, and How.

I didn't add all I wrote down, and will end this journal entry with a question:

What are you willing to lose to follow God?

Again, you have a choice to make.


5/14/2010 5:49:12 AM
It seems that I had to put a prospecting slave in her place. She berated me, and I had to tell her that she is not the type of slave I sought after. After begging me to take her back, I punished her by keeping her from pleasuring herself...at least for 24 hours. (I told her to make it longer.)

Will she follow directions, I don't know.

5/13/2010 4:42:36 PM
Well, I'm sitting here in a coffee shop...with hundreds of issues. The worst of this is that a woman can either bring you joy or sorrow.

Remembering the words my pastor said: "the things you say and do can bring life of death." One such woman brought death and doom...simply because I can't pamper her like she wanted to be pampered. She wished for me to lose everything.

I am slowly gaining a mistrust for women on this and many other sites. This is why I almost committed suicide, and almost left my kids to be "Bastard children."

I REFUSE to take my life, and give the DEVIL his due...I will limit my contact on this site. IF any woman contacts me, I'll let it go in one ear, and out the other.

5/10/2010 6:48:10 PM
Frustration in dating ebbs a bit, but it can be trying.

I have a dozen women vying for my attention, but I missed something in my profile that gives me frustration.

I think I asked future sluts to not discontinue contact...or play games...or anything of the sort.

I'm wondering if I should cancel my account outright.

5/9/2010 5:26:29 PM
Some text from the church service today. (I did not write much, because this was interactive and quick.)

A godly man will find a god-fearing woman. (Continued from last week.)

You can't get the natural UNLESS you get the spiritual.

As Long as the heart is right, God will use you.

He read scripture...Ephesians, Chapters 1 and 2.

I will coin and change part of his sermon:

"As long as a slaves' heart is right, I will USE, KEEP, and CHERISH her!"

I will quote some scriptures that every submissive woman and Dominant man should follow.

I will start with Chapter 5:

Ephesians 5:22 - Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.

Ephesians 5:23 - For the husband is the head of the wide, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the savior of the body.

Ephesians 5:24 - Therefore as the church is subject to Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every way.

Ephesians 5:25 -Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it.

Ephesians 5:28 - So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loves his wife loves himself.

Now Chapter 6:

Ephesians 6:5 - Servants, be obedient to them that are your Masters according to the flesh, with fear and trembling, in singleness of your heart, as unto Christ;

Ephesians 6:6 - Not with eyeservice, as men-pleasers; but as the servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart;

Ephesians 6:9 - And ye Masters, do the same things unto them, forbearing threatening: knowing that your Master also is in heaven; neither is there respect of persons with him.

I will have this on file, as I follow what the Bible tells me. I will admit to being nice, as my late mother raised me that way. I said that a woman has to 'earn' my niceness. I treat my women right...when they are deserving. (For ANY cruel Dominant woman...if you have a submissive male or female...treat them nice once in a while.)

I got a lot to do to get right with God...but also want the BDSM lifestyle to be incorporated. I was told that it can't be done. (Some aspects can cross over, and that is what I will leave you with.)

5/9/2010 12:56:57 PM
I am actually wondering...and to coin a question one of the members made: Will the true, incorruptible, eager-to-learn submissive slave find me.

I am too angry to fill out my journal for the sermon from my pastor at church...but will handle this later today. (For you moms, Happy Mother's Day.)

5/8/2010 8:36:00 PM
I definitely am looking for another that is serious, and doesn't ask for money. I grow tired of members that think I am 'bullshitting,' or 'playing.' IF you don't want to be with me, don't make the commitment!

I have gotten another contact, and may change consideration. If someone wants to be with me, they make the effort, don't criticize, or lobby for money.

This site has already lost any positive vibe...FEW act serious, and my skepticism is huge.

5/8/2010 11:48:44 AM
I may have to think over the consideration thing...I can't even get a handle on my life, and being in a facility for displaced vets is not helping me much.

I also have issues with the bank. I will have to change banks on Saturday. Had an issue with my card, and learned that they got the address screwed up...AGAIN!

Tired of having to wait for a useless bank to get their act together. I sent an offline message to them asking for an address correction. Money got held up because someone did not do their job right.

5/7/2010 7:11:11 PM
I have a well-deserved weekend free, but wonder if this will last long. I have also considered a lovely woman, who has deactivated her profile upon my order to do so. I hope that the lord in heaven is looking at my good fortune.

5/6/2010 5:28:30 AM
Now, I am FRUSTRATED! It is evident that there are NO serious members here...and if they were serious, would not be stalling, unresponsive, and downright ignorant of someone being themselves.

I have been approached by several, I say again, SEVERAL women eager to offer their submission to me. Of these, one has been claimed by a Master, who I felt acted too slow...another has been very doubtful of who she contacted...and one that appears to be a match, lives in the area, and is supposedly eager to meet - drops off of Collarme from time to time.

One has dropped off completely...I haven't heard from her since April 16. How hard is it to keep in contact? There are some members who genuinely care about those they keep in contact with. (If you are that doubtful of what you have or can offer, the best thing to do is to not join.)

The 'players', 'fakes', and 'wanna-be' doms and subs have ruined this site. Any and all contact from subs that wish to meet, serve, and submit to me will be treated with severe skepticism.

The only way to my Dominant heart is simple:

* Keep corresponding

* Be patient

* Be honest (I tell you about me, and expect the same.)

* Be sincere - at least 100% sincere...I take this lifestyle serious - but not to where I will make a living of it.

* KEEP IN CONTACT - I don't want to notify the authorities, or hear that someone I know died months after they stopped contacting me.

* DON'T PLAY GAMES - I play online interactive games, but don't bring the 'player' mentality into Collarme.

I am an INTELLIGENT Black Male, I experienced 20 years of BDSM...SOME of it bad as well as good.

With this said, I will prepare for work...I am NOT rich, and have to take WHATEVER job is available to support myself.


5/2/2010 1:07:56 PM
Notes from Church today:

It is easier to live for God, and harder to fake it. It is a lot of work to do both.

Using a gardener's terminology, People must check their 'soil.' (Their heart)

I talked about Genesis 1:26, The pastor quoted Mark 4:14 - 'The sower soweth the word.'

Growing up, and even here on this site, I allowed the wrong seeds to be planted. To prove my sincerity, I need to have the good seed in my heart. (positive things that God instilled in me.)

This is for the fakers and players, "When you think it is about you, it becomes a mess."

I am now watching what I say VERBALLY!

Bad seeds I can't remove...so I simply acknowledge them.

Negative actions come from 'plants' in your heart. (plant being the negative thoughts.)

'You never know the word of God is in your life until you have the fruit.'

I hope I'm giving a lot to think about.

5/1/2010 1:48:37 PM
I am considering another potential slave, and will let her post the announcement on her profile. (I will take ownership of ANY and every slave that comes in my direction, and corresponds with me with the intent of meeting / being owned by me.)

Unless I say that I am interested, don't reply to my emails UNLESS I respond to a journal entry, what you say in your profile, etc.
(If you do like what you see and are really adventurous, I won't fault you for taking the initiative to contact me.)

4/30/2010 5:19:05 AM
I got a call from someone in my church, and they wondered about my not showing for Bible Study. Then, the pastors' sermon from a month ago came to mind:

"The words you speak can give life or death."

What I remembered in addition to this was that the Devil lurks in the shadows, and if you speak and think negatively, he'll add more negativity...especially if you vow not to be alone for the rest of your life.

It is very difficult for me to explain, but I am divorced...BUT NOT BY CHOICE! God lets things happen, but I want things to happen for the better.

After twenty years in the lifestyle, I have done as much as the Dominant men and women have in a lifetime. What angers me, and turns me from Black women is their so-called 'superior' attitude. (Yes, I'm picking on Black women and those who are 'racist,' and afraid to date and be owned by a Black Man.)

Twenty years ago, I had my FIRST white slut, and she was into the lifestyle. Unfortunately, Operations Desert Shield and Desert Storm killed a budding relationship. When she died after my return, we were in the process of reconciliation.

Bitterness and regret are two things I WANT to do without. For all the 'players' and 'wanna-be' Dominants, STOP THE BULLSHIT! I am a 42 year old Black Veteran, and despite the economic downturn, have a maturity and decency to be a treasure for a prospecting slave.

I have been chastised and ridiculed by a so-called female 'Dominant' from another site. She went further by trashing the Bible, and Christianity.

What got me pissed is that she said Eve was created to run over Adam, and ALL MEN were to be slaves.

I thank Eve for biting the apple, but as men, we had the authority to stop her. (I will be the first to say that the Devil 'cuckolded' Adam, while Eve bit the forbidden fruit.)

I had NO CHOICE but to clown and ridicule this 'woman.' Eve was created to assist Adam...NOT RUN OVER HIM!

She disrespected the Bible, and accused me of being a hypocrite. Take this to heart:
IF YOU DON'T RESPECT THE BIBLE, THEN YOU DON'T RESPECT YOURSELF, OR ANYONE ELSE!

This Friday is a tough one...I have had NO CONTACT with several prospecting women, and the threat this woman made will have her look good: NO WOMAN will want me, and I'll be considered a player...like the others on this site.

This ate at my mind all week, and had to vent. Christianity and BDSM can function together. (Yes, some aspects are deemed 'despicable' and 'deplorable.' but the needs of a greater God are important than the desires of a few.)

4/29/2010 5:26:02 AM
I have not had any positive luck on this site. I read someone profile, and it stated that separating a site for the fakers  was a good idea. (Statement has been taken out of context.) Old term: "Been There...Done That." This has been tried, and the fakers, wannabes, etc., see through it.

I will say that it was a nice idea, for about 10 minutes.

4/29/2010 4:40:15 AM
This is a VERY frustrating week...one slave I considered appears to 'follow' the footsteps of others that contacted me. Another near where I live wants to meet, and plans have been called off, or halted.

To make it worse: I have missed Bible study this week, and the pastor has been on me to attend. It conflicts with the time I have to get my dinner. (At the shelter, I have a until 8:00 PM to get my dish, or they will discard it. Bible study ends @ 8:00 PM, and he goes beyond the time...even if we don't "get" the holy spirit.)

I will pray that the one that wants me will make the effort. I am a Dominant Black male, and God gave me the power to 'Take dominion over the Earth.'

Pray I rule wisely.

4/25/2010 1:12:43 PM
In church, the pastor challenged us to read the Book of Genesis...front-to-back. Also, he quoted from the scripture in Genesis 1:26

"And God said, let us make man in our image, after our likeness and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the Earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth."

Genesis 1:28 went forward with this:

"And God Blessed them and God said unto them; be fruitful and multiply, and replenish the earth and subdue it and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth."

For the 'wanna-be' dominant males...God charged us to take care of the earth. We let Eve bite of the apple, and should have used our dominance over her.

If you let a woman run over you...YOU DON'T DESERVE HER!

4/24/2010 10:08:33 AM
The past few days were a blur...but I discovered my former wife / slave asked for divorce, and was granted it as of January 25, 2010. This overrode the slavery contract we also agreed upon, and her sister-in-law helped her move far away from me - even taking my son with them.

I have rights to visitation, but her jealous brother-in-law, who is a former Marine like myself, has banned me from even setting foot on his estate.

4/21/2010 4:00:56 AM
Tried to find out information on my Divorce, and typed in the case number. Nothing has surfaced, yet.

4/20/2010 5:15:47 AM
My strength is finally returning, and I can finally stomach some foods. The Good Lord in Heaven has blessed me, and had some personal time with him last night. (Note, I said some.)

I managed to get some rest, and will apologize to the sub I am seriously considering...she worries about me, and will ease her concerns.

I warned those who were "Haters" to keep on hating...as that motivated me to start getting well.

4/19/2010 5:41:58 AM
I was told that trials and tribulations will come my way...and it is obvious with my being under the weather.

The food I consumed was bad, and no one knew. I have had a feverish temperature, and am now keeping hydrated. (Water...not juice, or anything else.)

I will get well, and thank those that are praying for me. (Those that wish further ill should keep wishing.)



4/18/2010 4:37:44 PM
My pastor was absent for church today, so I got a word from another person from a 'sister' church. He had 8 points to follow, and MOST of those I apply here: (I am under the weather, and will list five of them.)

Honor, Integrity, Duty, Courage, and selfless service.

I honor the slave I am considering by NOT divulging her name. (She will be discouraged and insulted by Fakes, wannabes, etc.)

I have integrity to do the right thing...and if someone is 150% sincere about me, I show her the same, or tell her how I feel.

Duty - I served in the Marines, so that is a no-brainer.

Courage - Again, no-brainer.

Selfless service - I volunteer to many community projects, but have cut back or eliminated that with my work hours.

God will bless and reward me. (He already has.) For those that don't know these qualities, read the Bible...front-to-back.

4/17/2010 1:20:39 PM
I tried to use the audio text, so everyone can hear the joy in MY voice. Since it doesn't work, I will use the tried-and-true method:

I have someone under consideration on this site, and will not divulge her name for privacy reasons. For those subs, slaves, and other members that made the pursuit, only to stop emailing, and contacting me...I wish you well in your search, and the one will be out there. Be patient and vigilant.

4/15/2010 6:28:33 PM
Something came to mind regarding what my pastor said: Be mindful of the words you say...they speak "Life" and "Death." I lost many a prospecting mate, a marriage, even a job or two.

After some friends told me my former wife is moving, I confirmed it by checking on one of my old yahoo email accounts.

I will have to move on, as my depression will NOT get the better of me. I remember this phrase, and will apply it:

Success is the Best and greatest revenge.

4/14/2010 5:15:55 AM
I am reading and studying my required book. I am learning that MOST men fail to take their dominion over the devil. I have vices, and act on many of them. I am a dominant, and NO DEVIL will tempt me like Eve was tempted. Adam was involved, and we lost our shot at godhood. Thanks Adam & Eve...

4/11/2010 4:37:38 PM
This morning, the Pastor of my church did his campaigning, leaving the congregation to do service in his absence. The senior 'Deacon' told us he nearly finished the required reading the congregation has for an assignment. (The name of the book is, 'Your Spiritual Authority' by Charles Capps.)

He discussed the fact that God in Heaven gave us dominion over the Earth. However, the Devil and his minions are here on Earth ILLEGALLY...and it is a battle in dealing with them.

I am reading chapter two, as I have to catch up in my reading.

4/10/2010 10:46:02 AM
I will tell you how I got to the point of being a Dominant, as I went to munches in various towns and cities and learned from those that TRULY lived the lifestyle. What I do dictates how I treat a prospecting partner and how I am now viewed by many prospecting partners as 'not true,' 'fake,' and 'not a real Dominant.'

I treat a future slut / slave like a lady in public. (At most times.) Referring to a movie quote from Road House: "Be nice until there is a time NOT to be nice."

I can be nice...as I was trained and taught to be that way. Twenty years ago, I met the FIRST submissive woman that set me on the path to be the Dominant Man that God in Heaven has mandated for EVERY male to be.

I learned how to please and train a woman. I went to my first munch prior to serving in Operation Desert Shield / Desert Storm. Fellow male Dominants showed me how to properly spank a woman's ass, use nipple clamps, even deny her a proper orgasm. (I do get turned on when I frustrate a woman that is DYING to come.)

I got involved with the wrong crowd upon my return, and there is the flaw I have. If you are NOT interested, it doesn't make a fucking difference to me. I accepted Christ, and will admit to cursing up a storm. Right now, God in Heaven is the only one I answer to...NO ONE ELSE!!!

4/9/2010 6:03:46 AM
I will tell you a couple things I did several years ago:

I fucked several women in public. (Parking lots, on the dance floor...when it was packed, and at a landmark overlooking the city at night.)

I even did it at a rest stop, while the cops were in their cars...looking for speeders.

I am myself, and don't apologize for what I did. I learned from mistakes of the past...albeit slowly at times.

I am not going to tell all at once. This journal serves to vent frustration, and now be a short and sweet testimony to my life. Again, if you want to judge...first, look at yourself.

4/4/2010 5:48:58 PM
I had a service at church that got me thinking:

In the next few weeks, I will discuss things I did / did not do in the lifestyle. As a Dominant, I will NOT be ashamed to tell how I got to this point, but those that dare to judge should only look at themselves.

I accepted Christ into my life, but have been ashamed to give a testimony. (Many of the fakers on this site are ready to chain me and shake their whips.) I will not judge others, as I will be hard on myself.

I'll keep you posted.

4/2/2010 5:39:46 PM
Malcom X had a famous quote: "The media's the most powerful entity on earth. They have the power to make the innocent guilty and to make the guilty innocent, and that's power. Because they control the minds of the masses."

I grew sick of some of the shit the media spits out...and this site eats it up like it was the life bread.

Have a Good Friday, and enjoy your Easter.

4/1/2010 5:35:56 AM
The usual crap is going on...so I will go to work.

3/31/2010 5:21:46 AM
Today is going to be very slow...my hours have been cut, as the goal is to remove the overtime status.

I got time to post a short blog, and will go to my job. That is the ONLY faithful thing I have for now.

3/28/2010 2:53:06 PM
My homework consists of something simple, and will work on it after posting a rather boring journal.

Being a Black Dominant, I don't get a journal filled with raunchy things to do to a sub, or who I sexed. (Good, considering the lack of enthusiasm by many on this site.)

3/28/2010 12:33:00 PM
I got a bit of homework from my Pastor, and a prospecting girlfriend offered an idea: I save up, and plan a getaway.

I contacted a possible sub / slut / slave...away from this useless site, and see that this site has LITTLE to offer. (mind the added puns.)

3/27/2010 12:50:30 PM
A woman sent me an email, and have been very upset and frustrated. I'm being accused of being, "Racist," "too macho," "uncouth," and "an asshole." She said that ALL men need to submit to women, and that a woman was born to RUN everything.

Things some men do ruin it for those that have something to offer. I will admit that I lost marriages, took people for granted, and screwed up...but to be accused of all of it, and called these names to boot is unnerving.

I did the wise thing, and let her vent. After she finished, I said 'you're right!' Then, I walked away - as I REFUSE to be goaded into teaching someone a lesson.

This shell of a website does little except allow me to vent.  Nothing good wil ever come from here.

3/22/2010 4:56:03 AM
I don't know what happened to this site, but the negativity has spread to other sites..."Diminants" and "Scrubmissives" alike have corrupted this site, and many others like it. I will follow the advice of my pastor: this site DOES NOT fit into my role like it did years ago...and Other sites: Alt.com, Bondage.com, etc, have also gone by the wayside. I wish you all the best of luck in your search...and if this site works for you, then good.

3/10/2010 4:07:58 AM
As already mentioned, I am ignoring all offers on this website. One member contacted me, and failed to continue correspondence.

Any and all offers are hereby ignored. In my opinion, no member is 150% sincere, and other sites fill the void that this site was to have promised.

2/27/2010 5:58:34 PM
Since this site is devoid of intelligent life, I will consider an offer made by a woman off-site. (She tired of the freeze-dried bullshit on this site, and contacted me away from Collarme.) I will wish those who are looking the best of luck, and will keep this account open. I won't have any reliance on any offers made here, as they have proven to be a waste of my time.

2/6/2010 8:17:05 PM
I managed to purchase a laptop because of all the bullshit regarding people treating the lab computers as their own.

I need to handle my own issues without being on a facility-controlled computer.

I am also getting on with my life...as this is all I HAVE LEFT!

1/17/2010 11:55:23 AM
Today, I attended church - after missing a week for overtime @ work. The pastor quoted the scripture verse from the New Testament...Matthew 14:25-27.

The message is so clear, I will ask the question of all the submissives, wanna-bes, and fakers:

WHY DO YOU DOUBT?

I am asking those who contact me, yet do not continue correspondence...those asking me to email you away from Collarme, and after an email, cease to return an email. Why do you doubt?

I'll make this simple: If you are serious, contact me, don't stop contacting me, and trust your carnal instincts. This fear of 'being played' is the fault of those that took this site for granted, and a prospecting slave / submissive loses out on a good relationship.

I care little for this site, and recite an old biblical poem: 'You reap what you sow.'

I get what I ask for...like it or not. If this post falls on deaf ears, then that is YOUR choice. The one I seek is out there, and will search other places.

1/2/2010 9:13:10 AM

January 2, 2010 - I have grown frustrated with the divorce process, and will weigh the option of being in contempt-of-court...my former wife has some bitchy lawyers, relatives, and friends that make life hell for me.

I DIDN'T ASK FOR A DIVORCE, AND YET THEIR LIBERAL TACTICS AND ILL-TIMED ADVICE FORCE THIS ISSUE TO BE DRAGGED OUT!!!

I know why this is happening: My late mother's house is partially owned by ACORN - the same organization that sucks Obama's smelly dick.

I don't care if I'm accused of being an Uncle Tom - I am a Conservative, and that house will be turned over to my cousin, as he paid the mortgage, fixed up the house, etc. My cunt of a former wife WILL NOT GET A CENT FROM THE HOUSE!

I owe my cousin $750,000.00 - and he put 20 years into that house...His advice is what I'll use to start off the new year: NEVER SETTLE FOR LESS THAN WHAT YOU SEEK!

This site is beyond the "former shell" - it reeks of an odor worse than a whore's pussy, after an all-night gangbang. I am growing disinterested with the members on this site. IF you want to hook up - DO SO!

I put what I sought in my profile...and threw my gauntlet - Either be at the very least, 100% sincere, or be miserable. (Just don't bring down other people with you if you crave playing games.)


12/31/2009 9:20:42 PM
A new year is upon us, and I have one hope...that the one I seek is sincere, and eager to meet me. If so, she will overlook the issues that plagued me last year. (Divorce, temporary joblessness, etc.)

I am deciding to move forward, and those that are playing games are going to be brushed aside. I have NO TIME for games...except on the XBOX 360, or the computer.

A HAPPY 2010 to all, and best of luck in your search...it will get much rougher.

11/12/2009 6:14:14 PM
The Veterans Day holiday is passed, and I am preparing for the weekend.

11/8/2009 12:28:12 PM
Today was one of those days where I had NO CHOICE but to go to church. This is the ONE thing I have that calms me in an otherwise chaotic world.

11/7/2009 7:32:57 AM
I begin this journal entry with a saddened heart...a relative of a good friend was killed in the recent shooting at Fort Hood in Texas. I knew my friend well - although I didn't know the relative. Incidents like this are becoming commonplace, and the blame falls squarely on the shoulders of the current president...Brack H. Obama.  If we have a REAL president that gives the troops the NEEDED support, this would NEVER have taken place. Changing the subject: I also have found a prospecting slave, and am taking things VERY slow. IF she has no interest in me, then I have tried my best to show her my sincerity. (Note to those that doubted me, or didn't believe in me: you made your choice, and now you MUST live with it.)

10/15/2009 4:55:33 PM
I talked to a friend that is NOT into the lifestyle. After his 'tongue-lashing,' I will leave the profile on this site, but will not pay for anything - it just isn't worth it. This is for any female submissives / slaves that seek a Dominant master to serve: If you are 150% sincere, and willing to meet a Dominant Black Male that appreciates his slave, email me at my yahoo email address: blktxdom2004@yahoo.com

10/9/2009 4:43:01 PM
Well, this added to my frustration, and am forced to go to other sites. I don't think there are ANY sincere people willing to meet. I have been on this site for over five years, and it has de-evolved into a cesspool of worthless shit. I have other accounts elsewhere, and will focus more on those. (I paid for the exclusive accounts, so I'll find the one there easier than here.) This site is NO LONGER worth the time or trouble. I'll keep it, but I lost faith in this site.

10/8/2009 4:15:01 PM
This has been the worst week for me in the last ten years...My late mother's birthday was October 3, I lost a good friend in Afghanistan, I also lost my late Father's lucky money clip...along with $1,000.00 - money that would have gotten my computer exam.  The worst week has been made worse by a few promising subs, of which five of them belittled me. This website has devolved into a farce, and don't think it is even worth the time or trouble.

10/4/2009 3:08:32 PM
Today, I have been confronted by a friend who found his submissive on this site. He is disappointed in how the site has changed...first, with how the subs don't give anyone the time of day, then he criticized the so-called doms. (A sub I tried contacting called them 'Diminants.') My friend criticized me finally, and said that if I didn't get a submissive...or 'Scrubmissives' as he calls them, IT was not worth the time of trouble. I'll change my profile, including removing my former wife's photos. (The divorce will be final later this month.) One last note: Any submissive that are liberal should think first before contacting me. I dislike people who think our current government is doing things for us. If you believe that, you won't have a website, as they would shut it down like they would health care. (Once it passes, almost ALL our freedoms will be open to removal...including the freedom to surf this site.)

10/3/2009 6:53:53 AM
Right now, I am feeling very discouraged by our so-called government, and our joke of a FIRST BLACK PRESIDENT! To start: I NEVER voted for an asshole that takes over the car companies, ruins our economy, enforces a 'cap and trade' bill, (more like 'tax and kill'), and changes our health care to be worse than Canada, Great Britain, etc. If my fellow veterans didn't bring me to the TEA PARTY rally in Milwaukee, I would have lost my spark. I will be blunt: Do you want a government that will take away your right to go to a website like this? Surf for nude pics? contact women and men?  If you don't vote the right candidates in office, that will happen.

9/13/2009 4:45:38 PM
I have a little longer to wait for my divorce to be final. It is not good being a married man, and your submissive...who is to honor the teachings of the bible, threats you like dirt. I will update my profile to read divorced...and if anyone asks, I'll tell them that it will be final very soon. I'll also change what I seek in a submissive / slave.

8/22/2009 9:03:29 AM
This is the last weekend being a married man. I started a new job, and with the blessings of my higher power (God almighty in heaven), wiill get my life back in order. I don't go on this site much any more,and when I do, it is simply to post a blog. Times are VERY difficult, and my determination to get back in the work force landed me a job - but not my dream job. Patience is something I lost a long time ago, and my upcoming divorce will have me being as impatient as a trained soldier waiting word to attack a target. Wish me luck in these difficult times. I am so busy, I don't even have time for a relationship, family, even myself.

5/6/2009 9:32:37 AM
Today, I learned of my parental rights being terminated. I'm sick of the bullshit! I get told one thing, and get handed another. From now on, this is what I'll do: I am getting divorced, and will remain divorced. The next woman contacts me wanting a relationship better be submissive to a fault. (offering to be a slave is a plus.) She better be 110% willing to submit to me - sexually, mentally, and emotionally. If you have a profession, I won't make you quit your job...nor hand over any hard-earned money. (I am only going to do this if your health is in jeopardy.) There are other issues to handle, and will update my profile as soon as possible.

4/25/2009 9:11:39 AM
As the rain falls down over the Milwaukee area, I contemplate the harsh and difficult choices I am making...Termination of parental rights, Divorce, and staying in a shelter - relearning the many functions to survive in the world. I haven't seen my son since Christmas of 2008, and at the same time, my eldest son, Isaac, is to be adopted by his new dad. I've already been told by the Shelter staff to stop dating women, and having kids. Prior to this financial shit, I was trying to keep a roof over my family's head, until getting hired at McDonald's. I prided myself on trying to be a husband and father. Now, I'm just trying to live through this emotional and physical strain in my life. I am so full of hatred for most women seeking a dominant man, only to treat him like shit. (Women who are dominant and switches are a MAJOR turn-off.) I read the bible, and the book of Genesis explained it well: Adam and Eve were created by God. God said to Adam and Eve: Ye may eat of every tree in the Garden of Eden EXCEPT the tree of knowledge, Then the serpent tempts Eve to eat the apple from the tree, then has Adam eat the apple she picked. Because of women, Men have been suffering. I won't get into it a lot, but also know that men bring shit upon ourselves, too. But Eve disobeyed God, and like a dumb sap, Adam followed. As soon as my divorced is finalized, I'll create a new profile, and this will simply be a backup - as I will not use this one much.

3/6/2009 12:25:51 PM
Matters are worse: I just got off restriction, and went with a friend to a local library, with his laptop in tow, and surfed the net. (Internet blocks keep me from accessing this website, so I borrow his laptop.)

She got involved by telling my therapist about my surfing the net. (He already knows about it, so it was useless to mail him about it.) What worsened the issue was that my Case Manager intercepted the letter, and placed me on a SEVERE restriction.

I borrowed my friends' laptop to post this. I am pissed that she would go to such lengths to humiliate me. (By the way, my friend is leaving the group, as it is his last day.)

My last day of restriction is just before I get out of the program...and this has put me in jeopardy of getting into another program - one that will help me to get a job, or get into school.

2/2/2009 2:34:28 PM
When it rains, it pours...I just got a slap in the face from my wife, when she served me with divorce papers. To make matters worse, I am faced with surrendering my parental rights.

1/11/2009 11:43:47 AM
New year, new problems: My wife and I are separated for a while...the economy forced her to be closer to her father. I on the other hand, am at the Milwaukee VA hospital.

7/15/2008 7:28:39 AM
Due to the rising gas prices, I had NO CHOICE but to work close to home. I took a position at McDonald's as a fry cook. To worsen matters, my wife and I are sued by Capitol One. (CRAPITOL ONE...if you want to be insulting towards the company.)

3/8/2008 9:46:04 PM
I got hired on at a coating company, and learned about the topic of hidden racism. As a college-educated black male, I'm seen as a 'grunt worker' by the temporary agency that contracted me to work at this coating company.  I called them about the high-paying jobs they had, of which I am DAMN WELL qualified for. They used the age-old excuse that they screen hundreds (Now they say thousands) of people on the roster. I may sound petty, but it should make sense that a highly educated man has EVERY right to get a chance to work at one of the higher paying jobs...not be pushed aside to a shit job.

11/16/2007 12:03:32 PM
I have gotten laid off (again!) I grow sick of getting hired, then let go. Aside from this, I am proud of my 5 month old son, and my wife...they help keep me as sane as possible

9/26/2007 5:52:45 AM
Today, I have a lot to handle...simply because the detergent we placed in an empty water jug leaked onto the floor.

My sub wife and I work different shifts, so as our 3 1/2 month old son is watching a movie, I have to clean up the mess.

Not an easy task, considering the untold amount of soap I have to clean up.

8/30/2007 4:02:58 AM
Another year has crept up on me...today, I am 40 years old. My sub wife and newborn son have made it a very special day for me.

8/13/2007 5:21:56 AM
Wife and son are doing fine...my son is growing and happy.

My wife finally went back to work, reluctantly.

6/5/2007 10:46:11 AM
Sara, my wife, gave birth to an 8 pound boy at 10:56 PM last night.

Mother and son are in the Hospital...pics to come later, or you can email me.

5/18/2007 6:00:24 AM
It won't be long, now...In two to three weeks, our son - Jonathan Lyle Lewis, will be born.

2/28/2007 1:44:37 PM
My wife and I just learned her father-in-law, who has dementia/alzheimer's, is getting worse. He is now on suicide watch, and we are praying he doesn't kill himself. This is not a good time for something like this...especially when we are expecting our first child.

1/7/2007 12:40:40 PM
I updated the profile a bit, and confirmed that my wife and I are having a boy.

11/1/2006 6:44:52 PM
Today, I got my confirmation that my wife is indeed pregnant. I am very pleased.

10/20/2006 2:31:14 PM
I have another reason to be grateful...my submissive wife is 8 weeks pregnant with my child. This is a VERY special birthday gift...and a late one at that, and is welcome news after learning that a former girlfriend took me to court for failure to pay. The Judge did not look at the fact that I am struggling - more like they want to get someone in jail. (Election year...go figure.) Granted, I love my kids, but MOST mothers should not drain the daddies dry IF he is making the effort to pay. (A former girlfriend, and ex-wife are making me suffer.) Enough about this...I have a child to raise, and the bitterness lies with them, now. Wish my wife and I luck.

8/30/2006 6:56:59 PM
Today, I am 39 years old...and am grateful that I have another day to live my life.

8/29/2006 2:49:16 PM
This terrible month is ALMOST over! It came to a head...a job that I tried SO HARD to do resulted in me getting fired from it. Add to that a vengeful first wife, and former girlfriend - who want nothing morwe than to see me in prison. (My submissive wife is my second wife, and I am STILL married to her.) Which brings me to the topic of Warren Jeffs...he was caught by the Nevada Highway Patrol outside of La Vegas. This brings the month of August 2006 to a dreadful close. (Yes, one year after Katrina.)

8/22/2006 5:11:35 PM
Checking in on this site...Not much has changed. Still working.

6/15/2006 8:57:51 PM
Won't be on much-Mom-in-law died.

5/12/2006 7:17:36 AM
I hope Collarme won't criticize me for doing this, but I have to voice my disdain, and ask for the help of the members:



I have a hatred for child pornography like it was the AIDS virus. And UNLESS Collarme is registered with the ruling agencies that ban it, WILL NOT talk to, or participate in any functions if someone is believed to be under age. (Besides, I'm happily married, and won't share my wife with ANYONE, except the almighty creator.)



There is one guy on the FBI's MOST WANTED LIST that will put these jealous wannabe doms, as well as the jealous doms...to shame.



I ask the members to keep an eye out for Warren Jeffs. This jerk is a racist pig, child molester, greedy fraud, and polygamist reject. (Wannabe doms SHOULD avoid being like him...or is it too late?)



Polygamy is one issue...but tie racist beliefs, sodomy of underage kids, and stealing from the Government to that, you have an creep that rivals Hitler, Stalin, Hussein, etc.



If collarme feels I am stepping my bounds, they can contact me. Otherwise...TURN THIS MONSTER IN!!!

5/11/2006 2:42:45 PM
Fortune has smiled upon me...I got hired for an administrative position worth $35,000+



I am NOT joking.



Even my wife was a bit envious, and her mother offered a late XMAS gift...since she has little time left to live, she gave me the truck to drive to/from work.



To those who had the 'DOOM AND GLOOM' mentality...tht's what you get for doubting me.



Thanks to all that boosted my morale. It is VERY MUCH appreciated!

5/2/2006 2:37:05 PM

I have a bit of good news...I may get a job. It depends on if I can make the interview tomorrow.

 

Stay Tuned


4/23/2006 10:29:14 PM
My Mother-in-law is getting worse in her condition. The added stress is building, and my wife is very sad.

4/14/2006 7:11:22 AM
Harassment and scorn must have the same type of relation...I resumed my job search, and am getting evil looks from receptionists, managers, and the like...and most of the looks are from men. Moreover, the stress of my mother-in-law's terminal cancer is affecting my married life. My submissive wife has had her parents help her, and she is HELPLESS to do anything to help them.

3/16/2006 7:15:36 AM
To think that SOME people are called "Dom/mes." I had experienced a series of harassing/humiliating events within the past two weeks. For starters, The storage shed/garage was broken into during the weekend...and this is where my laptop was placed until I could get it repaired. Speaking of said laptop, it was also toasted - how that happened is a mystery. And while I handled this incident, my wife received threatening phone calls from someone...who left comments that 'she should have married a white guy.' This put a damper on my job search, and the landlord...who is revealed as a lazy, self-serving cheapskate, REFUSES to cooperate with the police.

The guy who harassed me must have some friends, because I got degrading emails and messages during the week, and they don't have the common decency...or should I add, "Intestinal Fortitude" to approach me, like a man. Some people say that they are doms...or subs. I went to some BDSM munches, and the games that are played there are MORE MATURE at times than what these boys (and I use the term with disgust) play.

I use the terms 'fake' and "Wanna-be" freely, but for those who have or have not been in the lifestyle longer than I have...and take offense, note that I have seen the games, and played them. What happened this past week is NO GAME! It is plain harrassment!

3/14/2006 6:35:10 AM
I just looked at the volunteer page of this site. Although I am unemployed in the Milwaukee area, I can't see myself doing volunteer work. Yes, it will benefit the fifestyle, but feel that it won't help me getting a good job. If it helps in the long run...and will help on a resume, then I would. There is something telling me that it just would not help me.

3/8/2006 12:00:09 PM
I don't know about you, but I've gotten emails from SOME people who are jealous that I am a HAPPILY MARRIED man...and married to a wonderful, but patient white BBW sub. A person messaged me on yahoo, saying I had no right to marry a white woman. PLEASE...GET OFF THE NON-INTERRACIAL ISSUE! I've said this previously: IF YOU DON'T WANT AN INTERRACIAL RELATIONSHIP, THAT'S FINE WITH YOU...JUST DON'T RUIN SOMEONE'S RELATIONSHIP TO SPREAD YOUR DISDAIN! I will also voice my issue with those that are greedy. (Money, power, etc.) Someone posted a journal entry that made sense: BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE! QUIT TRYING TO GET WHAT YOU CAN'T HAVE! You don't see me trying to woo another woman over. (Yes, there ARE some that are trying to woo me. lol) I get questions about why I bookmark someone. My reasons are: 1. I like the quotes they use. (Intelligence) 2. Straightforward. 3. Won't take shit from anyone. SOME people have the meanings of domination/submission twisted.

3/4/2006 2:23:04 PM
I have learned a lesson in cooking today from my submissive wife...and yes, EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW THIS:  IF you see some eggs in a carton, they are Blood red - NOT the normal yellow yolk and egg white...return them with the receipt. I don't care if you just bought them...turn them in. In my opinion, the eggs slipped by quality control. You can laugh cruelly, and say we avoided a case of the bird flu...but this is NOT FUNNY! Anyone that has a story relating to my experience can message me.

2/24/2006 7:26:42 AM
Damn...some people never learn. I got an email from someone on yahoo, and they insisted that I divorce my wife. I said the other day that some people are not happy with interracial relationships. I don't care if you don't want an interracial relationship...DON'T FORCE YOUR IDEALS UPON SOMEONE ELSE!!! Just because you have personal issues, doesn't mean you have a 'moral' obligation to get people to see your way. (And I will openly call the fakers, wannabes, and liars on this.) I will be open with you...I USED TO BE LIKE THAT, AND IT GOT ME NOWHERE! All the games that are being played - and it happened to me as well...are VERY juvenile. Acting like a sub to talk to a sub, pleading, whining and crying for someone's phone number (Or if you claim to be a dom...ordering), and thinking a sub is a TOTAL DOORMAT! - all are childish, and demean the efforts of this website.

2/20/2006 1:36:56 PM
I have gotten some crude emails from people who try to belittle me. Unlike those who are on this site, AND ARE FOR REAL when they explain what they want...they hem, haw, bitch, etc. at why I shouldn't marry a woman of another race. Those that say in their profiles that they don't want Interracial are ok...that is your choice.

Besides: that is not the point. The point is the jealous fakers, liars, jokers, etc., that can't get it through their thick skulls that you have to PROVE to the women here your sincerity...and back it up.

I'll give an example of a guy on Yahoo that messaged me...saying I wasn't real. I'm not the one going around...messaging every woman...lying about their marriage, and lobbying for the woman's email, phone, etc.

My apologies to the women members...Dom and sub alike, that look at profiles, and are for real. I am HAPPILY MARRIED, and admire those that seek what they are looking for. I have what I am looking for, and if I bookmark you - it is because your profile had a quote, saying, or something that showed your intelligence.

2/14/2006 9:34:07 AM
Today is Valentine's Day...and remembering the heartaches and happiness is summarized as follows: fourteen years ago, my mother passed away...ten years ago, my cousin died in prison - one month BEFORE he was to be released...nine years ago, I had my first REAL Valentine's Day to celebrate...seven years ago, I married my first wife...and three years ago, I was divorced. Now that I am married again, I pray for those who suffer through Valentine's Day to not let the heartaches outdo the joys you encounter. The best to all in their search...and may the good lord bless you all.

2/10/2006 7:39:35 AM
My mom-in-law has terminal cancer...and it has now spread to her brain and rib cage.

My wife is unhappy, because she is unable to do much...and my uneventful job search, is adding to our frustration. We humbly ask for your prayers in this trying time.

2/6/2006 2:44:28 PM
Well...The Super Bowl is in the history books. Seattle looked to be the team to prove me wrong. I'm glad they didn't.


1/31/2006 9:20:40 AM
Well, I got what I asked for...my laptop is down - this time, the AC port is fried. I think it may be damaged for good, and will have to scrap it.

1/27/2006 6:31:34 AM
Damned if I don't watch my tongue...I got what I asked for yesterday...but the negative reply came from a jealous white male not connected in any way with Collarme.

He emailed me...venting his disdain that I am married to a white woman. He furher went on with is pathetic diatribe about it being wrong to date/marry outside one's race.

I said it yesterday...the choice is the woman's if she wants to be with someone. IF they treat her with respect, they get it back. The individual kept using the excuse that "ALL BLACKS ARE THUGS AND DRUG-DEALERS!"

That one-dimensional claim is as old and dumb. Had he said "Most" I would have agreed. Most Blacks...or African-Americans are decent people, and his bias really gave me reason to discuss the topic.

If ANYONE replies, be aware that Collarme will screen the email. As of late, I have had positive replies...and am glad that many members take the time to complement.

African-American history month in the US is February. Aside from Rev. Martin Luther King, Malcom X, Harriet Tubman, etc., I will endeavor to provide a link...if possible, to a web page depicting a historic Black figure/group that did something positive to better the world. (I.E.: The Tuskeegee Airmen.)

My wife loves me for my color...but more for my creative mind. All of the other incidentals: dick size, sexual prowess, etc. - are added bonuses...in her eyes.

All of the jealous haters and wanna-be's can heed or ignore this journal post. JUST HANDLE YOURSELF!!!

1/25/2006 1:37:22 PM
I have ran into this issue while a member of Collarme...and will admit may have been a victim of this at times. The fact that the wanna-be doms out there are jealous, and DO ANYTHING to ruin another relationship.

I have since learned that you should be happy for those that find someone. In my instance, being a Dominant of a different color makes me a target for ridicule, harassment, scorn, etc.

For those subs that desire a Dominant of a different color, don't despair - BE PATIENT! I myself am HAPPILY MARRIED, and do not seek any other partners...nor will I play around behind my wife's back.

For those wanna-be doms...go to the BDSM munches, read the BDSM books, and to make things short: GET 110% INVOLVED IN THE LIFESTYLE!!! I spent three years in a group in HI, before attending other groups in the continental US.

I will add that those subs that ARE NOT SINCERE should follow this advice as well.

For those subs that crave a White male Dominant: The choice is yours, but you don't know what you are missing with a Dominant Black Male...whether it be fear of their behavior, background, etc. Screening and trusting your instincts is key...and if your lust is overriding your judgement, a suggestion is to tell the candidates your EXPLICIT DESIRES!
(There are those that already do this.)

I will accept replies/comments from all, since I am no longer seeking.


1/23/2006 2:32:32 PM
I FINALLY got DSL...but bad news keeps coming: Last weekend, My Mother-in-law's terminal cancer got much worse...and my Father-in-law is having a tough time with his Alzheimer's. This is making my wife unhappy, and that is frustrating for me, as my job search relies on her motivation and support. Today, I will surprise her with a little birthday gift...as she turns 35 today.

1/11/2006 9:58:55 AM
AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!! I HATE NOT HAVING THE INTERNET! My wife and I are feeling the ill effects of Christmas, and have to borrow the library computer for posting.



The cable company didn't stand behind their promises, and the bill was doubled, instead of the promised price. "Bait and switch" schemes are an IMMEDIATE turn-off, and will stay with DSL for the time being.

12/27/2005 6:57:30 AM
Christmas 2005 is finally in the history books...and life is returning to normal.

12/23/2005 8:19:11 AM
The holidays are upon us, and my sub wife and I are going to see her parents. One month since being married, I have been happier than I was in Texas.


12/5/2005 5:48:21 PM
Finally read the A+ Computer books and papers I have...and will take a part-time job, so that I can get a little money to live on.

11/21/2005 8:00:20 AM
HAPPILY MARRIED!!!
 
I have had three days of marital bliss, and tears, as I reenter the ranks of married men.
 
I now focus on getting a job, and getting my A+ certification.

11/17/2005 4:08:57 PM
Tomorrow, I will become a married man again, and am VERY EXCITED! I spoke with the Pastor, and WILL NOT back down from committment.

It takes a strong man to honor a commitment, and this applies to marriage.

I am going through a LOT of emotions now, and so is my submissive fiancee.

For those that wish me well, keep us in your prayers.

10/18/2005 4:48:21 PM
Just a little more than a week from now, I will be in WI again...this time, I will be in the outskirts (suburbs) of Milwaukee.

Sadly, I will miss the state of Texas, but not by much. I have endured a year of turmoil, pain, heartache, disappointment, and grief.

These outweigh the positive memories I have experienced...The Longhorns winning a classic Rose Bowl, as well as the NCAA College Baseball title. I won't forget The San Antonio Spurs winning the NBA title in seven games. (Take note, I also like the Detroit Pistons, too...because of Rasheed Wallace - he graduated from my old high school in Philadelphia.)

I have to blaze other trails elsewhere...and my destiny is in the Badger State.

10/5/2005 3:09:21 PM
23 more days, and I'll be in WI. Someone made a comment about many of the member's replies. I will agree with his comments...and add the fact that I am in a loving relationship, and VERY happy will figure that most who visit this site still don't get it.

9/27/2005 2:45:45 PM
Yesterday, The New York Daily News reported Yankees star shortstop Derek Jeter has recieved hate letters. (Actually, the numerous threats to other athletes have been traced to the NE Ohio/NW Pennsylvania area.)

I have a thing about people being racist, and will admit to having racial hangups as well. The many people that are envious of a Black Dominant...such as myself, having a submissive is staggering.


9/22/2005 9:50:47 AM
In just a little over a month, I'll be in Wisconsin for good. My submissive fiancee and I are very excited...and will plan accordingly. My temporary job is ending on Sept. 30th, and am planning for other contingencies.

Also, the bus company in Austin, TX went on strike...until 3:00 AM Saturday Morning.

9/19/2005 9:39:33 AM
Deciding to change things around a little bit. I have cleaned up most of my things, and placed them in temporary storage.

Thankfully, I don't have much to ship...and packed everything into two large boxes. I will ship them in a few weeks.

9/15/2005 5:30:51 PM
About 41 days from now, I will be in the arms of my submissive fiancee` - And we are proof that a dom is able to find his one submissive.

Thanks to those who gave me advice and moral support. I won't say names, as I am giving the females the added respect, and not letting all on the group know they helped me keep focus. (And knowing most of the wanna-be doms, they would 'hit you up.')

I felt apprehensive about leaving Texas...but am more determined after more than a year, and the added influx of displaced Hurricane Katrina victims - of which, the majority are in Houston, San Antonio, Austin, and Dallas.

I will miss Austin dearly, but my future wife is in another state...and her employer rewarded her for staying.

I am looking forward to returning up north to a state that I felt was negative - and this is one end of the state I am criticizing.

9/12/2005 1:49:23 PM
I have made my decision...and the ideas of my fiancee/slave added to that choice.

In the coming weeks, I will move in with my fiancee, and we will continue our relationship. I have already proposed to her, and she has accepted.

Her family is VERY accepting of me, and admired my determination. In light of the relocation of the hurricane victims,  I will leave Texas. One year was too little time, but I have done wat I could to make a living.

1/2 of the 220,000 residents will call Austin, TX home...should they decide to stay. The job market will become much more difficult for me, and willnot think of staying in the Lone Star State.

9/3/2005 4:12:16 PM
I was going to vent my frustrations about the fakers, and my failed A+ exam, but after hearing from a displaced native of New Orleans, will include setbacks in this message.



We all have failures in our life...however, things like divorce,
failed exam, or even a loss of a job/promotion/signifcant other pales in comparison with a devastating hurricane. Hurricane Katrina takes precedence over an exam, which is nothing compared to billions of dollars, loss of family, sentimental treasures, clothing, etc.



I have listed the links to various groups that you can donate to. I
don't know if I have posted it on the group or not. But I am posting the links here.



For those who want to contribute, send donations to the following:



goodwill.org

habitat.org

nsalamerica.org

networkforgood.org

redcross.org

salvationarmyusa.org



Cash is the preferred donation, but other supplies are accepted at those links.

8/31/2005 8:05:33 AM
My 38th Birthday has passed...and like the past four or five birthdays, it is just another day.


This one is a little different, however, as I tried to make it a little practical. I got an email from a sub that claimed I am missing something from my current relationship, after I bookmark the profiles. We are ALL missing something...the dream home, love, companionship, that certain computer certification - that shows employers you are qualified for the job.
This site has people that are sincere, BUT the numerous fakers, wanna-be's, etc., have corrupted this site, and several others. All I can do is bookmark the profiles, as I had to find my mate off-site.


8/15/2005 9:17:17 AM
I am happy, because I will marry the slave I have collared soon. I grow VERY, VERY skeptical of this and other websites. I read a report that explains the behaviors of MOST of the members on this site.

Many people that have given well wishes are still suffering with the wanna-be's, fakers, and RUDE people that still permeate this website, and others. Honestly, I drowned from the lack of sincerity from some members. 

My past relationships took a hit...whether it is my fault, or not. I have thrown up my hands in defeat...but see that some people are still trying.

My lesson in all this is simple...DON'T GIVE UP!!! (And I thank those that encourage me. It is MUCH appreciated.)

7/22/2005 8:57:12 AM
With each day that passes...my slave has a growing need for her master. I am in the planning stages to have her relocate, and ignore all the 'counseling' that others have given. Those that support, are allowed to give well-wishes.

7/10/2005 9:41:26 AM
I am engaged to my submissive slave, and am VERY happy. I spent the 4th of July holiday with my sexy slave, and she has been collared.

The contracts have also been signed...so everything is legal.


All that my submissive offers to her master will be cherished, not misused...and those that hate, are jealous, etc. can go harass someone else.

6/13/2005 4:58:20 PM
It NEVER ceases to amaze me...someone is trying to breakup my relationship with the submissive I am courting. Just as I am getting to know the woman, someone tries to push their views upon the woman. If they don't like what she says, they harass her. If all the players are jealous, and do something like this, you ruin things for men overall. Thankfully, the efforts went for naught - they made things worse for themselves. When they harassed her, I threatened them with expulsion from many groups, and used several tricks to get them booted. Fortunately for me, my submissive has decided not to reactivate her profile on this site...so all the players and fakes won't have a chance to retaliate.

5/29/2005 3:32:56 PM
It has been more than a month, and will report that I have found someone that is not on this website. I thank those that are sincere, and have kept positive. I hope that we can stay in contact as friends, and knowing that things sometimes do not turn out the way we would want them to, will try to stay in contact. For those that are players, fakers, etc., My good fortune should teach you a lesson. (If you are stubborn, and don't see the lesson I taught...then I won't tell you. You'll have to suffer and be miserable, knowing that your deceit didn't get to me, and I overcame the negativity over the course of time.) I will change my profile, and welcome any gripes, complaints, congratulations, etc.

4/23/2005 12:22:17 PM
Per the advice of someone I HAD considered a friend, I will keep this profile open. Since I don't have the influence like George Bush, will check back in to see those that are sincere, rather than those that hinder happiness.

4/16/2005 2:15:53 AM
It is official...I am done looking for the one. A Grave misunderstanding has ended a promising relationship, and the fallout from the end of the relationship is too much for my morale to handle.<BR><BR>

As of Sunday night, I am deactiviating my profile, and will no longer search for anyone. I will say my saddening goodbye Sunday night, then put my profile on inactive status, until I feel that things are settled.

4/14/2005 7:02:19 PM
My anger has subsided, but my frustration is growing. Pending the outcome of my tuition process, will not do much, EXCEPT look at profiles. I won't respond to any...as I have a BAD track record with meeting subs.

To be honest, there are some people on this site that ruin it, and have recieved numerous threats on one of my email addresses.

If people want to cause a fight, instigate a problem, etc., There is a group of IRAQ insurgent fighters in Baghdad, with your name on it. Quit trying to pick a fight, thinking you are an 'Alpha Male.'

This group doesn't work for me...sorry to say. Wannabes, fakes, players, etc., have inundated this site, and corrupted it beyond clean-up. I would do better starting a group on yahoo, and inviting select people.



4/10/2005 5:32:35 PM
Bad luck strikes me when I LEAST expect it. First off, I lose a relationship that I tried SO HARD to build. Then, I get thrown out of a gym before I could pay the membership.<BR><BR>

The final straw was my so-called roommate. He used a racial slur, and backstabbed me regarding getting an apartment.<BR><BR>

I am so demoralized by these bad events, that I am considering deleting my profile.<BR><BR>

Right now, I don't feel like talking to anyone.

3/16/2005 6:48:42 PM
TIME TO REJOICE!!! I got good news...

1st item: I got hired through a temporary employment agency, which is the goal I set for now.

2nd Item: I got notification that the school I am attending will try for state funding, and It is posible that I qualify.

This put more of a huge smile on my face, and will be busy preparing for this life-changing event.



3/10/2005 8:13:36 AM
The ignorance, scorn, and disapproval from some people continue to hamper the strides that humanity has made.

I got several replies from people, to include a Black woman that is submissive, and loves strong Black men. For a Black woman to have that quality is a rarity, but with my being hurt, dumped upon, ridiculed, and harassed by women of my race, it would be VERY DIFFICULT to impress me.

Although this woman hailed from Canada, I have yet to believe that MANY, if all Black woman are submissive to a Black man...in light of things that happen in society.

What turned me off to her profile is the fact she didn't post a photo of herself. (If you claim you are beautiful, post a picture.) I like seeing a COMPLETE profile, with a pic...not a partial one.


On another note, I received another hateful reply in my email from someone that claims that I am not a Dominant. Jealousy and hatred are prevalent in this age, and I am no stranger to this disease.

I said that I would never settle, and I meant it. Many people that approach me should ALWAYS give respect, as I give it in return. (and vice versa.) I blocked replies from Dominant men and women, and submissive men, for one reason...to ward off the negative replies to my profile. I do check for positive notes, but am glad that there are fewer responses.

I hope that that someone sees me for who I am, and accepts it. (And I hope it is soon.) Right now, I am focusing on school, and will NOT do much on this site.
 

3/9/2005 5:58:23 PM
I got some bad advice from someone today, and will ignore it...as he insisted I quit the BDSM lifestyle outright. I will periodically check back in, but not respond to any profiles, EXCEPT those I have already replied to. (If you email me, and it is a polite response, that is also an exception.)



I also will point out that I will NEVER, EVER SETTLE FOR anything less than the requirements I seek in the submissive.



Politeness aside, I have issues to resolve, and waiting for that special someone is not happening.

3/6/2005 3:08:27 PM
On Friday, my new co-roommate contacted my school, and got my tuition reduced by $250.00 - a big difference, compared to paying the FULL amount.


I am sending for my things, and will expect them to arrive by the end of the week. I will also schedule several research studies to pay for my schooling, as well as living expenses.


I may also hope to get my driver's license changed over to Texas...the major requirements are my old State ID, Soc. Security Card, Military discharge papers (DD-214), and my College Transcripts.


I won't be doing much on this site, as I need to get my certification.  One so-called 'Dom' said that I don't look like one, and my politeness is a sign of weakness.


Now I will have a question: IF being polite is a sign of weakness, how come you aren't getting many subs to answer your posts?  If you reply to a profile, and order them to obey, that is a sign of being a 'fake,' and a 'Wanna-be' Dom...and I have been guilty of following false info like this before. (I lost many prospective subs by following what someone said, instead of following what I know.)



A little food for thought...and if you don't like what I say, well...you have the option to ignore me, agree with me, or challenge me on my ideas.

2/28/2005 11:31:03 AM
I ran into a fellow teammate from my research studies today. He suggested that I continue school, and send for my things. He had an idea for me to room with him in an apartment.


Also, I am getting over the loss of a relationship...and the negative replies that a few individuals sent to me.


I am awaiting my check, because the storage shed I reserved won't be filled, until I get the payment taken care of.


I am not going to do much, except get through school. For those that gave me encouragement, thanks, and keep the encouragement coming. For those that are haters, players, etc., keep hating...I have my life to live.

2/21/2005 7:47:59 AM
I reported to the school this morning to find a threatening letter on one of my email accounts. The person was so immature that he told me I am not a true dominant.

News Flash: Dominance IS NOT TOTAL FORCE OR WILL ON A SUBJECT...it is projecting your behavior to show someone that you are a strong individual. I lost relationships due to trust, lack of faith, and other issues. This individual claims to have DOZENS of submissives at his calling.

If this dom has all this at his command, he should have learned to use discretion. I admit...I have became accused of this many times, but the so-called dom that berated me displays this...and boasts it like he is god. Do correct me if I am wrong, but 'showing off' like this is not what a dom does.

I said in the last journal entry that certain other wanna-be doms, and jealous doms are high-fiving each other, and this deplorable behavior shows that there are people who ARE NOT using what they have learned, or are not thoroughly involved, or are not respectful of those in the BDSM lifestyle.

I have other things to focus on...and letting the games of an immature person that...in my humble opinion, is not really a dominant person, get under my skin is not one of them. I won't say names, because it is not my style to berate. I will say that he is an owner of a yahoo group...which I took the time to voice a complaint to Customer Service about. Knowing yahoo, they will delete the group...unless this person lost it already.

What goes around, comes around...as the saying goes.

2/18/2005 1:55:54 PM
With the many comments and support from some of the members, I have tried to focus on my schooling. Granted, the relationship is finished, the fakes and jealous players are high-fiving each other and plotting to break up another relationship. (Again, I get mad when thinking about it...GRRRRR!)

I will resort to waiting until that one contacts me. Just trying is not helping me...and will not divulge any info on this website. I will ask the prospecting sub to not divulge her info into journals, as the fakers will use my info to ruin the relationship.

2/11/2005 9:45:26 PM


Again, negative comments and needling from jealous members, and a small little mistake I made cost me to lose another relationship.



I grow tired of this, and will no longer deal with this website. In my heart, I don't feel that there ANY decent, sincere people.



Those that are sincere, are dissuaded by those who are jealous of the real to life doms.



Moreover, those that have been hardened by lack of trust from previous relationships will break it off due to one small mistake.



Collarme.com has gotten a lack of respect, and will no longer rely on their website. Too many "wanna-bes," "Fakers," and other losers have inundated the website.



If any woman IS serious, I DON'T SEE IT! For every sub woman on this site, there are five or ten Doms who claim to be their 'Dream' Master.



ENOUGH! I wash my hands of this site...there are others that do a better job, and I can join the BDSM munches, groups, etc. That is a BETTER choice than this bullshit site.


2/7/2005 8:42:16 AM
I am starting my process of getting back into school...and will not post in this journal except for things pertaining to school.

2/6/2005 8:12:34 AM
SUPER BOWL SUNDAY!!!!



Such a big day for Eagles and Patriot fans...and football fans worldwide. The big issue is the way people will enjoy this day.



My slave and I are spending the day keeping the children in line, and I will watch the game in the basement...with the two boys.



Being that I am a former Philly native, I will root for the Eagles...knowing that few, if not some underdogs, manage to do the impossible.

2/5/2005 7:12:29 AM
I gave my slave my first punishment, and she swooned over my stern voice.  I will be planning more tasks for my slave in the coming weeks.

 


2/2/2005 8:11:39 AM
I returned to Missouri late Monday night. My submissive has done what I asked, and more. With the delay that the bus had, she took it upon herself, and got the kids, and met me at the bus station.



I will warn those that travel...make sure you have FIVE TIMES the amount you travel with. (At least $4,000.00)





It is a big hassle, but I will recover from the fiasco the bus station incurred.

1/28/2005 7:56:42 AM
Today, I get on the bus to go back to Texas to get the rest of my things. I also have a couple of follow-up appointments, so this makes my getting my things more important.



I also quoted the round-trip cost, and will buy the next ticket, so that I can get the last checkup finished.



I wish that my sexy submissive could go, but her accident totalled the car, and the rental agency restricted her to within the state of Missouri.

1/27/2005 6:43:08 AM
Well, the laptop isn't working, but I am with my sexy submissive...and she is ALL THAT, AND A BAG OF CHIPS!!!

The trip had some twists, but I managed to get to her. She got into an accident, and will have to return to Texas to retrieve my things from the apartment.

I will NOT stay in Texas any longer...that state still has some issues, and also won't let former roommates ruin my life because of those issues. (Those with nosy, snotty, and greedy roommates should know where I'm coming from.)

1/24/2005 5:36:28 AM
The day I waited for is here... I have completed the clinical studies, and will be released soon. I will be in my sexy slave's arms, and she will be happy I am there.

Excitement is very high, and will be updating on my journey, should I get my laptop working.

1/23/2005 3:53:01 AM
The hellish day has arrived...

What I referred to is my blood draws. There are 11 collections that I must donate to the research study I am currently attending. IF I donate successfully, I will be able to complete the study.

I will be focused, and my sexy submissive has kept my focus with our talks. I know I'll get through this day...and her love for me helps.

1/21/2005 6:14:00 PM
My slave is head over heels in love with me, and I am VERY HAPPY she is.



I am also in love with her, and will devote my life to making her happy. I look at the submissive's inner soul, heart, manners, etc.



I don't pay attention to the outer surface of a submissive woman. IF she has the other features, and a sincere willingness to please, then she will have her masters' heart.



In a few days, I will be there in her arms, and she will be VERY HAPPY!!!

1/21/2005 1:26:18 PM
Today, I managed to copy the coded information on a yahoo group, and transferred it to a rich text format.

With this file, I also sent some videos, and other illustrations to show my slave what I will do to her and with her.

The poem she wrote to me has given me a very good feeling. She is THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME NOW!

1/20/2005 9:44:12 AM
My slave has impressed me more and more each day. I received a compliment from one of my fellow teammates in the clinical study...before they removed him. :(

I discovered that it was nothing of his doing, but the techs botched the procedures, and he will receive early compensation. Another downside is that the study has a "Narc" in their midst.

For the past few days, one of the members of another group has violated the regulations, and was caught. Now, he saw fit to squeal on others, and used me as an example. To be frank, I don't mess with the regulations involving the illegal use of a computer, or the 'hogging' of someone's time...but this individual felt that ruining someone's chances to get things done on the computer, JUST BECAUSE HE CAN'T CONTROL HIS URGES, AND STOP LOOKING AT PORN!!!

Only a few more days, and I'll be with my submissive slave...she wants me there, and I'll be there - no questions asked.

1/16/2005 8:08:27 PM
I got this from one of my yahoo groups, and will also post this in my journal.

These are the words of a Black Master on the definition of a M/s lifestyle. i think this explains things very clearly.

"An M/s (Master/slave) lifestyle is one of absolutes. One's role in life is precisely defined. Obligations and privileges are spelled out in unambiguous terms. Two people enter into a partnership where one will take the lead, and the other will follow in support. There are no vacations, no time outs, no reversal of positions. Laws and rights are irrelevant; no outside agency dictates how they will live. The structure of their lives together is based on the trust, and faith, each one has in the other.

A Master/Mistress leads. Not just when it's easy or fun. There are no breaks because they are tired. There are no open and closing times; it is a 24 hour per day occupation. They answer the sub/slave's questions, every one, every time. They will never hear the words "I don't care" because a Master/Mistress doesn't have that option. They will have an answer to everything, even if it's no better than "I have to think about it". If the sub/slave has a problem and asks them what to do, it becomes their problem. They do not pick and choose the ways they will be their Master/Mistress; it is all or nothing.

A submissive follows and supports. They serve their Master/Mistress because they trust their judgment. A sub/slave has a deep abiding faith in their Dominants leadership, a faith never shaken by the inevitable mistakes they make, for the submissive knows they are always motivated out of concern for them. Submissives know there must come a time in any disagreement when a Dominants word will be final. For the sake of harmony and peace in the home, someone must yield, and the submissive will be the one.

It is their task to build that place of refuge for the two of them, the island of quiet free from strife. Through submissive obedience to the Dominants ultimate authority, through their love and devotion to the Dominant they call their Master/Mistress, they create that oasis where the Dom/Domme can go to relax and be themselves, with their subs at their side.They are the rock of stability the sub depends on. Their security comes from the certainty the Dom/Domme will always be there no matter what happens.

They see the love, the desire, the need to own in the Dom/Dommes eyes, all telling them how important and valuable they are to them. They are the subs absolute, the one facet of their life that they can count on to be there when they need them. And the Dom/Domme will be there, for they are the treasure of the Dom/Domme's life. Their sub/slave gives meaning to everything they do, be it providing for them, guiding them through life's rocky moments, or just spending intimate moments together. The submissive is the half which completes the whole. Without them the Master/Mistress has no purpose, no home, no future. The sub/slave is their absolute, the one person they can trust to reveal their innermost self, the one they know they own, they control, the one who cannot leave them.

By any definition, those in an M/s relationship are extremists. They attempt, and succeed, at what most would consider an impossible undertaking. A timid cautious approach with halfway measures won't work. Success or failure hinges on the absolutes of keeping commitments, and mindsets, every minute of the day, in every way. Debates about whether the sub/slave should or should not submit to certain types of orders are counterproductive. Their focus is not on judging the merits of what their Dominant asks, but rather how best to accomplish what they seek. The sub/slave must use their skills and natural talent to understand the Dominants mind, how they think, what motivates them when they demand. The sub/slave looks not only at the letter of the Dom/Domme's law, but the spirit behind it.

A Master/Mistresses objective is not to lose sight of their sub/slave as someone with their own personality and opinions. Their job is not to stifle the sub/slave but encourage them to blossom within the boundaries a Master/Mistress draws around them.

A Dominant doesn't take away a submissives freedom, they give them the protected secure space to grow, free of outside distractions. The Dominant cherishes the person inside the submissive, using their power to command to draw that inner personality out, to break through the inhibitions and fears that hold them back. The Dominant does not use that power in a frivolous manner but with careful consideration. Were they to do otherwise, the submissives faith in them would be destroyed, and the Dominant would have no one to blame but themselves."

Those that are sincere and follow this know what I'm talking about.

1/15/2005 9:48:04 AM
My slave and I are so well connected, that it is scary for those that don't like seeing us happy. She is proving her loyalty by finding clinical studies near her.

1/14/2005 5:01:20 AM
Some people just don't get it:

When someone asks something to be done, they ignore it, put in their two cents, or do EVERYTHING to avoid the topic. (In this example, ruin the relationship between my submissive slave, and myself.

My slave has asked for emails to be forwarded to my email account here, but will ask you to send the replies to another email address.

This is a account that I routed spam messages to...so I'll read the messages there.

Here is the address, if you are so eager to vent, criticize, bitch, or for those that are well-wishers, give blessings: earllewis@charter.net

Now, I will kindly ask that any replies be sent there, so you can be heard, and if you threaten, belittle, etc., will be deleted like the rest of the spam email I get. (Those that praise, I'll share it with my sub.)

1/12/2005 5:02:44 PM
It appears that the wanna-be masters, players, and scammers are fed up, and playing other people. It is amazing when a person is single, they don't pay attention...yet, when they have a significant other, they come out of the 'woodwork.'

There is a saying: 'What goes around, comes around.' Things that the players and fakes do will come back to hurt them...and my current relationship is a good place to start.

The relationship is steadily and rapidly growing...and I remain totally happy with her, because she is giving me her mind, body, soul, heart, and loving spirit.

Her son has fallen ill, and the lone computer at the research facility has far too many people that use it. Granted there are those with working laptops, but that hardly alleviates the problem. I hope to be finished with the study, and be there to claim my slave. I try to keep praying, because without it, I don't go ANYWHERE!

1/12/2005 5:22:02 AM
Yesterday, my slave and I solidified our committment to each other. I ordered her to forward all replies to my email address, and she has given me control of her account.

That means that any Dominants or Dominatrices that are fakes will not get a chance to breakup this relationship. I learned from the past mistakes when dating someone.

For those that are players, scammers, and wannabes...the method of reaching and contacting people AFTER they have found someone is lame. YOU SHOULD HAVE CONTACTED THE PERSON BEFORE THE FACT!!!


1/11/2005 7:57:59 AM
With a smile, I convey my thoughts to you of the immense joy I am feeling. Only the Almighty Father in Heaven can change things for the good and the bad.

The sub I am claiming is 'head over heels' in love with me. (I will give a joke about the heels being over the head. LOL)

I am also planning to have a happy relationship with this woman...and will expect the opposing forces to boldly intervene. (Any tricks you have won't work.)

I will plan to collar my slave within 48 hours of my arrival, and she will wear it with the utmost pride, and happiness.

1/10/2005 9:08:13 AM
I can hardly wait until I am there with my submissive slave. I passed the first day of clinical research, and the doseage is very small. I expect to have VERY FEW problems, and two weeks from today, will have $1,500.00 to finance a trip. I may notify the instructors at my school about transferring my information to another school...even though they have few affiliates outside the Austin, TX area. I told my slave that even if it means starting from scratch, I would do it for her.

1/9/2005 9:45:13 PM
My first day back at the research facility. This time around, it will be EASIER...as I will be here for two weeks.

I wanted to mention that while we are on this site, we try to show submissives that we are dominant, as well as submissives convincing every Dominant that they are submissive.

What we fail to realize is that Our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ died on the cross for us. EVERYONE must submit to him, for HE IS ONE MASTER THAT IS DOMINANT OVER ALL!

Earlier, I pointed out a quoted chapter of the bible, and will not act like a preacher.

I will say that he answers prayers, so long as you are sincere.

1/9/2005 1:35:11 PM
I am in a VERY happy mood. During the past week, I have had sincere people, and players/playettes talk to me. For those that replied to me honestly, it is very appreciated. I will quote a verse from the Holy Bible...although the quote is from an International version: "Watch for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, yet inwardly, are ferocious wolves. By their fruit you will notice them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? Likewise, every good tree does bear good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree can't bear bad fruit, and a bad tree can't bear good fruit. Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down, and thrown into the fire. Thus, by their fruit will you recognize them." (Matthew 7:15-20) There is a moral to this: For those on this site that mislead, lie, cheat, etc., you are not being real. There is a submissive that I have met, who pledged her all to me, and because of her devotion, will take my profile off the market. She has shared her mind, body, soul, heart, and spirit with me...And is currently under my protection. I will travel to her to officially collar her in a couple of weeks. For those that replied to me, I offer my friendship. I do not seek any other submissives, as she is the one I seek.

1/7/2005 7:55:37 AM
The one I have talked to has been under the weather. She is 110% sincere, and wants me there. I will plan a trip to see her...if she is willing to plan it with me.

1/6/2005 12:23:03 PM
I don't know if my post this morning made it through, but I have had a good week.

Several women from Collarme, and yahoo have contacted me.

Some fakers...both Dom and sub, have given me grief. I don't know if people are serious or not.

I want to post what one of the subs I spoke with think about some people that hate Interracial relationships...especially white women dating Black men:

Black men seem to be more naturally predisposed to being dominant in a way that it is a part of them, not something that is put on which I found with a lot of white men.

Black men are more secure in their dark skin than white men are in theirs.

I know racism is on all levels...Black on white, and white on black. However I see racism to a larger degree with white against black...To my mind and this is just my thought. Racism comes about from insecurity.

Add to that mix, a white female declaring she likes black men to the point she isnt interested in white men and you just watch the white insecurity crawl out of the cavities of the woodwork.

On a more superficial physical level, I am physically attracted to black men, their dark skin, they are often taller, broader, stronger, very very much sexier, and they love their women thick LOL

The traits that are the most important to me, I
believe I find in 99% of black men, whereas I so
rarely find in white men.

I have lost a few friends along the way for
exclusively dating black men and for being vocal about my abhorrence for racism and for being owned by a black man. However I tend to think they were never my friends in the first place if they so shallowly judge me as a person for my interest in black men.

I have been called damaged, tainted, the Nword lover, and a whole plethoria of charming adjectives usually over the internet (little white boys with keyboards eh) :) I have had white men hit on me with "I have 10 inches like the Nwords" I have had a bunch of white men tell me I just need a white gang bang to convert me back to the "right white side" :(

I have found the main steam of abuse coming from white men over 40 and I have come to wonder if the basis of all racism isnt the jeaousy and insecurity over the "well hung" thing.

What do others think ?

Yes white men are well hung too. And black men are small or average too.

Otherwise why would they use words like "damaged"

I think white men think that after a female
experiences 10 inches she will never feel satisfied by an average white man.

Of course, I know this is not true, but I do think
this is part of the foundation of racism.

I would be very interested to hear from others, what they think.

Those that read or ignore what I just shared now have the knowledge. How you perceive it is your choice.

1/5/2005 8:57:40 AM
This year is proving to get better. The submissive I chatted with said she is under consideration. I am already considering her, but will take my time. I expect the 'wannabes,' 'haters,' and those that are JUST PLAIN GREEDY to try to discourage her. As a result, I know that she is reading my journals, and we email each other, and she is aware of those that are, 'wolves in sheeps' clothing.' It would be best if you stop, or simply wish people luck, as many of the legitimate Doms and other subs have done.

1/4/2005 5:59:06 PM
No sooner did I put my resolution to practice, when another submissive took it upon herself to respond. I didn't last an entire day before a lovely woman chatted with me. Whomever the Dom was that let her go is more dumber than I would have acted. (Yes, some doms are not very bright. LOL) I may retool my profile, depending on what she put in hers. It is now pending approval, and can't wait to see what she said.

1/4/2005 7:43:01 AM
Well, the new year has begun, and I will be sorry to say, the one I met was not the one. We did not have a connection, and the disappointment forced me to return down south. To make matters worse, I didn't have enough money for the entire trip. I paid for a one-way ticket up north, and had to pay for part of the trip back. The rest was put to an advance ticket, which meant that I had to wait an entire week in Memphis, Tennesse, before finishing the return trip. To make a long story short - my XMAS started out good, then went sour, QUICK! All the 'wanna-be' doms are high-fiving each other, and thanking their gods that things didn't work out. I look at this as a learning tool. It may not have worked out, but I SHOULD get credit for trying...many people don't credit others for that. I had little or NO access to any computers until I returned to Austin, TX. I wanted to post what I felt, and had no paper, pen, or an outlet. I am doing this from the top of my head. I also have a New Year's resolution, which I will expect to be tested, and if the right one comes along, force to break. I will not look for any submissive women for the time being, and just look on the site. If a woman IS genuinely interested, SHE will have to make the first move, and she will have to impress me 110%. (Easy to say, yet HARD to do.)

12/18/2004 3:58:19 PM
Today has been a tough day, but it is getting better. This morning, my blood draw ALMOST resulted in me getting booted out. Thankfully, the techs saw that it was a blood clot, and they redrew the amount. I have a full day of this on Monday... and there is a span of 12 samples of my blood to draw from me. It will be worth it, as I will meet the one submissive I have gotten to know. She is waiting patiently, and when I am there, will plan our next meeting. I thank those that give my future sub sound advice...and scorn those that cling to the hope that I am 'Fake,' and constantly voice their useless opinion. The submissive and I see this, and her words to those who are 'wanna-be' Doms to stop go unheeded. (Note the true Doms are those that give her sound advice, and don't bother and harass her.) I have been threatened by these Doms that are really "Wannabes." A true dom gives sound advice, and moves on. Although I blocked my email because of these so-called 'wannabe' doms, I will apologize to the fellow doms that email me with sound advice...the threats made against me were so pathetic, I had no choice but to block the emails. Take this to heart if you see someone that you like, and you want the others out of the picture...The best advice is to just give sound advice. Don't try to pressure someone into doing what they can't or set their mind against. I am meeting this woman halfway...That is the right thing to do, and leads to a PROPER relationship. I bet there are some doms that both agree, and disagree with me...but I'll leave that to your beliefs.

12/17/2004 11:57:43 AM
The sub I am dedicated to has updated her journal...and for those that are still trying to dissuade her from meeting me, that is not being a good dominant. Let this great poem be of education and inspiration to all of us who take our ownership and our being owned seriously. Let it bring strength to the hearts of those of you who want to honestly serve. Let it be a guide to us who seek to honestly and honorably own. A Master's Code Above all else he cherishes his slave, in the knowledge that the gift she gives him is the greatest gift of all. He is demanding and takes full advantage of the power given to him, but he knows how to share the pleasure that comes from the precious gift. He is in control of himself first and foremost, so that he may control others. As a stern and demanding Master, he can cause his slave to cry real tears. As the consummate lover, he will then kiss the tears away, without stepping out of character. In times of trouble, a Master will leave the roles behind, to be a supportive friend and partner, never forgetting that this is still a loving relationship between two caring individuals. He is quick to understand the difference between fantasy and reality. He would never ask a slave to put him before her career, or family just to satisfy his own pleasure. To win his slave's mind, body, spirit, soul and love, he knows he must win her trust. He will show his slave humour, kindness and warmth. He must always show her that his guidance and tutoring is knowledgeable and deserving of her attention, that this is a man she can learn from, and trust his direction. He is romantic enough to be protective and chivalrous. When called upon, he will fight for his lady's honour. He proves to her that he is someone she can lean on, and depend on. When it comes time to teach his slave her lessons of obedience, he is a strong and unyielding professor. He will accept no flaw, nothing less then perfection from his student. Never does he use discipline with out good reason. When he does it is always with knowledgeable and careful hand. He is always open to communication and discussion, always ready to hear her wants and needs. He is patient, taking time to learn her limits, and knowing that as her trust of him grows, so will they. He never has to demand ritual behaviour by her. She responds to him out of the want of pleasing him. Compliance comes from the wanting to please, not the fear of punishment. He understands the fragile nature of mind and body, and never violates the trust given to him. He is secure enough to laugh at himself and the absurdities of life. Open minded enough to learn new things. Strong enough to grow. His tools are mind, body, spirit, soul and love. He understands that each partner gains most from pleasuring the other. And both of them knows that the love and trust are the only bindings that truly hold. Author Unknown I will leave on this note...for now.

12/17/2004 5:31:11 AM
Instead of a poem, I will get into the XMAS spirit with a little message post. This was borrwed from another group, And I found it very funny. Perhaps you will enjoy this as well. Dear Friends, I have been watching you very closely to see if you have been good this year (well at times you have been very,very good. However at other times you have been much better) and since you have I will be telling My elves to make some goodies for Me to leave under your tree at Christmas. I was going to bring you all gifts from the 12 days of Christmas, but we had a little problem. The 12 fiddlers fiddling have all come down with VD from fiddling with the 10 ladies dancing. The 11 lords leaping have knocked up the 8 maids a-milking. The 9 pipers piping have been fired for doing weird things to the 7 swans a-swimming (they were told this was a limit!). The 6 geese a-laying, 4 calling birds, 3 French hens, 2 turtle doves and the partridge in a pear tree have me up to my sled runners in bird shit. On top of all this, Mrs. Claus is going through menopause and has hidden my floggers and favorite whip! 8 of my reindeer are in heat and Rudolph is on the run. The elves have joined the National Rifle Association (can elves go postal??????) And last but not least, some people who can't read a calendar have scheduled Christmas for the 5th of January! Maybe next year I will be able to get my shit together and bring you the things you want (chains, whips, clamps, etc.). This year I suggest you get your asses down to Dom/me Depot before everything is gone. Meanwhile, I will console myself by beating the lousy S.A.M.s who hid my five gold rings. It has been a really rough year for all of us. Your's in Red Leather, Santa Dom If I decide to, I'll post the poem. I am way too excited...I meet that special woman in under five days. (Actually...Three days, and a 'wake-up,' If I recall the phrase I used in the military.)

12/16/2004 4:21:23 PM
Things have been stressful here at the research clinic...and I ALMOST got booted. I am getting much closer to meeting this special woman, and have NEVER been this excited. I am counting my blessings that she is willing to meet me...despite others warning her to wait. Some people mean well, but their concerns should be for themselves...and not trying to get between two people that want to meet each other. (Those that give advice can do that...but don't tell someone what they can or can't do.) I wanted to post a poem on this site, but I will ait until the weekend. I am too excited to do a lot.

12/14/2004 4:01:41 AM
The day to meet is slowly drawing closer...and my excitement level is higher than it has ever been. Despite the slow computers, I have witnessed a couple of immature men get booted from a clinic that IS NOT A JAIL!!! I get paid for testing a certain drug, report the side effects, and at the end of the study, get compensated. I will appreciate the emails from those wishing me luck, although I blocked the emails of many male members. (There are some that are male, and lie that they are female.) What is not tolerated are insults, threats, and notes of ridicule. Go to a sports venue, or a concert, and heckle a celebrity...don't give someone you don't know your jealous gripe. I have three words..."No Haters Allowed!" For those that are Gay and Bi-sexual, I have a SEXUAL preference for straight and Bi-sexual women...but I do have a friendly preference for everyone. I typed the ad to inform about what I like SEXUALLY, and being trite (rude) gets the point across more times than being polite. Do excuse if it sounds discriminatory, and I don't mind having friends. Getting replies from a dozen gay men wanting to submit to me is not my thing.

12/14/2004 4:00:47 AM

12/13/2004 8:34:15 AM
It became an issue the past two days...an immature male came into the clinic, and he caused more hell than Paris Hilton in Miami. He harassed everyone, including me. While chatting online with the one I will meet in eight days, he blatantly reached over, and messed with the screen I worked on. His antics got on other's nerves...but the staff eventually took notice, and booted him from the studies an hour ago. They tried to keep him, but he proved to be a mismatch. We found out he tried to run the clinic as if it were the jail he previously was in. His behavior reminded me of some of the members here...pressuring, and scaring people. Again, stop the scare tactics, and the threatening emails are nonexistent, because I blocked them.

12/12/2004 4:53:42 AM
I used the pay phone in the facility for the first time, and got nervous when I talked to Lisa, the one I am soon to visit. There are those out there that may mean well with their 'fears' that I am not for real. For once, STOP TRYING TO SCARE the person I meet. I am 110% honest with her, and forcing doubt upon her is not worth the words, or the energy...which could be used to find someone else. I also have threatening emails from jealous men and female dommes blocked here, so if you think that trying to dissuade me will also work, think again. I have heard it all, including the threats of getting me kicked out of school. This is a BDSM site, granted...and it should stay that way. What I don't tolerate are racist, jealous skinheads, back-stabbing women, or any person that hates when someone is meeting someone that they themselves may use, mistreat, and dishonor. I finish with these four words: "STOP THE DAMNED HATING!!!"

12/10/2004 1:08:04 PM
Just as I got into the pattern they had set up for my group I had to adjust it yet again. But it isn't as good as another group. The subjects had the option to quit the study, finish the initial portion for the precribed amount, or extend their stay. The downside to the last option is that they can't do any further studies for six months, and report to the facility for eye examinatons. The total for that study was initially $5,000.00, but with the added amenities, will total $7,000.00 I was shocked, because I got into a group that was paying the most. I won't worry, because three of the 20 people agreed to take an extended stay. Things are not improving, save for my relationship with the one I will meet soon.

12/8/2004 5:30:39 AM
I am starting to focus more on the completion of the research study the medical facility began. Being a subject was NEVER this much fun...or stressful, if you have not done it. The one I am talking to is very anxious, as I am eager to be there to ravish her. I am doing all I can to get there, and it is a long process.

12/7/2004 6:57:39 AM
One week of my studies have completed, with a minor side effect. I am allowed to continue, but am mindful that one incident can cause me to be booted, with or without pay.

12/2/2004 8:23:01 AM
I noticed firsthand the downside of being in the studies before, but never something so dire that they had to disqualify someone int the study. I have 19 days in the study...it seems long, but if I keep busy, and email my one sub WHEN I have time, I will make the time seem faster than it is.

12/1/2004 10:26:50 AM
I am getting used to the research study. Since I passed the first doseage process, I have been relaxing, reporting my findings, playing pool, etc. (I am a RUSTY pool player, and only play for fun.) I will be here until December 21, 2004. Then, I will have a three-week XMAS/New Year's break. For those that assumed I was not sincere about meeting the sub I contacted, I had suffered some stressful issues, and now put them behind me. I will meet her once I get my three weeks off.

11/28/2004 10:35:57 AM
I have a bit of disturbing news to report...someone I am close to has gotten beat up by a COWARD of a man. This person is a beautiful woman, who has things going well for her. If it was another woman, it would not be an issue...REGARDLESS, when a man does the O.J. Simpson/Scott Peterson thing, it makes me sick. As a Black man, I am brought into a bad light when men abuse women. Bedroom settings, where the sex is good is an exception, (pulling a woman's hair, slapping her ass, etc.) but the rule stands firm regarding Domestic Violence upon women...especially in public. I am pissed off, because the man was Black, and he was a gutless coward to boot. The woman is someone I intend to meet, and have to pray that things go well in my medical studies, in order to travel to her. There is NO rationale for Domestic Violence, and it puts a bad taste in everyone's mouth.

11/27/2004 9:49:40 AM
Thanksgiving has finally passed us by, and I am glad that the holiday was brief. I am spending my two remaining days of this four-day weekend, window-shopping.

The one that has my heart is getting impatient...my plans to travel to her hinges on the medical study that I am entering to pay for the trip.

I will also bring a group of goodies. I will have to buy a ticket a day or two after I get let out for the XMAS break.

I report Monday Afternoon, and if I pass the qualifications, and first dosage, will be in the study. This is the only legal way to pay for school, place to live, etc.

11/22/2004 2:24:43 PM
I have already decided that the one sub I am talking to is the possible one I seek. Today, I am also updating my profile, since there are SOME people that don't get the message.

Of these responses, it is evident I am having replies from Trans-sexuals (T-Girls and T-Boys), Hermophradites, Submissive men, and Bi-Sexual/Gay men.

MY ACCOUNT IS ON HOLD!!! I don't mind you emailing to wish me luck, but I won't tolerate replies from Trans-sexuals (T-Girls and T-Boys), Hermophradites, Submissive men, and Bi-Sexual/Gay men. I DON'T FUCK MEN, PERIOD!!! (Can you say, "Dicks are for chicks?") I will update the profile immediately.

11/21/2004 10:30:54 AM
I told yahoo what to do with their policies, via their survey.  I am not happy with my account being de-activated, and will tell everyone I know to use yahoo sparingly.

All yahoo is doing is losing their customers, and trying to dump their free services. I have three groups that I can't get into, and it is fast becoming a hassle.

11/20/2004 7:42:45 AM
Today, I have had a confrontation with my roomies...they accused me of stealing food, when I am the one buying the food in the house.

This has gotten on my nerves, and I got out of the house. I anticipate that things will get much worse.

I am thoroughly resigned to the fact that yahoo refuses to re-activate my account, and the constant emails telling me to review the policies and rules becomes mors redundant. This incident has ruined all my business transactions, caused vital addresses and info to be lost, and other important items to also be gone...forever.

11/19/2004 4:34:45 PM
Things may be starting to get back on track...except for my yahoo account getting deactivated. the one sub I have been talking to is eager to meet me, and I feel the same way.

I have been accused by others that talked to her of being fake. I have NEVER been this sincere in my life...not since the time when I met my first wife. (She is a former 'vanilla' wife, who didn't understand any my fetishes, nor work to learn about them.)

On Monday, the research facility will schedule a physical, and I hope to pass, then get into the study, and get paid for helping science.

This is the ONLY way to get money to pay for my schooling, as well as all my travel arrangements.

11/18/2004 8:23:02 AM
It appears my worst thought just became confirmed...Yahoo has removed one of my groups, and deactivated my account. 24 hours have passed, and I did not get even a notification that it would be deactivated...they just did it.

I grow sick of companies like Yahoo, AOL, MSN, etc., that think people are just a bunch of numbers, and to give them free money. We pay or sign up for a service, and dammit, we expect the best service.

Since money is the topic...I will be losing a lot of money, patronage in my yahoo groups, etc., because someone at the yahoo headquarters thinks it is funny to deny someone access, and in return, keep their account open...just to tease them.

If I wanted this, I'd get a stripper.

11/17/2004 9:28:28 AM
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGHHHHH!

Yahoo has driven me up the wall. I come into school to log in, only to find that my yahoo account is deemed deactivated.

Constant attempts to contact them to resolve the matter have proved fruitless, and all my groups, addresses, etc., are possibly lost.

This is the WORST day of the week for me.

11/15/2004 1:27:55 PM
I found out that the study that I planned for was cancelled. I will try for one late November. Should this fail, my last option is to do a crime, and go to prison...since this is my last legal option left. Seriously though, things have been getting tougher, and I am not happy with them being this way.

11/13/2004 7:35:55 AM
Last night, I really got people pissed off at me. It started with the one I am soon to meet, and ended with my roommates returning from the bar...plastered.

The neighbors called the authorities when they got into a scuffle. They got arrested, and asked me to bail them out.

I learned a personal lesson...if you get into trouble, you are the only one to get out of it. When I told them I didn't have money, I got accused of not being there for them.

These are the same guys that leave me in jail, when I ask for help. I told them to sleep off their alcohol-induced high, and tell their story to the judge.

I woke up without the usual noise of pots and pans for the first time in weeks. But I still have not gotten a message to return for another study. I will return on Monday, and demand that I get put in another study.

11/11/2004 9:28:38 AM
I went to PPD, and was told that I have to wait until the Sponsor puts me back into the active database, before I try for the next study on November 16th.

11/10/2004 6:31:03 PM
ARRRRRRGH! Today, I have been booted from medical research participation. The last study I did had a conflicting window, and the doctor had NO OPTION, but to reject me. I hope to go to one that starts November 16.

11/8/2004 10:42:22 AM
I had a bevy of things to do last night, and the arrival of my new laptop added to that list. It came to me with a depleted battery, no power cord, and no operating system.

11/7/2004 2:02:36 PM
I have found a very attractive and sexy sub. I will plan to visit her early next year, and given our mutual attraction, hope to relocate and be with her.

Note to any subs that reply: I will put my account on hold...she takes high priority, and feel that she is the one sub I seek.

11/3/2004 12:08:00 PM
A quote from Digby Jones, director general of the Confederation of British Industry (CBI), upon hearing that Bush was re-elected to a second term:

"I really do hope that President Bush will now rise above that (protectionalism) and set an example of free trade around the world showing he understands that globalization does not mean Americanization."

We are forcing our views upon other nations, when weshould be letting them govern themselves. Even I know that forcing something upon an UNWILLING subject will cause them to rebel.

What we enjoy on this site is MUTUALLY AGGREED UPON, but some people don't take 'no,' for an answer.

I read each profile, and abide by their wishes, but I give food for thought: (I want them to think, "What if this O/one is the Dom of my dreams?")

As a Black Dominant, I have been involved in the lifestyle for 12 years...some of the time notinvolving that was devoted to school, family, etc.

Upon my divorce, my former wife began to denounce my lifestyle, mainly because she did not like it, and that her trying to 'change' me to someone of her liking, did nothing to satisfy her desire. (She felt that the lifestyle was violent.)

I have learned that there are choices you make, and what you decide can benefit you, or hurt you. I had many white subs who would be EXCELLENT slaves and partners, choose someone else, only to find out that they lied.

Things like that put Dominant men like myself in a bad light, and make our task of proving our case to be for real much harder. (As an example, even with my proof, they still chose someone, who actually lied about being single, when they are actually married.)

11/3/2004 11:47:32 AM
Election day is over with...THANK GOD!!!

But my heart is not happy at all...We re-elected someone on his promises
of security. Remember this message, should George Bush renege on his
promises (Which he will):

We will have another four years of misery, international distrust and
hatred, terrorist attacks, unemployment beyond what happened during
the great depression, more people going homeless and hungry, and more wars to be fought against countries like North Korea, for example.

I initially supported getting rid of Saddam Hussein, but we should have
finished getting Osama bin Laden FIRST AND FOREMOST!!! (Note that the hunt for Public Enemy #1 was 'put off' to fight a war in Iraq, when
we should have waited for 110% reliable proof of WMD to validate the reason.) We got Hussein, but bin Laden is still out there.

Family values may be one issue, but EVERY politician touts that.
Granted, Bush should finish what he started involving Iraq, but looking at his track record, it appears 90% certain that he will bankrupt this country in his further attempts to do so.

Finally, his tax cuts will hurt us more...No jobs are being created, and if they are, will be outsourced as quickly as they start.

For those that voted for George Bush, and believed his 'Freeze-dried Bullshit,' don't scapegoat anyone...(I.E.: blame any bad events on a certain population, religion, etc.) You voted for George Bush, so YOU will take the full blame.

If you voted for Kerry, we tried to make a change...now all we have left is to pray to the almighty to watch over us. (Those who are not religious should just hold out for hope.)

11/1/2004 6:32:46 PM
I have had some responses, and will be resigned to the fact that the one I seek WILL NOT BE FOUND!!!

I have focused on the things I need to get back on my feet...my computer certification, which is 15% complete, getting a stable home or apartment, a reliable vehicle, and gainful employment. (I HATE being without a job.)

Right now, the lack of a legal birth certificate, insurance, etc. has hindered my forward progress. Any attempt to better myself is confronted with jealousy, resentment, and frustration on my behalf.

I came too far to let negativity get the better of me...since I returned to the BDSM scene, I have been resolute in my choices. This time, I WILL find the sub/slave that cherishes me. I became obsessed with white and asian subs since I was stationed in Hawaii...and has become a HUGE fetish, which I will not give up.

11/1/2004 11:42:39 AM
November 1, 2004:

The day before Election Day brings with it a lull in my life...I got through the first certification course, but will plan to take some time off to save money for the next course. I hope that we get this country back on it's feet.

If G.W. Bush is re-elected, we won't have a country...that is a fact. Providing security is one thing, but WE NEED JOBS TO PAY FOR THAT SECURITY!!!

My being divorced may sound like a blessing, but it is equally a curse. It has been over two years since I last saw my children, and my growing obsession with BDSM has led me to Austin, TX.

I am still of the opinion that I won't find a submissive and eager white or asian woman to call my own.

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thislittlemomma
 
 Submissive, Age:  21
 Jacksonville, Florida
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