Last night I had this weird rape dream I've been having on and off for a few weeks now.

It starts off at a club with a few of my other bimbo friends and then we all go back to some random house for an after party and we're all drinking and its super fun. Then I see this guy from across the room who is just staring at me. I ask my bestie if she noticed the guy and she said yeah he's been looking at you since we got to the club.

Guys usually stare at me anyway because I dress like a bimbo so I assumed he was just admiring what he saw and I went back to drinking and partying and having fun. Sometime towards the end of the night I left my fellow bimbos and went to go to the restroom and as I was coming out I ran into someone. I tried to say sorry and walk away but they grabbed me really hard by the arm and pulled me down the hallway and into a room before locking the door. 

It was the guy from the club and he started telling me about how he was watching me since I was in high school and he enjoyed watching me turn into a bimbo slut. Then he forced me on the bed an tore my dress off. I wanted to scream or say stop but I was so scared I didn't say anything. He told me he was going to try to make me cum and if I didn't he would let me go but if I did he would rape me. 

Then he ripped my pink gstring off and plunged two fingers into me and they felt amazing, I was scared and crying and trying to fight him off when he started licking my clit and forcing his fingers deeper. Even thought I tried not to I came, squirting all over his hand with my dripping pussy, he laughed at me and I felt embarrassed and ashamed and even though I was naked I tried to run for the door but he grabbed me by the back of my neck and threw me on the bed and said a deals a deal. 

I curled up on the bed shaking and scared and he unzipped his pants and pulled out his hard cock and told me to open my legs and stop crying.

Then I woke up! I've been having this dream so much lately you guys!

So Um hi it's Kimmi again!

I always forget to type stuff here but oh well I guess!

The other day a friend of mine told me I was a brat which I thought "oh well I've been a brat since I knew how to speak" but he said its a little different the bdsm world and being a spoiled brat.

He said I act entitled to things like I deserve certain stuff without behaving or being a sweet bimbo barbie doll to get them.

Example #1 - We went shopping for make up and clothes and I picked a bunch of stuff because he said he'd buy it all. I took everything to the counter and he said I stepped back to let him pay and grabbed my bags and walked off without saying thank you or giving him a cheek kiss which is not a nice bimbo thing to do when someone spends $400 on you.

Example #2 - Later on after more shopping he suggested I change my clothes before we went to a restaurant and he said he had to tell me 4 times before I did as told! I had to change because what I had on was inappropriate for the dinner we were going to.

Example #3 - At dinner I said I wanted to pick what to eat but I took too long deciding and spoke directly to the server instead of him when I ordered and he said I'm not allowed to order food anymore and I have to tell him what I want because men should always be in charge of me, which i like the more i think about it!

Anyways when he took me home he lectured me about knowing my place when in the presence of men which sounds fine because I like being told what to do. He said he wanted to spank me as soon as we left the restaurant but I don't belong to him so instead he made me beg for the gifts he bought for me before handing them over. 

SO now not only do I have to find a Sir for myself, I need to find one who can put up with training a brat!

This is my first one of these like ever! You can call me Kimmi by the way!

 I'm feeling a little discouraged kinda about this to be honest and it's putting me in a sad bimbo mood when I'm usually totally like perky!

Like I don't know I thought it would be easy to find a Dom who wants to train me to make a better bimbo barbie out of me but it's taking like wayy longer than I though ;( 

I totally get tons of messages a day from all over the whole world but almost all of them just want me for sex or for sexy pictures. If they were actually training me and I was their bimbo barbie that would be fine, but I'm not just here for like sex I wanna be a barbie too.

Other girls tell me they found there Sir or Master or Dom in weeks or less than a month but it totally feels like it's taking me forever to find mine! There are a few guys that sound perf and 1 I think I could let own me but waiting to get the perfect Sir is taking super long!

I think it will be totally worth it in the end though you know ;) 

I'm going to sleep now because I have a nail appointment early to get neon pink polish!

Nightie night!

♥Kimmi♥