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Belovedel

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"I can believe things that are true and things that aren't true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they're true or not.

I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and the Beatles and Marilyn Monroe and Elvis and Mister Ed. Listen - I believe that people are perfectable, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkled lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women.

I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone's ass. I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline in good sex in America is coincident with the decline in drive-in movie theaters from state to state.

I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative. I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to dissolve into madness and alligators and toxic waste.

I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we'll all be wiped out by the common cold like martians in War of the Worlds.

I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, and that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman.

I believe that mankind's destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it's aerodynamically impossible for a bumble bee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there's a cat in a box somewhere who's alive and dead at the same time (although if they don't ever open the box to feed it it'll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself.

I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn't even know that I'm alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck.

I believe that anyone who says sex is overrated just hasn't done it properly. I believe that anyone who claims to know what's going on will lie about the little things too.

I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman's right to choose, a baby's right to live, that while all human life is sacred there's nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system.

I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you're alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it."
— Neil Gaiman (American Gods)

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 Belovedel

 Female Switch

 Rockford 

 Illinois

 5' 7"

 24

 Lesbian

 Caucasian

 10/26/10

 10/13/12

Actively Seeking:

Friends Only

 Lives For:

 Going to the Opera

 Musical Theater

 Loves:

 Art Galleries

 Movies

 Museums

 Climbing

 Dancing

 Hiking

 Blindfolds

 Bondage

 Breast Play

 Wax play (Beginner)

 Horror Movies

 Body Art

 Photography

 Tattoos

 Nutrition

 Poetry

 Writing

 Swimming

 Tennis

 Volleyball

 Likes:

 Bicycling

 Camping

 Martial Arts (Beginner)

 Yoga

 Collars

 Gags

 Hair Pulling

 Knife Play

 Outdoor Bondage (Beginner)

 Tickling

 Vibrators

 Aromatherapy

 Drawing

 Painting

 Female Supremacy

 Wrestling

 Curious About:

 Aerobics

 Sailing

 Tai-Chi

 Anal Play

 Hypnosis

 Public Play

 Suspension

 Whips

 Dislikes:

 Foot Worship

 Puzzle Games

 Hates:

 Fisting

 Mathematics

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Journal Entries:
5/2/2011 6:58:25 PM

THERE

I’m loud as hell, and barely there!You have me screaming your name, through the dark of my solitude. My body trembles with the thought of my mouth being filled by your fingers.I can feel this heat growing till I’m burning inside.  This fire is consuming my flesh.I’m louder, Louder, LOUDER still. You have me feeling everything that I am. This desire I feel for you is driving me insane…And I’m barely there!I can pretend you are all around me, guiding my dancing shell.,Giving me the beat…The beat to move to.Don’t stop this music, don’t stop this beat.I’m but an instrument in your hands.An instrument, screeching its tune. And I’m barely there! I’m gasping for breath and blowing out pleasuring sounds.Your lyrics soaring…In and Out, In and Out Your eyes upon me,Up and Down, Up And DownAnd I’m….!This power I feel is so close upon release. You have me screaming your name at the top of my lungs.The fire escaping through each reaching gasp.I’m grasping at parts… I’m grasping…at your hands to lead them in further.Leading them to the burning puddles betweenI’m….My blood boiling over, Your name being heard by everyone around…Though they don't see what I see. ….I’m…My heart pounding In my chest, slowing…My mouth gasping for air..My fire, slowly...Slowing as your existence fades…I’m fucking there!


4/16/2011 10:21:20 PM

"I think I fell in love with her, a little bit. Isn't that dumb? But it was like I knew her. Like she was my oldest, dearest friend. The kind of person you can tell anything to, no matter how bad, and they'll still love you, because they know you. I wanted to go with her. I wanted her to notice me. And then she stopped walking. Under the moon, she stopped. And looked at us. She looked at me. Maybe she was trying to tell me something; I don't know. She probably didn't even know I was there. But I'll always love her. All my life." -Neil Gaiman


3/6/2011 11:59:36 AM


I'm screaming this loudly,And you better hear it from where you are.You've wanted something posed for you,You better hear me. I don't need to start from the beginning,You know my past.You know why I shy away,You know why I hate.You placed armor on, and said pleasing things. You made me feel safe. You made me feel like I could trust YOUR kind. You saw my bed, you held me in a world of comfort. Well Prince, that bubble has popped.You tell me now you lost trust in me, over something you knew I would never do.My world of us came crashing down.Fires began in my eyes, and the narrower they becameafter each blow to my chest. You tell me you lost trust in me?Where is my trust for you, knowing you had evil brewing in your head. Telling me I've done wrong by stating small fantasy's. Never of us, but as in jest over small peon's, and possible memoribilia. But you,You blew them up in your sick thought of us. I can't trust those arms around me now. They will become ice, They will become hard.How long will it take for that warmth to come back? You are no different from YOUR kind. You lied to me. You pretended like you were.My walls are up, Prince.I am now that Wicked Witch, holding captivea small and delicate Princess. If you dare climb,Be farwarned...The thorns will cut, Words may sting. Do not tell me you lost trust, and notexpect the same back.


2/26/2011 12:28:23 PM

I can see I'm dreaming again. And it's you...

Were standing in a living room. I grin from the look on your face. The look in your eyes. The marks on my body, I feel them... I love them. Just a slight memory of what happened. I want more.

Theres but one change, and I like it. Your the one under my hand. Just for a moment, you let me. You let me...

I sit myself down on your couch and your the one over my knee. Your hair covering your face. My left hand around your mouth and my right, sending blow after blow on that wonderful ass of yours. So wonderful you feel underneath me. Though I dare not do it hard. I just beged to feel you. Know you. My hand tingled with every smack. I could feel the heat. I could feel you tense. I could only imagine what was going through your head.

Though that turn you gave me was taken away only to soon. For you had me on your lap in seconds. Oh I had just a taste. My hands still felt you. Your skin. I bit my lip till I bled... Till I woke up.

It's sad that this was but a dream. My body wanted what my dream had given me. You are constantly what I dream about. I crave everthing that you had given me. Though it was brief...It was heaven for me.

I wish to dream again, and again. But the dreams are only a tease... I want the real thing... I want you...


2/10/2011 6:43:43 PM

 

I'm standing on her street again. I fnd myself here from time to time. The wind chill is almost to much to bear. But I get easly distracted. There... The kitchen light is on and if I inch forward I can hear the radio. She's soon seen standing there. Staring out at something. Though it's not me that she sees. I wonder what she's thinking as those moments pass by. How do I let her know I'm here thinking of her? I'm here...

One particular night I remember so well. I'm standing where she is now, her body pressed up against my back. Her fingers trailing my skin. Her smell, oh I will never forget the way se smelled. Intoxacated me. It was unearthly.

The time, that night I remember drew on forever. So slow everything felt. It didn't help that she was drugging me. I swear it was she who had controll over time.

My body was heavy from her influence, and her's was light as a feather. Pushing up against eachother, I was afraid she would float away. Though she moved in an encanting dance as if to reasure me she wouldn't.

I don't remember how, but our clothes found the floor,and time froze us in place. Our

lips locked. Our bodies entangled. Our hands ad fingers in wonderous places.

Her taste was like no other. Compaired to a forbidden fruit, but in reach. Her drug going deeper through my being. Bringing me into a state of excasty. Her taste would throw me over the edge, over and over again.

Her body hummed as I brought her down with me. We filled the frozen time stream with  unrehearshed music. We drowned eachoter out. I don't know how but we slipped through time again and again till everything seemed to catch up to us.

Ticking, a ticking noise became aware to me. Time had started again. I knew at that moment, we were one. We gained controll of time. And we would strive to do it again. I would lose myself to her, as she to me. We were the time keepers.

I blink, and there I see her smile. Did she just join me in that time rift? Dos she know she still holds that power between us?

With my distace I supose I will never know. She'll remove herself from te kitchen and everything will turn dark. I'll stand here for a bit longer to imagine myself following her where ever she may be going. My imaginaton will fly in every which way untill the bitter winds hit me once again. I will retreat again for now. But I'll be back to love you once again.


2/4/2011 4:45:18 PM

They inch further down.

I breath in and out...

IN and OUT.

There they go, with

 

a destination.

My mind frantic,

wrapped around you.

I can't let you go.

In and out...in and out....

You consume me.

There you are setting me on fire.

Here I am feeling you everywhere.

IN and OUT

My chest becomes heavy.

Don't let me stop feeling you.

Let my body burn in your fire.

Don't let me stop....

Let me explode!

IN and OUT

I'm set aflame...

I'm set free.

IN and OUT

There you are...

My mind's letting you go.

Though I shudder...

You tease...

I can't let you go

IN and OUT

The Fire remains...

My body forever on fire.

Don't let me stop....

IN and OUT....

in and out...

in and in and in....


1/30/2011 7:11:06 PM

Magnetic Poetry

 

 

EXCITE

turn you on

make my whisper explode

please goddess

lets melt together

make me trickle through secret devices

entering a womans world

fill my petal

make us come as one

let my fire bloom

feel this puddle

cover this flower

late through the dawn

curling into day

 

 

 

MELT

she melt

and her need

amuse my will

promise her tongue

long after

 morning explore

 

 

NEW

another new day

discover who could

speak difference between

love and desire


1/26/2011 8:33:35 AM

Magnetic Poetry

On the summer shore a

woman writes about love

that she dreams about

vividly and loudly

Through the paragraph

her story will grow more

with romance.

Every sentence would be an escape

This novel immensely illustrated.

 

Beneath her I search

for a face and smile

inspired I investigate beneath

wander I will between this woman

wet she is

her mouth wild with words

 

How hot her

dandelion grows

The shiver thundering through me

 

My beautiful woman freezes from freedom

A song I long for

As our love streams like a spring

I inhale her

in as if she was smoke

Whispering light only to understand

some wisdom sound

We listen fully

as the day darkend

Evening smell in the rain

And how loud we were

I tell you

That would go on through

the night.


1/11/2011 11:29:34 AM

To explore one's self day by day is a journey by it'self.

To explore yourself with another is like finding everything.

To know yourself because of someone else's actions...

To realize who you are because you are there... Their there... 

To stop and find yourself standing there alone is like freezing.

To lose a path is like losing yourself....

To lose sight of the other person is like feeling around in the dark. 

To stumble...

To be confused....

To become frustrated, and angry...


To explore one's self day by day is a journey by it'self.

To do it alone, One must, if that shall be the way. 

To continue down another path and leave the other behind.

To look back time and time again...
To know...One can find the path again.  One will not travel too far...

To know the feeling of such light will bring only want and hope.

To know... 

To know yourself because of such paths you take and yearn for...

To listen to yourself and know how to feel out the darkness...

To know patience from oneself and others...

To know the journey will be long and hard. 

To know yourself is the only way to live...


To explore one's self day by day is a journey by it'self

To hope another will join you again.

To teach you....

To learn from you...

To know who they are...

To know who you are...

To explore together, is a journey worth waiting for. 


12/17/2010 9:43:27 PM
Until The End 

So clever,
Whatever,
I'm done with these endeavors.
Alone I walk the winding way.
(Here I stay)
It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing stronger.
I'll live to die another day,
Until I fade away.

[Chorus:]
Why give up, why give in?
It's not enough, it never is.
So I will go on until the end.
We've become desolate.
It's not enough, it never is.
But I will go on until the end.

Surround me,
It's easy
To fall apart completely.
I feel you creeping up again.
(In my head)

It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing colder.
I knew this day would come to end,
So let this life begin.

[Chorus]

I've lost my way.
I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.

Living is hard enough
Without you fucking up.

[Chorus]

I've lost my way.
I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.

U-uh, u-uh

The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
But I will go on until the end.
-Breaking Benjamin

12/13/2010 9:51:02 PM
Nothingness
Tick- Tock, Tick- Tock
Time slows down,
Yet the clock ticks on.
A whisper rings through the air,
as another hour passes.
I lay here feeling something
upon me.
Shadows in the corners 
of my eye,
*sigh*
Even before sleep she haunts me...
Her ice cold fingers creeping 
upon my flesh.
The beating of my heart
slowing. 
She's here for this...
She's to torture me...
I shall not sleep,
I shall not dream.
She'll hold me to her breast
like a babe to it's mother.
Filling me with sweet nothingness.
*sigh*
I surrender to her once again. 
She'll hold me closer
for she's my true love.
Her nectar...
Finding it's way through
my veins.
I dare not stop.
She is all I have.
I'll lay here awake
in her arms.
Till she releases into 
me once more.

12/12/2010 12:18:49 PM
The world was on fire 
No one could save me but you. 
Strange what desire will make foolish people do 
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you 
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you 

No, I don't want to fall in love 
[This love is only gonna break your heart] 
No, I don't want to fall in love 
[This love is only gonna break your heart] 
With you 
With you 

What a wicked game you play 
To make me feel this way 
What a wicked thing to do 
To let me dream of you 
What a wicked thing to say 
You never felt this way 
What a wicked thing to do 
To make me dream of you 
v And I don't wanna fall in love 
[This love is only gonna break your heart] 
And I don't want to fall in love 
[This love is only gonna break your heart] 

{World was on fire 
No one could save me but you 
Strange what desire will make foolish people do 
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you 
I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you 

No I don't wanna fall in love 
[This love is only gonna break your heart 
No I don't wanna fall in love 
[This love is only gonna break your heart] 
With you 
With you 

Nobody loves no one 
-Chris Isaak; Wicked Game

12/3/2010 3:02:37 PM
The reflections in the window
bring me back to wonderful days.
The snow in the background,
The warmth of the fire.
The look in your eyes...
You smelled like this wonderland
I have created for us.
As long as I return here,
Forever you'll enter my veins.
Pumping yourself through out
my entire existence.
Shadows danced across
your face,
Sharing stories with 
your eyes.
Our bodies danced in the shadows,
while hands roamed,
and laughter escaped our lips.
Silence!
Besides our bodies against
each other. 
My body hot from your touch
Your body responding.
Our breathing echoing
through my ears.
I so wished that we could 
be trapped in that moment forever. 
Romantic.... Seductive...
Your lips tasted of pure pleasure.
My lips quivered for more.
I trapped us here...
in this space.
Forever we'll stay romantic lovers.
In a world full of wanted bliss.
Bring me back sweet memories.
Return to my arms where you belong.
Covered with dancing shadows
from my never ending memory. 


12/3/2010 2:53:14 PM
TEETH
I can see the glow of candle light.
It climbs the walls around me..
A sense of peace before the lick of her blade.
The sound of it caressing my skin...
Tasting it.
My blood boils with excitement. 
My body forced to sweat it out.
The teeth...
Dangerous.
I dare not move
I dare not breath. 
"Harder" is what I want to scream.
Make me sweat.
Make me feel your teeth.
My body will sigh...
If you listen, it will beg for you.
A slut I will become...
Just for the sensation.
Her teeth are sharp,
a warning.
A tease as they continue
to graze my flesh. 
"Harder"
I beg of you.
Show me your teeth.
Rip into this virgin flesh.
Spill the offering I'm about to give. 
Soak everything around me...
Crimson Red

11/29/2010 12:12:17 PM
ABRAHAM 
Do you bite your thumb at us, sir?

SAMPSON 
I do bite my thumb, sir.

ABRAHAM 
Do you bite your thumb at us, sir?

SAMPSON 
[Aside to GREGORY] Is the law of our side, if I say
ay?

GREGORY 
No.

SAMPSON 
No, sir, I do not bite my thumb at you, sir, but I
bite my thumb, sir.

GREGORY 
Do you quarrel, sir?

ABRAHAM 
Quarrel sir! no, sir.

SAMPSON 
If you do, sir, I am for you: I serve as good a man as you.

11/16/2010 10:01:28 PM

REFELECTION

 

Her eyes pierce my soul

Her hands, touching me….

            Ripping me apart.

A sick smile appears in the dark.

Her laughter rings through my veins.

            I know her, and she knows me.

Her demented smile …. Proof enough.

She speaks to me quite loudly.

No matter how I try to let her scream

            ….She stops me.

“Wait” She tells me…

“Wait for me”

            Her words are like fire,

Burning away the flesh….

Something warm I fell,

Her smile fades.

            I realize I’m covered in her blood

The taste is familiar.

My hands reach my mouth…

Little by little the fire fades

My flesh becomes cold.

 Her eyes shrink away and no longer can I find her.

A sick smile spreads…

The blood still warm from the corners of my lips.

“ I know your there”

Are the words I whisper?

My laughter shattering the glass.

I feel her like none other…

She belongs to me as I belong to her.

Though she’s slipping away…

She 2ill call to me again.

I still feel her presence.

The taste of her will always

Linger.

 



11/16/2010 10:00:35 PM

PAINT

 

Child this room is for you.

Do with it as you will.

Paint the walls red with his blood….

Shake the walls down.

I’ve made you into something more

Can you pretend this was all for you?

Pretend everything was made just for you…

This room…

This Scene.

Everything is for you…

Pretend everything is all right.

            The walls…

They will drip.

The smell will burn your senses.

But just remember…

            He asked for this!

Tear his flesh apart.

Eat his heart raw…

Make him see how perfect you really are.

            There are no flaws in you child.

Show him with that glimmer in your eye…

Show him with that knife..  

That will spill his blood.

            You will forever be perfect in his eyes…

He will be forever stained on your walls…

Forever…

 


11/13/2010 12:40:05 PM

An Angel from my nightmare


has finally woken me.


A Dream in which there was nothing. 


Nothing that had put me to sleep. 


Fully awake I feel her.


Her eyes upon me. Her fingers grazing my body.


Listen to my soul whisper dangerously.


A sound that wants to break free.


I'll sing it back to you... Until I fall back asleep. 


My tongue dances behind my lips,


My sight taken from me,


but still in search of you.


A strike of lightening across my flesh...


A lick of fire from your touch.


Tell me how you enjoy watching me.


Struggling...Dancing from thoughts in my head.


My Angel, She laughs.


That alone a haunting melody that I will crave for.


A bite of my lip stops me from crying out...


MORE! 


These restraints, I pray hold me here 


forever.


Make this last forever...


My soul is screaming as I melt from her heat.


 Her Golden Touch,


drugging my veins.


Please my Angel in disquise...


Let the lightening strike again!


Give reason to this gasp that's 


begging to be released.  


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