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| I am new to this so please bear with me: I have recently found out that there is a huge void in my life. Everything I believed I knew was wrong. I have found that deep down where words can not convey, there are feelings I need fulfilled. I have always been intense, and extreme in everything I have done. So in doing research on this read things like "Safe" word etc. I do not want one from my side.
I want to voluntarily surrender to this "Special" Lady whom will understand my writing, and hopefully will read in it what She needs. I would need her to train me in all area's, which would please her in ways before unknown. To me for sure, and for her possibly, as I have no limits other than pain & death !!
There would have to be an element of Love in this, or what is the purpose ? Although, I am open to anything just to fulfill this ache in my heart/soul !! She would have exquisite nail's, and would want to train me in how to do them for her. She would also want demand many other things from me i.e. shaving her legs, using me as a chair, using my face as a pillow for her feet. Preparing her meals, doing her laundry, and so many other things fill my mind...
She would "Need" me enough to keep me prisoner if necessary, as in the movie "Misery" but without the pain. In fact, being kept against my will would be a huge part of fulfilling this ache. It wouldn't have to be real, but at least pretending would complete the illusion !!
She would have a collar & leash for me, and wearing it would not be optional. She would use it to lead me around, or just hold while I am sitting at her feet. I would be her personal body pillow if her legs needed it, and I will quit here. There is so much I don't know, but am willing to find out. However, I am a quick study, and willing to learn !!
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