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I had to remove photos due to privacy issues. If I get to know you and deem you trustworthy, I will be willing to show pictures and prove my identity. I apologize for the inconvenience.
First off, I will let you know that I am brand new to this lifestyle. I have always had a dominant personality, but I have just recently learned of the beautiful complexity of the BDSM culture. I, like many, was under the impression that BDSM was just a way to to spice up bedroom play with whips and chains. Damn, was I wrong. I have spent weeks in front of this computer screen reading everything I can find to educate myself on this lifestyle, and I finally feel like I am beginning to hone in on my rightful place in this lifestyle. I realize that I will never stop growing in this life and I'm here to learn what I can and to meet like-minded individuals to become friends with and to grow in the lifestyle with.
I grew up in a 1950's style household. My father worked to put a roof over our heads and, in turn, he was rewarded with a hot meal that was ready when he got home and a clean house - the benefits of my mother's care and devotion. From that, I learned the basics of a D/s interaction. Eventually, that spilled over into my sex life, and now into my choice of lifestyle. I don't know where the darker side of my desires (sadism, etc) came from, but it has become intertwined with who I am.
Some basics: I graduated with a B.S. in Biology concentrated in the cellular and molecular disciplines in May of 2011. I am currently seeking acceptance to medical school. After the CNA course, I will be working as a CNA until medical school. I love fine dining, but can't afford to go out to those restaurants, so I love cooking to be able to offer that experience to myself and my friends. I have eclectic musical tastes - classical, jazz, blues, country, metal, hardcore, and various electronic styles such as psytrance, dubstep, gabber, and hard house. I love movies of all styles and I am somewhat of a gamer.
I am an intellectual. I analyze everything and that analytical nature causes everything, including my heart, to follow my mind. I mentally organize everything - everything has its logical place in my head (which is part of why I have spent so much time learning about BDSM - there is so much to learn).
I lean towards being a sapiosexual. I will not be attracted to someone if I can not hold a decently intellectual conversation with them. Even my friendships need a decent level of intellectual stimulus. I am a social butterfly, however, and I need intellect to be tempered with social graces.
I believe in polyamory. As an analytical person, I can be attracted to, like, and love more than one person. Those that have gained my interest or affection have done so of their own accord and as a result of their own individual characteristics. No one relationship diminishes another since each is self-contained in its logical place in my head.
I am fairly shallow. Without physical attraction, all else fails. This is not to say that I expect a woman to be a size 0. I am realistic. I know that most women aren't twig skinny - plus, I tend to like some meat on my women.
I am a cynical optimist. I believe that the good will prevail, but I have also seen that this is not always the case. My cynicism comes from realism. One example of this is that I am a hopeless romantic.
I believe that accepting this lifestyle is the only option when being true to oneself. Humans are social (pack) animals. All pack animals have alpha individuals and others submit to the alpha. Humans also have individuals that are naturally dominant and others will submit to those individuals. Being open to the kinks of BDSM removes the stigma of social constraints. These constraints are not natural to any other species of animal, so why are they natural to humans?
If you have read this far, then you might actually be worth talking to. I am hoping to meet all forms of kinksters, as I believe that I can learn from all experiences and personalities. I am looking for my submissive, or maybe even my slave. I don't expect you to submit or call me Sir just because my profile says I am a Dominant. At first, your submission will be your gift to me, if you see fit from your submissive nature. As time goes on, you will gain trust in me and submit on deeper levels. Hopefully, I will find my submissive that is eventually willing to submit 100% to me - mind, body, and spirit.
I am a paradox as a Dominant. I lead gently, but with a firm hand - I will show you the way, but I will make it known when you have strayed from the path I have led you down. As your dominant, I will learn everything about you to determine just how forceful I need to be with your discipline when you fail me. I will judge your strength as a woman to determine if I should take a firmer approach at times. I have seen that, with the right person, breaking them down (some even to the point of being broken in mind and spirit) will allow them to rise from their own ashes, stronger because of their deepened level of submission. This is a mutual partnership - everything I do is for your good. In return you submit yourself to me. I am also quick to reward continued good behavior when I feel that it is beneficial.
I apologize for the novel here, but I felt I should go ahead and tell you who I am. I will be messaging those that catch my interest. Reply if you feel that I will lead you well - I will.
On FL I am SadisticEmbrace.
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